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I Sometimes Want to Be a Drug Addict

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    Drugs

    This is an odd one. Yes, I am a recreational drug user, whatevz, nothing serious. To be quite honest I read more about drugs than I actually do them. I research drugs regularly not only because I find the topic (and how it applies to psychology, neurochemistry, etc.) rather...
    thisboy thisboy 18-21, M May 3, 2010

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    But I Can't, Not Right Now

    he's in the army and we are overseas. but when i get state-side i swear i'm gonna start back up. it's the only thing that makes me function in society. 
    juggalove juggalove 31-35, F 5 Responses May 3, 2010

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    ... I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

    I remember the counsolers telling us to say no to drugs. I remember feeling "yucky" when someone mentioned crack. I remember waking up to find a crack-headed stranger sleeping on my porch one day. For some reason, I want to join. I want to join a life of possession and prison and...
    KMAna KMAna 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    So Maybe I Need to Clarify...

    I've gotten a bunch of comments telling me "oh you don't want to do that trust me I've been there" and so I feel like maybe I should clarify a couple of things. I don't want to be a drug addict on top of everything else, but rather, in place of. I've been there...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2007

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    I'd Like to Trade...

    I feel like I have created enough harmful situations for myself, at least if I were a drug addict instead I would be able to escape from the reality of having created that harmful situation...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 6, 2007

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    1994-introduction to crack, 9 months into using: went to prison (manslaughter & robbery) Incarcerated for 14 years 11 months. Earned a BA degree while in prison, got involved in...
    johnqrich johnqrich 41-45, M May 13

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    16 years together, one beautiful 3yr. old daughter and I think I've finally accepted it may be the time to let go and move on....... My boyfriend is a drug addict, his drug of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 2

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    Okay I don't know where else to go, and I'm kind of scared right now. I don't have a drug addiction. But my older brother does and he's been doing pain pills for years. He crushes...
    kyliereneaa kyliereneaa 16-17, F 4 Responses May 13

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    I sometimes want to sleep forever...when things are so though...
    enchantingjade enchantingjade 36-40 2 Responses May 1

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    In April of 2014 I lost my mother to brain cancer. I am sixteen years old, and it was extremely depressing and hard on both my sister and I. My sister is twenty, so she takes care...
    aarondisney aarondisney 22-25, M May 1

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    Given that I've been really bummed out of late and there's no shortage of drugs available to me (methamphetamine and mdma is very prominent in my groups, opiates benzos etc is easy...
    chinawhite007 chinawhite007 26-30, M 2 Responses May 12

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    I am your Disease. I hate meetings. I hate your higher power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and death. Allow me to...
    ajb234 ajb234 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 25

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    Today is my 3 year anniversary with the boy I love. I knew I loved him since I was 13. I'm 20 now. This morning I found out he took percocets. He has a history of doing xanax...
    livelaughlove08642 livelaughlove08642 18-21, F May 4

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    drugs take away the pain i always wanna be high
    Tripppy Tripppy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    I MUST GET AWAY FROM DRUGS. I HAVE A 6YR. OLD AND IM DONE WITH FEELING THIS WAY. I DONT EVEN ENJOY IT ANYMORE
    natalienicole2015 natalienicole2015 31-35, F 2 Responses May 1

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    Sometimes my dreams don't make sense at all but I love it. Sometimes my dreams make me feel amazing and I love it. Sometimes my dreams leave me scared and gasping for air but I...
    Amairany Amairany 16-17, F May 7

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    Sometimes I want peace, I want to sleep forever.
    PatrickHabib PatrickHabib 26-30, M May 6

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    Sometimes when I hear the alarm clock, I silence it and say: **** it. I continue sleeping. After that i hate myself.
    thatjust thatjust 18-21, F Apr 30

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    Eating disorders are not fun to have they are very hard to fix and sometimes they lead to depression
    mackenziep71 mackenziep71 13-15, F May 11

