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I Sometimes Self Harm

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    Mr. R. Blade

    Mr. R Blade. He is there for me all the time He listens to my cries, consoling my aching soul He never talks back to me He doesn't judge, he accepts me for who I am Mr. R Blade. He reassures like no other No one seems to approve of his company But I fancy him just fine He takes...
    RosaRod666 RosaRod666 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Slit Wrist

    i first started at my last year of high school when life became even more of a burden,i wasnt alllowed to do normal teenage stuff, was treated like a slave. ya da yada, any ways the first time i did it i felt good like a released and i loved it, i tried to hide it as best as...
    kikio kikio 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2010

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    12 And Confused

    It was late and I was done with putting up with the bullshit. I drank tell I was numb I couldn't even walk straight or even make a sentence come out of my lips. My dad was pissed off we got into a huge argument about how I was ******* up. I went to my room confused and scared...
    lilgirl247 lilgirl247 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2013

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    I'll keep this short,

    I only cut marks for the people I hurt and that was like 2 months ago. My mom, my crush and of course myself
    Auroradell Auroradell 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Scars

    For quite some time, I've seen characters in various mediums who have scars, battle damage. This always seemed pretty cool to me and I wanted to look as cool as these badasses. The only problem is that I'm not constantly engaged in fights for my life. So I did the next best thing...
    SCUDFACE SCUDFACE 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    I Can't Seem To Stop

    Pretty self explainatory.
    hippiegirlxox hippiegirlxox 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2012

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    Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm

    Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)! Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in...
    PERL2009 PERL2009 18-21 Jan 2, 2010

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    Drowning In Emotional Pain

    Sometimes when I get really depressed or feeling emotionally traumatized I turn to cutting. I cut with a knife. On where I think I'd welcome the pain more. I try to stop that cycle of cutting.
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Sep 1, 2013

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    My Experiences of Depression and Self Harm

    It all started 2.5 years ago (Jan 2007) when I was at college. I hated my life, myself, college, college work, everything and I almost self harmed once and thought about suicide a bit. In June 2007 I left college, got a job, seemed ok and forgot about it all...
    GlitterandSparkle GlitterandSparkle 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    I recently began self harming.

    The pain was to much so I picked up the razor and cut myself five times on my upper thigh so no one would see them.
    sarabell36 sarabell36 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Self Harm

    i cut myself all the time but i dnt ever remeber me doing it. i remeber the first time my freind cut me. she said it helps. i only wish i could do it more nw. i tried to ct main arteries but nearly died yet this has not discouraged me from doing it. i wish i could die sumtimes. i...
    rarted rarted 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2009

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    A Guilty Pleasure

    A little bit of pain feels good. Sometimes I'd provoke my pet into biting me, with those long, sharp teeth; he doesn't mean to be disloyal, but just loses track of himself when I provoke him, because I know what it takes, what works. He just lashes out, very fast, and those claws...
    Nyxii Nyxii 22-25, F Nov 17, 2011

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    Not Who You Think....

    I have been in a series of abusive relationships; nothing physical, it must just be the type of person I'm attracted to! My current partner I have been married to for over 10 years. They are beautiful, loyal cleaver and caring... Just not with me. We have 2 children together...
    UKMe UKMe 36-40 May 31, 2013

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    My Knife Is My Needle

    Its like a drug. The first incision is quick, leaving a flesh colored gash staring back at me. In less than a second, blood rushes into the wound and drips down my arm. I attack the same incision multiple times, each time digging deeper into my arm. By about the fifth individual...
    Iwalkal0ne Iwalkal0ne 16-17, M Mar 14, 2012

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    It's Because Of My Teacher.

    I'm an idiot. I fell for my form tutor, and now I'm on the verge of depression. I'm 14, I shouldn't feel like this. Yet, I feel as if my heart has been ripped from my chest. It started when my kitten started clawing at my arms. It hurt, but it felt good. I don't know why, but I...
    letmethink letmethink 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    I Cant Seem To Stop!

    Im 13 and i have bad anger issues, me and my dad argue all the time but my mum blames me for her having cancer but shes now liing in a mental hospital anyway whenever me and my dad argue about something pathetic i seem to think about everything thats happened and i cut my arm...
    kcilayda kcilayda 13-15 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    I Cant Seem To Stop!

