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I Starve

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    I hear the sirens that boom in my head.

    Rapping on cellar doors for safety. Streams and rivers collide and drip downward flooding the dry land. The mountains are soft but spines line the horizon. Rain is pouring. Gasps of air cradle my lungs in a semi rhythmic pattern. My hands go numb and stiff to one position as I...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    Her eyes look over iced eerie lakes in dead

    winter. Nothing but hunger eats away at her mind. All sound, slowly murmurs across her ears, but she hears nothing but the synthetic earths silence. All is still, but all is moving. All is silent, yet all is loud. Nothing of a roar broke her gaze into her mind which is quite...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F Jan 23

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