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I Still Deal With Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 72 People

    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27, 2014

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    My PTSD has been so bad lately that I absolutely can not sleep at night. Ever since I ran out of my medication awhile back, I've been drinking myself to sleep. Its the only way I'm...
    Saithe Saithe 18-21, F Jan 16

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    I've been dealing with this since I was 22. To this day I still deal with it. I'll deal with it for the rest of my life. I wear diapers 24/7 because of it. I just wish I had...
    ddrii1975 ddrii1975 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    3 years ago I was an Uni student. Now I am just a drop out who never told his family that. So for the past 3 years I have been lying about my studies, my results etc. I had done...
    tiszero tiszero 22-25, M Jan 19

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    I'm still looking for him. if I could only find him I'd make that deal with him
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    REVIEW: vertical roller mill equipment "wear and tear" mainly refers to the generation of machines, performance degradation, failures and scrap four cases, this article focuses on...
    mhah mhah 22-25, M Jan 6

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    Yep, deal withs it :P Actually im probably not xD im kinda weird and crazy... wait im probably insane... eh, at least Im caring and have a huge heart :P
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300 16-17, F Jan 17

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    I am 16 now. I have been dealing with depression since maybe the 8th grade. It started when my dad had started being verbally and emotionally abisive towards me. He had already...
    DeadpoolPrincess DeadpoolPrincess 18-21, F Jan 18

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    Currently dealing with that alone time between deciding a divorce is in order and being free. Seems like this could really be a lonely time. I believe I will try to focus on...
    wantadoover wantadoover 56-60, M 6 days ago

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    My dad died 5 months before I was born in a car accident, and I never got to meet him. I know that he was an amazing man. My mom was widowed for 8 years, with 4 children at home...
    chloeangela chloeangela 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    At least I was ..hopeful ..& Ready? Actually in hindsight I was probably A little (naive) But I guess Well I'm ..Used to that sort of thing and most of all everything...
    Hevss Hevss 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I've got burned by a flat iron yet my sister and I still play with heat. My sister got burnt by hot, hot, hot coffee when she was younger and we both have the bruises to prove it...
    QueenChelsea121 QueenChelsea121 13-15, F Dec 27, 2014

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    Awhile back this guy I don't know but I have friends that know him added me on Facebook and started messaging me. I thought well I'm single I'll talk to him and see who he is and...
    heaven89 heaven89 22-25, F Jan 3

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    Seeing other people in love, kissing and cuddling with each other makes me really wish my love was still alive. I miss him like crazy an I feel really lonely.
    Knightt15 Knightt15 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Yeah so I probably won't be very active o here for the next few weeks. A family member may have brain cancer.. Although I'm not too close to him it's still a horrible thing to...
    SirTibblesWorth SirTibblesWorth 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 10

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    December 24th I was cheated and lied to by a girl I thought I knew I swear this hurts so bad! I was so stunned and amazed that she would steal from me on Xmas eve and cheat on me...
    CuteLoverboyJRU CuteLoverboyJRU 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Update: his most recent surgery got about 90% of the tumor out!!! It's still not 100%, but it's great news anyway!!
    SirTibblesWorth SirTibblesWorth 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    My mother is ill. My father is incompetent. My best friend argues with me constantly, when she does my head hurts and throbs and I feel violently ill. My other best friend doesn't...
    AyHeychtimestwenty AyHeychtimestwenty 13-15, F Jan 9

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    Im going to sell my soul to the devil and the deal is if you could make me have abs famous and popular
    fillihoper21 fillihoper21 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I'm 19 and I may not be able to have kids I'm not sure how I should feel about that.....having kids is a huge deal to me and my boyfriend.....I feel less of a woman, what if he...
    Missyj3 Missyj3 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Infertility had changed me as a person. I no longer have the ability to be happy for anyone that becomes pregnant or has a child. I feel selfish and jealous but I can't change the...
    rebecca991 rebecca991 22-25, F Dec 30, 2014

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    i thought he s t one...t one im gonna spend t rest of my life with him but... he s leaving t country..immigrating &he ll never come back &i don't ve enough money to leave with him...
    yasmineyousef yasmineyousef 22-25, F Jan 2

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    Let's just start this out by saying im a 12 year old girl living in a the big city of downtown Baltimore. Anyways, I should tell my story This happened two weeks ago. Its been...
    destroyaaaa destroyaaaa 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    my alcoholic father. I cannot say anything more than the fact that I'm so fed up with all of it. All of it.
    itcheru itcheru 22-25, F Jan 14

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    I have been trying for a baby for the last 5 years now and we have had no luck.I don't have a regular cycle so it is hard for me to tell when i am ovulating or not, but we always...
    jessica3322 jessica3322 31-35 Jan 19

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    Of course, I have all of these tests and projects that I have to study for and finish and I can't bring myself to do them. I'm going through a crisis right now and of course I'm...
    BigBlittleb123 BigBlittleb123 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    Someone called me sweetie and put their hand on my shoulder today... I forgot where I was and who I was with, I just started shaking and yelling at them to stop, I was so scared...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    its like..ive been hurt.but still continue to love even it still hurt me
    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    The most painful parts of my past were the large amount of bullying from students and a bout from teachers as well. The bullying I received was emotional and verbal and still...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Jan 10

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    This is 90% untrue. Of course I've been burned with fire. One time my dad brother and I were lighting fire crackers and I burned my thumb, but that doesn't stop me from reaching in...
    Matthews14 Matthews14 13-15, M 4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I can't sleep unless i have my stuffed owl with me. He is the cutest. His name is Mr.Owl. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 16

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    I love buying new teddies and I lie naming them I have a 4 foot dog teddy called snickers but I've had a little bear that has a rabbit ear hood I got him easter when I was about 7...
    anonymousgirl5567 anonymousgirl5567 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    ok.. so.. its not a teddy bear.. its a stuffed penguin. His name is Mr. Stuffy. I don't know why I feel the need to sleep with a stuffed toy but somehow it gives me comfort. I...
    LillBills LillBills 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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