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I Struggle With Self Loathing

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    Fred

    The thing about guys like me is that no one wants to be like guys like me. You see, I don’t think I’ve ever done anything according to plan or what should be done. It’s like my mind is a virus, except, you can’t catch it. Guys like me just have it. You don’t know what...
    fredpepper fredpepper 16-17 May 19, 2012

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    Not A Happy Friday

    I woke up this morning and had another mini row with my OH. Felt physically awful - No idea if it is due to a dodgy pizza yesterday or drinking alcohol last night. Either way, it’s not good. I always do this. I fancy a drink and convince myself that I can handle it and I will...
    JennyJones1975 JennyJones1975 36-40, F Sep 2, 2011

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    I Hate Who And What I Am

    I have been struggling with a lot of negative feelings that I went through as a child on the farm and in the 70s and 80s.... when Bill was abusing mewhen people abuse me I feel like I become them.... in some way.... I felt like people seen me like Ron Poacher or Bill etcI felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 24, 2012

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    I know that I'm not the only one out there. In fact, many girls and boys struggle with the impossible standards of beauty in this society. This is my story.When I was 11, my mother...
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    As I leave my flat at Webb house supported housing for people with mental health issues I walk down the road and I walk in mark & Spenser in middlesbrough I stand before the mirror...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I feel like everyone hates me, they should, including myself
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M Nov 17

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    I've always known I was a very emotionally unstable person but as I graduated highschool it has gotten much worse. By all rights I should live an incredibly happ life. I am a good...
    NothinButLove NothinButLove 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    I can relate to so many stories I've read on these pages. It is so difficult to go through life when you feel flawed, and "less than" other people, when you don't like the person...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 4 Responses Oct 31

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    What first brought me to this site was a blog that I came across. I now see that this site has turned for the worst lol... Any who a few of us still use it to vent blog etc...
    simplelife60 simplelife60 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am 28 years old. I started to dislike my body at 12... how is it possible that I have disliked my reflection for 16 years? I struggle with it daily and even when I change my self...
    ozzgrrl ozzgrrl 26-30, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    This is the story of my 7 years love struggle with Linda. When i was 21, there was a girl in my neighborhood called Lucy, Lucy was 6 years young than i am, when she was a toddler...
    lawrencepurity lawrencepurity 26-30, M Nov 4

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    I still struggle with my body image like many women do. I think it was much worse when I was younger in my teens and early 20s, when I think it was actually more like a mild or...
    wanderingfaery wanderingfaery 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    I have struggled with my body image for 7 years now and my father is partially to blame. He always dictated the things that I ate and told me that I needed to lose weight ect. And...
    JessicaTacos JessicaTacos 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm ashamed to look at people, I don't want them to see my ugliness. I always, always.. think on how I look from third person, every angle, every lighting condition, and it gets me...
    xRiax xRiax 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Okay so this is a picture I took over the summer. If there is one thing that makes me extremely insecure, it's my body. My thighs touch & I have a stomach. A lot of people always...
    kaitybobaityxo kaitybobaityxo 18-21, F 19 Responses Oct 29

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    Ever since I was a little girl I was a fat I have always struggled to eat properly and have always tried my best to be healthy but always failed when I was about five years old I...
    BrokenBrittanyLovesDaniel BrokenBrittanyLovesDaniel 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    this is so true for me, I have to children and I had them when I was sent to be out making friends and Now I struggle to become friends with new people
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    I've been thin all my life but not without struggle..really have to watch what I eat and get out running or I'll start packing on the pounds.. also fortunate to be fair skinned and...
    ChrisUSA ChrisUSA 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 18

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    I know he is real, but I feel like he "comes and goes". (Like exiting and opening a door) whenever he wants. I think the last time might've been my fault though. I know heaven...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses a week ago

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    I was diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder when I was 13. I recently went off to college where my anxiety spiraled out of control. I no longer can go to any new places without...
    oliveyou123 oliveyou123 18-21, F Nov 1

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    I've been struggling with depression for about a year now and food helps me to feel better. I eat a lot of junk and it's one of the reasons why I am fat. But during the day I don't...
    avdotiya avdotiya 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 4

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    It seems like from left and right I get rejected. Just a couple of days ago I got rejected by my crush. I didn't even actually start a conversation with him, I was introducing...
    trinaiscray trinaiscray 13-15, F Nov 7

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    I am fat and unfit. And it is partly because I am a compulsive eater. And I hate it. I need help stopping. I don't want to be unhealthy anymore. I hate eating. I eat so much that I...
    SeemsEverythingGoesWrongInLife SeemsEverythingGoesWrongInLife 18-21, F Nov 7

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    I've always had an issue with my body image and recently I've been eating a lot less.
    zoesykes zoesykes 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    I'm 16 and have bipolar 1 with psychotic features. I recently started to experience ultradian rapid cycling and am highly resistant to mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. Trying 7...
    MisterJones54321 MisterJones54321 22-25, M Nov 10

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    Do people still love women with stretch marks and thick thighs??
    alexusk21 alexusk21 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 11

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    We're all in the same game just different levels. Dealing with the same hell just different devils.
    maxifel maxifel 18-21, M Nov 15

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    I have always been slim but whenever I gain weight people always comment and it makes me feel bad. Then I stress out and lose weight. Just cause I'm smaller doesn't mean I don't...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 18 Responses Nov 17

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    Back-story: I met this guy (we will call him D) in January of 2013 while I was going through a divorce. D and I were just friends at the time, after my divorce, we became more than...
    ritycan ritycan 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    Because it falls on me. And escaping such weight is rough. With no crane to lift facts from my eyes. Wish america cured. Instead of profiting off of us.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    I thought this would be people with actual mental illness not this depression hippy bullshit
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M 4 Responses Nov 17

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    as I sit here I took phentermine pill,have a body wrap,and have not eaten since yesterday. I don't understand how I've gotten this bad. its not even about being skinny I don't feel...
    goodgirl918 goodgirl918 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I recently found a suicide note I had written when I was at my worst with my eating disorder and depression. Although I'm still struggling with both of those things, I can...
    kaylxlynn kaylxlynn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I wonder why it seems one can only get accepted now a days if they go out and party and get drunk every weekend. Isn't there a way to connect with others without getting drunk or...
    alwayswatchingu alwayswatchingu 18-21, F Nov 19

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    How can The Lord be so loving, yet it feels like he is just playing a game with me? I feel like I hit a point where I finally might "have it" (what I think is true faith) only to...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 a week ago

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    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Fiddleswtit Fiddleswtit 46-50, M 2 days ago

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