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I Sometimes Wonder If It's Even Worth It Anymore

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    I was abused as a kid

    and a young adult so really I just want to be loved and no one seems to want to love me so I am forever chasing a dream and in all honesty sometimes makes me think bad thoughts because there must be something in me that's unlovable because no one loves me. I am just not good...
    giggles78758 giggles78758 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    Oh Yeah It Is My Friend.

    I have felt this in the past and I felt it just recently and then I look into those big hazel eyes and I say "hell ya it is worth it." 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response May 5, 2010

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    It Is What It Was, Is, And Will Be

    If it never had anymeans, doesn't mean it won't.  If it means nothing now, doesn't mean it didn't.  But if it will never mean anything, then it never shall.  I wonder too much.  I waster to much time thinking about what do things mean.  Well if I can...
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX 18-21, F Jun 16, 2010

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    Especially Lately.

    I've been thinking about everything a lot lately. Nothing seems worth it. It all feels so pointless. Maybe it is. I hate this time in my life right now. I just hate every aspect of myself. I don't know why. I have moments where i feel okay, maybe i'll genuinely laugh but then...
    blackveilbride51 blackveilbride51 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    I Can Hardly Explain It.

    Everythings been changing so rapidly all the time. First new people and now being forced into a new place, with even more new people. It feels so overwhelming and depressing at the same time. and it just keeps happening over and over. More and more changes. Each time a new punch...
    lexross96 lexross96 16-17 Jun 20, 2011

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    Conclusion Problem

    I dont know if its worth life for me always manages to get screwed up even when it becomes right. Just to let you know my negative self talk is all due to the fact that i have major depression and borderline personality disorder which to me means im just to damn sensitive. But...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    All I seem to do is work.

    I've been a software developer for a really long time and the constant stress of the job has taken its toll. When confronted with a stressful situation now my instinct is to simply shutdown and do nothing. I feel like I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth. If I lose my job I...
    ratchetman1138 ratchetman1138 41-45, M Nov 10, 2014

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    I Do Sometimes Wonder If Its Even Worth It Anymore...

    I'm currently a 15 year old girl, about a week away from doing her GCSE exams...My sister was clinically depressedmy mother just recently developed Cancer and thankfully recovered okay ish.I'm not the prettiest girl in my class... or my year.. or my whole school, street and town...
    Bronie1471 Bronie1471 13-15 2 Responses May 8, 2011

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    I Don't See The Point Anymore

    I've always been different, i've always been looked down on and up until recently, no matter how much it hurt to keep going, I still did. But lately, as i'm getting older, I just don't see the point anymore. I don't get any respect from people I know at home, I was bullied all...
    CGFE CGFE 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 30, 2010

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    They Just Tell Me It's A New Day Tomorrow

    Cursing at yourself on what to do next as you've just dropped your packet of pasta, again, while trying to cook and force feed yourself. Nothing seems to go right. The whole evening has just been a nightmare with thoughts flying all over place, suicidal thoughts, how to and when...
    XanthiaJo XanthiaJo 22-25, F Apr 5, 2011

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    I Sometimes Wonder....

    I have been doing some major thinking......I'm in a pickle right now. Struggling with a decision. I know that I need to make one very very soon. He has been talking lots Making all these promises to change. He keeps saying 'What' a blessing our daughter is and he is so very happy...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    I Need To Stop Wondering About This!

    I thought i was over and done with this feeling but i guess im no At the beginning of september i tried to committ suicide and nearly succeeded. Cutting myself nearly everyday. I tried to stop cutting and it was going rather well but now i have fallen back into that again and...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Hurt Alone

    I am unravelling again. I felt it coming on, for a few days, and tried to just push it out of my head……and it worked, for awhile. Then I just gave in. What is the point anymore? I am tierd of fighting this. Its like a plague that never goes away. I have been sleeping all...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    But Then

    I hold one of my great grandchildren in a cuddle, and I know that it really is. No matter what else is happening in my life, having them in it too, makes it all worthwhile.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Hate My Life

    I have so much trouble motivating myself to do anything. Nothing seems worth the effort. Why can't I get more enjoyment out of life ?
    Snowwhite36 Snowwhite36 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2010

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    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    Life

    The pursuit of happiness I wonder if it's worth it anymore.I look for it but all I ever find is ****. I feel like it's not worth pursuing anymore. I feel like just giving up on ever finding love or happiness.Maybe it doesn't exist.
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    "a Life Worth Living".................

