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I Struggled With Anorexia and Bulimia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 297 People

    Hunger Birds

    I have always had self image problems.. And always hating how i look.. I never felt in control of myself mostly on the outside of my body.. i was called fat all the time at school.. and one day there was a girl at school who was walking home with me and told me a good way to lose...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I Know I Can Diet Without Becoming E.D Again

    I think I should mention on this profile that I have struggled with eating disorders in the past. It's never REALLY over, there's always that voice urging me to eat less or to go purge... sometimes it's stronger than others. I feel confident about not falling back into those old...
    earnyourwings earnyourwings 18-21 1 Response May 31, 2013

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    My relationship to food is complicated Once I

    determined not to eat to avoid purging First I feel so good like my life gonna be better ^^ But then I craving it like crazy i just keep thinking about those yummy and happiness moment Then I think i should be able to handle it So I looking for sth to eat sth that not fat...
    nownowhi nownowhi 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    Living Life On The Edge

    The past few months i have been living life on the edge. LITERALLY. I have been cutting myself deeper and deeper everyday. This first started a few years back but i gave up on it until a while ago. The stress from school, work and my family is making me go crazy. My writs and...
    leezal816 leezal816 16-17 Jan 19, 2011

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    My Story.

    ive had my episodes of anorexia. for 2-3 days i wouldnt eat. id feel great, a little weak but great. i loved the feeling of having a flat stomach and feeling lighter. im 15 years old almost 16. my eating disorder(s) begain in later 2009 and is still continuing currently. im...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 14, 2010

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    I've always had the disease,

    but it became obvious a couple of months ago. I couldn't eat without being physically sick afterwards. I had lost half a stone in 3 weeks. I am 5ft 1, and I weigh 6st. It's a horrible cycle that is impossible to escape from.
    ameliap ameliap 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    People tell me that I have Anorexia

    and Bulimia, but I don´t. I´m fat, so I cant have Anorexia. Yes, I make myself trow up, but that´s because I feel sick... Why cant people leave me alone, instead of making me eat, it just makes me cry...
    cherrychillz cherrychillz 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    Ana Is Back...

    Ana is back. I haven't been eating for a while now. I am dropping weight faster than the easter bunny drops eggs. I eat 300 calories a day, and I am addicted. I count calories constantly, measure my waist, throw up, run, work out...everything. Ana is short for Anorexia. I have...
    NotTheAmericanAveragexx NotTheAmericanAveragexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    I've struggled with various eating disorders

    since being bullied at 11 years old, but the anorexia vs bulimia was the worst. I never lost or gained enough weight for anybody to realise anything was wrong. I probably fitted more into the EDNOS category, but I had symptoms of both. I used to think I was fat. I remember one...
    MMXIV MMXIV 18-21, F Mar 31

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    Bulimia A Gift?

    I’m grateful for my bulimia, i could think. It seems, after 17 years of it, it is like smoking, as far as addictions go. I’ll let it go completely, then it comes out of no where... other times it comes back full force. I think its mission is to keep me grounded and in...
    anadas anadas 31-35 2 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    I'm My Own Prisoner

    Last time i shared a story, i had been throwing up for two weeks, and i tought it would be quite easy to stop, since i wasn't that deep in. I have never been more wrong. I really am trying so hard not to do it, and i haven't done it in about a week now, but that's probably...
    mia3511 mia3511 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    I Can Say Its The Past!

    I still remember that fateful day when I was only ten and some kids were laughing at me because of my size. I was not fat only chubby, but they made me feel like I was an enormous cow :( I was just a child and this had affected me greatly though I took time to acknowledge that...
    tryharder45 tryharder45 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2012

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    The Struggle

    So I just had a baby 4 months ago, prepregnancy weight was 175. At 9 months I was 220 and I'm only 5 feet. :( Now im 160 and I need to lose more weight! I wanna be 120. Struggling every day to make my self eat and not puke. No one know what I'm going through not my family or my...
    risssaahh risssaahh 18-21, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    My Teenage Years

    all through my teenage years i struggled with the way i looked and my self esteem. that was when i started to starve myself, try to make myself throw up (never worked, i don't have a gag reflex apparently) and i hurt myself. my parents never recognised what was happening, i hid...
    dallasalmighty dallasalmighty 18-21, F 2 Responses May 31, 2013

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    I have struggled with anorexia

    for some time and now bulimia. I have lost so much weight. I am set to begin an Intensive Outpatient Program. The team seems great, but I am nervous. I don't want to put weight on, but I know I need this. I want to see food as just food and not panic when I have to eat out...
    KirstinIU KirstinIU 31-35, F Feb 4

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    Me

    I have been bulimic for nearly three years now and I just feel so alone with my disorder, I want to talk to people who understand me. It's always been the typical binge on thousands of calories and purge it all up, which got up to three times a day, and it has now changed to me...
    recoverymia recoverymia 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2013

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    Does Anyone Ever Feel Like This??!?!?!?!

