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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    I'm kinda lost, I guess? Everyday on my way to home, I wonder if I can kill myself when I'm home. It gives me chills tho. I wish someone could stay alive with my heart, kidneys or...
    queeenbey queeenbey 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    3:16am, Monday. December 22. This unusually rare for me to be awake at this time. But about 12hrs ago, I was at Starbucks and ordered a coffee, forgetting the effects I would have...
    xxblasianxx xxblasianxx 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    Tell me a story of saving someone from dying from an illness. How to fix someone heart that has been broken? How do you survive? How do you breathe and not suffocate? You've seen...
    ohida ohida 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    It's been about two months since I cut myself and I really want to it's eating me alive.....
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I had a child pretty young (21), but at the time it was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was in my last year of college, was engaged, and had a host of love and...
    AJD23 AJD23 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    For as long as I can remember I've never been comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school...
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    Isn’t it supposed to be the people that love you and say how much they care for you support you? I know I’m pretty damn stupid as everyone keeps telling me but I’m smart...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I'm staring at mirror with tears streaming down my face and I'm begging myself to stay strong.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I am a mommy of two girls. I am struggling with my youngest who is 6. She is one of the neediest people I have ever met. She drives the rest of completely insane with her constant...
    warden2000 warden2000 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I'm struggling with one right now. I am out on my way shopping and the bus is stuck in traffic and its raining anyone want to make me struggle more? ;)
    Justbeingmeok Justbeingmeok 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    well it finally happened. my mom, the one person in the world I could always go to when I was struggling has grown tired of hearing my issues. I certainly don't blame her. when I...
    superwholockimom superwholockimom 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I'm tired of struggling in life. Relationships, work, school... everything I do everyday is a damn struggle. Pretty sure I'm starting to develop schizophrenia. I'm just trying to...
    TNDO95 TNDO95 18-21, M Dec 10

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    So today I've been struggling. I feel like I'm on an alien planet but I know that there isn't something wrong with everyone, but rather with me. I really struggle to connect with...
    LucemSpiritus LucemSpiritus 18-21, M Dec 12

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    I don't know where my life is going anymore. Over the course of one year, my depression has gotten about 3x worse. I can't remember the last time I didn't fall asleep crying or...
    xxlunawolfxx xxlunawolfxx 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    I just have to take it one day at a time.. It's already been 11 months and it's still hard everyday ur not next to me... I miss you babe. "The bed's getting cold and you're not...
    msleesha07 msleesha07 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    This year has changed my life dramatically. Parents got a divorce and I moved to Florida with my mother. We are struggling financially and I'm having a hard time dealing with my...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm still alive. I'm still alive and well... No matter what knocks me down again, no matter ow tempting death may be, I'll live on. Now i have, even if it is the smallest...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 13-15, M Nov 25

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    “If you're reading this... Congratulations, you're alive. If that's not something to smile about, then I don't know what is.”
    panita2014 panita2014 16-17, F Nov 23

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    Well, I am suppose to live that is why I am alive. When my time is up, I will head for my Grave. I have had felt and wished more than once that, "the earth to Split in Two so I...
    Cowsir66 Cowsir66 41-45, T 2 Responses Nov 27

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    I'm so happy I'm alive. By this it means that I'm happy I haven't killed myself yet. I'm honestly so proud of myself but also scared for the future and if I can handle it before I...
    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    So... Today I was walking around to try to clear my head. I have bad depression, and I'm an introvert, and I have been surrounded by loud people non-stop for two weeks. And that...
    oaktheprof oaktheprof 16-17, M Dec 6

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    I'm so happy and thankfull for being alive. I'm so happy that I can hear music and see colors and beautiful peoples and landscapes. And I'm so thankful that I have really good...
    marko1234567 marko1234567 22-25, M Dec 7

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    I think of suicide every day. It might actually be caused by a friend problem but I don't know. I feel that if it wasn't to keep a friend alive I would not be here.
    mickeymousecupcakelover mickeymousecupcakelover 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Ok I don't want to be alive anymore anyone got any ideas to kill myself?
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    I'm one of the revolutionary in Bahrain I faced the policemen who tried to kill anyone who Protest in the road to reach his voice to the government and fighting for their FREEDOM...
    Al3qeed Al3qeed 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    It's too late yet..only 10:15 right now in Cali But I can stay up as late as I want..and sleep for some short hours sometimes..and wake up not feeling tired at all I know I need my...
    jonnygoode74 jonnygoode74 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    nobody is nice to me... i stay in the shadows away from everyone.... i run from ppl
    wolfy152374 wolfy152374 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I dont want to stay up late night but what to do have to study somehow and have to stay up late night . Hate this kind of routine 😢
    nissa24 nissa24 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I love going out, but I'd prefer staying home. I don't need to get ready, or put makeup on. I can just put a messy bun on, and stay in my pajamas. Plus, I love the quietness...
    HellaNella HellaNella 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 26

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    Yep, but apparently it didn't feel like apparating. In a previous life I stayed the night with my (then) wife and kids at the Olde Towne Inn. We even stayed in one of Old Lucy's...
    zmedleff1 zmedleff1 41-45 1 Response Nov 26

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    I'm not a big fan of the night club or bar scene.With the right woman in my life,staying at home than going out wouldn't be at all boring.I would enjoy her company with pleasure in...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I used to hate staying in on Friday nights, especially when I had plans with friends. I still go out on Friday's occasionally but I'm much tamer now. I don't think there's a point...
    anonymoussouthernbabe anonymoussouthernbabe 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I don't think I have ever had a night were I did not stay up passed 1:00
    lealea12234 lealea12234 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I stayed up until 6:30 this morning and now facing the day only four hours later in an attempt to force myself back on schedule so I. an prepare for work tomorrow morning.... why...
    lostinthoughtss lostinthoughtss 26-30, F Nov 23

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    I always say I'm going to do my homework and go to bed.. But then I get caught up doing some other **** and end up staying up all night😩😩😩
    RimaniStyles RimaniStyles 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    I'm confused about too many things right now.. I want to stay calm, but I couldn't.. it's killing me
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    One way to fly ! is to accept every thing what ever that comes in our way. When there are no hard feelings or soft feelings attached to the actions, it is very easy to handle the...
    nissan124 nissan124 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 24

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