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I Sometimes Want to Have An Eating Disorder

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    It Sounds Weird..

    I really hate eating sometimes.. I just feel like I'm putting on loads of weight there and then. I do love food.. but sometimes I wish I wasn't so greedy. Most of the time I eat it's because I just feel like it not because I'm hungry. Recently I have basically lost my appetite...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F Nov 9, 2009

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    Obsessed

    I am obsessed with eating disorders. I love anything relating to ana, mia, or obese people. I have the movie/documentary "Thin" and I watch it all the time. Anything that has to do with models I love. I even watch discovery health on obese people to see what they go through.
    chelsia1 chelsia1 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 8, 2008

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    I've struggled with my weight most of my life.

    I'm really short, and it almost seems like I put on weight if I just look at too many cupcakes. I can drop about 30 lbs if I stick PERFECTLY to a strict diet for months. The last time I did it, I strictly ate a piece of fruit and cup of yogurt for breakfast, a salad for lunch...
    justsomegirloutthere89 justsomegirloutthere89 22-25, F Jan 7

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    Eating Disorders.

    I've been chubby ever since I can remember. I was never one to blame my weight on anything medical. But 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome and a year prior to that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. My doctors and I came to the conclusion that these...
    collision collision 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    I Hate My Eating Disorder!

    I saw this and felt really sad. I've had anorexia and bulimia for almost a year and trust me you don't want it. I'm still recovering so I'm not so full of knowledge onn an eating disorder. You loose your period, have no boobs, get tired really easily,I looked like a 9 year old...
    SaraC09 SaraC09 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    I'm still in recovery

    and I relapsed a few times already about a week ago I think. Sometimes I want to be fully recovered and other times I never want to end my ednos. School is coming up soon and I already know what that means...at school I always skip lunch, always, and it's very rare that I eat...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    Are You Kidding Me?!!!

    Eating disorders suck major nuts. I'm fat. Really, I am. Supa chubby. And I struggle with Bulimia and Anorexic tendencies. Before this, I used to be a binge eater. So I go through binge cycles without "getting rid" of the food. I did lose some weight by starving. I mantain my way...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 2 Responses May 30, 2011

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    ??

    sometimes i would rather go through a eating disorder than to be called and look and feel fat . this extra 30lbs sucks . i wonder how fast i could lose 30lbs by puking ??
    bandgeek2 bandgeek2 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    As Horrible As That Is To Say

    I'm fat. Against my will.Because of an endocrine disorder I have, my body is under the impression that I am in a condition of famine. Therefore- I gain weight SUPER easily no matter how healthy I eat, and if I starve myself, my body holds tight to the existing fat I carry. I am...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 6, 2011

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    I Kno Iz Stupid...

    i kno iz stupid but evrytime my parents start telling meh  **** i just imagine wat they wud do if i started starving myself....
    iluvnerds12 iluvnerds12 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2011

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    Sometimes I Try To Be Anorexic

    I sometimes want to have full blown anorexia so that I can focus on anorexia all the time instead of me focusing on things in my past like this one guy. When I focus on not eating and feeling the hunger pains, I can escape reality for a bit. And if I am in a really bad stage of...
    reset reset 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    *gasp* How'd That Finger End Up Down My Throat?...

    Sometimes I think it would just be sooooo much easier to just make myself puke instead of hating myself for being fat. I've done some eating disorder-ish things before. I've starved myself for a week here and there, I've eaten next to nothing for a couple months, I've taken...
    Warmthoughtsofyou04 Warmthoughtsofyou04 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2008

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    Real Bad Sometimes

    I am 5'2" and I weigh about 155.  I have hypothyroidism so I gain weight really easily and have a horrible time losing becusae dieting just makes me sleepy.  It seems like I could lose if i could be anorexic, nervous like they are so I would be awake and obsessive...
    alisheaskylar alisheaskylar 26-30, F Aug 12, 2008

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    It Comes and It Goes

    i'm 20 years old, 5'7" and around 140 lbs. (although that's an estimate because i really don't weigh myself) sometimes i feel pretty good about my body, and i'm happy with it. other times though, i look in the mirror and i'm like, "you are too fat!" i used to be...
    runnagirrl runnagirrl 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    "Its No Big Deal."

    Here's the thing. I love to eat but hate it at the same time. Someone once told me that they feel like a failure when they eat and i feel the exact same way! I find it so difficult to not eat. And yet difficult TO eat. I am over weight, however much i deny it. I'm 5'3 and about...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2009

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    Wimp

    I tried to throw up but I chickened out. I'm really disappointed with myself right now...
    LeniGail LeniGail 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    I Don't Have the Will Power

    I am 20 now...  and since I was about 17, I have had a few little month or so spells where I will eat literally nothing but maybe a granola bar a day.  I will lose 15 pounds or so...  But then I get happy with the way I look, satisfied... and I...
    pinkkennel pinkkennel 18-21 1 Response Mar 29, 2009

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    Im Recovered And Miss It

    ive recovered (some say you never stop recovering) from EDNOS. started at 13 ended at 16. i miss it. i miss not being able to eat; i miss seeing fat in the mirror. i miss not feeling the need to eat, the absolute anger at my body. i started college and am living in residence...
    abittobright abittobright 18-21, F Oct 16, 2013

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    Do I Have An Eating Disorder?

