I'm sitting here alone.
Unable to trust anyone fully.
I haven't been hugged in 6 months.
I haven't felt loved my entire life.
I bury it deep.
I want to destroy, I'm so angry.
I am vulnerable inside
I feel like I am going to explode
I need to be loved
I need to feel loved
but when my breasts are super sore I just want to be held forever xD lol >.<
Anywho, I assume that when someone holds you and you know there is another human being there with you, breathing, their heart beating, damn, that must be like the greatest thing ever(:
I need to just crash into someone because I'm out of fuel. I need strong arms around me. I want to nestle into the crook of his neck and just linger there, breathing his cologne. I need my back to be rubbed and my head to be gently kissed. *sigh*
So...my family didn't hold me like families are supposed to. When I was sad, I didn't go to my parents or my sister. I relied on my friends. Only one of them has really been able to handle it. It's been a rough ride, but I think that story is for another...