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I Sometimes Wish I Was Never Born

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    What Is Keeping Me Here...

    There are things in my life that are forcing me to stay here, otherwise I would have no reason to live anymore. I don't want to hurt my family, and that is the main reason I am still here. If I were gone I would leave them with all of my school loans and that would be awful. I...
    turtlebrainx27 turtlebrainx27 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    It Hurts to Say

    The things that I have been through have made me think that my existence is worthless. I wish sometimes that I was never born. People have always said that my existence was worthless and futile. But there are times where I did almost die. But in a way, I'm glad I didn't. But in...
    TohruHonda TohruHonda 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 14, 2008

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    I put a lot of stress on my mother.

    I never appreciate her. I know that she deserves better but I still haven't changed. She's my world but I don't treat her like it. My dad didn't want me around after a while, but she never left me. I'm a horrible person. I don't want to lose her too.
    scottphi scottphi 22-25, M Jan 1, 2014

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    All The Time

    why? becuase im a freak show. i hear voices in my head and am parinoid. why did god force me to be born a freak of nature? its not fair. he could have saved so much damn trouble if he didnt have me born. everyone would be better off with me gone. which is why im planning on...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    Punishment?

    I was born and still live with an identical twin sister. Usually science says we were one, then just decided to split into two. There are times when I wonder if I was split off from my sister, that she was meant to be born, but I was some rebel angel thrown into the mix as a...
    TheFadingAuthor TheFadingAuthor 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    I feel like I'm some sort of test subject.

    .. They throw all this bad stuff at me and see how long until I just can't do it anymore
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    Lifesucks!

    If I was never borni would not miss being alive nor would I desire to be a life, I wasn't given a choice to be here. Life is full of bullshit if It's not one thing It's another and it never ends! I am so sick of this ****, its pathetic! I see no point of just freaking suffering...
    fuckensucks fuckensucks 31-35 Jan 22, 2013

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    I Hate Being Alive

    There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I was never born. Almost every night when I go to sleep, I secretly hope I never wake up again. I never asked for this life. I got stuck in it with my disgusting body, a hideous face, a screwed up mind...there is nothing good about...
    iwishiwas iwishiwas 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    All my life I've had to be in a huge

    competition with my sisters. No matter what I do, I always tend to lose. My parents make it perfectly clear that I'm unwanted and they would be so much better without me and it kills me on a daily basis because I'm constantly reminded of it and I just don't even know what to do...
    bugsxbunnyx101 bugsxbunnyx101 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2014

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    For The Best.

    I know things would have been a lot better If I wasn't ever born... I've always resented my birth parents for not aborting me but seriously, I have too many problems, I'm not really happy at all, I'm not an easy person to live with... I wouldn't have to be suffering here with all...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F Apr 23, 2011

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    MY Life Sucks!!!

       I hate my dad and stepmother and am never glad to see them!My grandparents are out of wack and nobody has ever stood up for me about anything! I only do what my parents want and never have any freedom or time for myself!
    Sayaka Sayaka 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2008

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    Falling and falling deeper.

    My heart sinks everyday I wake up. I can never do anything right. My mother tried comforting me , " I know you have good intensions, but your actions just aren't right." I know this and it hurts me because no matter how hard I try I just won't mount to anything, I feel like a...
    TangiDelores TangiDelores 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2014

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    Lyrics...

    She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    I Cant Handle It !!!

    there is to much in my life to handle i can not always put up with it i have completely changed over the last year and a half fro the better actually but ever sence that happened i have no way to let my anger out i don't fight anymore so i cant take it out on other people i do...
    scared154 scared154 13-15, F Nov 4, 2009

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    I don't do anything with my life,

    I'm a complete failure. My family isn't happy with me, I'm a ******* failure
    xBleedMeDryx xBleedMeDryx 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2014

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    Gian422 Gian422 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    I know I'm not that old.

    .. I'm actually really young! And it's not like I have a bad life, not at all! I have friends, a loving family, a pet, I go to school, get good grades, I don't do selfharm, never had. I guess my life is pretty fine! But.. I'm a thinker and I think about a lot of stuff.. And most...
    Mulier Mulier 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    My Ultimate Wish

    Wouldn't it be great to not exist? No pain, no nothing... I wish I never existed because I live a ****** life. I was a mistake child anyway. Everytime my parents and I fight, I always ask them why didn't they abort me? They had that choice. If they did, then I wouldn't have to...
    reset reset 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    I Some Time Wish I Was Never Born

    im so sick of it poeple think they can walk all over me with out it affecting me! why was i even bron my idiot father is a drunk what was his point of having a kid if he doesnt love me? whats the pont of me being here if nothing ever goes right and i always have pain?!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16, 2009

