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I Struggle With Alcohol

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    Drinking Is Ruining My Life

    I am 21 years old. I am an alcoholic. I started drinking at age 9, with sips of beer here and there. I got drunk the first time at age 12. I was in jail by 17 because of my drinking, and i also went to rehab the first time at age 17. I thought i know it all and could handle my...
    mememe200 mememe200 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2009

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    Its so easy to turn to alcohol

    when life gets too rough ... It's only a temporary solution but once that stage is done then u wake up with a mean hangover an full of regret from poor bad choices/actions one makes when under the influence I need help :(
    ev23 ev23 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Why I Practice Alcoholism

    I was sober in AA for 10 years. I went out. Sober 6 months. Then out. Sober for 2 years. Then out. Now I'm a practicing functional alcoholic. Here's the thing: When I am sober, I get super depressed because I spend all my time doing stuff for other people. Could I do stuff for...
    FullRyan FullRyan 36-40, M Jun 19, 2012

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    One Drink. Always Ends Up...

    Never thought it took control of my life. Im a teenager. And i like to party alot. At first i hated alcohol!! I hated it!! And now like i only drank when my dad said it was okay, but i steal it from him now...it started at parties i would drink to much and pass out...than it...
    XxxLaurenBugXxx XxxLaurenBugXxx 13-15, F May 20, 2012

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    What first brought me to this site was a blog that I came across. I now see that this site has turned for the worst lol... Any who a few of us still use it to vent blog etc...
    simplelife60 simplelife60 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I have struggled with my body image for 7 years now and my father is partially to blame. He always dictated the things that I ate and told me that I needed to lose weight ect. And...
    JessicaTacos JessicaTacos 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24

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    2 years I struggled with self harm ... Scars on my wrist and thigh ... I haven't self harmed in over a year ... Just got my heart ripped out and stomped on .... I have my blade in...
    dyinginside4 dyinginside4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I am 28 years old. I started to dislike my body at 12... how is it possible that I have disliked my reflection for 16 years? I struggle with it daily and even when I change my self...
    ozzgrrl ozzgrrl 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I write this with my own experience in mind, I do not judge anyone yet I will 'preach' about how addiction can ruin your quality of life. I have struggled with opiates, but...
    TheCoitalQueen TheCoitalQueen 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    I struggle with everything around me.. I am 26 years old and how could it be worse when your mother still call you a thousand times when you not come home in a week? I'm not 16...
    heartandbrain heartandbrain 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I feel so isolated and worthless, I've struggled with these feelings since I was a child.. I've grown so used to it I'm comfortable feeling this way which is sad, I can't keep...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I'm finished with everything, I really can't do this anymore. I'm sick of everyone especially myself it's disgusting..
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 5 hrs ago

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    I have an addiction with nicotine and alcohol... I refuse to see a counselor because when I'm there I'll deny till the death of me
    youguyssuck69 youguyssuck69 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    I know he is real, but I feel like he "comes and goes". (Like exiting and opening a door) whenever he wants. I think the last time might've been my fault though. I know heaven...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Nov 21

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    But I love him, which just makes it more sad when I struggle <3
    thinkdeeper thinkdeeper 22-25, M Dec 5

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    Hence why the experience title has "struggled" meaning past tense.. Having an eating disorder is very difficult, at least for me it was. There were days i would just randomly...
    MichellexxLevine314 MichellexxLevine314 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Struggle is not the right word. I'm challenged maybe. On the outside I am a good girl and mostly I am, but I love sex..........love, love, love sex! All kinds! The funkier, the...
    YoloJones YoloJones 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I struggle to eat even a small meal a day without worrying about my body
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I wonder why it seems one can only get accepted now a days if they go out and party and get drunk every weekend. Isn't there a way to connect with others without getting drunk or...
    alwayswatchingu alwayswatchingu 18-21, F Nov 19

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    How can The Lord be so loving, yet it feels like he is just playing a game with me? I feel like I hit a point where I finally might "have it" (what I think is true faith) only to...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Nov 21

