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I Suffer From Chronic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 217 People

    I Suffered I Talked I Found

    I am a manic depressive. Dreams lost as are hopes. “there is nothing lost me for, near the end just set me”. The round into the chamber, what strength I have had is gone, machines are my only friends, **** the slide and set the round in the chamber. Pull pull pull pull pull...
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2011

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    I Feel Almost Empty...

    im afraid to be completely honest with you all because of the lack of greatess or minimum good in my life. i guess all i can do is share and let u decide what you will about it. either way i have been judged all my life for things i dont understand and why they could be my fault...
    ghostanimals ghostanimals 22-25, F Jan 5, 2010

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    Am I Going to Be Like This Forever?

    I'm tired of fighting the depression all the time.  It drains me of all my energy.  Just when I think things are going well, SLAM, I hit a wall.  The Dr adds a new med to the cocktail & it works for a while then it seems to go away. I'm disgusted just...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 12 Responses Aug 31, 2007

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    Combat Veteran With Ptsd

    The VA has me on so much medication for a variety of thing i.e. sleep,… It is something that I have had to learn to deal with. I have been in the VA post traumatic stress disorder 16 week program. They teach you how to deal with it on a day-to-day basis and how to deal with...
    HightlightBear HightlightBear 41-45, M 9 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    :s

      Snapshot Report Worry about Judgment of Others  67 When you experience a setback or problem in your life, one of the issues on your mind is what other people will think. You may believe that others take pleasure in...
    Kristin137 Kristin137 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2010

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    Fighting Hard

     I’m middle aged, separated, no kids, unemployed and alone in a foreign land. I regret for not trying hard to fix my relationship with my husband in the early stage of the marriage and now he finally gave up after only 3 years of marriage. I lost the only person I love and...
    emptyroom emptyroom 36-40 5 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    I Have For So Long....

    I have been suffering from Chronic depression for so long. I am getting to the point where I feel like I am going to be dealing with this forever. I have been suffering from depression for so ******* long, I feel like I am never going to get a break from it. I have tried so much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    Something Has To Change

    it seems like no matter what i do i always end up just feeling sad again... the loss of interest is so overwhelming..i dont want to do anything anymore. i dont have the energy. some days are worse than others..im either sad as usual, depressed, or im having a rare moment of...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2010

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    Depression Is My Only Friend....

    I have been suffering from Chronic Depression for a long time now. I have been dealing with it for longer than I even want to admit. Growing up, I was never really happy. So it could be that I was born depressed, who really knows. I don't want to live my life depressed. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 28, 2009

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    H ello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 3 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    It's Back

    So I'm going to see my GP tomorow. I've been suffering from depression since four months now. This is my third wave, as I call it. The first wave was when I was about eightteen years old, the second wave is three years ago when I was twenty-three. I've taken antidepressants...
    whitedonkey whitedonkey 26-30 Aug 10, 2008

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    Sertraline

    Sertraline is wonderful stuff! I don't need to tell you what depression is like, I'm sure you know. The sense of numbness, hopelessness, worthlessness, helplessness. The want to tear out your hair, to scratch your scalp until it bleeds, to drag a razor across your skin just to...
    jupiterjumper jupiterjumper 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2013

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    Most Of My Life

    It doesn't last for ever but it always come back for whatever reason.I latch on to the memories that have brought smiles to my face but I they aren't always enough.I just wish it would go away and never return.
    KindaCrazy KindaCrazy 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2010

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    I am pain. I feel useless.

    Worthless. I feel like my bright potential was unrealized and is forever gone. My chances are all used up. My troubles have become a mountain. Why am I still here going through the motions? I feel like a ghost that doesn't know he's been long dead.
    ToughEddie ToughEddie 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    On a Plane / Apr 05, 2001

    Do you ever get that eery sense that the best of you is going to waste, yet all you can do is sit there straining to get a better view of the ongoing carnage that is your life. I mean, you are not getting any younger, especially any younger looking, and your brain cells are...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 13 Responses Jul 24, 2008

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    Depression

    Depression runs in my family, grandma had it, mom has it, big sister has it. When I was young I was I was in denial about having it, but oh I do. I feel hopeless, and helpless, though some days are better than others, they all are sad. The depression has gotten worse with age. I...
    beccakitty beccakitty 18-21 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    I Feel It Coming Again

    I've been doing so well.  I haven't had a real depressive episode for a while.  I've had depressed hours in the day, or at most 1 day, but they were getting less & less.  Lately, though, they have been coming more frequent and lasting a bit longer.  I don...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2007

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    i haven't taken my meds

    for a few days. (I've just been really busy) today i am super emotional, wish i could do things to better myself & my family but feel powerless to do so bc i can't be superwoman & do it all. wish i didn't have to be at work today. wish i had a special fwb to cuddle with and a...
    Platana2100 Platana2100 31-35, F Mar 6

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    14 years and still learning

    I've been chronically depressed for the last 14 years, I try to make the best of it, at times I am successful, other times, not so much. But I hear that is normal. I remember the first time I truly felt depressed I was 9 years old. It didn't make any sense to me. I had a family...
    ImustbeSTRONG ImustbeSTRONG 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    The Fall

