My mother emotionally abused me and emotionally neglected me.
In my childhood, I fantasized about an adult I liked taking me away to her house and raising me as her own kid. I've been dreaming about this since I was in kindergarten. More than anything, I wanted a different...
My parents used to beat me and my mother was never proud of me. I got straight A's but I remember one day I accidentally got a B and she screamed at me. I was never good enough. I told her I'd love to be an artist, and she told me how stupid that idea is. I'm good at art, I love...
I miss you so much but when I look at myself I'd better not see you :(
I have failed everything. I know that you wanted that I'd become and engineer or scientist and yet I didn't.
Sorry for making you sad.
Sorry for not meeting your expectations.
Sorry for not...
For most of my life, I have carried around what feels like a deep, dark secret. I grew up without knowing what it feels like to have a loving mother. When I was a child, I had fantasies about being rescued from my family and taken in my a loving mother who would provide me with...
My Mom had a way of holding me and the world didn't matter any more.
What I was doing, who I was ... all somehow acceptable regardless.
She was so beautiful and wonderful.
She could make the hurt go away.
I really miss her now.
She'd understand and be rock solid support.
There's a lot of confusion in my head over this. On the one hand, I've never really had the "full treatment" to know how it would settle with me, even though it is a deep regressive fantasy of mine. On the other hand, I'm definitely a lot more DL, than an AB, and I've always sort...