I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    I have lost many people in my life.

    My brother to a house fire My mother was murdered My brother in law to a heart attack My nephew to a plane crash And my father to a heart attack
    qweenee qweenee
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Aug 19, 2015

    I'm sitting here trying to be in the Christmas

    spirit by wrapping presents. I'm not okay it's the first Christmas since I split with my ex and my grandma passed that I haven't had my kids home for Christmas. They are spending it with their dad, he has been very generous allowing me to have the last 3 christmas's knowing how...
    LossOFcontrol LossOFcontrol
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    I am so used to saying

    that I am okay when someone asks me how I am, even if I am not okay. It just comes out automatically because I think, who wants hear all about my problems? Sometimes I am not okay inside. I feel that if I express it, people may think I am wanting attention. Then when I don't...
    Shampati Shampati
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    It is easier to lie that you are okay

    than to say why you are not... My best friend is mean to me, but he doesn't realise it. When I become silent after an especially rude comment he hugs me and asks me if I'm fine. I slowly push away( I hate physical contact ) and say that I am.
    AcaciaAurora AcaciaAurora
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2016

    I dedicate this story to every member of this

    group. Have you ever felt simply unable to talk about how hurt you are? I've always had the feeling that the others will secretly be happy if they see me fail, so I acted like nothing can breake me. But "acting like" is not enough, I felt terribly alone with all the burden on my...
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 18, 2015

    Actually, for me, that should say "I usually

    say I'm okay, even though I'm not.
    BeautiKris BeautiKris
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2016

    Not just "sometimes",

    but most of the time, lying to myself -_-
    cloversmoon cloversmoon
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 18, 2016

    Just wanted someone to listen to me

    and be there for me. But so did she so she found someone else. Now we've talked and she wanted me the whole time but she can't dump her boyfriend cause session too nice and he hasn't done anything wrong. Tough situation. Especially when I have needs too and I can't kiss her or...
    Mpanaozavatra Mpanaozavatra
    26-30, M
    Mar 18, 2016

    i'm tired act like everything okay

    when the truth is everything seems wrong
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2016

    I pretend to be fine

    and put on a smile everyday. It's difficult when my in laws always put me down, husband tells me I'm thinking it differently and my family ignoring me when I'm down. Only ones cheering me up is my 4 yr old and this un on baby. It's hard dealing with people around me when all...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 6, 2016
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    9 Responses Jun 30, 2015

    When you're feeling like you can't

    even figure out what's going on in your own head, it's much easier just to fake a smile and tell the world you're doing fine rather than having to explain the millions of weird thoughts in your head that most people probably won't get anyway.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 20, 2015

    I just told my boyfriend I'm fine on the phone,

    but started crying once we hung up. I didn't want to upset him with something he can't change. I was just upset, because I'm stressed and it's been 3 months since I last saw him and it will be another 3 until I see him again. I know he felt I was upset, that's why he asked, and...
    rakachinotohi rakachinotohi
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    When people ask me what's wrong I just say

    that I'm ok I'm just tired or I'm just quiet just make up some excuse because sometimes that's easier then explaining what's wrong. Sometimes people believed it which can hurt even more because you're so upset but they don't even realize. Sometimes people can see right through...
    Vrl1022 Vrl1022
    18-21, F
    Mar 15, 2016

    Them: "How are you?" Me: "I'm fine,

    you" Them: "Everything is going great for me too!" Them: "Why aren't you eating?" Me: "Not hungry" Them: "It happens to me too, sometimes I simply can't eat anything and my family thinks I'm anorexic. I mean, my mom once did called the doctor and I was like omg mom!" Them...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    My Life History Part 3: Fast forward to the

    first few years being in the USA. I had to learn English from the alphabets. I was 9 years old at the time. The only words I knew before coming was Hi and Ok. This is one of my very first memories when I arrived here. My first elementary school I went was predominately African...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    a little thing me and my brother made up.

