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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    I don't even think I am anymore.

    I'm just a hollow cast of the past. But it's not hollow, it's filled with pain and all the medications I have to take
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F Apr 9

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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