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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 69 People

    Long Time Coming...

    Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality, I do - good job, 3 amazing kids, loving parents, and a husband. But I still feel empty, let down by the people I love...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel
    Oct 7, 2010

    I Give Up

    There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted.  I'm stressed, scared, and alone.  I never intended or wanted this kind of life.  I've been...
    thoughts thoughts
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

      Pull the trigger It's what I've been

    waiting for my whole life Pull the trigger I absolutely cannot wait to die You think I like standing in your lovely presence The presence that surrounds me with hate The words that have spit me in the face with your puss filled saliva I earnestly hope you will pull that trigger...
    Hey4yu Hey4yu
    22-25, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    Reasons To Die In Order To Live

    So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a uncertain branch on the tree of science witch bases their decisions merely on assumptions and lucky guesses.The truth is that only 1...
    darktemplar darktemplar
    22-25, M
    Mar 24, 2011

    I Am Tired

    I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a clothing store. And I have no true friends, they only use me. I can honestly say I have never been happy...
    Schweed Schweed
    18-21, F
    Oct 26, 2012


     Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and have fun but then things go down the drain and everything i was working for is underapreciated and/or feel...
    andreinac13 andreinac13
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2008

    Things Change

    a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take enough and ended up in the hospital the next day because of a failing liver. life has had it's ups and down, a lot of...
    Spilled Spilled
    22-25, F
    Sep 26, 2013

    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But...

     Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see tomorrow and know that everything will be okay and things will and do improve. Dying is the easy way out, and sometimes it WOULD seem...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2009


    Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12
    1 Response Oct 24, 2011

    More So Recently

    I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing a degree that I hated and that stressed me out (physics, if you're curious). But I stuck it out, and graduated with a...
    Schlub Schlub
    26-30, F
    Jul 20, 2013

    I Don't Understand Why!

    My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and started declining in health back in September. I was able to fly back to see her for a week, but wasn't able to see her again...
    leilo leilo
    26-30, F
    May 7, 2012

    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round

    Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to death. I know my girlfriend loves me very much. I feel that Im cured of Bipolar, although I hear that Bipolar is uncurable. I still - feel...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2011

    I've been getting better about feeling

    that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these feelings. Sometimes, it's certain things about myself that I hate, and they bring on those feelings. I feel fine right now, but I do struggle...
    Whoami30 Whoami30
    31-35, M
    Feb 16, 2014


    Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die 
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    1 Response Apr 15, 2012

    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any More"................

    There isn't I'm so tired of a day I don't think about dying or just disappearing. I feel so tired of everything...And everynight I'm wishing I would fall asleep and 'Never' wake up. At some point I had this * happy thought* that keep me going but now I don't even have that..I...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2011

    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart..

    ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be the same,things probably get better...if i read stories i posted i before and what i actually think about me its so hard coz i do advise...
    annasangels annasangels
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 13, 2009


    I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year and a half ago and she just married someone. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her everyday and she is...
    xmwx xmwx
    May 28, 2013
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