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I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    Everyday I am screaming on the inside,

    I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of being invisible. I'm tired of lying to myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 3

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    Sometimes Is Today

    It's funny isn't it when you just know. I knew immediately I woke this morning I wasn't going to shine today. That I wasn't going to be okay. The cloud was hovering. Waiting. Damn that cloud. So you force the pleasantries, and chat away. You nod and smile and if asked say "I'm...
    Zoranna Zoranna 70+, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Because sometimes, thats easier to tell people

    you are okay, than explain why you are not...
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    its amazing what long sleeves

    and a fake smile can hide
    dafrog2001 dafrog2001 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 8

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    Why does everyone keep asking me

    if I'm ok?!? Like I don't get it...I'm ok everyone! LOL okaayy maybe I went off the deep end a little...but is there anything actually wrong with that? What if I like it, and I like discovering new things about myself? All of my family and close friends keep asking me if I'm ok...
    ERMAHGERD1 ERMAHGERD1 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    whenever I do admit to not being ok,

    people always seem to want to tell you how much worse their lives are than yours. it's not a competition Damn it! .fo they honestly think I'm going to feel any better hearing how miserable everyone else is? so yeah, I'll love and say I'm fine every single time. nobody sees...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    " yeah! its fine! don't worry!

    " ...seriously? u never cared. " yeah, go with your friends!" ...just leave me again...
    HeyHay15 HeyHay15 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm worried I have mixed worries my bf is going

    out of state for a job I'm not sure if I should let it end or hold on we have our ups and downs what if this dose separate us I know I will be fine and can move on but what if he is the one and I let him go or what if he's not keep him????
    sometimeslost01 sometimeslost01 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    When I cried as a kid

    and ppl asked me about it I simply said " nothing"
    kitty609 kitty609 18-21, F Mar 18

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    This holds especially true right now.

    *in bed crying my eyes out*
    thescrap2hisbozley thescrap2hisbozley 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I'm Not OK Right Now

    This past year has been a super tough year for me. It all started out in November of 2012 with me having a crapload of responsibility and work dumped on me for no additional pay.  I eventually lost that job in July of this year.  Though I'm sort of employed right now, it's a...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    I hate saying im Okay

    when I'm not. I feel like I'm dying inside.. But if people want me to be happy so be it ..
    Happyness7 Happyness7 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just went through and deleted every picture

    of other girls on my boyfriends phone, even though I told him it didn't bother me that he had them.
    southernlove45 southernlove45 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    It's how society wants things to be.

    Remaining stoic and pretending all is good and avoiding 'negativity', that's the why they like it, even if you're not okay. :(
    everyotherusernamewastaken everyotherusernamewastaken 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    AnonymousSB AnonymousSB 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Today as has been on of those days

    where people just **** with you repeatedly and then freak when you lose your ****!! They can just not imagine why you are so angry. Back off or I will punch you in the throat. Grrrrr...
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    it's just so much easier to say

    that you're okay rather than dive into any sadness, anger or helplessness you might be feeling.. truth is lots of people wouldn't want to hear how you really feel because they might get uncomfortable .. sigh*
    iamblackvelvet iamblackvelvet 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Have you ever been pissed off to silence,

    to the point where you can't even speak even if you wanted to. I'm so ******* done, I'm just sitting here acting like I'm ok so people don't come up to me and ask what's wrong
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    My Life

    My Life i s filled with anxiety and depression, I have tried counselling, Alcohol and hard work, sometimes all at once. Extremes of speed or participation in dangerous activities and the release of Adrenylin alleviate the symptoms temporarily....But....The economy, Illegal...
    checknitout checknitout 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I just broke up with my boyfriend last night.

    It wasn't working because he was still hung up on his ex. It only lasted for 6 mos but I invested a lot with my feelings. When I told my friends about it I was laughing and making jokes out of the situation, but the truth is it devastated me because I have already fallen for him...
    elphy407 elphy407 31-35, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Most days I just feel like I could scream at

    the top of my lungs forever or cry until all my tears came out. I want to feel happy but it just won't happen
    shadowsoldier09 shadowsoldier09 22-25, F 10 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    Sometimes in my mind I know everything's not ok

    but when someone says is everything okay ? you just automatically say yea everything is fine. I suffer from sever depression and anxiety and I do it all the time.
    Lakelynnprincess Lakelynnprincess 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    the more I try to be positive the more people

    bring me down .. I just wanna end it
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Yes.and i hate it. Don't overly nice You

    shouldn't mind what people react if what you say You are human You have rights to choose what you choose i've been reading books about ''People who can't say NO'' Very helpful.
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F Apr 2