    Im 13 and i have bad anger issues, me and my dad argue all the time but my mum blames me for her having cancer but shes now liing in a mental hospital anyway whenever me and my dad argue about something pathetic i seem to think about everything thats happened and i cut my arm...
    kcilayda kcilayda 13-15 3 Responses May 5, 2012

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    Today

    I couldn't pretend that I was happy. I broke down in front of two classmates tonight, he was one of them. I wish I had controlled the situation better, I think it was a mistake letting them know about my addiction to self harm and my feelings. What makes it worse is that earlier...
    HowlWing HowlWing 18-21, F Oct 11, 2013

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    My Battle To Realisation

    I have spent years forcing myself to hurt myself, only to remind myself Not to hurt others... When I was in high school, my little brother got into a lot of fights. He was the type of person who would expect his big bro to defend him, and this ended up going at least once a week...
    praythypacifist praythypacifist 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    I still cry every night

    because my dad beats me and I cut
    laracolarossi laracolarossi 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I Dont Know Why I Do It.

    to start, i have never done it bad enough to make myself bleed.I did it for the first time a few years ago, when i was really depressed.and now ive started again, but not because I feel sad . I can honestly say I dont know why I do it.I just do it.I just love how it feels.And...
    SpiritualOwl95 SpiritualOwl95 16-17, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    I Thought It Was Over...

    I'm not a cutter, I'm a scratcher. I didn't love it, I hated it, before today I couldn't remember the last time I scratched, it had to have been just a little over a year ago. Last year I was depressed, my life was just so hellish, I just moved to a new town for college, I lost...
    IHaveASadSecret IHaveASadSecret 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2012

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    I Do It........................

    I hurt myself with whatever i can find.. I was once forced to get rid of all my things that i cut with and so after when i was at school i found Random things like Thumb tacks and paper clips.. Until one day in my art class i stole a Razor i keep it in my backpack and take it to...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    Just A Little Bit

    I don't want scars and since it's summer I don't want anyone to see them, or if they do see them I want to be able to brush it off by saying I got them from work. Which is logical because my knees and arms are bruised from work anyway, it wouldn't be that weird to get some...
    kakhi kakhi 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2013

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    The Pain

    I side the blade across my wrist... I watch the blood rise from my skin. The burn makes the pain on the inside feel less noticeable. I hate it. I feel helpless, alone, in pain. No one will care if i slice my neck open next time instead of my wrist. No cares what kind of scars i...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Why Are You Ashamed !?!

    I believe the reasons for self harming are as individual as the people practicing these inflictions...people who have never suffered from depression will never fully understand the need to self harm, for me, self harming is liberating, it takes the emotional pain away that I am...
    Elim Elim 26-30, M Dec 16, 2011

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    Head Banging Experience

    I needed someone to talk to right now. The problem is im not suicidal. Im just fustrated at life for throwing me so many dam lemons. Its a circus in a head all time. Overthinking endless horrible possibiliities. So last night I was upset, overtired, and lonely and my husband...
    Onceuponatime00 Onceuponatime00 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2010

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    I'm Sorry

    I know i promised not to do it again but i couldn't stand this mental pain i didn't manage to stop this heartache i did it again i cut myself again i was just trying to calm myself down i'm so sorry but i can't keep this promise anymore maybe happiness is just another broken...
    AYearWithoutRain AYearWithoutRain 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 23, 2011

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    I Regret My Life.

    i have this step dad. he puts me down in everything i do.. tells me i'm worth nothing.. i'm terrified that when i come home he'll shout at me for no reason at all and tell me to die.. (I'm 15 by the way) i have anxiety and depression which makes me worry all the time. sometimes...
    theeejanoskians theeejanoskians 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2013

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    My Self Harm

    i Self harm because i think im not Worth it it relives my pain..... i lost my child few months ago to cot death that threw of of the edge i started cutting overdoseing Got to point i was in hospital.i talked to a doctor that dint help much it made me Worse i Cry sometimes...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2010

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    My Self Harm

    i Self harm because i think im not Worth it it relives my pain..... i lost my child few months ago to cot death that threw of of the edge i started cutting overdoseing Got to point i was in hospital.i talked to a doctor that dint help much it made me Worse i Cry sometimes...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2010

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    Yeah it's true thought I would do a post

    since I feel alone on this little forming habit. The first time was in May of 2013 I was a bit emotional from the recent events of that time going on in my head, and at home. I was on the bus, but it started out as friction harm, ended up liking the feel it kept other...
    strivexwolf strivexwolf 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    How It Started

    I started developing anxieties and taking on a tons of stress and depression when I was in elementary school ( around grade 4 I guess is when it started to take effect on me ) and sometime during grade six is when I'd felt I'd had more than I could handle ( I was being bullied...
    PursuitOfmyMind PursuitOfmyMind 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Just My Life In the Last Few Years

    I've been a particular child since I was born, I wasn't very friendly, and I didn't use to speak much with other people. I used to live in my own world -and I've never stopped. I wasn't happy, but this fiction helped me survive. When I was 15 things changed: I began to argue...
    VioletKeppel VioletKeppel 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 30, 2009

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    I Didn't Know At First What I Was Doing...

    I used to cut when I was around 15, but it wasn't a big problem and I stopped. Before that I had a weird habit of pulling the hair out on my scalp, because I liked the way the pain felt. By the time I was trying to stop I had about 4 quarter sized bald spots on my head. Wasn't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 11, 2012

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    6 months ago was the last time I did it.

