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I Struggle With Addiction

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    Afraid...always Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    "Sometimes being drug free,

    has less to do with addiction, and more to do with sanity." ~To This Day, Shane Koyczan
    sumthinoriginal sumthinoriginal 16-17, F Jun 30, 2014

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    I have had panic attacks

    for as long as I can remember. A few years ago my doctor prescribed Ativan to quell the anxiety. I took them with no problem until earlier this year. They stopped working at my prescribed dosage so I started taking more. When that stopped working I took even more. I repeated...
    stl2nite stl2nite 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    I spent almost a year clean.

    I relapsed tonight and I don't know what to do with myself.
    britteller britteller 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2014

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    Step In, I Dare U

    I need help! I need my husband! I was only hospitalized barely a year ago; I feel like in the past 6 months I've been handed a whole new set of problems in addition to the issues I was already facing. I feel so alone! I can't just talk to Anybody about this... I finally, FINALLY...
    5mudg3 5mudg3 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    Little White Pills

    A few weeks ago I was majorly depressed, giving up on life ready to die. I had tried prescription pills before and I didn't feel it, but on a Saturday night I found 2 bottles and took them, I took a few that night a couple more the next morning, Monday came and I was doing the...
    Samster23 Samster23 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    Trying To Stay Clean

    Ive been using dugs for almost 20yrs and thats sad if you know my age but it was always around. Ilearned real early that i could make easy money by my father.(thats another story)but because of who my father was i got good resoures. So off i went if i could make money off it i...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    lol I'm not addict to drugs

    or anything but I loveeeeee corn starch
    GoldenJay GoldenJay 16-17, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 28 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 1 Response May 6, 2009

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    I'm a food addict. When I'm struggling with

    emotions, I turn to food. When I'm bored, I rely on food. This past week I did very well, reduced my calorie intake, and went to the gym for 2 hours a day. Today the stupidest things frustrated me, and instead processing my emotions, I found my wife's secret stash of...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    The moment you think you've got it,

    its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our experiences. This addiction is a war, we jumped in on the losing side, now we need to develop the tactics to overtake.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2014

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    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I would never admit it to people I actually know

    but I have known for a while that I have a problem. Its weird to talk about and I doubt anyone cares but I am going to talk about it anyways just because holding it in isnt better. My parents were teen parents when they had me and my brother. Of course like 70% of all teen...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    Since early teenage years I have had problems.

    Trying to commit suicide many times, I needed love and affection, so I had few boyfriends, they all slept over with my friends. So I have an idea stuck in my head that if you dont have sex with men, youre worthless. and then my crazy sex life began. I have had soo many night...
    neverneverknow neverneverknow 18-21, F Oct 19, 2014

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    Day 3 with no oxy... Using neurofen plus

    and 100mgs of tramadol to help with WDs.. So tired of being on this stuff! Enough is enough.
    honeybee86 honeybee86 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    I write this with my own experience in mind,

    I do not judge anyone yet I will 'preach' about how addiction can ruin your quality of life. I have struggled with opiates, but managed to stay free from them now for 2 years for that I should feel proud? Right? No it has just led to another addiction or rather what my...
    StepIntoMyOffice StepIntoMyOffice 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2014

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    I've always convinced myself

    that it was because I had coursework or needed to prepare for an exam, but the reason for my adderall addiction started before I'd even tried it. When I lost a bit of weight, I became instantly hooked to the comments about being thin. I began using adderall because my friend got...
    shmannabelle shmannabelle 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    So I suppose once you are addicted to something

    then you will always be addicted. The reasoning behind alcoholics staying away from bars or socializing with people who drink. The temptation is too much. The addiction I struggle with is ***********. I was introduced to it at a very young age and struggled understanding...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I have an addiction with nicotine

    and alcohol... I refuse to see a counselor because when I'm there I'll deny till the death of me
    youguyssuck69 youguyssuck69 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    If it ain't weed, it's cigs,

    no cigs? We go to food, no food? We starve ourself.
    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I have been addicted to opiates

    for almost two years now. It started with a surgery,then a series of surgeries and a car wreck. I do have issues with pain that justify taking them but i have accelerated over the years. The dosage the doctors suggest is not enough. I am struggling now to get off of them because...
    Emmigale Emmigale 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    Kicking The Addiction...

    I come from a long line of addicts. My father is an alcoholic and drug addict. My mother is a drug addict. My fathers father was an alcoholic and so was his father. I started smoking pot when I was 11 which my mother encouraged. I had my first drink when I was 9 that my dad let...
    Amy8675309 Amy8675309 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    My method for trying to ease my thoughts.

    Clearly I took the road of no return. Pity.
    whoscarlo5 whoscarlo5 18-21, M Nov 25, 2014

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 3 Responses May 4, 2007

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    LanniLette LanniLette 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    Lost All

    I used meth full on for the past 2 years. I thought i was strong enough to never let a drug controll my life. I was very wrong. It took ahold of my life bigtime. I hate that pipe but love it at the same time. Even after being off it for a mth. I had a beautiful life. Three boys...
    lysa351 lysa351 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Sobriety

    I haven't been counting the days but it must be almost two months since I've smoked any pot, and it's at least five years since i've been this sober. It's also nearly a month since I went off my anti-depressant medication, and I've cut back my alcohol intake by perhaps ninety...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 5, 2012

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    When I was little my mum used to give me drugs

    dunno why she just made me use them and after growing up with abuse and violence I started doing them a lot as a young teen and I'm now 17 and am still on them but it's ruining my life and I understand that I just carnt stop or I don't no who to talk to it's hurting the people...
    tomjimmy tomjimmy 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    I Wrote This Becouse I Can ...choice Is Life!!!

    I hope this strikes a chord or two.. love and strength today I'm down, those of you who see a smile In what I write will certainly see the raw pain and sadness that fills my lungs each time I breath , the tears that wash away the very words that heal , stalked by my hunger...
    eyecanbee1 eyecanbee1 36-40, M 3 Responses Feb 22, 2009

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    Saw this page and thought 'maybe im not an

    addict.' The truth is, I'm addicted to the internet. No matter how hard I try, I can't stop. No matter how much homework piles up, I procrastinate. I'm going to fail this school year. I've talked to a doctor during a regular check up and I need to be more active and eat more...
    louisrcac louisrcac 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    MissGorgeous MissGorgeous 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    Neurons123 Neurons123 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I struggle with anorexia

    and alway have this voice in my head saying I'm not skinny enough...
    butterflieana butterflieana 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    I am on methadone. I've been on the same dose

    for a few years. I am beginning to have problems with it. Withdrawal feelings. The doc raised my dose 5 mills but it doesn't seemed to be helping my situation. Oh well, I guess that's just the way it goes.
    bellaboo68 bellaboo68 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I constantly liked clowns at children's

    birthday parties. I have been out of jail because of it for 69 days
    HardGummyBear HardGummyBear 41-45, T 1 Response Jan 20

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    lonerbuddy lonerbuddy 13-15, F Aug 11, 2014

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    I struggle with an embarrassing addiction.

    .. I can't overcome it because it's my new stress relief tactic I don't know what to do
    DJasmineHawker DJasmineHawker 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    The Advice That Changed My Life :)

    My name's Aymen Ennazih, I'm 30 years old, 10 years ago, I was a member of a basketball team in high school, I loved hanging out and partying with my friends. I drank alcohol, because it was all around me, Everyone was doing it, At every party everywhere I went, it was the norm...
    AmineIglesias AmineIglesias 26-30, M Oct 1, 2012

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