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I Sometimes I Feel Like I Am Not Alive

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    What Is Being Alive?

    What is being alive even like anymore? It gets old, not feeling alive or feeling like I can be real. What's even the real me? I mean...how fake have I become recently? Is the pain being masked day by day starting to define who I am now? I wonder if that's how everyone works...
    7blondemoments 7blondemoments 18-21, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Last Night

    I surely did feel dead last night. I thought I was dyING! Panic attack & crying. After being hurt for so much, for so long, you really do feel numb, eventually.
    otad12 otad12 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Dead

    makes me think of the song "beauty from pain" by superchic... "lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. then the darkness surrounds me. i know I'm alive but i feel like i've died."
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F May 29, 2009

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    Numb

    I don't know if feeling numb and feeling as though you aren't alive are the same thing but I'm sharing my story anyways.  This whole week, keeping in mind its only just the end of Wednesday, I've felt like a robot.  Get up at 7, go pick my girls up (I babysit, I ...
    thatonegirl18 thatonegirl18 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    Like Now

    My body is actually numb. The Neurontin does that. Bu tlately it's been hard to get out of bed. I don't see much in my future. I have smeone I like alot and plan to visit in June, and that will be like a bright star in my dark night. Right now, depression has me in its grip. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Am I Still Here?

    Sometimes I feel like I am not alive, as if I am no longer a resident of my own body.  I'm forced to ask myself, "Am I still here?  Is there any part of me that is still alive inside?"  I ask myself, but I receive no answer.  Even I am not sure if I truly...
    oneandlonely12 oneandlonely12 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21, 2010

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    I'm Not Alive

    I'm not alive,The past year,Or so,That's how I felt,now,All that's gone,I'm livin' again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 19, 2012

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    Numb, Dead, Empty, Not Alive

    Sometimes things don't hurt that should. I can touch a hot pan or cold ice or someone does or says something that should hurt me, but I don't notice or care.
    KisKat KisKat 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    If Im nice to people, they dont like me. Im if nasty to people, they dont like me. Its always me putting in the effort to talk to people. No-one talks to me unless I start the...
    Stomparound Stomparound 13-15, F 14 Responses Jul 31

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    Sometimes I do and I don't mean to, sometimes people say really irrational things and I guess its not irrational to them so its really all just how a person perceives things but...
    christfukk christfukk 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    Sometimes I feel as useless as a white crayon
    AintGotNoSpoons AintGotNoSpoons 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    That's Okay. Why do I want to be a part of a homogenised lump that can not think or feel as individuals? I forgive those who have been hurt or cajoled into living acceptably. I am...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 1 Response Jul 26

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    I know he/they all have talked to me online before about my 'issues' but it seems to go nowhere. I just need to find more things to do otherwise I'm an empty shell.
    Yleng Yleng 26-30, F Jul 20

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    I'm going to keep this short and sweet. my best friend and i have been best friends ever since 2nd grade. I love her too death and nothing will ever change that but now we both...
    amarie99 amarie99 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Sometimes I don't feel like I'm alive. Like it's a dream. I'll be driving my car and it's like I catch up with my body and go "Oh, yeah. I'm going to the store" in my head. I'll...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I have been feeling apathetic towards anyone I love lately. I feel an emotional detachment and I can't get myself to care as much as I used to for others. Especially my boyfriend...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    I get depressed a lot, and I've learned to just accept the fact that I'm going to be depressed. It still takes it's toll on me, though, and it can get quite painful. It started as...
    Tsalokath Tsalokath 18-21, F Jul 26

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    It amazes me the different people in your life.... There are those you can always turn to... Those that are there for you... Those that make you smile like you've never smiled...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    there are no words to describe this lack of feeling. its just there. & im struggling to find ways to know that im alive. i've been cut-free for almost a whole year now, and i dont...
    KATarinatillinghast KATarinatillinghast 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    This is the first time I am sharing my story. Exactly as I said before, I feel like I live in Hell. Hell on Earth, that is. Now, let me tell you why. First of all, I have a large...
    Mymin Mymin 13-15, F Jul 27

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    But God always save me. I got so sick before i almost died. Pain. Death i know what it feels like. Been to a lot of accidents but jst almost seems like someone is trying to save me...
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I never thought I would turn out to be like this when I was younger. Incompetent, inadequate, lost soul. I'm not anywhere close to the life stage points I should be. I feel like I...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 4

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    Today I was called mean, rude, stupid and a bully! I don't know why, and I try to be a good person to everyone but I feel like no one understands me. And this wasn't the first time...
    Katie2135 Katie2135 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like I've been through so much and go through so much each day. Sometimes it's so much I do not bother sharing or talking about because - for me talking has never solved any...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F Jul 20

