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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    Just a few months ago I woke up one morning crying for no reason. Sometimes you have to let it out; even if you don"t know what your letting out. :)
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    I don't want to die or even commit suicide... Just disappear, run away or be alone for a long time... I hate my life and family and try get whatever they want and I'm always the...
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    This society is so ****** up. We aren’t recognized by who we are, but by what we have or how much we produce. This shouldn’t be this way, we cannot measure the value of a life...
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    feel like a loser sometimes
    endedmylife endedmylife 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I have so ******* done right now. You give life a second chance, have a positive outlook, and feel like trying. You actually try your hardest to do something and actually feel hope...
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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 14

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
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