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I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    I'm so drunk right now.

    .. thinking about being married and wanting a divorce desperately, yet not wanting to hurt my husband. thinking about where life would be if I had not taken the path I did. if I would be happier then. sometimes I need that drink. it keeps me from falling apart. maybe I should...
    kelly65876 kelly65876 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I like to say I am "fine".

    ...you know, F I N E? F'ed up... Insecure... Neurotic... Emotional... Yep, I'm just fine! Peachy, even! ;-p
    Moonchildshadow Moonchildshadow 31-35, F Jan 19, 2014

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    Especially when speaking to my husband

    because he cannot handle how I really feel about something or conflict. So I pretend to be fine often.
    melhgriff melhgriff 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    nickigirl525 nickigirl525 13-15, F Nov 19, 2014

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    Does Anyone Care

    Does anyone care? Does anyone honestly care? Judging by every move someone makes when they just want a friend. A sin made from the devil when they would like to produce a smile apon their face. To know you give a damn. Does anyone give a damn.. Anyone :/
    BlackWidowMassacre BlackWidowMassacre 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    test of faith. I don't

    why of all He had chosen me among all people? I don't have luck with work, no luck with love life, and now I have to undergo with surgery. the point there is that my money isn't enough to sustain it. I am not afraid but I feel bad a bit, I don't want my mom to get worry. may He...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    Yes we usually do! Nobody really can read

    what's in your mind or in your heart except you! They might notice the expression in your face but not really reading what's deep inside.
    Oceandock19 Oceandock19 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    I'm not ok. In fact I feel

    as if I'm imploding. I'm mad at my husband for not wanting me. My Dom for abandoning me. I'm mad that the two of them are sleeping fine at night and I'm up sobbing hating my life. I'm mad I have a thankless job that I burry myself in to keep a shred of sanity. I wish I had a...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    And sometimes you just need someone to hold you

    until the tears quit falling and you are too exhausted to move...
    Icarus2012 Icarus2012 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Isn't it just easier to smile

    and say it's ok then share with someone? I like to be sure everyone else is taken care of so usually I have to suck it up... And it's usually better that way
    Devotedmom77 Devotedmom77 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I do this quiet often.

    People have their own worries or troubles. I'm not going to be selfish and burden them with my issues. It's better to keep inside and deal with in my own way.
    MichaelS41074 MichaelS41074 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 18

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    As she seeks for comfort.

    Theres no one there. As she whines for a heart . There are none . In the time period she's trying to find herself . She losing herself more than ever. She's forgotten who she is . As she looks for happiness. As she wonders if its out there . She realizes happiness cant be...
    derricaashae derricaashae 16-17, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Because its not the fault of my friends

    or my beloved ones because they dont have anything to do with it ... I smile when im around them in a way to avoid ruining their day/evening ...
    karenkh karenkh 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    "im okay..." "you sure?

    " "yes.." "okay" i want you to look me in the eye and say that you know damn well that im not okay
    classylips classylips 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I'M Ok :'(

    I always say i'm okay, i'm fine. But in reality, i'm not okay or fine!!! But some people, can't see that and are just like : "oh okay", even my family, can't see that i need them. And i dont know what to do anymore!!!! I feel like nobody cares, like if i disappeared, nobody would...
    TheFallenAngle TheFallenAngle 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Most days I just feel like I could scream at

    the top of my lungs forever or cry until all my tears came out. I want to feel happy but it just won't happen
    shadowsoldier09 shadowsoldier09 22-25, F 9 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    Have you ever been pissed off to silence,

    to the point where you can't even speak even if you wanted to. I'm so ******* done, I'm just sitting here acting like I'm ok so people don't come up to me and ask what's wrong
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Because sometimes, thats easier to tell people

    you are okay, than explain why you are not...
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    AnonymousSB AnonymousSB 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    I hate fuss. I hate the feeling

    that I might not be performing as well as I should be. So when times are busy and I'm under pressure. If anybody asks I always say I'm fine.
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Jan 9

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    I spent all morning preparing on what I'm going

    to say, put on my finest clothes and shoes made sure my makeup was done and that everything was perfect, for that perfect moment when I'm was to see him again. only for him to be hours late and leave within15 minutes, I just feel so wasted, Imma be ok just need a moment to pick...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2014

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    I do this all the time.

    I feel like I don't want to get anyone upset like my fiance. he gets upset when things bother me especially of it's petty. a lot of things bother me. even the smallest things. and sometime I just don't want to explain
    jenniebaez1992 jenniebaez1992 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Sometimes for no reason at all.

    ....i feel like i should run till i find home.
    HopeEverlasting HopeEverlasting 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    I just want to let people know

    that they aren't alone. That they can always message me for help if they are feeling troubled. Sometimes I show my emotions too much and I hate myself for it.
    blueworldsapart blueworldsapart 13-15, F Nov 19, 2014

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    I do this very often!

