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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    I don't even think I am anymore.

    I'm just a hollow cast of the past. But it's not hollow, it's filled with pain and all the medications I have to take
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F Apr 9

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    Like Now

    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    Today I hosted a family dinner for 30 people... Our annual Easter gathering... As always, everyone raved about the wonderful day it was... The food was delicious and plentiful...
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    Still am; I suffer from PTSD, and I know it, yet I don't feel able to bring the topic up with my parents or doctor.
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    Comparing myself to other girls my age just proves my point that I look like a potato haha.
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    I've been told time and time again that a woman should be strong and not depend on a man by my mother. I am independent, for the most part. I know that my stories may make me seem...
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    Just because someone is open about something doesn't mean they are looking for attention. 'Attention seeking' is the word I hear a lot from this generation, it annoys me so much...
    blueworldsapart blueworldsapart 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 2

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    -- Glimpse -- a very brief, passing look, sight, or view. a momentary or slight appearance. a vague idea; inkling. I get this during the day. Maybe just after having woken up in...
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    Everyday I feel like I am dead. I don't know how long I've felt this way. All I know is the person I was or could have been seems to have died a long time ago. I carry this...
    Noology19 Noology19 26-30 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I just feel unloved in my current relationship. I feel like I'm giving out more effort than he does. I don't know, we've been together for almost 2 months now and I...
    Liebeeiram Liebeeiram 22-25, F Apr 18

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    Sometimes I feel like I was born to pick people up, to make them happy, and show them how to appreciate life. To only be ****** over in the end when they don't need me and honestly...
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    It's a weird thing that I have... I used to be very social, and still am to a certain extent. I associate with people at school and such, but these days I never feel like talking...
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    Sometimes I just feel like what's the since in trying anymore.I give and I give and I give.All I have to show for it is feeling like a failure.I don't know where I fit in this...
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    Today just doing things with friends made me feel this way. I feel really sad right now. I feel like no one really knows me or even understands me. I feel like no one loves me or...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Ive always felt strongly connected to wolves and there's a strange...magical feeling I get when I'm in the woods. I've tried shifting to a wolf form in the past but it hasn't...
    EllieLoveless EllieLoveless 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I don't know how to explain it but sometimes for as long as I can remember get these feelings like the life I'm living isn't mine, I go through a period where I don't feel like my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 13

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    Ok, first off all, I'm not religious, mentally ill or have any physiological problems. I DO however feel like... Well, I got invisible wings. It's located at the tip of my...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 17

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    Im tired of everything. It seems like no one understands me. I got friends but i still feel lonely most of the time. Theyre only good for hang out and stuff, but idk, i feel like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18

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    I do sometimes feel alone because of my experiences with people, I always am alone at certain times but I try and push through it and do something to take my mind off it.
    Just1n12345 Just1n12345 18-21, M Apr 20

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    I hate taking pills and I don't remember the last time I took one. Always told myself I would only take it if im in a great deal of physical pain. This pill is not for any physical...
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    Sometimes I look at my messy house & just get overwhelmed. I feel like it's an outward reflection of my inward messiness. :( Cleaning just usually isn't my priority. Finding peace...
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    Sometimes I feel like I just bother honestly. Idk...
    bustos94 bustos94 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I feel like no one hears me, sees me or they just don't want to
    illgetoveriteventually illgetoveriteventually 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I always feel like the fifth wheel when it comes to my friends
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    I feel like so not here especially amongst ppl and alone
    givelove333 givelove333 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 4

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