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I Struggle With Addiction

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    beezylee29 beezylee29 26-30, M 5 Responses Dec 3, 2015

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    Sobriety can be lonely

    as fuuck. I've been clean 5 months after almost a decade of alcohol and drug abuse. I am so indescribably grateful for how far I've come and all I've gained. but letting go of everyone from my past, coping with the real world, trying to learn how to meet people sober, figuring...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 12, 2015

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    I am addicted to PMO.

    It is a nasty habit and it is affecting my life. I am currently in bed, laying next to my beautiful wife and instead of sleeping or just snuggling her, I'm indulging my own addiction. I go to work late almost everyday because I'm getting a "fix". I can't seek help because I don...
    RichieRoo5 RichieRoo5 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    The moment you think you've got it,

    its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our experiences. This addiction is a war, we jumped in on the losing side, now we need to develop the tactics to overtake.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Sobriety is a state of mind I cant fathom.

    Ive been high or drunk, or both for the past 7 years straight. I dont know another way to be. Im not particularly proud. Its not something I boast. I hide it well too given the fact that ive been high at job interviews, meetings, while at work, classes, family get together...
    LetsBeHonest LetsBeHonest 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 21

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    yeah yeah i was clean

    for a long time. then i wasnt. then i was. then i wasnt i dont even know
    insanitys insanitys 18-21, T 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I am currently dieting with my family,

    we are cutting certain carbs, breads and sweet. . . My two addictions are sugar and caffeine. The artificial sweeteners, just do not do justice. I miss my breads, candy, real soda-pop. I try to drink water, but it is not enough.
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    Alcohol... And sitting alone at at restaurant

    bar with no nagging husband or kids. I sip and enjoy. But I can't stop once I start and end up making a scene later and waking up hungover and late for work. It ****** my already pissed off husband and people at work talk. I drink because I love the first two drinks and the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 21

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    How does one go about revealing an addiction?

    I want to reveal mine, and get help. But I don't know how to reach out. I'm a lost soul. I want and need friends who will support me. I always keep to myself and don't even know where I would begin. I feel very alone. Trapped. Does anyone else feel this way. I don't know where...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 2, 2015

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    Today is my 2 month anniversary from meth.

    It is getting harder each day. My biggest struggle right now is my house is a mess. I have so much clutter and I just want to not deal with it. I lazy. I hate that about myself today. The good far supersedes that but today I want to run away from my own mess!
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    I am not sure though

    if I have a real problem or not. I lost my bottle of Ativan last week and haven't got anymore yet so I took a pain pill that I had here from a long time ago. I just wanted something to take the edge off and dull the emotional and mental pain. Before you judge me I am not a bad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    v1k1 v1k1 18-21 Jan 22

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    It's been one thing or another

    since I was 15; weed, vomiting, starving, cutting, amphetamines, benzos, never really liked opiates but those too, all kinds of other pills, tobacco products, and now it's booze in whatever form I can get my hands on. I can count on two hands how many nights I went to bed sober...
    Godlevel Godlevel 18-21 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    This is an journal entry I wrote back in

    September of 2014 but I felt I should share it on here. Day 1 12 September 2014 Today is day 1 of my journey to overcome addiction. For years I’ve fought and fell, fought and fell. This time is going to be different though. Today is special, 14 years ago I joined...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 31, 2015

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    Addicted to cheesecake,

    I can't help myself... ??
    AlcoholicStoner AlcoholicStoner 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 22

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    Cloudmaster50 Cloudmaster50 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    I've been struggling with addiction

    for the past 3 years and I hope that many others can relate to me. I was finally able to stay sober at the beginning of August but that was short lived. I relapsed and used for 2 weeks. I am now, however, sober as I type this and I've been sober for the past 2 days. I am feeling...
    creaturefromanothertime creaturefromanothertime 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    deadbyaprilpromiseme deadbyaprilpromiseme 31-35, F Jan 21

