I Struggle With Addiction

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    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3

    Sobriety can be lonely

    as fuuck. I've been clean 5 months after almost a decade of alcohol and drug abuse. I am so indescribably grateful for how far I've come and all I've gained. but letting go of everyone from my past, coping with the real world, trying to learn how to meet people sober, figuring...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Dec 12, 2015

    Lost All

    I used meth full on for the past 2 years. I thought i was strong enough to never let a drug controll my life. I was very wrong. It took ahold of my life bigtime. I hate that pipe but love it at the same time. Even after being off it for a mth. I had a beautiful life. Three boys...
    lysa351 lysa351
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

    How does one go about revealing an addiction?

    I want to reveal mine, and get help. But I don't know how to reach out. I'm a lost soul. I want and need friends who will support me. I always keep to myself and don't even know where I would begin. I feel very alone. Trapped. Does anyone else feel this way. I don't know where...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 2, 2015

    Ruined my Christmas. Family brought over

    alcohol to celebrate and once again I apparently can't even be around the stuff without taking it too far. My sister brought over ingredients for a coconut based drink called Coquito that I had mentioned on Thanksgiving. She mixed plenty of rum in it, but I couldn't taste it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    I have been clean from opiates

    for 11 years. If you need to talk with someone who understands. pm me
    papabear4 papabear4
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Feb 27

    I am addicted to PMO.

    It is a nasty habit and it is affecting my life. I am currently in bed, laying next to my beautiful wife and instead of sleeping or just snuggling her, I'm indulging my own addiction. I go to work late almost everyday because I'm getting a "fix". I can't seek help because I don...
    RichieRoo5 RichieRoo5
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 30

    Addicted to cheesecake,

    I can't help myself... ??
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 22

    I can't even began to describe how awesome my

    life is off meth! I am having so much fun being an active participant in the lives of my children. It's amazing! I am becoming the mom I always wished I had been!
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 23

    Just One actress navel

    and armpit pic is enough to tempting me then what ************ only,,,,south Indians fate ************ on navel pics
    v1k1 v1k1
    22-25
    Jan 22

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3

    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 4, 2007

    It's been almost 4 months

    since I've been clean from meth. In the last 4 months I've traveled I took a vacation with my oldest son to Oregon and another one to Vegas. I've taken my youngest bowling, to Christmas towns to ride the toboggans and we seen several movies at the theatre and we've eaten out...
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 17

    Sometimes I just don't know

    when to say "No." Even when I know that is what I should be saying I just don't seem to be able to do it even if I know I am being sucked in.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 6

    dec.14 i have been clean

    for 11years. it has not been easy at times. i am willing to try and belp anyone out. so if u want to talk . pm me
    papabear4 papabear4
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2015
    Cloudmaster50 Cloudmaster50
    13-15, M
    1 Response Jan 21

    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Feb 21, 2014

    This is not street drugs,

    this is not alcohol. My addiction is caffeine. And yes I know, its very common and usually doesn't effect people much. But I will a skull splitting migraine without it, followed by a strange, full body spasm not unlike a Turret's tick...It happens when I'm sleep deprived even...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    Just One actress navel

    and armpit pic is enough to tempting me then what ************ only,,,,south Indians fate ************ on navel pics
    v1k1 v1k1
    22-25
    2 Responses Jan 22

    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

    Mine is cutting, I'm trying

    so hard to quit but every time I get far enough I just can't take it anymore… I feel bad because I know it could be affecting someone else but I can't seem to break the habit… I need the numbness from it
    love11915 love11915
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 24

    Today has been rough.

    I'm a recovering drug addict and have been clean since 2009. I had a minor surgery installing a heart monitor yesterday afternoon and have been fighting through the pain in order not to touch the pain meds the doc gave me. The addict part of my brain is trying to justify...
    CainMarko CainMarko
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 27
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14

    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif
    51-55, M
    28 Responses Oct 22, 2010

    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

    Today is my 2 month anniversary from meth.

