I Sometimes Wish I Was Dead

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 369 People

    .i Am Not Selfish To Take My Own Life Am Fighting For My Life Just As Much As A Cancer Patent If Not More As Am Fighting In Secret.

    This is the briefest way to tell you about my story. I got bullied my hole life through school I moved twice and in my a level years it got very bad even teachers were involved in the bullying as they were relatives of the girls that picked on me.. near my exams I hard school...
    luna20 luna20
    May 4, 2012
    UnstableInside UnstableInside
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    Sometimes I Wish But Life Is Too Beautiful To Give Up

    I feel like an outsider with my family. They don't understand me and I don't understand them. With my friends I always feel like I have to make the effort, like I have to pretend to be other people to get them to like me. Surely that's not what friendship is about? If I...
    mutdor mutdor
    18-21, M
    Jun 2, 2010


    I get tired of my own self entrapment at times and feel like I will never escape.  It's the futility that really sends me down a negative line of thought ending with a thought of suicide.  I've always dismissed it and have never attempted or even made a plan.  But...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Aug 30, 2007

    I Want To Stay Asleep For Eternity

    I haven't got the energy to kill myself but I can't help knowing my family would be better off without me. I just want to take a pill that would kill me in my sleep. No more decisions no more pain no more thoughts no more helplessness no more being the glue that makes everything...
    Lollyuk Lollyuk
    22-25, F
    Dec 17, 2012


    yes, i sometimes find myself saying those words too.. it crossed my mind a number of times already.  depression is killin me..
    SweetAppleBlossom SweetAppleBlossom
    26-30, F
    21 Responses Aug 8, 2007
    be4everyome be4everyome
    16-17, F
    Feb 26, 2014
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Feb 26, 2014

    But I Don't Go Too Far

    While I do occasionally wish I wasn't exactly around anymore, I never even think of resorting to suicide. My religious background taught me that doing so would undoubtedly be the worst mistake I could ever make. When these thoughts roll around, I just figure that I'd be able to...
    ScaredOfItAll ScaredOfItAll
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 3, 2008

    They told her " destroy what destroys you " she

    decided to kill herself ; 😔 this gets to me .... A lot.
    Lonerlost28 Lonerlost28
    22-25, F
    Mar 19, 2014

    Being alive still costs to much money.

    What's the point of living if you cannot live the life that you want?
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    Mar 12, 2014

    I Am Nothing.

    From a little boy, I hated myself. For along time people put me down, for as long as I remember. I was called every name in the book. Because I was dumb. I did not learn how to read till my 20's. I am sick everyday. Doctor says your ****** for ever. Was married, had a kid. Lost...
    Stabme Stabme
    2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

    My Depression Has Taken The Place Of My Heart

    Even though the title of this may sound extremely corny, that is the only way to describe how I feel. Sometimes when I stop in my life and think about things I feel some kind of a twisting, churning feeling in the pit of my chest. There isn't any other way to describe it. Dread...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 14, 2012

    Tonight I wish that death would take me.

    A waste of expectations, of space and of life. I wish that car had hit me. I wish I'd died in the womb, something anything to make this hell I love every day simply stop. I know I will amount to nothing, I will die nothing, loveless and without a word of sadness. I am not a...
    isodole isodole
    22-25, F
    Jun 7, 2014

    I'm not depressed I just would

    rather die sooner than later. I'm scared to get old and I'm ready for heaven. :)
    Randomology Randomology
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2014

    But Not Today

    I think about it often... during sad and happy times. It's just a part of me...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2008

    I still think about dying sometimes,

    but then I remember that it won't really solve my problems and that it will hurt the ones I'm close to. I've learned to embrace sleep instead. It's like dying, but without the commitment. :)
    deleted deleted
    Dec 23, 2013

    I feel like I want to die sometimes,

    I feel like there's no other solution... I got caught shoplifting and nobody but the girl that caught me knows it! I don't know what to do I sort of want to talk to the lady that caught me but at the same time I want to wait 6 months for her to forget& I even think about just...
    9918172impacta 9918172impacta
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2015


    There has to be a God. There must be a heaven, there must be. For what purpose would I continue in such a world? An afterlife in paradise is all I look forward too, yet I know I shall never see it. Because if there must be a heaven there must also be a hell and where else would I...
    stanledh stanledh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 3, 2013

    I don't want to take my life necessarily,

    I'm just tired of what life is dishing out...call it poor choices on my part, whatever...I'm just tired of the struggle and am not enjoying the ride.
    dcris dcris
    51-55, M
    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    I have gotten to the point

    where I've started to commit suicide but I just get scared. Afraid of oblivion, afraid of not saying everything I want to say to the very few people that matter to me. Afraid of dying and not making the right choice to live for the people that committed suicide or just died...
    FutureVet2014 FutureVet2014
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I cry myself to sleep all the time ,

    I even cry in the shower just to hide my pain like everything is okay but little do everyone know I'm not okay . I come to school , smile , laugh in everyone's face like its cool . But .... I just can't , I can't .
    Lonerlost28 Lonerlost28
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2014

    a coward dies a thousand deaths.

