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I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    A lot of the time I think

    that I annoy people with my problems, so I don't ever tell them anyone. It's less difficult to say I'm okay, but inside, I know that I would feel relieved if I knew that somebody actually cares.
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    Now it's just constant lying.

    ... why?? Because no one gives a fck you just spend this time trying to get someone to listen but they don't care.... I've tried so many times to talk about my feelings but no one is willing to listen... All the people that I've had just leave after I've been there the whole time...
    GrandmamaTemptationCx GrandmamaTemptationCx 70+, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I smile at work and talk to everyone.

    Wave...say hi to everyone..but they dont know I hate being myself most of the time and have a hard battle with anxiety and depression.
    jtymez4 jtymez4 26-30, M 8 Responses May 21

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    I don't like the shortness of breath

    or choking back tears that comes with the anticipation. I'd rather keep to myself. But, hey! Look at me on the internet! Lol What the hell? I don't get me, and people who have a problem with that actually exist. I like the distance...
    SplitGivanni SplitGivanni 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm laying here on my bed.

    I am remembering this past year and I just see that I've been lying to myself trying to get through the day. as I lay here I just realize that I'm not okay. IM NOT OKAY!
    eagi eagi 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I dedicate this story to every member of this

    group. Have you ever felt simply unable to talk about how hurt you are? I've always had the feeling that the others will secretly be happy if they see me fail, so I acted like nothing can breake me. But "acting like" is not enough, I felt terribly alone with all the burden on my...
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 18

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    Dear World, Shut up.

    Just stop. I have no energy left to fight you. Stop annoying me and eating at my head. I really have no effort for this anymore. I will not give in, neither will I fight back. Even the strongest generals have those days where they hang their head in discontent. I remind myself...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 30

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    There is this one person I know.

    . All day, every day when people ask her how she is doing its always the same. "Oh terrible, I'm so tired, and sore" and always she adds the newest bad thing that happened to her "oh I have a cold" or "oh I'm extra stressed out about____" or "my dog is sick" or "my mother broke...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989 26-30 Aug 11

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    wildfred wildfred 61-65, M 1 Response Aug 2

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    Is it ok to sometimes spin into a wealth of

    insecurity knowing that someone anyone will bring me back? Is it ok to bare my soul and hope upon hope that this time it'll be different? Should it be ok that it happens? Should it be ok that no one notices? Is it ok that regardless of the hurt the ache inside my skin that...
    JosephinaBallerina JosephinaBallerina 31-35, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Them: "How are you?" Me: "I'm fine,

    you" Them: "Everything is going great for me too!" Them: "Why aren't you eating?" Me: "Not hungry" Them: "It happens to me too, sometimes I simply can't eat anything and my family thinks I'm anorexic. I mean, my mom once did called the doctor and I was like omg mom!" Them...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    Story of my life I've been saying I'm OK

    since I was a about 12 years old!
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 4

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    if I dont say im okay then ill have to see the

    faces of my family they don't and can't understand why im depressed, when I tried to take my life I had to se them cry and I don't want to see that again so ill hide my feelings behind a smile and say im doing alright.
    Eyedea9 Eyedea9 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I can't count the number of times I've said I'm

    ok or I'm fine, when really I was dying on the inside.
    allyerza allyerza 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    I am so used to saying

    that I am okay when someone asks me how I am, even if I am not okay. It just comes out automatically because I think, who wants hear all about my problems? Sometimes I am not okay inside. I feel that if I express it, people may think I am wanting attention. Then when I don't...
    Shampati Shampati 36-40, F 6 Responses Jun 9

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    how in just a matter of a few short days can

    everything change so much :(
    4eversmiles 4eversmiles 41-45, F 10 Responses Aug 2

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    I often wonder why I do this.

    Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her to ICU and the critical care nurse pulled me aside and asked if I was oaky, things were moving along pretty quickly and there...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 31

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    a punch to the face and I still say it's okay.

    after 4 years of being there for her and I get punched in the face. I wonder if its always been like this. always taking pain and sucking it in and just saying it's okay.
    eagi eagi 22-25, M Aug 8

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    My dad kept day of this evening are you okay

    and I kept saying yes.. I'm not sure how I feel.. I'm in limbo, I miss my ex but I don't because I know he's a moron.. I'm worried about a friend of mine.. And I'm worried about my mum
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    People think the depressed "I'm fine" is

    stereotypical, but it's actually the truth. we actually do say "I'm fine" when we're not because it's hard to explain/ we don't want to explain how we really feel.
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I know this girl who accused her step brother

    of terrible things, she accused him of molestation and much more. Then she got him arrested about a month before his first child was born. This went on for over a year. Her stepbrother was locked up even tho there was no evidence against him. He was charged with 6 counts of bad...
    RachelMichaela97 RachelMichaela97 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    it's just so much easier to say

    that you're okay rather than dive into any sadness, anger or helplessness you might be feeling.. truth is lots of people wouldn't want to hear how you really feel because they might get uncomfortable .. sigh*
    iamblackvelvet iamblackvelvet 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 10 Responses Jun 30

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    "It takes ten times as long to put yourself

    back together as it does to fall apart."
    nobody62442 nobody62442 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 28

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    Almost every day I wake to the same thought,

    "oh $H!7 I'm alive." If I didn't just say I was okay... i would spend all day telling people things in my life that would depress them in their lives. I say "I'm Okay" so people can believe there is less pain then there actually is in the biosphere in this facet of reality...
    iisTHC iisTHC 26-30, T 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I don't like this feeling.

