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I Still Think About Suicide Sometimes

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    It Never Leaves My Mind...

    It never leaves my mind, i think about suicide everyday, what it would feel like to die, what would happen if i did die, would anyone care, how long would it be till everyone forgot my name and who i was, would i even have a funeral, would anyone come...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 28, 2007


    As a kid, I was fearful of growing old and dying. I realized that we have one life to live and that time passes so quickly. I remember when Ryan killed himself and how hurt I was by his death and his absence from my life. I'm not sure why, but in the last year or so, I just...
    Inman Inman
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2008

    Hell, Suicide Still Thinks About Me.

    I think about it when I'm snowed under by issues I can't control but it scares me even more when things are fine.  I know I don't have the guts to do anything about the thought, but it's still a dangerous thought to have in head.  And I worry because if I mention the...
    hAnih hAnih
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2007

    Every Day Is a Reason to Die

    I think about death every other day because of my faults in life. Sometimes I cant even look in the mirror. I look desgusting. I look horrible.
    TheStray TheStray
    22-25, F
    Apr 15, 2008

    Just a Thought...

    Sometimes...I get so scared of the rest of my life that I don't want to face it. Like I'm in line for the scariest rollercoaster and I just want to dip out of line before I get close to then entrance. Sometimes I just want to get out but hell, I know that I need to face it. I...
    pinkspikes pinkspikes
    22-25, F
    Dec 10, 2007


    I do still think about it occasionally, but today was the worst.  I was close to it today as I was so depressed.
    TruePal TruePal
    31-35, M
    Jul 17, 2008


    i cant lie. i do still think about it. but it scares me. rocks me to my core. i know the place my mind is in when i'm thinking about it. and i dont want to ever go there again. i wish there was some way to make sure it wouldnt happen. but i cant keep it away. not even with...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul
    22-25, F
    Jan 27, 2009

    Just In a Different Way

    I used to think about killing myself because I wasn't going anywhere in life, and I was unable to. I was stuck in a cycle I had absoutely no control over, and I hated it and wanted it to end. It's still pretty much going on. Today is the first time in a looong time I have...
    Melody08 Melody08
    18-21, F
    Mar 2, 2008

    If I Am to Be Honest....

    ....I must admit, yes I do still think about suicide sometimes. On my off days where the mind starts wondering down the track of "nothing with change, I can't live like this anymore" I honestly contemplate it. I hate that I can still get trapped in the idea that it is...
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    Dec 8, 2007

    I Think It But Am Highly Unlikely to Do It Any Time Soon.

    however, i reserve the right to make that choice in the future. the thought becomes obsessive if i become depressed. i have had this since i was a child. i felt like this a lot during this past christmas. if i go off prozac or an alternate plan, the reality of being preoccupied...
    kittten kittten
    46-50, F
    Dec 26, 2007

    I definitely do not think about it

    as frequently as I used to but there are still bad times when the thought crossed my mind for a few seconds. I don't think I'd ever go through with an attempt again but I think the thoughts are never going to completely go away
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    Nov 22, 2014

    The Voice

    I think about suicide sometimes, not sure what brings it on. All i know is that happens from time to time. It's like this voice in the back of my mind telling me to do it. That awful voice that reminds me how worthless, unwanted, and unloved I am. It's so loud and clear, and...
    CoolHearted CoolHearted
    36-40, F
    Jan 29, 2011

    Only Sometimes

     Only when life feels like there isn't any other way to go about. to even be here. the thoughts are strong and hard to fight but I fight them. I only think about it sometimes. Its better then before it used to be all the time. I feel better about myself. and I have also got...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2008

    I Do

    Even though I'm on meds for my depression. I still think about it. Just wonder if things would be better if I wasn't here anymore. I will never do it . Just wonder "what if?" sometimes.
    marinewife24 marinewife24
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Oct 2, 2007

    Fleeting Attachment To Life.

    occasionally i'll look at the state of my life and think about how little i would actually be leaving behind. but for the most part, i'm compelled to see where it takes me.
    delusionsofglamour delusionsofglamour
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2011

    It's Always There

    I have so much to live for, and I know that.  Logically, I know that.  But that doesn't stop the insecurities from taking over.  That doesn't stop me from thinking how much easier it would be if I just weren't here to fight things any more.  How none of the...
    dyin2live dyin2live
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2008
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