I Still Love My First Love

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    Hi everyone. . I'm writing here

    as kind of an outlet. I've been keeping a secret for a long time. It's been around 25 years since I've been apart from her, my first love..aka the love of my life. I have of course moved on..got married, divorced..and now in a relationship with a woman for about 5 years now...
    maritimer maritimer
    Apr 21, 2016

    Not Like That Though.

    We're Good Being Friends.
    Erie23 Erie23
    18-21, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    I had lots of boyfriends during my youth

    but my first real love (as opposed to youthful infatuation) was my husband. And I still love that man after all these years!
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2015

    I Still Love Her

     We met when we were babies. I was about 6 months old, and she was 4 months old. We lived across the street from each other until I was about 9, when my family moved to another area of the city that we lived in. We didn't see each other for a few years, but she was never far...
    RedDwarf RedDwarf
    51-55, M
    6 Responses Aug 16, 2008

    On some level, yeah ofcource.

    Like when he talks about his girlfriend, it still stings after all these years. But... I certainly don't love him. I think there is something special about your first real love, they will always belong in your heart.
    deleted deleted
    Oct 29, 2015

    I will always love her

    and the worst part she passed away at the age of 23 13/04/2015
    pjrtt pjrtt
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 9, 2015

    When i finally got to experience him in the way

    i have been dreaming of for all these years, i discovered that not only is he appealing to my eyes but he is the most wonderful, kind , gentle individual i have ever met. He is so gentle so loving so wonderful and passionate. Perfect for me. No man has ever treated me with so...
    solongago2 solongago2
    31-35, F
    Apr 11, 2015

    For me, I had quite a few boyfriends

    when I was young. But there was one that stood above all the rest, and I'm still with him to this day. Yeah I had a few boyfriends I had kissed and all, but there was only one that I went all the way with. And I didn't consider it sex. It was my first time and I considered it...
    lizziesingsxoxo lizziesingsxoxo
    18-21, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    I Still Love Her

    I lost my virginity about 15 years ago freshman year of high school to the girl of my dreams. She lived across the street from my friends house (the afternoon weed smoking and skating spot) and the first time I saw her I said out loud to my friends she was mine. They laughed at...
    vonbattle vonbattle
    26-30, M
    2 Responses May 30, 2012

    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    norahcc11 norahcc11
    26-30, F
    May 25, 2015

    It's Been 20 Years And I Still Want To Kiss You

    .... that's what he wrote to her. Her heart almost burst from her chest as she read the words on the screen. She felt the same way, she had missed him for so long. They were once very passionate lovers and best friends. Their companionship was so strong that even they didn't...
    broknwings broknwings
    41-45, F
    Sep 24, 2013

    Mis-Delivered Post . It sure was a bolt from

    the blue. I have not been in contact with her for some time. She has always been on my mind. How could I not think of her after all it was my fault. An hour ago, I heard something being dropped through the letter box. I though it was strange that, being a holiday and that after...
    HardingP119 HardingP119
    36-40, M
    1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    ok so he is my boyfriend

    and fell in love with him instantly (4 years ago). i think that he was my first TRUE love. we are dating since 2013 and i still love him :)
    mommyJess mommyJess
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2015

    I was 16 and she was 12,

    but when we looked at each other, we couldn't break eye contact. Of course we couldn't date, but we did begin writing to each other, sharing the most intimate details of our lives. After two years, we were allowed to start dating. Being with her was wonderful! She was never...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 29, 2015

    Yeah, no kidding. But don't we all?

    At least for a while?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 9, 2015

    How Can I Not Still Love You....?

    As time flies by and the years keep passing away, the days seem stretched and hour never seems to end. But, one thing I know that you are always in my thoughts and never out of my mind. We may have gone our separate ways due to situations that we could not control or thought that...
    HardingP119 HardingP119
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Aug 14, 2012

    I can barely focus in anything I do.

    All I do is think of him. He was gone for 18 years, and now here he is divorced, but now I am married, and we can't be together, but all I do is fantasize about kissing him and telling him over and over again that he is the love of my life. Then I return to reality and remember...
    Sparklynina Sparklynina
    41-45, F
    2 Responses May 19, 2015

    I wrote this letter to my first love yesterday

    and sent it. "Hello, it's me! (cue tune to Adele song here). haha :) I just returned from 18 days in Nepal.. 18 days with barely any wifi or electricity. Everywhere we went was another home made of mud, with no doors or windows, no roofs, no heat. Most of the people I came...
    gravity1 gravity1
    22-25, F
    Feb 5, 2016

    I Still Love Him... WHY?!?!!

    It's spring break, I have been messaging Ty for a while now. I gave him my number because I knew i wasnt going to have internet all day. We texted all day, flirting etc. I promised myself on that day that I wasnt going to let anything happen until we are both at school on monday...
    Fancygurl Fancygurl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2013

    i still love my first love

    even though hes been dead for 7 years its still hard getting over it
    aaron4455 aaron4455
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 12, 2016

    My ex and I have broken up a year ago.

