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I Sometimes Wish For Death to Come

Even my fear doesn't keep the wish away....... 554 People

    Let's Play Pretend

    On the outside it may seem that i lead a relatively good life. I have a seemingly loving family, and friends who think they know me. The problem is that none of that is real. Its all bullshit that i put on. Why? isnt that a question for the ages. I wish i could tell people who i...
    almostnotquitenormal almostnotquitenormal 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    I am 19 years old, I am not depressed

    or lonely, i have no reason to want to die. But every minute of everyday i wish for death to come and take me away. I started to notice this feeling started around 3 years ago. I did not really focus on it i figured that it would pass and didn't want people to worry about me so...
    monkey628 monkey628 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    Nothing

    When you think of the future do find it too much of a challange? Do you carry a burden without a reason? Are your only true friends in life the fictional characters from your imagination, books, or TV? Do you often feel careless and lazy? Do you believe that you we're born int...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 16, 2012

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    Death Wish Prayer

    I am 52 years old and all I want from life....is death. My life actually ended in May, 1980, when I lost a high paying blue collar job and with it, the good life. My life has been mediorcre ever since due to major health problems and financial loss. Things have degenerated to the...
    Hawk44Gent Hawk44Gent 51-55 11 Responses Sep 14, 2010

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    My days generally start with nightmares.

    Then the headaches start. So I put on my uniform and go. This uniform has traveled the world so many times, but it was the last time when I knew dead was better. No running water, no electricity, no contact with the world. I wad hopeful the RPG's would take care of me. They didn...
    unbreakable55 unbreakable55 36-40, M Jan 31

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    They say that those that die young are loved by

    the gods, but I fear that im going to die of old age. Thus I have in past 8 years wished that I died in my sleep every time I go to bed.
    gypa gypa 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Life Is Overrated, Isn'T It?

    Well, not that i'm planning on killing myself or anything. Don't freak out.Ever get that sensation that if ou suddenly dropped dead in the middle of the street--or wherever--, it would becompletely fine with you. It's creepy, if we do some introspection about it. But when that...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F 1 Response May 24, 2013

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    There is not a day I do not wish I had the

    courage to end the pain of 57 yrs..The message since birth is, nothing is as it seems..Parents should love their children,and should fight temptation to not rape,nor ***** and nor beat. Husbands shouldn't leave doting wives and their children for sake of libido...
    btraydby1 btraydby1 56-60, F Mar 8

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    I think these things,

    and how i would never be able to crawl out of the holes i've dug for myself. I think of the American dream and how it could never be achieved with someone of my economic class. i was born into fair money, but that money had long been spent by someone else, though. I am young and...
    theMETAmonologue theMETAmonologue 18-21, F Feb 25

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    Every Day

    Every single day I wake up and wish I hadn't. I suffer from trigeminal neuralgia and depression. I don't have any friends here. I don't mean that I have people around but am not close, I literally have no-one. In the last 2 months I have had conversations with 3 people, all on EP...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Everyone Would Be Better Without Me

    About 5 months ago, I lost the love of my life. He was my high school sweetheart and despite having a rough time since then, we always somehow found our way back to each other. After breaking up the first time, about three years ago, I made it through him ignoring me, through...
    hopelessromantictojusthopeless hopelessromantictojusthopeless 18-21, F 1 Response May 1, 2013

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    kaycee017 kaycee017 13-15, F Jan 19

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    Doret Still Stands, Terod Did Fall

    Doret is me backwards. Ive barely lived life and im already sick of whatever its suppose to be and humanity in itself. For so long i use to care, i use to feel like it was necessary to do as im told, and i myself became a piece of electronic equipment to be used for others. Being...
    DoretEnabled DoretEnabled 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 19, 2013

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    I can't remember the last time I actually felt

    happy. Whenever i do have some memory of a happy time in my life i quickly realize that it could have possibly been no more than an illusion of my own creation. Even in highschool i was never happy. I was never satisfied with where i was and what i was doing, yet i had my dreams...
    ziggyink ziggyink 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Also

    i wake up everyday wishing i didnt wake up everyday. i hope for something to fall on me. for a car to hit me and i die instantly. i want it to all be over so badly, i cant put it into words. i cry. not often. but tears start to well up as i type. i wish i werent me. i wish i...
    vetrose vetrose 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 31, 2009

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    Me N My Sad World

    All through my life up until now, I've controlled how to express my emotions, not because I didn't feel them, I felt them very deeply, but I certainly suppressed my inferiority and discontentment. Being a poor kid, I knew how to pretend I wasn't hungry, to act like I wasn't cold...
    bufferzone bufferzone 16-17, M Mar 27, 2012