    !! I have 11 diseases... I am in constant pain or constantly tired and ready for bed. It is really easy to get sucked up into your own pity. Part of staying strong and believing is not showing... If I try not to believe I am hurting and tired... Maybe others will not either...
    Coffeetyme Coffeetyme 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    I'm Not OK Right Now

    This past year has been a super tough year for me. It all started out in November of 2012 with me having a crapload of responsibility and work dumped on me for no additional pay.  I eventually lost that job in July of this year.  Though I'm sort of employed right now, it's a...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    I have -$31 to my name

    until pay day which is seven long days from now . Yup you saw it right there's no typo . That's a negative sign . Pray for me
    troubledrapper troubledrapper 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 28, 2014

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    Yes, I Am Fine. :)

    Negative attitudes drain the whole crowd and hiding that we are sad can be a very good thing, but it's not easy. Questions are depressing when you don't learn how to answer them. You never know when someone will ask something new. That is why I try to look happy even if I feel...
    Waocky Waocky 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2012

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    there is this one person

    that texts me every now and then to "check in" on me. I say I'm Okay It's easy to lie in a text. sometimes I want to type the truth " I feel like I'm losing my sanity, I've planned out my suicide " but I never tell the truth. I say I'm Okay but this person never attempts to dig...
    fragmentsoflife fragmentsoflife 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I think we've all done this

    before when someone has asked us what's wrong. I tend to hide it better than some other people can, but some people still see straight through me and see that I'm upset. My whole life for the most part has been nothing, but pain and misery. I was raised by my mother after my dad...
    lovedownunder lovedownunder 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2014

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    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 36-40, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    So right now I'm fine!

    That's what people say When there not ok right? I really feel fine that's the only way to explain my current mood. It's crazy because I've have been through a lot lately, and that's saying a lot. I'm not ok but I'm fine!!!
    SusieBlu SusieBlu 22-25, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    My Life

    My Life i s filled with anxiety and depression, I have tried counselling, Alcohol and hard work, sometimes all at once. Extremes of speed or participation in dangerous activities and the release of Adrenylin alleviate the symptoms temporarily....But....The economy, Illegal...
    checknitout checknitout 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    All the time. I always smile

    even when it's hard. At times I just can't hold it in. I smile and I feel my eyes water up and my nose tickle.
    Vnaturaldisaster Vnaturaldisaster 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    sometimes you just can't keep pretending

    that everything is okay for the sake of the people you care about...
    Samousse Samousse 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    Saying your okay just

    so you don't have to be reminded of why you are not okay:/
    charbarx charbarx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2014

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    Oh yes,what else can we say?

    I don't wanna gain sympathy by saying 'I am not okay',and to be honest it's just a question that no one actually cares for an answer,who cares whether you are okay or not! So we must keep repeating "I am fine,thank you",that's what we were taught to say in our childhood! :) We...
    lonelysoulPam lonelysoulPam 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    Just close your eyes

    and it will be gone, until tomorrow...
    iTzzMike iTzzMike 13-15, M Jan 16

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    feeling lost is the worst

    and not knowing how to talk to people, especially your love ones make it even harder . I say I'm OK but I'm not ! deep inside I want to scream and shout and cry til I pass out .My dad passed away from cancer 3weeks ago and I have been holding so much in since then . my fiance...
    poetic92 poetic92 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I laugh although I'm crying from deep within,

    I make clear strategy even when my mind is drowning from whirlpool thoughts, I breath even I'm choking internally I keep standing even I'm battered and bruised, my voice are perfectly fine but it's uttering unheard squeak . I make them believe I'm okay , but I want them to...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F Nov 8, 2014

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    Thats The Secret

    There is a thought in my local language which means "Problem comes only for humans, not for trees"...... well everyone in this world has troubles in one or other way & which provides us a great opportunity to show our mental strength!! i always loves to say "i am okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    He has taken everything away from me and still

    I smile and be happy he makes me want to tear off my own flesh and just be what he wants and still I smile when he ridicules me everyday he reminds me of what's wrong with me and still I smile and change some more to please him everything I do is never good enough for him and...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    This holds especially true right now.

    *in bed crying my eyes out*
    thescrap2hisbozley thescrap2hisbozley 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    This is something I have worked very hard on

    and greatly improved. With people I trust, in general, I can be very honest with my feelings. Still, every now and then I feel that wall closing in that says, block everyone out. It can be a struggle sometimes to keep it down. Then again, talking about it with a good friend...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    You Have To Get Hurt...

    You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down. Welcome...
    Jillian1027 Jillian1027 31-35, F 5 Responses Feb 12, 2013

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    Sometimes Is Today

    It's funny isn't it when you just know. I knew immediately I woke this morning I wasn't going to shine today. That I wasn't going to be okay. The cloud was hovering. Waiting. Damn that cloud. So you force the pleasantries, and chat away. You nod and smile and if asked say "I'm...
    Zoranna Zoranna 70+, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    Never say... "I don't think I can take

    anymore!" It must translate to the universe like... "Oh, she needs just one more spoonful of crap! That should help!"
    littlechief79 littlechief79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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