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I Starve

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    I hear the sirens that boom in my head.

    Rapping on cellar doors for safety. Streams and rivers collide and drip downward flooding the dry land. The mountains are soft but spines line the horizon. Rain is pouring. Gasps of air cradle my lungs in a semi rhythmic pattern. My hands go numb and stiff to one position as I...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Her eyes look over iced eerie lakes in dead

    winter. Nothing but hunger eats away at her mind. All sound, slowly murmurs across her ears, but she hears nothing but the synthetic earths silence. All is still, but all is moving. All is silent, yet all is loud. Nothing of a roar broke her gaze into her mind which is quite...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F Jan 23, 2014

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    I've been starving for about three year

    and I've been in love with my body and my weight :-)
    Itsawildalyssa Itsawildalyssa 16-17 Jan 19

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    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    i need another pro Ana buddy that will encourage me to starve so that I can lose around 1-2pounds a day
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    So I've gained 17 pounds since Christmas I haven't been able to stop binging all the time totally lost control I need someone to help me get back on track again atm I'm doing 300-4...
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    this is so stupid and sad but every night i curl up under my covers and hug my stuffed pillowpet cow and i whisper comforting words in its ears and i wonder when someone will hug...
    winmkcanivadfan winmkcanivadfan 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    A few things to sign if you have a spare minute http://www.yousignanimals.org/Belgian-couple-starves-dog-to-the-point-of-no-return-RIP-Shana-t-1747 http://www.yousignanimals.org...
    tr606 tr606 36-40 2 Responses Mar 1

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    It all started when I was young 2years old will never forget any of it. September 1 2002 I had just woken up I went in to my moms room to wake them up only to find a different guy...
    Sarajackson2000 Sarajackson2000 18-21 Mar 4

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    The Law of Volunteering" The Law of Volunteering" If you dance with a grizzly bear, you had better let him lead. "The Law of Avoiding Oversell" When putting cheese in a mousetrap...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Stress is the cause of most disease. The most severe form of stress is to be starved for loving intimacy. From that stems bad diet, chronic stress, inability to share healthy food...
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    Moscow clubs capitalize on lonely women starved for affection. Women sitting alone together in a café would not give most observers pause, but in Russia, a group of women alone...
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    Her heart starves itself, biding it's time amongst the stars...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 6 Responses Feb 28

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    I play video games a lot, and probably too much. Oh well. I'm usually playing stuff on Steam, like Team Fortress 2 and Don't Starve.
    Blue707 Blue707 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 1

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    Every time I watch 'The Walking Dead', I wonder If I could eat my 2 cats and 2 dogs (they all just showed up). I think I'd starve. (And as I type this, one cat keeps pawing the...
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    I have been very emotional lately. Getting resentful and angry maybe even when he is trying. I have been rejected sexually so many times by him it is like I anticipate it. I...
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    So right now it's Monday the Second of March 2015, from tomorrow onwards I'm going to starve myself. Im 5'9" and weigh 74kgs, i need to get to my goal of 59kgs. I feel so depressed...
    HannaTheSwedishChick HannaTheSwedishChick 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 2

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    I was for a while. Thanks to my good friends 'Ana' and 'Mia'. Better known by their full names, anorexia and bulimia nervosa. Yeah, that's what we referred to them as. Our eating...
    ReykjaviktoZurich ReykjaviktoZurich 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    Any little thing sets me off. I tend to obsess about little problems... Often making a molehill into a mountain, as they say. Depression is a sneaky thief. Robbing us of joy...
    MommysGotTats420 MommysGotTats420 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 3

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    There are daughters of narcissistic mothers who have barely survived psychologically. In the extreme, there are daughters who starved themselves to death by anorexia as the only...
    rescueme99 rescueme99 41-45 1 Response Mar 4

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    I really do.. I try and throw up or starve but I can never do it. I can't physically make myself.. All though God knows I've tried.. I'll probably try more.. But I try not to eat...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Mar 4

