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I Still Deal With Ptsd

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    the past 3 years have been an absolute roller coaster with my husband. since he came home from Afghanistan nothing has been the same. every year his ptsd seems to just get worse...
    yamz02 yamz02 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I can relate to this COMPLETELY... I found this story and copied a snippet from it… I have changed it a little bit cos some of it is not true but I changed it to the truth and...
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 18-21, F Nov 13

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    I deal with boredom in a good way. I write. I spend time with friends. I pace myself. I learn more things that are good for me and good for others. I try to be a better man...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response a week ago

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    When you start out life having relationships at such a young age...you get use to things that happen in them, right? WRONG! I find that it's the ppl in the relationships that can...
    Scarletlobo1 Scarletlobo1 36-40 2 Responses a week ago

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    I left my husband 3 years ago because of abuse. Most of it had been directed at me, but I left because it started to be directed towards our daughters. He followed me to my new...
    anxietyabounds anxietyabounds 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    Anybody deal with a job that requires occasional pee tests? How do you handle them? We had one today and I don't want to announce in front of everyone that I wear diapers and am...
    ROcket81 ROcket81 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 3

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    I'm fed up of dealing with infertility. I wish I could not want a baby anymore, how do I make it stop?
    rebecca991 rebecca991 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    I have been dealing with this for a long time being very depressed behind it and have not been really able to talk to anybody about it. I feel like it have really altered a piece...
    lostndasauce lostndasauce 31-35, M Nov 9

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    My fiancé has betrayed my trust. I have no evidence he's ever cheated on me, however I found one earth-shattering e-mail from him to his ex a week after our engagement. The letter...
    msdice msdice 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    I've been having recurring nightmares about the day I was raped... Its gotten so bad I have a phobia of sleeping and I get anxiety attacks... I've been dealing with this for 8...
    EbbyLeve EbbyLeve 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Its been a month since I posted last, my husband has made me feel quilty and I have told myself I can stay for the kids and deal with it. I mean I have put up with it for 14 years...
    debbiejustice debbiejustice 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    I'm 17 yrs. old and yes, I still sleep with my blankie. I love my blankie. I like to feel it and sniff it a lot. It's like I can't live without it.
    Directioner70 Directioner70 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    Marriage There are two kinds of things in life, basically: logical, and emotional. Emotionally driven things tend to turn out badly, for me anyway. I’ve been in love 7 or more...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    10 months ago I met the man of my dreams It couldn't have been more perfect we were both going to divorces. no problems with my ex and I wish I could say the same for his. I never...
    badluckbabe badluckbabe 22-25, F Nov 12

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    This is an update from my previous experience with this matter. Here's what has happened. I had my meetings with my attorney before my arraignment hearing and what was supposed to...
    bluefireball4949 bluefireball4949 36-40, M Oct 30

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    I'm to young to go through the things I do , the constant medication , the fights , the constant hate that runs through my mind , you say I'm to young to understand pain but try...
    turntechbiology turntechbiology 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    Finally down to almost two weeks left till I can be with him again. I've felt really alone in this whole process and I'm sad that I just know found this site... I wish I could...
    Manndachristine Manndachristine 18-21 1 Response Nov 7

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    Badass Bee-otch From Hell. Well, not quite. I mean, I do not even believe in Hell. And I'm not really badass. I'm more.... sweet as sugar, hard as ice, mess with me once and I'll...
    CloakedInApathy CloakedInApathy 70+, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I was raped by Richard my father he deflowered me at 13 but started mole saying me and 13-28he forced me to have sex with him now I'm a grownup living in other state away from...
    Sarafina30 Sarafina30 26-30, F a week ago

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    I find gender dysphoria can be very hard to cope with. I cringe at being called Mister. I feel sick when someone mentions the word 'man'. To be shoehorned into a gender role that I...
    tesseract49 tesseract49 18-21, T 1 Response Oct 31

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    Just need to rant a lil ^^, i am usually outgoingly caring for my friends, i jogged about 4 miles to see someone who was emotionally hurt and needed comforting but someone who i...
    septlaxer septlaxer 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    I'm always on the lookout for ways to become a better person and my own judgment simply isn't objective or complete. Therefore I encourage others to point out my flaws and come up...
    Uncertain153 Uncertain153 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    My Little PoniesI have a collection of pony plushies in my window next to my bed and sometimes I pull one of them out and cuddle with it. It helps me fall asleep and what can I say...
    NeighFlowers NeighFlowers 16-17, M Nov 8

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    My little PoniesI have a collection of pony plushies in my window next to my bed and sometimes I pull one of them out and cuddle with it. It helps me fall asleep and what can I say...
    NeighFlowers NeighFlowers 16-17, M Nov 8

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    Having the worst time right now. Smelling beer the taste of crushed pills in my mouth the pain in my stomach can't sleep every time I close my eyes I see there faces the sound of...
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M Oct 29

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    I had the scariest flashbacks last night. As soon as they started it felt as if I was trying to escape my body. It felt as if my mind was trying to bring me somewhere else. I saw...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    I'm not really a badass just stubborn and occasionally I make spur of the moment decisions and turn up the sass Like when I explain to my teacher everyday home works not graded and...
    Lindsy18 Lindsy18 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    Usually I'm very happy. Sometimes though I feel like I'm drowning and I can not escape. I'm not sure if these are all my emotions or this is one of the many empathic problems I...
    Izy96 Izy96 18-21, F Oct 29

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    So I got told that I may not be able to have a family of my own as I am infertile was has sent my depression spiralling out of control
    DarkestCub DarkestCub 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 30

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    Working in an unforgiving environment in a male dominated industry is tough for a young executive like me. There is absolutely no room for any mistake. I have been working in...
    LovelyEdith LovelyEdith 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    I am becoming more and more reliant on diapers. I was wearing diapers only at night before, then started needing pull-ups during the day, now I am wearing diapers every night and...
    ROcket81 ROcket81 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    I need help. Im so low and afraid all the time. I need it to stop now
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    My dog tiny, was abused before my family got him, so he had a habit of trying to run away. He was always caught and brought back home. Until one day, me and my mom went to jack-in...
    readerleader readerleader 22-25, F Nov 11

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