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I Struggle With Addiction

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    I am addicted to legal amphetamines

    or party pills, I take whatever I can get my hands on, almost every day, it helps me live in a normal state of mind....I'm not sure if this is a bad thing for me.
    sungod2010 sungod2010 22-25 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    Kicking The Addiction...

    I come from a long line of addicts. My father is an alcoholic and drug addict. My mother is a drug addict. My fathers father was an alcoholic and so was his father. I started smoking pot when I was 11 which my mother encouraged. I had my first drink when I was 9 that my dad let...
    Amy8675309 Amy8675309 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    In Recovery From Opiate Addiction.

    Hello all. Most of my story is over at the BPD forum, but just to share about my previous opiate addiction... I was an addict for 7 years. Opiates never made me high. They evened me out per se. I have many psychiatric disorders and opiates were the only thing that kept...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne 26-30, F 27 Responses Apr 20, 2009

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    Sobriety

    I haven't been counting the days but it must be almost two months since I've smoked any pot, and it's at least five years since i've been this sober. It's also nearly a month since I went off my anti-depressant medication, and I've cut back my alcohol intake by perhaps ninety...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 5, 2012

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    I struggle with an addiction towards something.

    I've tried various possible way to stop but fail. Any suggestion on how to control addiction? Generally
    Bonesrythm Bonesrythm 22-25, F Jan 13

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    My Addiction Problem

    I'm addicted to marijuana. I started doing this 10 years ago when I was married. My husband gave me drugs, and forbade me to tell anyone. Not even a therapist or a doctor. I also dabbled in crystal Meth then. But I didn't care for it. I smoked marijuana for two years,and quit...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 Response Nov 18, 2012

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    When I was little my mum used to give me drugs

    dunno why she just made me use them and after growing up with abuse and violence I started doing them a lot as a young teen and I'm now 17 and am still on them but it's ruining my life and I understand that I just carnt stop or I don't no who to talk to it's hurting the people...
    tomjimmy tomjimmy 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 25

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    It started when I was younger.

    .. The abusing narcotics and cutting ... Guess the pain of loosing my father and having an emotionally unavailable mother really took a toll on my life. I can stay clean for a while... Weeks.. Even months at a time .. Yet somehow I find myself back on this merry go round of...
    LookingForMyAngel LookingForMyAngel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Relapsed

    I use to smoke a lot of meth and pop pain pills and xanax like candy, but the past three months I have been almost completely clean aside from weed or some shrooms/LSD. Now I've discovered Ketamine and I've been in a haze ever since. How does one go about living life sober? I...
    TheJungle TheJungle 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    Really Struggling........

    i have tears running down my face and my head is pounding, my foot is shaking......i wanna smoke so bad, and the bad part is i have NO ONE to talk me from taking this $20 and gettin a bag. i feel so alone, all these little issues:the kids being so loud, finding out that someone...
    shaunn shaunn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    "Sometimes being drug free,

    has less to do with addiction, and more to do with sanity." ~To This Day, Shane Koyczan
    sumthinoriginal sumthinoriginal 16-17, F Jun 30

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    I just played football,

    now came home had a pipe and am cold and horny on a Friday night
    up4anythinghot up4anythinghot 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 13

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    One day when I was either in middle school

    or transitioning into high school I stumbled across a website I never knew of before. First off, I had a computer in my room. It was not my own computer but my mom's. All I used it for was myspace and homework. ...I clicked on it because it was a different color than the...
    tjweelz tjweelz 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Breaking An Addiction

    When people think of addictions they mostly think of drugs, alcohol and gambling. Those are the ones plus smoking that are foremost in most people's minds. Sex in an addiction as well. For me, on line sex has become an addiction. Although it is healthier and safer than in...
    dragonteach dragonteach 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Opiates

    Hi, my name is Carlee. At age 14 I was put on a steady stream of opiates for chronic pain from an auto immune disease. I have taken oxycodone, methadone, percocet, dilaudid, and fentanyl. Around age 18, my pain had improved from a surgery and was low enough to not need the drugs...
    carlee1212 carlee1212 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Step In, I Dare U

    I need help! I need my husband! I was only hospitalized barely a year ago; I feel like in the past 6 months I've been handed a whole new set of problems in addition to the issues I was already facing. I feel so alone! I can't just talk to Anybody about this... I finally, FINALLY...
    5mudg3 5mudg3 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    My Vice

