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I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    I want to go home. I'm in the place

    where I live and have lived for 11 years. I have a good roof over my head, did in my cupboards, clothes to wear, water to drink. I have two cats that love me. I am not home. I feel empty
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    Because sometimes, thats easier to tell people

    you are okay, than explain why you are not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    right now I'm a complete mess.

    come on vacation!!!!
    Serendipitydoda Serendipitydoda 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 11

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    Yes, I'm a strong young girl.

    Please don't hate me cause I'm a strong & independent girl....
    thutran1 thutran1 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    AnonymousSB AnonymousSB 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    I am a very bubbly, happy

    and cherry person. But of'course that is from the outside. I brighten everyone's lives, and yet mine is not brighten by anyone. I make people laugh and make sure they have no worries; yet deep down I am sad, crying and hurting. I feel like no one understands what I am going...
    LiraM LiraM 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 14

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    I often wonder why I do this.

    Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her to ICU and the critical care nurse pulled me aside and asked if I was oaky, things were moving along pretty quickly and there...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 31

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    Does Anyone Care

    Does anyone care? Does anyone honestly care? Judging by every move someone makes when they just want a friend. A sin made from the devil when they would like to produce a smile apon their face. To know you give a damn. Does anyone give a damn.. Anyone :/
    BlackWidowMassacre BlackWidowMassacre 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    Dear World, Shut up.

    Just stop. I have no energy left to fight you. Stop annoying me and eating at my head. I really have no effort for this anymore. I will not give in, neither will I fight back. Even the strongest generals have those days where they hang their head in discontent. I remind myself...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21, M 6 Responses Jun 30

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    Jdhoesa Jdhoesa 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 16

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    I'm not usually okay.

    Or ever okay...
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    I will be okay, if he is okay.

    I can not stand seeing him with another when he is actually truly not happy with her. I can see through his eyes that he is forced for he thought I am over him. It maybe my fault but it's more of his fault for hurting me really badly but I let it consider as my fault so I would...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I've been very very sad,

    and confused lately, but I do not show it. Even right now it is hard for me to type this out. I'm the one in this home who has to keep things together, be okay, rationalize and be open minded. Make sure the boat we are on does not capsize. The journey here has not been easy. and...
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    I always overcome my fears with a good detailed

    strategic plans, I always hide my negativity with words of optimism, which I'm not sure if I could even do or believe on it, I always wear fake smile to cover up the sadness that I feel. I have to do all those things because of the expectations of my family and friends. They...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I am so used to saying

    that I am okay when someone asks me how I am, even if I am not okay. It just comes out automatically because I think, who wants hear all about my problems? Sometimes I am not okay inside. I feel that if I express it, people may think I am wanting attention. Then when I don't...
    Shampati Shampati 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 9

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    A lot of the time I think

    that I annoy people with my problems, so I don't ever tell them anyone. It's less difficult to say I'm okay, but inside, I know that I would feel relieved if I knew that somebody actually cares.
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    where's a friend when u need one I'm

    so mad and sad Right now
    notheonlyone notheonlyone 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 2

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    my mum keeps saying to me

    that she doesn't see y I keep telling lies because she can always tell... but she's wrong... I go to sleep crying every night... I stop eating for 3 months trying to make myself ill... and when I tell my mum I'm okay... she believes it... and that is the biggest lie I've ever...
    chloebirchall chloebirchall 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    my dad died by suicide 3 years ago i am still

    numb from it. I found him he had shot himself . after they took his body away, from his appliance store , i had to clean up. there is an empty space in my soul so many thing i didnt get to say. so depressed why am i here im tired of being sad .....what do i do to be happy again
    worllockk worllockk 46-50, M 9 Responses Apr 22

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    Isn't it just easier to smile

    and say it's ok then share with someone? I like to be sure everyone else is taken care of so usually I have to suck it up... And it's usually better that way
    Devotedmom77 Devotedmom77 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I wanna know what pills can kill you.