    We were basically each other's first love. We still keep in contact, say hi to each other now and then, and hang out with the same crowd. I just hate the fact that I get so jealous whenever he talks to other girls because I am not over him. Slowly, I am getting tired of getting...
    superiorjay superiorjay
    18-21, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    Not in the sense of "Oh I want to be with him"

    But I love him for showing me a different way of life and making me the girlfriend that I am today. I still care about him and I don't think that's ever going to change. We have both moved on with our lives.. So we do not talk anymore. But he literally taught me things that I...
    distanceandspace distanceandspace
    22-25, F
    Jan 26, 2014

    To my Love, Ashley, I imagine sometimes,

    as I lay awake waiting for whatever medication to coax my brain into a semblance of sleep, our wedding that will never be. Sounds funny, right? ...Me thinking about weddings of any sort, much less my own...quite out of character! But I do, because I know how much like a dream...
    immortalspirit immortalspirit
    36-40, M
    3 Responses May 30, 2014

    My first true love was my ex fiancé,

    RD. He was the first guy I got to have a real relationship with and we talked about so much and got to know each other so well while he was deployed. When he came back things happened and we ended up breaking up. And still to this day 6 years later I find myself wondering what...
    Rhisk89 Rhisk89
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 9, 2015

    And I always will. Not in the up-front forever

    & marriage kind of love... A sort of sweet ghost. A first love ghost that keeps pulling us together over and over again. I don't think it'll ever stop. I'll never be able to hate him. Even now, years later, I look at him and marvel at his beauty. My heart aches to life. A sweet...
    Blueaquatic Blueaquatic
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2015

    I saw him today. My first love.

    It was a short visit, we only had about 45 minutes. Just seeing him was wonderful!!! It's crazy to think that he probably knows me better than anyone else on this planet! I have known him since I was 17. He knows my fears, he knows my joys. He even knows "how to push my...
    curioussoutherngirl38 curioussoutherngirl38
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 24, 2015

    I met her in hs in 2005

    and we had something special, but I don't know what to do w/ these feelings! I don't believe she and I would ever want anything, but I believe we are profoundly still in love w/ the thought of eachother way back then!
    Hardboy48 Hardboy48
    26-30, M
    Oct 30, 2015

    You Are Always - On My Mind Lyrics .

    . Maybe I didn't love you Quite as often as I could have And maybe I didn't treat you Quite as good as I should have If I made you feel second best Girl, I'm sorry I was blind You were always on my mind You were always on my mind And maybe I didn't hold you All those...
    HardingP119 HardingP119
    36-40, M
    1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    First Love:

    Its funny... last time I heard from him he said "I took you for granted and I'm sorry for everything" He kept telling me I wasn't thinking straight as I was trying to push him away... He was right (I wasn't thinking straight). I pushed him away.. and realize I really took him for...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 12, 2013

    I'm drunk and I miss him

    but I'm drunk because I miss him.
    canadianlex canadianlex
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 31, 2016

    It's Been 17 Years.....

    ...since we met, aged 14. Im pretty sure it was love at first sight. We sat on a bench together and I remember thinking "I never want to leave..I don't want this feeling to end" We we're together for the next 3 years and shared many "first experiences" together. We were so in...
    whatsthefuckingpoint whatsthefuckingpoint
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

    My First Love, My Last Love, My Only Love

    I met my first love our freshman year of high school, fresh out of elementary school, we were young and foolish and didn't know what was good for us. I was told he liked me and thought I was "hot" and I generally thought the same. But I was a girl and girls are definitely...
    JandR2024 JandR2024
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2012

    Fall Walking

    I went for a walk yesterday as it was a perfect fall day in Maine. While walking around the cemetery (I know kind of odd...but it is quiet and I can let my mind wander) my mind drifts off. I am not sure if it is the solitude, the weather or what but my mind went back to simpler...
    adamj933 adamj933
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2013

    We were supposed to talk today,

    but I guess he has more important things to do. He says he needs space, even though we rarely speak.
    Antigani Antigani
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2016

    The Girl I Can't Forget

    For the past several years, I have found myself deeply and irrevocably in love with a single girl. Of course, I am only approaching twenty, and while my understanding of love may be incomplete, it is as close a thing as I have experienced. It is funny to think that I only knew...
    feelsgoodtosaysomething feelsgoodtosaysomething
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 13, 2012

    After 23 Years?

