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I Starve Myself

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    Because it works. And I won't stop

    until I'm where I want to be. I used to weigh 255 pounds. Now I weigh 170. I started by starving myself. Unintentionally, of course. I skipped lunch one day and that turned into skipping breakfast, lunch and dinner for a month and that turned into 'Hey, these pants are too big...
    TheWalkingDread TheWalkingDread 22-25, F Jan 21

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    I've noticed I'm starving myself more

    and more by the week. it's only started with one meal, but now it's been two days...
    yoadrian123 yoadrian123 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 10, 2015

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    Today I'm restarting my fast.

    I binged this weekend while with some friends this time I will not give in for a whole month. I will drink water and only eat celery if I feel the urge to binge. I am 140 pounds and I'm 5'4. I hope I can stay strong this time
    sydthekid15 sydthekid15 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    im in love with the feeling,

    lost one pound today!
    Banabear Banabear 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2014

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    I really don't want to get anorexia

    so I'm pretty much forcing myself to eat.
    pockyshop pockyshop 16-17, F Sep 3, 2015

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    It Feels Good

    When I'm depressed, it feels good not to eat--I tend to binge and then feel guilty about it.  I'll go a day or two without eating.  The pain in my stomach, the dizziness, it actually feels good.  I guess this would be considered non-purging bulimia and extremely...
    igowild igowild 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 31, 2007

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    My body isn't happy. My mind isn't happy.

    I don't know why I do this. Its almost soothing. I need to love myself again, and being fat isn't helping. I know this isn't the right way to do things, but I am so desperate. I just need someone there to talk to about it. No one will understand. I have to hide this from my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 7, 2015

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    it's what I've been doing

    for about six months now. I fast for a couple days then end up binging and then I start to fast again. it's a never ending cycle and I wish I could just reach my goal weight. I'm so ******* fat.
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    i do it because i can.

    Nobody can tell me i can't do it. it's my life, not yours. I understand you worry, but there's no need. I can control it and take care of myself. I do it because I'm morbidly obese, not because I want attention. It's how i actually see myself. I see myself as big as a mirror...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 19, 2015

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    Hi, I have just started today,

    18 hours in. I just want to feel safe talk to someone about this. I am currently around 180lbs & I want to lose 40-60 in a month, you know before school starts. I'm going back to a school I haven't been to in a year because I was homeschooled because of bullying & I want to show...
    ScenieWeenie ScenieWeenie 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I Felt Destroyed Inside After Being Bullied So I Starved Myself

    So I Was A "Normal" Student Going To 6th Grade At The Time And Of Course Like Any Elementary Student They Wanted To Bring Something For Their Class On Their Birthday. So When June Came Around I Didnt Realize That I Would Ever Get Bullied For My Weight, Sexuality, And For Having...
    PorcupineBoyXD PorcupineBoyXD 16-17, M 5 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    Not because of body image issues.

    Just because I hate the idea of food a lot of the time, but mostly I like feeling weak and empty and in pain.
    eonme eonme 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 23, 2015

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    This is the first day I've started to really

    starve myself. Im going to try to go all day and it's really hard. Water isn't filling enough
    Rileyann00 Rileyann00 16-17, F Jul 28, 2015

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    And Don't Realize It...

    My husband was the only one who knew, but now I want to share...When I was 12 years old, I gained 80, Yes 80 pounds in one summer. My mother took me to the doctor's and I was diagnosed with a medical condition that causes obesity, among other things. There is nothing to do to...
    25tashat25 25tashat25 26-30, F 6 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    My mother said that I don't know what it's like

    to be hungry. I know she didn't mean it in a bad or insulting way, but I'm self consists about my weight and sometimes I starve myself because the thought of eating makes me sick. She doesn't know these things, so I don't hate her for saying it, I'm just a bit angry...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 3, 2015

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    Because I Can't Keep Watching The Scale Go Up When I'm Trying To Hard.

    I've worked out for an hour a day for two years....somtimes 3 hours....and sure my weight goes down 4 pounds, but it always goes right back up. Im not eating anymore. Two years ago i stopped eating, and that lasted a year...I ate one granola bar a day....I list 20 pounds, i...
    Karlygal Karlygal 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 30, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 24, 2014

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    no one can stop me now I live on my own now,

    I will do this until I reach my goal
    megs1717 megs1717 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2015

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    I actually can't help it anymore.

    .. I'm not stopping till this is achieved...
    bubblebubba bubblebubba 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2015

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    I weigh 260 at just under 5 foot.

    I am morbidly obese. I am calorie restricting at 500 calories a day with moderate exercise and whenever I'm hungry I drink a glass of water and when it gets really bad I have a cup of coffee with two sugars. It helps, a lot. I know it's not a healthy way to lose weight but I can...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    I've started to starve myself more.

    At the moment I only go 24 hours without food. My mum makes me dinner and I have to eat it. Eating makes me feel sick and guilty. I'm always irritated and moody, but deep down I like being in control.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2015

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    Whatever, IDC. Tomorrow,

    I won't eat anything. I don't deserve it. No food for me tomorrow. I need to lose the weight I've gained today by eating like an stupid fat pig. I'm soooo disgusting. I'm so stupid. Ugh.
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 4 Responses Mar 2, 2015

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    1 day 2 days 3 days 4.

