I Sometimes Wish For Death to Come

Even my fear doesn't keep the wish away....... 823 People

    I am 19 years old, I am not depressed

    or lonely, i have no reason to want to die. But every minute of everyday i wish for death to come and take me away. I started to notice this feeling started around 3 years ago. I did not really focus on it i figured that it would pass and didn't want people to worry about me so...
    monkey628 monkey628
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2013
    sealare sealare
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2014

    Life's just too much

    for me sometimes. Well, to be honest more often than not. I had NDE once and it was such a beautiful and such a real experience, I wish death would come for me real soon. Nothing to fear on the other side, as opposed to here. Rest. I need that carefree restful place I visited...
    Godess4Fun Godess4Fun
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    My days generally start with nightmares.

    Then the headaches start. So I put on my uniform and go. This uniform has traveled the world so many times, but it was the last time when I knew dead was better. No running water, no electricity, no contact with the world. I wad hopeful the RPG's would take care of me. They didn...
    unbreakable55 unbreakable55
    41-45, M
    Jan 31, 2014

    Death Wish Prayer

    I am 52 years old and all I want from life....is death. My life actually ended in May, 1980, when I lost a high paying blue collar job and with it, the good life. My life has been mediorcre ever since due to major health problems and financial loss. Things have degenerated to the...
    Hawk44Gent Hawk44Gent
    11 Responses Sep 14, 2010

    Most people are thankful

    that they wake up in the morning...not me...I'm disappointed that I did
    STSCR0721 STSCR0721
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    I'm happy that I found this site.

    For years I really taught I was alone in wishing for death. Its a comfort to know that I'm not alone. A little bit about mysrlf.. I'm 44 yrs old. I have a good job, 2 wonderful kids and had the love of a good woman. Sadly to say I'm in the process of getting divorced. Also for...
    Mabspoe Mabspoe
    46-50, M
    Nov 17, 2015


    I sometimes get the urge to go and martyr myself in the most messy way possible. Someday I want to go to Saudi Arabia and pray the rosary in public. Other times I want to go and preach Christianity in nations where this is a capital crime. However I want to do this after I have...
    FireFromHeaven FireFromHeaven
    18-21, M
    May 14, 2013

    Life Is Overrated, Isn'T It?

    Well, not that i'm planning on killing myself or anything. Don't freak out.Ever get that sensation that if ou suddenly dropped dead in the middle of the street--or wherever--, it would becompletely fine with you. It's creepy, if we do some introspection about it. But when that...
    dearstranger dearstranger
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 24, 2013

    A Lovers Note. Death take me now,

    my true lover, for Fate’s cruelty I have had enough! You have bled me of all but that-that will stop this grieving heart. The pain, never ending pain. All hope gone. You give only to ever take back. Cruel Fate, you make me dream of dreams I shall never have. Fill me with hope...
    VenomKissssss VenomKissssss
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2014

    Death Cant Come Sooner

    Every day for me is nothing but pain and feelings of empty When i was younger i played football, by the time i was in highschool ive done so much damage that i can no longer run or walk for long periods of time. I got RA( Rhumetiod Arthritus) at the end of my softmore year. those...
    deathgod623 deathgod623
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 21, 2011
    kaycee017 kaycee017
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2014

    My favourite way to pass the time.

    .. think of ways to die and actually get disappointed when it doesn't happen.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 21, 2014

    Nights like now I pray to a God

    that I don't believe in and try to use the power of just speaking things into existence anything to end my ****** up life.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2015

    Sleep Forever

    Everyday I endure with no sleep because my mind races and get no help due to mental health services being in crisis. Everyday I wish I'd spontaneously die because that way I could sleep forever. I tell myself that nobody would care and that all my troubles would be gone. I've...
    OpheliaMoonbeam OpheliaMoonbeam
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2013


    It would be the answer to all my problems ...no pain or anger ...no more wanting or waiting ...no more crying myself to sleep no more being afraid of others ...no more wishing ...no more dreaming ..but i don't if there is life after death ...will they be there when my time comes...
    goodseemore goodseemore
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jan 17, 2012

