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I Struggle With Bipolar 1

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    A Glimpse...

    You feel the energy pulsing through you. It throbs through every cell of your body. Your nerves are on fire, completely inflamed and outstretched, receptive to every whisper, any twitch of motion near you. Touch is so amplified. A pat becomes a slap, a light grasp a clutch, a...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 14 Responses Jun 22, 2011

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    Years Past And Years To Come

    You suddenly realize that people have roots and the world is lit up in the brightest of colours you are thinking clearer than everyone elsebutyourthoughtsflashbysoquicklylikesurrealistpoetryfishglue. And now you're laughing. Are you high? You get asked. Are you on drugs. You...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    Up Up Up Then Down Down Down

    Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember.  It plagued me as a child, teen, young adult then into adulthood.  Treated for depression since I was in my twenties I didn't recognized the up side of the disorder.  Needless to say I didn't go to the doctor...
    rubyetuesday rubyetuesday 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

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    My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone

    I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17.  For years that's all I thought I had.  When I was 29 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder after almost accidentally killing myself with a mixture of vodka, valium, and Vicodin ES.  I had no intention of hurting myself but...
    silk123 silk123 31-35 1 Response Feb 7, 2008

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    I Don't Stuggle!

    Yes, I am diagnosed with Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features anf add to this Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Acute Anxiety/Panic Disorder, and it all makes for an interesting day every day. Once you reach my age - 50 years- you start to get a bit wiser and...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 19

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    Memories

    I'm beginning to see medication as a reasonable alternative to my moods, but is this really right? Is this ridiculousness medication withdrawal (I've been off of Abilify for over a month) or am I really this rapid cycling? There's a maximum of one day at a normal mood between my...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    Bipolar And Relationships.

    I think of the stigma associated with mental problems and depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and related conditions. The seemingly automatic, there’s-something-wrong-with-you kind of judgement. I think of myself and why I never quite felt right...
    Trancefreak Trancefreak 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    I am in a mixed state of mania

    and depression today. Actually the last few days. My doctor said it's bc of my ptsd acting up. It makes my mood change second to second. And my "other one" is fighting to come out. I feel like I'm going crazy!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Since 8th grade I have struggled with so much anxiety. I used to think it was just me getting nervous seeing people I knew out in public, but it gets to a point when you know you...
    xsarah23x xsarah23x 16-17, F Jul 31

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    I have bi-polar disorder and I struggle with my job every single day. I have to write for a living and it's difficult to think, it's difficult to remember. I have to read my...
    chaoticallycosmosme chaoticallycosmosme 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I struggle with it a lot. my lower arms and lower legs arm like a skinny persons but my thighs are huge and my stomach is just uhhh... I put myself on a diet which was long over do...
    RavenRena17 RavenRena17 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I have struggled with this for a long time, but it always comes and goes. Today i started thinking about how I don't make enough art. I do wish I made more, and I do feel that...
    purposebuilt purposebuilt 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    So if you read my profile u know I struggle with cutting starving myself so one of my friends she found out today what I do and she says she not going to tell my mom what should I...
    AmyAnn112 AmyAnn112 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Depressed, still finding out if I'm bipolar but I think so. Finding myself being sad and with low self-esteem all the time. Paranoid of everyone around me. Think people are out to...
    gekker gekker 22-25, F Aug 22

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    I still struggle daily...and I am scared it's beating me..
    allisonbrookwhite allisonbrookwhite 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I just can't seem to get over the fact that I like men. I don't like girls, but I can't seem to get over myself enough to date a guy. But I want to be in a relationship, but with...
    Spazz238 Spazz238 16-17, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    It's recently started actually if you read my profile you'll know I don't have much evidence as a Christian which is true and post that I'm Christian because well it's a fact I'm...
    chooseyourpath chooseyourpath 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 1

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    I have a **** load of stuff wrong with me but I won't let it control my life again. I'm doing my best to cope with this incurable ****. I was diagnosed with the skitsophrenia(I can...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I just don't know anymore. I feel like I'm bad for everyone in my life. I just really feel like ending my life. I'm done with struggling, done with no one understanding, done with...
    got2Breal got2Breal 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    It's a living hell really. Just going out in public is hard to do. I hate being in crowds. Therapist hasn't helped much. Hell, even being around my bestfriend is hard to do now...
    thatoneguy336 thatoneguy336 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    If there's a large amount of people in a single room I have a real problem with that
    panthrax00 panthrax00 16-17, M Aug 4

