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I Suffer Depression In Silence

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    "I Suffer Depression In Silence"

    "I Suffer Depression In Silence" i won,t let anyone in to my head cause i am scared they will leave or not understand me. so i have this wall up that i will never let down, i only let people in so far and when i feel the need to i can shut anyonme out for any good...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 13, 2008

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    So is it depression if you feel absolutely nothing at all?
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    False. Depression and selfishness go hand in hand. Withdrawing from the world hurts the people we love. What is more selfish than wallowing in self-pity? Most of us want to...
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