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    A part of me is determined not to forget even though it only brings me pain! I feel responsible for remembering and carrying the pain with me into every facet of my life.The most...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    *No connections to anyone really. Just enjoy. Its a fictional writing." Life is hard. We both know that. Life won’t be without challenges. We were taught that. Life may have...
    graciousindifference29 graciousindifference29 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    i dont understand what i did for whatever made us to make my life like this... It doesnt make you stronger ever..it just makes you sad. i never wanted to be worthless and alone. i...
    cheyseason cheyseason 13-15, F Mar 5

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    I was told I need to prove myself. I admit at this stage in my life I again have hit bottom and filled myself with depression as BPD has raised its ugly head again but in my life...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F Mar 5

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    This is what I don't understand. I tell people I have trust issues, I tell them I have issues with self harm. you convince me I can trust you, then leave. Why? You wouldn't feed a...
    Wounduponwound Wounduponwound 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    I don't believe anyone should have to starve or eat unsatisfying foods in order to be healthy. I eat as organic as possible and trust me...there is something to that. Since eating...
    NikkiTattooedHeart NikkiTattooedHeart 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Well, sort of. My parents divorced when I was a year old and my mother got custody. I saw my father on the weekends. In my whole life living with my mother me and my sister have...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F Mar 7

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    I worked out my life all along The angel in me is a brave, creative soul who looks at life with a real vibrant perspective and wants to share it to the world and inspire others...
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    AP and I entered the relationship up front that it was going to be a FWB situation, emphasis on the Benefits part. We have been "dating" for only a month, and both the Friend and...
    WowandWowWow WowandWowWow 51-55, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    Damn it. Just. Damn it. My eating disorder is basically back. I hate this. I hate this so ******* much. I... I can't believe how this has just suddenly come back. I mean, I...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21 1 Response Mar 8

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    Married 25 years with three kids (25, 23, 21). I have been living in a sexless marriage (meaning zero sex) for the past 6 years, touchless (meaning zero touch) for the past 3 years...
    acceptingmediocrity acceptingmediocrity 56-60, M 8 Responses Mar 9

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    <3 U ARE BEAUTIFUL <3 Yea u reading this u are super beautiful inside and out u probably came and wanted to post that u feel fat or look fat and how u want to loose X amount...
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    Had to go out. So draining!!! I was humiliated and exposed and I am sick of being humiliated like this. All my mess revealed to a total stranger and my narcissist mother lapped up...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 3 Responses Mar 11

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    I need to vent and at the same time formulate an open letter to admins of EP as all the members here. It is now or never. EP is falling apart. I happen to know you had warnings...
    TheOneYouDontWantToKnow TheOneYouDontWantToKnow 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 12

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    Mirror mirror on the wall Who's the healthiest of them all? Day by day I starve away By night my demons come to play How much is okay How much will I weigh Along with you, the...
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    Let's see .. Egg n' chips Shepherd's pie Chicken curry Lasagne A good roast on Sundays .. No one will starve with me around ..
    ladyPlum ladyPlum 26-30, F 22 Responses Mar 13

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    Always wanting, never being... Honestly, if ever I wanted to be something, I wanted to be a writer. But whenever it came to actually write, I lacked initiative. Every inspired...
    citylights589 citylights589 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 14

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    I struggled with bulimia for many months. I was anorexic for a few months til I got help. Never let yourself go down that path. I'm still not happy with my body but I don't starve...
    hhannahhbabe hhannahhbabe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I don't know anymore. I think I'm losing my mind. I've become so ill, I try and hide it and say it's a common cold but I know it's more than that. I don't know I just want to give...
    yoursecretlifestylee yoursecretlifestylee 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    I watch you like a hawk, I watch you like I'm gonna tear you limb from limb.. will the hunger ever stop? can we simply starve this sin? xxx
    HeyImThatGirl HeyImThatGirl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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