    . a soldier dies but once
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015


    Life seems so unreal, so trivial. Every morning I take a knife and press it against my throat, and I never feel a thing. My heart doesn't accelerate from fear, my palms don't sweat from anticipation. That frightens me, to know that at any moment I could take my own life and it...
    stanledh stanledh
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2013

    My Life

    Ever since i was little all i ever wanted was someone i could be close to. A best friend i could tell anything to. A person too close to lie to. When i was young i tried to find this person in my older brother. I would follow him anywhere, do anything just to feel accepted. No...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 23, 2013

    Think People Would Be Better Off

    i just sometimes believe that people would be better off without me around, and i dunno, it feels like that is what people really want. i feel like a burden to everyone i touch or rely on, which is why i'm trying to move out, so i can stop feeling like a burden on my parents, i...
    sezy sezy
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Aug 18, 2007

    Only To Be With Loved Ones

    I sometimes think if it wasnt for my parents i would be,just the other night i said to my mum i dont no why iv not died in my sleep or something yet and she replied i know, you have more than 9lives.So many people i love have passed and i just want to be with them,i could never...
    myselfxox myselfxox
    31-35, F
    Oct 12, 2009

    I Sometimes Wish I Was Dead.

    my life if you know me is hell from abuse to whatever else you can think about. I have been bullied to the point where I have tried to commit suicide. now that im older you would think that everything was okay. right well your wrong my cutting got so worse at one point I...
    mizzcola17 mizzcola17
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 23, 2013
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015

    I Have No Reason To Stay.

    My family has been brought up on tight funds and in an abusive household. We recently got rid of all those bad vibes and stuff, so now it's just us siblings. Everything is hard to deal with because everyone is so greedy and selfish about money. We know how precious money is, but...
    silentbliss silentbliss
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

    I Definitely Do..

    I sometimes just wish I would die in my sleep. It would make things so much better. All the pain would be over. I wouldn't have to worry about having to kill myself someday because the work will have been done for me. There's really no reason for me to be here, anyway.
    lyricalongings lyricalongings
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 19, 2010

    I'm A Complete Waste Of Space

    I find it quite sad when people say to my face that they wish I was dead. I don't know about you, but....I would rather be dead. No one would miss me. A few people have my cell number, but if I had one invite in the last 3 years....that was a lot. I love being alone. And would...
    Groothaai Groothaai
    Dec 1, 2012

    Sometimes I wish I was dead.

    But death is too easy. Too kind. Unless there is something even worse after this life. Even then death isn't kind bc what about those we love who are left suffering through life? Why are we left to make sense of cruelty, madness, pain and non-sense, abuse and neglect? Why did...
    Lucylu84 Lucylu84
    31-35, F
    Mar 14, 2014

    Death Looks More Attractive Right Now.

    There have been many times when I wonder if I would be better off dead. I'm lonely most of the time, most people I know have either left the country and headed for greener pastures overseas or died. I've never married, don't have children and my employment prospects are...
    millimi millimi
    41-45, M
    Aug 26, 2011

    So Worn Out Wish I Could Just Go To Sleep Forever

    Over the past 30yrs my life has been worthless i lost my dad the day my eldest son was born he was 48 I lost gran and aunt within 6 weeks of each other. 6 years ago my mum died suddenly and I lost not only my mum but she was my best friend at this time i lost my job and had a...
    evemay evemay
    1 Response Apr 7, 2012

    I Start to Have Sad Thoughts...then..

    i have more and more until they just crowd my mind and i feel sad and worthless and useless and like nothing...it makes me want to be were my friends are just so i can sit there but be alone so that i can just see how unimportant i can be...i really want death sometimes...i...
    Loganberry Loganberry
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2007

    Then I would never be able to hurt anyone ever

    again. I can't hurt people. I just can't. If I do, I'll never forgive myself.
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns
    1 Response Mar 21, 2014

    I Just Wish I Could Be a Normal Person.

    I had a **** upbringing by a neurotic alcoholic mother and an emotionally and physical abusive father. Therefore I am ****** up and I'm scared I'll **** my kids' lives up with my neuroses, bad temper, anxiety and depression. I'm 5 months pregnant with my 2nd biological child...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2009

    I battle in a constant war of suicidal thoughts

    on a daily basis. I refrain from drinking because when I am imbibed the likeliness of me shooting myself is high. It has been this way for two years. I recall one moment when I had a gun in my hand as I stepped along a railroad track. Loaded and ready for action. I'm shocked I...
    JADodd JADodd
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2014
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2014

    I don't wish to die. Sometimes,

    I wish I was never alive. Very different.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015
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