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I Sometimes Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 70 People

    Nothing's Ever That Bad, But...

     Sometimes it feels like that if I were dead, I wouldn't have to deal with crap. Then again I would never get the chance to live and see tomorrow and know that everything will be okay and things will and do improve. Dying is the easy way out, and sometimes it WOULD seem...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I Am Tired

    I am tired of my life. This is not what I envisioned for myself when I was a girl. I thought college would be my life, but I am not in school, I work a ****** job at a clothing store. And I have no true friends, they only use me. I can honestly say I have never been happy...
    Schweed Schweed 18-21, F Oct 26, 2012

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    I Don't Understand Why!

    My grandma died a couple of months ago, and I haven't been able to live with myself since then. Most of the issues started when she got really sick and started declining in health back in September. I was able to fly back to see her for a week, but wasn't able to see her again...
    leilo leilo 26-30, F May 7, 2012

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    More So Recently

    I've always had these feelings throughout my life - like it would be so much easier to just give up. I had them a lot throughout university, because I was doing a degree that I hated and that stressed me out (physics, if you're curious). But I stuck it out, and graduated with a...
    Schlub Schlub 22-25, F Jul 20, 2013

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    SoMeTimeS!

     Once in a while i want to stop on my tracks,sit and cry when i feel like dropping dead. Being suicidal it's the weirdest thing ever because i want to live and have fun but then things go down the drain and everything i was working for is underapreciated and/or feel...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Things Change

    a lot of times in life i'll feel stuck and yell at myself telling me i should have taken more pills when i was 14 when i attempted to kill myself but didn't take enough and ended up in the hospital the next day because of a failing liver. life has had it's ups and down, a lot of...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Sep 26, 2013

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    """"""""""""""""""""""""i Don"t Know How To Live Any More"................

    There isn't I'm so tired of a day I don't think about dying or just disappearing. I feel so tired of everything...And everynight I'm wishing I would fall asleep and 'Never' wake up. At some point I had this * happy thought* that keep me going but now I don't even have that..I...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2011

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    Up And Down Like A Merry-go-round

    Ever think to yourself " Why am I here?" or possably " I know they love me, but I need to leave." I know my friends and family love me to death. I know my girlfriend loves me very much. I feel that Im cured of Bipolar, although I hear that Bipolar is uncurable. I still - feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    Hopeless.

    Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die 
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Reasons To Die In Order To Live

    So, my old shrink told me that I got bipolar II disorder about 2 years ago.I don’t put much stock in it, since psychology, in my opinion, is a uncertain branch on the tree of science witch bases their decisions merely on assumptions and lucky guesses.The truth is that only 1...
    darktemplar darktemplar 22-25, M Mar 24, 2011

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    I've been getting better about feeling

    that way, but there are times when I feel like maybe the world would be better with me out of it. Sometimes, nothing will bring on these feelings. Sometimes, it's certain things about myself that I hate, and they bring on those feelings. I feel fine right now, but I do struggle...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M Feb 16

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    Long Time Coming...

    Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I would post on a board pertaining to desiring death. On the surface I seem to have it all together, and in reality, I do - good job, 3 amazing kids, loving parents, and a husband. But I still feel empty, let down by the people I love...
    WalkingAngel WalkingAngel 31-35 Oct 7, 2010

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    But I Know Its Not Right In My Heart..

    ive been thinking some things..and last night after reading ap's blog i just realize that i might feel like that now but later it wont be the same,things probably get better...if i read stories i posted i before and what i actually think about me its so hard coz i do advise...
    annasangels annasangels 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    I Give Up

    There are times, like now, where I just can't cope any longer.  I am alive because I'm a single mom.  I'm all that my two teenagers have, but I'm exhausted.  I'm stressed, scared, and alone.  I never intended or wanted this kind of life.  I've been...
    thoughts thoughts 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2009

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    My Friend Died.

    My friend died a few months ago. He died and was gone. Just like that. No warning. No advertisement telling all of us that his last few moments on earth would be spent in a hospital bed with lung cancer. None of us knew. How would it feel? To be so alone and afraid. And to know...
    meaghanmarybate meaghanmarybate 16-17 1 Response May 23, 2010

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    Yep

    Yes, I feel this way a lot. Anyone who feels worthless, and stupid like I do will probably feel this way. I really wish I knew what else to write, this topic is sensitive.
    Fluttershy12 Fluttershy12 26-30 2 Responses Oct 24, 2011

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    Depressed

    I've been suffering from depression for over ten years. I had it under control for quite a while but lately it's been too hard. The girl I loved left me about a year and a half ago and she just married someone. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her everyday and she is...
    xmwx xmwx 31-35 May 28, 2013

