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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    Yeah all I do is cause my own problems,

    then wish for someone to care. I guess it's only human, but I hate myself a lot. I feel like a huge disappointment to my parents all the time, (I thought I had myself figured out and now all the sudden I have no idea, but I digress.) and I really care about my friends but to the...
    oeN4 oeN4 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I have had a long and hard struggle with self hatred. I grew up in a family of 9 kids. I seemed to always be the most sensitive. It made me feel as tho something was wrong with me...
    iowateri8309 iowateri8309 51-55 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I no longer cut or burn myself, but I still do other harmful things like picking at my skins and scabs, pulling out my hair, biting my lip until it bleeds, digging my nails into my...
    NaturallyPeculiar NaturallyPeculiar 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    Ok so my dad has seen my self harm scars (the picture above shows most of them). He doesn't understand self harm in the slightest bit. He thinks I do it to try to be "cool" or it's...
    KakeLove KakeLove 13-15, F 1 Response May 13

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    Hi im justin im 14 and i have been bullied for 3 years right now im on 8th grade but next year im going to high school and im scared i really cant stand it no more i wanna kill my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 30

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    I'm not particularly looking for attention, I'm just not afraid of my own scars anymore. Nobody should be afraid of their own scars, it's bullshit. I'm gonna wear...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 16-17 Apr 29

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    Going 4 days without cutting.... No days without starving.... No days without drinking.....
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I'm not depressed all the time, but when I am I love to cut. I love to see the blood and it takes all my pain away, except it gets me more depressed .
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M May 1

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    There are a lot of things I've said and done that have pushed many people I care about away from me. I want to take it all back, but where would I learn those lessons if I didn't...
    ItalianFilipino ItalianFilipino 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    I hate my life. I have bipolar and anxiety issues and eat out of depression. I am overweight and can't seem to get the strength to do anything about it. I've begun sticking my...
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter 31-35, M 2 Responses May 8

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    :( it's not easy to escape for me... my parents are always like "Only you can stop this." My only response is anger, I feel like yelling "EASIER SAID THAN DONE!!" But don't...
    AnonWesker AnonWesker 13-15, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm pathetic. I'm a childish boy who wants a boyfriend but can't keep one because I'm a sad little smear on this Earth. My ex told me all that and I wholeheartedly agree.
    Nickbailes Nickbailes 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like everything I do, everything I say, everything I don't do, everything I don't say, everything I feel,and everything I am, is wrong.
    Number5billion Number5billion 16-17, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My bipolar makes me hate everything and everyone. I know it's not really me that hates so much, my bipolar has hijacked my brain and has filled it with so much hatred, anger, doubt...
    bipolarPeter bipolarPeter 31-35, M May 9

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    Springtime is especially hard for me. Depression hits hard and antidepressants only make me ultra rapid cycle. My dr has me on a new antidepressant called Brintellix. I've been on...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F Apr 28

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    I struggle with this a lot & find it hard to believe compliments, but the more weight I lose and more exercise I do the more confident I get and it gets that little bit easier
    littlelib littlelib 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    I have endometriosis and pcos. I am overweight and I struggle with everything in life. I am just always sad.
    mimiakito123 mimiakito123 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11

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    I've always struggled with this. Ever since I was younger. Kinda doesn't help when your boyfriend is so engulfed with being in the gym...
    SadhbhHarrington SadhbhHarrington 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I am my own worst critic. I nitpick everything to death. My eyebrows, hair, my teeth, smile, nose. If it's a part of me I've probably been dissatisfied with it at one point. It...
    FallingSun FallingSun 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    Communication is key, so they say. Especially in this era of instantaneous, text-based communication! Words can be ambiguous, unfortunately. Each of us individually assign meaning...
    FindmeHoldmeLoveme FindmeHoldmeLoveme 18-21 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I look ok today. I actually braved the mirror and didn't despise what I saw. For those of you who know me you will be aware that this is a huge deal for me. My history of physical...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 28

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    I am super self conscious when i am naked and aroused for a couple certain reasons. I would like to extinguish this problem and be completely happy and feel free and good about...
    Littlejacki Littlejacki 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    This life just isn't what it used to be. I have no job, no home, the clothes, shoes & perfumes I have are dwindling down to almost nothing. I'm recovering from a broken arm when I...
    mylifeoutloud mylifeoutloud 41-45, F 2 Responses May 7

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    Recently, ive quit a five year addiction, I had been swallowed up into this hole of no company, no friends, the people i knew? thieves, robbery and deceit were all these people...
    LifeChangedMe LifeChangedMe 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I'm terrible with my self image. I pick apart every detail of myself. My skin, freckles, eyes, head shape. I've attempted suicide over things like this and this is the only place I...
    PrimadonnaBoy PrimadonnaBoy 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    The trials and tribulations that has happen in my life. I take responsibility of it, because I know the consequences that were going to happen. I'm not perfect, I'm just human that...
    Natashxxs Natashxxs 31-35, F May 13

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    When I was 13 I weighed 197 pounds and I was only 5'5". I've struggled for so long with my weight. I lost 30 pounds before I turned 14 and I've slowly gained it back. I'm tired of...
    socalboy99 socalboy99 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I seem to drive people away, I've been told also that I'm closed off, emotionally and generally just closed off. I don't see it though, this makes me feel like I'm not normal, like...
    Experiencezzzz Experiencezzzz 18-21, M Apr 23

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    i need to loose weight i am so unhappy with myself ...
    flyflyaway87 flyflyaway87 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I think I might be Anorexic...I have been really struggling with my body image lately, and I've been making big changes in my diet and everyday routine, just so I can form a...
    PurplePain12359 PurplePain12359 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 26

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    Well, where do I begin. I recently turned 55 and so disgusted in how I look. I am about a good 20 lbs. over weight and age has definitely taken its toll. In 2013 I had some...
    bramco2015 bramco2015 51-55, F Apr 27

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    I once told my dad I didn't want dessert when I was feeling fat and he slammed a big jug of ice cream right in front of me with a spoon in it. can't he just respect me when I say...
    aileen2 aileen2 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    I tell myself I won't get drunk, as soon as I've had a couple of pints, that's it, I'm on it then and can't stop, is there something wrong with me
    cafc1 cafc1 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 27

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    one day I'll look in the mirror and say "ok, i can work with this..." in the meantime I'll just loathe at the people who I perceive as "perfect"....
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 12 Responses Apr 28

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    Life is a bitter sweet pill I am forced to take against my will Everyone trying to pull me Back into so called reality Why, I ask, what does it hold? Don't they see I have nothing...
    1986shanet 1986shanet 26-30, M May 5

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    I don't understand. I'm one of these people who just love. I try to get along with everyone, I have never wanted much, I don't ask for gifts. I love things made or are thoughtful...
    nolife1 nolife1 18-21, F May 6

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    I know I'm not ugly but I know I'm not as cute as I used to be. What makes it worse is that I fear I will never have the perfect body to fit in with the "gay scene " and it sucks.
    Lilman380 Lilman380 22-25, M 1 Response May 6

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    I used to be thin and my boyfriend at the time (now my husband) couldn't get enough of me so I thought, two kids later, I'm not as fit and have stretch marks. He watches **** now...
    kari7755 kari7755 22-25, F 14 Responses May 7