    It's a secret I keep from my loved ones. I still partially blame myself for my past. Sometimes I just cant help it. It just feels right. It feels good kinda. The pain caused by myself makes me feel better. Im so use to feeling pain caused by others so when I do it to myself I...
    ScarletAva ScarletAva 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    For Those Of You Who Think You Can'T Hold On Anymore... Picture This Please.≪3

    **Yes, it's going to be a little upsetting in the beginning, and you may think it's pointless at first, but it wont be. Please read until the end, and if you don't, please stay strong.** Picture this... You're sitting in your room, scrolling down a page that was dedicated to...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5, 2013

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    I Need Help!

    Yesterday was valentines day. I met up with my girlfriend and I was so happy just to be with her. We have been experiencing massive problems lately because she believes that our child that she is carrying has down syndrome because of the doctors tests. Yet we were having a...
    TrinitySeven TrinitySeven 36-40 1 Response Feb 15, 2013

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    I'm Too Old To Be Doing This

    I hadn't self harmed for three years until a month ago. I've turned back to it as one of my ways of coping cuts aren't even having time to heal before I'm making new ones. The pain is worth it at the moment though I deserve it. My stomach is covered and sitting hurts but it's a...
    Unlabelled1211 Unlabelled1211 18-21, T Oct 21, 2012

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    Let Me Tell You My Story

    I realize I'm only fifteen, and most people think teenagers cut for attention or because of drama, but this is different. A little under a year ago I got involved in a relationship with a guy who was emotionally abusive towards me. He pushed my boundaries and crushed my self...
    PrincessAtHeart PrincessAtHeart 13-15, F Oct 29, 2012

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    I've Been Exposed

    I have been cutting on and off since 6th grade. It wasn't till the beginning of my sophomore year that it started to get terrible. It was almost like every emotion that i did not like i can replace with pain. I much rather feel physical pain then guilt, stress, or sadness...
    quietasamouse quietasamouse 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2011

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    "my Addiction"

      when sitting in a room, while theres loud silence throughout the night,you can find more in that silence than in light with bright voices,  if you sit and keep still you can feel the air thats not moving,  the wind that has not touched, the air that has not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    Never

    I've been cutting, hitting, burning, breaking my hands and legs for years. I am proud to say that its been longer then 7 months since I last hurted myself. I can tell you this the feeling never gose away. I still think about and even more when my life feels like its going out of...
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2013

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    I stopped for the most part,

    getting all the help that i need. But one of the reasons i decided to quit was because i was getting older and i was wanted to do things like donate blood, but i couldn't with nasty cuts all over my arms, or so that going to the doctor wouldn't be so awkward. I don't do it near...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F Dec 14, 2013

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    Just One Of Those Days

    Ever had one of those days where nothing in particular happens yet at some point you just feel like your going to breakdown? :( I hate that. Today was just a nothing special day. Went to school, went to the animal shelter, hung out with one of my friends yet as soon as I came...
    complexitykills complexitykills 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Hey Guys

    I just thought you should all know, you're beautiful. I've been down this road and I know how hard it can be, so keep your head up and know that you're all an amazing individual, a beautiful individual, and an important individual. <3
    iiDontEvenKnow iiDontEvenKnow 18-21, F Jul 19, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I self harm. I've been self harming since i was 11 years old i am now 14 and i am slowly starting to recover. A year ago i attempted suicide and nearly succeed, but my best mate...
    jayspiller1 jayspiller1 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I started self-harming at the age of 12 years old, but it didn't turn into a problem, or serious enough to remember till I was about 13 years old or so. I was in a dark place at...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I self harm. Ill admit it. No I wasn't raped (that is sad though. If that has happened to you I'm sorry) No I'm not bullied or abused. I'm not writing this to get sympathy. I just...
    blackbird96 blackbird96 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I have Bipolar disorder and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Soo I don't have a name for it... But yeahh Anger is a sign of depression they say that with alittle treatment you'll be okay. But one day when everything is gone and black and...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    It started when I was 10 or 11. Things were going badly at home and I was struggling with undiagnosed depression and anxiety. I'd cut to relieve my anxiety and keep me calm, to...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F Mar 31

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    Well we all go through that phase of, "The world hates me! I'll never fit in! I'm a freak!" Well I went through that and sometimes feel that I still am. My experience is self...
    vanmaury vanmaury 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I don't know where to begin when It comes to my experience with self harm. I started cutting when I was 13, the first time I had ever self harmed was in my bathroom with a large...
    musicforthemorningafter musicforthemorningafter 13-15, F Apr 7

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    I started when I was eleven,I am now 19. Sometimes when people ask me about my scars and I tell them i went to rehab for self harm, they look at me like i'm gross. Others look at...
    SadieghBaby SadieghBaby 18-21, F Apr 6