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    Today I and 3 months

    and 8 days clean from Meth. I had a couple of dreams this weekend which are the first ones I've had since I quite. I was hoping I would miss out on the dreams all together. But no such luck. Regardless I am still moving forward and not allowing myself to change directions...
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    Im 23 (24 in november)

    and I have been clean off of cocaine for 14 months now. What started as an occasional line whenever I was at a "friends" turned into 24 grams every 2 weeks for 4 years. I was, and know I still am, a functioning addict. She took my pain away. For A few hours I didn't have to feel...
    Valinat1 Valinat1 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 9, 2015

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Hello, i didn't know what else to do,

    i don't know who else i should talk to, so i decided to ask for your opinion, as i suppose you understand this situation. Okay so this is not about me, I'm writing this because i believe that a very good friend of mine developed a drug addiction - mainly psychological . He's...
    Cassandra1617 Cassandra1617 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    Hello! I am writing a book called "Occhiolism"

    and am took for people to interview. My goal is to gather as much great advice, experiences, thoughts, and perspectives as I can. If at all interested, please contact me.
    Occhiolism Occhiolism 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1, 2015

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    dec.14 i have been clean

    for 11years. it has not been easy at times. i am willing to try and belp anyone out. so if u want to talk . pm me
    papabear4 papabear4 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2014

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    Started taking Opiates

    when I was 14 and was never addicted just did drugs occasionally to unwind. Few years later and I've struggled with opiate addiction ever since. A few years ago I made the awful choice to trying Heroin and have been a full-blown addict since the first time. I've been clean 6...
    AyeJay6 AyeJay6 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 17, 2015

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    Sometimes I just don't know

    when to say "No." Even when I know that is what I should be saying I just don't seem to be able to do it even if I know I am being sucked in.
    TrannyHannah TrannyHannah 41-45, T 2 Responses Feb 6

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Addicted to video games.

    .. I just can't seem to stop...
    MildImplosion MildImplosion 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    Lost All

    I used meth full on for the past 2 years. I thought i was strong enough to never let a drug controll my life. I was very wrong. It took ahold of my life bigtime. I hate that pipe but love it at the same time. Even after being off it for a mth. I had a beautiful life. Three boys...
    lysa351 lysa351 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    When you sit there worrying about your

    addiction remember that it could be worse. Focus on what you have got. Not what you havent. Be happy you dont have more addictions. Be happy you don't have a terminal illness. Addiction is usually a sign of weakness and there is nothing to be ashamed of by being weak. These...
    BritishAndProud BritishAndProud 26-30, M Dec 9, 2015

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 4 Responses May 4, 2007

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 30 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    Ruined my Christmas. Family brought over

    alcohol to celebrate and once again I apparently can't even be around the stuff without taking it too far. My sister brought over ingredients for a coconut based drink called Coquito that I had mentioned on Thanksgiving. She mixed plenty of rum in it, but I couldn't taste it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    This is not street drugs,

    this is not alcohol. My addiction is caffeine. And yes I know, its very common and usually doesn't effect people much. But I will a skull splitting migraine without it, followed by a strange, full body spasm not unlike a Turret's tick...It happens when I'm sleep deprived even...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I had been doing so good.

    In the past I've overdosed 9 times. All of them lethal. One time I turned blue in the hospital room. One time I was slumped outside of my old middle school for 8 hours in the rain, face down in my vomit while my respiratory system was shutting down. I was at 14 days sober, spent...
    TannerDieppe TannerDieppe 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 3

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    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    soda caffeine is my greatest addiction.

    I've tried countless times to break it but I just can't get off of it
    Mike3569 Mike3569 22-25, M Jan 22

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    I'm coming up on my third month clean from meth.

    I am so proud of myself. I feel good yet still fighting being lazy. The weight gain sucks but is much better than being on drugs. I am planning to start dieting soon. But for now I'm just trying to stay clean.
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I suffer from addiction to pmo,

    i cant write that is, but if u know what that is then you know my struggle
    Cage03 Cage03 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    My Vice

    I struggle with an addiction to ****. It's hard for me to find people to talk to because only a small percentage of women are addicts. To make it even worse I am Christian and I don't want to be judged for something most people never really address. People will look at me...
    tarbear1210 tarbear1210 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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