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I Struggle With Mental Illness

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    Why Me?

    All my life I always knew I was different then everyone else, I just didn't know why. I thought differently, I couldn't fit in, I never had very many friends because I could never find anyone I could relate to. The only person I related to was my older brother, I looked up to him...
    MoodSwingBetty MoodSwingBetty 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Everyday Has Been A Constant Hell Since 1995

    I battle mental illness and my weakness to depression and anxiety I regret all my life the people I have had the misfortune to meet I wish I knew more caring people who valued me and understood my mental illness.
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2011

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    http://health.clevelandclinic.

    org/2014/01/greater-number-diseases-now-attributed-to-smoking/
    cronin43 cronin43 51-55, F Mar 14

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    Hello world. After a long

    and difficult 16 years of abuse, watching my mother be abused, and watching my step everywhere I go waiting for my dear father to snap again, we moved out. For the past three years I have been struggling with acute depression and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. The PTSD is...
    MissDoomNGloom MissDoomNGloom 18-21 2 Responses May 25

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    You know it's really bad

    when you think you need to be in a mental hospital
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    This is a response I wrote to an anorexic woman.

    I'm bipolar, but I've talked to enough people with other kinds of mental illnesses to see we have a lot in common. I wrote this to a woman who, like me, said she hated herself. I was trying to explain what I have learned to help cope with this problem. First, I started by...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    Why is it so hard for those of us

    who are suffering to get access to proper treatment. Not to mention the treatments available suck, the therapies are not as effective as psychologists would have you believe. Psychiatrists ignore therapy altogether because it's more profitable for them to prescribe you...
    Kingshelman Kingshelman 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    It's Christmas, unfortunately.

    .. all I really want to do is dive in front a car and leave my problems scattered on the highway. Nobody around me is happy, which doesn't help me the slightest.. unless frosty comes up to my window with a FAT joint.. I'm afraid I've given up.
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    On My Own

    Just wish sometimes somebody would understand how I feel
    TreeHuggingHippie000 TreeHuggingHippie000 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Back-story: I met this guy (we will call him D)

    in January of 2013 while I was going through a divorce. D and I were just friends at the time, after my divorce, we became more than friends and things went pretty fast, I moved in with him. We had fun together and I felt love towards him though he didn’t show much emotion and...
    ritycan ritycan 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    I feel so isolated and worthless,

    I've struggled with these feelings since I was a child.. I've grown so used to it I'm comfortable feeling this way which is sad, I can't keep friends because of it, everyone tends to give up after awhile and I completely understand why, I don't hold anything against them it's my...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Dec 18

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    I thought this would be people with actual

    mental illness not this depression hippy bullshit
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M 4 Responses Nov 17

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    heatherm10 heatherm10 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    This is so exhausting

    and it's taking a toll on everyone I care about :'( why can't I just be a normal person? I'm so very tired.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 8

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    I have a **** load of stuff wrong with me

    but I won't let it control my life again. I'm doing my best to cope with this incurable ****. I was diagnosed with the skitsophrenia(I can't even fudgen spell it) when I was around 16. It ruined my high school years. I also developed anxiety and depression. I'm doing good now...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    edpd1951 edpd1951 61-65, M 2 Responses Sep 3

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    It's really hard to deal with a mental illness.

    In class if a teacher asks a question that I'm supposed to know the answer to, but dont. Everyone will mock me and call me retard and worse. It's not my fault. But school is the worst place for me. I dont fit in there. It's embarrassing coming out of learning support and having...
    matti1342 matti1342 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Because it falls on me.

    And escaping such weight is rough. With no crane to lift facts from my eyes. Wish america cured. Instead of profiting off of us.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    I'm obsessed about what I want in life

    and can't get it out of my head. Its nothing uncommon at all but I know without work and complaining all the time wouldn't change anything. I tried to be calm and happy about what I have thankful for what I've got in life...but the moment that I see its impermanence and how...
    Quentine Quentine 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    A few nights ago I almost overdosed of pills

    I've been stock piling. I hadn't taken my antipsychotic since November 30 and I was losing my mind. I was sleeping maybe a hour every night for weeks, until one night I didn't sleep at all and almost ODed. I got my medication finally on the 20th. I still feel weird. I don't...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Since the age of five I have been diagnosed

    with Bipolar disorder with general anxiety and I was cleared for Aspburgers. So I never generally made friends because I was the weird child, my emotions were not normal and I did not act like other kids, even worse a lot of teachers did not know how to handle me. So it was a...
    Giraffafa Giraffafa 22-25, F 1 Response May 9

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    I have eating disorders

    if somebody want to talk, i will listen 'cause i know how ir feels
    Loveskinny123 Loveskinny123 16-17 Nov 19

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    I suffer from ME (chronic muscle fatigue)

    and all its related symptoms inc social anxiety, low self esteem, depression. I am here looking for fiends to chat with as years of battling this illness have now left me unable to work and agoraphobic. I am also here to share my experiences and help people if i can. I am a...
    SAandME SAandME 46-50, M 1 Response May 26

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    Mental Illness Feels Like A Dark Force

    Looking back over my earthly existince from birth to now (29) i can see the effects of anxiety, depression and low confidence, showing through different episodes in my life. Im not going to go into all the occurences.. be here for a while! Where i am now feels like im on the...
    overthinker247 overthinker247 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Today I had an extreme breakdown,

    now my knuckles are cut up and bleeding, my body hurts, and I feel destroyed and empty inside. I am considering getting treatment now, being, my suicidal thoughts are close to taking action again therefore, I know I need to at least make an attempt at any sort of potential...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response Dec 16

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    Depression seriously sucks.

