I Stopped Self-harming But Want to Start Again

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    I started self harming over a year ago

    when I found out some friends were doing it (yes I'm aware that was stupid). I haven't cut since then. Any who, I want to start doing it again but I know that's a bad idea as I'll more than likely take it way too far and potentially lead myself to committing suicide. I don't...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 16, 2015

    I have been clean since march 9th

    when i was admitted into the hospital but the urge has become almost overwhelming and i think id like to start again.
    comicalbasketcase comicalbasketcase
    Sep 14, 2015
    stupidlove6 stupidlove6
    16-17, F
    Dec 22, 2014

    Few days to one month

    but then i have to fight the urge alone which makes it so hard
    flamedoll flamedoll
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2014

    I can't fight the urge anymore.

    ..I need it so badly.I'm hurting for it.Someone help :(
    HarlsTheGummyBear HarlsTheGummyBear
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 11, 2014

    So, I had been self harming

    for about 3 years, but I only started "cutting" this year, and my friends noticed the scars and tried to get me to stop. So I told them I had and just started in a different place. I stopped cutting about a month ago because I sliced my thigh up so badly I almost passed out from...
    ItalicHail ItalicHail
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 19, 2014

    it's an addiction really.

    ..no different than any other addiction. Just as difficult to be free of, maybe more so when times get rough. I don't really deal well with people anyway, but right now is an especially hard time. I want to hurt myself but I know if I do it will only hurt the people I love as...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    I haven't cut in about 2 years.

    its been hard on me lately. with stress at home, family issues, and working all the time but it not being enough. I want to tell my husband but I don't know how to or how he will react because he got me to stop. I want to drink but I don't want to turn into an alcoholic. I use...
    Ravenslove1408 Ravenslove1408
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    When I used to cut about a year ago I would

    only do it when I felt lonely. Now, I've been getting more lonely and get this sudden urge and it terrifies me.
    zennarts zennarts
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    I stopped self harming 2 years ago

    but I want to start again and I want a pro self harm buddy...
    jessa373 jessa373
    18-21, F
    Mar 28, 2016

    I've been 9 weeks clean

    but I don't know how much longer I can do this. I pretend to be happy way to much. Only time I am happy is when I'm with my boyfriend and can forget the cruel world around me
    Muppo23 Muppo23
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    Harder to Stop a Second Time

    I started self-harming when I was about 13 but then I managed to stop. I didn't tell anyone about it. Now I want to start again because it helps me cope with difficult situations and I'm going through a lot at the moment. I know I shouldn't start again because it's a lot...
    iammyonlyfriend iammyonlyfriend
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2009

    cant wait until i pick up the knife

    and start scratching my self with it. im done with the crap of every day life that i go through. no one listens. and i get treated like a mat at least once a week.
    alysia28 alysia28
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    I've been clean from cutting

    for 6 months and I don't understand why the urge is still there... Even worse, it's getting stronger. I just want that relief but I'm scared of how my boyfriend will react.. I have no one to talk to.. So no one keeping me from doing it.. And I'll be home the majority of the day...
    OutForChange OutForChange
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

    I want to start again.

    Someone help me...
    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    Yes, I used to. I did it before

    but not always and it wasn't that bad and I really want to hurt myself :3 got the blade ready but I'm ******** out.
    deleted deleted
    Apr 4, 2015

    I hate everything & everyone.

    I'm tired of people in school. I miss my sister (she died) & I miss my dad (he left me). I hate being alive. I just wanna kill myself.
    AutumnHaze AutumnHaze
    18-21, F
    Mar 3, 2014

    Grade 7 till this October (grade 12) I self

    harmed , My thighs are covered with scars as are my arms , I love my scars . Cutting made me happy , cutting made me calm when I would cry , I am seven months clean from selfharm and I hate it , I wish my skin was still covered in cuts , yes I hated the way everyone looked at...
    brookieboo8090 brookieboo8090
    18-21, F
    May 12, 2014

    I Think Im Going To Start Again..

    I self harmed from year 11 til the end of year 12, I was constantly bullied to the point where i did not go to school, i started doing drugs and drinking at night and during school, i self harmed at school too. I didnt have a good relationship with mum either during school. I...
    jaislade93 jaislade93
    May 22, 2011
    frozenkisses21 frozenkisses21
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2014

    I know it's better that I have stopped cutting

    but I miss the feeling of it. The relieving feeling of using a blade and cutting. Seeing the blood just makes me know I'm alive and is like a wake up. It made/makes me feel like it just flushes out all the bad stuff. Uggghhhh I hate that I even ever started but I guess it's just...
    jess965 jess965
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2015

    ❗️ my be trigging ❗️I have self-harmed

    in about 7-8weeks and I'm finding it harder and harder. I miss that blade going throw my skin and the blood dripping off me. I have scars head too toe and that trigging in its self. 🔪💀
    leon789 leon789
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 18, 2014

    I have been clear for 6 months now

    but I keep wanting to do it again. I have been wanting to do it for 2 weeks now but have managed to not do it
    ShadowWolf01 ShadowWolf01
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2014

    So stressed with work,

    I thought about doing it last night. can barely sleep. I'm exhausted and tired of no one seeing the pain I'm in. I've gotten good at hiding it.
    darkalice24 darkalice24
    26-30, F
    Mar 6, 2015

    I highly recommend you to read this http://m.

    wikihow.com/Stop-Self-Harming Even if you think that it's bullsh*t.
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    16-17, F
    Jan 24, 2016

    Yay.... I've haven't self harmed

    for a good 3 days now. Its been really really hard with all the crap I've been dealing with lately. But when I eventually succumb to my knife, it will be waiting in my room, under my bed.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    I get that because lately it has been my

    stomach again. Most if it can be because I have been loosing weight and besides some stretch marks I look good. But because of where I work I have to have my hands and feet. So the only option is my bellybutton. But that is my mind in control of me not my mind in control of it
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    Mar 2, 2014

    my older sister has a cat

    and she scratch me. I want to self harm again. it felt so good
    19BiGirl 19BiGirl
    18-21, F
    Feb 10, 2016

    I used to self harm a lot,

    but I had to stop because I was taken to a psychiatry and was there for six months, but even that didn't help me. I get high a lot now to "release" my stress but I want to harm myself so bad again.
    Melaniebitxh Melaniebitxh
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2014
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