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I Still Deal With Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 81 People

    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 56-60, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27, 2014

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 56-60, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 56-60, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 56-60, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Kadeez Kadeez 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    One time, a guy who sat next to me in class called me a ***** and I heard him complaining about his white Nikes getting scuffed, so I dropped my pen and when I bent down to pick it...
    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin 18-21, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    It is only been a few days since I lost someone very special. I really haven't begun to feel it yet. It isn't real yet. I have been hiding in other emotions and losing myself in...
    JackisMe JackisMe 41-45, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's incredibly an awkward situation. ;-(
    mabuhayka mabuhayka 31-35, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hello. I'm new here. I found this great forum while searching for "how to handle a bipolar spouse" I noticed a lot of other people deal with this and could really use the support...
    Tjm1919 Tjm1919 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    Hey yall, my boyfriend and I has been together for almost a year, he has three little girls that he loves very much, but his bm stopped him from seeing them, because of me. She is...
    scobryhol scobryhol 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I want to talk to other people with PTSD, see how they are doing. I want someone who actually understands it.
    BeautrichfulME BeautrichfulME 13-15 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Joined a groovy called MyPTSD... Glad I did Prayers and blessing for everyone 🙏🏻🙏🏻
    WVgirldiane WVgirldiane 56-60, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate shows and movies that show women getting sexually assaulted. I can't stand it. I get anxious and irritable and I have to leave the room.
    Doomflower Doomflower 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have been incontinent all my life. I self cathatis twice a day and have many wetting accidents so have to wear nappies 24 / 7. I found out this year I only have 1 kidney.
    alfiecat43 alfiecat43 56-60, M 6 days ago

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    For YEARS I was afraid of confrontations, and especially of getting in a fight - and losing. So I ducked them, and despised myself, and inside thought I was a coward. This went on...
    tjw747 tjw747 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Right people. I penned this little diatribe in the hope of getting through to some people who are having a tough time with legitimate incontinence and need a bit of light at the...
    Gemma1990 Gemma1990 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 10 years. This past December I found out he had been talking to a woman on Facebook and it was, in his own words, more than friends...
    helpmekeepittogether helpmekeepittogether 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    He tells me he will call and doesn't? I try to text I tried to call I tried to email he doesn't answer then eventually he'll answer me and tell me when he's on call and he does...
    WVgirldiane WVgirldiane 56-60, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    I just spoke with my boyfriend who has the PTSD and I asked him if my results from my biopsy comes back on Monday that I have cancer, would he be able to deal with it, his...
    WVgirldiane WVgirldiane 56-60, F Feb 5

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    Slavery is legally banned. But millions of India's children live and work in slave labour conditions -- bonded labour, sex trafficking, child labour, domestic 'help' servitude and...
    valha11a valha11a 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    My typical method for dealing with negative emotions would be to shunt them off into a tiny corner of my consciousness. That way I can deal with everything else that's happening in...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 16-17, F Feb 3

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    Its not so much that i don't get along with my mum, its more a case that i can't talk honestly with her about much any more. She chooses to see the negative in everything from us...
    nikinokers nikinokers 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    Hi so I'm posting here to write about my mother and how I'm affected with severe depression and anxiety because of her I don't like to point fingers or blame anybody but she is the...
    Pinkskiespinklove Pinkskiespinklove 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I still sleep with a teddy bear I have a queen size bed and my teddy bear is there every night waiting for me to come to bed I love my teddy bear.
    satinlover1958 satinlover1958 56-60, M Jan 31

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    So you've just had a run-in with a friend. YOU'RE hurt, THEY'RE hurt...the whole thing is just a MESS! How do I handle that? Calmly ask your friend if they would mind if the two of...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F Jan 30

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    ...BECAUSE YOU ARE CHALLENGING ME TO KNOCK YOUR TEETH OUT! Ugh.
    FluttershyLabeouf FluttershyLabeouf 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    Face is young , she must taste sweet , she drops those panties to her knees . Put the gun down , put your finger on the trigger now . Put it down or imma sit fire to the whole dang...
    kittenmajor kittenmajor 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    2 teddy bears. 1 was stolen from my boyfriend(hehehehe), while the other was bought during a plane flight. I don't hug them with me when I sleep though. I tend to move a lot, and...
    iiTetraLoh iiTetraLoh 18-21, F Jan 29

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    Just had seen a friend in a hospital yesterday this person just had their 30 th mental break down its nothing new but this person always seems to stop taking their medications as...
    Bella70 Bella70 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I had a personal best yesterday. At work, I had to deal with a patient who chewed my *** out over everything, no matter what it was. Even if it didn't pertain to her, she was going...
    ladypirates0007 ladypirates0007 22-25, F Jan 28

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    I hate my parents at times , I m a teenager and my grades r good but they still, well yeah, look down at me for dunno y . They hav bad temper and idk how to deal with them .
    Landsailorgirl Landsailorgirl 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    It sucks ***, I can just be sitting somewhere, minding my own business, and it's such a weird feeling, pee just starts coming out and I barely notice or feel it. Then I have a wet...
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