Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Struggle With Bipolar 1

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 47 People

    Memories

    I'm beginning to see medication as a reasonable alternative to my moods, but is this really right? Is this ridiculousness medication withdrawal (I've been off of Abilify for over a month) or am I really this rapid cycling? There's a maximum of one day at a normal mood between my...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am in a mixed state of mania

    and depression today. Actually the last few days. My doctor said it's bc of my ptsd acting up. It makes my mood change second to second. And my "other one" is fighting to come out. I feel like I'm going crazy!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm 16 and have bipolar 1 with psychotic

    features. I recently started to experience ultradian rapid cycling and am highly resistant to mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. Trying 7 different antipsychotics, my mind still raced. I experience almost all side effects so Im definitely never taking any again. I always have...
    MisterJones54321 MisterJones54321 22-25, M Nov 10, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Bipolar And Relationships.

    I think of the stigma associated with mental problems and depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and related conditions. The seemingly automatic, there’s-something-wrong-with-you kind of judgement. I think of myself and why I never quite felt right...
    Trancefreak Trancefreak 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't Stuggle!

    Yes, I am diagnosed with Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features anf add to this Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Acute Anxiety/Panic Disorder, and it all makes for an interesting day every day. Once you reach my age - 50 years- you start to get a bit wiser and...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone

    I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17.  For years that's all I thought I had.  When I was 29 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder after almost accidentally killing myself with a mixture of vodka, valium, and Vicodin ES.  I had no intention of hurting myself but...
    silk123 silk123 31-35 1 Response Feb 7, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Years Past And Years To Come

    You suddenly realize that people have roots and the world is lit up in the brightest of colours you are thinking clearer than everyone elsebutyourthoughtsflashbysoquicklylikesurrealistpoetryfishglue. And now you're laughing. Are you high? You get asked. Are you on drugs. You...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A Glimpse...

    You feel the energy pulsing through you. It throbs through every cell of your body. Your nerves are on fire, completely inflamed and outstretched, receptive to every whisper, any twitch of motion near you. Touch is so amplified. A pat becomes a slap, a light grasp a clutch, a...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 12 Responses Jun 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 19, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Up Up Up Then Down Down Down

    Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember.  It plagued me as a child, teen, young adult then into adulthood.  Treated for depression since I was in my twenties I didn't recognized the up side of the disorder.  Needless to say I didn't go to the doctor...
    rubyetuesday rubyetuesday 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I dont stuggle with being rejected, mainly because I dont put myself into situations where i could be. But i struggle with rejecting others, i cant distance myself even if i...
    ablonddude ablonddude 16-17, M Mar 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have struggled with my weight for a while. I lost a lot of weight but still felt I wasn't good enough, but I was very relieved when I learned the bmi for black women and some...
    msjennycraig msjennycraig 31-35, F Mar 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I struggled with bulimia for many months. I was anorexic for a few months til I got help. Never let yourself go down that path. I'm still not happy with my body but I don't starve...
    hhannahhbabe hhannahhbabe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The highs in life are good but the lows are so so bad. The lows make you feel so alone and unwanted. The lows make you question if it's even worth going through it all. Maybe in...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Chase. Chase for the remaining seconds, make the minutes last longer, turn hours into decades and days into forever. How to do that? I don't know. Chasing the years, counting the...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F Mar 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So, today I found out I'm slightly autistic. My mom says it's something she's always known except it is not until now that we are discussing it. Also, due to this, it's going to...
    HannahB15 HannahB15 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Can I ******* die already? I got into a fight with my dad yesterday. I cried 6 times too. I'm ******* done.
    imjusttiredofbeingsad imjusttiredofbeingsad 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Does anybody else get this: when I go into social situations I break down. I don't know when to get in the convo or when I say something there is an awkward silence right after. It...
    Experiencezzzz Experiencezzzz 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am sick. I have a neurological disorder which causes agonizing, crippling pain the majority of my waking hours (and destroys my sleeping hours, as well.) Because it's also an...
    itsaggggthang itsaggggthang 26-30, F Mar 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am 5'11 and I'm 118 pounds. I'm in the "healthy" range, but my goal weight is to be around 100-105. I should just be happy with where I'm at. I've been working out 4 times a week...
    KJPKelsey KJPKelsey 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Right now, I'm in High School as an 8th Grade Student so I expected such work to be harder but I never expected it to be so hard and overwhelming that the stress I constantly feel...
    yourxworstxblessing yourxworstxblessing 13-15, F Mar 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My worst part of anxiety is when I have to go to gym class . I suck at sports and everything that has to do with movement
    worthmorethangold worthmorethangold 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am 30 lbs overweight and I don't like the way my body looks. I am afraid of gaining weight and I look bloated in all my pictures. I want to get back to when I had my weight under...
    may4life may4life 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have a serious problem with cocaine, and I need to stop. Can any one share a story of recovery with me please..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am utterly disgusted with myself. I'm a teen that is 5'3 and weighs 140 lbs. I used to be much larger but managed to lose 15 lbs, getting to about 125. I gained a lot of it back...
    scoherron scoherron 16-17, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have severe OCD, depression, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I would rather have a deadly illness and be happy than...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My belly is huge and my thighs are chubby. I feel so miserable about myself sometimes and my ex didnt help with that at all by even saying how unattractive i was.
    shazzarr shazzarr 18-21, F 11 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think everyone on here can agree that we grew up in a generation where beauty is what people primarily hope for. It's almost like you've accomplished something if you're pretty...
    sullygirl611 sullygirl611 22-25, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    ugghhhh. I'm in Vegas. I really want to have a good time but I know I'm not skinny and can't pull off those cute little dresses. I'm nervous I'll look awful. and my friend whose...
    ktweav123 ktweav123 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This has been going on for a few years now. I did stop, for a while, but I started again. I cut my shoulders, so no one can see, my mom found out one time, but she forgot the next...
    RoguePredator45 RoguePredator45 16-17, F Feb 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have an anxiety disorder which compells me to pull out my hair. I always have my hair up to hide the bald patches, but Im always worried I missed a spot and that "Im showing...
    Mikashirinkuto Mikashirinkuto 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    We cut and kill flowers because we think they are beautiful. We cut and kill ourselves because we think we are not.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F Feb 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have extreme gender dysphoria and its getting worse and I'm not out to anyone yet and idk what to do...
    emily1015 emily1015 13-15, T 3 Responses Mar 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I really, really do-whether it's imagined or otherwise. In fact, the rejections I imagine are probably way worse than when it happens for real. :/
    GracefullyFaceless GracefullyFaceless 22-25, F Mar 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    my self confidence is so low. i hate it. ?? im far from what society calls "normal", strength is something i have though.
    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    have always worried about my weight. I was really fat in elementary school. and so I just did stupid things go loose a lot of weight :/
    boredgirl02 boredgirl02 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I didn't binge and purged today!!! 5 pts for me I win I win ha!
    baabara baabara 22-25, M Mar 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Okay so the whole "real women have curves" thing bothers me. I'm apparently "too skinny" but I'm also tall! I'm just fed up because I've found myself really second guessing my body...
    tourdeforce tourdeforce 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm only 20yrs old but I feel so old. I feel like there's so much I have to accomplish right now so I'm not late later on in life. Why do I feel so old at 20yrs...?
    Experiencezzzz Experiencezzzz 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Okay, so I know it's dramatic but idec. What's the point? I mean, you stress out about school until you're in tears. You spend most if your life doing this over and over. You go...
    Xbr0Kenx Xbr0Kenx 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    But have made it this far. Not bad. Considering pals who left us all.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    im 5'4 197 pounds. I cant loose the weight not matter how hard I try and I'm a compulsive eater. I have never ever dated someone who didn't make me want to commit suicide or feel...
    TayyBears TayyBears 18-21, T Mar 13

    Your Response

    Cancel