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I Still Deal With Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 79 People

    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27, 2014

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    It's okay to be quiet... It's okay to be shy.. I just want to overcome the fear.. I just want to be able to do the things I need to do.
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    What's it mean when ur ex (dated 8 months) wants to keep you in his life as "friends" even when he's moved on to someone new? This has never happened to me before.
    Merrmaid Merrmaid 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I really really need to work on overcoming, dealing with, or at least managing it.. And I feel like the more I talk about it, the more likely I am to overcome it. It's really been...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    Having these accidents in the summer is frustrating cause of the heat. I am finding my incontinence diaper soooo hot. Thank god for protection. I wish I didn't have to wear them...
    accidentindiapers accidentindiapers 22-25, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I can't. Leave me alone for ten minutes and in that time I'll have time to have a mental break down, pray, question the human race and consider ending it all, not that I could...
    Bandit3108 Bandit3108 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Considering I broke my arm :/
    MangaMinx MangaMinx 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I remember encountering my first Cobra....it bit me....and I strangled it :)
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai 13-15, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    The hardest part about going to the gym for me is checking-in and leaving. I really, really, reallyyyy don't like it. When I get to the door my heart starts pumping a bit. I walk...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I fart rainbow lasers and sneeze hurricanes
    Kumaline Kumaline 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Ate 10 Ghost Peppers knowing I was out of milk or any refreshments. Not a single regret
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    When not sure about extremes in life...remember you will go most safely in the middle.
    000Camilla 000Camilla 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Well rather I am not dealing with them, I have identified 3 narcs in my life. I have very little to do with any of the 3. In my experience it's the only thing you can do with...
    LilyLangtree LilyLangtree 56-60, F 3 days ago

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    I walk through the grocery store and I realize all the people I am passing are going to die and dissolve and be scattered in every direction of the universe.. And all that...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I met a girl, we instantly clicked. We bonded for a long time and she eventually told me that she loved me. I loved her too. I remember her smile, her laugh and most notably her...
    SammyReb SammyReb 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    it helps keep me calm and not get scared. people make fun of that a lot. i need freinds who wont
    js2908 js2908 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Got hit by a taxi on the way to work...got my *** up and kept walking so I'd be early
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai 13-15, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    u don't chose to be the bad@ss... somehow it choses you.
    parkourakiko27kablamo parkourakiko27kablamo 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    one thing i can't do as a bad@ss is... not explain myself
    parkourakiko27kablamo parkourakiko27kablamo 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Hey there! I'm looking for other military girlfriends , because my boyfriend is deployed right now and it's pretty hard.... It would be nice to find other girls who are in the same...
    deployedboyfriendsgirl deployedboyfriendsgirl 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Ohh hell ya I was! I got huge blisters from it 3rd degree burn and everything it was cool .. I still love fire tho
    LittlePrideFlower LittlePrideFlower 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Chunk set me up! It wasn't me! Hey you guys!!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 days ago

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    Armwrestled Chuck Norris and lost......but I lived to tell the damn tale
    XavierSenpai XavierSenpai 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    what’s happening is that some deep, inner part of me finally feels safe and stable enough to address the leftover emotional fallout that’s been patiently waiting. In the years...
    hospitalrooms hospitalrooms 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    To whom this may concern I'm not dealing with any bullshit this year so stay out of my way and let me do me. No drama. No fake *******. No bad vibes. No bad situations. I'll do me...
    Indicudsarah Indicudsarah 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I try not to be like most girls, and some people hate me for it. What's so wrong with being different?
    CuteThaaang CuteThaaang 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    when life gives you lemons u punch life in the face a take some watermelon
    nannalovet113 nannalovet113 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    sometimes u gotta look at the odds that are against u and say f*** off!!!
    parkourakiko27kablamo parkourakiko27kablamo 13-15, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    im hardcore at parkour, learning martial arts, i have a bad@ss walk.
    parkourakiko27kablamo parkourakiko27kablamo 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I truly am Apparently i have to be more bad!!! I wanna be a hip hop artist I look up to lil jojo I'm sorry if this effects how you think about me I've done some bad stuff in my...
    swaged104 swaged104 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago