I Struggling to Stay Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 92 People

    ... Hmm

    I'd be okay with being here if people just left me the hell alone. I'm a naturally quiet person, but I smile all the time. Believe me when I say that I have my demons. People are always trying to figure me out and they ask so many questions! I mean really, they make things...
    midnighthavoc midnighthavoc
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2011

    No Point

    ever since i was 11 iv tried to hangmy self and cut my wrist. i see people all day doing good in school cant wait to go home but i sit there with a razor blade ffrom the pencile sharpinores and i thin mayb tomorrow ill b like that but no i cant i never will b every time i try to...
    jusneedsomehelp jusneedsomehelp
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

    Complicated..

    well i know how i have said that i love josh so much well it makes it hard to actually fall in love again even though i found a guy that i really like i am scared to let my heart go cause i dont want it broke again. this guy is so wonderful he treats me like an angel he is...
    gymnastrdgc20 gymnastrdgc20
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2011

    What's The Point

    Life isn't worth living if I'm constanlty hurt. Why do I put myself through it all anyway, I should just stop living. I'm not weak and giving up, I'm being strong enough to end it. I can't go a day without wishing I wasn't alive. I wish things were different sometimes but I can't...
    WakingUp2Reality WakingUp2Reality
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

    Death

    I think about daeth on a daily basis....especially at night.....I lost my best friend( i am a male) of 17 + year s..she was the love of my life....i miss her terribly.
    Badroad200 Badroad200
    51-55, M
    Feb 7, 2013

    Just Stop

    I cant feel anything but this pain.I just want it to stopJust one little push and it would stop
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 15, 2012

    Grandiose Milestones

    My accomplishment for today is that I got out of bed and went to work. My accomplishment for the month is that I jumped off 0 cliffs. No matter how bad I am at my job, how meaningless my life is or how many weeks I'm wasting, at least I can say I've accomplished that.
    Receuvium Receuvium
    22-25, M
    Jan 29, 2013

    Battle Within

    ...Its worth it to live life but the sadness isnt worth living through...always stuggling..always fighting. I remind myself of my loved ones everyday and i remember the pain i am going through...feeling at least something means ur alive...but i rather have no emotions at all...
    ConLocura ConLocura
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2009

    The Air I Breathe

    I always wonder how can people enjoy living thier lives? They must have some kind of inspiration. But once they accomplished their goals, what's next? Resetting? There is no difference of life between the rich and the poor. We're all living in a rut. Some lives an exteme life...
    kanyakatoon kanyakatoon
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 9, 2011

