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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I've become so used to hating myself, that it feels safer to hate myself. Whatever I do, I always try to blame myself for everything that goes wrong and I always feel like I haven...
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    Alwaysundecided Alwaysundecided 22-25, F Feb 11

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    Its hard to even feel like living
    johnny437 johnny437 13-15, M Feb 12

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    can people please stop telling me that im pretty and a nice person because it doesn't help me im always going to hate myself so dont try to fix me please
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    ******* hate it when these thoughts run rapidly in my mind. These urges and risks to harm myself are so high. It's been months since my last cut. The sudden sharp pain of reality...
    SuicidalSilence SuicidalSilence 13-15 Feb 18

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    It happens again and again I can't stop
    charliehowarth charliehowarth 16-17, F Feb 18

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    RoguePredator45 RoguePredator45 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    We cut and kill flowers because we think they are beautiful. We cut and kill ourselves because we think we are not.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Deedle81 Deedle81 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    HannahB15 HannahB15 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    KenziY KenziY 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    after I had left the hospital my past had caught up with me my so called friends abondoned me and shunned my for leaving them How could i tell them that i coulden't do drugs with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 5

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    I find it difficult to be social. I would try and make conversation however they always end up dead and dry. With this I don't have any ' real' friends. I think of them as good...
    bobbystz bobbystz 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Well I did and now i am healed and it was the hardest most terrible thing i have ever gone through and i thought it would never end but through a lot of hard work it did. i want...
    anniebomb anniebomb 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Ever since I was born things were really **** for me..im now 19 and it's getting worse well for starters I've never told this to anyone but when I was 10 years old i ended up being...
    Imacrazybiatch Imacrazybiatch 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    padraig17325 padraig17325 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    when i was 17 I was put in an intensive care unit for youth witch specialized in depression physios and many other mental health issues when the doctor asked me what are you in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4

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    I am uncomfortable with my body
    tourdeforce tourdeforce 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    This addiction isn't ok , it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    So my anxiety has been that bad that I picked up a box of cigs to help with the nerves... Good thing is that it helps, bad thing is it's a terrible habit -.-
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    vaashapenin vaashapenin 16-17, F 5 days ago

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