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I Sometimes Wonder If It's Even Worth It Anymore

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    I Sometimes Wonder....

    I have been doing some major thinking......I'm in a pickle right now. Struggling with a decision. I know that I need to make one very very soon. He has been talking lots Making all these promises to change. He keeps saying 'What' a blessing our daughter is and he is so very happy...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    Conclusion Problem

    I dont know if its worth life for me always manages to get screwed up even when it becomes right. Just to let you know my negative self talk is all due to the fact that i have major depression and borderline personality disorder which to me means im just to damn sensitive. But...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    I Need To Stop Wondering About This!

    I thought i was over and done with this feeling but i guess im no At the beginning of september i tried to committ suicide and nearly succeeded. Cutting myself nearly everyday. I tried to stop cutting and it was going rather well but now i have fallen back into that again and...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Life

    The pursuit of happiness I wonder if it's worth it anymore.I look for it but all I ever find is ****. I feel like it's not worth pursuing anymore. I feel like just giving up on ever finding love or happiness.Maybe it doesn't exist.
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    Life, going throughout thedaysonly to realize I

    have to do a million things just so I won't have others pain me and the eordt part is most of it isn't my fault. So I wonder is it worth it even though the pain continues and I go throughout it alone.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Apr 1

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    It Is What It Was, Is, And Will Be

    If it never had anymeans, doesn't mean it won't.  If it means nothing now, doesn't mean it didn't.  But if it will never mean anything, then it never shall.  I wonder too much.  I waster to much time thinking about what do things mean.  Well if I can...
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX 18-21, F Jun 16, 2010

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    They Just Tell Me It's A New Day Tomorrow

    Cursing at yourself on what to do next as you've just dropped your packet of pasta, again, while trying to cook and force feed yourself. Nothing seems to go right. The whole evening has just been a nightmare with thoughts flying all over place, suicidal thoughts, how to and when...
    XanthiaJo XanthiaJo 22-25, F Apr 5, 2011

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    All I seem to do is work.

    I've been a software developer for a really long time and the constant stress of the job has taken its toll. When confronted with a stressful situation now my instinct is to simply shutdown and do nothing. I feel like I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth. If I lose my job I...
    ratchetman1138 ratchetman1138 41-45, M Nov 10, 2014

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    Hurt Alone

    I am unravelling again. I felt it coming on, for a few days, and tried to just push it out of my head……and it worked, for awhile. Then I just gave in. What is the point anymore? I am tierd of fighting this. Its like a plague that never goes away. I have been sleeping all...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    But Then

    I hold one of my great grandchildren in a cuddle, and I know that it really is. No matter what else is happening in my life, having them in it too, makes it all worthwhile.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 15, 2012

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    I Can Hardly Explain It.

    Everythings been changing so rapidly all the time. First new people and now being forced into a new place, with even more new people. It feels so overwhelming and depressing at the same time. and it just keeps happening over and over. More and more changes. Each time a new punch...
    lexross96 lexross96 16-17 Jun 20, 2011

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    I Do Sometimes Wonder If Its Even Worth It Anymore...

    I'm currently a 15 year old girl, about a week away from doing her GCSE exams...My sister was clinically depressedmy mother just recently developed Cancer and thankfully recovered okay ish.I'm not the prettiest girl in my class... or my year.. or my whole school, street and town...
    Bronie1471 Bronie1471 13-15 2 Responses May 8, 2011

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    Especially Lately.

    I've been thinking about everything a lot lately. Nothing seems worth it. It all feels so pointless. Maybe it is. I hate this time in my life right now. I just hate every aspect of myself. I don't know why. I have moments where i feel okay, maybe i'll genuinely laugh but then...
    blackveilbride51 blackveilbride51 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    I was abused as a kid

    and a young adult so really I just want to be loved and no one seems to want to love me so I am forever chasing a dream and in all honesty sometimes makes me think bad thoughts because there must be something in me that's unlovable because no one loves me. I am just not good...
    giggles78758 giggles78758 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    Hate My Life

    I have so much trouble motivating myself to do anything. Nothing seems worth the effort. Why can't I get more enjoyment out of life ?
    Snowwhite36 Snowwhite36 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2010

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    Someone introduced me to a woman yesterday.

    . idk how and when, I said yes for a movie tonight.. at times I feel like I'm the tide.. one moment, I desire the solidity of the shore.. the secure it promised me.. one moment, I crave for the wilderness of the ocean.. being free and risky.. the joy of the unknown and the...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 3 Responses May 3

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    "a Life Worth Living".................

    I have a nagging question that has been buzzing through my brain right now that I can't seem to find an argument for.....so I want to see 'who' can knock it for 'what ever reason...Don't be gentle here. If The Husband is working to make a living, shouldn't it be The Wife's role...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    Yeah, if trying is worth anymore.

    I'm moving on. Because it's important to be good and know the self respect.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 4

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    I Don't See The Point Anymore

    I've always been different, i've always been looked down on and up until recently, no matter how much it hurt to keep going, I still did. But lately, as i'm getting older, I just don't see the point anymore. I don't get any respect from people I know at home, I was bullied all...
    CGFE CGFE 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 30, 2010

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    Oh Yeah It Is My Friend.

    I have felt this in the past and I felt it just recently and then I look into those big hazel eyes and I say "hell ya it is worth it." 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response May 5, 2010

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    COLLEGE worth it or not?

    Ive seen so many college educated people that don't even get to use what that thought them in class in their jobs. I wonder if is worth it to spend 4 years of school just for a paper
    christopherlove christopherlove 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 29

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    I am numb. I cant laugh,

    cry or feel love. its awful. most days i cant wait to go to sleep. Its been that way since i got 17 ects 3 years ago.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses May 4

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    What would you do or how would it mke you feel

    when..... You swear you hve tried to be as kind as you could possibly be,to choose the best word to comfort someone who never stopped portraying you as a jerk, never stopped looking at you as a jerk, never stopped bringing out the jerkiest part of you and never stopped...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 2 Responses May 30

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