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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I've struggled with self harm since about 7th grade. I am now in 10th. I have not cut since January 28, 2014 but I still struggle with other types of self harm. I binge, perge, and...
    ForeverLostPoet ForeverLostPoet 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    I do not romanticize self harm, or believe it to be good. This is just my experience with it. I've never been a "hard-core" self harmer, but it's still an addiction that I...
    terribletaytor terribletaytor 18-21, F Jul 13

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    I have just become a farther to a beautiful girl. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for a long time, I wonder how I can be a farther when I hate myself. I would really...
    headerz headerz 36-40, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    Safe haven for self harm, a great place to go. I recommend it, even to those who have only started self harming, better to stop early than late.
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 Jun 26

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    I have self-harmed since is was the ripe age of 7. Then, I wasn't using anything of the caliber I use today, merely my fingernails and the occasional earring, but I left marks. I...
    ElfKelsey ElfKelsey 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I'm basically Michael Jackson reincarnated, except without the talent of course. Just self-hatred wise.
    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I cannot look in the mirror without listing all my flaws. I can't shake my feeling the rest of the day. I've turned cold, and even my medication isn't helping.
    OrionConst OrionConst 18-21, M Jun 28

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    I haven't cut for almost a year now because I learned that I am perfect the way I am. But I used to cut all the time a few years back. I still have scars but I show them off with...
    SamLGirl SamLGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I mostly hate who I used to be. The immature phases I went through, you know? But I suppose I can't dwell on the past. It's a part of growing up, anyway.
    nikkianni nikkianni 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Kaylaana Kaylaana 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    I'm a miserable contribution to the human species. It's as simple as that. I suffer from deep depression and I sometimes seem like I have bipolar depression, but i'm not diagnosed...
    DejectedJoe DejectedJoe 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 11

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    My eyes rain out of tears... So I forced my skin to cry instead...😔
    nohope2345 nohope2345 13-15, F Jul 12

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    One of my many scratches I've made since I don't have any blades. And it may not seem like much but it has been a week since I made this. And this is one of ten. But this is the...
    thalassinia thalassinia 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    It's been 3 months since I've cut myself .. I had really bad depression , I had to take pills . I had really bad anxiety , I couldn't breath . And I've tried to commit suicide 2...
    MiaSnider MiaSnider 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    haha I just came up with a smartass name for the phenomenon of unjustified self loathing teen girls... emo, whiny, I am soooo ugleh, etc etc hateurbation. n. The act of getting...
    mrinvader mrinvader 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I'm done. I'm sick with all the negativity. I'm turning 17 in a few weeks and for once I want to control this body image im struggling. I'm 5'5 and weigh around 160 pounds (or...
    burningdesir3 burningdesir3 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I struggle with my body image everyday, but nobody can tell. I walk around like I have high self-esteem because I refuse to let people see me down. In reality, I hate the way my...
    XxMarxX XxMarxX 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    Tomorrow I am going to my friends sisters bridal shower. My friend told me to wear a dress and if I wanted to wear one of hers I could. I hate when she says I should wear her...
    Lipsofred Lipsofred 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've struggled with my weight for most of my life. Looking back though I really wasn't that bad, but in my mind I was disgustingly & impossibly overweight. Rather than feeling...
    dukelostboy25 dukelostboy25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I wouldn't say I'm ugly, but I don't think I am pretty. Id say im cute at most but not pretty and certainly not "hot". I've struggled with my weight my whole life and I've recently...
    adimarie adimarie 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    At times I struggle with rejection and other times I feel almost immune to it. My hubby and I have been married for almost ten years and have been together 12. He rejects me...
    1SweetL 1SweetL 36-40, F 43 Responses Jun 25

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    There was this guy who rode the same bus I did to class and I was completely mesmerized by him. I thought he was the most beautiful person I've ever seen, but I only talked to him...
    meagenator meagenator 16-17, F a week ago

