I Sometimes Want to Have An Eating Disorder

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    I've struggled with my weight most of my life.

    I'm really short, and it almost seems like I put on weight if I just look at too many cupcakes. I can drop about 30 lbs if I stick PERFECTLY to a strict diet for months. The last time I did it, I strictly ate a piece of fruit and cup of yogurt for breakfast, a salad for lunch...
    justsomegirloutthere89 justsomegirloutthere89
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2015

    Are You Kidding Me?!!!

    Eating disorders suck major nuts. I'm fat. Really, I am. Supa chubby. And I struggle with Bulimia and Anorexic tendencies. Before this, I used to be a binge eater. So I go through binge cycles without "getting rid" of the food. I did lose some weight by starving. I mantain my way...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    3 Responses May 30, 2011


    I tried to throw up but I chickened out. I'm really disappointed with myself right now...
    LeniGail LeniGail
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 6, 2013

    I wish I was anorexic

    because I love love love food. I could eat it all day and then as soon as I'm done eating I feel bad. I've tried throwing up before but I don't have that much of a gag reflex. I wish I could go with out eating and just live on coffee.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2015


    I am obsessed with eating disorders. I love anything relating to ana, mia, or obese people. I have the movie/documentary "Thin" and I watch it all the time. Anything that has to do with models I love. I even watch discovery health on obese people to see what they go through.
    chelsia1 chelsia1
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 8, 2008

    "Its No Big Deal."

    Here's the thing. I love to eat but hate it at the same time. Someone once told me that they feel like a failure when they eat and i feel the exact same way! I find it so difficult to not eat. And yet difficult TO eat. I am over weight, however much i deny it. I'm 5'3 and about...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2009

    Im Recovered And Miss It

    ive recovered (some say you never stop recovering) from EDNOS. started at 13 ended at 16. i miss it. i miss not being able to eat; i miss seeing fat in the mirror. i miss not feeling the need to eat, the absolute anger at my body. i started college and am living in residence...
    abittobright abittobright
    18-21, F
    Oct 16, 2013

    I Hate My Eating Disorder!

    I saw this and felt really sad. I've had anorexia and bulimia for almost a year and trust me you don't want it. I'm still recovering so I'm not so full of knowledge onn an eating disorder. You loose your period, have no boobs, get tired really easily,I looked like a 9 year old...
    SaraC09 SaraC09
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Aug 12, 2012


    sometimes i would rather go through a eating disorder than to be called and look and feel fat . this extra 30lbs sucks . i wonder how fast i could lose 30lbs by puking ??
    bandgeek2 bandgeek2
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

    eating disorders are much more difficult to

    cope with than your bad eating habits. eat less and exercise if you want to lose weight. it's sad that people actually WANT an eating disorder simply because they can't be bothered to lose weight on their own. guys, that stuff is serious. it's scary.
    aspiringmagicalgirl aspiringmagicalgirl
    18-21, F
    May 11, 2015

    It Sounds Weird..

    I really hate eating sometimes.. I just feel like I'm putting on loads of weight there and then. I do love food.. but sometimes I wish I wasn't so greedy. Most of the time I eat it's because I just feel like it not because I'm hungry. Recently I have basically lost my appetite...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    Nov 9, 2009

    Eating disorders are not fun to have they are

    very hard to fix and sometimes they lead to depression
    mackenziep71 mackenziep71
    16-17, F
    May 11, 2015

    Real Bad Sometimes

    I am 5'2" and I weigh about 155.  I have hypothyroidism so I gain weight really easily and have a horrible time losing becusae dieting just makes me sleepy.  It seems like I could lose if i could be anorexic, nervous like they are so I would be awake and obsessive...
    alisheaskylar alisheaskylar
    26-30, F
    Aug 12, 2008

    I actually had anorexia

    for five years that included five inpatient/hospital stays for it; loads of medical/ nutritional counseling & even way more therapy. I was quote/unquote " the worst patient my hospital/treatment center had ever treated." I've since recovered, or basically recovered, still in...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL
    22-25, F
    May 10, 2015

    I Kno Iz Stupid...

    i kno iz stupid but evrytime my parents start telling meh  **** i just imagine wat they wud do if i started starving myself....
    iluvnerds12 iluvnerds12
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2011

    I Don't Have the Will Power

    I am 20 now...  and since I was about 17, I have had a few little month or so spells where I will eat literally nothing but maybe a granola bar a day.  I will lose 15 pounds or so...  But then I get happy with the way I look, satisfied... and I...
    pinkkennel pinkkennel
    1 Response Mar 29, 2009

    i had/have an eating disorder

    for about 6yrs, but the worst times were about 4yrs ago. it was a prison. i never went out because i thought i was ugly & that everything made my fat hang. i weighed myself at least 15 times in one day everyday. i lived in front of the mirror & exercising excessively in my room...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    Do I Have An Eating Disorder?

    I'm really not sure. In school I wouldn't eat anything, but then I would get home and eat a little bit of everything. I would kind of feel bad about it because I really hated my thighs, and I wanted to have stick legs like every other girl at school. I went through something...
    LeniGail LeniGail
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 6, 2013

    Eating Disorders.

    I've been chubby ever since I can remember. I was never one to blame my weight on anything medical. But 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome and a year prior to that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. My doctors and I came to the conclusion that these...
    collision collision
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 29, 2007

    *gasp* How'd That Finger End Up Down My Throat?...

    Sometimes I think it would just be sooooo much easier to just make myself puke instead of hating myself for being fat. I've done some eating disorder-ish things before. I've starved myself for a week here and there, I've eaten next to nothing for a couple months, I've taken...
    Warmthoughtsofyou04 Warmthoughtsofyou04
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 7, 2008

    It Comes and It Goes

    i'm 20 years old, 5'7" and around 140 lbs. (although that's an estimate because i really don't weigh myself) sometimes i feel pretty good about my body, and i'm happy with it. other times though, i look in the mirror and i'm like, "you are too fat!" i used to be...
    runnagirrl runnagirrl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2008

    As Horrible As That Is To Say

    I'm fat. Against my will.Because of an endocrine disorder I have, my body is under the impression that I am in a condition of famine. Therefore- I gain weight SUPER easily no matter how healthy I eat, and if I starve myself, my body holds tight to the existing fat I carry. I am...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jun 6, 2011
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