    Lost Interest

    For the past year of my life I have endured a trying time. I got cancer which I beat but still feel there is something else. Doctors say nothing is wrong but I know something is. In the month I got cleared my estranged father was tragically killed in a car accident while he was...
    robturner11684 robturner11684
    31-35, M
    Oct 1, 2013
    deleted deleted
    Oct 25, 2014

    Let's Play Pretend

    On the outside it may seem that i lead a relatively good life. I have a seemingly loving family, and friends who think they know me. The problem is that none of that is real. Its all bullshit that i put on. Why? isnt that a question for the ages. I wish i could tell people who i...
    almostnotquitenormal almostnotquitenormal
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Dec 27, 2010

    Death Wish....my Reflection

    The subject of the discussion attracted me so I joined the group. I generally do not, but suddenly felt like writing on this. I want to die...and wish that God just take me out of this system of life. I only prayed for 1 thing in my life for long 11 years but it looks like it...
    sidorf sidorf
    31-35, M
    May 2, 2010

    I think these things,

    and how i would never be able to crawl out of the holes i've dug for myself. I think of the American dream and how it could never be achieved with someone of my economic class. i was born into fair money, but that money had long been spent by someone else, though. I am young and...
    theMETAmonologue theMETAmonologue
    22-25, F
    Feb 25, 2014

    I am extremely low today.

    My meds only help part of the time. No one understands how the feeling of depression hurts. The psychosis kills me every time I have am episode. I have no idea when I will get over this. I just wish I was dead I just dont have the balls to do it myself :(. I want it to end. All...
    xxcaylaxx xxcaylaxx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    Every Day

    Every single day I wake up and wish I hadn't. I suffer from trigeminal neuralgia and depression. I don't have any friends here. I don't mean that I have people around but am not close, I literally have no-one. In the last 2 months I have had conversations with 3 people, all on EP...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

    I think that it would be easier to die

    than to continue. I know life is hard but it shouldn't be this hard..
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2014

    I'm here to help you guys feel free to message

    me and I'll get right back to you
    hardroyalty hardroyalty
    18-21, M
    Nov 19, 2015

    They say that those that die young are loved by

    the gods, but I fear that im going to die of old age. Thus I have in past 8 years wished that I died in my sleep every time I go to bed.
    gypa gypa
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jan 13, 2014

    Hi guys. im happy to discover this site.

    this is my first post. I always wish for death to come for everything to be finished. Im 18 and depressed for as long as I can remember. I have friends who think depression is just a joke. Right now I just feel alone in this world. I dont see any reason to continue with life...
    KianZzy KianZzy
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

    I can't remember the last time I actually felt

    happy. Whenever i do have some memory of a happy time in my life i quickly realize that it could have possibly been no more than an illusion of my own creation. Even in highschool i was never happy. I was never satisfied with where i was and what i was doing, yet i had my dreams...
    ziggyink ziggyink
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 8, 2014

    When I'm Gone...

    For me it's not so much about " Will I be remembered when I'm gone...??" For me it's more about " Will anyone even know that I was once here ...??"
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63
    46-50, M
    7 Responses Aug 16, 2012

    Slowly you think about it more

    and more.... then it becomes apart of your routine.
    Ellyana01 Ellyana01
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2015

    I don't want to live anymore.

    I'm sick of struggling. I have to much pain. my heart is to weak and kind for this awful place. I just wish someone would help me leave this horrible world. I just can't move on.
    shygirl1986 shygirl1986
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    I am 38 and have wished

    for death as long as I can remember. I think back to my childhood, when things would go wrong or I would do something so stupid (as children do), I would wish so strongly for it all to end so I would not have to face another day. Even today, I think of ways that death could...
    Modernii Modernii
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2014


    I wake up every day disappointed that I have. I go through every moment of every day in more pain than I have ever known. There is no hope in my life, no joy in my life, nothing. I have nothing and I want to die. I beg God every day to take my life in place of someone else but he...
    Brinaan Brinaan
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2012

    There is not a day I do not wish I had the

    courage to end the pain of 57 yrs..The message since birth is, nothing is as it seems..Parents should love their children,and should fight temptation to not rape,nor ***** and nor beat. Husbands shouldn't leave doting wives and their children for sake of libido...
    btraydby1 btraydby1
    56-60, F
    Mar 8, 2014

    i wish death come to me

    when i sleep, so i won't never wake up.... the wrong choices in my life that gives me so much pain, they say learn from your mistakes but guess what?!, there is no undo in life decisions..
    betteporter betteporter
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

    What If..