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    Lost Interest

    For the past year of my life I have endured a trying time. I got cancer which I beat but still feel there is something else. Doctors say nothing is wrong but I know something is. In the month I got cleared my estranged father was tragically killed in a car accident while he was...
    robturner11684 robturner11684 26-30, M Oct 1, 2013

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    Shoot Me

    I wish I had the balls to get in my car right now and just drive on the freeway as fast as it'll take me and just keep going straight when a curve comes. I would love to fly off that ramp and crash hard on the ground and just die. I can't stand living like this. I try to do...
    Brody1530 Brody1530 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    Everyday I'm impatiently waiting

    for it, but it always disappoints. I hate my life, my family (or lack thereof), I hate my city, I hate my luck (or lack thereof), and most of all I hate myself. I hate being me and I just want it to end but I don't have the heart to kill myself, I couldn't leave my lil man like...
    villyn villyn 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    When I'm Gone...

    For me it's not so much about " Will I be remembered when I'm gone...??" For me it's more about " Will anyone even know that I was once here ...??"
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63 46-50, M 7 Responses Aug 16, 2012

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    Death Wish....my Reflection

    The subject of the discussion attracted me so I joined the group. I generally do not, but suddenly felt like writing on this. I want to die...and wish that God just take me out of this system of life. I only prayed for 1 thing in my life for long 11 years but it looks like it...
    sidorf sidorf 31-35, M May 2, 2010

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    I Want It to Come So Bad....

    I want death to come so bad. I don't want to hurt, I don't want to Miss my friends so much. They are all gone, and I miss them. They got to escape this hell called life, why can't I. What is so bad about me, that I can't have what I want, just this once, and be able to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 24, 2009

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    Waiting For The Final Blow

    Im so depressed and feel so alone right now it is very hard for me to explain what is going on right now. This year has been immensely tough and hard and im at the point of wanting to die badly. I think of killing myself daily and constantly i cry all the time never stop now. In...
    lylkitkat lylkitkat 16-17, F Nov 3, 2012

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    Pain Relief

    The only times I wish death would come for me, is in moments of pain. Mental/emotional anguish. The most basic thought behind all of it is: I just want this pain/suffering to end. There are other things that can end that suffering, but when they do not appear on the horizon my...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Mar 28, 2010

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    What If..

    At times we find it alluring to end this treacherous life. To call it the end, our self. But what is the guarantee that t is going to get better after death. What if it is going to be worse?
    anathema09 anathema09 22-25, M 10 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    There'S Nothing Ahead Of This

    Those people who walk in the sun in their entire life will never know the tale of the man who has his youth and everything taken away from him.. or perhaps deprived. ...It's like a long dark tunnel Ive been walking through my entire life like I could never reach the end or just...
    KarlVincent KarlVincent 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    I am 38 and have wished

    for death as long as I can remember. I think back to my childhood, when things would go wrong or I would do something so stupid (as children do), I would wish so strongly for it all to end so I would not have to face another day. Even today, I think of ways that death could...
    Modernii Modernii 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    To Hold You Again

    If Heaven is where you hafto be love, then I can only pray that I'm next. I don't understand why I'm still here if you're not.. My place is with you my love, it always has been. I cannot live a life without you in it.. I no longer have a purpose. This world holds nothing left but...
    TaraMI86 TaraMI86 26-30, F 1 Response May 1, 2013

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    Tired Of Sadness

    I don't know why I'm writing this here. I suppose I just want to get it out there, know that at least someone will hear my story. My name is Christopher, I'm 27, and the last ten years have been a living hell. I used to suffer from anxiety so bad while living with my parents...
    theaveragejoe2012 theaveragejoe2012 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 23, 2012

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    Why Me ?

    why do my sisters get everything and my little bro and i get nothing they get birthday cakes and gifts while i get yelled at, everyone forgets my birthday my family has bullied me and abuse me. My dads family and my moms family always make fun of me. Oh if you knew what I've been...
    GoAskBetty GoAskBetty 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    Life Isnt Fair, My Sister Passed And I Want To As Well.

