I Sometimes Wonder If I Am a Psychopath

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    Almost every person I have ever met,

    walked past, or even seen on television in my life, I have imagined their death. I think about and plan how I would kill them. I have even planned how others could kill me and how I would react to it. When talking to someone and they start to get a little boring, I imagine...
    Alemiir Alemiir
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2014
    adav218 adav218
    16-17, M
    Jul 23, 2014

    I used to have a lot of emotion

    but around 8 my life got ****** up and since then I don't Realy connect to other peopl and I show every symptom of sociopathy except for impulsiveness.
    HannibalLectorr HannibalLectorr
    16-17
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015

    It feels as though I could torture someone

    and murder them without a second thought, but who knows what would actually happen
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 13, 2015

    While I'm Laying face down she begins to

    massage me. The massage is absolutely horrible. So I fake my discomfort. Even though I am not enjoying it. Still, in my mind I want this human to believe I am not comfortable so something more will happen.
    Infectious100 Infectious100
    36-40
    Jan 17, 2014

    Hello. I have no direction.

    I am stuck between a fork with two scary roads; psycopathic or sociopathic. Am I in the right place is my question, have I experienced the right things to be called either is another? Or have I made a wrong turn and fit into a phase that most people can turn around? My story is...
    EliHaze EliHaze
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2013

    I tested as more psychopathic

    than most of the population. In some ways though, I am far more empathetic, probably because I experienced those emotions so much that I finally learned to recognize, understand, and mirror those feelings of helplessness and worthlessness.
    34rjw3toj 34rjw3toj
    26-30
    Apr 1

    I have had this thought

    before "maybe I'm slightly insane" I'm really good at shutting my emotions off. I feel weird saying "I love you" it's like I can't say it or don't mean it. One thing that got me thinking is those times were I can be crying and the next I'm laughing hysterically... So here's...
    Deepess Deepess
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2015

    People: Annoying objects

    that constantly get in the way of things and that are only useful when I need something.
    insertgenericusername insertgenericusername
    26-30, F
    Feb 27, 2014

    Everytime I get angry,

    sad, or emotionally frustrated in any way, I get the image of killing people. The worst it's gotten to is brutally murdering my girlfriend. I just want to cut her open and dig through her insides~ I wanna drink her blood~ I want to make her mine~ She is mine... and I'll make...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria
    22-25, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    I often have violent

    and cannibalistic fantasies. Mostly about me torturing and eating people I'm sexually attracted to. Sometimes the other way round.
    Christuner666 Christuner666
    26-30, M
    Apr 21

    Hello, i sometimes wonder

    if i am a psychopath because i feel one day i can actually kill someone. Whenever i see a good looking knife i imagine how imma use it on someone. I dont feel others pain. I love blood. I have anxiety problems. Idk theres many stuff to make me wonder if I'm like that.
    Fanigae Fanigae
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2014
    dalton115 dalton115
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Oct 15, 2014

    most of the time I feel like I am,

    but realistically I'm just a sick ****** up individual who knows how to contain in. If I acted on every though or impulse I've had since I was a young girl I'd definitely be doing life in state prison.
    ringsofsaturn68 ringsofsaturn68
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2015

    It's fairly obvious that I have feelings

    for a limited number of people but ****. Everyone else sucks.
    onecutebubbles0729 onecutebubbles0729
    22-25, F
    Feb 15, 2015

    I always go walk in a damaged park near my

    house at night..it helps me relax probably 'coz i'm the only one there and i love being alone in the dark,but about a month ago i was at my uncle's house and his wife didn't let me go out at night as i used too, i felt something in my throat hurting me and i couldn't breath so i...
    MaissaBchlt MaissaBchlt
    16-17, F
    Jul 27, 2015

    I think it's true. nothing makes me happier

    than mass sufferings. i always feel like most sufferings are self imposed and nobody should bother about it. I also believe it pays for what I've been through.
    dollarsigns dollarsigns
    18-21, M
    Feb 2

    Just a tip but if you wonder

    if you are a psychopath or sociopath, you are probably not one. I worked in a psychiatric hospital. I have known plenty of them. In my experience, the people that are the most convinced of their sanity are the most mentally ill. People that question sanity have the tools to...
    SonOfTheDelta SonOfTheDelta
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    Yup...i'm normal for the most part.

    ..but people often say that I need to see a psychiatrist or something like that....well...I'd be in some sort of detention center now if they could read my thougths that's for sure
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    For quite awhile, I have figured it's likely

    that I'm psychopathic. I stumbled upon the subject just reading about random things a long time ago, not trying to find out if something was wrong with me or whatever like so many "possible psychopaths" seem to. I don't really feel like something is "wrong" with me. I just know...
    insertgenericusername insertgenericusername
    26-30, F
    Jan 31, 2014

    I feel reaaaally creepy right now.

    I feel uncomfortable from myself... I just downloaded pictures of a person because I am going to delete them from my friends in facebook and am not going to be able to see them anymore. These pictures on my computer seem to not be in the right place, they so don't fit, I feel...
    auxo auxo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 5

    I like manipulating people's emotions.

    Not to negatively hurt them, but because I like knowing that by saying one thing or another I can elicit a certain response. A sense of power. At the same time, I'm a "nice" person. I hate seeing people in pain because it's annoying and also because on some level I do feel...
    foreveriscomposedofNows foreveriscomposedofNows
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    Still Trying To Figure It Out

    I’m very unsure if I am a psychopath or not. I can be very charming and polite, but I do tend to be aloof, and I try to avoid strangers as much as possible.   I’m not particularly arrogant, but I do feel that I’m meant for something very important...
    speculumvir speculumvir
    18-21, T
    4 Responses Feb 5, 2010

    I was diagnosed as pathologically insane today.

    I suppose the hospital isn't that bad, I just wish I had something to cut my steak with.
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jan 17

    Whenever my mother ****** me off

    or scares me, I always feel this urge to just grab something and beat her with it. I won't, because obviously, that's irrational. But I just.. Feel very violent. Like a caged animal.
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat
    16-17, T
    Apr 27, 2015

    I once set a hamster on fire.

    I loaded that ***** up with gasoline. Lit her *** up and it ran around the front yard. I justified the killing cause she ate her babies. I was like 15. When I was 11 I beat a dog in the head with a large rock. I justified it's killing by telling myself. The dog shouldn't have...
    Infectious100 Infectious100
    36-40
    Dec 5, 2013

    i have a dream or a fantasy really some one

    that i interact with who is in trouble and i am their only hope i hurt some one or a group of people to save the group of people i know. the person or people i saved would see my savage act and my true face not the mask i wear and not only are they not afraid or disgusted but...
    kylewest1992 kylewest1992
    22-25
    Jan 13, 2014

    I am callous, insensitive,

    and cold hearted towards other people. I have been told that I don't respect peoples personal privacy/rights either. Everyone mentions the way I look at them; it always unnerves them. When I'm intimate, girls say that its captivating, almost entrancing. I pride myself on my...
    SilentK17 SilentK17
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 23, 2014
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