I Still Deal With Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 76 People

    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 23, 2011

    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Feb 12, 2012

    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003
    41-45
    Mar 13, 2013

    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8
    26-30
    Mar 30, 2012

    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623
    36-40, F
    Feb 27, 2014

    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson
    36-40, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2013

    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Sep 25, 2011

    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2013

    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Jul 28, 2012

    Related Experiences

    i did not have this problem when she was being satisfied by others - either in my presence or on her own. I knew i would get to eat her out either way. But since she has gone...
    grampsd grampsd
    70+, M
    Apr 21
    I havee. I can't say they are my best friends now, but when they were, oh boy did we do some stupid stuff! I think it's only right I end my time here on EP with a positive, fun...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1
    16-17, M
    Apr 20
    I never thought of it as an affair..... It started here, on EP, with a reply to her story about the Status Quo. She was involved with a man on-line, but it wasn't fulfilling, it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Apr 20
    As odd as it sounds, hunger pains are one of my triggers. Which is why I'm always eating (that and I'm always hungry). Except the other night, I was so tired I just went to bed...
    2byoung 2byoung
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 19
    I have managed to set myself up for the ultimate ptsd events. only you guys will understand. when a small thing is a trigger but you keep trying to fix it hoping that will resolve...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 19
    On the 7th of may I will be 31 years old, and can still say that I am a virgin. I am a proud Christian, believing in Jesus wholeheartedly, and believe that it is important for a...
    jojoSaint jojoSaint
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    I met her on POF back in July of 2015 we have seen each other once since then but we talk everyday! She has been there everyday since my ex left me for some guy that doesn't care...
    dreamin20 dreamin20
    22-25, F
    Apr 18
    Having my last baby gave me ptsd...
    BadMomKira BadMomKira
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 18
    just a helpful place for those coping with ptsd http://www.outofthestorm.website/
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 17
    I fell in love with the love of my life when I was 16 in 1978. We were separated with no communication whatsoever for 25 years. In 2005 we re-connected. She is married (damn!) But...
    dbucher dbucher
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 17
    where to begin in my life there is almost of things I can tell anyone I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't get it out. Yes, me like so many of you am in love with a married...
    debbie03102 debbie03102
    18-21, F
    Apr 16
    When it involves project delays there are numerous factors that can lead to such situation. The client is really a and you will find two issues which can be discussed: where to...
    vagarland65 vagarland65
    36-40, M
    Apr 15
    I've made my mother cry innumerable times now. I have a weird way of dealing with guilt. I fail to live up to her expectations which are pretty decent but still I'm unable to. When...
    infie infie
    18-21, F
    Apr 14
    On Feb.23rd 2016 my 16 year old sister committed suicide. I can't handle this pain I'm in. She was the only person I felt actually understood me. I don't know how to move on I just...
    Taylorm236 Taylorm236
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 14
    I can't live like this anymore. I can't deal with college and the stress of having to hide my sexuality from my homophobic family. :(
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Apr 13
    I have struggled with clinical depression for more than twenty years. I'm trying out new meds right now. Switched three weeks ago and ready to switch again. I admire my devoted...
    Lynndee42 Lynndee42
    41-45, F
    Apr 13
    5 years ago I joined this forum in hopes to not hurt anymore. Here it is and today I googled women without mothers. I came across this site and decided to join. When I went to...
    NoHurt NoHurt
    31-35
    Apr 13
    Sometimes I think I'm alright... Other times I'm not.... Sometimes I don't feel the pain & then, like an unwanted visitor, it pops up & I feel it.... How do you really stop loving...
    endlessl0ve endlessl0ve
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    Am I the only one who still plays with these? I seriously get excited to take baths just so I can play with them. :p
    2byoung 2byoung
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    And it's preventing me from entering/maintaining healthy relationships! I've been talking to a female online for several weeks. Things seemed to be going well until I naturally...
    TheAnesthetic TheAnesthetic
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    For those looking for other resources on your journey to healing I recommend www.outofthestorm.website for those with cptsd. Also the books The Tao of Fully Feeling and Complex...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 12
    I got into a relationship last August with this guy i really like. and he likes me too. he is very genuine but also very realistic. we were good everything was perfect. however...
    alinaE alinaE
    18-21, F
    Apr 11
    I got into a relationship last August with this guy i really like. and he likes me too. he is very genuine but also very realistic. we were good everything was perfect. however...
    alinaE alinaE
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    no way I'm still in love with that egocentric jerk .
