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I Struggled With Anorexia and Bulimia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 406 People

    83 pounds and I still suck in my stomach

    for pictures . I really need to lose weight 😒
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I've lost so much weight I went from 160 to 129

    and I still feel so fat my self esteem is at an all time low....
    krodz13 krodz13 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Secrets Be Secrets No More

    so i have bulimia there you go it is a real love hate relationship as I'm sure most bulimics would know or just Eating Disorder suffers in general It look a long time to over come that shame to run and spread its wings to send it out to the world like a dove inner peace...
    brittstaXD brittstaXD 18-21, F Aug 21, 2013

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    I Want To Be Perfect

      I’m never enough for you, I try my best and I fail miserably.  My best will never be enough, no matter how hard I try.  And as I stand with arm wrapped around my stomach, the other extended upwards to my mouth, two fingers ready to work, I think of...
    lehu349 lehu349 13-15, F Mar 9, 2010

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    Binging,purging, starving,

    restricting. The one thing I know is that I will lose weight and work out starting tomorrow.
    NemoNoMore NemoNoMore 18-21, F Apr 22

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    As My Problem Progresses

    My problem started in 7th grade. I was in middle school, there weren't people watching your every move, my younger sister was no longer with me to tattle on me. I had basically no friends and most of all I felt like I was the fattest person in the world. I started skipping...
    sugarcollie sugarcollie 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    I'm recovered since May,

    16th 2014. It's recent, but I'm proud of myself. This expérience had changed me a lot. Now I accept who I am, I am more self-confident. It was a hard step, but it allowed me to grew-up
    MechanteMargot MechanteMargot 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    My Teenage Years

    all through my teenage years i struggled with the way i looked and my self esteem. that was when i started to starve myself, try to make myself throw up (never worked, i don't have a gag reflex apparently) and i hurt myself. my parents never recognised what was happening, i hid...
    dallasalmighty dallasalmighty 18-21, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    I Can Say Its The Past!

    I still remember that fateful day when I was only ten and some kids were laughing at me because of my size. I was not fat only chubby, but they made me feel like I was an enormous cow :( I was just a child and this had affected me greatly though I took time to acknowledge that...
    tryharder45 tryharder45 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    I'm actually still struggling & i'm on the road

    to recovery *points into direction of recovery fearlessly* Starting at my next appointment, i will be given medication to help me gain weight. & i'm going to put myself on a healthy diet, & i hope i don't relapse because i'm really feeling it this time!
    AnorexicHiddlestoner AnorexicHiddlestoner 18-21, F May 17

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    Bulimia A Gift?

    I’m grateful for my bulimia, i could think. It seems, after 17 years of it, it is like smoking, as far as addictions go. I’ll let it go completely, then it comes out of no where... other times it comes back full force. I think its mission is to keep me grounded and in...
    anadas anadas 31-35 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    Lately, I've found it impossible to eat.

    And even when I do (because my roommates get suspicious), I have to go throw it up almost immediately. I've also been running miles and biking miles everyday. My throat has been so sore. I wish I knew how to make it stop hurting.
    RosieJay RosieJay 18-21, F Sep 11

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    The Monster Within

    Bulimia is a monster Bulimia will steal your pride, self worth, and sense of self. A snake in the grass ready to strike. An addiction of the worst kind. Everyday you have a choice. Everyday you can choose to fight. You are fighting for you. You are fighting for what you...
    empemp26 empemp26 26-30, F Sep 15, 2013

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    I purged the 3rd time yesterday.

    .. Before I was only restricted type. Than I started to exercise and also chew and spit and finally also purge... I'm forced to eat and need to put on weight... Otherwise they may send me to a treatment center... I feel guilty and ashamed... Nobody understands me... Nobody can...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I'm My Own Prisoner

    Last time i shared a story, i had been throwing up for two weeks, and i tought it would be quite easy to stop, since i wasn't that deep in. I have never been more wrong. I really am trying so hard not to do it, and i haven't done it in about a week now, but that's probably...
    mia3511 mia3511 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    I feel like lately I've been slipping into my

    old habits. Like for two years I've been great but when I was 13 I was starving myself and I did eventually get myself to stop (with no help) and I was fine, I think I kind of scared myself when I passed out at school. But these last few days I've been feeling disgusted with...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 Feb 4

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    I have recovered from anorexia

    and am at a normal weight now. Pro ana sites are horrible, please nobody ever go on them.
    crazyraindances crazyraindances 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I Got Through It

     I was a ballerina in high school.  In ballet, the pressure to be pretty and perfect and THIN is ten times worse than the normal pressure of high school.  I never felt good enough because I wasn't pretty enough, wasn't talented enough, wasn't THIN enough. So I...
    ksiezniczka ksiezniczka 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2009

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    I still struggle daily.