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    All my life things have been weird for me. I've always been in-tuned with the paranormal world; e.i., I have had bizarre dreams, I seen shadow people, I have been touched by things...
    Celticrose1991 Celticrose1991 22-25 1 Response Jul 25

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    Hello everyone! This is my first post! (Woohoo) Okay, So hi, I'm Kat. I'm 24... 25 on MONDAY 8/11!!! *Suddenly gets writer's block* -_- Always happens. Meh. I live in FL. I'm a...
    LovelyCalico LovelyCalico 22-25, F Aug 7

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    Sometimes I do...... There will be times I'm playing around with Ana and she suddenly gets all upset by it and begins to cry. I mean I never push it too far or make it annoying...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 4 Responses Jul 25

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    Everyone tomorrow is Monday. Did you enjoy your weekend? :):) sometimes we find happiness in this life an sometimes we are in a constant battle with this world. Everyone if anyone...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F Aug 10

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    I feel like this is not a bad thing but more of a normal thing. Everyone feels lonely and left out sometimes.
    Moelyn95 Moelyn95 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like no one understands me. But for some reason, I feel like ghosts and spirits understand me. I feel like I can talk to and trust ghosts and spirits. I feel like I can't...
    Ambria101 Ambria101 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I've had the same feeling since I was a little girl. I'm 16 now but mine feels more..supernatural if that makes sense. I can recognize the pattern in which things happen and I can...
    DiamondK15 DiamondK15 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I really don't. I feel like I suck at life. Sometimes I just really want to go and get really high again.
    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M Jul 30

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    I finally feel like life is going the right direction, and slam, hit in the head by a curve ball. I wasn't wearing a helmet. So I'm picking myself up, dusting myself off and...
    LoveEntangled LoveEntangled 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Increasingly I am feeling like I was born with a mask on my face... I mean, here I am, this 39 year old lady with a wealth of experience, I speak several languages, am well...
    Hhaawke Hhaawke 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    Stuck in school feeling sick and tired . Feel Like dropping out and just leave school due to the immense pressure I faced buthave to press on due to social norms. #this is life...
    asianahyang96 asianahyang96 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    Everybody is so so much closer than me...when my friends and I meet new people they always relate to them better and they always hangout with them, not me. The people who I thought...
    Mikesmithg1 Mikesmithg1 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    Everywhere I am I don't belong home nope school nope sleepovers nope where DO I belong? Idk sometimes I feel like hell is my place.i always fake smiles u may never know but my...
    Shinecarberry Shinecarberry 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 26

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    I used to be very ambitious, I wanted a successful career and was willing to do my best to achieve my goals. But now that I am at one of the best universities in my country, I've...
    emmacla emmacla 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I feel like no one cares about me, i feel like I'm being used. I help others because I love to do it, I love to help friends but sometimes all I want in return is to know you care...
    usarmyrangers usarmyrangers 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    When you're surrounded by all these people, it can be lonelier than when you're by yourself. You can be in a huge crowd, but if you don't feel like you can trust anyone or talk to...
    BeatTheBest BeatTheBest 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I sometimes think that life is just a dream. Seriously. I feel like I could be just another spot of nothing in the universe, if it even exists. And those thoughts turn into more...
    mournwiththemoonandthestars mournwiththemoonandthestars 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    I just had a serious heart to heart with my brother. Even though my brother is autistic sometimes I think he milks the diagnosis to get out of being and adult. Some times he is...
    kristy31415 kristy31415 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Seriously, what is the point of anything? I can't seem to find any direction in my life, and I don't really feel like it matters. Everything's gonna be gone one day anyway. :/
    dinorap1 dinorap1 13-15, F Jul 23

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    I really feel like my friends don't really need me sometimes. They just need someone to talk to about there problems to me other than that they don't really talk to me.
    justinbartolome justinbartolome 13-15, M Jul 29

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    Anyone else feel like a monster wen they're upset or angry doing things hey thought they would never do?
    oneperson93 oneperson93 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    This is my I don't feel like talking face. I try to become unapproachable but seems like people talk to me more then I'm unintentionally ruder to the person than I intended to be...
    MrsGigalowJr MrsGigalowJr 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    There are days when I feel like I'm so ugly and everyone will die. |:
    metaphornographic metaphornographic 18-21, F Aug 11

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    You know sometimes i feel like i have hyper active senses...and i block them off. But when ever it gets really late, like 3 am for instance, i cannot block it, and suddenly...
    jasmineisb0red jasmineisb0red 13-15, F 4 days ago