    I'm really not sure. In school I wouldn't eat anything, but then I would get home and eat a little bit of everything. I would kind of feel bad about it because I really hated my thighs, and I wanted to have stick legs like every other girl at school. I went through something...
    LeniGail LeniGail 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    Yes, I have an eating disorder. And yes, I'm still fat. Fat people can have eating disorders too. which makes everything worse since no one will suspect you for having it. What I...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 Jan 21

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    Can guys have eating disorders because i'm the only guy know that has one
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm not sure if its an eating disorder or not but this is what happens: 90% of the time I'm not hungry and i rarely eat not because I'm punishing myself but I just don't feel like...
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I have schizoaffective disorder and I recently changed meds from olanzapine to Latuda and in the last 2 weeks I've lost 10lbs!!!
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 3 hrs ago

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    I have been struggling with an eating disorder (Ana Mia) for almost 15 years. I have had outpatient therapy on and off for the last several years. My boyfriend knows, I was very...
    meanoldstepmom meanoldstepmom 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need help and advice ive had a eating disorder and i kinda been getting better eating better or eating a little bit but i have a bf (long distance ) and im scared because what if...
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    10 years ago I chose to live. 10 years ago I was at my lowest point of my life. I was barely 78lbs at 5'4. I was suffering from a major illness very few people discuss with...
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    after 11 years of battling my eating disorder ive finally been admitted to the right therapy and im starting to question if i have the strength in me to do it
    laulaulauuu laulaulauuu 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I don't know if someone can completely get over an eating disorder, but for me, I still get a thrill out of being hungry and deprived of food every once in a while.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Hello, everyone:) I have mentioned my struggles with my weight off and on, but I think it is important that I tell you all the whole story. I was always chubby, and this problem...
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I haven't been diagnosed with a specific eating disorder. My doctors just like ehhyeahhh dere is someting vrong wit yerr appetite little miss. no ****. I go 2-3 days forgetting...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I hate having an eating disorder. it makes me feel awful. It doesn't matter if I binge or just eat a regular meal, I always feel like a cow afterward.
    BabeFett BabeFett 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    to everyone who is or has been battling an eating disorder if you need to talk pm me iv been there and will help in any way I can. hugs to everyone
    CGBABC CGBABC 22-25, F Jan 15

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    I'm afraid to tell anyone about having an eating disorder
    PixelChibi PixelChibi 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I've never felt comfortable in my own skin. I also know that in no way I see what others see. ( If I look thinner or fatter I can not tell) Over the last year I have lost over 60...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    i have schizoaffective disorder and things are going pretty good.i mean sure i cant find a job but my mental health is really good and i hope it stays that way. i know what its...
    weirdalex21 weirdalex21 22-25, F Jan 16

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    I'm been smoking and it makes me cough so bad that I throw up I love it only eating protein smoothie for breakfast and protein bars for lunch and dinner.
    Banabear Banabear 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    It annoys me so much, it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    well, I hope I don't.... but I am really struggling from resisting food.... I can really hardly resist food.... and if I get to eat, I eventually regret and kinda hate myself...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    I ate to much of my dinner and I felt sick so I purged it, and I still feel like getting sick..... I have overcame this! this is my first time getting sick in 3 months maybe...
    advicegiver01 advicegiver01 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    It started when I was 17. I was browsing through thinspo blogs and decided to throw up my food like the girls on there to lose weight. i didnt like it. however, something happened...
    willowtree12 willowtree12 22-25, F Jan 15

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    I'm skinny, but recently I've been gaining weight due to eating unhealthy stuff and eating a lot due to stress. I recently visited my older sister and she slapped me on my thighs...
    laubrown1 laubrown1 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I didn't try too... I didn't notice... but now it's taking over my life, when I first joined cross country I felt bad cause I was one of the bigger girls on the team I weighed 120...
    AngelinaMilano AngelinaMilano 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    The urges and habits are back... First it starts with not eating... But within a couple days... I'll be back to throwing up what I don't want... :/ here we go... It's about to get...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Why is that I'm scared that i don't want to eat anything to gain weight i hate feeling fat i like the feeling of my close when they are loose or the emptiness i get when I'm Hungry...
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 16-17, F Jan 17

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    I feel so terrible. I was confident this week so I ate a lot and now I just hate myself for eating so much. I didn't even eat that much. I ate the recommended amount of calories...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I need someone to talk to. I dont want them to tell me I'm stupid for not eating. I just want someone who is going through what I am and who also needs someone to talk to.
    heyj96 heyj96 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    i fainted today for the first time since i went back to dieting, i should be happy. i mean, if i faint, then i dont have energy, if i dont have energy im not eating, therefore i...
    KatherineSnow KatherineSnow 18-21, F 1 day ago

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