    ..and I am scared it's beating me..
    allisonbrookwhite allisonbrookwhite 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I know it's unhealthy

    and I shouldn't do or try it, so please don't tell me that! But I have tried making myself puke at least 15 times and it never works! How can I help myself puke? What can I do?
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    Throughout my younger teenage years I dealt

    with bulimia really bad. I had no idea what to do with my life anymore, I didn't want that for myself, I didn't want to be that way, no one else was so why was I? I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I found it incredibly hard to talk to anyone until my mum sent me to a...
    bxttlebxrn bxttlebxrn 18-21, F Apr 6

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    Endless Journey

    About seven years ago I decided I wanted to lose weight. I heard of eating disorders, but I never actually thought to try and lose weight that way. I started taking a walk everyday after dinner. That alone helped me lose weight. I was never all that active. At this point people...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 10, 2013

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    Ana Is Back...

    Ana is back. I haven't been eating for a while now. I am dropping weight faster than the easter bunny drops eggs. I eat 300 calories a day, and I am addicted. I count calories constantly, measure my waist, throw up, run, work out...everything. Ana is short for Anorexia. I have...
    NotTheAmericanAveragexx NotTheAmericanAveragexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Gonna do 500 cals tomorrow .

    . Tips for not bingo so i dont need to p,,u,,rge please ??
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F Sep 4

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    My relationship to food is complicated Once I

    determined not to eat to avoid purging First I feel so good like my life gonna be better ^^ But then I craving it like crazy i just keep thinking about those yummy and happiness moment Then I think i should be able to handle it So I looking for sth to eat sth that not fat...
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    I have struggled with anorexia

    for some time and now bulimia. I have lost so much weight. I am set to begin an Intensive Outpatient Program. The team seems great, but I am nervous. I don't want to put weight on, but I know I need this. I want to see food as just food and not panic when I have to eat out...
    KirstinIU KirstinIU 31-35, F Feb 4

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    I think I still do. When I have

    even a tiny bit of fat anywhere on my body, I don't eat every good. I give myself, on the first day, a 1,600 calorie diet. I'm 5.4in tall. My weight is between 120-130lbs. I have an hourglass figure. I already know, with my age, height, and figure I'm not supposed to be skin and...
    17paredkay00 17paredkay00 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    Bulimia Controls Me

    I know that some people may say that nothing's really wrong with me, because i'm struggling with this for 2 and a half weeks now, and it's really not that much. But i throw up every day, after every meal, if i have a chance. I don't eat that much, just normal portions. But food...
    mia3511 mia3511 18-21, F Oct 15, 2013

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    Hunger Birds

    I have always had self image problems.. And always hating how i look.. I never felt in control of myself mostly on the outside of my body.. i was called fat all the time at school.. and one day there was a girl at school who was walking home with me and told me a good way to lose...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Growing Up With Anorexia And Bulimia

    I woke up and marched to the bathroom. I peed, took off my clothes, my watch, and stepped on the scale. I was nervous even though I did it six times a day. I looked at the scale like one looks to god when she prays and read the number: 92 pounds. This would have been normal if...
    Lisabel Lisabel 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 7, 2010

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    I’m in big big panic… I gained weight.

    Didn’t weight me on the scale since 2 weeks however today even my pants were fitting (34 slim cut) which were really lose at my belly. Not anymore… My Dr. was very strict and warned me he might admit me to the hospital and that I need to gain weight (1 kg per week), no...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F Dec 8

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    I've struggled with various eating disorders

    since being bullied at 11 years old, but the anorexia vs bulimia was the worst. I never lost or gained enough weight for anybody to realise anything was wrong. I probably fitted more into the EDNOS category, but I had symptoms of both. I used to think I was fat. I remember one...
    MMXIV MMXIV 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I never actually succeeded

    but I have tried bulimia many times! I don't understand why it never works! I mean I know I have a bad gagging reflex but how bad can it actually be?
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    People tell me that I have Anorexia

    and Bulimia, but I don´t. I´m fat, so I cant have Anorexia. Yes, I make myself trow up, but that´s because I feel sick... Why cant people leave me alone, instead of making me eat, it just makes me cry...
    cherrychillz cherrychillz 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    My Story.

