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I Suffer From Anorexia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 193 People

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    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T Sep 2, 2010

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    Pain

    im Jack im 19 years old 6ft3. 95 pounds hello This is my story. i was a Model at 16 years of age at 120 lbs.i looked at my self not good enough in my pictures so i started Getting self concise about my pictures Being plastered All over stores. i Started Getting...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2010

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    Feel Down All the Time

    all my relationships end the same way, i always get dumped for another lass, so theres got to be something wrong with me, i just feel so down, my ex says im fat, and its just brought my self esteem down alot, i still love him and its really hard. i just cant face myself to eat, i...
    RebbieShane RebbieShane 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    10 Years Now and Going

    I think I have anorexia.  I am not sure.  I will tell my story and welcome any comments or thoughts.  I am 35 years old.  I have been battling food since I was in HS about 17 years old. I have been very sick often since then and until recently-- while...
    haydenrules haydenrules 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2009

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    I battle anorexia. Sometimes,

    I'll be fine, and then the next second, I'm anorexic. Steven tells me I'm too skinny, but I know for a fact that I'm too fat.
    LilacFlowerCrowns LilacFlowerCrowns 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I Love It

    I read all these stories saying how much they hate the fact that they're anorexic, I'm not like that. I love this. I love starving myself. I live counting calories. I love constantly moving my legs to burn those calories I do eat. I love puking. I love everything about this...
    burchy410 burchy410 18-21, F Aug 30, 2013

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    The Darkened Pathway

    My problem started in 7th grade. I was in middle school, there weren't people watching your every move, my younger sister was no longer with me to tattle on me. I had basically no friends and most of all I felt like I was the fattest person in the world. I started skipping...
    sugarcollie sugarcollie 18-21, F Mar 20, 2009

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    Anorexia has strangley opened my mind,

    i don't know if it's good or bad. But I feel so strange, only in my mind. I feel like any day the world is just going to collapse, I have severe anxiety over the way I look and I just want to throw up in every picture I see of myself now. I think I'm relapsing and I don't want...
    manifestyourown manifestyourown 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I tried to recover and failed miserably

    now I am incredibly fat, am still anorexic but I don't look like it at all.
    kristenml kristenml 18-21, F Feb 9

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    Soooo, this morning my mom threatened me

    that she would go all 'mother mode on me' if I didn't stat eating right again. Then she made it my mission to eat a meal other than fruit and a bowl of oatmeal. Any tips on how to get around her? btw, my dad stays home and my mom works, and my dad is backing here up.
    AmberMidnight17 AmberMidnight17 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 17

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    There Was a Girl. . .

    hospital admission number one, age 15, length of stay, 3 months. i was re admitted 2 weeks after i was discharged, then again two weeks after the second discharge. i am now 20, am being readmitted to an EDU at one of the local hospitals. i think i've forgotten how it all...
    littlemissocd littlemissocd 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    I Am Unable

    I am unable to eat. Everytime I do, I purge. I feel so gross after I eat. I have currently lost  91 pounds. That's just that one year. No one seems to notice. I am scared and alone. I keep trying, and I keep failing... I have blacked out many times because of it. I am scared...
    RazorKissedWrists RazorKissedWrists 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 3, 2010

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    ?confusion?

    So I sit here. Between my friends and I look around. The first thing that pops in my mind is 'Why can't I look like that?' So I guess, I'm kinda new at this. I mean, I've done it before, but now its of jealousy. I want to be the one who wieghs 105lbs. But I don't know if I have...
    directions directions 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2010

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 3 Responses May 15

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    Latley ive been felling down..i started cutting agian :( only little on my ankles i chounlt take his voice in my head..latley its been more controling and its hurting inside im all worn out and tired...i wont let him win i will defeat him one day..ana isnt gonna take over me...
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T 2 Responses Jan 14, 2011

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    Today I'm 19. When I was 13 my battle with

    anorexia began. I wouldn't eat I hated food I hated myself i would tell myself I'm ugly and fat and shouldn't eat. By the time I was 14 my condition was getting a lot worse at 4'10 and 75lbs I was looking like a malnourished child. I finally asked for help I knew I needed it but...
    amynoble amynoble 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    I'm sick and tired of this horrible illness ,

    I feel like just giving up . It's so emotionally and mentally draining 😔
    princess2121 princess2121 16-17, F 3 Responses May 22

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    On The Road To Recovery...

    I have got down to 6 stone 8 pounds ( 92 pounds) and am 5'5 inches. My parents have realised my drastic change in weight and reduced amount of food. I just hated the way I looked and desperatley wanted to be thinner. For the past six weeks I have been suffering from depression...
    xplanbx xplanbx 16-17, F May 22, 2010

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    Does Anybody Want?

    an anorexic buddy, 2 support each other? etc... if yhh den write bk x
    heatherX heatherX 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 23, 2008

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    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F Feb 23, 2012

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    So I went to my weekly doctors appointment to

    check my weight. I'm now underweight again. Everyone thinks I'm starving myself again but I'm not. I've been eating all three meals and my snack. What do I do.
    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F Mar 21

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    Anorexia

    I have had anorexia for a year and a half.
    heyitsellla heyitsellla 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    My Experience

    i have suffered from anorexia for approx 8 years now. In that time ive had 10 hospitalizations and many other outpatient treatments. Iam still struggling, i feel as if iam in limbo. healthy and anorexic free or unhealthy stuck with anorexia. i dont know which way i want to...
    queenmania queenmania 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 29, 2009

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    This isn't really an experience it's a question

    but everyone in my house is sleeping rn and I live upstairs whereas everyone else is downstairs. I need to do excercise though tonight bc I binged a lot. Is there any efficient quiet excercises I could do??
    anashelper anashelper 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    monkeyspaw08 monkeyspaw08 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Having Problems

