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I Struggle With Bipolar 1

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 19, 2014

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    I am in a mixed state of mania

    and depression today. Actually the last few days. My doctor said it's bc of my ptsd acting up. It makes my mood change second to second. And my "other one" is fighting to come out. I feel like I'm going crazy!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 28, 2014

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    Memories

    I'm beginning to see medication as a reasonable alternative to my moods, but is this really right? Is this ridiculousness medication withdrawal (I've been off of Abilify for over a month) or am I really this rapid cycling? There's a maximum of one day at a normal mood between my...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    I'm 16 and have bipolar 1 with psychotic

    features. I recently started to experience ultradian rapid cycling and am highly resistant to mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. Trying 7 different antipsychotics, my mind still raced. I experience almost all side effects so Im definitely never taking any again. I always have...
    MisterJones54321 MisterJones54321 22-25, M Nov 10, 2014

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    Up Up Up Then Down Down Down

    Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember.  It plagued me as a child, teen, young adult then into adulthood.  Treated for depression since I was in my twenties I didn't recognized the up side of the disorder.  Needless to say I didn't go to the doctor...
    rubyetuesday rubyetuesday 56-60, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

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    My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone

    I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17.  For years that's all I thought I had.  When I was 29 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder after almost accidentally killing myself with a mixture of vodka, valium, and Vicodin ES.  I had no intention of hurting myself but...
    silk123 silk123 31-35 1 Response Feb 7, 2008

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    Years Past And Years To Come

    You suddenly realize that people have roots and the world is lit up in the brightest of colours you are thinking clearer than everyone elsebutyourthoughtsflashbysoquicklylikesurrealistpoetryfishglue. And now you're laughing. Are you high? You get asked. Are you on drugs. You...
    InvincibleHelpless InvincibleHelpless 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    A Glimpse...

    You feel the energy pulsing through you. It throbs through every cell of your body. Your nerves are on fire, completely inflamed and outstretched, receptive to every whisper, any twitch of motion near you. Touch is so amplified. A pat becomes a slap, a light grasp a clutch, a...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 12 Responses Jun 22, 2011

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    Bipolar And Relationships.

    I think of the stigma associated with mental problems and depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and related conditions. The seemingly automatic, there’s-something-wrong-with-you kind of judgement. I think of myself and why I never quite felt right...
    Trancefreak Trancefreak 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    I Don't Stuggle!

    Yes, I am diagnosed with Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features anf add to this Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Acute Anxiety/Panic Disorder, and it all makes for an interesting day every day. Once you reach my age - 50 years- you start to get a bit wiser and...
    KrazyAuntKim KrazyAuntKim 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    None of u know this and it might seem stupid to some but I have struggles with to much loss. Last year I lost my great grandma. She ment so much to me. I cried for months. I lost...
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    So many people struggle with their body image, I don't think many people can say they are truly happy with what they look like. I envy people who can. In an age were a lot of...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I struggle with an addiction that's pretty overwhelming yet embarrassing... I have tried to overcome it but unfortunately I can't
    yourxworstxblessing yourxworstxblessing 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 18

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    ive always struggled with being incredibly insecure about my body. one day i couldnt take it anymore and cut my thighs. ive been clean for about four days, but im always...
    anotherfailure anotherfailure 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Although I do not think about it ceaselessly, body image is something I ponder from time to time. Before I hit puberty, I was very skinny and underweight which made me extremely...
    Deedle81 Deedle81 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I dont stuggle with being rejected, mainly because I dont put myself into situations where i could be. But i struggle with rejecting others, i cant distance myself even if i...
    ablonddude ablonddude 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    I had to see many diffent psychiatrists psychologists and counselors, all of whom having different approaches and opinions and different meds for me to take. I was diagnosed with...
    jayciedubb jayciedubb 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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    Its so crazy because I've always been very athletic and skinny. 5'8 130lbs... but I still struggle! For a long time it was because I had small breast, but I recently got them done...
    KenziY KenziY 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    when i was 17 I was put in an intensive care unit for youth witch specialized in depression physios and many other mental health issues when the doctor asked me what are you in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4