    I guess I will just start from the beginning. I think it started in year 4. I dont have much memories from my childhood, but I can remember I started throwing my lunches in the bin. I was positive people where watching me, were judging me, where thinking that I shouldnt be eating...
    princesskairi princesskairi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    Not Sure Anymore

    I never thought of it as a big deal but now I think it is. I need to lose weight! Its not the same as it was before I feel like its getting worse. I count my calories and if it passes my limit. I take it off the calories for the next day. exercise is the next thing always on my...
    Anicia47 Anicia47 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    I've always had the disease,

    but it became obvious a couple of months ago. I couldn't eat without being physically sick afterwards. I had lost half a stone in 3 weeks. I am 5ft 1, and I weigh 6st. It's a horrible cycle that is impossible to escape from.
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2013

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    when people get a cold

    or a virus it's easy to see that they are unwell. when you don't eat anything though people just presume it's because of a choice. not a lot of people look at it like an illness to. illnesses are not just physical but mental as well. i mean sure at first it may have been a...
    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 20

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    I’m in big big panic… I gained weight.

    Didn’t weight me on the scale since 2 weeks however today even my pants were fitting (34 slim cut) which were really lose at my belly. Not anymore… My Dr. was very strict and warned me he might admit me to the hospital and that I need to gain weight (1 kg per week), no...
    fatuglyduckling fatuglyduckling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I feel like I've finally beat my anorexia.

    As of today I'm 5'6" 113 pounds, finally a normal weight. For once I don't look in the mirror and see the fat ugly girl I used to see. Hang in there. It gets better.
    pepperred17 pepperred17 18-21, F Jan 25

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    Please keep strong. It gets better.

    It gets easier. Just stay strong. I'm here for you all.
    Chelsea56 Chelsea56 18-21, F Jan 13

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    Hence why the experience title has "struggled"

    meaning past tense.. Having an eating disorder is very difficult, at least for me it was. There were days i would just randomly become dizzy and feeling no strength to do anything something as simple as opening a water bottle, I physically could not do it. And to me that was...
    MichellexxLevine314 MichellexxLevine314 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    I did in 7th grade .

    and sometime still do . people call me fat nd I get pissed off I rather not eat nd throw up . now I'm exersizing . but I fainted at school sand I told my mom I didn't want to eat cause I didn't feel like it . it scared me and I hated it . and I acutlly didn't make me loose...
    veroisme veroisme 13-15, F Mar 9

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    8 Years Recovered! :)

    I struggled with eating disorders since the age of 11. At the age of 21 I was admitted to the River Centre Clinic in Northwest Ohio. I had hit rock bottom...no job, no friends, not in school, no motivation, no future. All I had was my eating disorder. When I was admitted, I...
    meggierenee meggierenee 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    I Healed From My Anorexia & Bulima - Part 1...

    My journey through anorexia… I have been exposed to people with anorexia from a very early age, I was about 10 years old when I first learnt what it was from a TV program. I was intrigued, saddened and inspired all at once. I had a good friend in high school who...
    Freelee Freelee 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I have been struggling with anorexia nervosa subtype binge purge for a couple of years now but since September 2014 the binging side has gotten out of control and I have gained 7kg...
    bonescoffeeandcigarettes bonescoffeeandcigarettes 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am so hungry my stomach feels like it is being stabbed repeatedly. My head is throbbing for some reason. I'm use to migraines but this is different. I am probably just dehydrated...
    Mydogsaremylife Mydogsaremylife 16-17, F Dec 1

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    I'm Susan. I'm twenty years-old and I had anorexia. It went unnoticed and undiagnosed. It all started when I was fifteen years-old. I was a normal 10th grader. In fact I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 22

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    What first brought me to this site was a blog that I came across. I now see that this site has turned for the worst lol... Any who a few of us still use it to vent blog etc...
    simplelife60 simplelife60 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I have struggled with my body image for 7 years now and my father is partially to blame. He always dictated the things that I ate and told me that I needed to lose weight ect. And...
    JessicaTacos JessicaTacos 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24

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    2 years I struggled with self harm ... Scars on my wrist and thigh ... I haven't self harmed in over a year ... Just got my heart ripped out and stomped on .... I have my blade in...
    dyinginside4 dyinginside4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 27