    Sometimes, its ok to cry. Its ok to let the world see your tears. Sometimes, its ok to be angry. But the hardest is to be angry at the right time, for the right reason. Sometimes, its ok to let you're emotions show, 'Cause you've been strong for too long. Sometimes, things...
    TylerAndTrevor TylerAndTrevor
    13-15, M
    4 Responses Aug 30, 2015
    Janie9 Janie9
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 6, 2016

    Really what choice do we have?

    Does anyone actually care how we are doing? No. Not One Bit. Those who do care are in just as powerless situation as ourselves. All powerful God- lets just hope he really does have a plan because evil has ruled the planet fir as long as the universe has come into...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    I've gone to the point

    where no one cares about me, not even my family. I end up saying im okay just so i dont have to explain myself, drag them into my problems, and get hurt all over again.
    nswassmer nswassmer
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2016
    Zonzon Zonzon
    26-30, F
    Mar 5, 2016

    My Life History Part 2: For the past two years

    I felt like I don't have time to waste. This is why I feel that I need to start the healing now, before I waste anymore time. I was actually on a weight loss journey and from watching all the reality shows, I realized that I cannot lose the weight if I don't expose the root...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2016

    this happins offtin i have adhd

    so i change my mood extermly easly
    katelynnmurphy katelynnmurphy
    13-15, F
    Apr 13, 2016

    And I don't want the world to see me

    because I don't think that they'd understand.
    Emilyfaupel Emilyfaupel
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    I personally think it's just how I have been

    conditioned. When I was growing up and tried to vent or explain my feelings, I was often dismissed as being dramatic, weird, or even crazy. If I decided to tell someone why I was hurt, or angry it would often lead to me being ignored, having my feelings be minimized or not taken...
    FreckledSpectacle FreckledSpectacle
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2016

    I don't want to bother anyone.

    . Im not good at opening up either.. I dont even have a friend.. So i just bottle it up inside.
    XxToxicKissesxX XxToxicKissesxX
    13-15, F
    6 Responses May 26, 2015

    I always say ok even

    when I'm not. I don't think people are really interested in problems so no need to bother them with them. I'm ok and that's all they want to hear.
    Sim90 Sim90
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2016

    it feels lonely when my boyfriend listens to

    what everybody says than to what i'm saying. i dont need to tell my friends i'm ok, they know i'm not.
    Janie9 Janie9
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2016

    I can't do this anymore.

    I can't be like this anymore, I am exhausted.
    wreckofagirl wreckofagirl
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    I often wonder why I do this.

    Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her to ICU and the critical care nurse pulled me aside and asked if I was oaky, things were moving along pretty quickly and there...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Mar 31, 2015

    It happened again last night.

    I didn't know how it started,i just knew something is wrong in my head.I was feeling so afraid,so scared but i couldn't actually say it out loud.Not because i was afraid of my parents' reaction,i was too afraid of being ridiculed,laughed at or questioned why was i feeling this...
    Annisaa89 Annisaa89
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 4, 2016

    This is my first posting

    and i wanted to put out there i am writing this anonymously because i feel more hiden and i have been depressed for about 1/2 years now ever since my mum was rushed into hospital 3 times in one year i have no dad my sister has moved out to my auntys and my aunty and sister and...
    lotsofproblems lotsofproblems
    13-15, F
    Feb 22, 2016

    I am always there to lean on,

    to help and give advise, lend a shoulder to cry on and and an ear to listen.. People think im a strong person for what I have been through past few years.. But I feel that they don't realize that im not as strong as they think.. And maybe sometimes I need someone to lean on too...
    SDH16 SDH16
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

    it's so hard to smile

    when you don't want to
    BABA4801 BABA4801
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    Does Anyone Care

    Does anyone care? Does anyone honestly care? Judging by every move someone makes when they just want a friend. A sin made from the devil when they would like to produce a smile apon their face. To know you give a damn. Does anyone give a damn.. Anyone :/
    BlackWidowMassacre BlackWidowMassacre
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 1, 2013
    hunter0210 hunter0210
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2016

    "I'm dying and I'm trying

    but believe me I'm fine. But I'm lying, I'm so very far from fine."
    DylanEliz DylanEliz
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    Everyday is a pain for me.

