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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    My boyfriend had an emotional affair and I'm having a very hard time forgiving him. He can't tell me why he felt so attached to the girl and could only let her go when he was...
    aquarius2383 aquarius2383 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    I've choked on food twice. I'm not talking about coughing, I mean choking. That feeling when you can't breathe and there's almost nothing you can do is the scariest thing ever. My...
    ssaammii ssaammii 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Some days I just am amazed that I am here, at this point in life. I have a wealth of knowledge and experiences yet I am not where I desire to be. Oh my daughter’s home is very...
    SofiaLongino SofiaLongino 46-50, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I stayed up til 5am just wishing that that one guy is thinking about me.
    queenstarterkit queenstarterkit 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have trouble getting sleepy at night, so I stay up till 3 or 4 in the morning watching tv and whatnot. Last night I fell asleep around 3AM but then I could still barely get up...
    EmTheRedhead EmTheRedhead 22-25, F 14 Responses 2 days ago

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    Which takes a stronger person to do? 1.Stay married to someone who betrayed you, try to accept it and move on? 2. Get a divorce and start new, away from all the past hauntings of...
    iwillneverheal iwillneverheal 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm trying to stay awake so my sleep schedule goes back to normal.
    Elwood1981 Elwood1981 31-35 3 days ago

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    I just started 8th grade a little less than two weeks ago and already I am struggling in several of my classes. I have always been a very average student and have never made...
    jillmyers91901 jillmyers91901 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    My family and I are doing OK because my mom and dad both have pretty decent jobs that provide adequately for our family. But I have seen kids at school whose clothes are all ratty...
    katiemitchell katiemitchell 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Go Why do I stay when I want to go? Is it because I have hope? Or maybe it is because I don't want to be alone. I stay and all I do is complain. Complain that I might be going...
    Beautifulnlost22 Beautifulnlost22 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    i dont know...if its true because letting me fall in pieces is not a luxury right now even if its tempting....!!!! as long as i know myself i know her....my mother the centre of my...
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    We had date night tonight and a conversation with my husband went like this: Him: If i am in paradise, i will ask for many women. Me: ....... what? Of all things, you want women...
    lpch lpch 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I decided to be s stay home mum, people in Singapore especially were doubtful whether we could afford living solely on one income. It took me and my husband a year to re...
    lpch lpch 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    After 5 years of teaching children with special needs, I decided to quit my job to be a teacher to my son instead who was then a year old. Its been one year being a Stay Home mum...
    lpch lpch 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I always stay up late and always regretting it in the morning but do it again the other night
    apriliasj apriliasj 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    It's 1 in the morning. Last night I stayed up till 3. Most of the time I can keep going till 5-6am before crashing hard. This is a bad habit...
    Emma1ee Emma1ee 18-21, F 16 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to regularly ( PRE-medication ) stay up for 72 hours at a shot ( then sleep 8 then be up another 72 ( till my body just kicked out ), I am so GRATEFUL for my medication that...
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M a week ago

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    I'm getting ready to stay in a hotel that's known to be very haunted I do believe in spirits etc I'm just not sure how I will react if I see or experience something any thoughts or...
    Bosslady656 Bosslady656 56-60, F a week ago

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    I'm struggling with guilt and grief as I question my relationship with my husband. He is a great person but we never really opened up our souls to each other, and now the erotic...
    beweirdess beweirdess 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I stay up and feel sad crying around the Internet lol... I just wish I had someone to talk me down from my fears and crazy dreams sometimes. my dreams predict stuff in the future...
    cjsewall cjsewall 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    I stay up late to play video games. And sometimes watch someone playing Dead Rising 3 on YouTube. And no. I don't get nightmares about zombies.
    awesomedude3000 awesomedude3000 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 24

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    You say you wander your own land But when I think about it I don't see how you can You're aching, you're breaking And I can see the pain in your eyes Says everybody's changing And...
    yahooabcd yahooabcd 26-30, M Aug 23

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    I have people who would stay up with me but I feel like I'm burdening them all the time and I feel like I can't tell them about all my dumbass dreams
    Hayden23 Hayden23 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 22

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    I would like to stay UP with you when you can't sleep msjsta ~_~
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 21

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    very powerless and helpless.... I hate feeling I must stay silent! (so, I usually don't)
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 21

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    There's a place off Ocean Avenue Where I used to sit and talk with you We were both sixteen and it felt so right Sleepin' all day, stayin' up all Niiiiiight... :)
    fairlydecentperson fairlydecentperson 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    Yea I must stay silent......I am on my own
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 20

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    please stay u are the best most wonderful person to talk with i really enjoy the time we had to chat n how much ur past n hurt r trying to win dont let them please if u have as...
    mrpee566 mrpee566 26-30, M Aug 18

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    I hate being a stay at home mom but at least she has started pre-k now so i get time alone finally! Finally i get some time for myself
    MomOfBurden MomOfBurden 26-30, F Aug 18

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    I usually stay up until 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning. I don't need much sleep. My mind is too active at night to sleep. I enjoy communicating with other people online, taking walks...
    TheQuirkyQuasar TheQuirkyQuasar 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    every night/morning I've been heading to bed around sunset. I stay up thinking about my life as if I even had the courage to end it. sometimes I wish I was different and better...
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