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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 72 People

    SoMeTimeS! -  Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Yep - Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I Give Up - There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted...
    thoughts thoughts 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart.. - ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be...
    annasangels annasangels 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Things Change - a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take...
    Spilled Spilled 18-21, F Sep 26, 2013

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    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But... -  Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I've been getting better about feeling that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Feb 16

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    I Am Tired - I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a...
    Schweed Schweed 18-21, F Oct 26, 2012

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    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2011

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    I Don't Understand Why! - My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and...
    leilo leilo 26-30, F May 7, 2012

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    More So Recently - I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing...
    Schlub Schlub 22-25, F Jul 20, 2013

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    Reasons To Die In Order To Live - So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a...
    darktemplar darktemplar 22-25, M Mar 24, 2011

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    Long Time Coming... - Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel 31-35 Oct 7, 2010

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    Depressed - I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year...
    xmwx xmwx 31-35 May 28, 2013

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    My Friend Died. - My friend died a few months ago. He died and was gone. Just like that. No warning. No advertisement telling all of us that his last few moments on earth would be...
    meaghanmarybate meaghanmarybate 16-17 1 Response May 23, 2010

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    Hopeless. - Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round - Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I wanted to create this and get it in here so that I can write a story for it, maybe more than one at some point or another, because it feels pretty inside. That is all for now.
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel it will be better for me to fall asleep and never wake up again
    shannonxxx shannonxxx 13-15, F Mar 16

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    So basically,3years I've gone not being able to see my 3younger siblings I miss them all like mad,the thing is I know they hate me,like what's the point in me classing them as...
    shannonxxx shannonxxx 13-15, F Mar 17

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    Lately I've been really upset and crying for no reason. I hate it but i don't know what to do.
    elizabethstreet elizabethstreet 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    When science invents a way for humans to hibernate, just set my alarm for January 1, 2099 lol.
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M Mar 22

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    I think it would be very super cool, and just the right thing to do, to be able to view more than two days of my activity history. There are places I sometimes want to go back to...
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No hate. I really want to get pregnant and be a mother. I feel like even though I am young, I am ready for the responsibility of being a parent. I have wanted a baby for a long...
    justanotherpixie justanotherpixie 16-17, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    1. When I was 8 my great grandmother died. 2. I cried everyday for 2 years after, and still do sometimes. 3. I'm Wiccan. 4. I'm "in the broom closet" 5. Same Love by Macklemore...
    HeyItsMexox HeyItsMexox 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I really do... i think it's because I love writing them as well, and letters written by your own hands feels more real... I just want to share a letter written by my ex girlfriend...
    idontknowanythingrightnow idontknowanythingrightnow 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I lie because I'm too afraid to be rejected or to be bandoned. To make myself feel better, to not hurt the other person. I am emotionally dependent. And I'm angry for reasons I don...
    eidolon6 eidolon6 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    1. I was born on September 5th, 1954. 2. I am female. 3. I have one child, a daughter who was born June 15, 1985. 4. I watch FOX News. 5. I live with my parents: Mom was born...
    azny azny 56-60, F Apr 5

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    Sometimes I want to die. I guess I have a lot to live for which is why I'm still alive, because no matter how much I want to I feel like I could never do it because of the things I...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21, F Mar 16

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    I am a 15 year old Jewish, Orthodox girl. I was born 3 months early in Manchester, England. From the time i was a baby i have had a very hard life. I lived in fear every day of my...
    phobia1998 phobia1998 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    I had this horrible nightmare the other day about you when I took a nap. I woke up, my sheets soaked in sweat. I couldn't stop my hands from shaking and suddenly burst into tears...
    skinnypsycho skinnypsycho 18-21, F Mar 26

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    Sometimes I will be sitting in my desk at school and drift off into thoughts only to realise where I am when the bell goes for break. I miss so much of school but I have amazing...
    wg45678 wg45678 13-15, M 2 Responses 41 mins ago

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    I can't count the people I've watched die. No, I'm not a murderer. I am a registered nurse who cared for sick people and many dying in hospitals. Most of the people were elderly or...
    SanitySister SanitySister 41-45, F 5 Responses Mar 21

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    Sometimes I feel like my hubby just doesn't appreciate me... I do so much for him but it never seems to be enough :(
    SgrKtn420 SgrKtn420 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    1. I suffer with an eating disorder that constantly leaves me forced to choose between having a life or having a body. 2. My taste of music is stuck in the early millineum ('00...
    Amsch95 Amsch95 18-21, F Mar 27

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    i am 17 years old and this story takes place 2 days ago. i got angry at my parents and stormed out of the house. i was planning on staying out for the night and coming back in the...
    uncnn324 uncnn324 18-21, M Mar 22

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    Malnutrition, heart failure: twice, and "refeeding syndrome" like 3 times. The strange thing is that all I could feel was a great sense of "well, I guess it's finally over". I...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    My mom passed away when i was 7, actually she died on my birthday, i was so young and i so her dead body. She had breast cancer, she faught for almost 4 years, she even travekked...
    salmahidayat salmahidayat 18-21, F Mar 17

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    Latey, I've been feeling like my whole life has been a big joke and I've been being played from day one. My family was a joke. They didn't even want me. So I ended up in group...
    franhigg franhigg 41-45, F Apr 3

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    This is something I've done all of this last week, even though people could see that I wasn't. I had a hard time deciding whether to share this or not, but as my friends say, it's...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F Mar 16

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    I feel like I'm going to die soon, or any moment. I have depression and anxiety but then again I think about how we are put on this beautiful earth and then we just leave...
    manifestyourown manifestyourown 13-15, F Mar 22

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    Here's my list, with somewhat detailed answers: Smoked A Cigarette: Yes, many times Smoked A Cigar: Also many times Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex: No, I and I don't plan to...
    Hatebreeder59 Hatebreeder59 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I am asked what I will do after. High school. I know I'll be dead by then so that **** doesn't matter. I will die. Why thehell is it that everyone seems to be doing so...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Not really my job but some of the things that you see. As I have said I am a paramedic. 2 months ago I picked up a young girl (Under 3 years old) who was having trouble with her...
    ParamedicJohn ParamedicJohn 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    Just some stuff to think about.. When someone dies people shouldn't just talk about how amazing they were, how good the times were, and only their qualities. They should be...
    Taurini Taurini 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    This is something I've wondered for a long time. I feel that I wouldn't be missed. Sometimes I wish I could die and just watch people to see if they'd miss me... this is ******..
    justjamie15 justjamie15 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    She was found dead in her bedroom at 4am yesterday. No news yet with regards to the cause. She was one of those crazy party girls. But there was something wrong. For as...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do you know easy it would be for me to overdose? I want to, yet I'm scared to. That means I'm not ready to go yet I guess, I'm tired of all these feelings and hating everyone where...
    trippyprincess trippyprincess 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 24

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    I knew I like the ladies at an early age. I hid it for 32 years. Through my catholic grade school years, public high school, and even through my college years. I wasn't questioned...
    TheCunylinguist TheCunylinguist 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    This is a difficult subject for me, so lemme talk in a analogy instead... Life for me has been a mellow train ride on a gently sloping railway to hell. I have years to burn 'til...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 Apr 7

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    I understand that I have to lose weight.. I mean my friends tell me all the time " You don't have to" or " quit being hard on yourself", No, just shut up. Like I am so tired of...
    PitchDaffy PitchDaffy 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago