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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Like Now

    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    Sometimes it feels like no one cares, my friends don't and whenever they ask I can't tell them because I don't feel comfortable talking to them so that's GREAT.
    Tabithaaa Tabithaaa 16-17, F Feb 18

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    Who else is tired of the women/girls in this society that revolve their life around attention, money, and sex appeal? I think women need to know the real meaning of class....women...
    deadheadhippy deadheadhippy 18-21, F Feb 21

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    I love myself, and my way of thinking. I feel like everything I do is correct, and I don't do anything before I think in it enough time. Although I guess these thoughts don't...
    AlThukairM AlThukairM 16-17, M Feb 20

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    My Journey in life has allowed me to really see people for who they are how hurtful people are and always will be yes I see you looking at me like I am some side show something...
    Vapes Vapes 31-35 3 Responses Feb 9

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    My first relationship was 4 years ago, he was only infatuated with me an blind to the truth, all he would talk about is my amazing 'body' which was annoying, he was unattractive in...
    Tabithaaa Tabithaaa 16-17, F Feb 18

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    There was a time when I just wanted to be with you but you tried your best to pull yourself away. I understood. I embraced your choice...I created my own prison. From a distance...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Feb 24

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    I really do not understand this duality of human society. Men, throughout history, have always acted compulsorily in search of conquests, valuing possessions, money, industrial...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 15 hrs ago

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    I mean, it is not because of rage or impulse of any kind. I stead it is the feeling of 'power'. If I can destroy the world, aren't I the most powerful and perhaps superior...
    littleowlet littleowlet 13-15, F Feb 15

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    There's nothing I could ever say, and nothing I could do to let you know just how much & what I feel in my heart for you. Nothing is enough yet we are world’s apart. No words...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 1 day ago

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    I feel like a trapped animal. I hate the city. It is like an artificial desert. They take away the water and the trees and grasses and shrubs and replace it with something that has...
    autismalanimal autismalanimal 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I really feel like getting drunk. Although I learned my lesson from getting drunk too much. But I really feel like getting drunk tonight. I just want to forget everything not for...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 42 mins ago

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    I don't feel like i belong. I don't even feel i belong in my own skin. I try to be like everyone else, wearing whats cool, changing my personality, trying to fit in because i don't...
    TheBrokenSouls TheBrokenSouls 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 16

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    The music washes over me a hard core melody Pounding, racing, out of control I want to escape these feelings that fall on me The rhythm of the instruments falling together...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I feel different sometimes like I'm not the real me. The real me loves life and going out and helping people. The real me loves running, boxing and lifting weights.the real me is...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    So just wanna share something's that I have been thinking about lately. At this point of my life, what I have figured out is that its not as difficult as I thought its gonna be to...
    apersonlikeme apersonlikeme 18-21, M Feb 15

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    Perhaps this is the prefect title. I truly do feel like a bad person. The fact that my past is now my present.. Going nowhere fast. Stuck at a crossroad not knowing which way to...
    Beanbella Beanbella 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Sometimes I just feel stupid and idiotic because of my disorders that I'm not proud of... I feel like some freak :'( I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Borderline...
    SkylerSkies SkylerSkies 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 21

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    I feel lonely sometimes, and it feels like a desperate need for someone to be with you. I am not really that lonely for example my mom, dad, and sibling. But in other cases with...
    MichaelEgitto MichaelEgitto 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 23

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    This is one of the main reasons I talk to myself and enjoy my solitude. My parents, siblings, "friends," coworkers etc never listen to what I have to say. I sometimes have to...
    theloveofmylife2 theloveofmylife2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    I honestly don't know how to feel about myself at all anymore. I've been dating this guy for 7 months Nd I just don't feel good enough for him at this point. I feel like I can't...
    DyingLightx DyingLightx 16-17, F 22 hrs ago

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    I don't know if anyone else can relate to this. I find I can allow myself to care about someome in the moment if I want to but I can just as easily switch that off and hurt them in...
    taliaroger taliaroger 18-21, F Feb 21

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    When i didn't have a Dom/Master/Mentor i was missing a major part of myself. i don't deny that i was desperate and made some bad choices. it was because i needed my Dom and i'd yet...
    shimmeringrose shimmeringrose 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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    "Life is like a long rehearsal for a play that will never begin"-quote from the movie Amelie. It's a sad feeling when we do so much and anticipate that something great will happen...
    Lonelyastronaut Lonelyastronaut 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    I hate feeling the way I do. I can't stop feeling like I don't matter. it's cutting into my efficiency at school and I can't focus. I hate this. I hate everything about myself at...
    Kairics Kairics 13-15, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I can't describe it. it just happens sometimes out of nowhere when I'm home or out or anywhere really. it happens when I over thinking about something. seeing people. hearing...
    Zineq Zineq 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    People I have known when they were single and then got a girlfriend/boyfriend they change. They stop wanting to talk to me or hang out with me. They ignore me and act like I'm not...
    dragonturtle dragonturtle 22-25, M Feb 12

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    I annoy people when I correct them. I know that much ,but I have this weird self esteem issue where I just feel like I'm annoying everyone constantly. They say it's not true ,but I...
    onecutebubbles0729 onecutebubbles0729 22-25, F Feb 15

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    I feel like I have no one to talk to x if anyone feels like it too I'm here x even though i have no one you guys have me x
    chlosblogx chlosblogx 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like a wolf.....i long to run and smell the fresh scent of nature...I hate humans sometimes because the way they treat the earth and year down nature to build stuff....I am...
    winterwolfNT winterwolfNT 13-15, F Feb 8

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    Today I feel like crying. Gonna do my best to stay positive and not. Nine years ago today I was diagnosed with stage II breast cancer.
    jgeorge68 jgeorge68 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Hoping to find friends who I can talk and vent to about issues I've been having. I'm not close with my family and the friends I do have are mostly just shallow stuck up types, I...
    Arlingtonbridge Arlingtonbridge 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    when I try and try and things don't be seeming to work out or go my way, I feel like quitting and giving up. but then I always think about my kids. I wouldn't want them to be a...
    jenniebaez1992 jenniebaez1992 22-25, F Feb 18

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    for him... Sometimes I feel like he deserves better.
    sadgurl2015 sadgurl2015 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    When I get stressed, I shut down. This semester has been rough, all of the classes have been difficult and unejoyable and I'm trying to help my mom design her restaurant. If I don...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F Feb 23

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