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I Sometimes Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 461 People

    Trying to stop. Been clean

    for a week now.. Doesn't sound like much, I know :-D But getting there
    kakhi kakhi 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    After a party 6 weeks ago,

    I pierced my lip. In the morning I had remembered everything except my reason for piercing it, but I just remembered now. I was listening to music, and one song was really depressing and made me feel like cutting. Instead of finding my blade, I found a needle. I have always like...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F Dec 19

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    Scars

    For quite some time, I've seen characters in various mediums who have scars, battle damage. This always seemed pretty cool to me and I wanted to look as cool as these badasses. The only problem is that I'm not constantly engaged in fights for my life. So I did the next best thing...
    SCUDFACE SCUDFACE 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 6, 2013

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    I Regret My Life.

    i have this step dad. he puts me down in everything i do.. tells me i'm worth nothing.. i'm terrified that when i come home he'll shout at me for no reason at all and tell me to die.. (I'm 15 by the way) i have anxiety and depression which makes me worry all the time. sometimes...
    theeejanoskians theeejanoskians 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2013

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    Control

    I started cutting around 6-7 months ago. It wasn't intentional. I thought i was coping... Pushing the flash backs and memories of the abuse back inside. My grades in school were fine for a while... Then they started to suffer, i was causing concern. I was taken into the child...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 12, 2010

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    Head Banging Experience

    I needed someone to talk to right now. The problem is im not suicidal. Im just fustrated at life for throwing me so many dam lemons. Its a circus in a head all time. Overthinking endless horrible possibiliities. So last night I was upset, overtired, and lonely and my husband...
    Onceuponatime00 Onceuponatime00 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2010

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    Clean since 6-30-14💕 gonna try to keep it

    up☺️ atm I'm an ex-cutter👌
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    I Dont Know Why I Do It.

    to start, i have never done it bad enough to make myself bleed.I did it for the first time a few years ago, when i was really depressed.and now ive started again, but not because I feel sad . I can honestly say I dont know why I do it.I just do it.I just love how it feels.And...
    SpiritualOwl95 SpiritualOwl95 16-17, F 4 Responses May 2, 2011

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    How It Started

    I started developing anxieties and taking on a tons of stress and depression when I was in elementary school ( around grade 4 I guess is when it started to take effect on me ) and sometime during grade six is when I'd felt I'd had more than I could handle ( I was being bullied...
    PursuitOfmyMind PursuitOfmyMind 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    ILYMatthewEspinosa ILYMatthewEspinosa 13-15, F May 17

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    A Guilty Pleasure

    A little bit of pain feels good. Sometimes I'd provoke my pet into biting me, with those long, sharp teeth; he doesn't mean to be disloyal, but just loses track of himself when I provoke him, because I know what it takes, what works. He just lashes out, very fast, and those claws...
    Nyxii Nyxii 22-25, F Nov 17, 2011

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    Today

    I couldn't pretend that I was happy. I broke down in front of two classmates tonight, he was one of them. I wish I had controlled the situation better, I think it was a mistake letting them know about my addiction to self harm and my feelings. What makes it worse is that earlier...
    HowlWing HowlWing 18-21, F Oct 11, 2013

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    Drowning In Emotional Pain

    Sometimes when I get really depressed or feeling emotionally traumatized I turn to cutting. I cut with a knife. On where I think I'd welcome the pain more. I try to stop that cycle of cutting.
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Sep 1, 2013

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    The Pain

    I side the blade across my wrist... I watch the blood rise from my skin. The burn makes the pain on the inside feel less noticeable. I hate it. I feel helpless, alone, in pain. No one will care if i slice my neck open next time instead of my wrist. No cares what kind of scars i...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F Dec 31, 2012

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    Not Who You Think....

    I have been in a series of abusive relationships; nothing physical, it must just be the type of person I'm attracted to! My current partner I have been married to for over 10 years. They are beautiful, loyal cleaver and caring... Just not with me. We have 2 children together...
    UKMe UKMe 36-40 May 31, 2013

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    I still cry every night

    because my dad beats me and I cut
    laracolarossi laracolarossi 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I Need Help!

