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I Stay In Depression

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    Its Like Home....

    Ive known it so long.  Ive been doing it my whole life.  Ive totally let it take over. I gave up at some point and now ....I'm just at its mercy. I want to get out.  I am suffering through...not even living.  Just here.  Not for me....for others to whom...
    jawake jawake 36-40, F Nov 18, 2008

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    I don't see the point in "battling" depression. It's always there. It never leaves. You can give it your all and fight it and try to build that brick wall between you and...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 8 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Starting January 1st, 2015 I'm going to try and change my life around, going to beat this depression if its the last thing I do. I'm actually going to put in the effort to change...
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    Hi, I know what battling depression feels like, if anyone wants to talk about anything, I am here to talk. I would like to help anyone that would like a friend
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    "I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so...
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    The feeling has come back. They've started to become somewhat cyclical though, so it makes it a little easier to prepare for. Sometimes my depression peaks and I begin to have...
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    Depression is like when you go out camping and it's so cold...you need another blanket. But it doesn't help much, nothing really changes..cause the cold has seeped right down into...
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    Last year was bad for me, I was self harming frequently and had major depression and anxiety. I have come a long way from then... I take Zoloft to help with it and was in...
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    This isn't a typo. I am depression. It is me.
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    I was raised in a foster family (I was fostered then adopted into this family- and they continued to foster other children). When I was younger I was a loud, confident child and as...
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    I will start by specifying that i am not depressed right now. No. I am a survivor I put too much effort over this year to control and fight these conditions and i am managing it...
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    I’m not crazy. I’m not dumb. I don’t want to die, but I often feel like I want to take my own life. I am not dangerous to anyone but myself. I don’t need to be taught a...
    FadingStar17 FadingStar17 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    OCD is when: Numbers remind you of the worst moments of your life. You can't walk into that room because you have a bad feeling. You can't hurt that stuffed animal because it has...
    simplyOCD simplyOCD 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    It's heart breaking to know there is 65,000 people on this app & more people who battle depression every single day, as well as myself. I just want to say that I love and am proud...
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    Today I'll find out. If I lived up to their standard in the background check, and if I can start next week. I'm bracing myself for a fall into the abyss of dark depression. If this...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 4

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    Depression:"I'm back bit#$!" Me:"yeah, i know. I'm going back to my corner." Depression: "and stay there til i leave!" Me: "okay."
    lovabledoll lovabledoll 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Stay positive. Everyday is a second chance. My dad once told me, "learn to control your depression, or it controls you." Very wise. Remember that things always get better in time!
    Unitedrosexx Unitedrosexx 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    The only one keeping me alive is my girlfriend, without her the stress of school or family hating eachother would have gotten to me, I am staying alive to protect her and to show...
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    It feels like it's been getting worse since high school has finished... i dont even know why im so depressed nowadays, i feel weak, there isnt a day where i just, tear up and cry...
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    Is it okay to hate yourself? Is it okay to feel so god damn alone even when your surrounded by people?Is it normal to feel like the only way to let out your feeling is to cut them...
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    I love staying up until the realization of,"Oh, Crap I've got **** to do tomorrow," hits you and yet you do it anyways...... And then you regret it in the morning and drown...
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    It's a constant fight with my emotions. I'm trying to stay positive.. Keep myself busy.. So busy that my mind can't wounded off. But that is impossible. I feel grief take over my...
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    All my life I have battled depression and my depression is extremely bad for me...all I have to do is look at a knife or anything dangerous and all I want to do is hurt myself...
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