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I Struggle With Bipolar 1

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 49 People

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    Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember.  It plagued me as a child, teen, young adult then into adulthood.  Treated for depression since I was in my twenties I didn't recognized the up side of the disorder.  Needless to say I didn't go to the doctor...
    rubyetuesday rubyetuesday 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

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    I Don't Stuggle!

    Yes, I am diagnosed with Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features anf add to this Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Acute Anxiety/Panic Disorder, and it all makes for an interesting day every day. Once you reach my age - 50 years- you start to get a bit wiser and...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    Bipolar And Relationships.

    I think of the stigma associated with mental problems and depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and related conditions. The seemingly automatic, there’s-something-wrong-with-you kind of judgement. I think of myself and why I never quite felt right...
    Trancefreak Trancefreak 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    A Glimpse...

    You feel the energy pulsing through you. It throbs through every cell of your body. Your nerves are on fire, completely inflamed and outstretched, receptive to every whisper, any twitch of motion near you. Touch is so amplified. A pat becomes a slap, a light grasp a clutch, a...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 12 Responses Jun 22, 2011

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 19, 2014

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    Memories

    I'm beginning to see medication as a reasonable alternative to my moods, but is this really right? Is this ridiculousness medication withdrawal (I've been off of Abilify for over a month) or am I really this rapid cycling? There's a maximum of one day at a normal mood between my...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm 16 and have bipolar 1 with psychotic

    features. I recently started to experience ultradian rapid cycling and am highly resistant to mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. Trying 7 different antipsychotics, my mind still raced. I experience almost all side effects so Im definitely never taking any again. I always have...
    MisterJones54321 MisterJones54321 22-25, M Nov 10, 2014

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    Years Past And Years To Come

    You suddenly realize that people have roots and the world is lit up in the brightest of colours you are thinking clearer than everyone elsebutyourthoughtsflashbysoquicklylikesurrealistpoetryfishglue. And now you're laughing. Are you high? You get asked. Are you on drugs. You...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone

    I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17.  For years that's all I thought I had.  When I was 29 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder after almost accidentally killing myself with a mixture of vodka, valium, and Vicodin ES.  I had no intention of hurting myself but...
    silk123 silk123 31-35 1 Response Feb 7, 2008

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    I am in a mixed state of mania

    and depression today. Actually the last few days. My doctor said it's bc of my ptsd acting up. It makes my mood change second to second. And my "other one" is fighting to come out. I feel like I'm going crazy!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2014

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    Springtime is especially hard

    for me. Depression hits hard and antidepressants only make me ultra rapid cycle. My dr has me on a new antidepressant called Brintellix. I've been on it for a month and a half and still struggle with depression. For the most part, I am stable... Except in spring. And it makes me...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F Apr 28

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    Related Experiences

    Which is stupid, considering how much confidence I have. Anxiety attacks are rare now. I maybe have one a few times a month. PTSD, will torment me for the rest of my life. Oh...
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was an addict and have been clean 4 years. If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, please feel free to contact me if you want to talk, need advice, support, or...
    alwaysfaithful13 alwaysfaithful13 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I have started working out since January (and, surprisingly, still keeping up to this New Year's resolution). Before, I used to dedicate most of my time to my academic work, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Since when is there a body that we should all look like. Why do we strive to be skinny? To have a thigh gap? It's quite ridiculous. You're born the way you are, why change...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just got home and saw the crazy amount of new stretch marks climbing the inside of my thighs. I asked my mom why my bra always shows no matter what shirt I wear and the answer is...
    horriblegossipgirl horriblegossipgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    hey everyone. i suppose this, falls under body image. but might be 18+. its hard, being a average / below average penis size. when the whole world. sees large penises as amazing...
    justaguy545 justaguy545 26-30, M 8 Responses a week ago