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    I have been addicted to opiates for almost two years now. It started with a surgery,then a series of surgeries and a car wreck. I do have issues with pain that justify taking them...
    Emmigale Emmigale 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I feel pressured to be muscly like those guys with big biceps and pecs, but I really don't.
    haygreen98 haygreen98 16-17, M Nov 22

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    I purged the 3rd time yesterday... Before I was only restricted type. Than I started to exercise and also chew and spit and finally also purge... I'm forced to eat and need to put...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I remember being able to walk up to a stranger, compliment them on something, and then we hit it off from there. I don't know what happened between then and now but now I can't...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F Nov 25

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    I find that when I am late to something (event/work/sports) or remember something that i forgot to do, I shut down and go into a reclusive state, where I find I can't socialize...
    RiverWilson RiverWilson 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    As I leave my flat at Webb house supported housing for people with mental health issues I walk down the road and I walk in mark & Spenser in middlesbrough I stand before the mirror...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 10 Responses Nov 26

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    “I want to be alone… with someone else who wants to be alone.” Dimitri Zaik.
    chris23cnm chris23cnm 22-25, M Nov 27

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    Purged last night. Saw so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 27

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    I'm ashamed to look at people, I don't want them to see my ugliness. I always, always.. think on how I look from third person, every angle, every lighting condition, and it gets me...
    xRiax xRiax 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    I started self harming three years ago I don't do it a lot I do it when I can't take it anymore. I first self harmed when I found out that dad cheated on mom and I felt so bad I...
    Busexx Busexx 16-17, F Nov 28

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    Im finding things really hard at the moment. People don't really understand but then again I dont really understand my own feelings, so why should anyone else? I can't go to school...
    sademptynothing sademptynothing 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I visited a psychiatrist for the first time today because I have an attention problem and she prescribed me an attention deficit medicine without screening me so anxiety washed all...
    psychedelicblues psychedelicblues 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I've never hated myself before. But recently I'm struggling with is. less hating who am, but more hating who I was. a weak needy person. I know I'm not that person anymore but...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    In this moment I feel like the same little girl who desperately knocked on her neighbors doors looking for someone to play with. Wandering around outside looking for a friend. Here...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F Dec 5

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    I managed to go almost a year without many slip ups :( and now I'm suffering again. Every time I eat I feel guilty, but then I feel guilt if I don't eat. I'm fighting with myself...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F Dec 7

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    I’m in big big panic… I gained weight. Didn’t weight me on the scale since 2 weeks however today even my pants were fitting (34 slim cut) which were really lose at my belly...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F Dec 8

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    I’m in big big panic… I gained weight. Didn’t weight me on the scale since 2 weeks however today even my pants were fitting (34 slim cut) which were really lose at my belly...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    It's nearly impossible for me to do. People don't care about anything unless they're getting something out of knowing you. I can't be bothered with people like that!
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 9

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    i cant eat more that one small meal a day without being worried about my body
    wantthistoend wantthistoend 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 10

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    Whether it be from job interviews or people its a hard thing to deal with... When someone ignores me I take it as rejection as well.. it started from my mother because she has...
    Gaffa1234 Gaffa1234 22-25, F Dec 10

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    I would never admit it to people I actually know but I have known for a while that I have a problem. Its weird to talk about and I doubt anyone cares but I am going to talk about...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    It's on my mind almost all the time. I am under 4 inches and I have heard a lot of women say that they couldn't get anything out of sex with a small penis. I don't want to be huge...
    TinyPecker5 TinyPecker5 26-30, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    The moment you think you've got it, its spins around and bites you in the ***. I need to find someone living the same nightmare (preferably a woman) to talk it out with, share our...
    Mikeymlc Mikeymlc 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    as a kid i used to be really large so i never really grew out of feeling huge and still have a little dysmorphia despite losing 20+ pounds, used to have ana with bulimic tendencies...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Day 3 with no oxy... Using neurofen plus and 100mgs of tramadol to help with WDs.. So tired of being on this stuff! Enough is enough.
    honeybee86 honeybee86 22-25, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I have eating disorders if somebody want to talk, i will listen 'cause i know how ir feels
    Loveskinny123 Loveskinny123 16-17 Nov 19