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I Stay In Depression

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    Its Like Home....

    Ive known it so long.  Ive been doing it my whole life.  Ive totally let it take over. I gave up at some point and now ....I'm just at its mercy. I want to get out.  I am suffering through...not even living.  Just here.  Not for me....for others to whom...
    jawake jawake 36-40, F Nov 18, 2008

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