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I Struggle With Addiction

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    Really Struggling........

    i have tears running down my face and my head is pounding, my foot is shaking......i wanna smoke so bad, and the bad part is i have NO ONE to talk me from taking this $20 and gettin a bag. i feel so alone, all these little issues:the kids being so loud, finding out that someone...
    shaunn shaunn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    nataliemedic nataliemedic 31-35, F Dec 16, 2014

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    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I have a very addictive personality.

    I have had many struggles with drugs and alcohol and have always replaced addictions rather than recover. The first drug I took was ecstacy at the age of 13. After about a year of taking this about 4 times a week I stopped only to replace it with cannabis and alcohol. I have...
    Facethedemons Facethedemons 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    How does one go about revealing an addiction?

    I want to reveal mine, and get help. But I don't know how to reach out. I'm a lost soul. I want and need friends who will support me. I always keep to myself and don't even know where I would begin. I feel very alone. Trapped. Does anyone else feel this way. I don't know where...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 2

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    Little White Pills

    A few weeks ago I was majorly depressed, giving up on life ready to die. I had tried prescription pills before and I didn't feel it, but on a Saturday night I found 2 bottles and took them, I took a few that night a couple more the next morning, Monday came and I was doing the...
    Samster23 Samster23 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    I have a weird addiction with baby powder

    that I can't control every time I'm stressed or depressed even mad I eat it sometimes even snort it I'm trying to break it but it's so hard
    blaackroses blaackroses 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    i struggle with a K2/spice/legal high addiction.

    for around 2 years i use everyday. from waking up, to passing out, I would be totally out of it. I have no been clean for around 2 years and I still feel the crave as much as i did back then. i dare not take painkillers as i fear i'll become dependant and just swap one for...
    scottdominic94 scottdominic94 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    Today I popped a few pills again.

    It's something I haven't done in months. I'm trying not to give into it again. It's way harder than people think. But I have no reason to whine. I'll shut up now.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Cash in ur hand is a curse,

    it's a one way ticket to a hearse, after 20 yrs of grind tell you first on mind is that cash in my hand is a curse, You can hypnotise ******* n show them ur riches, thinking in ur own mind they love you, after all of the parties n bullshit I've found, all of them put cash above...
    gingerstone gingerstone 31-35, M Feb 9

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    I am addicted to anything I start.

    I have been addicted to **** since I was 13 years old, I have been addicted to video games so much that for 5 years I only left my house to go to work and pick up dinner. I would play for 8 to 12 hours a day. I am addicted to chatting with people. That is all I ever want...
    Somonkey76 Somonkey76 36-40, M Jun 25

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 30 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    Recently, ive quit a five year addiction,

    I had been swallowed up into this hole of no company, no friends, the people i knew? thieves, robbery and deceit were all these people knew. I separated myself, me and my partner. Alone, we had no one, our family knew and still know nothing, our addiction took over us.. You see...
    LifeChangedMe LifeChangedMe 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    This addiction isn't ok ,

    it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're scars start to fade , you end up longing for the blade , to let your Demond's out , I'm having withdrawals . It's kinda...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    I'm tired of being this person.

    This person with so much potential yet so much darkness. I'm tired of burdening others with my unfortunates. I want to be strong. I want to not be an addict.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Okay so I've had an opiate addiction

    for years. I took the plunge and decided to do the suboxone program. I started it today, and it's helped me an unreal amount. however I'm supposed to take my dose twice today though, and my first dose was this morning. I still feel almost high from it. Should I wait to dose...
    millemme millemme 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12

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    This is an journal entry I wrote back in

    September of 2014 but I felt I should share it on here. Day 1 12 September 2014 Today is day 1 of my journey to overcome addiction. For years I’ve fought and fell, fought and fell. This time is going to be different though. Today is special, 14 years ago I joined...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I have a serious problem with cocaine,

    and I need to stop. Can any one share a story of recovery with me please..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Whoever says that self-harm cannot be an

    addiction, I want to look them all in the eyes and tell them my story. 6 years on and off, after many times of trying and failing to quit, I'm now at my 4th month and 24th day. Each day, each minute, each second, I didn't do it, yes it was a victory, but a struggle as well...
    sqirshyfuzzball sqirshyfuzzball 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Step In, I Dare U

