I Sometimes Wish I Was Never Born

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 400 People

    All The Time

    why? becuase im a freak show. i hear voices in my head and am parinoid. why did god force me to be born a freak of nature? its not fair. he could have saved so much damn trouble if he didnt have me born. everyone would be better off with me gone. which is why im planning on...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

    It Hurts to Say

    The things that I have been through have made me think that my existence is worthless. I wish sometimes that I was never born. People have always said that my existence was worthless and futile. But there are times where I did almost die. But in a way, I'm glad I didn't. But in...
    TohruHonda TohruHonda
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 14, 2008

    I Some Time Wish I Was Never Born

    im so sick of it poeple think they can walk all over me with out it affecting me! why was i even bron my idiot father is a drunk what was his point of having a kid if he doesnt love me? whats the pont of me being here if nothing ever goes right and i always have pain?!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 16, 2009

    I don't do anything with my life,

    I'm a complete failure. My family isn't happy with me, I'm a ******* failure
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2014

    Urgh

    well i never wanted to born in the first place and life hasnt been the sweetest and when i finally start actually liking life, BAM my family comes into action to remind me just how worthless i am. right now i dont know what to do, kille myself? go into an accident and be in...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2011

    I feel like I always save up My emotions,

    and then one day I cry over everything that's happened in the past..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 14, 2014

    I know I'm not that old.

    .. I'm actually really young! And it's not like I have a bad life, not at all! I have friends, a loving family, a pet, I go to school, get good grades, I don't do selfharm, never had. I guess my life is pretty fine! But.. I'm a thinker and I think about a lot of stuff.. And most...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

    Pathetic Creature

    for the first half of my life this is all i used to say to myself - i wish i'd never been born or i didn't ask to be born.  during the third quarter of my life it was how to commit suicide.  now, in the last quarter it's wishing i could just wake up dead.  how sad...
    TheFunHasGone TheFunHasGone
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jul 6, 2009
    Gian422 Gian422
    18-21, M
    Sep 15, 2014

    All my life I've had to be in a huge

    competition with my sisters. No matter what I do, I always tend to lose. My parents make it perfectly clear that I'm unwanted and they would be so much better without me and it kills me on a daily basis because I'm constantly reminded of it and I just don't even know what to do...
    bugsxbunnyx101 bugsxbunnyx101
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2014

    My mom loves to remind me how she didn't abort

    me even though my father said she should. Some days are worse than others but over all, I'm glad I was born.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2014

    What Is Keeping Me Here...

    There are things in my life that are forcing me to stay here, otherwise I would have no reason to live anymore. I don't want to hurt my family, and that is the main reason I am still here. If I were gone I would leave them with all of my school loans and that would be awful. I...
    turtlebrainx27 turtlebrainx27
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2013

    I Hate Being Alive

    There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I was never born. Almost every night when I go to sleep, I secretly hope I never wake up again. I never asked for this life. I got stuck in it with my disgusting body, a hideous face, a screwed up mind...there is nothing good about...
    iwishiwas iwishiwas
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2011
    chuckzares chuckzares
    31-35, M
    Sep 15, 2014

    Punishment?

    I was born and still live with an identical twin sister. Usually science says we were one, then just decided to split into two. There are times when I wonder if I was split off from my sister, that she was meant to be born, but I was some rebel angel thrown into the mix as a...
    TheFadingAuthor TheFadingAuthor
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

    Worthless

    I wish I could see what life would be like if I never existed. Then, I would be able to know if all my negative beliefs about myself were true. I am a very very ordinary girl. I usually remain unnoticed, unheard of, uncared of. I believe that I am useless and and just a...
    averagejo averagejo
    18-21
    3 Responses Aug 5, 2008

    MY Life Sucks!!!

       I hate my dad and stepmother and am never glad to see them!My grandparents are out of wack and nobody has ever stood up for me about anything! I only do what my parents want and never have any freedom or time for myself!
    Sayaka Sayaka
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2008

    For The Best.

    I know things would have been a lot better If I wasn't ever born... I've always resented my birth parents for not aborting me but seriously, I have too many problems, I'm not really happy at all, I'm not an easy person to live with... I wouldn't have to be suffering here with all...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll
    18-21, F
    Apr 23, 2011

    Life is so stupid. It's heavy like a boulder on

    your shoulders, but sometimes it just gets lighter for like a few hours, a few days if you're lucky, so you get to think "well it's not that bad, what was I thinking, living is beautiful". Then it punches you in the face and kicks you in the teeth while you're down. For those...
    Renardenoir Renardenoir
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    I feel like I'm some sort of test subject.

    .. They throw all this bad stuff at me and see how long until I just can't do it anymore
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    I Am A Product Of Hatred

    if my parents truly "loved" me they would have aborted me. i never asked to be born, and if given a choice in the matter i never would have been born. life is empty and meaningless, and all the people who say it's going to get better are liars and sadists. it's not going to get...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jul 21, 2011

    It's just one of those days,

    you know? A day when you feel like the walls around you are crumbling; when you just feel like you want to be isolated from everything, to the point where you just feel the air of melancholy surrounding you. A day when you think you weren't meant to exist; The feeling of...
    NicoBunny6 NicoBunny6
    18-21, F
    Aug 6, 2014

    I Cant Handle It !!!

    there is to much in my life to handle i can not always put up with it i have completely changed over the last year and a half fro the better actually but ever sence that happened i have no way to let my anger out i don't fight anymore so i cant take it out on other people i do...
    scared154 scared154
    13-15, F
    Nov 4, 2009

    Alone

    If i was never born...it would be one less problem...I just dont see my purpose in life and I dont know if I was even meant to do something...People just protect me and I cant do anything to help them...it makes me feel weak and hopeless...these feelings are hard to cope with and...
    ConLocura ConLocura
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 14, 2009

    Too Klumsy

      I just cant take the yelling that my family does. I forget things because I have alot on my mind and they dont understand. Its days like that and others that I wish I wasnt born.
    LuckyCLuckyS LuckyCLuckyS
    13-15, F
    Oct 11, 2009

    Falling and falling deeper.

    My heart sinks everyday I wake up. I can never do anything right. My mother tried comforting me , " I know you have good intensions, but your actions just aren't right." I know this and it hurts me because no matter how hard I try I just won't mount to anything, I feel like a...
    TangiDelores TangiDelores
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2014

    Lyrics...

    She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 15, 2009

    I put a lot of stress on my mother.

    I never appreciate her. I know that she deserves better but I still haven't changed. She's my world but I don't treat her like it. My dad didn't want me around after a while, but she never left me. I'm a horrible person. I don't want to lose her too.
    scottphi scottphi
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 1, 2014

    Lifesucks!

    If I was never borni would not miss being alive nor would I desire to be a life, I wasn't given a choice to be here. Life is full of bullshit if It's not one thing It's another and it never ends! I am so sick of this ****, its pathetic! I see no point of just freaking suffering...
    fuckensucks fuckensucks
    31-35
    Jan 22, 2013

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