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    This doesn't sound like a bad idea, I just hate how my parents treat me after I wake up at two in the afternoon. Yes, I could be doing something much more productive with my time...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    I want to leave. Almost nobody talks to me and it's full of creeps...
    adrianacecilia14 adrianacecilia14 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.
    123jewels456 123jewels456 13-15, F 21 hrs ago

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    I really don't like my nose. Would get it fixed if i ever decided to go for my hollywood career :)
    cloudedjourney cloudedjourney 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Hi, my name is evaleigh and I am new to this site. I just have a lot going on in mind right now, and I wanted to type it all out. I am a 16 year old teenager currently living in...
    evaleigh evaleigh 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    I sometimes wanted platinum blond hair like the one in the image. Or red highlights. Blue highlights? Idk colored highlights. The cover photo is part of a music group I listen...
    xXxfakerhaterxXx xXxfakerhaterxXx 13-15, M Aug 17

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    I feel so worthless. I haven't even started my life. It's been so long since i've felt this bad. I dream of dropping dead, but that won't happen. I dream of finding someone...
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M 6 hrs ago

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    If I won't gonna die tonight, I won't gonna eat for my rest of my life. I promise!
    donna201994 donna201994 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    My friend Patricia 's brother had diabetes and died from renal failure
    Iam50 Iam50 46-50, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I deleted all my old stories mainly because I wasn't good at expressing how I felt. I have now become more blunt, no sugar coating or bullshit just blunt. I have been hospitalised...
    WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

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    just wanted to let any of you out there going through this know i have been there. i haven been through it. i know how hard it is. even more so when you have to face it alone. it's...
    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    1) The bucket list i like the concept if it: a man trying to give another man the best time of his life before he dies 2) Amélie It's a difficult one, but watch it 3 times and it...
    MonsterEye MonsterEye 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Life is hard. There's no book written step by step for what's right or wrong, or how marriage should or shouldn't be, how to or not to raise your kids. You just have to follow your...
    MsMoon2013 MsMoon2013 22-25, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Destruction of previous individual austerity 286) 24th December, 1977, Thursday . Place : Makardah. Early morning dream: One unknown boy came to me with a message...
    Dipakda Dipakda 70+, M 7 hrs ago

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    It makes me really sad to see people interpreting human suffering and especially this suffering which stems from violent acts (sexual abuse, abuse, inflicting harm on someone else...
    PhuckEverything PhuckEverything 26-30, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    This is a message for those who feel that life is not good, there is no hope, and they want to end it all. Let me start by sharing two stories to help me to get my message across...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 10

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    You know who you are, you're the one I lay in bed every night thinking about, the one I met online, and fell in love with. Your name is Dylan, we met on an app called hot or not...
    KoolKandon KoolKandon 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    The new "upgrade" to the private message box is atrocious. I'm not sure why someone thought it was a great idea to have it limited to the current white scroll box, but it's not. It...
    Nyx78 Nyx78 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I did it again. I hurt my friends's feelings. Not the normal "I didn't think that it would hurt them". What I said would hurt anyone in their situation. I just didn't care at the...
    Savi0r Savi0r 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    So what do some of your late night convos with your crush entail guys? Sometimes I come to a dead end in this area sighh
    solzco1 solzco1 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Oh dad, you have been there for me since the day I was born. You were there to help me get through my illness and when I was always sent to the hospital because of my tonsillitis...
    damnwestcoast damnwestcoast 13-15, F Aug 11

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    1. I'm Emmy 2. I have more toy rabbits than I thought I did 3. I'm absolutely insane 4. One time I ate a really hot sauce, so hot I only had a few drops and it burned and stabbed...
    MiniMiku MiniMiku 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    I'm obese. Have been for most of my adult life. It affects so much, and I also do a lot in spite of it. I've battled depression and mostly won. I got my chemicals balanced and...
    TroubleInDeCamp TroubleInDeCamp 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    If you feel like you want to die, you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to, who can relate to you, you can always message me on here, where I feel at home. I know it's...
    honestyreality honestyreality 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Meh, why not? 1. I'm an adaptive introvert. I don't enjoy being around many people, but if I have to I'll deal with it. 2. I collect knives. Something about them makes me feel...
    RayvenJ RayvenJ 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    Yeah i think thats it i had enough Im going to hell anyways xD im so sick of ppl tellin me how to live my life I just want to die right now Idc how pathetic this sounds but like...
    Minju96 Minju96 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wish I could die in my sleep. I pray for it almost every night. It would be so much easier than having to kill myself. Sometimes I also pray for a car accident or for someone to...
    whoreallycares85 whoreallycares85 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 24

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    FaerylightAt the time the healing properties of light played on my psyche. Light illuminates darkness. White light is sacred and embodies compassion. At the time my Avatar was...
    faerylight faerylight 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Twice actually. Once when I was just a baby and another time when I was about 6 or 7. I've always wondered how my family would be if I would have died. Sometimes I feel like they...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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