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I Suffer From Chronic Depression

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    I am pain. I feel useless.

    Worthless. I feel like my bright potential was unrealized and is forever gone. My chances are all used up. My troubles have become a mountain. Why am I still here going through the motions? I feel like a ghost that doesn't know he's been long dead.
    ToughEddie ToughEddie 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 16

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    Fighting Hard

     I’m middle aged, separated, no kids, unemployed and alone in a foreign land. I regret for not trying hard to fix my relationship with my husband in the early stage of the marriage and now he finally gave up after only 3 years of marriage. I lost the only person I love and...
    emptyroom emptyroom 36-40 5 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    Depression

    Depression runs in my family, grandma had it, mom has it, big sister has it. When I was young I was I was in denial about having it, but oh I do. I feel hopeless, and helpless, though some days are better than others, they all are sad. The depression has gotten worse with age. I...
    beccakitty beccakitty 18-21 1 Response Jun 17, 2013

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    I Feel It Coming Again

    I've been doing so well.  I haven't had a real depressive episode for a while.  I've had depressed hours in the day, or at most 1 day, but they were getting less & less.  Lately, though, they have been coming more frequent and lasting a bit longer.  I don...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2007

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    I Feel Almost Empty...

    im afraid to be completely honest with you all because of the lack of greatess or minimum good in my life. i guess all i can do is share and let u decide what you will about it. either way i have been judged all my life for things i dont understand and why they could be my fault...
    ghostanimals ghostanimals 22-25, F Jan 5, 2010

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    Depression Is My Only Friend....

    I have been suffering from Chronic Depression for a long time now. I have been dealing with it for longer than I even want to admit. Growing up, I was never really happy. So it could be that I was born depressed, who really knows. I don't want to live my life depressed. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 28, 2009

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    The Fall

    Im forever falling in and out of depression fighting with myself over things that I can't change nothing ever stats the same with me I wish I could just shut down an sleep for a few years and see what happens
    leofender leofender 18-21, T 3 Responses May 6, 2012

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    Labelled

    I didn't really know that it was that bad or really what depression was for that matter i guess. My mom told me that I would have to move out of the house if I kept up the way I was. The next morning she accused me of being depressed and made me stop talking to my boyfriend. That...
    allIeverwas allIeverwas 18-21, F Nov 4, 2012

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    H ello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 3 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    Am I Going to Be Like This Forever?

    I'm tired of fighting the depression all the time.  It drains me of all my energy.  Just when I think things are going well, SLAM, I hit a wall.  The Dr adds a new med to the cocktail & it works for a while then it seems to go away. I'm disgusted just...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 12 Responses Aug 31, 2007

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    I Have For So Long....

    I have been suffering from Chronic depression for so long. I am getting to the point where I feel like I am going to be dealing with this forever. I have been suffering from depression for so ******* long, I feel like I am never going to get a break from it. I have tried so much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 23, 2009

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    Combat Veteran With Ptsd

    The VA has me on so much medication for a variety of thing i.e. sleep,… It is something that I have had to learn to deal with. I have been in the VA post traumatic stress disorder 16 week program. They teach you how to deal with it on a day-to-day basis and how to deal with...
    HightlightBear HightlightBear 41-45, M 8 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Chronic

    Chronic - long lasting and enduring, long suffering Enduring - unceasing Unceasing - continuing forever or indefinitely   Sometimes things just seem hopeless.
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F Sep 8, 2008

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    :s

      Snapshot Report Worry about Judgment of Others  67 When you experience a setback or problem in your life, one of the issues on your mind is what other people will think. You may believe that others take pleasure in...
    Kristin137 Kristin137 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2010

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    14 years and still learning

    I've been chronically depressed for the last 14 years, I try to make the best of it, at times I am successful, other times, not so much. But I hear that is normal. I remember the first time I truly felt depressed I was 9 years old. It didn't make any sense to me. I had a family...
    ImustbeSTRONG ImustbeSTRONG 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    What A Revelation.

