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I Still Deal With Ptsd

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    17 yrs later, just when you think your ok,

    your not. I dont think there is a cure for ptsd, Im not war vet, but i was diagnosed with it and spent years denying it. but the more i research the more i accept it. every day i survive ptsd. I am not claiming i suffer as much as those who defend our freedoms and give a piece...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F Feb 27, 2014

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    My Messed Up Life With Ptsd

    Have you ever felt like you were ever in the fight of your life? Not a physical fight but a fight of the past. I can tell you from personal experience you can run but you cannot hide from it, it will catch up with you sooner or later. Unless you deal with it and face it head on...
    Leroysimpson Leroysimpson 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Ptsd????

    So I'm retired from 22 years active Army. I retired about a year ago and enjoy the retired life. My deployment history was simple Desert Shield/Storm then back to Kuwait to babysit the desert. In 99 I became a diabetic but was allowed to stay on duty. Once I had to start insulin...
    steveg7003 steveg7003 41-45 Mar 13, 2013

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    Still Dealing With It

    They say when we have ptsd, all we want to do is avoid and stay locked up. I recall doing this lots.  I came a little over/out of my shell.  I go out more then I used to, not in big situation and I try doing my best even if I am scared.  If I don't do it, no one will do it...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Jul 28, 2012

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    It Never Goes Away I Am Sorry To Tell You

    no mater what the goverement curret caged name is we did get PTSD in viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 12, 2012

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    Not So Invincible

    In my childhood, I was not the type of person to take risks. I did not climb things just to jump off of them, or get involved with activities that would end with me getting hurt. I was a safe, timid child who would have rather watched people play then go out there and risk...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23, 2011

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    I Hate This Feeling!!!

    Unfortunately, I still am dealing with PTSD.  Lets see if I can write this story, and not have to leave to go to my room.  It's a scary, sad feeling!!!  My first instinct is to do something and make it go away.  I'm trying to deal with this, I'm trying to be...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    It's Not As Bad!!

    I had written another story here many weeks ago, but I ended up deleting it.  I wrote it while I was in one of my PTSD mode.  After I wrote it I felt like maybe it was too much to share.  I did get one very comforting comment from crosseyedlemon.  I felt bad...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I Still Suffer, And Wish I Didn't

    It makes me feel weak. The reasons were stupid, but apparently you can have a broken heart so bad it turns into PTSD. I remember what it was like, that moment freezing into numbness that lasted for weeks, the nightmares that made it impossible to sleep, and the inability to eat...
    melly8 melly8 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    Waking Up In My Panic Mode!!!

    You know, I thought that I was almost out of my Ptsd.  Today, after waking from a dream, I've changed my mind about this.  When I woke up, I was more asleep than awake.  I remember being awake, but feeling like I was drugged.  I couldn't breath!!!  I...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    Ptsd And The After Effects

    A survivor of childhood abuse and spousal abuse I struggle everyday to find my way, sometimes just in getting through a day. I am angry and hurt by what others have put me through in their sick lives, leaving me feeling sometimes empty, fearful and crippled. I feel robbed of my...
    prettywomanNautumn prettywomanNautumn 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    I Just Wish I Could Forget,

    but no. Its part of my therapy. In group we have discussions of what we went through. I mean yeah I know it'll help in the long run, but I need a break. I'm not going to though, I'll stick it out. I know its helping.
    jcue1976 jcue1976 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Going Through Ptsd On the Phone with a Friend!!!

    The other night I went through my first Ptsd episode on the phone with a friend.  I was talking to RopinTexan.  I had begun to feel a little weird about five minutes before I called him.  I figured talking to RT would make me forget what...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 10 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    five deaths in the past 7 months, my husband deployed and a miscarriage....um let's calm down with the drama im tired and need a break.