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    I'm short and have an hourglass figure - think Marilyn Monroe with thinner thighs. I will never be a tall, skinny supermodel. I hate my tummy - even at my lowest adult weight (107...
    SmartKat SmartKat 46-50, F 15 Responses Aug 5

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    I see all the lonely depressed young people looking to talk to someone that will listen to them on here. If I could help here are a few things I would suggest: Google "PBS...
    TCLowe TCLowe 31-35 Aug 5

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    We all need a man that looks at us with passion and desire despite our flaws. Someone who can make us feel sexy and confident. A man who loves you for you...,,
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    My newest editions along with the old scratches that scarred worse than I thought they would.
    thalassinia thalassinia 13-15, F Aug 12

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    Mostly around my little sis and friends all who would be an au size 6 or under. I love my curves and wouldn't change it for the world but when you go out and someone else refers to...
    calmj calmj 22-25, M 4 Responses Aug 12

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    The thing is there are a lot of pretty girls out there. They're pretty and they don't even try. They don't wear makeup and they don't have to spend hours doing their hair. It's all...
    BeautifulMistake21 BeautifulMistake21 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    I really need someone who can relte, I have been dealing with this since I was 9 and trying so hard to stop. Please help me. Please don't jdge and I won't judge you.
    guitarsongwriter guitarsongwriter 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Its easy to do it online. you can be anonymous, someone else entirely... In real life it's so hard to be completely emotionally naked with another human being. Even telling someone...
    InMybubble InMybubble 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I am always really bad with my words and usually offend people by saying the wrong thing, I say one thing and mean another. Opening up to people really makes me uncomfortable...
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F Aug 15

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    I hate myself so much. I know it has a lot to do with my past but it doesn't change the way I feel. I genuinely think that everything that happened to me is my fault. I used to...
    Clouds8 Clouds8 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I have always been sort of a Nymphomaniac. I did not have sex until I met the guy I love and am still with. As soon as we began having sex, I became addicted. I will randomly get...
    MacKenzie2943 MacKenzie2943 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Sitting in rehab trying not to lose my ****, trying to keep myself together, trying to silence the voices in my head talking all at once, even my own. If my other arm was working...
    MorbidMorals MorbidMorals 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I've always convinced myself that it was because I had coursework or needed to prepare for an exam, but the reason for my adderall addiction started before I'd even tried it. When...
    shmannabelle shmannabelle 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Why is it so hard for those of us who are suffering to get access to proper treatment. Not to mention the treatments available suck, the therapies are not as effective as...
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    How am I supposed to keep my head above the water? Or help anyone else? How am I supposed to stay patient? And dear god, how do people wait for other people? How can they wait and...
    StandInTheStorm StandInTheStorm 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I debated wether to join this group or one that uses the term "might have" an eating disorder. I've studied it. Logically I know I do. But sometimes I feel just utterly paranoid...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Today was a good day at work. It was my second morning getting out of bed at 6 am and it worked. My energy was up. My personality was there. I was significantly good in terms of...
    chaoticallycosmosme chaoticallycosmosme 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    It's a Thursday summer night and while everyone is at my high schools football game having the times of their lives and partying later on I'm home alone by myself doing nothing but...
    Brudy6 Brudy6 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Other times, I look at my scars and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all. My scars show...
    channy86 channy86 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I think I still do. When I have even a tiny bit of fat anywhere on my body, I don't eat every good. I give myself, on the first day, a 1,600 calorie diet. I'm 5.4in tall. My weight...
    17paredkay00 17paredkay00 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's hard to believe that a former Varsity cheerleader in high school has gone from prom queen court to the bottom of the barrel. I am on multiple medications and it's sad to know...
    ek2465 ek2465 18-21 2 Responses Aug 12

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    I can't go out side if it is storming >~<
    emotionalyana emotionalyana 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    I get it I am as well anorexic but not really skinny and it drives me nuts lol!!
    scmichelle051 scmichelle051 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I have to force myself to go anywhere. I stress about people looking at me and judging me. I will avoid as much contact as possible if I know I'm not looking my best. I never walk...
    Nihnox Nihnox 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Women have curves and I'm proud of mine. I have never been happier in my life. I have people who love me dearly for who I am and I know I have flaws. Sure I wish I could look...
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 5

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    So.. I'm 5'1" and weigh 110. But I don't LOOK 110. I feel heavier. I want to be under 100. Every part of my body looks chunky to me. Yet, people say I am skinny. (People say things...
    nmey94 nmey94 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 5

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