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    To All my friends that I added and became close with I cant thank you enough and for taking time to get to know me and myself getting to know you as well. So Please Email Me...
    MommyLittleBoy26 MommyLittleBoy26
    26-30, M
    Apr 21
    Well I did for years- now happy and freeeeee-- well kind of , I do have a wonderful girlfriend ;-)
    S2dio54 S2dio54
    51-55, M
    Apr 21
    If you want to connect you can contact me on skype (diaperdon69), or email (diaperdon69@gmail.com). Those are probably the easiest, but I also have several other accounts where we...
    diaperdon69 diaperdon69
    46-50, M
    Apr 21
    my K.I.K and G-MAIL are both DeathAngelS300. no pervs, I'll block you faster then you can say d***Pic.
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 21
    I've deleted all my stories except the last two I wrote. No I will linger on this site to see what happens. I did not search for a replacement so this is the end for me.
    AdBlue AdBlue
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    Promises mean everything, but after there're broken, sorry means nothing.
    gregloa gregloa
    51-55, M
    Apr 20
    I'm on appliestome.com same us as here if you'd like stay in touch
    Sulusuwakis Sulusuwakis
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    It seems its that time of life when you are so fragile and vulnerable that you are not capable of getting into any good friendships in life... even though u know they are one of...
    tomharryasia tomharryasia
    31-35, M
    Apr 20
    I'm trying to write this paper but I can't!! I'm so tired I'm Layin in bed. I can't focus
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    Thinking about you,thinking about us ,thinking why we are apart when we hold so much in our heart...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    1 Response Apr 19
    My first time pulling an allnighter to read was freshman year and I was reading the hunger games for my English class
    CarCarVrumVrum CarCarVrumVrum
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    Sleep? Bah! Humbug! If I had my way, I would stay up all day and all night.
    Funkystronglover Funkystronglover
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 19
    It's been 4 years since the last time I saw you , seems like your doing fine . I see your family and baby and I'm happy God gave you a happy life after how bad you hurt me I'm don...
    amandalovee24 amandalovee24
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 18
    painted him the other day, sent it in the mail this morning so hopefully he will get t by the end of the week. I just miss him so much
    bekaaa bekaaa
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 18
    I can't believe how late it is! I'm gonna sleep all day tomorrow.
    Tom1234P Tom1234P
    31-35, M
    Apr 17
    I am a United States Marine. Not currently active duty. Although As the saying goes once a Marine always a Marine. It is tattooed in my brain and my heart. Just a little back story...
    arhg arhg
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    so all my friends go to www.FetLife.comhttps://fetlife.com/groups/8358come stay in touch and keep the fun rolling
    SultryPieGirlKelly SultryPieGirlKelly
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    I've known some wonderful people here on EP and have had some great conversations. All good things must come to an end and so must this one as well. I would love to remain in...
    chilloutab2 chilloutab2
    36-40, M
    Apr 17
    If I can help anybody with suicidal thoughts to change their thoughts or depression or anxiety who do not want to kill theirself..right to me I'm here. When I see your question or...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 17
    I want to stay in touch with every cool person I have met off EP. I had this app for 3 years.
    staystyleandsmile staystyleandsmile
    18-21, F
    Apr 17
    I know I am meant to be because God and the Universe won't let me leave.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    Apr 17
    I have tried in my lifetime to die 16 times. This last one, put me in the hospital four months. It is in that time that I grew closer with the Lord. That is after I came out of my...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 16
    Try to win the war over depression n suicide.Everyone in life has a purpose. A reason for being alive on this earth. And their unique story needs to be heard ,to help someone else...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 16
    If you want to stay in touch with me let me know and I'll give you my FB profile
    wannabepreggers wannabepreggers
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 16
    If anybody wants to find me after EP has gone to but a faded memory? Or perhaps even a this page cannot be displayed sign . Send me a private message
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 16
    suppppeeeerr!! t ha nk You Lord! :D
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    Every day man I don't even sleep anymore
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 16
    I've seen more sunrises in the past four months than I would care to admit. At least some days I can blame work, but I know being there just gives me something to do when I can't...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 16
    I usually sleep for at least two hours every night and then I wake up
    Ariannaaaaa Ariannaaaaa
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 15
    I am decrepit. Leg arteries replaced. Quite a few teeth gone. Surgical scars (several). Ab muscles shot due to several surgeries. Waist growing as a result as well. Ditto weight...
    Robert09 Robert09
    61-65, M
    1 Response Apr 15
    its called good dope. up for 2 days and horny as h3ll
    guitaristvic guitaristvic
    51-55, M
    Apr 15
    If you would like to stay in contact with me, send me a message and I will give you my username for ways you can keep in contact with me
    luvbellies luvbellies
    16-17, M
    Apr 14
    I have not slept in three days!
    JvYankee6 JvYankee6
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Apr 14
    okay so I've just found out that my house mate has run up the electricity bill by leaving lights and the stove on and just being irresponsible and now i could possibly be getting...
    Andyboo1998 Andyboo1998
    18-21, F
    Apr 14
    Any funny parenting stories to share? XD I spend my nights reading about them or reading about child-development articles because I write stories with kids in them and I need some...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    Is anyone else awake? I'm wide awake at midnight.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 13
    I had a best friend and he hired me to work for him. I did and when I did he started hitting on me. I felt sorry for him bc I knew his marriage sucked so I let it roll off my...
    ceg333 ceg333
    36-40, F
    Apr 13
    I can't live like this anymore. I can't deal with college and the stress of having to hide my sexuality from my homophobic family. :(
    GCassr22 GCassr22
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Apr 13
    My email is connerpc121@gmail.com. If any of my friends want to stay in touch until the new ep comes out you can find me there! :) Please note this is NOT a requirement, just if...
    SonofPaddy121 SonofPaddy121
    18-21, M
    Apr 12
    In case you wanted to stay in touch with me when EP closes: Twitter: https://twitter.com/coolkevin366 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/basnerkevin/ FaceBook: https://www...
    kbpimpin87 kbpimpin87
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 12
    Long day but this night will be even longer. Wish I could sleep or be cuddled up next to a warm body tonight as it's still snowing. Well goodnight EP have a great week :)
    InLoveWithTheSun InLoveWithTheSun
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 11
    I'm holding in all of my emotions. I'm like a ticking time bomb, I can burst in to tears anytime and hurt someone with what I have yet to say.
    silentsimp silentsimp
    16-17, F
    Apr 10
    I want to stay young forever. But not by dying young. I want to stay young forever and also live forever. Does anyone in this group have some practical suggestions of things that...
    TheImmortalist TheImmortalist
    22-25, F
    Apr 10
    Why is it that when anyone close to me decides to hurt themselves, they tell me to my face as if they want help just to turn around and do it anyway.
    Mantisrider64 Mantisrider64
    18-21, M
    Apr 10
    I could sleep, I am tired, but noooo work has other plans for me since I am doomed to never, ever be on the same shift all week.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 10
    just lay there and think. that's it. piece together bits and pieces of things, following a trail of breadcrumbs I don't really think is wise for my sanity. even the most vague of...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 9
    I have so much pain inside from all the mistakes I've made an realize there is nothing I can do to fix those mistakes. I have a Son but the Woman has already moved on with her life...
    BrandonNicolas BrandonNicolas
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    If it wasn't for my kids, and the fear of going to hell I would kill myself.
    Jimakay Jimakay
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    Ok I let it all out. Still feeling panicky a but and some anxious but better than before. Thank you to the nice guy who inboxed me. And to the my brother from EP the poet. I wouldn...
    Issima Issima
    31-35, F
    Apr 8
    I have whipped myself up into a tornado of feelings and emotions . I am trapped in a life with no way out. And the door to freedom comes at a price. The cost of respect, family and...
    Issima Issima
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    I am full of rage. And apparently EP wants me to write atLEAST 25 ******* characters! So here you go!!!!!!!!!!
    Issima Issima
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
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