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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    Reasons To Die In Order To Live

    So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a uncertain branch on the tree of science witch bases their decisions merely on assumptions and lucky guesses.The truth is that only 1...
    darktemplar darktemplar 22-25, M Mar 24, 2011

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    Hopeless.

    Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die 
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Yep

    Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I Am Tired

    I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a clothing store. And I have no true friends, they only use me. I can honestly say I have never been happy...
    Schweed Schweed 18-21, F Oct 26, 2012

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    My Friend Died.

    My friend died a few months ago. He died and was gone. Just like that. No warning. No advertisement telling all of us that his last few moments on earth would be spent in a hospital bed with lung cancer. None of us knew. How would it feel? To be so alone and afraid. And to know...
    meaghanmarybate meaghanmarybate 16-17 1 Response May 23, 2010

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    I Don't Understand Why!

    My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and started declining in health back in September. I was able to fly back to see her for a week, but wasn't able to see her again...
    leilo leilo 26-30, F May 7, 2012

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    Depressed

    I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year and a half ago and she just married someone. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her everyday and she is...
    xmwx xmwx 31-35 May 28, 2013

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    I've been getting better about feeling

    that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these feelings. Sometimes, it's certain things about myself that I hate, and they bring on those feelings. I feel fine right now, but I do struggle...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Feb 16

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    Long Time Coming...

    Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality, I do - good job, 3 amazing kids, loving parents, and a husband. But I still feel empty, let down by the people I love...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel 31-35 Oct 7, 2010

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    I Give Up

    There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted.  I'm stressed, scared, and alone.  I never intended or wanted this kind of life.  I've been...
    thoughts thoughts 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any More"................

    There isn't I'm so tired of a day I don't think about dying or just disappearing. I feel so tired of everything...And everynight I'm wishing I would fall asleep and 'Never' wake up. At some point I had this * happy thought* that keep me going but now I don't even have that..I...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2011

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    SoMeTimeS!

     Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and have fun but then things go down the drain and everything i was working for is underapreciated and/or feel...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But...

     Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see tomorrow and know that everything will be okay and things will and do improve. Dying is the easy way out, and sometimes it WOULD seem...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12, 2009

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    More So Recently

    I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing a degree that I hated and that stressed me out (physics, if you're curious). But I stuck it out, and graduated with a...
    Schlub Schlub 22-25, F Jul 20, 2013

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    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round

    Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to death. I know my girlfriend loves me very much. I feel that Im cured of Bipolar, although I hear that Bipolar is uncurable. I still - feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart..

    ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be the same,things probably get better...if i read stories i posted i before and what i actually think about me its so hard coz i do advise...
    annasangels annasangels 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Things Change

    a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take enough and ended up in the hospital the next day because of a failing liver. life has had it's ups and down, a lot of...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Sep 26, 2013

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    I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.
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    When I'm sad I sleep a lot? O.o
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    Yeah, I got the blues. I'd like to wake up with a woman beside me who will hug me and kiss me good morning. Instead I'm just laying here listening to neighbors making noise... I...
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    I'm just frustratef with my parents and school, I have like 5 tests tomorrow, and I don't know any of the subjects well, and I study so much but I still fail so many tests. And my...
    Miwabromam Miwabromam 16-17, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I'm trying to diet to lose a few pounds but i find myself eating everything i cook for family. I feel every time i say I'm going on a diet, my father buys a bunch of meat for me to...
    Storyboard0241 Storyboard0241 22-25, M 14 hrs ago

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    Early in the morning, it is important to have enough energy to have your day started. My breakfast consists of two wholemeal slices of bread with either peanut butter or jam as the...
    TetraZL TetraZL 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    This reminds me of the joke. I want to die in my sleep like my grandfather, not yelling and screaming like the people in the car with him.
    ausofbounds ausofbounds 41-45, M 3 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I let myself dream about having a mom. That would be the greatest thing in the world. My birth mom was mental. She left me and my brother at home alone for days...
    LittleGirlCrissy LittleGirlCrissy 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Twinkle twinkle little star ☆, Let me get hit by a car 🚘💢💥, How I really wish to die 😣, Jump off the roof and try to fly 😇, Twinkle twinkle little knife...
    esalma98 esalma98 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    1. I am a teenager 2. I am 15 years old 3. I am a guy 4. I am British 5. I have a sibling 6. I have social anxiety disorder 7. I have OCD 8. I have no friends 9. I am a loner...
    Darkstar101 Darkstar101 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I feel as if my parents never want my happiness they always do what they want what will make them happy and never think of me it hurts so much I never knew how much it...
    Dlebarzani Dlebarzani 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Sometimes when we see beauty in what is mud it is just an illusion of hope we set ourselves with. Sometimes there is so much mud there is no space for beauty.It is ironic, all I...
    angelicsmiles angelicsmiles 31-35, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    My dad he died when I was 3 it's been hard without him
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    Dying While Giving Birth In my most recent past life I was a mother of four, when I gave birth to my youngest I died of infection in the hospital. In this lifetime my father is a...
    Futuete Futuete 46-50, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    apparently I was on an abc diet. most I the weight you lose is water weight. the deit it's self is fine, but it's better to pare it to maybe 30 minutes of work out time. walking...
    RavenRena17 RavenRena17 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I dont understand myself sometimes I need friends to be around and then I dont contact with them its just that I sometimes or should I say Im used to be alone at most time for...
    swisspinay30 swisspinay30 26-30, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I think it's a milestone and a very important event when you rediscover your faith in God, Lord Jesus Christ. :) Lots of people go to church, attend a mass, but without paying...
    BakerQueen14 BakerQueen14 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    I just really tired of people who say stupid stuff to me like saying there my Friends v.v I should just die alredy I have nuthibg in this world anymore
    alonzokim alonzokim 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I don't do stress, and when everything gets piled on top of me, I break down and want to run away. Not deal with it, just run.
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I just feel the need to cry sometimes even if there is no reason to cry at all. Sometimes I feel a burden on my chest which can only be lifted off if I vent it out by crying. I cry...
    Bella2911 Bella2911 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    You know who you are, you're the one I lay in bed every night thinking about, the one I met online, and fell in love with. Your name is Dylan, we met on an app called hot or not...
    KoolKandon KoolKandon 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    My friends and I were talking the other day, drifting from one topic to another, until we found ourselves talking about touching one's self. Basically I don't know them well and...
    pleadingsorry pleadingsorry 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    Sometimes​ we're drawn back into the Hell of our misery.
    flipper1966 flipper1966 56-60, M 10 hrs ago

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    1. I love to play video games 2. I do not enjoy having family over aside from my parents of course 3. I was a straight A student 4. I love soccer 5. I love playing soccer 6. My...
    Merrcury Merrcury 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    How couldn't I be Antisocial? Let's be honest - the world is fill of dumb f*cks. I met so many people in my life, so many 'successfull' people - but seriously, I cant believe how...
    Wejlo Wejlo 16-17, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Thus the would like to revive to new music its before framework suggests similar to eager to costume an adult in adolescent attire. This act may need some appeal if one proposes a...
    Temple2516ja Temple2516ja 31-35, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    1. I'm Emmy 2. I have more toy rabbits than I thought I did 3. I'm absolutely insane 4. One time I ate a really hot sauce, so hot I only had a few drops and it burned and stabbed...
    OsyriaRose OsyriaRose 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I'm obese. Have been for most of my adult life. It affects so much, and I also do a lot in spite of it. I've battled depression and mostly won. I got my chemicals balanced and...
    TroubleInDeCamp TroubleInDeCamp 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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