    ... Darling what is one day more? 5 days 6 days 7 days now Oh it's been a week now. What's one more?
    ImAlittleLost09 ImAlittleLost09 18-21, F Nov 30, 2013

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    Heller, this is my first time sharing a post

    with you guys so here I go. I've always been chubby or "thick" most of my life and I never let it bother me. High school changed that for the worst. For 7 years I didn't even think about what kind of opinion people had about me and suddenly I found my self starting to care so...
    GattoBeKittenMeow GattoBeKittenMeow 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    A friend from middle school found out somehow

    about my eating habits and is a nutritionist. She's started me on this plan to help me "lose the weight while staying healthy" it includes me having to eat over a thousand calories daily, obviously not immediately. I want to. I just don't think I can.
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2015

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    My depression and self image problems have

    really gotten the best of me now. I have given up yet again, on changing other things about myself since for some reason, those things do not matter for as long as people will always have "first impressions". I have starved myself in the past, usually for the wrong reasons back...
    calliney calliney 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2015

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    I found this website

    because I want to starve myself to lose weight.I want to look how I feel empty maybe it will make me feel better.
    LadyLive2012 LadyLive2012 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2015

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    Starving Again And Loving It.

    Im starving myself again and i'd forgotten how good it feels, i did it a few years ago because i was really overweight and wanted a fast way to see results. Last time i starved myself i lost 7 Stone in about 4 months, but for the second two months i was using my exercise bike for...
    Stezza Stezza 26-30, M 54 Responses Feb 3, 2011

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    Help

    I need help motivating myself to continue not to eat. I have very little time to lose a lot of weight. Any help will be highly appreciated!
    thankgodforlesbianism thankgodforlesbianism 18-21 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    I'm 165cm and about 125kg

    and after reading about manic3289's experience, would like to try to see if it works. Update: I'm allowing myself unsweetened green tea. Update: I'm on to the third day and I must admit, I keep thinking about food. But I've also realised that it's really a habit. Haven't...
    kuuderekitsune kuuderekitsune 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2015

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    this is it. I'm starting to starve tomorrow.

    and I need a lot of support.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    I hate eating and I don't like

    when my mom and sis force me to eat and I know the effects of not eating but I'm too upset to eat
    dominick6 dominick6 16-17, M Aug 3, 2015

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    If it was up to me the only thing I would eat

    is diet pills... It's physically hard to eat and when I do sometimes I cry I get so upset with myself when I eat that I have this urge to throw up after I eat. I tried going days without eating but my boyfriend won't let me I love him but he makes me eat he even wrote a song...
    penguinpenguins penguinpenguins 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    I need a friend to help me stay on track

    because my goal is to lose 15 pounds! :)
    Rileyann00 Rileyann00 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2015

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    I wish I didn't have to eat.

    I wish I could go on and on without eating. I wish I could look in the mirror and not be disgusted.
    Valentine244 Valentine244 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 27, 2015

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    dominick6 dominick6 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 25, 2015

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    I weigh 281 pounds and I am miserable.

    I'm on anti-depressant and anti-psychotic medication which make me gain weigh. I don't exercise because my medicine make me tired plus my back hurt when I stand to long. I know starving myself is not the best decision but I'm tired of getting bigger and bigger. I'm too ashamed...
    LadyLive2012 LadyLive2012 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    I usually only eat 100 calories a day.

    I will feel horrible if I eat any more than that. It makes me happy when I don't eat. I really don't know why. I just love the feeling of my stomach being empty.
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    I used to be in some kinda shape

    because I love running....But my ankles are seriously messed up and ruined my love for running....I've been gaining all this weight...I also have always been thicker than most other girls. I've tried to throw up my food but it doesn't work. I'm all alone...If I talked to anyone...
    socccer13 socccer13 16-17 Sep 30, 2015

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    I've always have had problems with my weight.

    I've always been the 'big' girl out of all my friends. And I hate that feeling. it makes me sick. I've tried so many diets and nothing helps. I hate myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 20, 2015

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    I starve myself and if I eat i throw it up,

    well I try to throw up as much as i can. But I dont feel any diffrent other than that I have lost weight, I know this is not healthy but it does not affect me this feels normal to me and now its just something I do :/
    AnnaK17 AnnaK17 16-17, F Dec 29, 2015

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    i don't think it's bad,

    i love feeling empty and just being tired. gives me a reason to not get out of bed and touch food or see people. ♡
    m00nbeams m00nbeams 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    I need a starving buddy.

    Message me if you're interested!
    NotThinYet NotThinYet 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Every day I get called fat.

    I got so sick of it I'm starting to starve myself. Who else does this?!?
    sanner019 sanner019 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    I'm down to 120.. My parents keep calling me

    phsycotic. Threatening to send me away. I'm tired of them joking about it and making fun of me.
    theoutcast66 theoutcast66 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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