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I Struggling to Stay Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 92 People

    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Yeah. I do that. So does the whole human race. Jim Morrison once said "Ain't no one here gettin' out alive." Point,counterpoint. Everyone struggles. So what's the point. Well I...
    lifeisforfree lifeisforfree 66-70, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    So embarrassed right now. Been a squealing beast because of a very abusive coworker. This person has been taken from a powerful position where she ruined many lives and hurt many...
    chatwizme chatwizme 61-65, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    my bullet... he is my exit from this pain. He cures all type of cancer and is very effective. He silences all the voices in my head. He brings humanity toward my nature. He...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I am at work all night, struggling to stay awake....someone keep me up!!
    TransMan14 TransMan14 22-25, T 1 Response Mar 27

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    These days I feel so pained and traumatised as I keep reliving my racist experience with the mental health professional ..I know I was treated like this just for two fact 1-I have...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I'm sixteen and have been struggling for a while. I've been raised being called gay by many people because I preferred playing with my special needs sister and her barbies then...
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I'm sixteen, a christian and my faith isn't a strong as it used to be. I want it to be but I feel like I'm slipping. My family makes me feel bad almost every Sunday when we go to...
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M Apr 9

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    -- Glimpse -- a very brief, passing look, sight, or view. a momentary or slight appearance. a vague idea; inkling. I get this during the day. Maybe just after having woken up in...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Apr 13

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    I really was struggling to forgive my STBX husband for the years of pain he caused me. He's not a bad man he has a good heart and he's an awesome Dad. He has some mental health...
    rosev2 rosev2 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Im at uni in New Zealand, but im struggling to keep up, and its the 2nd time around for me, i feel like im gonna screw up again...but without this, i have nothing...
    DeonGrey DeonGrey 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    As I'm not a white woman living in Britain I suffer greatly from discrimination and racism and it is intimidating and humiliating to be living around a race of people who...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    As I'm not a white woman living in Britain I suffer greatly from discrimination and racism and it is intimidating and humiliating to be living around a race of people who...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F Mar 31

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    I totally agree with Ali (an egyptian man from port said)who I met in Brighton many years ago when life was a little better and he told me that all white people hate us and if the...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F Mar 31

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    I totally agree with Ali (an egyptian man from port said)who I met in Brighton many years ago when life was a little better and he told me that all white people hate us and if the...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F Mar 31

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    I have pleaded a million time to my family to live with them coz I'm not safe at Webb house and the next door neighbour and my support worker are humiliating me and violating me...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    It's like this is what life is about, not what goes on in the roads, or the buildings, but what happens when in a living room someone near and dear is zoned out with their eyes...
    Demosteen Demosteen 36-40, M Apr 9

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    You know, I'm getting really tired of the constant drag that is life. I'm honestly getting sick of it. There's not enough good to outweigh the bad and I've had enough bad attacking...
    Mrmanaphy Mrmanaphy 18-21 4 Responses Apr 9

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    It's hating my family for abandoning me, despising my friends for always leaving me, having to endure real loneliness, just being completely on my own through life and I'm so sick...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I want to meet new friends and have fun and feel alive again. I've been in a loveless passionless marriage for too long now. Lead separate lives and I've been stagnant for too long...
    jspiscean jspiscean 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    For all people who are wondering or questioning about racism and discriminations in the uk .. The answer is a BIG YES especially if you are a dark skinned person and this apply to...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    We are all lucky to be alive. Life is so fragile and so easy to loose. It should never be taken for granted that the next minuet we could be dead. Always live love and laugh cuz...
    Thespistx Thespistx 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 29

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    I feel a pinch of Peacefull-ness its the only time of the day I feel alive and wanted
    Whyicry Whyicry 13-15, M Apr 5

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    It feels so good to live in a world full of color. I used to be really depressed but I feel alive finally. I thank god everyday I'm out of my hole. Life is beautiful. Nature is...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    This is one of my biggest fantasies, actually. I love imagining myself being eaten alive by a big beautiful woman--sometimes someone I know, sometimes a celebrity, sometimes just...
    tastymeatboy tastymeatboy 18-21, M Apr 14

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    SKRILLEX! Who ever participated a Skrillex live concert? I watched him three times live . There were the best three days of my life. I felt so alive. I thought: it worth it living...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 19

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    for longer then I can remember I am and have been tired of being alive I have always thought of killing myself but I can't jump off the cliff I sit at the edge feet hanging off the...
    Tempzero Tempzero 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I want to have fun, dance crazy and laugh and enjoy being alive
    missynona missynona 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Im beginning to get it… how we both came together from our needs, from our lacks. Maybe we could´ve made it, but none of us were ready to be in a relationship… In this...
    Gaialion Gaialion 36-40, F Mar 28

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    The term homebody has been said a few times. My aunt started saying it as if she made it sound like it's frowned upon. It may be to others but I just like having the comfort of...
    Xemplefied Xemplefied 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 18

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    Ok so here it goes I know it's long so bear with me. I was married in 2004 at 21. When I met my wife I really wasn't attracted to her. I know that's sounds messed up but hear me...
    martinezh martinezh 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I don't know but, I stay up so late or maybe even stay awake all night. I think about the world and that I don't belong here. Sometimes I'll cry, I don't know why. My best cousin...
    queenbeejassy queenbeejassy 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I normally stay up at least till 1 in the morning on the weekdays watching movies with my parents. I get a better day if I stay up than if I would sleep earlier, haha
    Dylanhgh Dylanhgh 16-17, M Apr 16

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    As a person who stays up long and sleeps at irregular intervals, I know that nights can be quite lonely.. Then again, it isn't any less lonely than I am for the rest of the day...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 16

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