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I Struggle With Addiction

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 3 Responses May 4, 2007

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    In this post, I want to share why

    and how I have finally stopped my video game addiction. First of all let me introduce myself, I am a normal student in a state university and currently in the 3rd year of studies. And the worst part is... I was a video game addict, a horrible one, I have played any kind of...
    rayx123 rayx123 18-21, M Feb 26

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    I have an addiction with nicotine

    and alcohol... I refuse to see a counselor because when I'm there I'll deny till the death of me
    youguyssuck69 youguyssuck69 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    This addiction isn't ok ,

    it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're scars start to fade , you end up longing for the blade , to let your Demond's out , I'm having withdrawals . It's kinda...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Since early teenage years I have had problems.

    Trying to commit suicide many times, I needed love and affection, so I had few boyfriends, they all slept over with my friends. So I have an idea stuck in my head that if you dont have sex with men, youre worthless. and then my crazy sex life began. I have had soo many night...
    neverneverknow neverneverknow 18-21, F Oct 19, 2014

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    I struggle with an embarrassing addiction.

    .. I can't overcome it because it's my new stress relief tactic I don't know what to do
    DJasmineHawker DJasmineHawker 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Today I popped a few pills again.

    It's something I haven't done in months. I'm trying not to give into it again. It's way harder than people think. But I have no reason to whine. I'll shut up now.
    DeadlyMuses DeadlyMuses 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 5

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    LanniLette LanniLette 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    lol I'm not addict to drugs

    or anything but I loveeeeee corn starch
    GoldenJay GoldenJay 16-17, F Nov 24, 2014

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    Little White Pills

    A few weeks ago I was majorly depressed, giving up on life ready to die. I had tried prescription pills before and I didn't feel it, but on a Saturday night I found 2 bottles and took them, I took a few that night a couple more the next morning, Monday came and I was doing the...
    Samster23 Samster23 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    MissGorgeous MissGorgeous 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2014

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    nataliemedic nataliemedic 31-35, F Dec 16, 2014

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    I spent almost a year clean.

    I relapsed tonight and I don't know what to do with myself.
    britteller britteller 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2014

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    my addiction is too strong.

    i can't control it. and worse...it feels so good part of me don't want to stop. i need help
    jojape1995 jojape1995 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 16

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    Really Struggling........

    i have tears running down my face and my head is pounding, my foot is shaking......i wanna smoke so bad, and the bad part is i have NO ONE to talk me from taking this $20 and gettin a bag. i feel so alone, all these little issues:the kids being so loud, finding out that someone...
    shaunn shaunn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    I have a serious problem with cocaine,

    and I need to stop. Can any one share a story of recovery with me please..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F Mar 24

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    Cash in ur hand is a curse,

    it's a one way ticket to a hearse, after 20 yrs of grind tell you first on mind is that cash in my hand is a curse, You can hypnotise ******* n show them ur riches, thinking in ur own mind they love you, after all of the parties n bullshit I've found, all of them put cash above...
    gingerstone gingerstone 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    Kicking The Addiction...

    I come from a long line of addicts. My father is an alcoholic and drug addict. My mother is a drug addict. My fathers father was an alcoholic and so was his father. I started smoking pot when I was 11 which my mother encouraged. I had my first drink when I was 9 that my dad let...
    Amy8675309 Amy8675309 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    This is an journal entry I wrote back in

    September of 2014 but I felt I should share it on here. Day 1 12 September 2014 Today is day 1 of my journey to overcome addiction. For years I’ve fought and fell, fought and fell. This time is going to be different though. Today is special, 14 years ago I joined...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    Saw this page and thought 'maybe im not an

    addict.' The truth is, I'm addicted to the internet. No matter how hard I try, I can't stop. No matter how much homework piles up, I procrastinate. I'm going to fail this school year. I've talked to a doctor during a regular check up and I need to be more active and eat more...
    Desvedia Desvedia 13-15, M 4 Responses Jan 20

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    I have been addicted to opiates

    for almost two years now. It started with a surgery,then a series of surgeries and a car wreck. I do have issues with pain that justify taking them but i have accelerated over the years. The dosage the doctors suggest is not enough. I am struggling now to get off of them because...
    Emmigale Emmigale 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    If it ain't weed, it's cigs,

    no cigs? We go to food, no food? We starve ourself.
    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Day 3 with no oxy... Using neurofen plus

    and 100mgs of tramadol to help with WDs.. So tired of being on this stuff! Enough is enough.
    honeybee86 honeybee86 22-25, F Dec 18, 2014

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    Mine are self harm, starving myself,

    and sex. Being a sex addict doesn't sound all that bad, and sometimes I can work with it, but I can be such a huge ***** and it's really embarrassing :/
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I struggle with anorexia

    and alway have this voice in my head saying I'm not skinny enough...
    butterflieana butterflieana 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    my addiction is pretty different its a coping

    mechanism I use being extremely flexible I suck myself yes I have the ability to suck myself I do it because of my past problems and it did develop into an addiction but its an addiction I actually like. It's good on the abs and to answers questions isnt it uncomfortable or...
    nronic1 nronic1 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    So I suppose once you are addicted to something

    then you will always be addicted. The reasoning behind alcoholics staying away from bars or socializing with people who drink. The temptation is too much. The addiction I struggle with is ***********. I was introduced to it at a very young age and struggled understanding...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M Jan 19

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    The Addiction Never Broken

    Each time it happens i feel horrible for doing it after the fact, anytime im alone, or anytime i get the chance to think i know what to say how to act and know that i can stand up and fight for what is on my mind, but when the time comes i curl up into a small ball and block out...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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    The moment you think you've got it,

    its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our experiences. This addiction is a war, we jumped in on the losing side, now we need to develop the tactics to overtake.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    My method for trying to ease my thoughts.

    Clearly I took the road of no return. Pity.
    whoscarlo5 whoscarlo5 18-21, M Nov 25, 2014

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    Afraid...always Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    I am trying to quit smoking

    but it's really difficult. It's also on the new year resolution list and I am determined to quit it this year.
    FallenAngelStar FallenAngelStar 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 1 Response May 6, 2009

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    I'm a food addict. When I'm struggling with

    emotions, I turn to food. When I'm bored, I rely on food. This past week I did very well, reduced my calorie intake, and went to the gym for 2 hours a day. Today the stupidest things frustrated me, and instead processing my emotions, I found my wife's secret stash of...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I struggle with an addiction that's pretty

    overwhelming yet embarrassing... I have tried to overcome it but unfortunately I can't
    yourxworstxblessing yourxworstxblessing 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 18

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 28 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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