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I Struggle With Addiction

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    My Addiction To Synthetic Marijuana (K2/Spice)

    This is a post from my blog, where you can read the fully hyperlinked version: http://elishebaruth.blogspot.com/2013/11/my-addiction-to-synthetic-marijuana.html My other posts have given more details surrounding the issue of my addiction. In this post I specifically want to talk...
    ElishebaRuth ElishebaRuth 51-55, T 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I am trying to live a healthier life!

    I use marajuana and smoke
    StrongFeirce StrongFeirce 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2013

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    Kicking The Addiction...

    I come from a long line of addicts. My father is an alcoholic and drug addict. My mother is a drug addict. My fathers father was an alcoholic and so was his father. I started smoking pot when I was 11 which my mother encouraged. I had my first drink when I was 9 that my dad let...
    Amy8675309 Amy8675309 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    Will I Ever Get Out Of This Hole Im I In..

    Im 22 yrs old in been addicted to meth since i was 18 ..on in off ..when i was young i was the one who said i would never do drugs ..and now look at me now ..i struggle with this addiction everyday ..they say once you get tht high youll be wanting more ..i didnt believe those...
    smilie4awhilie91 smilie4awhilie91 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    I'm Known As The Beautiful Party Animal That Loves Life...But No One Knows My Real Struggle

    I'm the first to admit i love having fun, going out, and taking party drugs to enhance my time (MDMA, cocaine, LSD, n my fave, marijuana) but i also am using to cope. Life isn't going exactly the way i planned( guess it never.does) but I'm not dealing with it well. This past yr n...
    Wildandfree22 Wildandfree22 22-25 1 Response Sep 9, 2013

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    It started when I was younger.

    .. The abusing narcotics and cutting ... Guess the pain of loosing my father and having an emotionally unavailable mother really took a toll on my life. I can stay clean for a while... Weeks.. Even months at a time .. Yet somehow I find myself back on this merry go round of...
    LookingForMyAngel LookingForMyAngel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Relapsed

    I use to smoke a lot of meth and pop pain pills and xanax like candy, but the past three months I have been almost completely clean aside from weed or some shrooms/LSD. Now I've discovered Ketamine and I've been in a haze ever since. How does one go about living life sober? I...
    TheJungle TheJungle 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    The Advice That Changed My Life :)

    My name's Aymen Ennazih, I'm 30 years old, 10 years ago, I was a member of a basketball team in high school, I loved hanging out and partying with my friends. I drank alcohol, because it was all around me, Everyone was doing it, At every party everywhere I went, it was the norm...
    AmineIglesias AmineIglesias 26-30, M Oct 1, 2012

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 2 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Using At Every Turn

    My life has finally came to a grinding hault. I'm addicted to crack and I can't stop using. I have no clue whats going on, I can't hold money, my thinking is all messed up (insane) and I don't want to live anymore. I hate the things I do and the people I hurt. I really hate me...
    hjohn10 hjohn10 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 1, 2013

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    I have been "experimenting" with some form of

    drug since I was about 14. at 19 it just escalated to harder drugs, more frequently. I have quit one thing and started another more times then I can count. I have broken my own heart more times then I can count. I am so sick of my addictions controlling every part of my world...
    dani2005 dani2005 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    Yeah......My Story....

    in rehab by 17......10 years sober, active in recovery.....relapse.....5 years sober, going to meetings....last 4 years, chronic relapse/binge drinking....obviously, there's a whole lot more in between.... i know i need to stay stopped, i know there's a better way, recovery has...
    jtho jtho 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    My Addiction Pt 2

    Its been little over a year now and still having a battle with my addiction with marijuana. My therapist and my psychiatrist wants me to give it up. I don't. I enjoy smoking marijuana and I hate to give it up. Yet I want to use my money for something else than drugs. Its a...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Oct 24, 2013

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    What To Do...