    black08cat black08cat
    70+, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    im 15 and yesterday I was raped by a 22 year old . my boyfriend who I planned on being with for so long, broke up with me because he says I shouldn't have had a guy in my house in...
    MorbidPeaches MorbidPeaches
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    Lately, I have been forced yet again to ride PTSDs roller coaster ride of craziness. The past how many days truly tested my smile. It didn't steal it however. I started having...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    I'm still in love with him. How am I supposed to mend a broken heart that is missing one of its pieces? I cry. I cry so often now it feels normal. I let the rush of emotions...
    Randomelle Randomelle
    16-17, F
    Apr 9
    I fell in love with a stranger on the bus last week. We were waiting at the same stop and I noticed her immediately. She's very cute, but not completely out of my league, I don't...
    mlxstr mlxstr
    18-21, M
    Apr 9
    Really Only Dealt With Him When Forced&Now Refuse To Speak To Him At All- my mother was his first and last interracial intercultural relationship and he left our household under a...
    ToBeDiskovered ToBeDiskovered
    22-25, M
    Apr 9
    When I was about 10, I met this guy who's around my age. years have passed, I still can't believe that this guy is my best friend. We have the same likes, we go to the same school...
    stracrossedvagabond stracrossedvagabond
    22-25, F
    Apr 9
    I hate my life. Wanting to die yea..I made a kind of poem thing which tbh I think is quite good🙈but this is basically me: We come from hurting houses, from aching hearts, from...
    ThinxAna ThinxAna
    16-17, F
    Apr 9
    I NEED ADVICE ASAP. (No it's not the same guy from my other story, it's a totally different one.) I lost contact with one of my long distance friends (Boyfriend at the time) about...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 8
    My dad was never there for me. He was always emotionally unavailable. He never said that he was proud of me except for the times my mom told him to or he felt necessary for me to...
    SomeoneInNeedOfHelp SomeoneInNeedOfHelp
    13-15, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    I'm tired of wearing glasses. I feel so blind when I take them off. I have to put on my glasses to watch TV... At school I usually keep them off so I wouldn't have to see people's...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    5 Responses Apr 8
    I have been recently found out that I have PTSD and I get in these moods where I just hate everyone and I have so much anger all the time. like I just wanna go and fight someone...
    tcupp72 tcupp72
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    I wrote this awhile back under an earlier profile wombat456 and still agree with the sentiments expressed. I Like Women With Short Hair Vision This excerpt is from a longer...
    silmarilion456 silmarilion456
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    It is the bank does not really lend you any more money for your company, unless of course obviously clearly you're to provide your home as security, which inserts within the whole...
    vagarland65 vagarland65
    36-40, M
    Apr 8
    I've been in love before. I was in love for three years with the same wonderful man. Sadly, I still love him. We clicked from the beginning. It was so easy with him. Everything...
    Anonylyn Anonylyn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    I'm going to be 44 years old this month. A month before my16th birthday my beloved Grandmother died. No sweet 16. My family thought it would be in inappropriate. When I turned 18...
    18776J 18776J
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    No big deal but I like showering together.
    kirmis kirmis
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 6
    I'm going into work tomorrow and I'm pretty sure that I'll be criticized. Some dude came into the shop and tried to start a physical fight with my boss,, but left. I know the guy's...
    mrrabbitdigital mrrabbitdigital
    51-55, M
    Apr 6
    07/04/2016 - Even after a failed marriage, failed attempts at relationships, failed attempts at dating people and being hurt over and over I still believe in love. I still...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    I broke up. I still can't believe it. The only reason I won't commit suicide is because I have a beautiful little daughter to care about. this week was the worst week of my life .I...
    mommyJess mommyJess
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    I feel so ******* angry a lot lately and I don't know why. When I was gone all I could think about was my family and now that I've been home a while they've been irritating the...
    BjKhann BjKhann
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 6
    It has been over two years since me and my first love broke up. Before we got together, I was someone who didn't really care what people thought, I was relatively popular or...
    Ricardo1995 Ricardo1995
    18-21, M
    Apr 5
    i hate that i can't communicate effectively. i know that my husband gets frustrated to the point of disgust. i just assume not talk to anyone. i have chronic pain and fatigue to...
    LITVET LITVET
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    after getting back from Iraq, we returned to Germany..my friend Chris went back to Indiana for a week to try to catch the birth of his child..his GF gave birth after about a week...
    Audi5000 Audi5000
    41-45, M
    Apr 5
    This girl ran into me and she's about my age and she freaked the buck out and immediately said sorry and was scared as crap lol I just walked away
    swaged104 swaged104
    13-15, M
    Apr 4
    oh my god. i'll start out by stating the reason i can't be with this person. i'm already in relationship. a long term, committed, loving relationship. my boyfriend is just about...
    adele08 adele08
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 4
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