I Struggle With Eating Disorders

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    It's really taking over.

    Sometimes I think so myself,"I'm not that big. I can handle a bite." I look in the mirror and I just want to die. It's really messing up my life and my emotions. I'm hungry and grumpy all the time. I have to really struggle from not snapping on my friends. I still do sometimes...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2014

    I have no idea what triggers it.

    Sometimes it's depression, sometimes it's happiness. Right now I cant seem to keep food down without feeling guilty or wanting to throw it back up again. My grandmother tries to get me to eat but it's so hard. My favorite foods feel deadly. The only food I wanted today, I couldn...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    Please Help Me

    So I received an email today stating that I was approved for a treatment center for my eating disorder. I know I want to get better because I don't want to die but my biggest fear is what if I cant do it. What if I let my mom down and she is disappointed in me. I know that as it...
    scared80 scared80
    31-35, F
    May 29, 2011

    Mom W' Ed

    im 30 married w/ 3 kids qho has ed
    lwallace lwallace
    31-35, F
    Apr 2, 2011

    I feel fat!!!😫 I hate myself

    so muh for gaining ******* 4 lbs! I just wanna cry and disappear til I lose this weight
    internallybreaking internallybreaking
    22-25, F
    May 11, 2014

    Feeling sick. Stupid acid reflux.

    Need my antacid meds but my doctor didnt refill it! Ugggg!!!!
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Nov 30, 2014

    Sometimes I wake up and I feel great about

    myself ... Then I look into the mirror and hate everything I see. My body always finds a way to **** me over. I hate being me sometimes.
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15
    18-21, F
    Jan 12, 2014

    Anybody Out There?

     As much as it sucks being the first one to post a story, I must say, I am ready to share my experience and I hope other's will be ok with this.  Right now, I will not say more than I have to because I don't know how much should or shouldn't be shared.  I was...
    MarieIsabella MarieIsabella
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 20, 2009

    Day #2 of b/p free YAY :-) Still feel

    that binge from 2 days ago yes I know it was really quite bad. Skipped lunch but I have to eat dinner bcos I don't want my family to suspect I'm still restricting :-(
    ELSAhugsyou ELSAhugsyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 1, 2014

    I've been having issues with my anorexia again.

    .. It's become more and more overwhelming. I've dropped from eating 1,200 calories a day to between 0-800. On top of that, I've been working off the calories I consume and I've lost 6 pounds in 3 days. I feel awful. I'm so scared to eat food... And right now I'm staring at a...
    prettypumpkinqueen prettypumpkinqueen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    so was a stone heavier on.

    digital scales panicked. finding it hard to.talk about it. cut food back a bit.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    I've never felt comfortable in my own skin.

    I also know that in no way I see what others see. ( If I look thinner or fatter I can not tell) Over the last year I have lost over 60 pounds for the good I was unhealthy. As I continue I know that me having no real control over what I am seeing won't help me in the long run. I...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2015
    j3nnalov3m3 j3nnalov3m3
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    Purged last night. Saw

    so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy at this point and I know, if I don't know anything else, is that I will die of this disorder and I'm ok with that.
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Nov 27, 2014


    When I was in the seventh grade, I liked someone (we'll call them 'bones'). Bones always told me how much they liked me and how much they wanted to be with me. I always asked why we weren't dating, but Bones always said it was because I was too fat, and that their brother wouldn...
    thelovelydemons thelovelydemons
    18-21, F
    Jun 20, 2013
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    ilytatelangdon ilytatelangdon
    18-21, F
    Jan 22, 2014

    I'm always switching it up.

    Someday I'll stop eating period. Maybe breakfast. Some chocolate too keep me calm. Then I'll just drink water and call it a day. I've been back at it for almost a week and it's just now starting to hit me that I'm hungry. But I'm getting smaller... I forgot how good it felt to...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15
    18-21, F
    Jan 29, 2015

    Why I Am So Lonely..

    Growing up I was happy, had friends, couldn't wait for my future. Yet at the same time, my family was always bringing me down. They would tell me I looked fat and that I needed to lose weight. Constantly. At first, I was like 'okay?' and carried on with my day. Once I got to...
    hmtrumpet14 hmtrumpet14
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2013


    i hate christmas there food everywhere and it bad food im so  worried i will lose control, it horrible it takes over christmas causes argument at home and means i cant relax at all ! it annoys me all the people and younge girls that want an eating dissorder they dont relise...
    forgotton forgotton
    18-21, F
    Dec 25, 2009


    I've always hated myself and grew up in my older brothers haggard shadow. I learnt easy and by six I was secretly anorexic. He didn't know that I lived off the laxatives he sometimes left lying around. He didn't know I would lie awake at night with tears streaming down my face...
    WordHustler1995 WordHustler1995
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10, 2012
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