I Still Think About What Could Have Been

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 476 People

    Back in April I wanted to take my life,

    thank god I didn't. But I always wonder what the life of my family and friends would be like if I did. But thankfully I no longer want to take my life and continue living this hard but good life.
    BooBear99 BooBear99
    18-21, F
    Jan 5, 2015

    Just This Day

    I've already confessed about this a little bit. It saddens me when I think about this day. All I want to do is go to bed and cry, and I did for a while after it happened, but I had to stop. And now I need to stop getting sad over it and stop thinking about how different things...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2008


    What could have happened if we werent' introduced to each other on St Paddy's Day...What could have happened if you didn't grip my hand that nite....What could have happened if we didn't start this relationship... What would have happened if either one of us were...
    Eternal Eternal
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2010

    I Think Many Of Us Do

    Part of being a human being is hindsight. I have yet to ever meet another soul who at some point and time in theirs life has not said, well I should have done this, or I would have done that. The thing of it is, looking back after the fact is always easy because everything has...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2010

    Woke Up Too Late

    So I still think about what could have been if I had just woke up sooner and smelled the proverbial coffee.  She had given me plenty of signs and signals that a change was in order, but I was too wrapped up in myself to hear it.  It's my fault and the mistakes are my...
    failingecho failingecho
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    Those Pesky What If's Again...

    If I hadnt been so stupid thinking I was smart when I graduated early from High School missing the entire second semester. If I hadnt made the stupid decision to have sex and get preganat.   ( I love my son...but wish I had waited to have him) If I hadnt gotten...
    Lexus Lexus
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 19, 2007

    Every Now And Then...

    I was young, he was my first everything, the first I love you, the first...mmmhmm and more!This guy (lets call him Buddy) gave me butterflies and made me lose my breath.  We were close friends in high school when we began having those "more...
    dri03 dri03
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2009

    Missed Advetures

    Think one of the thing I miss very much was, we never got to have the adventure’s we talked about many nights as we snuggled up to each other and fell asleep. One of them that we did get to take with each other’s was between 10 grade and junior in high school, we planned it...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Apr 17, 2011

    What If....

    ...i had told him how i felt instead of assuming he knew?  what if he had told me how he had felt instead of assuming i didn't care?  would we have gotten together then?  would we still be together now??  i was a different person then than i am now, so maybe...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Feb 24, 2008

    How It Would Feel?

    Even though I try to block out the fact that I had an abortion, I still wonder what he or she would of looked like, how my life would of been like with a child, or how it would feel like to hold my child for the first time. I will never forget my loss.. I had so much love for...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
    18-21, F
    Jun 2, 2012

    I wouldn't advise it!

    I did this for years! And it just leaves you feeling sad and depressed. And there's every chance that things you 'remember' weren't exactly how they actually were!
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    Nov 18, 2014

    I find myself fantasizing about stuff I don't

    have control over. I call it my "In Another Life" daydreams. I spend like 15 minutes at most every time I wake up in the morning laying on bed just letting my imagination run wild. Then after that I start my day ready to take on the realities of life with rationality.
    jenna4xa jenna4xa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    I Still Believe

    I still believe that what could have been might have been if I had just done something a little differently. Not made that call, been 5 minutes earlier, stayed home that evening, that kind of thinking.  But that stuff will drive you crazy if you let it so you have to start...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Feb 3, 2008

    Can't Help It Sometimes...

    I try my best not to dwell on the past or wonder what if... It can be hard at times but there is no point wasting your time thinking about something as trivial as what could have happened.
    TiPoupon TiPoupon
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 18, 2008

    Hair Stylist?

    I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't been too depressed to finish cosmetology school sometimes.  Would I be cutting hair and making folks more attractive every day?  Would I even like that, in the long run?  I know it's pointless to look back with regreat...
    Sage360 Sage360
    41-45, F
    May 24, 2010

    But I Don't I Try Not to Dwell On It.

    I think it's pointless wondering "what if" The past has happened and we can't change it, or bring it back. By all means learn from the past to make better choices and improve your future. Think about why that oportunity was missed so next time one comes your way, go...
    WiseOldOwl WiseOldOwl
    56-60, M
    9 Responses Sep 15, 2008

    After All This Time.....