    I've been sober off of everything for a year and 4 months now but last weekend I got drunk. I feel terrible but at the same time I'm 20 and alcohol wasn't my problem. I feel stuck, should I confess to someone or forget about it?
    lostincali20 lostincali20 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2013

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    I'M An Addict

    all my life i've had addictions. starting at age 9, addicted to pills. age 13, addicted to cutting(continues). age 14, addicted to adderall(15 60mg pills a day). and 15, addicted to more pills and computer cleaner. by age 16 i was doing 20 cans of computer cleaner in a night, the...
    Spilled Spilled 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    Not Drugs Or Alcohol

    It may seem odd to hear, and many of you with substance addictions will probably discount it, but my addiction is behavioral.  I love panties and femininity.  I love to cross-dress.  I sometimes feel powerless.  I want to change, but I can't.  We are between regular jobs...
    AFeminineGuy AFeminineGuy 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 16, 2012

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    I Can't Shake My Demons.

    I am just so tired of myself. I am tired of my own train of thought and I am tired of my mind. I just need a break from myself, ya know? I started smoking weed about fifteen years ago when I was 14. Even then, I seemed to know that something was wrong and I was searching for...
    demonhunter77 demonhunter77 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 17, 2013

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    I am addicted to legal amphetamines

    or party pills, I take whatever I can get my hands on, almost every day, it helps me live in a normal state of mind....I'm not sure if this is a bad thing for me.
    sungod2010 sungod2010 22-25 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    Here Is Practical Explanation About Next Life, Purpose Of Human Life, Philosophical/Religious Facts, Theories Etc.

    ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what- what you have thought and done on every single second ) can you...
    Haribol2332 Haribol2332 22-25, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Trying To Stay Clean

    Ive been using dugs for almost 20yrs and thats sad if you know my age but it was always around. Ilearned real early that i could make easy money by my father.(thats another story)but because of who my father was i got good resoures. So off i went if i could make money off it i...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    TV Casting

    TRUE LIFE: I’M ADDICTED TO PILLS Are you someone who will go to any means necessary to get prescription pills? Were you diagnosed with a medical or mental condition that started you off on legitimate doses of meds but now your pill popping has gone well beyond what the doctor...
    tvgirlcasting tvgirlcasting 22-25, F May 1, 2013

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    I Wrote This Becouse I Can ...choice Is Life!!!

    I hope this strikes a chord or two.. love and strength today I'm down, those of you who see a smile In what I write will certainly see the raw pain and sadness that fills my lungs each time I breath , the tears that wash away the very words that heal , stalked by my hunger...
    eyecanbee1 eyecanbee1 36-40, M 3 Responses Feb 22, 2009

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    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I Cant Do It

    people should really stop judging especially when they dont know what others been through. ive been abused hurt and in pain. yeah, i take drugs sometimes to cope with the pai. others dont understand why i do. it makes me feel good, alive and amazing. it makes me not feel, and i...
    Xxhurtepainxx Xxhurtepainxx 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 24 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    Blessing Turned Curse.

      Ever since I was young I was an incredibly hyperactive child, I was hyper-sensitive and unable to concentrate and as a result of this I felt stupid and embarrassed when my primary school teachers became so frustrated when I wouldn’t listen, didn’t co-operate...
    jesscar jesscar 16-17 3 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I struggle with an addiction towards something.

    I've tried various possible way to stop but fail. Any suggestion on how to control addiction? Generally
    Bonesrythm Bonesrythm 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Addictions Undecided Ending

    Was it ever serious? Am I glad it's over? Is it really over? I don't know It's been about a month sense I last used ANYTHING! I tell people its easy. But it's not. All I want is to spark up a joint, snort some coke, dance with Molly, have some ******* tequila, hell at this...
    MusicalBatman MusicalBatman 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Sobriety

    I haven't been counting the days but it must be almost two months since I've smoked any pot, and it's at least five years since i've been this sober. It's also nearly a month since I went off my anti-depressant medication, and I've cut back my alcohol intake by perhaps ninety...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 5, 2012

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    Here's A Poem I Wrote A Few Months Before I Broke My Four Years Of Sobriety.