    ****** this was a note i found in my binder one day.. that i wrote a few weeks ago. it explains how i dont... lets say.. think of food correctly on top of the wanting to be skinny and all that crap :/ but, idk does anyone else have this... indecisive problem?******* I wish I was...
    KittyKatatonic KittyKatatonic 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2013

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    Its Not Working Anymore!!

    Ive been bulimic for about  years, on and off.  When Im on my purging weeks, I do it about once or twice a day.  Lately Ive been binging but not being able to bring up the food.  Ive been doing some body competitions.. sounds funny doesn't it but its real...
    teeney1 teeney1 31-35 1 Response Aug 8, 2010

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    Bulimia Controls Me

    I know that some people may say that nothing's really wrong with me, because i'm struggling with this for 2 and a half weeks now, and it's really not that much. But i throw up every day, after every meal, if i have a chance. I don't eat that much, just normal portions. But food...
    mia3511 mia3511 18-21, F Oct 15, 2013

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    Please keep strong. It gets better.

    It gets easier. Just stay strong. I'm here for you all.
    Chelsea56 Chelsea56 18-21, F Jan 13

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    So ive lost more weight :( my ana been real tough on me past few weeks cos im felling week havent been exersicing much..chrismas was really poopy..all my mom did was nag nag nag about how sick n skinny i looked..i told her not to talk about it it isnt helping me recover she said...
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T Dec 30, 2010

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    So ive lost more weight :( my ana been real tough on me past few weeks cos im felling week havent been exersicing much..chrismas was really poopy..all my mom did was nag nag nag about how sick n skinny i looked..i told her not to talk about it it isnt helping me recover she said...
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T Dec 30, 2010

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    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F Feb 23, 2012

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    My Story.

    I guess I will just start from the beginning. I think it started in year 4. I dont have much memories from my childhood, but I can remember I started throwing my lunches in the bin. I was positive people where watching me, were judging me, where thinking that I shouldnt be eating...
    princesskairi princesskairi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    About Me

    I am 29 yrs old... I am recently married,I have 3 kids and he has 2.... I have been bulimic since Iwas about 14yrs old.... I have times were I am not sick, but I am currently back on the rollercoaster...... I go days without eating and the break down and binge and purge.... I...
    bbkf08 bbkf08 26-30, F Nov 2, 2009

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    I did in 7th grade .

    and sometime still do . people call me fat nd I get pissed off I rather not eat nd throw up . now I'm exersizing . but I fainted at school sand I told my mom I didn't want to eat cause I didn't feel like it . it scared me and I hated it . and I acutlly didn't make me loose...
    veroisme veroisme 13-15, F Mar 9

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    Growing Up With Anorexia And Bulimia

    I woke up and marched to the bathroom. I peed, took off my clothes, my watch, and stepped on the scale. I was nervous even though I did it six times a day. I looked at the scale like one looks to god when she prays and read the number: 92 pounds. This would have been normal if...
    Lisabel Lisabel 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 7, 2010

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    Throughout my younger teenage years I dealt

    with bulimia really bad. I had no idea what to do with my life anymore, I didn't want that for myself, I didn't want to be that way, no one else was so why was I? I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I found it incredibly hard to talk to anyone until my mum sent me to a...
    bxttlebxrn bxttlebxrn 16-17, F Apr 6

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    Disorder

    I'm a teen with a eating disorder all I want is to be skinny and noone understands me
    Needtobeskinny98 Needtobeskinny98 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    Babyheart Babyheart 18-21, F Feb 2, 2013

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    And I've Been Doing Horrible.

    i was doing so well. i was losing weight like crazy. purging everyday. not binging, but purging none-the-less. but see, my boyfriend found out and put a stop to that. ****. don't get me wrong, i still purged as much as possible, but not like i used to. it's killing me...
    JustCallMeAna JustCallMeAna 18-21, F May 5, 2010

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    I feel like lately I've been slipping into my

    old habits. Like for two years I've been great but when I was 13 I was starving myself and I did eventually get myself to stop (with no help) and I was fine, I think I kind of scared myself when I passed out at school. But these last few days I've been feeling disgusted with...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 Feb 4

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    when people get a cold

    or a virus it's easy to see that they are unwell. when you don't eat anything though people just presume it's because of a choice. not a lot of people look at it like an illness to. illnesses are not just physical but mental as well. i mean sure at first it may have been a...
    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Worse And Worse Each Day

    I have been stuggling with my weight for years. In eigth grade, my dear friend was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. I felt so bad for her but at the same time jealous. She was so skinny, so pretty. I couldn't stand it. At the same time I thought why would someone ever want to do...
    leezal816 leezal816 16-17 1 Response Nov 5, 2010

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    Not Sure Anymore

    I never thought of it as a big deal but now I think it is. I need to lose weight! Its not the same as it was before I feel like its getting worse. I count my calories and if it passes my limit. I take it off the calories for the next day. exercise is the next thing always on my...
    Anicia47 Anicia47 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    8 Years Recovered! :)