    At times we find it alluring to end this treacherous life. To call it the end, our self. But what is the guarantee that t is going to get better after death. What if it is going to be worse?
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

    I make a huge mistake.

    I let go of my girlfriend that I dated for almost 2 years. I think she's not happy with me so I let her go. But I'm the one who's not happy when she's gone. I ask her to come back to me, but she said no. It's really depressing now I just want to die. I can't do suicide so all...
    Phillandervenansius Phillandervenansius
    26-30, M
    Feb 10, 2015

    Sometimes i hope i could die you know.

    .. Life throws so much at me im trying and trying to stay on my feet but i know im going to get knocked down... My friend is dating my friend and he was cheating on her and shes a really nice girl so i told her and now his going around college saying im a snitch :( but i tried to...
    sabzzzz sabzzzz
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2016
    nickowl nickowl
    22-25, F
    Jul 18, 2015

    I Want To Be Dead

    I pray i never wake from my slumber because i am 22 and in my heart i am alone. i have being searching for someone to share the path of life with, however every time i get closer outside forces push be back to loneliness. I have been told by my friends and family that i am a...
    northstarjimboy northstarjimboy
    5 Responses Sep 11, 2010

    I Want It to Come So Bad....

    I want death to come so bad. I don't want to hurt, I don't want to Miss my friends so much. They are all gone, and I miss them. They got to escape this hell called life, why can't I. What is so bad about me, that I can't have what I want, just this once, and be able to...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 24, 2009

    Why Me ?

    why do my sisters get everything and my little bro and i get nothing they get birthday cakes and gifts while i get yelled at, everyone forgets my birthday my family has bullied me and abuse me. My dads family and my moms family always make fun of me. Oh if you knew what I've been...
    MoonPrincessLuna MoonPrincessLuna
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 19, 2012


    i wake up everyday wishing i didnt wake up everyday. i hope for something to fall on me. for a car to hit me and i die instantly. i want it to all be over so badly, i cant put it into words. i cry. not often. but tears start to well up as i type. i wish i werent me. i wish i...
    vetrose vetrose
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Dec 31, 2009

    Doret Still Stands, Terod Did Fall

    Doret is me backwards. Ive barely lived life and im already sick of whatever its suppose to be and humanity in itself. For so long i use to care, i use to feel like it was necessary to do as im told, and i myself became a piece of electronic equipment to be used for others. Being...
    DoretEnabled DoretEnabled
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 19, 2013

    Me N My Sad World

    All through my life up until now, I've controlled how to express my emotions, not because I didn't feel them, I felt them very deeply, but I certainly suppressed my inferiority and discontentment. Being a poor kid, I knew how to pretend I wasn't hungry, to act like I wasn't cold...
    bufferzone bufferzone
    18-21, M
    Mar 27, 2012

    Everyday I'm impatiently waiting

    for it, but it always disappoints. I hate my life, my family (or lack thereof), I hate my city, I hate my luck (or lack thereof), and most of all I hate myself. I hate being me and I just want it to end but I don't have the heart to kill myself, I couldn't leave my lil man like...
    villyn villyn
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 8, 2013

    Pain Relief

    The only times I wish death would come for me, is in moments of pain. Mental/emotional anguish. The most basic thought behind all of it is: I just want this pain/suffering to end. There are other things that can end that suffering, but when they do not appear on the horizon my...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75
    36-40, M
    Mar 28, 2010

    I've been so close to it a few times

    and it just makes me think, just ******* happen already I mean ****. let the next guy to pull a gun on me actually shoot me dammit
    Nmetb Nmetb
    22-25, M
    Nov 18, 2015


    When you think of the future do find it too much of a challange? Do you carry a burden without a reason? Are your only true friends in life the fictional characters from your imagination, books, or TV? Do you often feel careless and lazy? Do you believe that you we're born int...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2012
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