I Still Don't Know What I'm Looking For

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    Still Need Help On This One

    Ever since I was a little girl, I knew exactly what I wanted.  The trouble is once I reached all of those goals I still didn't feel fulfilled.  I went to school and got my degrees but that wasn't enough.  I found the guy that I thought I wanted to spend the rest of...
    reachin4goals reachin4goals
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 2, 2008

    There's Gotta Be Something More

    I'm 15 and in high school but I feel like something is missing. I'm really bored with my life and I'm not very social, I don't like to go to school football games or doing average boring high school things. I want real fun, but I can't even drive yet. I have friends but they're...
    Whatevernevermind1797 Whatevernevermind1797
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 11, 2012

    Lost

    I really dont know what im looking for anymore this year i feel that i dont know what im doing or who i even am and struggling to find who am though all this chaos,guess its not much of a story just looking for answers or something to point me in some direction so that im not...
    Govinda55 Govinda55
    22-25
    1 Response Nov 15, 2011

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