    I'll try to keep this short. So I met my first love when I was 14. He was a friend of a friend who brought him to our group. At first I didn't like him because I thought he was a little conceited so I didn't give him a second thought. Still we were sort of friends and we 'dated...
    shadra88 shadra88
    5 Responses Sep 9, 2011

    Love Of My Life

    I believe everybody will find love, be it true, or otherwise. For me it was a girl I had met at church. Long brown hair, beautiful face, but most of all was her laugh. God, if i could hear that laugh everyday, I don't think I'd ever have another unhappy thought again. I was...
    Brettiferr Brettiferr
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 23, 2013

    We've been on and off

    for the past 2 1/2 years we've both been unfaithful and have moved on from it. But sometimes I feel like he's still talking to other girls. I really love him and want to make it work but I also wanna be in a relationship where I can trust my partner and not doubt their love and...
    Princessjas02 Princessjas02
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2016

    And, as it turns out,

    we're still dating :) ~ Lys ♪
    LysChan LysChan
    22-25, F
    Nov 11, 2015

    I got into a relationship last August with this

    guy i really like. and he likes me too. he is very genuine but also very realistic. we were good everything was perfect. however until in January he broke up with me, making up weird excuses.. but he keeps telling his friends that i love her but i dont have a future with her...
    alinaE alinaE
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2016

    Am happy to share this story.

    ...I met him at age 16, when I went to spend my holiday at my aunts. It was not love at first sight, the second day we saw each other we became friends. From then on we started a relationship. He was 19. We became frequent visitors to each other's place and by the next week, he...
    booscandy booscandy
    36-40, F
    Feb 21, 2016

    He moved on a while ago.

    .. I know I should too. I should have given up on him a long time ago, when he had first cheated. I let him continue cheating... And it really hurts. But I still can't help but be in love with him.
    LexiDuhhXO LexiDuhhXO
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    I can see her when I close my eyes.

    I was 12 and she was 11. we had our very first sexual experience together. we dated till our middle teens when her family move away. I was contacted by the Houston police Sept the 8th 1986 and was asked if I could identify the girl in the photo. it was a photo of me and her she...
    thumper001 thumper001
    56-60, M
    Mar 26, 2016

    Prohibited Love!

    I am a Muslim girl from The Middle East, never ever believed in Love! Screaming from inside, calling for freedom. Strict father and difficult culture. No support at all from anyone. Not surprisingly, I can be in my best away. Trying to be positive among all negatives. Trying to...
    fatom fatom
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Sep 16, 2012

    I have a wonderful husband,

    amazing children and a semi charmed life yet I always wonder what could have been. This first love of mine, we were ripped part because his family moved. There was no closure just this cruel reality that life isn't fair sometimes. Over the years we kept in touch. A first by mail...
    rowtohoe rowtohoe
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    I love him but I'm no longer in love with him.

    The love I have for him now is strictly platonic and I'm so happy to be able to say that. I needed to let go if I wanted to still be happy.
    Noridori132 Noridori132
    22-25, F
    May 10, 2015

    I've loved you for nearly 20 years,

    And quite honestly sometimes I wish I didn't. Life might have been easier. Life might have been more fulfilling without feeling like you were missing from it. I don't feel the same amount of love back. Maybe you just dont say it enough..maybe im just so insecure that i dont...
    whatsthefuckingpoint whatsthefuckingpoint
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 12, 2016

    A Second Chance?

    Hello everyone. In a search for answers I found this site and have spent the last couple of hours reading quite a lot of the stories. I had been thinking that it might help to write things out, and I suppose where better than to write it out here. Where to start.... 14 years...
    Trojanaeneas Trojanaeneas
    36-40, M
    7 Responses May 19, 2013

    He's my first love because he actually loved me

    and adored me when we were kids. I still stay in contact with him because I still love him so. He lives back at home and has a little boy but I still admire him from a distance. If only we were together we fell out due to trying to do long distance and the changes we were...
    Nunu80 Nunu80
    26-30, F
    Jul 24, 2015

    I still and always will love my first love.

    He will always have a place in my heart. We haven't been together for years but we still talk and hang out.
    LovelyyLexii18 LovelyyLexii18
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2016

    I miss your mouth, your body,

    your breath, your perfect eyes looking deeply into mine as we made love...I miss you on this cold night, my only love...
    immortalspirit immortalspirit
    36-40, M
    Nov 8, 2014

    I still think of him quite often ,

    even though I haven't seen him in 10 years.. I still really care for him and I would like to know how his life turned out.. "PLUS IT'S PRETTY EASY TO BE REMINDED OF HIM WHEN ONE OF MY SON'S WAS BORN ON HIS BIRTHDAY "
    lovelee83 lovelee83
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2016

    I am still in love with tammy keys.

    I miss her very much, she was the first girl I actually got to fall in love with. l ended up in prison, and she wrote me to say that she could not wait for me. that was in 1999 and I still have her in my heart. she reminds me of the song just take a look at me now. I used to...
    weadkeys weadkeys
    46-50, M
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    My first love was a sweet young lady

    and i was a stupid shy teenager we dated and hugged and kissed and enjoyed each others company no sex it was always on my mind but during the early 60's it was the end of the hands of time but i was stuck with no touching one day she scared me to death by saying she loved me. I...
    fire1a fire1a
    70+, M
    May 9, 2015
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    Oct 30, 2015
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