    I feel so gross when I eat anything, and when I do I have to throw it up, otherwise I feel like I am going to blow up or something. I feel trapped in a never ending circle. My parents don't care at all. They're trying to kick me out of the house despite my being 16...
    sugarcollie sugarcollie 18-21, F 11 Responses Jul 17, 2009

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    My Anerexia

    I try to drill it into my head. "I am NOT anorexic. I am NOT anorexic. I am NOT anorexic. " Thinking that its true. But saying that to myself is just like I am telling myself I am fat. And I can NOT be fat. I am a girl, I am 13, and I am anorexic.
    Iamwannarexic Iamwannarexic 13-15, F Jul 28, 2013

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    Ex Anorexic Slipping Into Old Habits

    Hi I was anorexic about 5 years ago and it was the hardest time of my life. but there is something about having control and having a goal....since i got better i have constantly been aware of my weight and felt like it was a constant battle everyday...   If i felt...
    bonnie123 bonnie123 22-25 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    It Scares Me That I Want It (a Little Vent)

    it scares me that i want anorexia. its probably because thats the only thing i know how to do relatively well. the only thing i know inside and out. the one thing that wont betray me. and now i have a goal. in the first couple of days of october, im going to go to florida. you...
    savemeimlost savemeimlost 26-30, F Aug 24, 2012

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    ?confusion?

    So I sit here. Between my friends and I look around. The first thing that pops in my mind is 'Why can't I look like that?' So I guess, I'm kinda new at this. I mean, I've done it before, but now its of jealousy. I want to be the one who wieghs 105lbs. But I don't know if I have...
    directions directions 13-15, F Sep 21, 2010

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    this is actually really personal.

    I've been struggling with it for a while and still no one seems to care, which is the hard part. It's addictive after a while, your body shrives to loose any weight through anything to make you feel beautiful.
    juliarosee juliarosee 13-15, F Dec 13

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    ana98 ana98 16-17, F Feb 10

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    i slipped up for 6 months

    now i want to lose 20 pounds but i dont want to over do it and im scared
    monkeyspaw08 monkeyspaw08 31-35, F Apr 29

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    Paranoid About My Anorexic Wife

    My wife has been suffering from annorexia for the most part of her life although has only started councelling the past 3-4 months. Alot has emerged from the councelling that she has never talked about. I am really struggling with one major issue. She is posting pictures of...
    stewart77 stewart77 31-35, M 1 Response May 7, 2012

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    Apparently

    I was only diagnosed a few weeks ago... My B.M.I is Currently 16.1  i think. I find it very hard accepting i have a problem but i need to accept it to get through this right? I have been struggling with my emotions recently and not been eating properly since the summer.... I...
    FragmentsOfFaith FragmentsOfFaith 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2011

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    Anorexia Funking Hurts Sometimes

    i cant take this anymore!!! im anorexic, because i cant stand how ****** fat i am. i want to loose like 15-20lbs (im 84lbs, i want to be 70-75). but i cant stand the pain!!! i woke up today so weak, and dizzy and awful!!! so i had to eat breakfast, and it didnt stop!!!!! i hate...
    shitwhatnow shitwhatnow 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    Our Little Conversations:

    The other day I walked up the stairs to my math class. It was still quite early in the morning and school didn't start for another hour and a half. The halls were empty and filled with posters made by the cheer team, custodians were bustling about the classrooms tidying them up...
    TheWhimsicalHeart TheWhimsicalHeart 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Scales 30.7 it reads its never enough for him..still geel big sad with my self my mom going on how dead i look how imma have a heart attack th9s isworsed i got then ever b4 :( i feel shot 24.7 i cut ,y elbow slapped my face to escapse akitos part never worked..i lied said i eat...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M Dec 19, 2010

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    Before and Again

    the summer before i entered the eighth grade i decided i needed to make myself perfect for a guy. he and i had a history, but it all ended when my super skinny friend stabbed me in the back and he went after her instead... i felt like i had to become skinnier than her... it...
    maiaxxstar maiaxxstar 16-18, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2007

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    My Struggle

    For the past 6 months, I have been having an ongoing battle to overcome my eating disorder.
    poldol97 poldol97 16-17, F Nov 20, 2013

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    During my years of being anorexic, I also suffered from depression. I took anti-depressants for a while after getting out of treatment, but that doesn't mean I still don't suffer...
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I've been suffering from this since I was 8 yrs old. It started with my eyelashes but I quit that by the time I was 10 and around that time I started pulling the hair on my head. I...
    darci0796 darci0796 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Suffered from IBS for as long as I can remember. Have memories of having a stomach ache after every lunch in the first and second grade. Growing up it was mostly IBS attacks...
    K14A07M K14A07M 22-25, F Dec 2

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    Not a day goes by that I don't suffer from anxiety. Mine is more related to a fear of being sick. It's nice though to know I'm not by myself. Not in a selfish was. just spent a...
    lucycain2808 lucycain2808 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 29

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    I been suffering from chronic pain for 17 years now. I have nerve damage in both legs. Looking to make friends to help each other when we are having bad pain day.
    MrShecter MrShecter 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    are any of you in Australia and have been through all the elimination processes.... my GPs are not helpful and I'm on a year long waiting list to see a rheumatologist.. and I'm...
    tljsmtc tljsmtc 22-25, F Dec 7

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    I don't know why I do but I always suffer from headaches when I sleep at day instead of night or when I don't eat or drink water My headaches where worst than this I had an...
    collegegirl20 collegegirl20 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I really hate living with pmdd. I feel like no one takes me seriously because I get sad and cry over everything... I don't really feel welcome in my home anymore, and I guess it's...
    MimiRainbow MimiRainbow 18-21, F 22 hrs ago

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