    ... with or without alcohol....
    chloebirchall chloebirchall 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Nataliebeans1 Nataliebeans1 13-15, F a week ago

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    Sometimes Is Today

    It's funny isn't it when you just know. I knew immediately I woke this morning I wasn't going to shine today. That I wasn't going to be okay. The cloud was hovering. Waiting. Damn that cloud. So you force the pleasantries, and chat away. You nod and smile and if asked say "I'm...
    Zoranna Zoranna 61-65, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    I don't even know where to start.

    I walk around every day like nothing is wrong but inside I'm falling apart. My marriage is over but I don't have the money to leave him yet. My family is faced with problem after problem. What I want in life I can't have. My friends don't even begin to grasp what I'm feeling but...
    Jhbea098 Jhbea098 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 17

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    People think the depressed "I'm fine" is

    stereotypical, but it's actually the truth. we actually do say "I'm fine" when we're not because it's hard to explain/ we don't want to explain how we really feel.
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    My Life

    My Life i s filled with anxiety and depression, I have tried counselling, Alcohol and hard work, sometimes all at once. Extremes of speed or participation in dangerous activities and the release of Adrenylin alleviate the symptoms temporarily....But....The economy, Illegal...
    checknitout checknitout 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I literally do this ALL the time.

    I don't always like people to know I'm not feeling my usual self, because then they ask questions I am not prepared to answer and it can make the situation worse. Plus I have a slight confidence issue, so I feel a little shy explaining my whole issue incase they don't understand...
    23kk23 23kk23 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I can't be like this anymore, I am exhausted.
    wreckofagirl wreckofagirl 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I smile at work and talk to everyone.

    Wave...say hi to everyone..but they dont know I hate being myself most of the time and have a hard battle with anxiety and depression.
    jtymez4 jtymez4 26-30, M 8 Responses May 21

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    "It takes ten times as long to put yourself

    back together as it does to fall apart."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm okay. No really I am okay.

    Not planning my suicide or anything
    abernesskraek abernesskraek 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    But who knows when I actually am :P In the

    meantime, I am stumbling through this little thing called life.
    RealisticSmile RealisticSmile 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    You are my North Star,

    you are my compass. Where would I be, if I haven't found you? What will I be if I haven't met you?-Roselynn Nazareno Pila
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F Jul 13

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    it's just so much easier to say

    that you're okay rather than dive into any sadness, anger or helplessness you might be feeling.. truth is lots of people wouldn't want to hear how you really feel because they might get uncomfortable .. sigh*
    iamblackvelvet iamblackvelvet 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I don't want to bother anyone.

    . Im not good at opening up either.. I dont even have a friend.. So i just bottle it up inside.
    XxSuicidalKissesxX XxSuicidalKissesxX 13-15, F 6 Responses May 26

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    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 12 Responses Jun 30

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    jayroad jayroad 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    This is something I have worked very hard on

    and greatly improved. With people I trust, in general, I can be very honest with my feelings. Still, every now and then I feel that wall closing in that says, block everyone out. It can be a struggle sometimes to keep it down. Then again, talking about it with a good friend...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    I can't count the number of times I've said I'm

    ok or I'm fine, when really I was dying on the inside.
    allyerza allyerza 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    And I don't want the world to see me

    because I don't think that they'd understand.
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    this days i fell like i need something new in

    my life , i don't know anything that could bring a smile on my face even for 2 seconds .....
    nadine11135 nadine11135 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm definitely not okay,

    I am really good at hiding how bad it is and it's pretty bad. I just wish I could sleep forever then I'd never have to deal with the pain.
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 29

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    One day more you havent come back.

    One more day i struggle to hold myself toghether. One more day I think your leaving. One more day i love you. One more day you havent checked my emails. One more fay i cry for any mistakes i have made for you. One more day with no answers, one more day i blame myself. One more...
    Mysticalix Mysticalix 18-21, F Jun 30

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    I would say. I Say im ok

    even though m not. There is no sometimes in this. Others are more important then me.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    foreverlost110 foreverlost110 13-15, F a week ago

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