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I Sometimes Say Im Okay, Even When I'm Not

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    I am not okay... I'm crying almost everyday

    but I always put up a strong face in front of everyone. I always break down whenever I think of my husband's affair. It breaks me even more when I remember that they managed to do their deed in our own house and twice outside. I know a lot of you will say that I should just get...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I do this very often!

    !! I have 11 diseases... I am in constant pain or constantly tired and ready for bed. It is really easy to get sucked up into your own pity. Part of staying strong and believing is not showing... If I try not to believe I am hurting and tired... Maybe others will not either...
    Coffeetyme Coffeetyme 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend

    for a year but these past 3 months he has put me through a lot of pain and hurt and I'm walking around like nothing is wrong and I'm sick of it
    shericka1992 shericka1992 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    the more I try to be positive the more people

    bring me down .. I just wanna end it
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Today as has been on of those days

    where people just **** with you repeatedly and then freak when you lose your ****!! They can just not imagine why you are so angry. Back off or I will punch you in the throat. Grrrrr...
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    Does Anyone Care

    Does anyone care? Does anyone honestly care? Judging by every move someone makes when they just want a friend. A sin made from the devil when they would like to produce a smile apon their face. To know you give a damn. Does anyone give a damn.. Anyone :/
    BlackWidowMassacre BlackWidowMassacre 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    AnonymousSB AnonymousSB 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    My Life

    My Life i s filled with anxiety and depression, I have tried counselling, Alcohol and hard work, sometimes all at once. Extremes of speed or participation in dangerous activities and the release of Adrenylin alleviate the symptoms temporarily....But....The economy, Illegal...
    checknitout checknitout 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    This holds especially true right now.

    *in bed crying my eyes out*
    thescrap2hisbozley thescrap2hisbozley 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I'm so tired of trying

    and failing. So tired of not being enough, being too much or just being. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm tired of being a burden everywhere I go.
    NickzM NickzM 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I got home yesterday from a long day at work

    and noticed that my boyfriend who is staying at my place for a few days ordered a pizza. I asked him if I could have a couple of slices for dinner and he said no. Both of my sisters asked and he willingly gave them some. Before we went to bed he asked if I was okay and I said...
    Pooh1993 Pooh1993 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 11

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    I'm not okay today I admit it I cry every night

    I feel my heart n my feelings becoming numb. I question my own existence at times y am I here what's the point .
    jannelr1 jannelr1 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Thats The Secret

    There is a thought in my local language which means "Problem comes only for humans, not for trees"...... well everyone in this world has troubles in one or other way & which provides us a great opportunity to show our mental strength!! i always loves to say "i am okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I often wonder why I do this.

    Today for instance, I had to bring my mother to the ER due to dehydration. When we arrived her body was beginning to go into shock. They admitted her to ICU and the critical care nurse pulled me aside and asked if I was oaky, things were moving along pretty quickly and there...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 13 Responses 1 day ago

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    I just went through and deleted every picture

    of other girls on my boyfriends phone, even though I told him it didn't bother me that he had them.
    southernlove45 southernlove45 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I like to say I am "fine".

    ...you know, F I N E? F'ed up... Insecure... Neurotic... Emotional... Yep, I'm just fine! Peachy, even! ;-p
    Moonchildshadow Moonchildshadow 36-40, F Jan 19, 2014

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    "Are you really okay?

    " I am acting like I am okay. Please don't interrupt my performance.
    OrangeViolin OrangeViolin 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    MrsIndependent86 MrsIndependent86 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    whenever I do admit to not being ok,

    people always seem to want to tell you how much worse their lives are than yours. it's not a competition Damn it! .fo they honestly think I'm going to feel any better hearing how miserable everyone else is? so yeah, I'll love and say I'm fine every single time. nobody sees...
    mrweerd mrweerd 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    I'm worried I have mixed worries my bf is going

    out of state for a job I'm not sure if I should let it end or hold on we have our ups and downs what if this dose separate us I know I will be fine and can move on but what if he is the one and I let him go or what if he's not keep him????
    sometimeslost01 sometimeslost01 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ishapian Ishapian 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 2

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    Isn't it just easier to smile

    and say it's ok then share with someone? I like to be sure everyone else is taken care of so usually I have to suck it up... And it's usually better that way
    Devotedmom77 Devotedmom77 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I'm still just a nobody

    that nobody ******* notices. I'm sorry I have scars. But I try to hide them. I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as the girls on tv. But I try to be. I'm sorry I'm not as amazing as she is. But I try to be. Im sorry im not as skinny as she is. But i try to be. I try to be every little...
    burnedmemories burnedmemories 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    my father has a brain tumor

    and is out of work, my mother has to work extra to cover medical expenses. I'm so sick of life. I've had many suicidal thoughts and I don't know if I can go on much longer. I'm always made fun of about my weight (I'm extremely underweight) and I am not anorexic or belemic at all...
    EmJinks83 EmJinks83 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I literally hate feeling replaced.

