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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    I Give Up

    There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted.  I'm stressed, scared, and alone.  I never intended or wanted this kind of life.  I've been...
    thoughts thoughts 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round

    Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to death. I know my girlfriend loves me very much. I feel that Im cured of Bipolar, although I hear that Bipolar is uncurable. I still - feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    Reasons To Die In Order To Live

    So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a uncertain branch on the tree of science witch bases their decisions merely on assumptions and lucky guesses.The truth is that only 1...
    darktemplar darktemplar 22-25, M Mar 24, 2011

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    Long Time Coming...

    Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality, I do - good job, 3 amazing kids, loving parents, and a husband. But I still feel empty, let down by the people I love...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel 31-35 Oct 7, 2010

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    Things Change

    a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take enough and ended up in the hospital the next day because of a failing liver. life has had it's ups and down, a lot of...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Sep 26, 2013

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    More So Recently

    I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing a degree that I hated and that stressed me out (physics, if you're curious). But I stuck it out, and graduated with a...
    Schlub Schlub 22-25, F Jul 20, 2013

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    I Don't Understand Why!

    My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and started declining in health back in September. I was able to fly back to see her for a week, but wasn't able to see her again...
    leilo leilo 26-30, F May 7, 2012

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    Hopeless.

    Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die 
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But...

     Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see tomorrow and know that everything will be okay and things will and do improve. Dying is the easy way out, and sometimes it WOULD seem...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I've been getting better about feeling

    that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these feelings. Sometimes, it's certain things about myself that I hate, and they bring on those feelings. I feel fine right now, but I do struggle...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Feb 16

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    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart..

    ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be the same,things probably get better...if i read stories i posted i before and what i actually think about me its so hard coz i do advise...
    annasangels annasangels 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    SoMeTimeS!

     Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and have fun but then things go down the drain and everything i was working for is underapreciated and/or feel...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Depressed

    I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year and a half ago and she just married someone. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her everyday and she is...
    xmwx xmwx 31-35 May 28, 2013

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    Yep

    Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I Am Tired

    I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a clothing store. And I have no true friends, they only use me. I can honestly say I have never been happy...
    Schweed Schweed 18-21, F Oct 26, 2012

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    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any More"................

    There isn't I'm so tired of a day I don't think about dying or just disappearing. I feel so tired of everything...And everynight I'm wishing I would fall asleep and 'Never' wake up. At some point I had this * happy thought* that keep me going but now I don't even have that..I...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2011

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    My Friend Died.

    My friend died a few months ago. He died and was gone. Just like that. No warning. No advertisement telling all of us that his last few moments on earth would be spent in a hospital bed with lung cancer. None of us knew. How would it feel? To be so alone and afraid. And to know...
    meaghanmarybate meaghanmarybate 16-17 1 Response May 23, 2010

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    I hate life so much I just want die im 51 years old and want to end my life im going to end it when I find a good way to take my life
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    amended Darwin theory- it's not the fittest that survive but the one that adapts depressed people lack adaptability else there is no need for someone who is rich and successful...
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    I do feel like that sometimes, but I gotta man up someday! Lol
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 22 mins ago

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    001. What is Your Name? =You can call me Achelle 002. How old are you? =21 yrs old and turning 22 this December 003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? =you can...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I struggle telling people about my problems. So, I guess just writing my whole story would be better. Haha, I know it'll be pretty long. I'll just go ahead and say it: my mother...
    BookWonderer BookWonderer 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 14

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    My name is Hannah, I was born in 1998, I'm 16. Ever since I was little, I doubted my worth. I didn't believe I was 'good enough.' My dad would always make me say, "Hannah's a...
    hdial043 hdial043 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I just lay down in bed and hope maybe I'll die tonight. I'm not depressed, I'm just a sad person and I'm just kinda tired of life. It wouldn't hurt to die.
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    1/I talk a load of rubbish 2/I have eyes like chocolate buttons 3/I love listening to Sam Smith and Bruno Mars 4/ I can snaffle a whole pack of jaffa cakes to myself 5/I love...
    angelofsweetness angelofsweetness 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am 31 and I remember being 9 years old and wanting to jump off this balcony. I think sometimes if I had did it then what would I have missed out on? Would all the good...
    whoateyourheart whoateyourheart 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    To the People Who Want to Give Up Let me tell you something: Everyone has problems. Everyone has fears. But not everyone chooses to acknowledge them. Many people try to push their...
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    I truly enjoy writing. Crafting a story and imagining the characters is wonderful. However, I am my own worst critic. Sometimes I read what I've written and then put the story...
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    I've hated the way I've looked for quite some time now. I am 15-years-old and I have eczema and cystic acne on my face and my back. I used to struggle with extreme eczema in my...
    siddarrrth siddarrrth 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I'm still in my 20's but suddenly got osteoarthritis this year in both knees and can't walk and am in constant pain. My dad died when I was 24 and since then my mom now suffers...
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    ""One has to pay dearly for immortality;one has to die several times while one is still alive." You just have to let go sometimes,it kills you everyday but you never die,just stuck...
    VicSkilamalink VicSkilamalink 70+, F 6 days ago

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    Here's the point of life: Compete. Life is just a huge competition to survive. Sometimes you're on a team, sometimes you're a lone wolf. From the day you're born to the day you die...
    SouthlandNative SouthlandNative 26-30, M Jul 1

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    Ik I'm supposed to be thankful for everything I have , & I am .. It's just sometimes I wish I could go away . I feel that my family , friends , everyone is just disappointed in me...
    iamangel123 iamangel123 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I hate how meaningless the routine of life is. We have jobs and obligations, we get up, try and create some economic value, get paid, pay bills and sleep again. If we have time we...
    petrichor540 petrichor540 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I am actually twelve years old, I am adopted but my birth mother did drugs and alcohol when I was in her stomach and that's what made me the way I am. I am 172 pounds and it is sad...
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    PLEASE READ BEFORE ADDING I respect people and I want the same in return that means look at this and accept you don't have to like it but if you want to add me you need to...
    BornDifferent BornDifferent 18-21, F 39 mins ago

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    He died of suffocation, during an epileptic seizure. It was sudden and unexpected and all the light went out of my world for a very long time. I will never tell anyone again...
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    I'm wallowing and I can't seem to find a way to feel secure and completely happy in my every day life. That's not to say that I am unhappy. I'm not. A lot of things have been going...
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    Sometimes I feel like just killing something. That's how I would start my autobiography. I try to be a person an actual human being but humans are selfish, and I disgust myself not...
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    This is actually 150 things about me. This was made by Nathan something from tumblr "150 cute questions" 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? -no one? 2. Are you...
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    Sometimes I wonder why am I alive, what is my purpose in life to be here, why did god choose to create me. I hate my life, I hate everything about it. Nothing good ever happen to...
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    NUMBER ONE on my bucket List. I want to go so badly! I wanted to go there for my honeymoon but I broke down and agreed to go to Spain instead and that ended up being a great trip...
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