    I have a nagging question that has been buzzing through my brain right now that I can't seem to find an argument for.....so I want to see 'who' can knock it for 'what ever reason...Don't be gentle here. If The Husband is working to make a living, shouldn't it be The Wife's role...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    ok, i'm probably not, because a real psychopath wouldn't even bother to write these kind of experiences and would think nothing's wrong with him/her. still, i have noticed that i...
    Taamo Taamo 16-17, F Mar 15

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    My best friends both eat their boogers! I have never done this even as a child.. They are both almost 30 and eat their boogers after picking their noses... They think it's fine...
    loveisaloosinggame loveisaloosinggame 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Ok, so Friday I ran away. I left in the pouring rain at 3:30am. I walked out of town and far out of the county before it was even light out. I was drenched and covered in mud...
    AleaAndLexi AleaAndLexi 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 17

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    No matter the pain a man caused in your life, not every one you come across will treat you the same. I strongly believe the world has a lot of great men looking for true...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 27

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    Seriously !? I don't get why some people think it's nice to be rude and bully people. you have no right to say stuff about people when you have no idea what is going on in their...
    bonyknees bonyknees 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    I know I said some really bad hurtful things to her that I didn't meant,I mean I didn't know that what I was saying was hurting her so much to make her not want to be near me...
    FayeThePrincess FayeThePrincess 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Im gay who's not into a relationship eversince. i really wanted to feel that kind of feeling to be with someone you love. i got bored and lonely so i decided to go to mall. when i...
    kiminion14 kiminion14 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    Somewhere I know that it's not over the rainbow.  It's not going to be a pot of gold that you slip into, not even in my dreams.  It breaks my heart to feel it, the grief...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I got home yesterday from a long day at work and noticed that my boyfriend who is staying at my place for a few days ordered a pizza. I asked him if I could have a couple of slices...
    Pooh1993 Pooh1993 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    I love this poem, and I can relate. It's very me.sometimes the mask hides nothingI am methe same in front of the maskas behindI make no apologies for who I amI am the devil's...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I'm so angry. Today I learned that I've been bumped from my FFA competition because another girl wanted to go. Thing is, this girl is mentally disabled and can't even talk:( I feel...
    antihero98 antihero98 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    It's so hot in here, even when it's night time. -.- I wish to have a dip in cold spring pools.
    abcdefghisabelmnopqrst abcdefghisabelmnopqrst 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    Some people say the best remedy is to write everything down, to simply get it of your chest that way. I wish it was as simple as that, but, it's never simple. You see, it never was...
    Aleahya Aleahya 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    It's bitterly cold out but the sun is shining through my window making me warm :)
    smile4today smile4today 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 27

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    Sad that it seems like anytime I'm being nice or being a gentleman, giving a compliment, or just being friendly, it's called, "pervy" or "weird". Can people be simply nice and...
    willpalmer12 willpalmer12 18-21, M Feb 28

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    ( I know I'm 14, but there wasn't one saying I have fallen head over heals for a guy in my year) I've known him for 2 years and liked him for 1 of them. It's nothing I've ever...
    ILoveMyKiwiPuppy ILoveMyKiwiPuppy 13-15, F Feb 28

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    Femme lesbians. It's a real thing guys. brandymars.blogspot.ca/2014/08/what-its-like-being-lesbian-in-dress.html
    brandymarsblog brandymarsblog 26-30, F Mar 8

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    It's my birthday!!! I'm finally 15!!! Yay!!! :)
    jamesmonty3950 jamesmonty3950 13-15, M 9 Responses Mar 9

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    "A ship is always safe at shore but that is not what it's built for"- Albert Einstein
    Daydreaming2 Daydreaming2 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    My relationship with my fiance is healthy and all, I just think lately we are lacking some serious communication skills.I don't knw how to confront him about certain things without...
    AlicebeneyisSilvereyes AlicebeneyisSilvereyes 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Those nights when you're laying in bed, heart pounding, tears in your eyes, mind racing, not being able to breathe. Those are the absolute worst nights, especially when you feel so...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I dont really care anymore about what people think .. I rather go outside looking fresh then looking UGLY
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I was blessed with a special treat this early morning in the form of fog. I've always been captivated by the mysterious and seductiveness of this event. The way it shrouds the...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 41-45, M 5 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Boyfriend and I had sex last night, about 5 minutes in, condom broke we took a minute and then got another one. He hadn't finished or anything so we kept going. He woke up and...
    loveisaloosinggame loveisaloosinggame 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    A common theme of tonight is everyone telling me I'm a failure. First it started out with my mom telling me my communication skills suck and that I can't ever get the message...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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