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I Struggle With Addiction

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    Little White Pills

    A few weeks ago I was majorly depressed, giving up on life ready to die. I had tried prescription pills before and I didn't feel it, but on a Saturday night I found 2 bottles and took them, I took a few that night a couple more the next morning, Monday came and I was doing the...
    Samster23 Samster23 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    If it ain't weed, it's cigs,

    no cigs? We go to food, no food? We starve ourself.
    Floo64 Floo64 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    Cash in ur hand is a curse,

    it's a one way ticket to a hearse, after 20 yrs of grind tell you first on mind is that cash in my hand is a curse, You can hypnotise ******* n show them ur riches, thinking in ur own mind they love you, after all of the parties n bullshit I've found, all of them put cash above...
    gingerstone gingerstone 31-35, M Feb 9

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    I have been addicted to opiates

    for almost two years now. It started with a surgery,then a series of surgeries and a car wreck. I do have issues with pain that justify taking them but i have accelerated over the years. The dosage the doctors suggest is not enough. I am struggling now to get off of them because...
    Emmigale Emmigale 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    The moment you think you've got it,

    its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our experiences. This addiction is a war, we jumped in on the losing side, now we need to develop the tactics to overtake.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    LanniLette LanniLette 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    This addiction isn't ok ,

    it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're scars start to fade , you end up longing for the blade , to let your Demond's out , I'm having withdrawals . It's kinda...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    The Addiction Never Broken

    Each time it happens i feel horrible for doing it after the fact, anytime im alone, or anytime i get the chance to think i know what to say how to act and know that i can stand up and fight for what is on my mind, but when the time comes i curl up into a small ball and block out...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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    When I was in 6th grade we had the D.

    A.R.E program, but when I was in the 6th grade, drugs had already taken control of my life. I started drinking at a young age. I'm not gonna say pot is a gateway drug, but when I was twelve I was smoking it. When I got tired of pot I started experiencing with pills (swallowing...
    Godheals0328 Godheals0328 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Recently, ive quit a five year addiction,

    I had been swallowed up into this hole of no company, no friends, the people i knew? thieves, robbery and deceit were all these people knew. I separated myself, me and my partner. Alone, we had no one, our family knew and still know nothing, our addiction took over us.. You see...
    LifeChangedMe LifeChangedMe 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Afraid...always Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    my addiction is pretty different its a coping

    mechanism I use being extremely flexible I suck myself yes I have the ability to suck myself I do it because of my past problems and it did develop into an addiction but its an addiction I actually like. It's good on the abs and to answers questions isnt it uncomfortable or...
    nronic1 nronic1 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    Step In, I Dare U

    I need help! I need my husband! I was only hospitalized barely a year ago; I feel like in the past 6 months I've been handed a whole new set of problems in addition to the issues I was already facing. I feel so alone! I can't just talk to Anybody about this... I finally, FINALLY...
    5mudg3 5mudg3 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    This is an journal entry I wrote back in

    September of 2014 but I felt I should share it on here. Day 1 12 September 2014 Today is day 1 of my journey to overcome addiction. For years I’ve fought and fell, fought and fell. This time is going to be different though. Today is special, 14 years ago I joined...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I struggle with anorexia

    and alway have this voice in my head saying I'm not skinny enough...
    butterflieana butterflieana 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Today I popped a few pills again.

    It's something I haven't done in months. I'm trying not to give into it again. It's way harder than people think. But I have no reason to whine. I'll shut up now.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Okay so I've had an opiate addiction

    for years. I took the plunge and decided to do the suboxone program. I started it today, and it's helped me an unreal amount. however I'm supposed to take my dose twice today though, and my first dose was this morning. I still feel almost high from it. Should I wait to dose...
    millemme millemme 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    Trying To Stay Clean

    Ive been using dugs for almost 20yrs and thats sad if you know my age but it was always around. Ilearned real early that i could make easy money by my father.(thats another story)but because of who my father was i got good resoures. So off i went if i could make money off it i...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    In this post, I want to share why

    and how I have finally stopped my video game addiction. First of all let me introduce myself, I am a normal student in a state university and currently in the 3rd year of studies. And the worst part is... I was a video game addict, a horrible one, I have played any kind of...
    rayx123 rayx123 18-21, M Feb 26

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 1 Response May 6, 2009

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    I have a serious problem with cocaine,

    and I need to stop. Can any one share a story of recovery with me please..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F Mar 24

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    How does one go about revealing an addiction?

    I want to reveal mine, and get help. But I don't know how to reach out. I'm a lost soul. I want and need friends who will support me. I always keep to myself and don't even know where I would begin. I feel very alone. Trapped. Does anyone else feel this way. I don't know where...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 2

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    So I suppose once you are addicted to something

    then you will always be addicted. The reasoning behind alcoholics staying away from bars or socializing with people who drink. The temptation is too much. The addiction I struggle with is ***********. I was introduced to it at a very young age and struggled understanding...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M Jan 19

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    Mine are self harm, starving myself,

    and sex. Being a sex addict doesn't sound all that bad, and sometimes I can work with it, but I can be such a huge ***** and it's really embarrassing :/
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I have a weird addiction with baby powder

    that I can't control every time I'm stressed or depressed even mad I eat it sometimes even snort it I'm trying to break it but it's so hard
    blaackroses blaackroses 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2014

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    I am trying to quit smoking

    but it's really difficult. It's also on the new year resolution list and I am determined to quit it this year.
    FallenAngelStar FallenAngelStar 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I have been smoking cigarettes

    for about a month now but maybe once a day or sometimes only one every 3 days. Lately I have been craving them so badly, I have one and I just think about it over and over but I feel like I just want it but not need it, but I might need it because I want to have it to feel relax...
    xoValentina xoValentina 18-21, F 3 Responses May 5

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 4 Responses May 4, 2007

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    Been a while since my last post maybe half a

    year but im at my lowest low again. If anyone feels the same way reach out to me
    Aaronvx Aaronvx 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    Really Struggling........

    i have tears running down my face and my head is pounding, my foot is shaking......i wanna smoke so bad, and the bad part is i have NO ONE to talk me from taking this $20 and gettin a bag. i feel so alone, all these little issues:the kids being so loud, finding out that someone...
    shaunn shaunn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    I struggle with an embarrassing addiction.

    .. I can't overcome it because it's my new stress relief tactic I don't know what to do
    DJasmineHawker DJasmineHawker 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    my addiction is too strong.

    i can't control it. and worse...it feels so good part of me don't want to stop. i need help
    jojape1995 jojape1995 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I'm a food addict. When I'm struggling with

    emotions, I turn to food. When I'm bored, I rely on food. This past week I did very well, reduced my calorie intake, and went to the gym for 2 hours a day. Today the stupidest things frustrated me, and instead processing my emotions, I found my wife's secret stash of...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    Day 3 with no oxy... Using neurofen plus

    and 100mgs of tramadol to help with WDs.. So tired of being on this stuff! Enough is enough.
    honeybee86 honeybee86 22-25, F Dec 18, 2014

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    Saw this page and thought 'maybe im not an

    addict.' The truth is, I'm addicted to the internet. No matter how hard I try, I can't stop. No matter how much homework piles up, I procrastinate. I'm going to fail this school year. I've talked to a doctor during a regular check up and I need to be more active and eat more...
    AdolfHipster15 AdolfHipster15 13-15, M 4 Responses Jan 20

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 29 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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