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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    i have been in two motorcycles without broken bones and i should have died in both of them. 5 years ago ulcerative colitis nearly killed me with dehydration and lack of nutrition...
    ilb4ever54 ilb4ever54 26-30, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    i live in a very bad situation, and i want to move, but i have nowhere to stay. it sucks. whenever i have a job, the person im staying with gives me a VERY hard time. im quite...
    awesomeguy3125 awesomeguy3125 26-30, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Since I stay in my room a lot, I decided I needed to change the design of my room add fading lights etc because why not ;)
    ReemNoctis ReemNoctis 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I stay up late because I'm scared of tomorrow. I know today sucks but what if tomorrow turns out to be worse?
    iamkesho iamkesho 22-25, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    This is my life goal is to return to the internal state before dying inside. To return to the days when I dreamed and the sun shined bright where it was a joy to awaken not a...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 16 hrs ago

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    It's 2am I stay up late because I just can't sleep. I listen to music to pass the time.
    Darkmuffins Darkmuffins 46-50, F 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    It has been awhile since I've had some fun and felt really alive. I've been working hard, and spending a lot of time on the road commuting. I am overdue for some excitement. But...
    Danielle1011 Danielle1011 51-55, F 1 day ago

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    What is Depression? I was asked today what depression is like to me... And it really took me by surprise, because usually, no one cares to ask, because no one cares. See...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    DAYS OF ENDLESS STRUGGLE> >>>MORE HOPEFUL PILLS TODAY ,,,, TRYING TO APPEAR (NORMAL ) IN SOME SORT OF WAY,,,,,, IT SEEMS THAT THE STRUGGLE IS ALWAYS HERE WITH ME...
    ladysaya ladysaya 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I absolutely LOVE staying up late at night, especially right now during the summer when I am off of school. I like to stay up till 2 or 3 in the morning watching TV. Sometimes I...
    hannahphillips hannahphillips 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My eyes, pools of dark water, have blossomed into iridescent lotuses, for I am surrounded by so many wonderful, beautiful people. Even without my sweet mother, I am feeling loved...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've had a week off from therapy ( he was away) and im struggling, I have cognitive behavioural therapy and I see him again on Thursday but I'm Not lasting! I've been in. Tears...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    So I have a 19 yr old son who stays up all night playing xbox and hanging out with his friends. He tells me he really wants to get a job but that no one is hiring people with no...
    beinmee beinmee 46-50, F a week ago

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    When you stay up way too late then you fall asleep and everyone is surprised that you're alive
    missrayrayk missrayrayk 13-15, F Jun 25

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    Another day(or night) of me staying up the whole evening! 😂 It's almost 6am now and I'm still awake. I had a gig last night so... But now my head hurts so bad. I need to put my...
    LoneDolll LoneDolll 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 25

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    Was formed out of rock, tequila, and recreational substances in the 60s, raised a family, and always stayed true to that. Many family and friends got sucked into the money machine...
    boldtimer boldtimer 66-70, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I feel like everyone wants me around, but no one wants me... I've been staying at a friends house and doing everything for everyone.. I really like his sister and I've been...
    steviehunt steviehunt 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    Last night I stayed up, squealing and speaking in gibberish with a friend. I need a life
    C9Poke C9Poke 16-17, M Jun 24

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    I stay up.. For what reason.. I do not know. I've got nothing to look forward to? Testing to see how long I can go until I crash into sleep perhaps?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 24

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    Do not wish to get up, I don't care if someone gets angry, I just want to stay in my bed. I don't really want to do anything, just lie here and possibly sleep, my sleep cycles are...
    InferioritySimplex InferioritySimplex 18-21, M Jun 23

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    I love my man so much and miss him! when he calls he drives me nuts though! I know it hard staying positive in there but he keeps talking about what he "knows" is going to happen...
    tmama02 tmama02 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    Do not worry.. I am still alive... I still feel some breathing difficulties...but I am still alive.. Just days eat my hours.. Who knows where I would be after an hour or a day or...
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M Jun 23

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    Greetings, Its been quite some time since my last post. Well, I've deleted it, but still. I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't sleep, study basically i couldn't do anything for...
    BlakeUndefined BlakeUndefined 18-21, M Jun 23

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    It's past 3am for me here. Staying up late can be nice sometimes, but I have to say that honestly, I would rather be going to bed at 10 at night with somebody I love next to me...
    TheGirlYouNeverKnew TheGirlYouNeverKnew 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    New mom, daughter is only 2 months and I'm home All day All day ??... Love staying at home but Mannnnn! I can't wait to get out .
    kamster00 kamster00 31-35, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I just stayed up until 7 am. HAHA and it's time for me to sleep all day and repeat the cycle. It's fine tho, I get to see the sunrise and set so it's pretty cool 😌
    oHDaily oHDaily 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 22

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    I had an accident last year in the month of September and i had almost gave up on myself as my eyes were completely damaged and i was in depression that whether i'am may be able to...
    Gladtobehere55 Gladtobehere55 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I wanna stay in bed all day and cuddle and watch movies and have blissful conversation haha
    wesbrownbear87 wesbrownbear87 26-30, M Jun 21

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    i stay up late every night!!! they say if you don't grind, u dont eat, and i love the satisfaction of knowing I'm good. looks like tonight will be another one of those nights...
    jodiemac jodiemac 36-40, M Jun 21

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    I stay in my room because every thing I do is wrong
    Dickbutt123 Dickbutt123 13-15, F Jun 20

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    because you're all i need. this ain't love, its clear to see. but darlin, STAY WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    i love t o stay naked all the the time.yesterday i forgot i was naked when i went to get gas.since i was at the station i would go on and pump.it felt great.the...
    nudeman72 nudeman72 70+ 1 Response Jun 20

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    Now I know what you're probably thinking. "Oh god, is she can blabber on about those cheesy tumblr posts that talk about Netflix and ice cream?" Yes, yes I am. I think most...
    shhstayquiet shhstayquiet 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19

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