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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    I'm 14 and when I go to bed my parents think I'm asleep but I always go on my iPad and stay up until like 3😂
    rachiemartin472 rachiemartin472 31-35, F 5 Responses 49 mins ago

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    Every time I ask my parents for something I feel guilty. I'm very frugal because my teachers once told us that children where very expensive to take care of, as a result I was...
    Hellooreopie Hellooreopie 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't know about sleeping all day, necessarily, but I definitely prefer nights to days. I enjoy staying up all night... seeing the sun set and still awake when the sun rises...
    SunnyDayze2 SunnyDayze2 22-25, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    The night is the hardest time to be alive and 2am knows all my secrets.
    GirlieGirl07 GirlieGirl07 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I don't know as staying home alone without thinking much about why people stare at me. I am just fed from everyone stare at me and think that i have a perfect life. I enjoy going...
    sensitiveguy36 sensitiveguy36 36-40, M Jul 22

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    I stay up all night no matter how tired I am my mind doesn't let me sleep. My mind always runs wild and never seems to stop to rest.
    Alex288837359 Alex288837359 16-17, F Jul 22

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    I stay all nite alone watching tv
    wonderwoman562 wonderwoman562 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 22

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    Staying up late lets me see this world from a totally different lens, and it's so beautiful and unique
    will1982 will1982 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Hello, I am wondering if anyone has any views and/or experiences concerning forgiving those who are not repentant. Is anyone struggling with this, or found a way to forgive the...
    musicman1965 musicman1965 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    My family saw oculous now i cant fall asleep:( i duno why i stayed! i have a big mirror in my house and its lookin at me i sware! jus gotta stay away from the mirror and the dark...
    JennaRee JennaRee 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    I stay home babysitting my toddler brother ALL THE TIME, and I hate staying home. My parents don't share the same interests as I do, so we never do anything or go anywhere I want...
    kYG1 kYG1 16-17, F Jul 19

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    I can't just give up I just can't my mom would've wanted me to stay strong so no matter what I have to stay strong I just have to even though it seems lately I've been starting to...
    natsudragon natsudragon 16-17, M Jul 18

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    I really need to change this soon!, it is getting abit outta hand now that I am not working at the momment. 04:00-06:00 every night for the last 1-2 weeks. waking up around 12:00...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    I am struggling with my mood swings. They're becoming more frequent and it feels so heavy. My body can't take it and my eyes are sore from the crying. I really need to get some...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I stay up till at least 7am every morning during summer holidays for the past 3 years
    AimeeCrossan3692 AimeeCrossan3692 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I was born four months premature. I weighted 2 lbs 4 ounces and was 15" long. Shortly after I was born, I coded and was legally dead for 3 minutes. The doctor has to cut me open...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I'm gonna stay up late today to. Wanna chat im here. Don't txt me until pass 11:00. This is real. Even tho it might say I'm offline. I will be awake so text me if u guys want. 7/17...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 17

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    Exactly what am trying to do... Please God help me stay strong always.. I want to be a better person for her
    nikkiHappiness nikkiHappiness 22-25, F Jul 17

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    I never really knew that I'd be alive today. Battling major depression is definitely not a walk in the park and there's a lot more to it than "just stop being sad." There was a...
    nikaXo nikaXo 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Being the outdoor individual I am, I've always enjoyed scuba diving. It's a new and exciting world down below. During winter months we would both dive as well as use traps for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm loosing it I'm a stay at home mom I have four children 7,6,20 months and 2 months I love them dearly but I have had enough. I also take care of my mother who is disabled and...
    Ann91708 Ann91708 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    actually I feel bad for people who are struggling with being gay or just coming out because everyone's family is mostly ****** up I mean honestly if the “family” I have didn't...
    shiasan shiasan 16-17, M Jul 15

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    Ok well the first time I ever stayed up was when I had to finish a project for class. I ended up watching the fosters all night. I fell asleep my 4th hour. It's now a hobbie that I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I always fantasize about what it'd be like if i walk and stay naked when i'm around a black guy.......it just turns me on.....is it absurd??
    Rosyblackedindian Rosyblackedindian 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 15

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    Yeah I stay up way too late every night!!
    ginaw35 ginaw35 46-50, F 4 Responses Jul 15

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    I just want to stay in bed all day long and do nothing, stress about nothing and just relax :( not for just one day but a lot more
    SilentThinker1 SilentThinker1 22-25, F Jul 14

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    The tables have turned, I went from being the provider, bread winner, successful employee with tons of potential for advancements, to becoming a hurt, painful,happy yet sad stay at...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 13

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    Not only for me....because I have to be able to hold it together, but for my entire family. After 34 years of marriage, my mother left my dad. Every day we find out something new...
    Melaniek2216 Melaniek2216 26-30, F Jul 12

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    Darling you got to let me knowShould I stay or should I go?If you say that you are mineI'll be here 'til the end of timeSo you got to let me knowShould I stay or should I go?It's...
    LittleSouthernBelle LittleSouthernBelle 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I stay up as long as my cousin's up and that's about until 3 in the morning. Sure if I feel tired I go to bed but I'm young and I'm still trying to understand the storyline to GTA...
    ChloeAnnabelEdwards ChloeAnnabelEdwards 13-15, F Jul 11

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    I always stay up till like 2 in the morning and then go for a run early in morning so I usually always get Around 4 hours of sleep it's a habit that I have and I can't not go to...
    twalie12 twalie12 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I should really be asleep. I even managed to stay off of here most of the night, and I was heading to bed.....then this line from a song popped into my head. I can't remember the...
    PraiseBeToYevon PraiseBeToYevon 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    On weekdays, I have to get up at 6:45 AM to get ready for work. Lately, I've been up until 1:00 or 1:30 AM, just piddling with my computer/tablet, watching videos or listening to...
    CJRed73 CJRed73 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 10

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