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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    I Don't Understand Why!

    My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and started declining in health back in September. I was able to fly back to see her for a week, but wasn't able to see her again...
    leilo leilo 26-30, F May 7, 2012

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    Yep

    Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    I Am Tired

    I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a clothing store. And I have no true friends, they only use me. I can honestly say I have never been happy...
    Schweed Schweed 18-21, F Oct 26, 2012

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    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any More"................

    There isn't I'm so tired of a day I don't think about dying or just disappearing. I feel so tired of everything...And everynight I'm wishing I would fall asleep and 'Never' wake up. At some point I had this * happy thought* that keep me going but now I don't even have that..I...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2011

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    I Give Up

    There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted.  I'm stressed, scared, and alone.  I never intended or wanted this kind of life.  I've been...
    thoughts thoughts 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But...

     Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see tomorrow and know that everything will be okay and things will and do improve. Dying is the easy way out, and sometimes it WOULD seem...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12, 2009

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    More So Recently

    I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing a degree that I hated and that stressed me out (physics, if you're curious). But I stuck it out, and graduated with a...
    Schlub Schlub 22-25, F Jul 20, 2013

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    Depressed

    I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year and a half ago and she just married someone. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her everyday and she is...
    xmwx xmwx 31-35 May 28, 2013

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    Long Time Coming...

    Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality, I do - good job, 3 amazing kids, loving parents, and a husband. But I still feel empty, let down by the people I love...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel 31-35 Oct 7, 2010

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    My Friend Died.

    My friend died a few months ago. He died and was gone. Just like that. No warning. No advertisement telling all of us that his last few moments on earth would be spent in a hospital bed with lung cancer. None of us knew. How would it feel? To be so alone and afraid. And to know...
    meaghanmarybate meaghanmarybate 16-17 1 Response May 23, 2010

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    Things Change

    a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take enough and ended up in the hospital the next day because of a failing liver. life has had it's ups and down, a lot of...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Sep 26, 2013

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    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart..

    ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be the same,things probably get better...if i read stories i posted i before and what i actually think about me its so hard coz i do advise...
    annasangels annasangels 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Hopeless.

    Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die 
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round

    Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to death. I know my girlfriend loves me very much. I feel that Im cured of Bipolar, although I hear that Bipolar is uncurable. I still - feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    SoMeTimeS!

     Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and have fun but then things go down the drain and everything i was working for is underapreciated and/or feel...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    I've been getting better about feeling

    that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these feelings. Sometimes, it's certain things about myself that I hate, and they bring on those feelings. I feel fine right now, but I do struggle...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Feb 16

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    Reasons To Die In Order To Live

    So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a uncertain branch on the tree of science witch bases their decisions merely on assumptions and lucky guesses.The truth is that only 1...
    darktemplar darktemplar 22-25, M Mar 24, 2011

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    I'll probly never have another child , but if I did I would want another girl . I'd name her Brooklyn Rayne. *sigh*
    Angelofthesilencess Angelofthesilencess 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    All I want to do at the moment is just cry and cry. :-(
    ShanSai ShanSai 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    and lay around. Which yes I have done a lot of due to anxiety and OCD. The other part of me wants to keep trying...
    cottonbreeze cottonbreeze 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I wish I could just stay in bed and sleep for like two months.. Or more.
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Many opportunities are lost when people are to busy on their devices instead of being aware of their surroundings!
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    Basically all I've been doing lately is going to work, coming home, getting high and sleeping. I don't even bother to put makeup on and my hair is an absolute mess. I shower every...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Actually I feel this quiet a lot recently. I have lost faith in science. There's just this constant stress and pressure going on. I wish I could just go to sleep one day and...
    DeathIsPartDinosaur DeathIsPartDinosaur 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It has been one week since my wife and I decided to get divorced. I feel so broken and lost. My heart just hurts.
    umpreferee umpreferee 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    Curl in a little ball and just let the tears roll for hours
    Jessicaliners Jessicaliners 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    If you've got nothing to do I guess I can tell you story or two And if you're quite bored ill make it three All about love, oh silly me Falling and crashing Kicking and thrashing...
    justbreath12 justbreath12 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I wanted him to stay in my life. Even though I’ve cried, felt like I was going to die, and drank alcohol a few times before over someone I was in love with not loving me, I...
    Roshunn Roshunn 26-30, F Oct 13

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    I wanted him to stay in my life. Even though I’ve cried, felt like I was going to die, and drank alcohol a few times before over someone I was in love with not loving me, I’ve...
    Roshunn Roshunn 26-30, F Oct 13

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    I wanted him to stay in my life. Even though I’ve cried, felt like I was going to die, and drank alcohol a few times before over someone I was in love with not loving me, I’ve...
    Roshunn Roshunn 26-30, F Oct 13

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    100.It's the 3rd time I am trying to write this! 99. I am afraid I will miss a number 98. I should be sleeping right now 97. I had a panic attack yesterday 96. I love science 95. I...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I had a black and white cat named Whiskers. We've had him for a little less than 10 years. I loved him so much, and in early March 2014, he began acting strange. My sister once...
    FriendOfYourFriend FriendOfYourFriend 18-21, M Oct 16

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    I know I'm not that old... I'm actually really young! And it's not like I have a bad life, not at all! I have friends, a loving family, a pet, I go to school, get good grades, I...
    Mulier Mulier 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel that my father is a coward and an insecure, passive aggressive, manipulative and (can be) violent person. Although he mostly raised me when I was growing up (my mother was...
    Regandlam Regandlam 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    1. I am a girl thus, I have fancy lady parts that I will not send you pics of, so stop asking. 2. I am a Jr. 3. I love olderish movies and music particularly: Ferris Bueller's...
    lindseysway lindseysway 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 22

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    Hi there, I am 21 and my dad was died when I was still in elementary school, 10 years ago. Yea, I know, it's already been a long time, and I should say that I have enjoyed my life...
    theresaye theresaye 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 10

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    I don't hate you dad. I actually feel bad after I pick fights with you. You just aren't the same since grandma died, but you were already going downhill when she passed. It pushes...
    trs1999 trs1999 13-15, F Oct 20

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    Something I wrote to him, although I didn't send it. Thank you. I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for showing me how to love and supposedly be "loved". Thank...
    weightingforhappiness weightingforhappiness 18-21, F Oct 2

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    Something I wrote to him, although I didn't send it. Thank you. I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for showing me how to love and supposedly be "loved". Thank...
    weightingforhappiness weightingforhappiness 18-21, F Oct 2

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    Something I wrote to him, although I didn't send it. Thank you. I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for showing me how to love and supposedly be "loved". Thank...
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    I have strange thoughts that scare myself. Like what if gravity stopped? What if I die in my sleep? What happens when we die, do we go on? If there is heaven will we remember our...
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F Oct 11

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    my childhood crush passed away at 36 I've known him since i was 8 but haven't talked to or seen him since i was about 16 he died a month ago i feel weird that it still bothers me i...
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    Me and my friend always get caught up in conversations on how to make video games better. We love video games and always think of ways to make the experience more immersive or real...
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