    I need help! I need my husband! I was only hospitalized barely a year ago; I feel like in the past 6 months I've been handed a whole new set of problems in addition to the issues I was already facing. I feel so alone! I can't just talk to Anybody about this... I finally, FINALLY...
    5mudg3 5mudg3 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    I've been struggling with addiction

    for the past 3 years and I hope that many others can relate to me. I was finally able to stay sober at the beginning of August but that was short lived. I relapsed and used for 2 weeks. I am now, however, sober as I type this and I've been sober for the past 2 days. I am feeling...
    creaturefromanothertime creaturefromanothertime 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    I have been smoking cigarettes

    for about a month now but maybe once a day or sometimes only one every 3 days. Lately I have been craving them so badly, I have one and I just think about it over and over but I feel like I just want it but not need it, but I might need it because I want to have it to feel relax...
    xoValentina xoValentina 18-21, F 4 Responses May 5

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    Been a while since my last post maybe half a

    year but im at my lowest low again. If anyone feels the same way reach out to me
    Aaronvx Aaronvx 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I reeaaaallllly need to get rid of an addiction

    but cant, someone PLEASE help me???
    gracebxox gracebxox 16-17, F 10 Responses May 4

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 1 Response May 6, 2009

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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    my addiction is too strong.

    i can't control it. and worse...it feels so good part of me don't want to stop. i need help
    jojape1995 jojape1995 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 16

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    When I was in 6th grade we had the D.

    A.R.E program, but when I was in the 6th grade, drugs had already taken control of my life. I started drinking at a young age. I'm not gonna say pot is a gateway drug, but when I was twelve I was smoking it. When I got tired of pot I started experiencing with pills (swallowing...
    Godheals0328 Godheals0328 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    So I suppose once you are addicted to something

    then you will always be addicted. The reasoning behind alcoholics staying away from bars or socializing with people who drink. The temptation is too much. The addiction I struggle with is ***********. I was introduced to it at a very young age and struggled understanding...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 31-35, M Jan 19

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    Started taking Opiates

    when I was 14 and was never addicted just did drugs occasionally to unwind. Few years later and I've struggled with opiate addiction ever since. A few years ago I made the awful choice to trying Heroin and have been a full-blown addict since the first time. I've been clean 6...
    AyeJay6 AyeJay6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    If it ain't weed, it's cigs,

    no cigs? We go to food, no food? We starve ourself.
    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I literally can not stop thinking about doing

    heroin but my boyfriend is sober. I recently had a relapse and nearly lost everything in the matter of two weeks. I really wanna relapse though and my mind is consumed by heroin till the point where i wanna use or blow my brains out. Idk what to do
    Fixin23 Fixin23 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 10

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    Trying To Stay Clean

    Ive been using dugs for almost 20yrs and thats sad if you know my age but it was always around. Ilearned real early that i could make easy money by my father.(thats another story)but because of who my father was i got good resoures. So off i went if i could make money off it i...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    I'm a food addict. When I'm struggling with

    emotions, I turn to food. When I'm bored, I rely on food. This past week I did very well, reduced my calorie intake, and went to the gym for 2 hours a day. Today the stupidest things frustrated me, and instead processing my emotions, I found my wife's secret stash of...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Day 3 with no oxy... Using neurofen plus

    and 100mgs of tramadol to help with WDs.. So tired of being on this stuff! Enough is enough.
    honeybee86 honeybee86 22-25, F Dec 18, 2014

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    my addiction is pretty different its a coping

    mechanism I use being extremely flexible I suck myself yes I have the ability to suck myself I do it because of my past problems and it did develop into an addiction but its an addiction I actually like. It's good on the abs and to answers questions isnt it uncomfortable or...
    nronic1 nronic1 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    Mine are self harm, starving myself,

    and sex. Being a sex addict doesn't sound all that bad, and sometimes I can work with it, but I can be such a huge ***** and it's really embarrassing :/
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I struggle with an addiction that's pretty

    overwhelming yet embarrassing... I have tried to overcome it but unfortunately I can't
    yourxworstxblessing yourxworstxblessing 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 18

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    I can't go 24 hours without taking my sleeping

    pills, weather I am going to sleep or not, its like I need them to get through the day, and its really hard, when I go so long without taking them, my hands shake, idk if it is because i just have got use to having them in my system, or what it is. I feel like, they are the one...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    I lost my 14 year old brother

    when i was 15 due to long term use of Methylphenidate. Aka Ritalin. Prescribed never abused. Ive been obsessed with pharmaceuticals ever since and i blame the docs and rx companies. They wanted to "practice" medicine, ok ?? lets practice.
    rehtaehssim rehtaehssim 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I was an addict and have been clean 4 years.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, please feel free to contact me if you want to talk, need advice, support, or encouragement. I've been where you've been and getting clean IS possible!
    alwaysfaithful13 alwaysfaithful13 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 29