    Every day of my life i Feel that If I died right now. No-one would care. Besides that I dont fear death, I actually look froward to it. My sister passed away 4 years ago and ever since then everything changed, everyone says you don't appreciate something properly until it is gone...
    weggs101 weggs101 18-21 3 Responses Feb 12, 2013

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    Death

    It would be the answer to all my problems ...no pain or anger ...no more wanting or waiting ...no more crying myself to sleep no more being afraid of others ...no more wishing ...no more dreaming ..but i don't if there is life after death ...will they be there when my time comes...
    goodseemore goodseemore 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 17, 2012

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    Death

    I pretty much go to bed each night not so much wishing death will come,as just expecting my kidney to fail and no way am i going to spend my life tethered to a machine so death is the only option left,
    David938 David938 56-60, M 1 Response Oct 20, 2012

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    Death

    I wake up every day disappointed that I have. I go through every moment of every day in more pain than I have ever known. There is no hope in my life, no joy in my life, nothing. I have nothing and I want to die. I beg God every day to take my life in place of someone else but he...
    Brinaan Brinaan 31-35 2 Responses Mar 17, 2012

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    Martyrdom

    I sometimes get the urge to go and martyr myself in the most messy way possible. Someday I want to go to Saudi Arabia and pray the rosary in public. Other times I want to go and preach Christianity in nations where this is a capital crime. However I want to do this after I have...
    FireFromHeaven FireFromHeaven 16-17, M May 14, 2013

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    I think that it would be easier to die

    than to continue. I know life is hard but it shouldn't be this hard..
    FAIRESandPIXIES FAIRESandPIXIES 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    The Numbness And Darkness

    It was the day things got bad, where I couldn't take it anymore. Between the regular bullying that had been going on for awhile, to my boyfriends sister joining in on it. She hated me, called me a **** and joined with the other girls and grouped up on me. My boyfriend wouldn't...
    AshToAshes AshToAshes 16-17, F Nov 20, 2013

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    Death Cant Come Sooner

    Every day for me is nothing but pain and feelings of empty When i was younger i played football, by the time i was in highschool ive done so much damage that i can no longer run or walk for long periods of time. I got RA( Rhumetiod Arthritus) at the end of my softmore year. those...
    deathgod623 deathgod623 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 21, 2011

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    Relationship

    I dont know what to do ive been win a relationship for a long time an all of a sudden things go from bad to worse i just love her so much and i miss her i wish i was dead ive never fallen in love and she has been the world to me even though her family doesnt accept me i still...
    dntknow00 dntknow00 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 27, 2012

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    I Want To Be Dead

    I pray i never wake from my slumber because i am 22 and in my heart i am alone. i have being searching for someone to share the path of life with, however every time i get closer outside forces push be back to loneliness. I have been told by my friends and family that i am a...
    northstarjimboy northstarjimboy 22-25 5 Responses Sep 11, 2010

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    Sleep Forever

    Everyday I endure with no sleep because my mind races and get no help due to mental health services being in crisis. Everyday I wish I'd spontaneously die because that way I could sleep forever. I tell myself that nobody would care and that all my troubles would be gone. I've...
    OpheliaMoonbeam OpheliaMoonbeam 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I Dont Know Why I Do What I Do...

    So all day today i have been thinking of suicide and  fighting back the tears, i got home and i went to sleep and woke up around 9. i ate dinner and went back to my room. than the thoughts came back. i was on webcam with my exgirlfriend, Alexis, who is about a year older than me...
    devinborne101 devinborne101 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2012

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    All I Think About Is Her, And Death.

    I love this girl. She meant the world to me. But last week we broke up. Now all I want is to just die. She wasnt just my lover, she was my bestfriend. I could tell her every single thing that was goin on. She always helped me when I was suicidal and depressed. But now, there is...
    devinborne101 devinborne101 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4, 2012

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    For now I'm just gonna leave this experience

    empty. If you've truly been where I am you haven't forgotten it and you know how it feels. If you haven't then I can't explain it to you and you're probably rushing to leave a comment.
    fairytalesandspiderwebs fairytalesandspiderwebs 18-21, F Feb 8

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    A Lovers Note.

    Death take me now, my true lover, for Fate’s cruelty I have had enough! You have bled me of all but that-that will stop this grieving heart. The pain, never ending pain. All hope gone. You give only to ever take back. Cruel Fate, you make me dream of dreams I shall never have...
    VenomKissssss VenomKissssss 31-35, F 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    I cry myself to sleep all the time , I even cry in the shower just to hide my pain like everything is okay but little do everyone know I'm not okay . I come to school , smile...
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    I wish that you had not initiated anything. I wish that you had just left me as a friend. I wish that you had never started texting all those sweet words to me. Those words have...
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    Then I would never be able to hurt anyone ever again. I can't hurt people. I just can't. If I do, I'll never forgive myself.
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