    I've been battling this for as long as I can remember. Some days I feel like I'm winning, other days I feel like I'm losing. Ugh!
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 27

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    I want to remember this Forever keep it a page

    I can turn to But my mind has already left me It was blown out like a speaker It rattles and shakes where it should be smooth, steady and yielding Summarily, I'm existing beyond mind I don't have it I can't pull things up for review As soul, I'm looking at a control board with...
    ArtemisAncestor ArtemisAncestor 26-30, F May 9

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    I probably picked up depression genetically

    because it runs in my dad's side of the family. He is bi-polar, and living under that condition was like growing up with an unpredictable alcoholic, which added to the depression and added some degree of anxiety to the mix. I have also been tested for and diagnosed with ADD...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 7

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    I recently found a suicide note I had written

    when I was at my worst with my eating disorder and depression. Although I'm still struggling with both of those things, I can definitely say I've come a long way since that point. I wrote the note shortly before I was admitted to the hospital for being severely/dangerously...
    kaylxlynn kaylxlynn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I have social anxiety,

    My parents tell me to get over it and force me to parties I can't go to. They think it will help, yeah sure just wait one second while I cry on the floor. It's gotten to the point where I harm myself and I'm getting closer and closer to commuting suicide.
    XbeyonceX XbeyonceX 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 17

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    Frustration, Confusion and Despair

    I don't want to sound gloomy, but the last couple of days have    been very difficult. I can't go outside and stay there very long, before the terror and the paranoia overwhelms me. I mean 48 hrs. ago everything was fine and then BAM !!!I was knocked to my knees...
    Engine32 Engine32 46-50, M 5 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    I suffer from health anxiety .

    Sometimes I can laugh at it, because I can understand how bizarre it seems to the outside world, but when I'm in the middle of an 'episode' it is terrifying. I have 'had' coming up to ten terminal illnesses in the past 12 weeks. This morning I woke up with a new one. I feel...
    annabellagwokamella annabellagwokamella 26-30, F Dec 11, 2013

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    I Have A Chemical Imbalance

    Well about four years ago i started having problems.The  doctors didn't even know what was wrong with me.I.have been diagnosed as bi polar and dilusional disorder.I now go to a natural path who also went to regular medical school.She has done wonders for me because...
    stebrown83 stebrown83 26-30, F Aug 24, 2010

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    Bipolar

    I've struggled with mental illness most of my life although I did not get diagnosed till 16 years ago.  I've been through many different meds, some worked for awhile, some not at all. I recently went through ECT treatment because nothing else seemed to work and I'd run out of...
    lswycoff lswycoff 51-55 1 Response Dec 21, 2011

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    I'm torn. I'm torn about accepting the mental

    illness labels doctors have diagnosed me with, such as having bipolar and depression, because I don't want the labels to define me. At the same time, I know that in a sense, it could help me when it comes to getting the proper help I need since I struggle day to day with these...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    All I keep doing is pushing people away like my

    mum and dad an blame my mum mostly when my dad's the one who's the reason they split up. In school I'm just horrible to my friends an don't speak to them but they take it personal but they don't understand it's not them it's me. On the outside I blame everyone else but In the...
    wait0what wait0what 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I enjoy dreams which I am visiting other

    dimensions of civilaztions
    edpd1951 edpd1951 61-65, M Sep 7

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    I visited a psychiatrist

    for the first time today because I have an attention problem and she prescribed me an attention deficit medicine without screening me so anxiety washed all over me when I got out of her office.. I thought she was gonna ask me questions ask me about my life make me feel like it's...
    psychedelicblues psychedelicblues 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    However the actions displayed are abnormal. There are many EP users with mental health on here and in reference to only the genuine sufferers I'm not sure if it possible but...
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    At the mean time I live at supported accomadation for people with mental health issue .i have been to psychiatric hospital three times .i have been suffering with depression for...
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    2 years I struggled with self harm ... Scars on my wrist and thigh ... I haven't self harmed in over a year ... Just got my heart ripped out and stomped on .... I have my blade in...
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    I am 28 years old. I started to dislike my body at 12... how is it possible that I have disliked my reflection for 16 years? I struggle with it daily and even when I change my self...
    ozzgrrl ozzgrrl 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I write this with my own experience in mind, I do not judge anyone yet I will 'preach' about how addiction can ruin your quality of life. I have struggled with opiates, but...
    SingToTheSiren SingToTheSiren 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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