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    I know what it takes to move on I know what it

    feels to lie All I want to do is trade this life for something new Holding on to what I haven't got
    urnesha urnesha 18-21, F Mar 11

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    Thats The Secret

    There is a thought in my local language which means "Problem comes only for humans, not for trees"...... well everyone in this world has troubles in one or other way & which provides us a great opportunity to show our mental strength!! i always loves to say "i am okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I am a very bubbly, happy

    and cherry person. But of'course that is from the outside. I brighten everyone's lives, and yet mine is not brighten by anyone. I make people laugh and make sure they have no worries; yet deep down I am sad, crying and hurting. I feel like no one understands what I am going...
    LiraM LiraM 26-30, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Isn't it just easier to smile

    and say it's ok then share with someone? I like to be sure everyone else is taken care of so usually I have to suck it up... And it's usually better that way
    Devotedmom77 Devotedmom77 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I don't want to be alone tonight.

    I need a friend, a shoulder to lean on.
    LiraM LiraM 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I literally hate feeling replaced.

    I'm never good enough. You know about my habits, but you still don't care. I hate this, I hate you. I hate me.
    rsurrett rsurrett 16-17, F Feb 15

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    And sometimes you just need someone to hold you

    until the tears quit falling and you are too exhausted to move...
    Icarus2012 Icarus2012 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I am not okay... I'm crying almost everyday

    but I always put up a strong face in front of everyone. I always break down whenever I think of my husband's affair. It breaks me even more when I remember that they managed to do their deed in our own house and twice outside. I know a lot of you will say that I should just get...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Because its not the fault of my friends

    or my beloved ones because they dont have anything to do with it ... I smile when im around them in a way to avoid ruining their day/evening ...
    karenkh karenkh 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Does Anyone Care

    Does anyone care? Does anyone honestly care? Judging by every move someone makes when they just want a friend. A sin made from the devil when they would like to produce a smile apon their face. To know you give a damn. Does anyone give a damn.. Anyone :/
    BlackWidowMassacre BlackWidowMassacre 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    mrsskayl mrsskayl 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I'm not okay today I admit it I cry every night

    I feel my heart n my feelings becoming numb. I question my own existence at times y am I here what's the point .
    jannelr1 jannelr1 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I often wonder why I do this.

    Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her to ICU and the critical care nurse pulled me aside and asked if I was oaky, things were moving along pretty quickly and there...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 13 Responses Mar 31

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    my father has a brain tumor

    and is out of work, my mother has to work extra to cover medical expenses. I'm so sick of life. I've had many suicidal thoughts and I don't know if I can go on much longer. I'm always made fun of about my weight (I'm extremely underweight) and I am not anorexic or belemic at all...
    EmJinks83 EmJinks83 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    This is something I have worked very hard on

    and greatly improved. With people I trust, in general, I can be very honest with my feelings. Still, every now and then I feel that wall closing in that says, block everyone out. It can be a struggle sometimes to keep it down. Then again, talking about it with a good friend...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I do this very often!

    !! I have 11 diseases... I am in constant pain or constantly tired and ready for bed. It is really easy to get sucked up into your own pity. Part of staying strong and believing is not showing... If I try not to believe I am hurting and tired... Maybe others will not either...
    Coffeetyme Coffeetyme 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    i prefer to keep my problems to myself

    rather than burdening others... i get pass it eventually... my friend said I'm her roll model... idk what to think maybe I'm suppose to be strong for me but not show weakness to her or anyone else .. does that mean breaking down is not an option? . oh well anyways it's not...
    mergirl123 mergirl123 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I like to say I am "fine".

    ...you know, F I N E? F'ed up... Insecure... Neurotic... Emotional... Yep, I'm just fine! Peachy, even! ;-p
    Moonchildshadow Moonchildshadow 36-40, F Jan 19, 2014

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    It's like saying 'its okay' to someone

    who punched me.. while I lay there bleeding...
    LiarOne LiarOne 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    All the time. I always smile

    even when it's hard. At times I just can't hold it in. I smile and I feel my eyes water up and my nose tickle.
    Vnaturaldisaster Vnaturaldisaster 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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