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    I wish I could be put into a medically induced coma sometimes. 'Cause when life gets hard or I'm having relationship problems, all I wanna do is go to sleep and wake up when it's...
    xxyourblackdahliaxx xxyourblackdahliaxx 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Sometimes going out of your comfort zone is a rush!
    iam1ofakind iam1ofakind 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I actually had anorexia for five years that included five inpatient/hospital stays for it; loads of medical/ nutritional counseling & even way more therapy. I was quote/unquote...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F May 10

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    eating disorders are much more difficult to cope with than your bad eating habits. eat less and exercise if you want to lose weight. it's sad that people actually WANT an eating...
    imverylost imverylost 18-21, F May 11

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    i cant do anything. i cant study so my grades suck this term. i cant read. i cant focus on something. because i feel like i have no energy. i waste my time doing nothing. i just...
    butterbeer101 butterbeer101 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I lay under my quilt . its dark , so peaceful . it feels safe . in my dreams i can escape the reality of how i really feel . i dont have to pretend . I dont have to come to the...
    devilgirl123zombie devilgirl123zombie 16-17, F 2 Responses May 5

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    I can control my dreams, I'm loved in my dreams. No one can hurt me, I'm strong, I'm proud, I'm beautiful. I feel safe rapped up in my warm duvet, It's like a shield I never want...
    sarahannr sarahannr 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    i am tired with life i just want to cry and scream...i just feel all alone...i am tired to be fake and perfect..what is happiness?? i just need warm place to feel better.i feeling...
    myselfhere myselfhere 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    no more weed left this month but got a hold of some oxycodone and I'm sitting here listening to music feeling good but sleepy.
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols 26-30, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    My life is sooo ****** I am so ****** I just ate 60 aprazolam
    Username420123 Username420123 18-21 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I've been clean about 5 months now, but I'm having the WORST cravings ever. I'm shaking as I'm writing this, feel like I'm illing all over again. I need so,done to talk to before I...
    Mizbaltimore Mizbaltimore 26-30, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I don't have a problem with my substance use, so why does everyone else?
    johnboi284 johnboi284 26-30, M May 16

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    I'm the type to get attached to things I love and since that day all I do is pills. At first it was super cool and life was extra beautiful. Now it somehow ruined my life and it...
    Sheisinlove Sheisinlove 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    i'm two days heroin free... It hurts sooooo bad
    Avalina20 Avalina20 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Quite often my dreams are more interesting than real life. It feels a lot better to be asleep as well. However, it just so happens that you have to do quite a bit while awake in...
    SolaLuna SolaLuna 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    i know i have to do homework but...... i wanna sleep! >_<
    kyanitestone186 kyanitestone186 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    No matter how hard I try to get my life pieced together, there's always something she can suggest which my depressed and self pitying mind just couldn't find the motivation to do...
    CandleLitApple CandleLitApple 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Not in a suicidal way. I have gone a few years without a lick of sadness. I'm just always tired. I could use a nap that lasts awhile.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 30

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    I'm not unhappy. But lately I'm always exhausted. Even when I get sleep it still never feels like enough. I haven't seen a Dr. so maybe I should double check but I love sleeping...
    LUzunov LUzunov 18-21, F 1 Response May 1

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    aha, i tried it once. i ended up in the hospital.
    callmenathan callmenathan 18-21, F 1 Response May 1

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    often : when im in confortable arms of preference someone i love. Or when i face to face a terrible event. Or when i realise how much my bed is confortable, and make amazing dream...
    laulala laulala 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1

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    I just wanna sleeeeeep forever. Never see tomorrow- Portugal.the man
    GEMWASHERE GEMWASHERE 13-15, F May 1

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    I hate the amount of perverts and how some people here thinks themselves 'so cool' when they make fun of you or tend to be sarcastic to be likable and appealing to other users...
    ReemNoctis ReemNoctis 16-17, F 9 Responses May 7