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    after I had left the hospital my past had caught up with me my so called friends abondoned me and shunned my for leaving them How could i tell them that i coulden't do drugs with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 5

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    Im struggling with having a mature body.. Its doesnt fit on my age.. I got a lot of attention and i like to cry from having big boobs.. People always thought that im 18 or 19 which...
    mrsalpacino mrsalpacino 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I find it difficult to be social. I would try and make conversation however they always end up dead and dry. With this I don't have any ' real' friends. I think of them as good...
    bobbystz bobbystz 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Well I did and now i am healed and it was the hardest most terrible thing i have ever gone through and i thought it would never end but through a lot of hard work it did. i want...
    anniebomb anniebomb 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Ever since I was born things were really **** for me..im now 19 and it's getting worse well for starters I've never told this to anyone but when I was 10 years old i ended up being...
    Imacrazybiatch Imacrazybiatch 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    It's something I just haven't realized for the longest time.... I think I suffer from this. I first heard of the disease a while back and since then I've compared it to myself...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    I am uncomfortable with my body
    tourdeforce tourdeforce 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    After 5 years of being clean. I broke it. sometimes cutting myself is all I can do. For no reasons. Just to cover the pain of my heart with the pain in my wrist.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    This addiction isn't ok , it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    There I said it, I'm addicted to food and I can't stop. When I try to kick the addiction sometimes it works for a few days, even maybe a week but then when I feel an overwhelming...
    TheHogwartzJanitor TheHogwartzJanitor 18-21, F Feb 21

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    That feeling comes and goes, but when you've been struggling with it for so long, it's hard to let it go.
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    I can't handle my drink and have had some bad experiences while being drunk. So I'm trying my best to be more sensible. When I'm out with friends it's constantly on my mind to make...
    Mollybonnie Mollybonnie 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    I've become so used to hating myself, that it feels safer to hate myself. Whatever I do, I always try to blame myself for everything that goes wrong and I always feel like I haven...
    Darejani Darejani 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    So my anxiety has been that bad that I picked up a box of cigs to help with the nerves... Good thing is that it helps, bad thing is it's a terrible habit -.-
    catho catho 18-21, F Feb 23

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    I have been struggling with body image for pretty much as long as I can remember, and have been trying to improve it over the last year. I've lost 35lbs (still have plenty to go...
    RiseFromTheAshes RiseFromTheAshes 22-25, F Feb 24

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    Can I just have small boobs and skinny legs? Because that's be great. I hate how my calves are thick. My stomach and waist are small but my chest and thighs widen and isn't...
    vaashapenin vaashapenin 16-17, F a week ago

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    I when my body image starts to haunt me and I cant sleep at night. I guess thats just what I have to deal with when I have Borderline Personality Disorder
    ALivingTeenIdle ALivingTeenIdle 13-15, T 1 Response a week ago

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    In this post, I want to share why and how I have finally stopped my video game addiction. First of all let me introduce myself, I am a normal student in a state university and...
    rayx123 rayx123 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I love my mother but she's always pointing out anything that's wrong with me. The last time I got on a scale it said I weighed 115 pounds and all she said was "you gained five...
    EmotionallyWrecked EmotionallyWrecked 16-17, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I had a healthy body most of my adult life. I was aging well, in great shape, and enjoyed physical intimacy. Recently, I was diagnosed with a chronic disorder that requires taking...
    padraig17325 padraig17325 51-55, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Chase. Chase for the remaining seconds, make the minutes last longer, turn hours into decades and days into forever. How to do that? I don't know. Chasing the years, counting the...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    So, today I found out I'm slightly autistic. My mom says it's something she's always known except it is not until now that we are discussing it. Also, due to this, it's going to...
    HannahB15 HannahB15 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm working on this painting. I'm off meds now because I am considering two different directions my career can go. I need to have full strength in my creativity and as we all know...
    jaynesreflection jaynesreflection 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 20

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