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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Like Now

    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    I feel like I was meant for something greater than just living. I don't know how to put it, I guess I just feel like I don't belong.
    michael9666 michael9666 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I feel like that, like I don't belong here. There's no one I relate to, or understands me or have the same interest in things as me. But I suck it up. And push on, and Pray I'll...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I really do feel like I should crawl into a hole by myself and just watch The Cosby Show until I die.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    I used to be to tolerant of everyone and I feel I'm just so intolerant of anyone I sometimes forget how good people can feel. It's like I need constant attention or I feel rejected...
    dancerinadaydream dancerinadaydream 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I deleting and scared sometimes. I have a phobia for needles and doctors, but I could really really use a firm no nonsense "you're going but I promise to comfort you if you cry...
    cheekyhannah cheekyhannah 31-35, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    When you are ignored!!!!!!!!!!
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F Sep 2

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    If Society knew my dating life... Mother~Hes too old for you! Father~He better treat you good! Guys my age~Eww, go away you piece of trash. Girls my age~OMG go find your sugar...
    InnerEgo InnerEgo 13-15, F Sep 6

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    Hi. My I like to go by Snow. Well I'll keep the story shorter than what it truly is. Well I currently do no live with my mother, she lives in another town nearby with my grandma...
    SnowKittyRosa SnowKittyRosa 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    For the past two weeks, I don’t think I’ve dreamed once-or if I have, I don’t remember it. That probably doesn’t seem all that significant… Except for me. It’s made...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    So here I am. Conversing with strangers on the internet in search for a reason not to blow my brains out. In retrospect, I'm not surprised. I can see the whole sordid chain of...
    Stillnothing Stillnothing 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    Let me first start off by saying I am a natural worrier. By this, I mean my life wouldn't feel right or I would be bored if I didn't worry. Granted, it takes its' toll on me but I...
    Cherrybean84 Cherrybean84 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I have a few different feelings that are similar and I can't stand feeling the way I do about it. First, my real family; I miss them all so much but especially my sister and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 31

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    Sometime I think I should just give up on the possibility of me and him. I met him a month or more ago. What started out as something that made me so hopeful has turned into more...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I don't just feel like no one understands me, I know that no one understands me. It's so hard being in this family, in this school, in this world. My family invalidates my feelings...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 2 days ago

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    There you go, I feel like a failure sometimes no matter how hard I try not to quit. My whole life I feel like I been going in circles. Like no matter what I do to try to succeed in...
    MrKool82 MrKool82 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    People should not talk about things that one or more (especially one) of you don't get involved in cause it would make them feel like being an outsider. An that's bad. At least...
    LoneRan9er LoneRan9er 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    okay, im thirteen and in about 5th to 7th grade ive had really bad pimples and right now, their gone but i have black spots. my friends say they make me look cute but i cant help...
    swavvy123 swavvy123 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    Back in 2012 I tried to kill myself and I took a pretty big overdose on some pills. Since then...life hasn't really been the same. I know I'm probably delusional for thinking this...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F Sep 5

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    Ahead: Stupid rant My freshman year of high school, I met one girl and pretty much stuck to her side until I made my own friends, which were basically everyone she was friends...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have two rather close friends and sometimes I feel like when I talk to them about how I feel ..they don't understand or want to for that matter especially my one friend in...
    lostinfire lostinfire 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    A few months ago my brother was arrested and is now on bail till the 8th December (1 day before his birthday). I am 14 years old and I feel like my family is falling apart as there...
    MimiChim MimiChim 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I am so f**king sick of feeling broken and lost. I shouldn't have to hate myself because others treated me like crap. I am not some injured lamb who needs to be nursed back to...
    LunaKye LunaKye 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Sweet Dreams? Sarahbella’s story about her bad dreams (http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Feel-Like-My-Dreams-Are-Telling-Me-Something/4781103#reply_5943032) got me...
    bethturner bethturner 26-30, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I write my feelings on here day after day and sometimes, I do miss a few days because of my hectic schedule but that doesn't stop my thoughts of you.Ever since we said goodbye and...
    Godsmack23 Godsmack23 31-35, M 13 hrs ago

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    I sometimes think that life is just a dream. Seriously. I feel like I could be just another spot of nothing in the universe, if it even exists. And those thoughts turn into more...
    mournwiththemoonandthestars mournwiththemoonandthestars 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I sometimes hold my breathe when I feel like I'm about to explode and let go once I feel the heavy feeling in my heart sides.
    killingallparamedics killingallparamedics 16-17, F Aug 20

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    Sometimes i feel like, no matter how many friends i have, a part of me always feels alone
    Lilys3 Lilys3 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I know they don't. Yet sometimes, I get this anxious feeling of being judged and looked down on. At first it was at school, but now it's in my own home too. I'm not that insecure...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Today I am feeling like this for sure. It seems like no one wants to be around me. When I open my mouth, usually something stupid comes out, and then I get contradicted or...
    goldenbeginning goldenbeginning 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Being so far from home is so difficult, especially around holidays/birthdays.. I miss them so much everyday. I feel like people here don't understand me most of the time, and I...
    JaidIsAWildflower JaidIsAWildflower 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I am 26 years old and I still have never had a girlfriend. Everybody I know is seeing someone even my closest of friends. Now I feel all alone hiding the pain with jokes and...
    WeirdJoe WeirdJoe 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am already 22 and still in college. Actually, I am now a sophomore however, 5 years ago, I was also a sophomore in college and up to now, I still haven't graduated. So what...
    trappedinmy trappedinmy 18-21, F 20 hrs ago

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    If I didn't have any children of my own, I would just drop everything and just leave. Leave my family, friends and just never look back. I'm in a bad place right now and it seems...
    NightMagic367 NightMagic367 36-40, F 5 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    My issues began long before I was even born. Digging up my history is getting me nowhere but I can not move on because I'm always so incredibly fearful of consequences. Selling...
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I don't feel like it, i know it. But they know me an have to deal with it so haha i know you love me so suck it up and be a goofball!
    Dsrutherford Dsrutherford 16-17, M Aug 23

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    i am so weird sometimes. i get so lonely but instead of seeking out companionship, what do i do? i push everyone away. i go hide. i drowned out the world with my music cranked up...
    SadisticBitch SadisticBitch 31-35, F Aug 23

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    Sometimes I feel like no one listens to anything I say...surrounded by humans....but I go unnoticed.... Sigh
    Albrma061011 Albrma061011 26-30, F Aug 25

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    All the times i feel like this :(
    EBestest EBestest 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 26

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    When I'm caught in a net and I haven't a clue All I've got to do is climb the ladder to you Climb the Ladder When there are ghosts in my coat and everything is askew All I've got...
    tarkovsky tarkovsky 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I only feel like this when Blake is gone for a trip around the world :(
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 16-17, F 2 days ago