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I Still Deal With Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 79 People

    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27, 2014

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    things that help me when depressedvisiting friendsThrowing partiesTravelWorkShoppingHair and beauty salons, SpasFilms, and musicChocolateand light flirting with some friends. :)
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    Welp, I found out a few days ago my mother is narcissistic.. I'm mind blown.. And devastated. And hurt to know she is that, it really really sucks :( at least I know the thing I...
    Joselin2 Joselin2 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    He left two days ago for the longest deployment since weve been together. Hes gone to Japan and i think im relizing it now because the past two days i was ok but today it got hard...
    tiffanyznf tiffanyznf 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I'll even trade places with her and mess with Brendan Frazer. Hey, you with the Liz Hurley pic, I'm talking to you!! Pm me.
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T 5 days ago

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    the foolish seek progression &..& the cowardly die along the way
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    2001 and 2003, we lost our children. Newly born, and stillborn. It was fundamentally the downfall of my wife, as shed secretly started drinking after both of our children had died...
    NottsProfGent NottsProfGent 46-50, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    Just ignore them ?? .
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M a week ago

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    I love my boyfriend. I really do. But sometimes he's impossible to deal with. I'm not allowed to lose my temper with him, because he has some thing were he distances himself from...
    lurkingscorpio lurkingscorpio 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    the crazy thing is I'm hurting and my hearts breaking. my husband came home stressed from work. didn't sleep drank an entire bottle of tequila and started arguing. broke the tv...
    PhoenixGoddess PhoenixGoddess 22-25, F Aug 22

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    My bf has it @ 41. How does it not make you feel less than? How arousing can you get when you get no response from him yet he seems to get excited by pics of guns (no, just an NRA...
    jules021775 jules021775 36-40, F 9 Responses Aug 21

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    I am now a senior in high school and a few years ago started having accidents because of diarrhea and I would end up with seconds to get to the restroom.(I talked to my doctor...
    Park429 Park429 18-21 1 Response Aug 21

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    I was raped on August 23.12 almost three years ago . I still think about it sometimes I was raped by a stranger ... I cut myself because of depression my family doesn't believe me...
    ebonylove19 ebonylove19 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    When I can get him to come over.
    Softandsweet2 Softandsweet2 22-25, F Aug 17

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    PLEASE for the love of... Tell me what's normal?? Considering every person in the world is uniek! There is no normal.. it's a view of another person who is apparently not normal...
    ItsSIRtoyou ItsSIRtoyou 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 17

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    Tonight I'm just the shell you left behind Missing the beast who stole my life What am I without you? Lonely and afraid, the way you want me crying for my dear narcissistic...
    cloudedsky cloudedsky 26-30 1 Response Aug 17

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    Just a couple of hours ago, a colleague came to me and said she felt tired and felt like crying... after a couple of probing questions... I find out that what she's going through...
    StubbornTiger StubbornTiger 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I can't believe I got a DUI😫. I'm so disappointed and ashamed at how inconsiderate and immature I was or am😔. After all the times my father would lecture me and now I'm in...
    LivingLife93 LivingLife93 18-21, M Aug 17

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    I was just talking with an old friend who has always been into me. But he has hurt me a lot.. And he was telling me how perfect I am.. And just a bunch of ****. And I've asked him...
    violentsneezes violentsneezes 16-17, F Aug 16

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    I've lived a lot, seen a lot, been through too much...gives one some knowledge and wisdom to work off of. Probably the voyeur in me too, but I do like helping others that are...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 9 Responses Aug 16

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    My boyfriend is a 48 year old married man. He's 25 years my senior and was my former boss. I now work in the same industry in the same vicinity so I'm still able to see him. He is...
    catsmp catsmp 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens, I'll always think of you, and the time we spent together, as my happiest time. I'd do it all over again, if I had the...
    seniordingdong seniordingdong 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    This class thing has really messed me up. A lot, i have gotten way more depressed then I already was. it starts on monday and i used to be excited and now i don't want to go to...
    unknowngirlonline unknowngirlonline 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Crazy how a persons life can go from everything quite fine an well to hectic and remorseful.
    LivingLife93 LivingLife93 18-21, M Aug 15

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    Can't help it, I LOVE the heat.
    trouble131 trouble131 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    11 September 2001 changed my life forever I was deployed to Iraq in 2004 in wake of the attacks on our country I spent 20 months there had plenty of close calls with death but made...
    armyman15 armyman15 41-45, M 4 Responses Aug 14

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    don't know how to stop..!!
    gaziraisa gaziraisa 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 14

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