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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    My parents love me. And my sister. And my fiancée, actually. So, my parents and I had a chat tonight. A big one. Only lasted one hour, but it was big. Dad basically asked me if...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Since I was a teenager I've had the urge to cut myself and I was already seeing a counselor at the time for sexual abuse and anxiety so I told her my new urges and she didn't take...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I am trying not to do something. Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes harder still. That something has been integral to my life for over 10 years now, and I'm only 28. It's eaten away...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 21 hrs ago

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    I made a mistake I told myself I would never make, I let someone else be my happiness. Now I feel like my world is being torn apart. I had never believed in love, and I had...
    Unbloomed Unbloomed 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    So I just turned 18 and am not to sure about anything. I need help and don't know who to talk to. You see ever since I can remember I have always been a little more on the feminine...
    umflic umflic 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 9

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    I keep fantasizing about throwing a punch at someone so they will beat me up until I feel alive. I feel so guilty lately and It's such a lie that plays in my head, but I feel so...
    sweetsavanna sweetsavanna 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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      I have always been an ill child , from the day i was born i was in and out of hospital , when I turned 6 I got better and wasn't ill that much. at the age of 9 I found out...
    mbk123 mbk123 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I'm 38, disabled wife is 48, I'm emotionally divorced, lonely, poor, but have 3 kids so it's my duty to stay, but unhappily? IDK what to do!
    jgoffe10 jgoffe10 36-40, M Jan 8

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    "Are you alive or barely existing," she asked me. I looked up at her with my glazed over eyes and puffy eyelids. "What?" She repeated herself again this time with an unreadable...
    thatrosegirl thatrosegirl 18-21, F Jan 13

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    I posted about struggling with agoraphobia (from time to time) on here a few days ago, I think it might have made things worse. Havn't left the house in a 4-5 days now :s Really...
    lonelyguybc lonelyguybc 26-30, M Jan 3

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    I too was struggling in my relationship with GOD...after a truly awful 2014....my faith took a few hits.....I raged, and vented against GOD...wondering if HE was really there, and...
    sexygirl39 sexygirl39 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I have been struggling with my relationship with God, because I want to know him before I can surrender myself to him. Last year a friend of mine who went to the same high school...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I have something I would like to say. I know it is irrelevant to many but to the few that it applies too.. I'm sorry. I've spent the last 3 years in depression. Feeling like my...
    Faelanthewulf Faelanthewulf 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I am reaching the end of my rope. Every time I do something, or the world seems to be look up for me, I just get knocked down. I was so excited because I had finally finished all...
    anna0593 anna0593 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    Today was a tough day. It started out with me waking up late. Then continued on with a day full of being unproductive. On top of this I feel tired and feel the beginning of a...
    benforce benforce 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I had a very rare first of it's strain of sarcoma cancer. Ever discovered in anyone and had to go to Dana-Farber Cancer center in Boston MA. to be taken care of to remove it. On...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Almost 3 months ago I hit a moose on a road where I travelled many of times.. I saw the moose coming into my wind shield, glass everywhere in my eyes, in my mouth, in my face...
    EvangeB EvangeB 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    At times i wished i wouldnt hv be born wish i could die beside ol my crazy thoughts i at tyms feel so lucky to be alive. lucky to hv a loving family, sweet friends and having a...
    sly15 sly15 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Many children die at a young age, so I'm very lucky to still be alive. We all are. I could've even died at birth.
    Lollipop948 Lollipop948 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    i lost my sences.numb i'll do anything for feeling alive again.
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    When I think back to the day I almost successfully took my life I can remember feeling empty. Now I am so glad that my mom decided to come check up on me because if she hadn't I...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 12

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    hmmm I got hit by a train..... overdosed 3 times..... I don't know someone wants me alive
    solarenergy solarenergy 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    To be honest, I shouldn't be alive. There have been times where death was right before my face. Somehow by God's mercy it hasn't happened yet xD
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's 2:25 AM. This is my last break day. I can either stay up all night secretly to fix my schedule (tho I may fail) or go to bed and have it be extremely hard to sleep on my first...
    MonkeyGirl0909 MonkeyGirl0909 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Stay Strong Is Hard, We All Know It . But when We Are Depressed we Can Get To The Point Where We don't Care About Anything. Well It Has Happened To Me ' And I Almost Killed Myself...
    Slowlytuya Slowlytuya 18-21, F Jan 5

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    I've never posted anything on here before, but at this point I simply don't know what to do. My boyfriend and I have been together for around 2.5 years now, and both of us are in...
    makitath makitath 18-21, F Jan 14

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    The better part of my high school life was spent staying up late. Ten years later in university I'm still staying up except now I'm starting to regret it
    alys19 alys19 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    I am staying anonymous on this account for more than a few reasons. On my old account I had way too many creeps adding me and messaging me about very inappropriate things. Some of...
    Ljm2114 Ljm2114 16-17, F a week ago

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    As the song All Nighter says, "I stayed up all night playing games."
    ForeverStarrs ForeverStarrs 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I stay up until 5 am and wake up like 1 in the afternoon. I really like to study late at night, deep music in the background and no one to bother me, its a bliss..
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    peacefulness is in the night and if i wanna enjoy peacefulness i stay up all night and kill my time by chatting with peeps on social media
    waris1 waris1 16-17, M Jan 1

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    I feel this happens less now that I lost a lot of my hatred for things, I still stay up ridiculuosly late but least now I can justify it with logic of playing games, watching TV or...
    Sportser Sportser 26-30, M Jan 2

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    The only reason I wasn't asleep when the ball dropped was because I couldn't sleep. Of course I was home that night. Why the hell should I go out into the freezing night into over...
    KiannaJ KiannaJ 22-25, F Jan 3

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    I'm trying to stay up late, someone should message me so I'm not as bored. *People around my age please*
    Sadie0923 Sadie0923 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I'm 22 years old about to be 23 soon. And I've been with this guys for almost 7 years in March. But I found out last year around June that he was cheating on me with a girl he used...
    SJ031608 SJ031608 22-25 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Sometimes I stay up till 5 a.m. and wake up at 7 a.m. to go to school. I'm not a dayperson and i hate mornings.
    Mylaj Mylaj 18-21, F 19 Responses Jan 7

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    I stay up till two or three on the internet cause I don't want to lay down for a long time and just think till I fall asleep. I always end up thinking about upsetting things.
    Headlights Headlights 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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