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I Sometimes Want to Be a Drug Addict

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    ... I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

    I remember the counsolers telling us to say no to drugs. I remember feeling "yucky" when someone mentioned crack. I remember waking up to find a crack-headed stranger sleeping on my porch one day. For some reason, I want to join. I want to join a life of possession and prison and...
    KMAna KMAna 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    Drugs

    This is an odd one. Yes, I am a recreational drug user, whatevz, nothing serious. To be quite honest I read more about drugs than I actually do them. I research drugs regularly not only because I find the topic (and how it applies to psychology, neurochemistry, etc.) rather...
    thisboy thisboy 18-21, M May 3, 2010

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    So Maybe I Need to Clarify...

    I've gotten a bunch of comments telling me "oh you don't want to do that trust me I've been there" and so I feel like maybe I should clarify a couple of things. I don't want to be a drug addict on top of everything else, but rather, in place of. I've been there...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 19-21, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2007

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    I'd Like to Trade...

    I feel like I have created enough harmful situations for myself, at least if I were a drug addict instead I would be able to escape from the reality of having created that harmful situation...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 19-21, F 4 Responses Dec 6, 2007

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    But I Can't, Not Right Now

    he's in the army and we are overseas. but when i get state-side i swear i'm gonna start back up. it's the only thing that makes me function in society. 
    juggalove juggalove 31-35, F 5 Responses May 3, 2010

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F Mar 27

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
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    My boyfriend used to be a drug addict. He said he used every drug in the books for a while and was addicted to heroine, but got clean a year ago. I know couple of days ago his...
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    My sister completed a 60 day stint in rehab and was just released this past Monday. She has had a long history with prescription pills but has never had the right treatment to deal...
    Anec233 Anec233 26-30, F Mar 21

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    I have a 2 year old with the love of my life. This is my first encounter with drug addiction of any kind. His choice is Rx pills, but I'm convinced it's progressed to heroin. We...
    AlmostWhole AlmostWhole 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My boyfriend and I have been together for about a year now. I knew from the beginning he struggled with a drug addiction, but I had no idea what I was getting into. We were only...
    Shelllbywilssson Shelllbywilssson 18-21, F Mar 30

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    My ex husband of 15 years was a drug addict. Very hard to live with and love. I finally had to leave him ......in hope that he would get help and change for our children and myself...
    dawwnrenee dawwnrenee 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    My experience started a little over a year ago...my ex left me after 21 years of marriage and so with a hurt heart and a lonely disposition, I sought out a new mate...my addict. We...
    ACKKMK ACKKMK 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    My Husband is addicted to Cocaine. He's 12 years younger then me and we've been married since 1996, it was a happy marriage and we loved eachother up until a couple of years ago...
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    In complete denial....... Hello all. I have read many posts of yalls dealing with this issue. I came searching for answers and help/support because I feel very alone and scared. I...
    ashoryb ashoryb 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I hid from my emotions with drugs for 15 years. Now I'm clean and it's all so new to me to have these feelings. I will never start taking drugs again because try nearly killed me...
    Nateee Nateee 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    I am a meth addict. I've been to rehab twice. This second time was only a week ago. I am 30 days sober today. Before I relapsed I was clean for 8 months. I have been on dope since...
    morgannmckenna morgannmckenna 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 3

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    i do can relate my situation right now and i don't know what to do.. it's almost 3weeks when he stepped out on our own house without even saying any words with our childrens...
    angelkish angelkish 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Hello. I wrote a post in July about me and my husbands spiraling issue. His issue. I am so scared/worried because not much has changed since my last post. Things have taken a turn...
    roxio1983 roxio1983 22-25, F Mar 21

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    I've always been one to use in moderation. started with the whole raving and E and learning to shuffle on the weekends enjoying life... then losing party privileges cause i had to...
    destinyisfate destinyisfate 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    My husband and I have been married for 6 weeks now. I've loved him for 19 years though. Still just as much as I did when we met. He's been an addict his entire adult life. I...
    kct0314 kct0314 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 26