    Im forever falling in and out of depression fighting with myself over things that I can't change nothing ever stats the same with me I wish I could just shut down an sleep for a few years and see what happens
    leofender leofender 18-21, T 3 Responses May 6, 2012

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    Is it just me? Cuz Facebook depresses the ****

    outta me seeing people my age and that I know having parties and chilling with friends and significant others and I'm just sitting here watching tv ****
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Things were going pretty well

    for a couple of months. At least to the point where I could fake it. Now I'm in that **** pit again. 4 days to Christmas, day 8 of stomach flu. I don't even want to celebrate. I'm only participating because of my kids. I miss drinking on the holidays. I can't do that now, but I...
    ZigNamaste ZigNamaste 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    Labelled

    I didn't really know that it was that bad or really what depression was for that matter i guess. My mom told me that I would have to move out of the house if I kept up the way I was. The next morning she accused me of being depressed and made me stop talking to my boyfriend. That...
    allIeverwas allIeverwas 18-21, F Nov 4, 2012

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    Nobody Understands Me

    I never wanted to admit that I'm suffering from depression.My psychiatrist recently told me that I suffer from chronic depression. I don't know what to do. I've been suffering for as long as I can remember. I'm scared of everything and everyone except my parents has left me. I'm...
    giri2raj giri2raj 22-25 3 Responses Nov 3, 2010

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    What A Revelation.

    I have been on the medical merry-go-round for several years trying to find out what is wrong with me, apart from obvious medical conditions. I now finally understand that I am suffering from Chronic Depression and have been for a long time. I believe the onset was in my teenage...
    samtandar samtandar 61-65 Nov 19, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I remember thinking I was so depressed or sad all the time a couple years ago... Little did I know that I wasn't even close to the worst of it. Now, I suffer from sleeping too much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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    I have severe chronic pain in both feet, ankles and hips. I am 21. I had 5 surgeries on my feet between the ages of 15-16. I never fully recovered and I suffer daily.
    thatonecxnt thatonecxnt 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    This is the fisrt time I've posted. I'm feeling very down. I've been a paraplegic with severe chronic pain since 2003. I recently recovered from a pressure sore (after two years...
    gb3797 gb3797 61-65, M 4 Responses Apr 23

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    I wish there was an easy way to end my suffering. I often wonder what I've done to deserve to always suffer. I'm tired of the pain. The physical pain, the mental pain and the...
    St4rbright St4rbright 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I broke my neck oh 28 years ago, in the years that followed I started being more and more uncomfortable. I have been diagnosed as a pain sufferer. It appears that when I broke my...
    bluezy261175 bluezy261175 36-40, M 2 Responses May 11

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    Dying from a stubborn one atm..... ):
    carameldaisy carameldaisy 18-21, F 3 Responses May 9

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    I'm not very good at opening up to others but in hopes to make a new friend, here I am. I'm a weird individual. I think so, anyway. I don't have a lot of real friends but I guess...
    LadyApfel LadyApfel 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I got this app to get help from people similar to me. Please, if you need someone to talk to I am here.
    camjuan camjuan 16-17, F 1 Response May 13

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    I'm starting to worry that I'm running out of treatment options. I have psoriatic arthritis and require monthly infusions of remicade and weekly doses of methotrexate. They were...
    padraig17325 padraig17325 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 29

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    After a day in the ER. I lay in bed with 10 million thoughts running through my head. How can I be mad or frustrated and show my emotions when I know it will only hurt his feelings...
    lovewillkeepus2gether lovewillkeepus2gether 36-40, F 1 Response May 6

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    I used to be a competitive swimmer (My stroke was Butterfly) but between that and lifting things that weighed near my own weight at a horse stable I volunteered at, I injured my...
    LoneDreamer11 LoneDreamer11 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    For those of you who didn't believe that I overdosed here's a pic of me in the hospital. For those of you who were encouraging me to kill myself or saying mean things. **** you...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 22

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    I've noticed that all I do is look for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    My body feels heavy. I struggle to pick up my feet and be productive. My head aches 24/7 and my back is constantly sour. I'm only at peace when I sleep. I thought about suicide...
    Grace1077 Grace1077 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I had meningococcal meningitis with septicaemia when I was 14, it's been over 26years since having meningitis and for many years now I have been asking doctors if my health...
    Nicola78 Nicola78 36-40, F May 9

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    I am a 26 year old female suffering from SLE with organ involvement, hypertension and Fibromyalgia. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in Oct 2014 when we (me and my rheumatologist...
    Young24Lupus Young24Lupus 22-25, F May 13

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    I've suffered from maladaptive daydreaming ever since I can remember. I'm not really sure why.. Maybe because I've often felt like I'm trapped in the ****** reality of my actual...
    ellisbraddock ellisbraddock 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I don't experience visual hallucinations usually. It's pretty much the same every time. I'm awake and I can't move. I feel like I'm having a seizure from the shaking sensation. And...
    Holliswoods24 Holliswoods24 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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