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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I have struggled with this for a long time, but it always comes and goes. Today i started thinking about how I don't make enough art. I do wish I made more, and I do feel that...
    purposebuilt purposebuilt 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    I was at my friends volleyball practice at our school and I was wearing a sweatshirt, jean shorts ( long enough to cover my thigh) , and had my summer reading book and phone in...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    Been clean all summer. Although it's been pretty low stress, perhaps there is a correlation between the high levels of stress at school and my self-harm. Only one way to find out...
    Bongopanda Bongopanda 16-17, M Aug 10

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    I have self-harmed since is was the ripe age of 7. Then, I wasn't using anything of the caliber I use today, merely my fingernails and the occasional earring, but I left marks. I...
    ElfKelsey ElfKelsey 13-15, F Jul 20

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    I'm basically Michael Jackson reincarnated, except without the talent of course. Just self-hatred wise.
    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 16-17, F Jul 23

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    My newest editions along with the old scratches that scarred worse than I thought they would.
    thalassinia thalassinia 13-15, F a week ago

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    The thing is there are a lot of pretty girls out there. They're pretty and they don't even try. They don't wear makeup and they don't have to spend hours doing their hair. It's all...
    BeautifulMistake21 BeautifulMistake21 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I really need someone who can relte, I have been dealing with this since I was 9 and trying so hard to stop. Please help me. Please don't jdge and I won't judge you.
    guitarsongwriter guitarsongwriter 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been 3 months since I've cut myself .. I had really bad depression , I had to take pills . I had really bad anxiety , I couldn't breath . And I've tried to commit suicide 2...
    MiaSnider MiaSnider 13-15, F Jul 22

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    I have attempted suicide many times now and have been cutting for years. I just recently lost a friend to suicide and I've almost decided that it up my ally also. I've been...
    Raelyn13 Raelyn13 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    I've been cutting for 4 years. And I have never told anyone close why I do it. I am afraid to tell and I don't know why.
    DiamondNikki12 DiamondNikki12 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I have ever since I was 12. I'm 15 now. Then longest I went clean was a little over 6 months which I just recently broke . Only 4 people know and I plan to keep it that way. I don...
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    62 days clean ^^ I'm too lazy and happy to convert that to months so. Don't hesitate to talk if you're having problems or just wish for an uplifting chat
    ItsAlexYay ItsAlexYay 13-15, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I tell myself : "Stop. Don't talk to me. Loser, lamo, wannabe." 😖
    laxprincess laxprincess 13-15, F a week ago

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    Since 8th grade I have struggled with so much anxiety. I used to think it was just me getting nervous seeing people I knew out in public, but it gets to a point when you know you...
    xsarah23x xsarah23x 16-17, F Jul 31

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    I wouldn't say I'm ugly, but I don't think I am pretty. Id say im cute at most but not pretty and certainly not "hot". I've struggled with my weight my whole life and I've recently...
    adimarie adimarie 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I struggle with it a lot. my lower arms and lower legs arm like a skinny persons but my thighs are huge and my stomach is just uhhh... I put myself on a diet which was long over do...
    RavenRena17 RavenRena17 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I used to be extremely over weight back in high school and I had severe body image issues. I knew I was fat and knew for sure that's all anyone ever noticed so I became a loner and...
    Jbsc21 Jbsc21 22-25, M Jul 20

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    I've had anxiety for just over a year now. I have been on anti-depressants for the same amount of time. Mine is a blend of generalised, social and anticipatory anxiety. Overall, it...
    Sapphire14 Sapphire14 18-21, F Aug 10

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    I see all the lonely depressed young people looking to talk to someone that will listen to them on here. If I could help here are a few things I would suggest: Google "PBS...
    TCLowe TCLowe 31-35 Aug 5

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    I still struggle daily...and I am scared it's beating me..
    allisonbrookwhite allisonbrookwhite 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I'm not a big girl, but there is so much room for improvement. I weigh a little less than 130, but most of my weight is in my belly and it's extremely embarrassing. I am having...
    lkb93 lkb93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    When I go out I find it hard or when I go swimming, I try not to wear tank tops or shorts because I'm quiet muscly and my body is not famine at all. When I was with my friends I...
    TargetAimShootKill TargetAimShootKill 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 25

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    I can't keep a man if my life depended on it. Every single time I get a good guy, I'll be all down for a relationship then out of no where I'm like "nahhhh" and it sucks cause I've...
    jayybbyx jayybbyx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I'm at work and there's a fridge in the office with chocolate and cake in it. Right now I'm alone, and it's really hard to resist the temptation to eat. But I'm tryinggggg I haven...
    emmacla emmacla 22-25, F Jul 28

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    I haven't lived the life I wanted. I haven't made my dreams fly. I gave up on a lot of things. Maybe because I'm not strong. Maybe because it's not time yet. I know we all hold...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 28

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    Perfection💕 Perfection is a disease that kills The thought of rejection gives you chills You want to be tall and thin Like everyone else you want to fit in It hurts but it's...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 16-17, F Jul 29

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    I'm definitely an 'up and down'er with my weight. First hit a high weight at 13, slowly through healthy balanced dieting lost it an emerged through it at 15. Then went too far and...
    MillyMilly33 MillyMilly33 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    It's recently started actually if you read my profile you'll know I don't have much evidence as a Christian which is true and post that I'm Christian because well it's a fact I'm...
    chooseyourpath chooseyourpath 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 1

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    I have a **** load of stuff wrong with me but I won't let it control my life again. I'm doing my best to cope with this incurable ****. I was diagnosed with the skitsophrenia(I can...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I just don't know anymore. I feel like I'm bad for everyone in my life. I just really feel like ending my life. I'm done with struggling, done with no one understanding, done with...
    got2Breal got2Breal 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    It's a living hell really. Just going out in public is hard to do. I hate being in crowds. Therapist hasn't helped much. Hell, even being around my bestfriend is hard to do now...
    thatoneguy336 thatoneguy336 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    If there's a large amount of people in a single room I have a real problem with that
    panthrax00 panthrax00 16-17, M Aug 4

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    I'm short and have an hourglass figure - think Marilyn Monroe with thinner thighs. I will never be a tall, skinny supermodel. I hate my tummy - even at my lowest adult weight (107...
    SmartKat SmartKat 46-50, F 15 Responses Aug 5

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    We all need a man that looks at us with passion and desire despite our flaws. Someone who can make us feel sexy and confident. A man who loves you for you...,,
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    Mostly around my little sis and friends all who would be an au size 6 or under. I love my curves and wouldn't change it for the world but when you go out and someone else refers to...
    calmj calmj 22-25, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    Its easy to do it online. you can be anonymous, someone else entirely... In real life it's so hard to be completely emotionally naked with another human being. Even telling someone...
    InMybubble InMybubble 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am always really bad with my words and usually offend people by saying the wrong thing, I say one thing and mean another. Opening up to people really makes me uncomfortable...
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Suicidal thoughts have been plaguing me since I was about 11 years old I'm now 46. There have been numerous attempts and hospital stays I have been on meds but they just take all...
    CaptPetemoss CaptPetemoss 46-50, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I've never been a skinny woman. I was very overweight threw my teens but got my weight down in my 20's to a much healthier level. I'm not skinny by any mean but I'm happy in my...
    Tonithelass Tonithelass 41-45, F Jul 20

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    i've never been skinny. i was always 'the fat one' in the family, and when i was little i never knew it would affect me in my teens as it is now. i have ocd. this makes me really...
    meowshelbs meowshelbs 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    Back down to 108 pounds! YEAH!!!!
    SkinnyJenny420 SkinnyJenny420 18-21, F Jul 22

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