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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    PorcelainChinaDoll PorcelainChinaDoll 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I believe in God, and I've heard many wonderful things about my life.... But frankly, I want to give up. I've been down for so long that I don't even know what to do anymore...
    Vanessairie Vanessairie 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    2 years ago I tried to commit suicide and failed... I am still alive yet after all this time... I really only regret staying alive. That's it really, I regret not dying all that...
    SinisterShadow SinisterShadow 18-21, M Jun 30

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    Scratch the crust – blood, Pick your nose – blood, Brush your teeth – blood, Sew the sock – blood, Every 28 days – blood, Are we alive? Since rubbing rusty iron makes the...
    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    I am married and so my AP, neither happily married. We became friends over 2 years ago, but over the last year have gotten alot closer. Our families were all friends (his wife, my...
    Suzanne1976 Suzanne1976 36-40, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    lately I don't even know how to put my thoughts into words. people ask me what's wrong or why I'm upset, but I have no answer.. I just say nothing. I don't know what's bothering me...
    Juliannaa Juliannaa 13-15, F Jun 25

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    I know this sounds stupid, and I am not ever going to commit suicide so dont think that, but I got to thinking the other day, why are we alive? Why are we here? Whats the purpose...
    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Over the mountains and over the waves, under the fountains and under the graves; under floods that are deepest, which Neptune obey, over rocks that are steepest, love will find...
    silvermoon9619 silvermoon9619 16-17, F Jun 27

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    Here I am again being dragged back in to the darkness, that evil inside me trying to push its way to the surface but I am fighting with all I have to push it back in to stay near...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29

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    Yessssss. Big time. My brain wants their weapons in my trash. My brain say protect others by attacking. My heart says its a trap. To stay free and heal victims...
    converted converted 46-50, M Jul 11

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    I am incredibly lucky to be alive I was born premature 2 months before I was supposes to be born I was born 19 days after my parents got married on November 1st 1997 So I was born...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I am struggling with this but feel like there's no other option
    caliciasmile caliciasmile 22-25, F Jun 28

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    I moved away from home and church, 3 months ago to work at Walt-Disney World. I am struggling with my walk with god, I moved down here with no friends, No family and no support I'm...
    jaxsonmommy386 jaxsonmommy386 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    As a child, I was always the precocious one, the one out of the group of my friends who would receive the rewards and the recognition, the one that was looked up to, now looking...
    Nataliewoofwoof Nataliewoofwoof 18-21 4 days ago

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    Lately our generation has been taking for granted all the small details in life.. We look down at our phones instead of looking around. I want to take a moment of your day to say...
    KellsThr13 KellsThr13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Still alive and kicking and now roaming around EP to let all people know how crazy and AWESOME I am! You doubting? Don't care! :P (haters gonna hate!) giggles* JK ;) I'm AWESOME...
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    I've been walking through a fog for too long. I can't remember the last time I felt this alive. Quiet 7am Sunday morning, cold fresh air, bright sun poking its head over the...
    Diabo1ique Diabo1ique 70+ Jul 5

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    I work with the elderly and everyday after listening to their stories I am more grateful to be alive and well. I strive to utilize my time wisely to maximize my existence.
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I'm tired and so sick of being alive I want to end up this sadness ****.
    jumanachan jumanachan 16-17, F Jul 12

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    I feel it in my existence. As a human and for being on this planet and even living or existing. Endless pain. Nothing make sense and everything makes me unhappy, I could never even...
    DrowninginFear DrowninginFear 18-21, F Jul 16

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    If I say “it’s a great day to be alive,” it’s because those are literally my only plans.
    PinkP0werRanger PinkP0werRanger 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Even though my life is in shambles I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for those moments that cause you to stop and think "wow, this is amazing!" I am grateful for the...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I am not a mom yet! But I met a sweet and caring woman that I will NEVER forget. Mom... :) I went on an English exchange. I had to spend 5 weeks in Victoria BC to improve my...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I stay up really late. I stay up really lat too often for my liking. I have been staying up immensely late every night for the past month or so, since I graduated high school. I...
    KMargatroid KMargatroid 16-17, F Jul 7

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    hehee! ((: cause as anyone will no before bullies made me delete my other stories (:O) I stayed at keirans when mum was in hospital back in April :/ buh it was fun, especially the...
    hanntiger1 hanntiger1 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    So since getting out of the military over 9 years ago I've had trouble sleeping. I sleep only 4-5 hrs a day, sporadically and I rarely sleep at night. I've had sleep clinics and...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    It does not matter how much you try to stay positive,,,, but the people around you have more impact on your behavior for staying to be positive!!!!!!!!
    EmptyError EmptyError 26-30, M Jul 2

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    ) I'm like "ok I'm only gonna stay up for 15 more mins" then I end up staying up the whole night and not getting any sleep lol 😂😂😂
    jaynick15 jaynick15 13-15, F Jul 4

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    I just don't really go to sleep. If I go to sleep before 12 I can't stay asleep so I have to stay up. But it's not all bad, I like having the time to myself
    classact45 classact45 18-21, F Jul 4

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    It depends, actually. When I always stay home, I find that I won't feel the drive to go out. But if I go out, it will almost seem like I don't have a proper home. haha! It all...
    malipatient malipatient 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Never say or do anything behind someone's back that you couldn't tell them to their face stay real stay true at all times.
    jpruitt28 jpruitt28 31-35 5 days ago

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    I hate when people say stay positive, like that will magically just change things. It doesn't, it just gives you a fake or false sense of hope that things will be better when they...
    Kman4You Kman4You 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I stay up till 7am and I fall asleep the whole day but I can't help it cause I not tired cause I continue to stay up late to clean my room and when I do that I snack on stuff and...
    hellokitti hellokitti 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I usually go to bed at 2 or 3 in the morning and occasionally I'll stay up till almost 5. Even when school is in session and I have to get up early I still stay up. It's a really...
    Darkanddesolate Darkanddesolate 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    There are many times in our life where we feel like we can't win for losing & that everything seems to be coming against us! Friends are few, family is distant, & you feel all...
    bubblysunshine bubblysunshine 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    There is the really cute guy I met this past semester, and we started to talk more in March..text, phone calls, staying after class to chat etc. Anyways I thought he really liked...
    annieannana annieannana 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 25