    No matter what I have thought about over the last year and a half I keep coming back to the same point.......What if she never left? If I stayed in college? What would I be doing? Would I be happy? Then I realize that I am thinking about things I shouldn't.......She is now...
    dragel dragel
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 5, 2007

    Still In My Heart

    Though you're hardly in my life anymore, I still love you greatly. The pain of what could have been will always resonate within me. You're so far away from me now, hardly there at all. Yet somehow, I still can't forget you. Even when my life is hectic, even when I haven't the...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    May 7, 2012

    Taking Chances Is Overrated

    there was this one time that i threw all caution to the wind and pursued a hippie goddess. she was just about as pretty a girl as i had ever seen in my entire life. she was a real hippie too. she had a flawless complection brown eyes, and long straight black hair down to her butt...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil
    36-40, M
    2 Responses May 17, 2008

    I Know It Is a Waste of Time

    I can't help but wonder about how things would be different if I had made different decisions.  Would I still be where I am at now? Would I still be weighed down with unrelenting depression?  How different would things have been?  It's a waste of time and energy to...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    May 1, 2008

    Working On Something And Was Wondering What Else Should I Add

    working on something and was wondering what else should i add What may have been! This is based on thinking back to things as a child and young adult to adult with the person I loved more than anything in the world. One high school we had an English teacher that would let...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Mar 26, 2011

    Indeed. It is hard to think

    that we almost made it.  
    MsDemeanorMe MsDemeanorMe
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2015

    Missing Most

    Guess one of the things miss most is the talks we use to have with each other, we talked about everything from working after getting out of school to the fact. I would have to go in the service as some time in the future and so we talked about what one was best for me and plan...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Mar 30, 2011

    Still Wonder

    What if I hadn´t been such a coward? What if I had just left with him? I couldn´t, I felt unsafe, I needed guarantees. Now and then I wonder, what if I had give him a chance? What if I had taken a risk and left with nothing?
    utopianmefi utopianmefi
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2008

    Will You Wait For Me?

    She was everything I'd ever looked for in a girlfriend. She was smart and funny, compassionate, creative, beautiful. She had a fresh and happy attitude to life. I told her it would be so easy to let myself fall in love with her. A frown creased that perfect forehead and she said...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous
    51-55, M
    11 Responses Nov 6, 2009


    There are past relationships in which plans were made and I wonder what sort of person I would have been, if those plans had come to fruition.  I know that I am more thankful that I am here and it is not usually that I wonder back what could have been in regret. On bad...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 15, 2008

    Could Have Been

    i still think about my ex after a year of beaning apart i wounder if he found someone to take my place but i just found out that he hasn't and he still thinks of me too but we both know that we can never be
    metalchick metalchick
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2008

    My Dear New Orleans Boy

    he was my first high-five a new town. i remember his lanky body sliding down the hall, his legs folding under him in that adorable awkward way when he sat next to me. his addiction to coca-cola, and the daring risks he took to get me an almond-free chocolate bar. "dear...
    possibly possibly
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2008

    I Always Sit In My Room And Wonder...

    Not just sometimes, but all the time, I sit and wonder what if. What if I had never been taken away from my mother? What if I got to live with my father? What if someone had shown that they cared? What if I had stayed in my first foster home? What if I hadn't lost my best friend...
    AlicebeneyisSilvereyes AlicebeneyisSilvereyes
    18-21, F
    Nov 15, 2012

    "As always, she was late..."

    I've been out walking I don't do too much talking These days, these days. These days I seem to think a lot About the things that I forgot to do And all the times I had the chance to. ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bl6FbeoXeHQ From: "The Royal Tennenbaum's"...
    ready2shrug ready2shrug
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Nov 23, 2008

    Would it have been different today

    if I was more upfront on how I felt about you? You cross my mind everyday. I want to know why. It's been three years since I last saw you. The easy part is knowing that I am lucky I met you and just the thought of you gives me the actual butterflies in my tummy :) the hardest...
    northernpassage northernpassage
    1 Response Feb 4, 2014


    Sometimes I wonder.... I wouldn't trade the kids for anything but still, what if? I got married so young and college was not ever mentioned as an option. In fact, at 19, when I told my mother I was getting married her reply was "Finally". I'll never forget that... or...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Aug 28, 2008

    What Could Have Been...

    if you would have just taken a chance.  Stepped outside of your comfort zone.  Gave love a chance.  I know we could have been happy.  It could have been us....
    patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes
    26-30, F
    Apr 2, 2010
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