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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    But it has its moments that i am grateful for being alive
    MsMightyMe MsMightyMe 13-15, F Sep 23

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    ****. College and work. My computer is gana take alot of verbal and physical abuse the next few years>.<
    jazzmeloove jazzmeloove 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    True that brother-true that.....................
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F Sep 22

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    I was so happy. Sooooo happy the beginning of 2014. I had a sense of humor, no anxiety, no vagueness, no monotonous behavior, the only thing that could bring me down was my best...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F 10 mins ago

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    I love staying up late! I do it almost every night. Im usually not very tired. sometimes I stay up to think but Most of the time I stay up to talk with someone special to me :P She...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Well I stay up late all the time! But It is easier when im upset. I tend to stay up much longer when im upset too. It really depends though. I stay up doing different things...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    i dont know what to say i guess im numb and messed aup im so overweight i dont know how to live myself im am tired of life everyone is living life i feel like a freak i dont know...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 2

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    I'm married, my ex is married and has 2 children. When I was in high school, I got my ex pregnant. We were in love, and were trying to figure out how we could make everything work...
    LookingForFK LookingForFK 31-35 1 day ago

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    My urges to have sex with men are so strong now. I love my wife but it has become clear to me that I am gay. When I admit my homosexuality to myself I feel so free. When I tell...
    walkingcast1 walkingcast1 41-45, M 5 Responses Sep 18

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    It's been just over 24hrs since the anaesthetic wore off, and my stitches are pulling under the heavy bandaging. Theatre surgeons freak me out, I don't know if it's their blue...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F Sep 19

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    Since my divorce I have been exposed to many "different" life styles and sexual preferences. One is getting plugged. I bought one and after the slow insertion it felt rather...
    keith60 keith60 61-65, M 12 hrs ago

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    I'd love to be able to stay at home with our boys. We'd definitely have to trim our budget and possibly move into a more affordable home if that was even a serious consideration...
    Wonderloon Wonderloon 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    This is NOT my story. This story belongs to Annie3321. I am posting it here for those that struggle with staying. It is amazing insight into what happens once the "affair fog...
    Uht2014 Uht2014 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    It's a terrible mix of anorexia and bulimia. I don't eat a lot of food and when I do I throw it up. No one knows about this and I want it to stay that way. I am trying to do...
    dambookworm17 dambookworm17 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    It's true a lot of people are stuck in the struggle and it seems like there is no help or hope for the future, a lot of that blame is pointed out towards the ones trying to better...
    aJason23 aJason23 18-21, M Sep 23

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    I love to feel alive and some experiences do that...when am on the road driving and there is no traffic I just feel so alive... Also when I listen to worship music it takes me away...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F Sep 18

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    My sister told me about this website so I figured I'd give it a try since I cant sleep. I'm a soon to be 20 year old girl working as a cashier making minimum wage. I have been...
    AmberIrina AmberIrina 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I am struggling to keep myself together right now. I am dealing with some heavy things that I should have dealt with a long time ago but my method of coping for many years now has...
    DisappearingStar DisappearingStar 70+ 5 Responses Sep 7

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    I am struggling to let go of the abuse that was inflicted on me from my family and to stop living in the past. I am mean to my husband sometimes and I feel terrible that I am. I...
    fearless1971 fearless1971 41-45, F Sep 20

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    Marvel on the magnificence in the Potala Palace - when the home of Dalai Lama. It however residences the soul of a religion distribute to far-absent nations around the world and...
    Laurenazrj90 Laurenazrj90 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    Wow! I am up extremely late! All of this candy that I have had is not helping me sleep at all, and I am not surprised. I feel slightly dizzy and "buzzed" and I am a bit addicted to...
    MJIzReal MJIzReal 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    I don't just feel lucky to be alive, I know I am. With everything that has happened to me I always held strong and brave. I'll continue to no matter what.
    KWsuperstar KWsuperstar 16-17, M Sep 10

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    im tired of crying . im tired of cutting myself . im tired of being alive . if i ever actually had a conversation with God in person, I'm pretty sure he'd hate me. If I were God...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    Night is my favorite time of the day. When everyone is sleeping, everything still and it's just me, darkness and the stars. I feel so alive. I would usually go write something or...
    anon152 anon152 13-15 Sep 19

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    You know that question every person with at least half a brain ponders at some time during their life, the ultimate question, the big "why?" Why am I here? Why is anything here...
    shannonymous shannonymous 18-21, F Sep 21

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    I like to stay home. i don't drink and i don't dance so i figure whats the point in going out to clubs. Movies are too expensive to go out and see on a regular basis when you are...
    violet1698 violet1698 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 14

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    I stayed up for 48 hours straight. The first 24 was because a new war game came that my friend and I enjoy. The next day he, his girlfriend and me and my girlfriend were going on...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Sep 14

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    With this day and age, I don't know how I could be a stay at home mom. I'm not good at anything else, just raising kids. I wish I could find a guy that has a good enough job so...
    Beatenrodent Beatenrodent 18-21, F Sep 14

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    Today I wanted to stay naked since the morning, but my family hates nudity in the house. I can only be naked when they leave, and even then I have my grandmother who stays and...
    SageMaster SageMaster 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    It's about time to stay positive again!! :)
    Manhater013 Manhater013 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    This happens especially during the schoolyear. On the day before a particularly hard test I can stay up to study even until 1-2 a.m., and obviously I have to wake up early the day...
    thoughtworn thoughtworn 16-17, F Sep 1

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    Well that proves it I officially let xbox win as usual well I know what I'll be doing today lol I sleep during the day and stay up at night and can't stand light in my eyes
    COUNTRYGIRL9658 COUNTRYGIRL9658 18-21, F Sep 2

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    But the funny thing is I always feel completely refreshed no matter how little sleep I get . Here's an example I was at a house party (at my own house lol) and I ended staying...
    Dynamite500 Dynamite500 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    Staying up late is a super bad habit of mine
    BigAssssTray BigAssssTray 16-17, M Sep 3

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    ...that's what people say... ..that's what people say.. I go on to many dates! but I can't make em stay! that's people say... ...yeah, that's what people say.. ...but I keep...
    rosepetalsgirl rosepetalsgirl 18-21, F Sep 3

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    My kids and I had to come back up north to stay with family, I've been applying around and have a job interview on Monday. Its been kinda hard, I have 3 kids so daycare is through...
    oversimplification oversimplification 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    Hippie Sabotage "Stay High" Oh man. This is my song when I smoke. Listening to tj right now actually!
    breeze90 breeze90 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 6

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    Discover which within your favorite retailers are getting a sale this weekend. You can save countless dollars each week over the belongings you have been planning to get in any...
    Khadijah062yu Khadijah062yu 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 7

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