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I Struggling to Stay Alive

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    An eating disorder is what I have, anorexia. know what your going threw, I am on my 2nd recovery. I started because my mom called me fat all the time and always made fun of me...
    SecretRocks SecretRocks 13-15, F Apr 15

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    I can't sit around and do homework and act normal anymore. I am so sick and tired of putting on this stupid mask of happiness. I want to just break down already. I can't stand the...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I am struggling with life. A lot. Whether it's with connecting with other people, struggling with my inner demons, or battling my procrastinating ways, I struggle all the time.
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    I feel incredibly alone. I have family and friends that love me but I feel like I have nobody at the same time. I'm far away from home and I'm staying here for six months but I...
    camicat12 camicat12 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I am looking for help with repressed memories. They are from 17 years ago when I was 6 years old. I started to have flashbacks 11 years ago and they only happened when triggered so...
    arsnicandlace arsnicandlace 18-21, M Apr 12

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    I have notice that most people with depression , PTSD, etc we seem to push people away!! And we at time push away the wrong people!! But we are miss understood, and many do not...
    111888my 111888my 41-45, M 2 days ago

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    My bf is overseas for work. He was planning on being home twice now, and both times things have changed and he is unsure of when he will be home now. The story... We were great...
    moco1143 moco1143 36-40, F Apr 3

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    Last night I talked to my friend about something I was going to do. He said dont. He thinks it would kill me. but I knew it probably wouldn't. There's only nine. Heart and blood...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30

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    This is one of my fav me moments... Such a reminder of who I am... People see this pic and they go: that's so you... Remember to laugh often & to cherish the zany moments. Risk...
    SagSunshine2014 SagSunshine2014 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can't fall asleep. I don't know what to do! I'm tired but ill end up staying awake until 4:00am and finally go to sleep and then wake up at 6:30am for school and practically be a...
    loveyou826 loveyou826 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    WHY AM I ALIVE?! It's the question that hunts every single day. What's my use? It's sooo bloody frustratin' Anybody got some answers??? Anyone???
    AwkwardChameleon7 AwkwardChameleon7 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    just to let you all know, im alive!
    Jessica483 Jessica483 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I need to love and be loved! I need to like and be liked! I need to smile and be smiled at! I need to speak and be spoken to! I need to be held and to hold! I need to kiss and be...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    You was In my dreams again last night, We Touched lips, You Held me tight, I Woke up feeling you in my heart, In that one moment I felt so alive. X
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Apr 4

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    There were days that i feel so locked up.. too lazy to take a bath, brush my teeth, shut off my phone line... just googling all day stuffs about boredom, sadness, life... am i...
    hollyhelly hollyhelly 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Last Saint Patrick's Day I went out with some girl friends from cosmetology school. I hadn't really binge drank since I left college so I was excited for a real "night out" college...
    victoriaxbx victoriaxbx 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Whats the point of me being alive if all i so is get screamed at for nothing be called a worthless piece of **** get stuck serving my mean *** mother the rest of my life and cant...
    timeladynat timeladynat 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Some days I don't feel alive. At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Because we depend on other people for our happiness. I used to believe my ex made me so feel so alive. So what? He's gone now and I'm dead again? Nah. I make myself happy now. So...
    CindyLovely CindyLovely 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    The choices I have made in life were suppose to lead me to a more fulfilling life. It's like I was tricked into thinking these choices were the right ones. I have come to find that...
    sparked22 sparked22 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i am alive because i know myself and i am free and that is why i can give love endlessly... if pain comes it is my lesson, if love comes it is my lesson, if anything comes it is my...
    Nichalas Nichalas 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't have any reason not to be happy being alive. I enjoy my life so far and I don't have any complains. Life is what you make it!
    KawaiiBoy KawaiiBoy 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    IDUNA AND HER APPLES: HOW LOKI PUT THE GODS IN DANGER IN Asgard there was a garden, and in that garden there grew a tree, and on that tree there grew shining apples. Thou knowst...
    ThorsonOfEarthHammer ThorsonOfEarthHammer 26-30, M Apr 10