    I struggle with an addiction to ****. It's hard for me to find people to talk to because only a small percentage of women are addicts. To make it even worse I am Christian and I don't want to be judged for something most people never really address. People will look at me...
    tarbear1210 tarbear1210 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I am addicted to methamphetamine I hide this

    from my family and my boyfriend. I don't think there is anyone that understands feel it sucks when you have to isolate yourself from everyone all you have is blue sky to Stare at and you're wondering where is god with the answers
    beauty4him beauty4him 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    My Addiction To Synthetic Marijuana (K2/Spice)

    This is a post from my blog, where you can read the fully hyperlinked version: http://elishebaruth.blogspot.com/2013/11/my-addiction-to-synthetic-marijuana.html My other posts have given more details surrounding the issue of my addiction. In this post I specifically want to talk...
    ElishebaRuth ElishebaRuth 51-55, T 2 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I am on methadone. I've been on the same dose

    for a few years. I am beginning to have problems with it. Withdrawal feelings. The doc raised my dose 5 mills but it doesn't seemed to be helping my situation. Oh well, I guess that's just the way it goes.
    bellaboo68 bellaboo68 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    He was standing alone in a field full of people,

    I walked up to him and said "Hey, remember me?" Of course he said "No," since we had never met before. I thought I was pretty clever when I said, "oh, I don't remember you either." He looked me up and down, smiled, and took my hand and led me into the woods. I had the clarity of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    I go to a methadone clinic.

    I know it is a controversial subject, however it has most definitely changed my life for the better. I tried to get off of it a few years ago but that is an experience I'll keep to my self. I don't think I am mentally ready for that change. At least not yet🔮
    bellaboo68 bellaboo68 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Here's A Poem I Wrote A Few Months Before I Broke My Four Years Of Sobriety.

    Night falls and I find myself In my most hated place. These thoughts envelope my psyche, so damaged by a lifetime of mistakes. Those drugs... I prescribed them to myself to ease the hatred. It burns like a cleansing fire. And the drink? I so foolishly thought it would extinguish...
    demonhunter77 demonhunter77 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    I Am Still Here.....

    Well, I am still here. Fighting the fight. I havent let it get me by the boo boo. I struggle constantly. Battle my inner demons. Its so much easier sometime to just shut them up though. For a few days or so anyway. Then, in stopping the madness of my using, I also allow them (my...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2007

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    A Part Of My Life

    I feel like my addiction is growing more aggressive, every minute of everyday I think about getting a high my body is craving more and more of it. Which honestly is expected with any type of addiction. I just dont care anymore, I dont care to try, and really I am tired of caring...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2012

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    Little White Pills

    A few weeks ago I was majorly depressed, giving up on life ready to die. I had tried prescription pills before and I didn't feel it, but on a Saturday night I found 2 bottles and took them, I took a few that night a couple more the next morning, Monday came and I was doing the...
    Samster23 Samster23 18-21, M 9 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    I'm 23 and I'm an alcoholic.

    My life is so complicated but even attempting to write it out isn't worth it. I wish I had the strength to treat myself well.
    janedoe223 janedoe223 22-25, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I've always convinced myself

    that it was because I had coursework or needed to prepare for an exam, but the reason for my adderall addiction started before I'd even tried it. When I lost a bit of weight, I became instantly hooked to the comments about being thin. I began using adderall because my friend got...
    shmannabelle shmannabelle 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Lost All

    I used meth full on for the past 2 years. I thought i was strong enough to never let a drug controll my life. I was very wrong. It took ahold of my life bigtime. I hate that pipe but love it at the same time. Even after being off it for a mth. I had a beautiful life. Three boys...
    lysa351 lysa351 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 22, 2012

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    Here Is Practical Explanation About Next Life, Purpose Of Human Life, Philosophical/Religious Facts, Theories Etc.

    ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what- what you have thought and done on every single second ) can you...
    Haribol2332 Haribol2332 22-25, M Nov 26, 2013

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    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Shaky

    Eyes that never close.  Jittery heart beats.  Anxious to face the real world.  Peace is her only wish.  Paranoia at its most elegant. As she sits on a leather throne  Surrounded by saints and judges.  With a false appearance of calm.  Any day could be her last. 
    Alissabella Alissabella 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 12, 2013

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    Addictions Undecided Ending

    Was it ever serious? Am I glad it's over? Is it really over? I don't know It's been about a month sense I last used ANYTHING! I tell people its easy. But it's not. All I want is to spark up a joint, snort some coke, dance with Molly, have some ******* tequila, hell at this...
    MusicalBatman MusicalBatman 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Addictive Personality

    I have the unfortunate trait of having the potential to be addicted to anything that helps me avoid my emotions. I have been addicted to drugs, sex, food, alcohol. Addiction runs in my family. I always said as a kid I would never drink or use drugs, because I saw what it did to...
    GalileosFinger GalileosFinger 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    I am trying to live a healthier life!