    I struggled with eating disorders since the age of 11. At the age of 21 I was admitted to the River Centre Clinic in Northwest Ohio. I had hit rock bottom...no job, no friends, not in school, no motivation, no future. All I had was my eating disorder. When I was admitted, I...
    meggierenee meggierenee 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Binging,purging, starving,

    restricting. The one thing I know is that I will lose weight and work out starting tomorrow.
    NemoNoMore NemoNoMore 16-17, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    My Struggle Towards Recovery

    So in grade 9 I started to eat less and started to skip meals. Even giving my food away at school or "sharing" it. Then I experimented with purging. And loved it. The not eating and the purging made me feel empowered. Then I was assaulted in 2009 and right after I remember my...
    sleeplesscookies sleeplesscookies 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    I Healed From My Anorexia & Bulima - Part 1...

    My journey through anorexia… I have been exposed to people with anorexia from a very early age, I was about 10 years old when I first learnt what it was from a TV program. I was intrigued, saddened and inspired all at once. I had a good friend in high school who...
    Freelee Freelee 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2010

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    Aneroxica And Bulima Really Struggling

    I was aneroxic 4 2 years. Restricted everything I ate and drank. I was very just 6 stone. I clicked and changed a couple of months a go and started 2 let myself eat a little more. Them the bingeing and purging starters. I hav just bin diagnosia as bulima. I hate the fact I hav...
    Hales88 Hales88 22-25 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    Always Fighting

    I struggled with eating disorders since I was 12 years old. I am 20 years old now. I've dealt with anorexia, binge eating, bulimia, and excessive exercise. I am physically exhausted and depressed living on this roller coaster of good days and bad. I am very physically fit...
    KellyAdrienne KellyAdrienne 18-21 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    I feel like I've finally beat my anorexia.

    As of today I'm 5'6" 113 pounds, finally a normal weight. For once I don't look in the mirror and see the fat ugly girl I used to see. Hang in there. It gets better.
    pepperred17 pepperred17 18-21, F Jan 25

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    What Now?

    For a long time I have suffered from eating disorders and lost and gained three stone ( 45 pounds) over and again through periods of anorexia and bulimia. I am no longer starving or throwing up very much and everyone is so happy that I'm better but I'm left slightly overweight...
    bex22 bex22 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    Anorexic From Seven Years Old

    I ran round a meadow while my sisters were on their bikes. "come on get on your bike too".. "no! I want to get down to one stone" I replied. Looking back now even at the photos of me I wonder how nobody seen it too. To be honest I didn't actually notice it until I was around 15...
    berries10 berries10 18-21, F Apr 1, 2013

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    I Got Through It

     I was a ballerina in high school.  In ballet, the pressure to be pretty and perfect and THIN is ten times worse than the normal pressure of high school.  I never felt good enough because I wasn't pretty enough, wasn't talented enough, wasn't THIN enough. So I...
    ksiezniczka ksiezniczka 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2009

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    Endless Journey

    About seven years ago I decided I wanted to lose weight. I heard of eating disorders, but I never actually thought to try and lose weight that way. I started taking a walk everyday after dinner. That alone helped me lose weight. I was never all that active. At this point people...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 10, 2013

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    Ed

    I had anorexia when I was 15 until I was 16. I am now 17 and I'm almost fully recovered. So happy.
    MajoMartin MajoMartin 18-21 Oct 11, 2013

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    Improvement

    Over the past 3 months I have stayed away from this site, Every time I was on here I was negative. I cut out negativity from my life, I reached for help, I'm recovering from my Ana and Mia. I'm much healthier now. I weight 104 pounds, I'm under weight they tell me. But I am...
    UglyHipo UglyHipo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12, 2013

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    So. Much. Frustration. I'm About Ready To Lose It!!!!

    Never in my life have I been more outraged than to come on, not only this site, but many others, and find girls saying “I wish I was anorexic. How can I lose weight? I’m so fat.” First of all, I come looking for help in recovery, and there are triggers left and right. Yes...
    hanniejoy hanniejoy 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    As My Problem Progresses

    My problem started in 7th grade. I was in middle school, there weren't people watching your every move, my younger sister was no longer with me to tattle on me. I had basically no friends and most of all I felt like I was the fattest person in the world. I started skipping...
    sugarcollie sugarcollie 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T Sep 26, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I had anorexia when I was 11 and nearly die if you would like to hear the whole story inbox me x
    elsapowelldooley elsapowelldooley 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    A few days ago one of my closest friends and classmate told me she is in an early stage of anorexia. She calls her Ana because she prefers avoiding the word. She's back in therapy...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    It really bugs me when people say that only skinny people have an eating disorder. I just hit 130lbs for the first time and I've honestly been anxious about it for days. But would...
    runningwithbears runningwithbears 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Has anyone here ever cried over a meal as well? I mean literally having a mental breakdown, tears piling everywhere all over a single meal because you feel you do not deserve it...
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F Apr 10

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    Please someone talk to me I will do anything
    elsapowelldooley elsapowelldooley 13-15, F 2 days ago

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