    Night falls and I find myself In my most hated place. These thoughts envelope my psyche, so damaged by a lifetime of mistakes. Those drugs... I prescribed them to myself to ease the hatred. It burns like a cleansing fire. And the drink? I so foolishly thought it would extinguish...
    demonhunter77 demonhunter77 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 3 Responses May 4, 2007

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    Step In, I Dare U

    I need help! I need my husband! I was only hospitalized barely a year ago; I feel like in the past 6 months I've been handed a whole new set of problems in addition to the issues I was already facing. I feel so alone! I can't just talk to Anybody about this... I finally, FINALLY...
    5mudg3 5mudg3 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    Afraid...always Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    My Husband Is Addicted To Snorting Pills

    i have found out my husband is snorting any kid of pain pill he can find opana er roxy lorect anything i have just read what the opana er does to people im very scared for his health he told me he would slow down and stop but he has lied to me so many times about pills that i...
    tinjrry tinjrry 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 21

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    Addictive Personality

    I have the unfortunate trait of having the potential to be addicted to anything that helps me avoid my emotions. I have been addicted to drugs, sex, food, alcohol. Addiction runs in my family. I always said as a kid I would never drink or use drugs, because I saw what it did to...
    GalileosFinger GalileosFinger 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Really Struggling........

    i have tears running down my face and my head is pounding, my foot is shaking......i wanna smoke so bad, and the bad part is i have NO ONE to talk me from taking this $20 and gettin a bag. i feel so alone, all these little issues:the kids being so loud, finding out that someone...
    shaunn shaunn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    Now You Won't Struggle, Because Your Life Will Be Better

    Money can be an issue for your dream . I wanted to be a dentist and I had to give up because of financial problem. However, now i can achieve my dream!! Because I took this opportunity and i know how it is like to taste your success. I don't think it's fair for people who are...
    yilinxx yilinxx 18-21, F Sep 21, 2013

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    Shaky

    Eyes that never close.  Jittery heart beats.  Anxious to face the real world.  Peace is her only wish.  Paranoia at its most elegant. As she sits on a leather throne  Surrounded by saints and judges.  With a false appearance of calm.  Any day could be her last. 
    Alissabella Alissabella 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 12, 2013

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    My Vice

    I struggle with an addiction to ****. It's hard for me to find people to talk to because only a small percentage of women are addicts. To make it even worse I am Christian and I don't want to be judged for something most people never really address. People will look at me...
    tarbear1210 tarbear1210 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    1yr

    1 year clean for me now....well meaning off of meth. I have struggled with addiction since I was little starting drinking at 9 pot at 11 and cigarettes. Pills at 15 coke shrooms at 16 and uppers and downers after that. One year xlean and I am so proud because other then the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    My BF Fell Off The Wagon

    I am furious. Not because he fell off the wagon, but because he preached to me about drinking. I got off all my psych meds which took a major effort on my part. I quit drinking and I was feeling good about myself. Everything was looking good. I was feeling better than it had...
    BuddyBo BuddyBo 56-60, F Jun 9, 2013

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    My Addiction Problem

    I'm addicted to marijuana. I started doing this 10 years ago when I was married. My husband gave me drugs, and forbade me to tell anyone. Not even a therapist or a doctor. I also dabbled in crystal Meth then. But I didn't care for it. I smoked marijuana for two years,and quit...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Nov 18, 2012

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    Spending...

    My addiction is spending and over the years i got us in to a lot of debt because of it. We are now with a debt company who pays off our debt a little at a time but we still owe a lot and it probably take forever to pay of our debts but does it stop me from spending? Ha of course...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Oct 23, 2013

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    mistydawnn mistydawnn 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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    I have struggled with a eating disorder for the last 5 years. I thought once i got to my "goal" weight i would stop and life would go on. Every time i reached my "goal" i would say...
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    I recently got charged with a dui and Although I am grateful I did not hurt anyone or myself, I am beginning to really struggle with the mistake I made and the aftermath it has...
    anonymously3737 anonymously3737 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 21

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    It sounds really dumb, but I struggle with communicating my feelings and problems with others, even friends and family. Why? I guess part of it is forming a mindset that I am...
    niknak7 niknak7 16-17, F Mar 24

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