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    I Am A Product Of Hatred

    if my parents truly "loved" me they would have aborted me. i never asked to be born, and if given a choice in the matter i never would have been born. life is empty and meaningless, and all the people who say it's going to get better are liars and sadists. it's not going to get...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    It's just one of those days,

    you know? A day when you feel like the walls around you are crumbling; when you just feel like you want to be isolated from everything, to the point where you just feel the air of melancholy surrounding you. A day when you think you weren't meant to exist; The feeling of...
    NicoBunny6 NicoBunny6 18-21, F Aug 6, 2014

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    Too Klumsy

      I just cant take the yelling that my family does. I forget things because I have alot on my mind and they dont understand. Its days like that and others that I wish I wasnt born.
    LuckyCLuckyS LuckyCLuckyS 13-15, F Oct 11, 2009

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    I really don't need to explain this do I the

    whole I wish I was never born is self explanatory isn't it?
    Kawaiigirl Kawaiigirl 18-21, F Apr 25

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    Urgh

    well i never wanted to born in the first place and life hasnt been the sweetest and when i finally start actually liking life, BAM my family comes into action to remind me just how worthless i am. right now i dont know what to do, kille myself? go into an accident and be in...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2011

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    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M Sep 15, 2014

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    Alone

    If i was never born...it would be one less problem...I just dont see my purpose in life and I dont know if I was even meant to do something...People just protect me and I cant do anything to help them...it makes me feel weak and hopeless...these feelings are hard to cope with and...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2009

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    Pathetic Creature

    for the first half of my life this is all i used to say to myself - i wish i'd never been born or i didn't ask to be born.  during the third quarter of my life it was how to commit suicide.  now, in the last quarter it's wishing i could just wake up dead.  how sad...
    TheFunHasGone TheFunHasGone 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    My mom loves to remind me how she didn't abort

    me even though my father said she should. Some days are worse than others but over all, I'm glad I was born.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2014

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    Worthless

    I wish I could see what life would be like if I never existed. Then, I would be able to know if all my negative beliefs about myself were true. I am a very very ordinary girl. I usually remain unnoticed, unheard of, uncared of. I believe that I am useless and and just a...
    averagejo averagejo 18-21 3 Responses Aug 5, 2008

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    I feel like I always save up My emotions,

    and then one day I cry over everything that's happened in the past..
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2014

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    Sometimes.. I wish I wasn't born so that my mom could live her life the way she wants to. I mean she does anyway, but not to the fullest. I'm the youngest and the only one under 18...
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    I agree with you indigowitch they are a cult! they are a money hungry brain washing sickening cult. they ruined our families life! they used my brother like a lab experiment like a...
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    Further, I resent my parents for bringing me into this awful world to have to endure this awful thing called life. I was a Pollyanna once upon a time. Back then I was delusional...
    LG1987 LG1987 26-30, M 17 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just wonder why I'm here, who would miss if I was gone, my family yes anyone else probably. People say things will change, my life will get better. But it just isn't...
    tommoz19 tommoz19 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    I sometimes DO Just Run Away!!!!! =/
    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am a medical student and somehow I have felt really upset about it. I dont know why. Most people will be very happy to study medicine under scholarship but i feel really weighed...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I helped care for my dying Mom for 2 years. I not only found out she passed on FB, I was brutally attacked by my own siblings saying I did nothing and was never there. **** off to...
    SapphireLibra SapphireLibra 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    My cocktail of pain meds kills most of my emotions such as crying, loss of friends or family, etc. I only recently had a special lady on here lift the iron curtain holding my...
    boldtimer boldtimer 66-70, M 2 days ago

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    always been the way I handled stress, anxiety, conflict, fear...I hate being backed into a corner with no way out...
    PixieLoveChild PixieLoveChild 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My mother lived with my grandparents when I was young - I never really knew my dad, though they had been married. Living at my grandparents' house wasn't ideal for any of us - my...
    alearninglife alearninglife 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    As an oldest child, I don't regret my siblings being born, so this isn't a simple wish, but I can't help but feel if I hadn't been born, my parents would have realized they weren't...
    jdhammer84 jdhammer84 31-35, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Actually, things are more complicated than just this but I feel like I need to talk.. I did a lot of things in my life, travelled a bit, took drugs, got drunk, had parties with...
    SandPanda SandPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    You and I go hard at each other like we're going to war. You and I go rough, we keep throwing things and slamming the door. You and I get so damn dysfunctional, we stopped keeping...
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