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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    Yeah all I do is cause my own problems,

    then wish for someone to care. I guess it's only human, but I hate myself a lot. I feel like a huge disappointment to my parents all the time, (I thought I had myself figured out and now all the sudden I have no idea, but I digress.) and I really care about my friends but to the...
    oeN4 oeN4 18-21, F 1 Response May 17

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I can't stand myself today. Really for the past few days. I've had a break up and been sick, but I hate every aspect of myself. I hate my hair, my eyes because they're shaped...
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    I'm not living, I'm existing, and I'm just barely existing. I really haven't changed much from birth to now. As far back as I can recall, I was always avoidant, dumb, and alone...
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