I Sometimes Wonder If It's Even Worth It Anymore

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    I Don't See The Point Anymore

    I've always been different, i've always been looked down on and up until recently, no matter how much it hurt to keep going, I still did. But lately, as i'm getting older, I just don't see the point anymore. I don't get any respect from people I know at home, I was bullied all...
    CGFE CGFE
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 30, 2010

    I was abused as a kid

    and a young adult so really I just want to be loved and no one seems to want to love me so I am forever chasing a dream and in all honesty sometimes makes me think bad thoughts because there must be something in me that's unlovable because no one loves me. I am just not good...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Aug 15, 2014

    Life

    The pursuit of happiness I wonder if it's worth it anymore.I look for it but all I ever find is ****. I feel like it's not worth pursuing anymore. I feel like just giving up on ever finding love or happiness.Maybe it doesn't exist.
    howsab howsab
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2011

    I Sometimes Wonder....

    I have been doing some major thinking......I'm in a pickle right now. Struggling with a decision. I know that I need to make one very very soon. He has been talking lots Making all these promises to change. He keeps saying 'What' a blessing our daughter is and he is so very happy...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Aug 23, 2011

    I Need To Stop Wondering About This!

    I thought i was over and done with this feeling but i guess im no At the beginning of september i tried to committ suicide and nearly succeeded. Cutting myself nearly everyday. I tried to stop cutting and it was going rather well but now i have fallen back into that again and...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 15, 2011

    "a Life Worth Living".................

    I have a nagging question that has been buzzing through my brain right now that I can't seem to find an argument for.....so I want to see 'who' can knock it for 'what ever reason...Don't be gentle here. If The Husband is working to make a living, shouldn't it be The Wife's role...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Aug 23, 2011

    I really don't know if it's worth it.

    I feel so depressed and don't want to do anything. I know I need to talk to someone that understands, but is it even worth it? It takes too much effort. I just want to be done. It's not worth it.
    Chloe813 Chloe813
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 11

    What would you do or how would it mke you feel

    when..... You swear you hve tried to be as kind as you could possibly be,to choose the best word to comfort someone who never stopped portraying you as a jerk, never stopped looking at you as a jerk, never stopped bringing out the jerkiest part of you and never stopped...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    2 Responses May 30, 2015

    It Is What It Was, Is, And Will Be

    If it never had anymeans, doesn't mean it won't.  If it means nothing now, doesn't mean it didn't.  But if it will never mean anything, then it never shall.  I wonder too much.  I waster to much time thinking about what do things mean.  Well if I can...
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX
    18-21, F
    Jun 16, 2010

    Hurt Alone

    I am unravelling again. I felt it coming on, for a few days, and tried to just push it out of my head……and it worked, for awhile. Then I just gave in. What is the point anymore? I am tierd of fighting this. Its like a plague that never goes away. I have been sleeping all...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 14, 2010

    COLLEGE worth it or not?

    Ive seen so many college educated people that don't even get to use what that thought them in class in their jobs. I wonder if is worth it to spend 4 years of school just for a paper
    christopherlove christopherlove
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2015

    I Can Hardly Explain It.

    Everythings been changing so rapidly all the time. First new people and now being forced into a new place, with even more new people. It feels so overwhelming and depressing at the same time. and it just keeps happening over and over. More and more changes. Each time a new punch...
    lexross96 lexross96
    16-17
    Jun 20, 2011

    Yeah, if trying is worth anymore.

    I'm moving on. Because it's important to be good and know the self respect.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 4, 2015

    I Do Sometimes Wonder If Its Even Worth It Anymore...

    I'm currently a 15 year old girl, about a week away from doing her GCSE exams...My sister was clinically depressedmy mother just recently developed Cancer and thankfully recovered okay ish.I'm not the prettiest girl in my class... or my year.. or my whole school, street and town...
    Bronie1471 Bronie1471
    13-15
    2 Responses May 8, 2011

    I am numb. I cant laugh,

    cry or feel love. its awful. most days i cant wait to go to sleep. Its been that way since i got 17 ects 3 years ago.
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2015

    Hate My Life

    I have so much trouble motivating myself to do anything. Nothing seems worth the effort. Why can't I get more enjoyment out of life ?
    Snowwhite36 Snowwhite36
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2010
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2015

    Oh Yeah It Is My Friend.

    I have felt this in the past and I felt it just recently and then I look into those big hazel eyes and I say "hell ya it is worth it." 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 5, 2010

    They Just Tell Me It's A New Day Tomorrow

    Cursing at yourself on what to do next as you've just dropped your packet of pasta, again, while trying to cook and force feed yourself. Nothing seems to go right. The whole evening has just been a nightmare with thoughts flying all over place, suicidal thoughts, how to and when...
    XanthiaJo XanthiaJo
    22-25, F
    Apr 5, 2011

    All I seem to do is work.

    I've been a software developer for a really long time and the constant stress of the job has taken its toll. When confronted with a stressful situation now my instinct is to simply shutdown and do nothing. I feel like I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth. If I lose my job I...
    ratchetman1138 ratchetman1138
    41-45, M
    Nov 10, 2014

    Conclusion Problem

    I dont know if its worth life for me always manages to get screwed up even when it becomes right. Just to let you know my negative self talk is all due to the fact that i have major depression and borderline personality disorder which to me means im just to damn sensitive. But...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 5, 2011

    Someone introduced me to a woman yesterday.

    . idk how and when, I said yes for a movie tonight.. at times I feel like I'm the tide.. one moment, I desire the solidity of the shore.. the secure it promised me.. one moment, I crave for the wilderness of the ocean.. being free and risky.. the joy of the unknown and the...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    3 Responses May 3, 2015

    Especially Lately.

    I've been thinking about everything a lot lately. Nothing seems worth it. It all feels so pointless. Maybe it is. I hate this time in my life right now. I just hate every aspect of myself. I don't know why. I have moments where i feel okay, maybe i'll genuinely laugh but then...
    blackveilbride51 blackveilbride51
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2012

    But Then

    I hold one of my great grandchildren in a cuddle, and I know that it really is. No matter what else is happening in my life, having them in it too, makes it all worthwhile.
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    Oct 15, 2012

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