I Sometimes Push Away the People That Mean the Most to Me

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    Yes I did it again! Pushed away a amazing person

    that I met on here I shared more with him then any other person. At the time he live out if my state he moved back (20) minutes away from me. We continued to chat,text and calls. I went and met him and hung out for a while. I knew I could fall for him but thought I needed to...
    hazeleyes71 hazeleyes71
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jun 6, 2015

    I don't do it on purpose

    or intentionally but sometimes to stop myself from getting hurt I tend to push people away. With everything I've gone through its those experiences that have made me feel like I need to push people away.
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 24

    All through out last week I just didn't want to

    talk. I kept thinking that when I did, people didn't want to hear me. And when I did, I sometimes got these slow responses, or even no response at all. I kept feeling like I was doing something wrong so I didn't want to talk. I still feel like that, even when I'm surrounded by...
    itswvhatevver itswvhatevver
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 31

    I do that most of the time

    and not sometimes. It is a way of building a wall that make all of them can't hurt me or that is what i think.
    joemane36 joemane36
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 18

    Why Am I Hurtful to the Person Who Loves and Wants to Help Me

    I live in a homemade family.  When I was sick my bio-family couldn't deal and we have not spoken in years.  I have been with my homemade family going on 4 years.  They were there everystep of the way though my stuggles and still are here today.  I onsider them...
    mylifeisshit mylifeisshit
    31-35, F
    Jul 26, 2009

    Decided to try be a nicer person

    for 2015... it didn't last long. In fact by January 2nd I had managed to push away one of the people who meant the most to me. I know myself that I can be rather mean to people and its just something people learn to deal with if they decide to become friends with me but this...
    RachiiM RachiiM
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2015

    I do this mainly on days

    where fatigue is very bad. Sometimes I think I do it because I think I can do it all on my own, that accepting help is weakness. I'm afraid of losing those I love, but for some reason I still sometimes push them away.. This is something that I will have to reflect on and improve...
    Kschlege Kschlege
    22-25, F
    Mar 18

    I do this but I don't know why.

    Not always because Im afraid of getting hurt. It's more like an urge, like a must. I feel like destroying everything and starting all over again. I need to make a thousand friends to avoid loneliness. But after I finally make friends...I just want to be alone, to withdraw.
    roxyy22 roxyy22
    18-21, F
    Feb 27

    I don't do it intentionally

    but I tend to push people away when I'm hurting on troubled
    Cupcakestoy Cupcakestoy
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 28


    It's common for me... way too easy. I can hide from anything. People, bills, people LOL yeah problems are easy to hide from until they become so big they land on my lap! And the more I screw up the more I hide and push people away from me. It's just easier sometimes to push them...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2009

    We were sitting outside under a flower roof.

    Candles burning and drinking Moet from crystal. The conversation was light and breezy, unusual territory for the two of us. An overplayed Lumineers song was playing in the background. He grabbed my hand and started singing along. Playfully I chimed in with the chorus. Glad that...
    roseblade roseblade
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    I use to think that it was

    because they were only ones worth getting mad at. it made crazy sense at the time. but i have been the loser in that exchange. Recently(6 months ago) i nuked a relationship that was fading, and instead of being strong and slowly building it back up. i nuked it. thats the first...
    jackfrost09 jackfrost09
    46-50, M
    Apr 5

    I absolutely do not mean to though.

    Through my life the people that meant the most to me and have told me they cared all eventually left. And it was always without warning. So when I make a new friend and they start meaning alot to me I question them unintentionally. I ask if they care, If I annoy them, If...
    Raptax231 Raptax231
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    There are days where I feel

    so unworthy and troubled that I feel the need to push people who meant the most away from me... This behaviour is entirely stupid and I'm sorry to all those you got hurt because of it.
    ThePoeticPrince ThePoeticPrince
    16-17, M
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015

    I am really good at doing that.

    I have a wall up I dont like to let people over it. Once we get close, that wall comes up and I wont let you in any further. Im just so afraid of getting hurt by someone. I have a guarded heart.
    VirgoBeauty VirgoBeauty
    22-25, F
    Nov 18, 2015

    Alright, so this one goes

    for my nerd. Aka Leahlovee. Welp.. We met on EP, we bonded. She's a smart kid I swear cx She has this personality that makes you want to get to know her more. She's a nerd. Obsessed with Apple and science and well, with being the best. She'd always try to improve in all aspects...
    MfPunkturtlez MfPunkturtlez
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 23

    There are reasons why I do this.

    .. Just can't put them to words right now.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 24

    And then there are those

    who aren't smart enough to take the hint.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    Nov 25, 2015

    My Fight With Depression

    I am 22 years old in three days. In this amount of time, I can recollect trying to kill myself at least three seperate times. I don"t remember how old I was the first time, but I was definately under 10 and tried to was going to try and stab myself in the chest with a swiss army...
    manynamesonesoul manynamesonesoul
    22-25, M
    Oct 16, 2010

    I Would Hate Me If I Were You

    I wish I could identify the "why" when it comes to me pushing away those I love the most; then I could try to stop. My family has always suffered the brunt of my mood swings, and that's probably because I believed they'd never leave. Well it's been a year since I spoke...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2008

    I need to be careful about that

    or I risk having that one person I really care about thinking I really mean it.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    Nov 21, 2015

    I Really Cant Help It...

    At the moment i am keeping everyone at arms length because i feel like a person with no feelings at all so nothing is really bothering me i cant show my girlfriend the affection she wants and when i do its always the wrong time,my family i love and care about but due to me drug...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker
    26-30, F
    Mar 8, 2010

    Lately I've been in a really really dark place.

    There have been very few good days. I don't really have many people that I talk to, or even many people that care. I have one friend though who really cares about me. It's unrelenting. Sometimes I wish she didn't care so much. Just so I wouldn't have a reason to stay. On...
    fhn0512 fhn0512
    18-21, F
    Nov 19, 2015

    Over the last two years I have pushed away two

    of my closest friends. One of which I've been in love with since Junior year of High school and the other who I claimed as a sister. I have tried to rekindle the friendship even though it's obvious that I've missed out on so much. Still it's reassuring to a point that they both...
    Nyqueal Nyqueal
    22-25, F
    Nov 17, 2015
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