    Yesterday was valentines day. I met up with my girlfriend and I was so happy just to be with her. We have been experiencing massive problems lately because she believes that our child that she is carrying has down syndrome because of the doctors tests. Yet we were having a...
    TrinitySeven TrinitySeven 36-40 1 Response Feb 15, 2013

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    My Experiences of Depression and Self Harm

    It all started 2.5 years ago (Jan 2007) when I was at college. I hated my life, myself, college, college work, everything and I almost self harmed once and thought about suicide a bit. In June 2007 I left college, got a job, seemed ok and forgot about it all...
    GlitterandSparkle GlitterandSparkle 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 12, 2009

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    Sometimes I feel like,

    I cut myself because of stupid things which aren't worth it but I just feel like cutting...
    HandaGabriella HandaGabriella 13-15, F Nov 19

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    Mr. R. Blade

    Mr. R Blade. He is there for me all the time He listens to my cries, consoling my aching soul He never talks back to me He doesn't judge, he accepts me for who I am Mr. R Blade. He reassures like no other No one seems to approve of his company But I fancy him just fine He takes...
    RosaRod666 RosaRod666 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Without her I am nothing.

    She's the part of me that keeps the rest of me alive. I don't know what to do.
    SomeoneLikeNoOne SomeoneLikeNoOne 16-17, M Dec 13

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    My Knife Is My Needle

    Its like a drug. The first incision is quick, leaving a flesh colored gash staring back at me. In less than a second, blood rushes into the wound and drips down my arm. I attack the same incision multiple times, each time digging deeper into my arm. By about the fifth individual...
    Iwalkal0ne Iwalkal0ne 16-17, M Mar 14, 2012

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    I stopped for the most part,

    getting all the help that i need. But one of the reasons i decided to quit was because i was getting older and i was wanted to do things like donate blood, but i couldn't with nasty cuts all over my arms, or so that going to the doctor wouldn't be so awkward. I don't do it near...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F Dec 14, 2013

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    My Battle To Realisation

    I have spent years forcing myself to hurt myself, only to remind myself Not to hurt others... When I was in high school, my little brother got into a lot of fights. He was the type of person who would expect his big bro to defend him, and this ended up going at least once a week...
    NoctisUmbra NoctisUmbra 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2012

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    I'll keep this short,

    I only cut marks for the people I hurt and that was like 2 months ago. My mom, my crush and of course myself
    Auroradell Auroradell 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I get my mini dagger

    and point it to my lips since those boys call me DSL. I always wonder how ill look without them. I keep telling myself not to do it so I put the dagger away but the past few nights, I started scratching myself, peeling deep into my skin, pulling out my hair, and crying myself to...
    xocarasoulxo xocarasoulxo 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I'm Sorry

    I know i promised not to do it again but i couldn't stand this mental pain i didn't manage to stop this heartache i did it again i cut myself again i was just trying to calm myself down i'm so sorry but i can't keep this promise anymore maybe happiness is just another broken...
    AYearWithoutRain AYearWithoutRain 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 23, 2011

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    12 And Confused

    It was late and I was done with putting up with the bullshit. I drank tell I was numb I couldn't even walk straight or even make a sentence come out of my lips. My dad was pissed off we got into a huge argument about how I was ******* up. I went to my room confused and scared...
    lilgirl247 lilgirl247 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2013

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    PANDASAREAWESOME67 PANDASAREAWESOME67 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    "I once knew a boy who liked to draw beautiful

    pictures that nobody saw. He drew by himself alone at night, locked in his bedroom, out of sight. The pictures were strange; they came with a twist. His pen was a razor. His canvas, a wrist. We lay out at night watching the stars, when he lifted his sleeve and showed me his...
    ofnoimportance ofnoimportance 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    I am starting to carve things into my skin all

    over my body. It hurts, and it leaves scars, but I kinda like it.
    ofnoimportance ofnoimportance 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    For Those Of You Who Think You Can'T Hold On Anymore... Picture This Please.≪3

    **Yes, it's going to be a little upsetting in the beginning, and you may think it's pointless at first, but it wont be. Please read until the end, and if you don't, please stay strong.** Picture this... You're sitting in your room, scrolling down a page that was dedicated to...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5, 2013

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    I recently began self harming.

