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I Struggling to Stay Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 92 People

    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    I really was struggling to forgive my STBX husband for the years of pain he caused me. He's not a bad man he has a good heart and he's an awesome Dad. He has some mental health...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 25

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    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 27 Responses May 12

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    Chiquititaa Chiquititaa 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    I am a stay at home Dad I have 3 beautiful girls Katie is 9 Jordan is 8 and Alyssa is 2 and a half months old my girlfriend Jenna is a teacher so she works and I stay home with...
    snugglebear13 snugglebear13 36-40, M May 6

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    Every day I smile and act like nothings wrong. Its called putting everything aside and simply being strong, so I can focus on others and make them feel like they belong, I am here...
    nathchalk97 nathchalk97 18-21, M May 10

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    femaleinbackyard femaleinbackyard 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 30

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    Ace45w Ace45w 31-35, F May 1

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