    It is getting harder each day. My biggest struggle right now is my house is a mess. I have so much clutter and I just want to not deal with it. I lazy. I hate that about myself today. The good far supersedes that but today I want to run away from my own mess!
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    I came out of rehab no longer

    than 2 months ago. My life is not better. Here is my story. I am 18 and drank weekly and used marijuana Dxm and even sank to huffing paint. I somehow managed to keep a 4.0 GPA in one of the hardest public schools in the country. After school I felt like I needed something...
    cvb989 cvb989
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 8

    Still clean everyone!

    Still easy being clean. I guess once your done it is easy to carry on. I am done. That's what I know for sure.
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 23

    Addicted to video games.

    .. I just can't seem to stop...
    MildImplosion MildImplosion
    16-17, M
    Jan 22

    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Nov 1, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 21

    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    soda caffeine is my greatest addiction.

    I've tried countless times to break it but I just can't get off of it
    Mike3569 Mike3569
    22-25, M
    Jan 22

    Well, it's Valentine's Day

    and I have spent most of the day, watching P on silent so my wife doesn't know I am watching it. She is here in the same room as me but on the other couch. I'm so turned on but she doesn't seem interested so I turn to P and excusing myself to the bathroom so I can release my...
    RichieRoo5 RichieRoo5
    31-35, M
    Feb 14

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31

    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne
    26-30, F
    27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

    My Vice

    I struggle with an addiction to ****. It's hard for me to find people to talk to because only a small percentage of women are addicts. To make it even worse I am Christian and I don't want to be judged for something most people never really address. People will look at me...
    tarbear1210 tarbear1210
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

    It's been one thing or another

    since I was 15; weed, vomiting, starving, cutting, amphetamines, benzos, never really liked opiates but those too, all kinds of other pills, tobacco products, and now it's booze in whatever form I can get my hands on. I can count on two hands how many nights I went to bed sober...
    Godlevel Godlevel
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 21

    I'm coming up on my third month clean from meth.

    I am so proud of myself. I feel good yet still fighting being lazy. The weight gain sucks but is much better than being on drugs. I am planning to start dieting soon. But for now I'm just trying to stay clean.
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 21

    The moment you think you've got it,

    its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our experiences. This addiction is a war, we jumped in on the losing side, now we need to develop the tactics to overtake.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

    Today I and 3 months

    and 8 days clean from Meth. I had a couple of dreams this weekend which are the first ones I've had since I quite. I was hoping I would miss out on the dreams all together. But no such luck. Regardless I am still moving forward and not allowing myself to change directions...
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Feb 3

    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10

    With EP on its way out I thought I would come

    back and update my story. End my time here where I'm at today.When I was 4 I was sexually molested and bullied by a cousin, in therapy I'm learning I have suppressed memories with other members of that family as well. After we moved and I was free of them, I was broken and my...
    Hellomyoldheart Hellomyoldheart
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 31
    eastorlandoneedman eastorlandoneedman
    22-25, M
    Mar 4

    I need advice, no bashing please.

    My brother got clean from shooting heroin about a year ago, but has recently started snorting it. He's on the verge of losing his fiancé & kids, if not his very life. He won't go to rehab, therapy or NA. I don't know how to help him overcome this.
    MommaNature MommaNature
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1

    I'm tired of being this person.

    This person with so much potential yet so much darkness. I'm tired of burdening others with my unfortunates. I want to be strong. I want to not be an addict.
    terriblefixations terriblefixations
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1

    I have been an addict

    for 22 years. 21 years ago it took my life. I Overdosed and woke up in the hospital without a clue. 3 weeks later I was hospitalized again but this time I found out that because of my" not treating my body well" that I was all of a sudden an insulin dependant DIABETIC! That's...
    jaygal23 jaygal23
    36-40, F
    Mar 21

    I am currently dieting with my family,

    we are cutting certain carbs, breads and sweet. . . My two addictions are sugar and caffeine. The artificial sweeteners, just do not do justice. I miss my breads, candy, real soda-pop. I try to drink water, but it is not enough.
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 1
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