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    Ever since I was younger around the age of 6 I've always been a little chunkier than the other's. When I was younger I didn't give a flying **** about how big I was all I cared...
    Amberrjade27 Amberrjade27 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I feel like I'm never thin enough. My mom freaks out because I have lost 43lbs(WITHOUT TRYING) yet I still feel it isn't enough.
    SMGrove0312 SMGrove0312 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I had a MRSA infection in my side. I thought I caught it early as it was still just a little red bump. When I went in they did an ultrasound of the area, and they found it was...
    InvinsibleViper InvinsibleViper 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    I'm perfectly fine with the way I look, maybe not the way I act though. I just don't like being bullied by others because of my appearance and clumsiness. I guess for this reason...
    algezebra algezebra 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I am a 20 year old girl who has just recently hit the mark 195 pounds in weight...I never thought I would get to this. I was hanging around 170 for the longest time and feeling...
    mylovelyshadow mylovelyshadow 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 23

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    I used to have an ED. Growing up as a girl in America is so difficult on one's self-esteem. I suffered with societies idealistic image, and constantly compared myself to models and...
    mauii44 mauii44 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 23

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    My body image has never been what I wanted... I always thought that nobody will like me and that I'll never escape it. Fortunately, I did lose some weight in the past year or...
    Boggr Boggr 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    When I get worse I have no energy to get in touch with anyone. This in turn makes me feel very guilty for obvious reasons. The guilt I can absolutely NOT cope with makes me even...
    becomeinvisible becomeinvisible 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I struggle with my body image since i was 9 i hated my bodyy. At 11 I started being anorexic At 12 I battled bulmia It was on and of throught the year At 13 I tried stopping and im...
    Itsnessaye Itsnessaye 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    people tell me you're fine others tell me they love my body shape but i'm not convinced i hate my body so so much every time i look in the mirror i get so emotional and sometimes...
    Agirlwithissues Agirlwithissues 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    No one so many people struggle with their body image, because all I seem to see is people shaming body types! Every body type is beautiful in someone's eyes. Whether you're thin...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    Hmmm That would be myself. I am my worst enemy, Ha, I suppose I'm actually sleeping with the enemy. She is DANGEROUS and loses everything. If God himself were I. A closed room...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 70+, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    U & Me forever this way www.nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F Jul 21

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    When I was younger I use to have a problem with my body image. I always thought I was fat or wasn't pretty enough. I know that I will never be super skinny because that not my body...
    AmorTiana AmorTiana 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    ok, not with bulimia thankfully...but with anorexia in a very serious form...lol, I still hate myself for this, hate how much trouble I caused to my family...My parents deserve...
    AmarieOfTheVanyar AmarieOfTheVanyar 22-25, F Jul 20

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    Many people do not consider this self-harm, but I mostly harm my mouth. It's intrinsic and it feels right, I tried cutting and it does not. The other day I bit the tip of my tongue...
    Chrossy Chrossy 22-25, F Jul 20

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    tbh it really hurts me when people say hurtful things to me today I was at the park with my friend and this guy called me a fat *** apple and it hurts because I feel like I'm fat...
    justicechild justicechild 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I have no idea what triggers it. Sometimes it's depression, sometimes it's happiness. Right now I cant seem to keep food down without feeling guilty or wanting to throw it back up...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Yes, It's cliché. Here we go with the 19 year old girl who doesn't like the way she looks. I disgusting. I can't look at myself in the mirror without crying anymore. i try to...
    thissworld thissworld 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 18

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    So earlier on i was making a cappuccino and decided that **** it, for a day im gonna actually step out of my comfort zone. For the very first time ever, Im gonna just take off my...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Started taking Opiates when I was 14 and was never addicted just did drugs occasionally to unwind. Few years later and I've struggled with opiate addiction ever since. A few years...
    AyeJay6 AyeJay6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    "I want to help women Discover and accept what their best body looks like, without having to kill themselves to get there. And once they discover that, I want to help them have...
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 36-40, F Jul 16

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    I don't know about other guys, but I hate how I look most days. Not my weight, not my height, but my actual body image. I've always struggled with my weight, I was "blessed" with a...
    browncoat93 browncoat93 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Okay, so, I have very big issues with my body. The biggest issue I have is that my boobs are very, very different sizes. I know that it is natural for our boobs to be different...
    alligryda alligryda 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    my friend suggested that I should work out with a "butt lifter", at first I was confused until I googled it...yeaaaaa..looks like yoga pants with the butt cut out
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 14

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