    I wish I could just flash forward into the future where everything is fantastic in my life. I need some new friends, someone I feel comfortable talking to, someone I can call in the middle of the night because I'm depressed n I can't stop feeling like this. I want to end this...
    eagi eagi 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 2

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    Ugh! Some days are just

    so damn hard! :(
    BeingT BeingT 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've been very very sad,

    and confused lately, but I do not show it. Even right now it is hard for me to type this out. I'm the one in this home who has to keep things together, be okay, rationalize and be open minded. Make sure the boat we are on does not capsize. The journey here has not been easy. and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 2

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    sometimes I think about cutting myself.

    . but then I listen to pierce the veil, and I feel much better and I put the blade away
    JackandSally420 JackandSally420 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 8

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I can't be like this anymore, I am exhausted.
    wreckofagirl wreckofagirl 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Sometimes.. I wish I wasn't born

    so that my mom could live her life the way she wants to. I mean she does anyway, but not to the fullest. I'm the youngest and the only one under 18 in my family so I can't take care of myself. I always have to go to her when I need something if I can't get it. And sometimes she...
    amazinghuh amazinghuh 13-15, F 14 Responses Aug 2

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    It is much better to say okay,

    less headache and avoid stupid advices or judgments.
    listenup listenup 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    i Allways tougth been in the good side meent

    love,trust and caring...but i was betred by one after another...left alone...and was forced to sit and wacth why everyone els walk foword...and they broke me..I had no choice...the dark offerd me a new start...power like i never imagine...and befor i knew it..me the one who was...
    jrcervin jrcervin 16-17, M Aug 11

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    my dad died by suicide 3 years ago i am still

    numb from it. I found him he had shot himself . after they took his body away, from his appliance store , i had to clean up. there is an empty space in my soul so many thing i didnt get to say. so depressed why am i here im tired of being sad .....what do i do to be happy again
    worllockk worllockk 46-50, M 9 Responses Apr 22

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    i think we are all guilty of saying this,

    but i feel i am saying more and more of late....
    lookingtosmile lookingtosmile 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 10

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    AnonymousSB AnonymousSB 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    I failed all of my gcse's

    and my boyfriend has said the most horrible things to me, i'm devastated
    mxlly mxlly 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I am a very bubbly, happy

    and cherry person. But of'course that is from the outside. I brighten everyone's lives, and yet mine is not brighten by anyone. I make people laugh and make sure they have no worries; yet deep down I am sad, crying and hurting. I feel like no one understands what I am going...
    LiraM LiraM 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 14

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    Worst pay I've had in a long time,

    I can't afford all of my bills. Terrified about how I'm going to make it 30 days, literally can't afford to buy food and I'm hoping the pasta I have lasts. My best friend stops by asks how I'm doing "yeah great amigo, never better" while grinning from ear to ear
    AnxiousTG AnxiousTG 31-35, T 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    My grandfather passed away yesterday

    and there is so much going on that I really just need someone to hold me while I cry my eyes out so I don't fall apart completely. But that's not an option for me, I just don't have friends like that
    Kwills7 Kwills7 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 17

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    Today is a PRIME example!

    ! The guy I was seeing went AWOL several weeks back and I just assumed he was done with us and nothing more would come of it. I missed him terribly though so I realised I felt more than I initially thought. Anyway, he got back in touch recently to explain his disappearance...
    ctstranger ctstranger 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    I literally do this ALL the time.

    I don't always like people to know I'm not feeling my usual self, because then they ask questions I am not prepared to answer and it can make the situation worse. Plus I have a slight confidence issue, so I feel a little shy explaining my whole issue incase they don't understand...
    23kk23 23kk23 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    And I don't want the world to see me

    because I don't think that they'd understand.
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    Isn't this toxic! Holding things inside is like

    sipping poison....Exactly, why would you do this. Well for one maybe it is the fact of the matter that these days it's hard to get people to listen when they are to self absorbed, vain, or even better glued with their foreheads to a LCD electronic device. It Is Impossible To...
    ItsRissa88 ItsRissa88 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't want to bother anyone.

    . Im not good at opening up either.. I dont even have a friend.. So i just bottle it up inside.
    XxSuicidalKissesxX XxSuicidalKissesxX 13-15, F 6 Responses May 26