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    I am struggling harder now with body image than I ever have in my entire life, to the point that I sometimes can't look people straight in the eye because I'm so convinced others...
    TryingToFeelGoodAboutMyself TryingToFeelGoodAboutMyself 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    My self esteem is like a ******* rock ._. The higher you bring it up, the harder it comes crashing down ._.
    IMetHimAtTheCandyStore IMetHimAtTheCandyStore 13-15, F Jun 25

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    I've lost so much weight I went from 160 to 129 and I still feel so fat my self esteem is at an all time low....
    krodz13 krodz13 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Everyday. And at least once a week I break down from seeing nothing but pretty women in this city. I cry over it, plus more. It hurts ten times as worse when my BF looks at them or...
    KittyMask KittyMask 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I'm short - 5 feet - and muscular. This causes my muscles to add a lot to my weight and I hate it, but I don't say anything...I'm a runner and have the makings of thunder thighs...
    jasenamigala jasenamigala 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I used to be extremely over weight back in high school and I had severe body image issues. I knew I was fat and knew for sure that's all anyone ever noticed so I became a loner and...
    Jbsc21 Jbsc21 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I am 13 years old and I never use to like the way I look at school people would always call me fat and ugly and I would tell my self you are beautiful don't let those comments...
    ChaceMarie ChaceMarie 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    This is a response I wrote to an anorexic woman. I'm bipolar, but I've talked to enough people with other kinds of mental illnesses to see we have a lot in common. I wrote this to...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M Jul 13

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    Since I was 12, ( I am now 15) I have had a larger labia then everyone I know. I struggle to even feel confident enough to wear a bikini ( I'm a fairly thin girl). I don't ever let...
    lollipopsnliquor lollipopsnliquor 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm torn. I'm torn about accepting the mental illness labels doctors have diagnosed me with, such as having bipolar and depression, because I don't want the labels to define me...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I have had panic attacks for as long as I can remember. A few years ago my doctor prescribed Ativan to quell the anxiety. I took them with no problem until earlier this year. They...
    stl2nite stl2nite 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    When I was little my mum used to give me drugs dunno why she just made me use them and after growing up with abuse and violence I started doing them a lot as a young teen and I'm...
    tomjimmy tomjimmy 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 25

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    Why do every person I care about always leave me...I've only had 1 real relationship in my life before. The very first one last almost 3 years. We broke up after I moved back home...
    Sorasai Sorasai 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 26

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    I used to be the absolute worst with this. Though I have been completely faithful for over three years now, I can't help but desire just to meet new people...but that turns into...
    Allibecca Allibecca 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    When my mum died my brother wanted to be the hero, he even tried to stop me going to her funeral and his lucky i did't whack him on the day because he hurt me more than anyone...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    "Sometimes being drug free, has less to do with addiction, and more to do with sanity." ~To This Day, Shane Koyczan
    sumthinoriginal sumthinoriginal 16-17, F Jun 30

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    I'm a Bisexual male. I find that I see beautiful men a lot but my mind goes through stages. First I notice how gorgeous they look and how composed they are. Second I hope to meet...
    Shiznitone Shiznitone 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I'm trying to learn how to love myself as a person. I am having such a difficult time with this.. I just turned 29 and feel 50. I have three beautiful children who mean the world...
    greeneyedmomma greeneyedmomma 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    well after my depression my weight has dropped from around 100 kg's to the range of 75-77 kg's and I kept that weight for about 2 years, knowing that I couldn't go to the gym...
    LoneDovahKiin LoneDovahKiin 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    At my best I'd like to think that I'm charismatic, a good friend, funny, with resolve. But lately it's so hard to control my temper after dating a sociopath and other things that...
    Kimbahbay Kimbahbay 16-17, F Jul 4

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    I hate everything about the way I look. I've never told anymore in person, but it kills me to see other people so happy. It makes me do terrible things to myself. All my pimples...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 5