    The pain was to much so I picked up the razor and cut myself five times on my upper thigh so no one would see them.
    sarabell36 sarabell36 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    Just A Little Bit

    I don't want scars and since it's summer I don't want anyone to see them, or if they do see them I want to be able to brush it off by saying I got them from work. Which is logical because my knees and arms are bruised from work anyway, it wouldn't be that weird to get some...
    kakhi kakhi 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2013

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    Why Are You Ashamed !?!

    I believe the reasons for self harming are as individual as the people practicing these inflictions...people who have never suffered from depression will never fully understand the need to self harm, for me, self harming is liberating, it takes the emotional pain away that I am...
    Elim Elim 26-30, M Dec 16, 2011

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    6 months ago was the last time I did it.

    It's a secret I keep from my loved ones. I still partially blame myself for my past. Sometimes I just cant help it. It just feels right. It feels good kinda. The pain caused by myself makes me feel better. Im so use to feeling pain caused by others so when I do it to myself I...
    ScarletAva ScarletAva 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Never

    I've been cutting, hitting, burning, breaking my hands and legs for years. I am proud to say that its been longer then 7 months since I last hurted myself. I can tell you this the feeling never gose away. I still think about and even more when my life feels like its going out of...
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2013

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    I Do It........................

    I hurt myself with whatever i can find.. I was once forced to get rid of all my things that i cut with and so after when i was at school i found Random things like Thumb tacks and paper clips.. Until one day in my art class i stole a Razor i keep it in my backpack and take it to...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F Jan 17, 2013

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    It happened the summer

    before grade 10. A lot of scars have faded away, but I've piled up with new ones. I guess I don't go that deep. But I go enough over the same spot so it eventually does. And goes dark. I dig my nails into my skin on the bus, or when I feel contained from within by all that's...
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F Nov 2

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    Hey Guys

    I just thought you should all know, you're beautiful. I've been down this road and I know how hard it can be, so keep your head up and know that you're all an amazing individual, a beautiful individual, and an important individual. <3
    iiDontEvenKnow iiDontEvenKnow 18-21, F Jul 19, 2012

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    I'm going to be in a swimsuit all week

    because I'm going to my cousins house, everyone is gonna see my scars...
    l3x1l0v3 l3x1l0v3 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    Yeah it's true thought I would do a post

    since I feel alone on this little forming habit. The first time was in May of 2013 I was a bit emotional from the recent events of that time going on in my head, and at home. I was on the bus, but it started out as friction harm, ended up liking the feel it kept other...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Self-injury is like puncturing a small hole in

    the balloon of negative emotions inside me. It wouldn’t pop; it would just leak and let all the negativity out slowly.
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F Aug 15

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    when i was little i was horribly bullied. one day he tried to strangle me it got to that point. i was only young about 4 or 5 and since then i've always had incredibly low self...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Wow... The quantity of self-harm stories on EP is reaching a worrying level!? Every time I check an update there is at least 1 new experience of someone taking part in bodily...
    Fennerbache Fennerbache 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I started self harming three years ago I don't do it a lot I do it when I can't take it anymore. I first self harmed when I found out that dad cheated on mom and I felt so bad I...
    Busexx Busexx 16-17, F Nov 28

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    I've tried so hard to stop but it's the biggest release I have It got so bad It was effecting me at school and people noticed I was pulled in for a really long meeting with a...
    AdventureIsAlwaysAroundTheBend AdventureIsAlwaysAroundTheBend 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I self harm myself on my legs and lately I've been doing it less frequently but yesterday I snapped and broke my streak. They were pretty deep and I bandaged them. I took the...
    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 12

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    im done with saying i might, maybe , should i the breaking point is 1 thing away. if one more bad thing happens then yes i will self harm. it is sad thinking that by the 30 th i...
    alysia28 alysia28 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 18

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    I have always fought with an eating disorder and anxiety but this year I became involved with depression and self-harm. In the spring of 2014, I got involved in a car accident and...
    ecokismet ecokismet 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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