I Sometimes Need to Retreat Into a Shell

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    To Remind Myself

     its easy to get lost in superficiality and the rules of society. to accept things without question, instead of questioning them instead of just accepting. i step back everyday to remind myself of what i believe in and why. to remind myself of why I'm here and what I'm...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 19, 2009

    Forgotten, But Not Gone.

    I've spent nearly half of my life struggling with depression. When I first really learned to "retreat into my shell" I felt I had found perhaps the most safe, comforting, wonderful escape from the active threats in my life. Sometimes the elements are too much to handle...
    SaintThursday SaintThursday
    26-30
    Dec 8, 2009

    Shell I

    A shell is a nice place to be, but I do not want to live there.A shell, is a warm place, a quiet place, a safe place and a place that requires no conversation or explanation. It can be dark, a place where you won't be disturbed by anything or anyone. A sort of "cocoon" that...
    GILEY GILEY
    56-60, T
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2010

    Tonight I Will Do Just That.

    Someone whom I have always loved dearly, looked up to, shared my heart and soul with has left me feeling totally numb. I feel as if I do not know this person anymore. I poured my heart out to you, was nothing but respectful and what I got in return was for the most part absolute...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 1, 2010

    Yeah...

    I'm sorry if some of you guys think I've been a complete jerk lately if I haven't responded to you, but every so often, I just need a time out =| I have to have that alone time to... yolk? yolk back into my usual self, and get nice and comfy again, so I can come back to you 100...
    Infinite9 Infinite9
    70+, F
    Sep 15, 2012

    That Is The Way I Am, Too

     Somedays , just like the song "I don't want the world to see me ,Cause I don't think that they'd understand "So I retreat into my shell until I feel ready to face the world again.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2010

    It Was Pointed Out To Me Today...that I Am Doing It Again.

         I thought I was getting better at letting people in. But my dearest bro just pointed it out to me...and lately I have been holding the whole damn world at bay. And now that I think about it...yes I have. And I have no excuse for it. I have...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 29, 2009

    It's called a retreat

    for a reason. It's where I heal, learn, create and lice peacefully. ???
    paratusomnia paratusomnia
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 31, 2015

    Dancing By Myself

    I need to be alone sometimes!! It's a requirement for my survival.  I am a an introvert and sometimes I just need to retreat into myself to sort my world out and gather my focus.  It's like some internal rest and relaxation! I have always been a bit of a lone wolf and...
    Psychoseven Psychoseven
    36-40, F
    May 31, 2010

    Unfortunatly

    It happens more and more.... Sad I know, but it is the opposite effecting the balance.... You can only have so much high in your life before a low happens.....
    mtvlm mtvlm
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Nov 19, 2009

    Alot

    I was so overwhelmed last night I felt like I was going to have a total breakdown. EP is my only contact with the world and others so I cant stay away long but I was a bit catatonic for sure. It's not easy hearing someone preparing to die and trying to talk them out of it. I can...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2009

    I Need To Fix Me.

    In my family everyone depends upon me. I am the protector, problem solver, source of funds, the comforter, the healer, the fixer of things. For many years I have played Superman. I am never too tired, sick or busy to not help out. But I am a fraud. I am not invinvible. I hurt, am...
    tomt88101 tomt88101
    56-60, M
    Nov 18, 2009

    ...

    ...today has been one of those days.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Nov 19, 2009

    To Retreat Into Myself.

    Wow...that is like my poem.   To retreat into a shell of my making...one that is numb from liquor....weak from emotional exhaustion....faint from blood loss. That is my shell....I sometimes....know nothing else. I love the people who help me..and catch me when I fall..but...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    8 Responses Sep 21, 2009

    There Are Times When I Run....

    and I know it isn't the "grown up" thing to do. I also has cost me certain things in my life being this way :-( As with many who may read this story, I have an excuse and a reason for it. I think we all have excuses to make what we do make sense no matter if it is right or wrong...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 31, 2010

    The Way I Am

    When I have sad, insecure moments I shut down for a day or so.  I feel unable to communicate with anyone and prefer just to work things out in my own head.  I do sometimes confide in a friend.  My best girlfriend who lives and works near me often tells me off for...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    10 Responses Jan 9, 2010

    Bye, see you when I am done hibernating.

    Knock on my shell and I may respond.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Oct 30, 2015

    My Shell Is Where I Go To Be At Peace

    Im always able to retreat within myself, shut out all the noise, worry, pain, responsibility, burdens, knowledge of things I wish at times were not real, and find a peaceful place, envisioning a reflecting pond, where I ponder and the only thing there is peace, beauty, love and...
    littlepurrr littlepurrr
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Dec 5, 2009

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