    I get dress for school putting on make up and a fake smile. I get to school dealing with the judgemental eyes and the hurtful words. but i smile and tell myself it'll get better just wait it'll get better i come home to a home of evil, pain and sorrow. My mom and I stay at my...
    CamoDee212 CamoDee212
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2016

    I literally do this ALL the time.

    I don't always like people to know I'm not feeling my usual self, because then they ask questions I am not prepared to answer and it can make the situation worse. Plus I have a slight confidence issue, so I feel a little shy explaining my whole issue incase they don't understand...
    23kk23 23kk23
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2015

    This happens to me a lot i have been in

    depression and even thought i got better i think im relaping agayn I also have many issuen with food, low selfsteem and there was a time were i cuted or hitted myself to feel better. Its hard to say this to friends and familly and you always have to fake a smile.
    anianeaniane anianeaniane
    16-17, F
    Mar 7, 2016
    uryell uryell
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 21, 2016
    ItsNotThatEasy ItsNotThatEasy
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    Sometimes.. I wish I wasn't born

    so that my mom could live her life the way she wants to. I mean she does anyway, but not to the fullest. I'm the youngest and the only one under 18 in my family so I can't take care of myself. I always have to go to her when I need something if I can't get it. And sometimes she...
    amazinghuh amazinghuh
    16-17, F
    14 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    I've learned not to trust anyone.

    Even family will hurt you. Most times they act nice just to get something, stab you in the back right after. The people that listens just wants to gossip. Its a pleasure for them to treat people the way they do. At the end, when something happens to them, they expect you to care...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2016
    MJack1234 MJack1234
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 9, 2016

    I can't count the number of times I've said I'm

    ok or I'm fine, when really I was dying on the inside.
    allyerza allyerza
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    I worry that my little brother will end up like

    me. He is 9 years old, shy, and sensitive. I have depression, our dad has depression, and I'm worried that he will develop it as well. I always make sure to support him, but I worry that by being around him too much he will realize that I'm not okay and it will hurt him.
    shybot shybot
    18-21, F
    Apr 17, 2016

    I feel like I don't have a voice.

    all I want to do sit a d cry but I can't. I feel like I'm worthless and I can never do anything right.
    Nicole1315 Nicole1315
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 3, 2016

    My Life History Part 1: Finally I have some

    quiet time for myself so now I will share my life history with all of you. I hope I will get some insight I haven't came across before. I was born in China in the 80's. From what I know, my parents never lived just by themselves after marriage. They lived with my paternal...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2016

    I'm not even really sure how to fake a smile in

    real life, it's so hard for my health and each time I try to do it I feel like I'm staking my own heart while I'm doing it. But... Any tips on how to get better at faking a smile at crucial times when your depression is at it's all-time-low?
    PoppingBones PoppingBones
    16-17, T
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2016

    Sometimes, it's easier to tell someone what

    they want to hear. Hey, I'm tired...But I don' want to burden others with the "why".
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2016

    I love my husband and kids,

    but I'm having a really difficult time dealing with his family. I tell myself everything is about our family but theyre always around and loud so I can't evenblock them out. Some of them don't even care they make others feel like sh*t, it's like they enjoy it. His mother always...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    I'm tired of crying and people calling me

    emotional and telling me to stop having a pity party. I'm not asking for pity I just yearn to be loved.
    catrinaruth7 catrinaruth7
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    It is much better to say okay,

    less headache and avoid stupid advices or judgments.
    listenup listenup
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    "It takes ten times as long to put yourself

    back together as it does to fall apart."
    nobody62442 nobody62442
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2015

    I'm a river that has dried up.

    A moon that never shows her face. I'm a woman now. That's what my mother says. A vessel of secrets and heartbreaks that has erupted and spilled over everyone."It will be alright" another woman says to me. "It gets easier to be this way." We share a knowing smile, a hug, and we...
    LavenderDarling LavenderDarling
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 18, 2016
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