    I use marajuana and smoke
    StrongFeirce StrongFeirce 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2013

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    I am prone to addiction.

    Not even just one thing or anything specifically. Not just a chemical addiction. I easily become addicted to anything that makes me feel good and distracts me from reality, thinking, feeling anxiety. I move through substances fast. When I find something new I get so immersed in...
    Ma1eficent Ma1eficent 26-30 13 hrs ago

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    I Have Been Where You Are

    I am an addict in recovery.  Prison saved my life. I never thought I would want to tell a police officer thank you for putting me away - but I am so grateful. I know alot of people think it's cheating to go to prison, but this wasn't my first time in prison - the first...
    REC0VERED REC0VERED 41-45, F 3 Responses May 4, 2007

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    No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.

    There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay. I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 6 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Brainy123 Brainy123 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    Three Months Without Getting High

    I’m three months now without having smoked any marijuana. My emotional and intellectual clarity continues to grow, my dreams grow brighter, are recalled more deeply and make more sense to be than ever before, and my ability to relate to others, especially at work, is...
    turtlesplash turtlesplash 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I hate myself. I messed up.

    And I keep messing up. Someone stop me. Someone help me. I don't want to be this way anymore... I'm sick of this life. I only started so I wouldn't feel so miserable. But my life is great so why am I so depressed..?
    ridme ridme 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 21

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    Afraid...always Hiding

    Playing Pretend. Again and Again. What is really the point.? It saddens me that I have no one to confide in. No one to say....I cant stop. No one to reach out to and say "Please hit the brakes on this roller coaster!" Its just me. Alone. What else is new. I am to...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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    I was a drug addict for close to 7 years.

    I have been clean for a little over a year, but I'll always be an addict. Its still a daily struggle, especially when things are tough. I'll talk to anyone about it in hopes I can help someone the way I was helped.
    proffllama proffllama 18-21, M 1 Response May 29

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    I have been "experimenting" with some form of

    drug since I was about 14. at 19 it just escalated to harder drugs, more frequently. I have quit one thing and started another more times then I can count. I have broken my own heart more times then I can count. I am so sick of my addictions controlling every part of my world...
    dani2005 dani2005 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Well it happened. My new relationship is

    completely done. I really did try to learn from my past experiences but at the same time, I don't completely blame myself anymore. I'm battling drug addiction for one, but I also think the main addiction in my life is and always has been love. It's what's made me happy, made me...
    Seeingwithouteyes Seeingwithouteyes 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 14

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    I have had panic attacks

    for as long as I can remember. A few years ago my doctor prescribed Ativan to quell the anxiety. I took them with no problem until earlier this year. They stopped working at my prescribed dosage so I started taking more. When that stopped working I took even more. I repeated...
    stl2nite stl2nite 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    I Stopped Using Crack

    I just want to share my story to show that you can stop using drugs if you are addicted. Alcohol is a drug too. I smoked crack for the first time in 1986 when I was 25 years old. In the space of a few months I was addicted. Maybe someone can relate to some of the things I did or...
    555calif 555calif 51-55, M 27 Responses Oct 22, 2010

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    I Wish I Didnt Like It.

    I see and know its around.  Sometimes I fall away and regret that, but I do like the ride.  It would be so much simplier if I didin't.  I like to change the way I feel sometimes and its hard to say no.  It complicates it more when I know what is around...
    unicorn218 unicorn218 26-30, M 2 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Trying To Stay Clean

    Ive been using dugs for almost 20yrs and thats sad if you know my age but it was always around. Ilearned real early that i could make easy money by my father.(thats another story)but because of who my father was i got good resoures. So off i went if i could make money off it i...
    girltoday girltoday 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    When I'm Stressed I Want to Use

    I am excited about starting new shift at my job but also scared because might start craving and temp me to use. I have multisubstance abuse problem haven't used anything in a few days and feel good. so am hoping my higher power will help me today. god bless all struggling with...
    sirendip sirendip 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    My Addiction Pt 2

    Its been little over a year now and still having a battle with my addiction with marijuana. My therapist and my psychiatrist wants me to give it up. I don't. I enjoy smoking marijuana and I hate to give it up. Yet I want to use my money for something else than drugs. Its a...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Oct 24, 2013

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    Maybe. Probably. Addictive personalities

    can switch fixes. So this group fits. From weed to booze to **** to video games to helping people to climax and back to helping people then fantasizing about people since **** is lame then back to helping people. Lol Lmao. Am broken and dont fit many places in this...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 13

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    And I'm currently in a downward spiral,

    even though I see it... I can't stop myself
    BBWDizziDoll BBWDizziDoll 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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