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I Sometimes Wish I Was Never Born

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    I Hate Being Alive

    There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I was never born. Almost every night when I go to sleep, I secretly hope I never wake up again. I never asked for this life. I got stuck in it with my disgusting body, a hideous face, a screwed up mind...there is nothing good about...
    iwishiwas iwishiwas 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Punishment?

    I was born and still live with an identical twin sister. Usually science says we were one, then just decided to split into two. There are times when I wonder if I was split off from my sister, that she was meant to be born, but I was some rebel angel thrown into the mix as a...
    TheFadingAuthor TheFadingAuthor 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    My mom loves to remind me how she didn't abort

    me even though my father said she should. Some days are worse than others but over all, I'm glad I was born.
    FutureGleason FutureGleason 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    Worthless

    I wish I could see what life would be like if I never existed. Then, I would be able to know if all my negative beliefs about myself were true. I am a very very ordinary girl. I usually remain unnoticed, unheard of, uncared of. I believe that I am useless and and just a...
    averagejo averagejo 18-21 3 Responses Aug 5, 2008

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    Urgh

    well i never wanted to born in the first place and life hasnt been the sweetest and when i finally start actually liking life, BAM my family comes into action to remind me just how worthless i am. right now i dont know what to do, kille myself? go into an accident and be in...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2011

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    Pathetic Creature

    for the first half of my life this is all i used to say to myself - i wish i'd never been born or i didn't ask to be born.  during the third quarter of my life it was how to commit suicide.  now, in the last quarter it's wishing i could just wake up dead.  how sad...
    TheFunHasGone TheFunHasGone 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    Lyrics...

    She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    It's just one of those days,

    you know? A day when you feel like the walls around you are crumbling; when you just feel like you want to be isolated from everything, to the point where you just feel the air of melancholy surrounding you. A day when you think you weren't meant to exist; The feeling of...
    NicoBunny6 NicoBunny6 18-21, F Aug 6

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    MY Life Sucks!!!

       I hate my dad and stepmother and am never glad to see them!My grandparents are out of wack and nobody has ever stood up for me about anything! I only do what my parents want and never have any freedom or time for myself!
    Sayaka Sayaka 16-18, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2008

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    I Am A Product Of Hatred

    if my parents truly "loved" me they would have aborted me. i never asked to be born, and if given a choice in the matter i never would have been born. life is empty and meaningless, and all the people who say it's going to get better are liars and sadists. it's not going to get...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    All my life I've had to be in a huge

    competition with my sisters. No matter what I do, I always tend to lose. My parents make it perfectly clear that I'm unwanted and they would be so much better without me and it kills me on a daily basis because I'm constantly reminded of it and I just don't even know what to do...
    bugsxbunnyx101 bugsxbunnyx101 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    What Is Keeping Me Here...

    There are things in my life that are forcing me to stay here, otherwise I would have no reason to live anymore. I don't want to hurt my family, and that is the main reason I am still here. If I were gone I would leave them with all of my school loans and that would be awful. I...
    turtlebrainx27 turtlebrainx27 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    Alone

    If i was never born...it would be one less problem...I just dont see my purpose in life and I dont know if I was even meant to do something...People just protect me and I cant do anything to help them...it makes me feel weak and hopeless...these feelings are hard to cope with and...
    PorcelainChinaDoll PorcelainChinaDoll 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2009

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    All The Time

    why? becuase im a freak show. i hear voices in my head and am parinoid. why did god force me to be born a freak of nature? its not fair. he could have saved so much damn trouble if he didnt have me born. everyone would be better off with me gone. which is why im planning on...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    Lifesucks!

    If I was never borni would not miss being alive nor would I desire to be a life, I wasn't given a choice to be here. Life is full of bullshit if It's not one thing It's another and it never ends! I am so sick of this ****, its pathetic! I see no point of just freaking suffering...
    fuckensucks fuckensucks 31-35 Jan 22, 2013

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    I Some Time Wish I Was Never Born

    im so sick of it poeple think they can walk all over me with out it affecting me! why was i even bron my idiot father is a drunk what was his point of having a kid if he doesnt love me? whats the pont of me being here if nothing ever goes right and i always have pain?!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16, 2009

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    My Ultimate Wish

    Wouldn't it be great to not exist? No pain, no nothing... I wish I never existed because I live a ****** life. I was a mistake child anyway. Everytime my parents and I fight, I always ask them why didn't they abort me? They had that choice. If they did, then I wouldn't have to...
    reset reset 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Falling and falling deeper.

    My heart sinks everyday I wake up. I can never do anything right. My mother tried comforting me , " I know you have good intensions, but your actions just aren't right." I know this and it hurts me because no matter how hard I try I just won't mount to anything, I feel like a...
    TangiDelores TangiDelores 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Too Klumsy

      I just cant take the yelling that my family does. I forget things because I have alot on my mind and they dont understand. Its days like that and others that I wish I wasnt born.
    LuckyCLuckyS LuckyCLuckyS 13-15, F Oct 11, 2009

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    For The Best.

    I know things would have been a lot better If I wasn't ever born... I've always resented my birth parents for not aborting me but seriously, I have too many problems, I'm not really happy at all, I'm not an easy person to live with... I wouldn't have to be suffering here with all...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F Apr 23, 2011

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    I Cant Handle It !!!

    there is to much in my life to handle i can not always put up with it i have completely changed over the last year and a half fro the better actually but ever sence that happened i have no way to let my anger out i don't fight anymore so i cant take it out on other people i do...
    scared154 scared154 13-15, F Nov 4, 2009

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    Life is just so full of crap at times.

    I get yelled at for no reason daily. I had to put my dog down :/ My only grandfather is not so well. My dad lost his job. I barely have any friends. I mean to be honest I general I should be grateful for what I have. I have a new dog, 2-3 friends is all I need, my dad has a job...
    innocentflower innocentflower 13-15, F Aug 3

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    It Hurts to Say

    The things that I have been through have made me think that my existence is worthless. I wish sometimes that I was never born. People have always said that my existence was worthless and futile. But there are times where I did almost die. But in a way, I'm glad I didn't. But in...
    TohruHonda TohruHonda 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 14, 2008

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    I put a lot of stress on my mother.

    I never appreciate her. I know that she deserves better but I still haven't changed. She's my world but I don't treat her like it. My dad didn't want me around after a while, but she never left me. I'm a horrible person. I don't want to lose her too.
    scottphi scottphi 18-21, M Jan 1

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    My heart bleeds right now the gash is deep it never will heal i know agony of being me internal bottom less inferno consumes you annihilates you and yet you are still alive to drag...
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    I want to go far away and never look back. I hate it here! As soon as I can, I'm leaving for college and I won't have to come back.
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