I Sometimes Want to Be a Drug Addict

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    I'd Like to Trade...

    I feel like I have created enough harmful situations for myself, at least if I were a drug addict instead I would be able to escape from the reality of having created that harmful situation...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 6, 2007

    But I Can't, Not Right Now

    he's in the army and we are overseas. but when i get state-side i swear i'm gonna start back up. it's the only thing that makes me function in society. 
    juggalove juggalove
    31-35, F
    4 Responses May 3, 2010

    So Maybe I Need to Clarify...

    I've gotten a bunch of comments telling me "oh you don't want to do that trust me I've been there" and so I feel like maybe I should clarify a couple of things. I don't want to be a drug addict on top of everything else, but rather, in place of. I've been there...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2007

    ... I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

    I remember the counsolers telling us to say no to drugs. I remember feeling "yucky" when someone mentioned crack. I remember waking up to find a crack-headed stranger sleeping on my porch one day. For some reason, I want to join. I want to join a life of possession and prison and...
    KMAna KMAna
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

    I have this morbid fascination with drugs.

    I want to inject heroin into my veins and inhale the scent of cocaine. I want to feel the texture of different pills in my mouth. But whenever I get the chance, I back away. Why? I don't know. Maybe I'm not ready to surrender. I don't do anything except smoke. And it makes me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    Drugs

    This is an odd one. Yes, I am a recreational drug user, whatevz, nothing serious. To be quite honest I read more about drugs than I actually do them. I research drugs regularly not only because I find the topic (and how it applies to psychology, neurochemistry, etc.) rather...
    thisboy thisboy
    18-21, M
    May 3, 2010

    I've always wanted drugs.

    Why? Same reason as a lot of people- to escape reality. I knew the consequences. I knew the risks. And yet I still wanted to be addicted. Well guess what? I got what I wanted. I can't go a day without getting some type of high. But the worse part yet is that I'm still not done...
    SecretPulse SecretPulse
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2015

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