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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    Like Now

    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    So I'm in 8th grade and basically in 6th grade this girl, (Lets call her Shelby) Shelby and (Lets call her Makayla) Shelby and Makayla were best friends. As well as in 7th grade...
    PastelOreos447 PastelOreos447 13-15, F Jan 2

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    I am turning 41 years old in 2 weeks and when I look back at my life I keeping asking myself the same question over and over. I do not know why I was born or brought into this...
    ShyGuyInFL ShyGuyInFL 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I don't know why but sometimes a fit of rage develops in me bursting to get out, and the bad part is that I feel like destroying the world but this feeling in me quickly dissapears...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like running because no one gets me, I'm still in the closet & came out to some friends. & my family treats me like bullshit for some reason... yess i have an iPhone, iPad...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    This is true I feel like the world is a agents me and every one hates me and that people don't want to know me
    thebigscottishguy thebigscottishguy 22-25, M Jan 9

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    not in such a bad way as most people on here would probably say... I can tell I think very differently than most people. I often have friends trying to pick my brain. I've never...
    bubbscoug bubbscoug 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Yesterday once again so much anger and rage grew inside me that I cannot explain felt like destroying everything in my path felt like moving into a cave !!
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I keep to myself a lot now. Sucks because I usually just end up crying at night
    uh2behonest uh2behonest 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I'm ready, I'm doing it . Im not looking back . Don't worry it won't be for long , hopefully god guides me through this.
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    pls read it i always tried to stay away from everything because nothing seen to be good for me... i don't hang round people or use social media much because i never felt good or...
    alwaysfeltlost alwaysfeltlost 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I'm new to the group of friends I have right now and I can't help but feel left out sometimes. They're all great people, but sometimes I feel like I'm intruding, or like I'm not...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    sometimes, I think to myself.. what is the point of even trying in the world any more if people just result in not liking me in the end. i'm a very nice person and i try to belong...
    tirwin6471 tirwin6471 16-17, F Jan 16

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    I feel like my life has no meaning and therefor I should not continue this dreadful path. I think that people have as much right to die as to live. Why should suicidal thoughts...
    nuttyduck nuttyduck 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    So here I am in this situation. I'm a bit all over the place right now. Like I feel like screaming and crying and laughing at the same time but hopefully this too shall pass. I try...
    Khaleesi18 Khaleesi18 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have had recurring dreams of the house/neighborhood that I grew up in since my parents have passed on, one in 2007, one in 2009. Both were due to strokes, ages 79 and 85. They...
    cswank61 cswank61 36-40, M Dec 27, 2014

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    It starts off with small things. Like, why is it that I don't like things that a lot of people seem to love? Then it slowly fades into things like, why do I see things in a way...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    For anybody who doesn't know the real me: I feel as if everybody does it. We all put an exterior out there that promotes our best features. Nobody wants to be that angry, annoying...
    findingfae findingfae 18-21, F a week ago

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    I work in the hospitality industry and I have started my carrier as as an Agent but after a five years of working in this industry I have moved from a hotel to other one for...
    Yassan Yassan 26-30, M Jan 5

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    Sometimes??? More like all the time!!! Lol
    ownfrnchseplaya ownfrnchseplaya 26-30, M Jan 10

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    I knew I was different. I feel like I have been living a lie for a long time now. My family told me when I was born my eye color was black and I mewed like a cat. No crying just...
    caydiabla caydiabla 18-21, F Jan 14

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    It feels like ****. The brighter side, though, is that it could've hurt more if he had felt the same, we'd been together, and then something bad and super dramatic happened...
    TiraVara TiraVara 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I've done a lot of horrible things and when I think about it, I feel like there won't be a bright future for me. I push people away from me and I'm not happy about that. People...
    amyduell06 amyduell06 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    You know, there has to be a reason behind all this low self esteem. Oh yeah, I was raised this way. Not just by my household but also by society and culture. I have a hard time...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    My ex told me things I had done. People Say he lies. He lied a lot. I was the one dumped so I'm the monster right? I don't know who's more afraid- him seeing me or me going on...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F Jan 4

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    Although I am a grown man I feel like a little girl inside sometimes. I see pretty little pink ballerina dresses and pretty little frilly girl dresses and get man because I can't...
    littleweewee123 littleweewee123 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    There's really nothing special about it. I mean I go out once in a while. I make plans with my friends. But everytime I look on Instagram or Facebook everyone looks like there...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I feel like I'm not good enough that no one will ever like me or love me for who I am and I just sometimes give up
    Pizogoon Pizogoon 18-21, M Jan 6

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    Sittning in my car. Just about to go work and feel like crying.....
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Hi I suffer from hard to deal with ocd, when I was diagnosed about 7 years ago I was really struggling and my binge drinking got even worst and I used alcohol as a means to deal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    I honestly feel like giving up and just letting my life go... I didn't think being an adult could be so stressful and then only being 19 and having to deal with the stuff I'm...
    Rose1224 Rose1224 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    Just woke up... And I feel like crying.. The memories are haunting me... Taunting me, showing me what I had and showing me that I'm now nothing....
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I feel like there is no one to turn to at times…
    Wolfheartcp Wolfheartcp 16-17, M Jan 6

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    I know that I am just an adopted child but why does she always needs to make me feel this way. I feel like I am never enough and I feel like I am the dumbest woman in the world...
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I feel our culture / society of obedience, authority, and dominance is terrible and it hurts me inside that it exists. There doesn’t seem to be what I define as love in the world...
    Love3149 Love3149 22-25, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I met him when I was 19. We got married when I was 20. We've been married a little over a year and already I can see my husband loving me less and less. I was born and raised in...
    marriedyoungandconfused marriedyoungandconfused 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    It feels like this is all my life will ever amount to. Just feeling sad for no reason, feeling completely lost and alone all the time... I wish I had my friend here right now, but...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Jan 6

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    The hidden secret of life I mean. I myself don’t know what I mean. I have a huge trusting problem. The problem is not that I don’t trust anyone but that I trust EVERYONE. I...
    avnn avnn 16-17, F 5 days ago

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