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I Struggling to Stay Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 93 People

    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200 51-55, M Feb 7, 2013

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    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2011

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    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium 22-25, M Jan 29, 2013

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    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 15, 2012

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    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Ok so here it goes I know it's long so bear with me. I was married in 2004 at 21. When I met my wife I really wasn't attracted to her. I know that's sounds messed up but hear me...
    martinezh martinezh 31-35, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    im sad right now my life is getting bad and worse. but it is out of my control most things are at least. I am not perfect but life is just hitting me left and right. I am trying...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I am at work all night, struggling to stay awake....someone keep me up!!
    TransMan14 TransMan14 22-25, T 1 Response 5 days ago

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    These days I have been felling so annoyed with a nurse from the early intervention in psychosis for the distress and uncomfort she made me feel . These days I thought about the way...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Struggling, it makes you stronger than what you already are. Everyone has days, weeks and maybe even months of it. Where your heart thrashes against your rib age threatening to...
    fwxo fwxo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Weak & powerless I want to let the whole world know that the reason or the cause for all my sufferings and ordeals in life were caused by my own family who do not sound like my...
    restlessuk restlessuk 31-35, F a week ago

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    Always been with women my whole life I'm 25. Since the age of 20 I got curious about watching male solos and to my surprise I got aroused and been dealing with it mentally since. I...
    TheBriefManChair TheBriefManChair 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    I don't know.. (quick summary if y you knew the whole story...) in the past couple years I've lost so much. Recently I've lost my best friend and now I feel like I lost my family...
    SunshineLaura SunshineLaura 18-21, F Mar 18

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    Divorce is hard an affair is hard . This is what my life looks like for now . It's been a hard 2 years trying to see that I'm beautiful after my husband the man I loved for 8 years...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24 22-25, F Mar 22

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    Alive because God wants me to be alive and breathing but in reality i am a corpse that is breathing , I am dead inside I dono why am i even alive whats the point in living like...
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    I never felt comfortable knowing someone is spending their money on me. I was raised by a single mother of 4 and money has always been an issue at home and knowing my mother has to...
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    I've thought about suicide again. I just can't help it. The school, preparations for univeristy and every other thing in my life at the moment gives me loads of stress and I crack...
    delusi0nal delusi0nal 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    I'm struggling with it because I don't want anyone to find out. (With the exception of those who already know.) I don't want them to judge me, but then again I could care less what...
    NobodyLove NobodyLove 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    So much crap on the internet about this, it's unbelievable. The amount of RP, fanboyism and... well, it's useless to me. These so-called "otherkin" communities pretends it's fun...
    Yuka1 Yuka1 26-30, F Mar 16

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    I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm struggling
    CallMeShayYeah CallMeShayYeah 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    As I'm not a white woman living in Britain I suffer greatly from discrimination and racism and it is intimidating and humiliating to be living around a race of people who...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    As I'm not a white woman living in Britain I suffer greatly from discrimination and racism and it is intimidating and humiliating to be living around a race of people who...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I totally agree with Ali (an egyptian man from port said)who I met in Brighton many years ago when life was a little better and he told me that all white people hate us and if the...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 19 hrs ago

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    I totally agree with Ali (an egyptian man from port said)who I met in Brighton many years ago when life was a little better and he told me that all white people hate us and if the...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 18 hrs ago

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    I'm a self harmer, but im not dead yet, and i don't plan to be any time soon. I have been alive for 5211 days as of today. I'm still alive.....
    HarleyHart HarleyHart 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    It's been like months when I finally came over the crap. Good books,Good friends got me back. But well Living alone and trying to figure out everything never works. People who say...
    ThisIsMeYeah ThisIsMeYeah 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    It started as neck pain. I thought I slept wrong. But it got worse. My hand started going numb. Then I started getting searing pain in my shoulder into my arm. MRI showed nothing...
    bettedaviseyes88 bettedaviseyes88 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I've been stabbed, shot at, stuck in a broken down truck in the middle of no where. seriously, how am I still alive?
    AustinOsten AustinOsten 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    I was born four months premature and right after I was born my heart stopped beating and I was officially dead for six minutes until the doctor was able to cut me open and...
    Iamwhatyousee Iamwhatyousee 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    I have spent my entire life believing I was disadvantaged. I blamed played small and hated my life. today I have challenged that belief and realize it was never true. so my goal...
    iamadvantaged iamadvantaged 41-45, M 1 Response Mar 19

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    For all people who are wondering or questioning about racism and discriminations in the uk .. The answer is a BIG YES especially if you are a dark skinned person and this apply to...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    We are all lucky to be alive. Life is so fragile and so easy to loose. It should never be taken for granted that the next minuet we could be dead. Always live love and laugh cuz...
    Thespistx Thespistx 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Im beginning to get it… how we both came together from our needs, from our lacks. Maybe we could´ve made it, but none of us were ready to be in a relationship… In this...
    Gaialion Gaialion 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    So I said to you "What if I said I move out and file soon?" And your reply was "the current sign is for me to date others". I said I agreed and I mentally do and I said the...
    LoveExplorer78 LoveExplorer78 36-40, M Mar 19

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    I am a stay at home mom for my 3 amazing kids. I love being a stay at home mom, I also do miss working full time. I used to be a nurse, however became a stay at home mom with the...
    ahousewife ahousewife 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    I'm a stay at home mom with a 2 year old daughter and a 1 month old son and i love being able to spend every second with my babies. but i miss having just a simple adult...
    ashleynichole25 ashleynichole25 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    I have this tendency to push a guy if i know im falling for him. I hated myself for that, i hated myself for being me. Its like im this invention made to be disastrous. So okay...
    AbstractExistence AbstractExistence 18-21 Mar 8

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    I mean I also love travelling and going out, but I dont know why. I really find time for myself to stay home. I even cancel/postpone my appointments at times just to be home...
    theoabern0741 theoabern0741 26-30 Mar 2

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