I Struggle to Be Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 607 People

    Another Thought

    Being here for so many years and many years having passed in my life, reflecting back I regret so many things… maybe if I would have been a different person I wouldn’t have been so lonely today, maybe I would actually have some friends who I consider close, maybe I wouldn’t...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    Mar 5, 2012

    Bah

    For the last few days I've been feeling so, so happy, I'm not sure why to be honest, it's just like nothing's gone horribly wrong recently I guess haha.. School's going well for once, I'm getting good grades.. well I usually do, but I've actually been bothering to turn up to :D...
    TheBlimey TheBlimey
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 5, 2008

    I Just Need Someone To Guide Me.

    Ive recently been struggling a lot lately. Ive been with the same guy for two years! He is great, loveable, passionate, the whole package. I work at a hotel, and one day a guy came in and I couldnt help myself. I immediately fell in love. Nothing has ever came of it. We talk...
    missywithprobs missywithprobs
    22-25
    1 Response Oct 28, 2012

    Everyday Is a Struggle

    I struggle to be happy, I struggle not to feel sorry for myself, I struggle not to let my mental and physical illnesses totally take over my life.  Sometimes I just want to give up, and give in to the darkness that is always there at the corner of my personality.  I...
    keyna keyna
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 31, 2008

    I am so depressed. All I want to do is lay in

    bed.. It's my birthday this weekend too not like anyone cares much
    walkinwonder walkinwonder
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    instant insight into all areas of life such as Love, Finances, past, present, future and will give you a detailed look into your relationships. And what your lover is feeling & thinking right now! As well as all other areas of your life.
    PsychicAnna PsychicAnna
    56-60, F
    Apr 15, 2014

    I Should Be Happy

    From the outside my life looks perfect. Great guy who loves me, three beautiful kids. Yet everyday I wake up feeling trapped and hopeless. A year ago I didn't feel like this. I felt lucky and blessed. I don't know what happened. I have zero patience with my kids, I have no...
    diggingaditch diggingaditch
    41-45
    1 Response Apr 20, 2013

    Today was another struggle.

    It's like everything I do has a negative twist on it. If I am having fun, all my mind thinks about is how it will be over soon. Things that use to be fun and happy no longer are since my depression worsened. Now I do not even have the motivation to try and do things that make me...
    Alexz72 Alexz72
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2015

    I deal with extremely difficult depression,

    you kids and your sadness over a breakup or fighting w parents make me laugh...anybody w real issues want to talk? Finding a loved one dead, seeing somebody shot to death? Dealing w major PTSD, I don't wish to speak w people who are upset about their Mom not buying their...
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    Jul 12, 2014

    Struggle to be happy?

    I don't think I even know what happiness is or what it feels like. I'm just so tired of living...of dealing with so many ongoing health issues, dealing with family crisis...one after another...even though I live thousands of miles away...dealing with past traumas and the...
    HelenBak HelenBak
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2014

    Haven't been on here in awhile.

    ..not sure what I need but I'm feeling extra suicidal this morning ( def not the hotline number, go **** yourself w that ****) no one can help...the only good friends are dead...my family abuses me to the point that I wanna do something insaneeeeee
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

    Ya Its True

    i have learned to accept a lot and be happy with the simple things in life. i have appreiciated them because it seems like my life is always a struggle so when im content which doesn't take much im happy but it never lasts. like for example i found a man i truly love and we...
    frosti frosti
    31-35, F
    4 Responses May 4, 2008

    Just A Crap Poem

    Yet another sleepless night, Waking up, Gasping for air, Scared, Of what might be lurking there, Lurking in the darkness, Lurking in the shadows, Lurking in what we consider the unknown, Yet more regret to add to my list, Maybe I made another wrong choice, I’m so confused, So...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2012

    Happy Kid

    I believe that as a base, I'm happy, but the older I get the harder it is to remember that. Lately it is easy for me to become frustrated, or even have bouts of anger or extreme sadness for no apparent reason. I am battling this by surrounding myself with positive people...
    silvermoon silvermoon
    31-35
    Mar 24, 2008

    I don't know why but I've been thinking what

    would make me genuinely happy and I can't really come up with anything. It'd be nice to have more money but I know it wouldn't make me happy. I dunno i just feel so empty now a days
    smokebombtom smokebombtom
    22-25, M
    Feb 20, 2015

    I Struggle

    I struggle,I do indeed,Happiness,Eludes me,Don't know why,I try my best,Maybe it's because,Life ain't playin' ball!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Mar 28, 2012

    Pretend Through Suppression of My True Feelings

    Recently I read a self-help book that completely changed my outlook on life. But when I tried to apply it, I felt like I was being fake. I felt like I was lying about my true feelings and suppressing all the bad so that I could convince myself I was making progress. I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2008

    The Darkness

    The darkness, it follows me so Never leaving me a single minute alone, So hollow I feel, So alone I am, Please don't let the darkness get me, when I'm all alone again The darkness, it hurts me so, Always leaving me in my despair, Leaving me once again, all alone, Helpless...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    Mar 5, 2012

    Something really bad just happened

    and I'm ready to basically die at this point...I can't go on anymore I don't have the will to even get up ... I'm trying not to cut so I'm hurting myself in other ways . Everything is pointless everyone is a ******* *******....the abuse never stops
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    Oct 28, 2014
    emiveritas emiveritas
    22-25, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    I Can't Be Happy

    However hard I try I can never stay happy for long. I get overwhelmed by everything and everything brings me down. I don't think I am depressed or anything it's just I can never feel happy.
    neencools neencools
    13-15
    Mar 28, 2012

    I'm Just Getting So Tired Of Life...

