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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    But it has its moments that i am grateful for being alive
    MsMightyMe MsMightyMe 13-15, F Sep 23

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    ****. College and work. My computer is gana take alot of verbal and physical abuse the next few years>.<
    jazzmeloove jazzmeloove 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    True that brother-true that.....................
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F Sep 22

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    I'm married, my ex is married and has 2 children. When I was in high school, I got my ex pregnant. We were in love, and were trying to figure out how we could make everything work...
    LookingForFK LookingForFK 31-35 1 Response Sep 30

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    Alright, so I recently started what some would call a religious journey, and I'm really struggling with it. Some background information: I was not brought up in a religious...
    leencuisine leencuisine 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It's a terrible mix of anorexia and bulimia. I don't eat a lot of food and when I do I throw it up. No one knows about this and I want it to stay that way. I am trying to do...
    dambookworm17 dambookworm17 13-15, F Sep 20

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    It's true a lot of people are stuck in the struggle and it seems like there is no help or hope for the future, a lot of that blame is pointed out towards the ones trying to better...
    aJason23 aJason23 18-21, M Sep 23

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    I am alive, I'm still here. You're alive, you're still here. And that's what matters. As long as we're breathing, as long as we woke up today, doing what kills you makes you feel...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    I am struggling to let go of the abuse that was inflicted on me from my family and to stop living in the past. I am mean to my husband sometimes and I feel terrible that I am. I...
    fearless1971 fearless1971 41-45, F Sep 20

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    I was so happy. Sooooo happy the beginning of 2014. I had a sense of humor, no anxiety, no vagueness, no monotonous behavior, the only thing that could bring me down was my best...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F Oct 1

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    I am in a D/s relationship with an amazing guy! He is the only one I trust to guide me and control certain aspects of my life. I know that ultimately we want different things for...
    GenuineGinger GenuineGinger 22-25, F Oct 2

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    It's really hard to hold my grades up. I am failing one class, I am just passing math, I am doing ok in Art, and I am doing really good in Agrifoods (the class where you learn...
    minecraftmaniac1998 minecraftmaniac1998 16-17, M Oct 6

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    Hi there. Actually I'm no longer struggling :-) I had a really really hard time but managed to get out of my depression with help of my best friend (and some professionals). I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 10

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    You know that question every person with at least half a brain ponders at some time during their life, the ultimate question, the big "why?" Why am I here? Why is anything here...
    shannonymous shannonymous 18-21, F Sep 21

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    Many people take it for granted, How many people ACTUALLY wake up and are thankful to be alive? How many people wake up and complain because they're weak? Or because they feel...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    I love life and I am happy I am alive and experiencing it. I believe life is a gift not a right and you should live it to the full. Try something new, be adventurous and take a...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M Oct 11

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      I'm not really. Just that on the maths noticeboards at my school, there is a board with people's faces on it and saying something that they got wrong in the summer...
    Kyprioi Kyprioi 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    A song by becca is called I'm alive, I'm in love with that song, heck it is my theme song
    bisexuwhale bisexuwhale 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I love staying up late! I do it almost every night. Im usually not very tired. sometimes I stay up to think but Most of the time I stay up to talk with someone special to me :P She...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    Well I stay up late all the time! But It is easier when im upset. I tend to stay up much longer when im upset too. It really depends though. I stay up doing different things...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Oct 1

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    Frankly, That's Just A Bullshit Excuse Most people nowadays come from divorced parents & they turn out just fine. If anything, I think it is more harmful for the children to grow...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Today I wanted to stay naked since the morning, but my family hates nudity in the house. I can only be naked when they leave, and even then I have my grandmother who stays and...
    SageMaster SageMaster 18-21, M Sep 27

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    I used to be a party animal and always being drunk and getting laid but now that I've cleaned up my life for my daughter's sake, I realize how stupid I must have looked. Even...
    JDizzlePop JDizzlePop 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I've been working on staying calm when others around me are not. It's quite easy to do with my children, because they are children and it's understandable when they are getting...
    BBWand40 BBWand40 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 9

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    This is the first time I'm telling this story. I don't want sympathy and I'm sure a lot of you will think I'm stupid. I have a boyfriend. His name is, let's call him, Stephen. I've...
    thatgirl0926 thatgirl0926 18-21, F Oct 11

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    I love begin a stay at home MO wouldn't want Jr any other way. I just don't understand how some days I have all the patience I'm the world and there are other days my son just...
    Jimena123 Jimena123 18-21, F Sep 20

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    Or at least I wish I could be a stay at home mom. I often daydream about it. I imagine myself keeping the house clean, picking up kids from school, and making dinner for my husband...
    2O5E4 2O5E4 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I am a married female and a stay at home mom. I have three kids and I am there for them; two boys and a girl. We are a close family.
    familyatresort familyatresort 36-40, F 6 Responses Sep 22

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    Everyone has reasons for staying or leaving. Sometimes one person may have a very strong emotional attachment to their partner and the partner does not have any emotional...
    taylorbubber taylorbubber 41-45, F Sep 24

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    My 16th birthday is coming up.. Soon. I don't want to do much but stay home and be left alone.. Unless I'm getting a dog then... I want one of those... A pitbull...
    YoungLovee15 YoungLovee15 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    It has been over a year since my affair ended, and I have managed to work through the intense roller coaster ride of emotional ups and downs. Details are in my previous experience...
    inacloud inacloud 31-35, M Sep 26

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    I need a job! Staying home with kids all day everyday is just not good for me mentally.
    HCaine HCaine 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    ok...i decided to just stay off...maybe. i feel left out whenever ppl posts pics of where they went and who they were with. fee like i have no life . it seems like everyone uses it...
    blue951 blue951 26-30, M Sep 28

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    One of the most beautiful places I have ever been. I will never forget watching the clouds rise from the forested valleys whilst drinking delicious ginger chai, the taste of ginger...
    foxtale foxtale 22-25, F Sep 30

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    Since my divorce I have been exposed to many "different" life styles and sexual preferences. One is getting plugged. I bought one and after the slow insertion it felt rather...
    keith60 keith60 61-65, M 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I'd love to be able to stay at home with our boys. We'd definitely have to trim our budget and possibly move into a more affordable home if that was even a serious consideration...
    Wonderloon Wonderloon 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    5 days ago I walked out on EP! I walked out because I felt like EP was the culprit behind my hurt and pain. Boy ! oh Boy! was I wrong. Yes I admit I needed time out, we all do at...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 2

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    There are numerous occasions I have just stayed up laying in my bed staring at the ceiling. There was probably something on my mind but all I was doing was staring at nothing :P...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    **** it im staying im not leaving EP.
    SadisticPsychoBitch SadisticPsychoBitch 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 3