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I Struggle With Bipolar 1

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 46 People

    I Don't Stuggle!

    Yes, I am diagnosed with Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features anf add to this Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Acute Anxiety/Panic Disorder, and it all makes for an interesting day every day. Once you reach my age - 50 years- you start to get a bit wiser and...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 19, 2014

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    Bipolar And Relationships.

    I think of the stigma associated with mental problems and depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and related conditions. The seemingly automatic, there’s-something-wrong-with-you kind of judgement. I think of myself and why I never quite felt right...
    Trancefreak Trancefreak 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Up Up Up Then Down Down Down

    Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember.  It plagued me as a child, teen, young adult then into adulthood.  Treated for depression since I was in my twenties I didn't recognized the up side of the disorder.  Needless to say I didn't go to the doctor...
    rubyetuesday rubyetuesday 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

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    Years Past And Years To Come

    You suddenly realize that people have roots and the world is lit up in the brightest of colours you are thinking clearer than everyone elsebutyourthoughtsflashbysoquicklylikesurrealistpoetryfishglue. And now you're laughing. Are you high? You get asked. Are you on drugs. You...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    I'm 16 and have bipolar 1 with psychotic

    features. I recently started to experience ultradian rapid cycling and am highly resistant to mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. Trying 7 different antipsychotics, my mind still raced. I experience almost all side effects so Im definitely never taking any again. I always have...
    MisterJones54321 MisterJones54321 22-25, M Nov 10, 2014

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    A Glimpse...

    You feel the energy pulsing through you. It throbs through every cell of your body. Your nerves are on fire, completely inflamed and outstretched, receptive to every whisper, any twitch of motion near you. Touch is so amplified. A pat becomes a slap, a light grasp a clutch, a...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Jun 22, 2011

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    My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone

    I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17.  For years that's all I thought I had.  When I was 29 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder after almost accidentally killing myself with a mixture of vodka, valium, and Vicodin ES.  I had no intention of hurting myself but...
    silk123 silk123 31-35 1 Response Feb 7, 2008

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    I am in a mixed state of mania

    and depression today. Actually the last few days. My doctor said it's bc of my ptsd acting up. It makes my mood change second to second. And my "other one" is fighting to come out. I feel like I'm going crazy!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2014

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    Memories

    I'm beginning to see medication as a reasonable alternative to my moods, but is this really right? Is this ridiculousness medication withdrawal (I've been off of Abilify for over a month) or am I really this rapid cycling? There's a maximum of one day at a normal mood between my...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    I struggle with lust . Sometimes it makes me feel crazy. However, I've been trying very hard to keep my comments in check. I'm so use to talking to men that had no boundaries and...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I'm a food addict. When I'm struggling with emotions, I turn to food. When I'm bored, I rely on food. This past week I did very well, reduced my calorie intake, and went to the...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    So I was challenged to post a pic of this. My friend knows how much I struggle with poor body image and barely any self-esteem, so she told me to write 'I love myself and my body...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 44 Responses Jan 18

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    So I suppose once you are addicted to something then you will always be addicted. The reasoning behind alcoholics staying away from bars or socializing with people who drink. The...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I struggle with my body image and weight. But I am doing a lot better. I've lost some weight but I am still chubby. But I'm ok with it right now. I've learned to love my body. It...
    Ljm2114 Ljm2114 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I'm struggling with a family issue that I've caused. I have struggled with addiction & drinking for years & after 2 years I had a slip that caused me to miss a family event. I didn...
    please1980 please1980 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Well I've always struggled with depression but this isn't my story i'm here to tell the people who think there's no hope that there is. I did everything under the sun drugs, self...
    Aaron612 Aaron612 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    As much as I struggle with being lonely sometimes. I also find that I enjoy being alone, after interacting with others. I am more of a one on one type of person, more than I am a...
    allsfinebime allsfinebime 51-55, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I struggle with every part of life. It hurts to breath.
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F Jan 14

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    I've always struggled with my body image. It takes a lot for me to look in the mirror sometimes. I managed to overcome anorexia. I'm fighting everyday to learn to love myself. It's...
    GreenEyess GreenEyess 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    I struggle with an embarrassing addiction... I can't overcome it because it's my new stress relief tactic I don't know what to do
    DJasmineHawker DJasmineHawker 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I struggle with anorexia and alway have this voice in my head saying I'm not skinny enough...
    butterflieana butterflieana 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I struggle with being an adult college student, trying to raise my children, be good son (failed that today), be good for my fiancee, etc. My sense of self-worth is hindering me. I...
    Doviov Doviov 41-45 1 day ago