    I’m kind of tired of it all, just waiting so long, so eagerly for it to all end. I always think I’m cured, think I can finally be happy only to come to realize I’m not. I’m just so depressed, I realized over this break from everything and everyone, that I really don’t...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2012

    I am feeling the urge to cut

    so badly ...I love to see blood flowing out of my arms it calms me
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    Aug 11, 2014

    Just Myself

    Just to be me and be accepted that way would be a dream.  To be happy in my own skin and my enviroment would be heaven to me.  For most of my life I've struggled with happiness.  I don't know if I really ever knew the definition or what it actually is, but I've...
    ann9265 ann9265
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2010

    Random Thoughts

    I can tell that things are getting worse but im just not sure what to do… I am yet again addicting to chatting online so I can avoid reality and forget it once more, I am starting to write depressing stories again and I often catch myself complaining about anything and...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    Mar 5, 2012

    I need to be happy. I really need.

    I know this too will pass but please allow my smile to appear from the heart. I need to fix my mind!
    lostguest lostguest
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 23, 2014

    Fighting My Worst Enemy: Myself

    I've been diagnosed with depression. Im pretty sure ive been depressed for as long as I can remember. My childhood impacted this...My mother abused me verbally and physically (by hitting me) and my father and mother constantly were fighting physically in front of my eyes. I used...
    kkkiss kkkiss
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 3, 2013

    I don't know where my next meal is going to

    come from. not to mention I feel horrible everyday I'm surrounded by very privileged people. there's gatta be more to life than treading water to survive
    undeniablyMe undeniablyMe
    26-30, F
    Feb 15, 2015

    Lost

    I'm becoming more tired than ever, growing old at a young age. Tolerance, and patience well out, I'm just so tired of it all, all alone at night. People always leaving me or staying and treating me like nothing more than dirt. No self respect, no self esteem, dignity, nothing...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2012
    XxscarsxX XxscarsxX
    18-21, F
    Oct 31, 2014

    Looking For Answers

    I'm 29, married, and have 3 kids. I put on a happy face for them and pretend everything is wonderful. Inside I struggle and wonder where I can find the energy for another day. I hide my sadness from everyone. It's getting harder to pretend. I wish I could find myself and be...
    crystalmarks1 crystalmarks1
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2011

    Happiness & Struggling

    Time flows constantly, it doesn't care about the people who are struggling or who's trying to be happy.
    Shishiro Shishiro
    22-25, F
    Aug 26, 2013

    I Can't Be Happy

    However hard I try I can never stay happy for long. I get overwhelmed by everything and everything brings me down. I don't think I am depressed or anything it's just I can never feel happy.
    neencools neencools
    13-15
    Mar 28, 2012

    Now people say " life is what you make it ".

    And yes I agree with this to a certain extent. But what if the cards you were dealt or your current situation is horrendous. I am homeless, I am hungry and I am not sure where I'll be sleeping tonight. I am a young, attractive(if I do say so myself),educated female-WHY ME?!Thank...
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    Oct 28, 2014

    I am clinically depressed

    and people just don't get it..."just be happy" they say and it's so frustrating! I would love more than anything to be happy.....most mornings I have to draggggg myself out of bed. And yes I take meds
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2014

    Regret The Life That Was Lived

    Regret, Sitting, All alone, In my room, Locked up, As though a caged animal I am, Regret, Talking, With those unknown, Me, Most vulnerable, Spread across my… rotten throne, Naked in the flesh, I lay, Sill, alone, helpless, At my most vulnerable, Those with the mask, Satisfied...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2012

    What To Do, What To Do

    I don’t really know what to do, I think I just want to keep to myself more. I share what I’m thinking but it all just comes out completely wrong, then I realize it’s wrong so I try to explain more but it all just comes out so completely wrong, I don’t know what to do. I...
    tigra139 tigra139
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2012

    But something I did discover is

    that Harry Styles face makes me happy when I'm sad and calm when I'm angry. I don't exactly know *why* but it just does. ( ._.)
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog
    70+, F
    Oct 15, 2014

    There was a time when i had

    so much good energy inside of me and felt like i could vibes with a lot of people. I'll admit i never really had a lot of close friends coz im an awkward person. And i can count my real close friends on one hand. But it was my zest for life whilst i was single that i was content...
    trey3masons trey3masons
    26-30, M
    Jun 12, 2014

    I AM AN ALCOHOLIC AND IM SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF.

    .IVE TRIED AA A FEW YEARS AGO AND I FEEL IT DOESNT HELP..IM SCARED
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    Happiness Is Weird And Ephemeral And I Don't Understand Why I Am

    I've been depressed for three years or so, and struggling to find a way to get my head above water. I don't like learning how to breath water, but I've been doing it.  I've done personal therapy and couples therapy and group therapy and Love Addiction meetings, and I guess...
    wundayatta wundayatta
    56-60, M
    1 Response May 16, 2010

    Don't Worry Be Happy :)

    Sometimes we all need a little encouragement, someone to assure us we can make it, today I am that person! Be Happy! Enjoy Life! You deserve it! Check out my web page: www.mygenewize.com/savannah . Let me know what you think!
    Savannah01 Savannah01
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2008
    chloe103 chloe103
    22-25, F
    Jan 6, 2014

    I just got married a month ago.

    I was single my whole life until then. Before...I used to look at couples so happy together, I felt so sad and alone. Many nights I wish I found the one to be with for life. What kept me going was the things I do to keep me busy. Lots of rock climbing, swimming and the gym...
    beedio beedio
    46-50, M
    Jan 31, 2014
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