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    Stay positive. I want to fall in love and know that it can be with whomever I choose because I chose them. Stay positive. I want to kiss my girlfriend without having to look around...
    inonon inonon 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    Staying HOME!!!... For me personally staying home is this shizzz! I get free food, free mifi, free tv, and my own space and time, oh especially sleep whenever I want to. Going out...
    BabyDgay BabyDgay 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I have a really hard time communicating with my husband. We filed for divorce 6 months ago but then decided to let it go and reconcile. At the same time, other circumstances have...
    irismagnolia irismagnolia 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    It's a tale as old as time - stay for the kids. I have always said I would stay for the sake of my daughter. I would decide what direction to take after she leaves home. That...
    Steph613 Steph613 41-45, F 8 Responses Mar 27

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    Staying Strong is not cutting yourself. It's not doing that one thing that is making you weak. It's loving yourself when it's hard. It's baring through pain that is almost...
    Janellesings Janellesings 13-15, F Apr 5

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    i want to be in the moment.i think its the solution to all the problems not only in my life but everyones..there is so much mental activity going on that i never stay present i...
    Camouflage Camouflage 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    I prefer not socialising and staying home than going out with a bunch of people. It's just that I feel like I can't connect with most people and I'm a bit shy. I like to observe...
    RupanjaliSamadder RupanjaliSamadder 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    I'd rather stay home and watch a movie on the sofa and snuggle, rather than having to go out and socialize.
    AlaiahMay AlaiahMay 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 26

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    Sometimes I just want to sleep until I am a different person. But I want to be me so I stay up.
    thewildjoe thewildjoe 18-21, M Mar 26

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    It's like my mind races through the night. Thinking about my day, my past, my future, running scenes through my head of things that should've happend in my life or just thinking...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 26

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    I am finding it hard to stay positive about life in general. as time goes on I am beginning to see the negatives and the darker sides to life and I don't like it
    poppycorner poppycorner 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I just don't understand. My friend and I both had our husbands cheat on us. I left based on my no tolerance policy and several months of therapy to enforce it. She stays because...
    2smart4him 2smart4him 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My whole life I have never lived at the same place for longer then three years. I have moved from family member to family member, county to county, and state to state. Sometimes by...
    whodidthat1296 whodidthat1296 18-21, M Mar 29

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    I have never drank, never smoked, never done drugs. I feel that this makes me the odd person out, especially now in college. I prefer to stay in my dorm instead of going out. I...
    DeJeKlu DeJeKlu 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    Id rather stay in my room and write about anything... stories, fanfiction, poetry, ANYTHING. I like being alone and yet... I feel lonely when I see other teens my age laughing...
    DecemberSky1 DecemberSky1 16-17, F Mar 29

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    I don't understand the general idea of going out. Or maybe it's some people who don't understand that going out is not for everyone and it's not a crucial element of a human's life...
    ListenerTalker ListenerTalker 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    I just can't seem to get him off my mind or stay away from him when I know he is no good for me.
    caramelchick caramelchick 41-45, F Mar 30

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    I'm a stay at home mom, I don't have many friends girls always end up stabbing me in the back. Just looking for someone to share laughs with because my 17 mo old doesn't talk back...
    jessj22 jessj22 22-25, F Apr 1

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    I have an irrational fear of crowds so ya instead of going out to some crowded bar or club I would much rather stay home. It may be anti social and I may be considered anti social...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M Apr 2

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    It has been a while since I have been on here. Sometimes I feel like this is the only place that I can express how I feel. I know it might sound silly but ,it's reality. My son is...
    Jimena123 Jimena123 18-21, F Apr 4

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    I def need to start staying strong for myself
    Reynastaxx Reynastaxx 26-30, F Apr 4

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    Been through a lot but of course i will stay strong.
    dancergirlchicago dancergirlchicago 18-21, F Apr 5

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