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    The VA can't afford for all veterans to be diagnosed with PTSD, so before finally caving and giving me this diagnosis, which is more acceptable for a veteran, I was accused of...
    Stella30 Stella30 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    At this point in life it's just hard to be happy anymore. All my life consist of now is struggle, drama, sadness, school, and pain. I haven't been happy in months and anything...
    ArtisticLife ArtisticLife 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Ana is a struggle every ******* day. I dont even know what to say about it. I wanna die tho. I just. I just want someone to ask me how i am, and that i can tell them Every...
    Proanabutterflyx Proanabutterflyx 13-15, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Struggle ? I'm beginning learn to deal with it
    Princeofnothing Princeofnothing 18-21, M Jan 18

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    D@mn it.. One day I will stop caring how other people view me and judge me. One day I will be confident in what I look like and feel empowered by my curves and imperfections. I...
    SmilesAwaitYou SmilesAwaitYou 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Deciding to write this post was not an easy task for me. It's almost like i'm validating that I think there may be something wrong about myself, emotionally. For so many years I...
    kgirl26 kgirl26 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    So I'm the typical girl/women who since 12 was always the one bigger then my friends. I was always taller which wasn't on my side but I was hated I could never be their size. I had...
    lbernays lbernays 22-25, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I am a 400lb woman ... Have been for 10 years now minus a few losses and gains ( one where I lost 100 only to gain it back ) I don't hate my body which is a problem how you ask...
    KittenHasClaws1980 KittenHasClaws1980 31-35, F 6 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I've been this way for as long as I can remember...which is surprising considering what an amazing person I am. I do things that are not in my best interest and then when I want to...
    thatbobguy thatbobguy 56-60, M Jan 3

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    i hate myself , i tried soo hard, worked so hard to get into a good MBA college, failed miserably in all those entrances, my father is going to retire from his job, he is...
    pompydutta pompydutta 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    Adversity I hear makes you stronger. But I seem to have regressed into a loop of indulging the darkness that resides within me. I take responsibility for my actions. I own them. I...
    urbannomad6699 urbannomad6699 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I hate the fact I have to spend the next few decades living with a fat, ugly, socially inept piece of ****. Life would be so much better if I were skinnier, cooler, hipper, more...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    So I'm at the end of day 2 of eating healthier well at least trying to stay in my calorie range on the lose it app. So I didn't even really want to try and lose weight but 3 nights...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F Jan 7

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    I can't be satisfied with my weight and how I look. No matter what I change, how much weight I lose/gain, what color I dye my hair, i'm not happy. I want to be positive and live...
    deliam12 deliam12 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    The most painful parts of my past were the large amount of bullying from students and a bout from teachers as well. The bullying I received was emotional and verbal and still...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Sometimes I adore myself and feel like I am queen of the world. But other times I feel like a complete screw up who can't do anything right. Hell, I AM a complete screw up who can...
    Cgyan Cgyan 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    When I was growing up, my view on beauty was different. I remember going online and talking to people. There was this one boy whom I was falling for he asked me my weight. I was 5...
    chunkyislandgirl54 chunkyislandgirl54 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 12

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    When I was on 7th grade I went to San Antonio Tx. for 6 months, I stayed on my cousin's house and we went to the same school. Well, when I went to school there I notice this hot...
    lucy1010 lucy1010 13-15, F Jan 13

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    Depression and Anxiety were a part of my life since I was in Middle School and I didn't even know it until now. In my last few years of college, I realized just how much I don't...
    XenaIsMyHero XenaIsMyHero 22-25, F Jan 15

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    I've gotten to the point when I don't even really eat anymore. I rarely eat breakfast because I'm not a morning person and I have class during breakfast time. I sometimes eat lunch...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Food has a hold on me like nothing else in my entire life. I feel helpless I feel out of control. I don't know how to stop its the only time I feel good or happy when I'm eating. I...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I am at an upper weight of mine. It's considered within my normal weight range but it does not feel right. My clothes don't fit. It takes me a long time to get dressed into...
    ForeverWinter ForeverWinter 26-30, F Jan 18

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    I grew up all my life with this. My family never truly accepted me for being mixed. They wanted a whiter me. I was never really accepted socially in the usa. I was always "too...
    sfdrboy sfdrboy 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 19

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