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I Still Deal With Ptsd

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    exhibiter1000 exhibiter1000 51-55, M Dec 12

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    the past 3 years have been an absolute roller coaster with my husband. since he came home from Afghanistan nothing has been the same. every year his ptsd seems to just get worse...
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    I was having a hard time getting into the Xmas spirit and dealing with the break up of a relationship. He got back in touch and we are now just talking as friends.. I am going to...
    BlueRose77 BlueRose77 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    Sometimes deali with a difficult spouse is overwhelming...he has mood swings due to his arthritis n pain. All he likes to do is watch tv n lie in bed on the weekends. IE I mention...
    aradia11 aradia11 51-55, F 6 Responses Nov 29

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    i don't know how to deal with a break up, after 2 years of putting everything in. I miss him and love him... I'm hurting so much.
    livinglife789 livinglife789 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Currently my boyfriend is dealing with some family stuff, and I really want to be there for him, I just don't always know how. I so often feel like my emotions make me vulnerable...
    lillyforever4 lillyforever4 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    I was quite triggered earlier today and I am having a hard time moving past it. I know what I need to do but my mind fights me from doing it! I need some advice. I was triggered...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 10 Responses Dec 7

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    oh ya thats right im badass ninja freckle deal with it!!
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    How would u deal with a sister in law that has bullied your family for 30 years and your brother doesn't stop it but enables her to be nasty to everyone including his parents
    shorty1963 shorty1963 51-55, F 5 days ago

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    ...and I can't wait to move out. Being the introvert that I am, I like to come home to peace and quiet, but I can't get that here! I would've been out of the house if I didn't...
    beenonpause beenonpause 22-25, M Dec 3

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    its like..ive been hurt.but still continue to love even it still hurt me
    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 4 hrs ago

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    I miss my boyfriend all the time. We live a 30-minute drive apart, and it drives me crazy because I can't see him whenever I want to. I know that if we went to the same school and...
    bludye47 bludye47 18-21, F Dec 1

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    Here is a long story made very short: My husband, who I love with all my heart and soul and have been with for 17 years, married for 13 of those years, said "I love you, but I'm...
    aml321 aml321 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 17

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    My girlfriend just broke up with me and its possibly the most painful thing ive ever experienced. I try not to think about her but everything reminds me of her. i still wake up...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 17

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    I'm always on the lookout for ways to become a better person and my own judgment simply isn't objective or complete. Therefore I encourage others to point out my flaws and come up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27

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    It is difficult living life when it is controlled by aches and discomfort of back pain. This article will provide you with some tips and techniques to help manage your pain. Look...
    greensdrinksnews greensdrinksnews 26-30, M Dec 4

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    I'm just tired of it. Whether it's some family or friends, I'm done. From now on, my focus is just on the few people who've actually been there for me. I'm tired of letting my...
    ClaireH19 ClaireH19 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    We've been friends for like 6 or so years. He always pulls the "im a bad friend" crap and constantly disappears without leaving brbs behind or anything. Sometimes he just leaves...
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F Dec 7

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    Yes, i applied for your position, you said my resume looks great, my skills fit your needs. you say you want a face to face interview. Okay, I'm early to my interview, I'm...
    Blackstallion76 Blackstallion76 36-40, M 4 Responses Dec 10

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    Plz don't come in my massage and tell me about myself if I wanna be with a girl let me be with a girl like I don't care about no one opinion ima be with my gf regardless...
    hahauivcnhd hahauivcnhd 16-17, F Dec 14

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    Please tell me I'm not alone... For as long as I can remember I've always been super sensitive with emotions. I've just known things were gonna happen, and they did. I used to see...
    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F Dec 16

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    My kids music job : So I am singing some Xmas songs during the parent/kid craft time and I have this sudden thought "What it God wants to use this divorce/separation to further my...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 17

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    I will never get the chance to experience motherhood and that makes me feel so empty. My husband and I waited 10 years to try to have a baby and then we wasted another two years...
    clkm5050 clkm5050 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm finding it difficult to maintain my associations with people who for lack better terminology are either snobs or bores. I guess I could say one is patronizing and the other is...
    tastyfrzz tastyfrzz 46-50 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am incapable of saying goodbye to loved ones that are knocking on deaths door. Then living with the thought of my cowardness afterwards is a weight that will never be lifted off...
    ScarlettBelle ScarlettBelle 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    He left me. Everyone left me. I am too far gone now to get help. I have smoked my brains away so much that I forgot a cousin of mine existed. People around me are dropping like...
    mollycule01 mollycule01 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    the sex is still great. we have kids together . makes the co patenting easier just not sure if I want to go back him 24/7
    justinsneedow justinsneedow 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Well actually it is a penguin lol. I was use to sleeping with someone for a year and now it is just weird not to have someone or something to hold on to
    ImJustJen ImJustJen 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 5

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    I have a cheetah called Marieta ..its hard to sleep without her now
    kyuketsuki1977 kyuketsuki1977 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    I would if I could find it, I sadly lost my bear some time ago but if I could sleep with a teddy bear I would, haha :)
    PotatoPowerUp PotatoPowerUp 16-17, M Dec 6

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    I have a seriously unnatural amount of stuffed animals for a 21 year old. I can't help it, they're just so cute! And it's not like I've got anyone else to sleep with. They're a bit...
    Starrkya Starrkya 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I dunno, most them women I attract are either young and curious, my age and messed up (up in the head) or older and spoken for. I recently started a friends with benefits with a...
    AcousticAnne AcousticAnne 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 7

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