    I'm never good enough. You know about my habits, but you still don't care. I hate this, I hate you. I hate me.
    rsurrett rsurrett 16-17, F Feb 15

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    It's how society wants things to be.

    Remaining stoic and pretending all is good and avoiding 'negativity', that's the why they like it, even if you're not okay. :(
    everyotherusernamewastaken everyotherusernamewastaken 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not ok. In fact I feel

    as if I'm imploding. I'm mad at my husband for not wanting me. My Dom for abandoning me. I'm mad that the two of them are sleeping fine at night and I'm up sobbing hating my life. I'm mad I have a thankless job that I burry myself in to keep a shred of sanity. I wish I had a...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    I'M Ok :'(

    I always say i'm okay, i'm fine. But in reality, i'm not okay or fine!!! But some people, can't see that and are just like : "oh okay", even my family, can't see that i need them. And i dont know what to do anymore!!!! I feel like nobody cares, like if i disappeared, nobody would...
    TheFallenAngle TheFallenAngle 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    I don't want to be alone tonight.

    I need a friend, a shoulder to lean on.
    LiraM LiraM 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    "I'm good", have to say

    so because that's one of my job, so..
    Kayu96 Kayu96 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    Yes, I Am Fine. :)

    Negative attitudes drain the whole crowd and hiding that we are sad can be a very good thing, but it's not easy. Questions are depressing when you don't learn how to answer them. You never know when someone will ask something new. That is why I try to look happy even if I feel...
    Waocky Waocky 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2012

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    Why does everyone keep asking me

    if I'm ok?!? Like I don't get it...I'm ok everyone! LOL okaayy maybe I went off the deep end a little...but is there anything actually wrong with that? What if I like it, and I like discovering new things about myself? All of my family and close friends keep asking me if I'm ok...
    ERMAHGERD1 ERMAHGERD1 22-25, F 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    It is just so much easier to say you're ok

    than to have to tell your story and relive the pain...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    All the time. I always smile

    even when it's hard. At times I just can't hold it in. I smile and I feel my eyes water up and my nose tickle.
    Vnaturaldisaster Vnaturaldisaster 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    i prefer to keep my problems to myself

    rather than burdening others... i get pass it eventually... my friend said I'm her roll model... idk what to think maybe I'm suppose to be strong for me but not show weakness to her or anyone else .. does that mean breaking down is not an option? . oh well anyways it's not...
    mergirl123 mergirl123 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Finally vday is ovaaaaa!

    Yeah. So looking forward to Chinese New Year! The real holiday! :)
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Feb 15

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    I thought I was strong enough to make it

    through, him serving time. Yesterday I cut the ties, its to hard, its dragging me down, every time I leave visitation it hurts a little more, he's all I think about & I feel so helpless, their is no one else I want to be w/ he's the one that has my heart, but I have 3 kids I...
    Shananigins Shananigins 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I'm Not OK Right Now

    This past year has been a super tough year for me. It all started out in November of 2012 with me having a crapload of responsibility and work dumped on me for no additional pay.  I eventually lost that job in July of this year.  Though I'm sort of employed right now, it's a...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    And sometimes you just need someone to hold you

    until the tears quit falling and you are too exhausted to move...
    Icarus2012 Icarus2012 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I have my moments of solitude,

    when I can almost feel weak to the point of craving for two strong arms around me, hugging caringly and tenderly, and keeping me there long... no words needed, maybe some soft kisses on my face and neck, some winks and perhaps a rubbing of noses, like playing children... Such...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    It is not fair It is dawn

    and twilight It is demanding and triumphant It is idiocy and wisdom It is compromise and acceptance It is romance and passion It is determination and accomplishment It is manipulation and benevolence It is failure and loss It is learning and teaching It is love and hate It is...
    graysonlonelyguy graysonlonelyguy 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Yes we usually do! Nobody really can read

    what's in your mind or in your heart except you! They might notice the expression in your face but not really reading what's deep inside.
    Oceandock19 Oceandock19 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    Sometimes Is Today

    It's funny isn't it when you just know. I knew immediately I woke this morning I wasn't going to shine today. That I wasn't going to be okay. The cloud was hovering. Waiting. Damn that cloud. So you force the pleasantries, and chat away. You nod and smile and if asked say "I'm...
    Zoranna Zoranna 70+, F 4 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    Because sometimes, thats easier to tell people

    you are okay, than explain why you are not...
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    It's like saying 'its okay' to someone

    who punched me.. while I lay there bleeding...
    aessis aessis 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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