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    I've been married to a binge meth addict for almost 6 years. I just don't know what to do. He doesn't use everyday or even every week. He can go for long stretchs telling me and...
    brokenintexas brokenintexas 46-50, F 5 Responses Apr 11

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    I was addicted to crack for about 5 yrs, been clean for 8 yrs now, quit cold turkey not easy withdrawls were massive but I did t!!!!!
    mcveypamela199 mcveypamela199 36-40, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I was addicted to crack for 5 yrs been clean for 8 yrs. now.
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    My partner of 20yrs has been through alcohol and marijuana dependencies, he now discovered synthetic marijuana and has become worse, although he believes it's better than alcohol...
    beebop01 beebop01 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I want to cry i want to shade my tears i wanna scream out all the pain but there is nomore tear left i'm tires of everything :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I want to cry all the time lately there is only one person who can and does help me
    bcamillexoxo bcamillexoxo 13-15, F 18 hrs ago

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    Yes, I sometimes do. I sometimes, but only some times, want to have an illicit affair, with all of the things that comes with this. And when I say this, of course, because it is me...
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 2 days ago

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    when this pains gets to be too much. when i cant take anything anymore. which is all the time. inside me theres a ball of pain stuck in there that produces tears. a ball that...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I wanted to create this and get it in here so that I can write a story for it, maybe more than one at some point or another, because it feels pretty inside. That is all for now.
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have had an eventfull week. My roof leaked and I had to climb up and fix it as my partner was so off his head on crack. He disappeared and I tracked him with the GPS on his phone...
    winstonpeaky1 winstonpeaky1 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    We have 6 children 1 grandchild and a 2nd grandchild on the way, the bills are swamping more and more each week, trying to talk to him is horrible, it gets worse week by week. I...
    beebop01 beebop01 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    My father was a drunk and a crackhead from the day he left the navy in 1981 to the day he died in may of 2013. My mother also dated a series of guys after my father how did crack...
    dacraww dacraww 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    Has anyone ever loved someone recovering from heroin? My ex and I broke up recently because he's lost total sense of himself. He has been clean for 2 years (14 months of that in a...
    Girlonthemoon92 Girlonthemoon92 22-25 1 Response Apr 7

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    I'm getting so frustrated with these racing thoughts and not being able to focus. I guess I'm grateful I'm not sick or hungover today and that I have a solution. It can sure get...
    samuel0591 samuel0591 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm a mom of one child and one on the way. I have been married going on almost 5 yrs. ijb
    achingheart123 achingheart123 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    YupThatsMee YupThatsMee 22-25, F 19 hrs ago

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    I could do it for eternity. ❤️ sleep is so damn beautiful to me.
    levanlee levanlee 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    Lately I've been really upset and crying for no reason. I hate it but i don't know what to do.
    elizabethstreet elizabethstreet 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    When science invents a way for humans to hibernate, just set my alarm for January 1, 2099 lol.
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M Mar 22

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    becks2378 becks2378 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F Mar 27

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    1. You were purposefully made with the divine Love and Intention of God. Whether or not you believe is irrelevant, you are Loved. 2. Mistakes are intentional and necessary to...
    OnlyLoveKeepsTrying OnlyLoveKeepsTrying 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I am a prescription drug addict who is in rehab and had not used in six month. The last time used was a complete disaster. I used Xanax and alcohol became violent. I ended up...
    presurluk presurluk 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    My 18 year old son is a drug addict. This is the 3rd time I have discovered he has been selling things from my house. The first time was half my jewelry. The second time was the...
    monposhie monposhie 51-55, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My own childhood included a drug addict for a father who was later sent to prison, a controlling racist grandmother, time in orphanage, and pure misery most days. I refuse to be...
    2ndGenPuppet 2ndGenPuppet 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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