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I Sometimes Want to Be a Drug Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 32 People

    ... I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

    I remember the counsolers telling us to say no to drugs. I remember feeling "yucky" when someone mentioned crack. I remember waking up to find a crack-headed stranger sleeping on my porch one day. For some reason, I want to join. I want to join a life of possession and prison and...
    KMAna KMAna 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    But I Can't, Not Right Now

    he's in the army and we are overseas. but when i get state-side i swear i'm gonna start back up. it's the only thing that makes me function in society. 
    juggalove juggalove 31-35, F 5 Responses May 3, 2010

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    Drugs

    This is an odd one. Yes, I am a recreational drug user, whatevz, nothing serious. To be quite honest I read more about drugs than I actually do them. I research drugs regularly not only because I find the topic (and how it applies to psychology, neurochemistry, etc.) rather...
    thisboy thisboy 18-21, M May 3, 2010

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    So Maybe I Need to Clarify...

    I've gotten a bunch of comments telling me "oh you don't want to do that trust me I've been there" and so I feel like maybe I should clarify a couple of things. I don't want to be a drug addict on top of everything else, but rather, in place of. I've been there...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2007

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    I'd Like to Trade...

    I feel like I have created enough harmful situations for myself, at least if I were a drug addict instead I would be able to escape from the reality of having created that harmful situation...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 6, 2007

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    magsssmae magsssmae 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    If I weren't on the inside looking out I'd be f'n laffing! Ex decided to quit paying child support - or when he does he pays far less than ordered knowing we live hand to mouth (no...
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    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19

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