    I have been on the medical merry-go-round for several years trying to find out what is wrong with me, apart from obvious medical conditions. I now finally understand that I am suffering from Chronic Depression and have been for a long time. I believe the onset was in my teenage...
    samtandar samtandar 61-65 Nov 19, 2013

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    It's Back

    So I'm going to see my GP tomorow. I've been suffering from depression since four months now. This is my third wave, as I call it. The first wave was when I was about eightteen years old, the second wave is three years ago when I was twenty-three. I've taken antidepressants...
    whitedonkey whitedonkey 26-30 Aug 10, 2008

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    On a Plane / Apr 05, 2001

    Do you ever get that eery sense that the best of you is going to waste, yet all you can do is sit there straining to get a better view of the ongoing carnage that is your life. I mean, you are not getting any younger, especially any younger looking, and your brain cells are...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 13 Responses Jul 24, 2008

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    Most Of My Life

    It doesn't last for ever but it always come back for whatever reason.I latch on to the memories that have brought smiles to my face but I they aren't always enough.I just wish it would go away and never return.
    KindaCrazy KindaCrazy 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2010

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    I Suffered I Talked I Found

    I am a manic depressive. Dreams lost as are hopes. “there is nothing lost me for, near the end just set me”. The round into the chamber, what strength I have had is gone, machines are my only friends, **** the slide and set the round in the chamber. Pull pull pull pull pull...
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2011

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    Nobody Understands Me

    I never wanted to admit that I'm suffering from depression.My psychiatrist recently told me that I suffer from chronic depression. I don't know what to do. I've been suffering for as long as I can remember. I'm scared of everything and everyone except my parents has left me. I'm...
    giri2raj giri2raj 22-25 3 Responses Nov 3, 2010

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    Sertraline

    Sertraline is wonderful stuff! I don't need to tell you what depression is like, I'm sure you know. The sense of numbness, hopelessness, worthlessness, helplessness. The want to tear out your hair, to scratch your scalp until it bleeds, to drag a razor across your skin just to...
    jupiterjumper jupiterjumper 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2013

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    Something Has To Change

    it seems like no matter what i do i always end up just feeling sad again... the loss of interest is so overwhelming..i dont want to do anything anymore. i dont have the energy. some days are worse than others..im either sad as usual, depressed, or im having a rare moment of...
    foamborn foamborn 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I been suffering from chronic pain for 17 years now. I have nerve damage in both legs. Looking to make friends to help each other when we are having bad pain day.
    MrShecter MrShecter 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    The best article I've read about depression yet!!! What I Wish People Knew about Depression By Therese J. Borchard Associate Editor robin-williamsSomeone recently asked me to...
    heavenlyskyflower heavenlyskyflower 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    My husband of 13 yrs has been living with chronic pain (testicular) for over 4 years now. The cause is due to a nerve disease. He's always been hilarious, the life of the party...
    watershed watershed 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Once more I woke up with agony, know that I'm in extreme pain so don't want to move. There's a tic tac in my head going fast, guess is just my heart beat trough my veins. No...
    lizzyWaterbearer lizzyWaterbearer 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I had 5 surgeries between the ages of 15 and 16, they were on my feet. 3 on my left ankle and 2 on my right foot. I am now 21 and still have chronic pain, in my fractured/repaired...
    CountryQueen623 CountryQueen623 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I was winning. My lovely and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    My life has reached a point where nothing makes me happy any more. My life is miserable. I know I am better off than people who don't have a home, or food to eat but that isn't the...
    cobainkurt cobainkurt 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I finally told my beat friend of 6 years about my depression.. There's a reason she's my best friend. She cares so much
    Asi15 Asi15 16-17, M Dec 9

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    trying to be someone i'm not is hard maybe in a way it's who i wanna be. its an endless strugle,its so hard i never wanted to fit the mold of society but here i am doing it or...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 30

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So, I had a Botox treatment on Tuesday. It was more painful than usual. My neurologist says that's normal for patients that experience several painful migraines before a treatment...
    sjmckstan sjmckstan 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    love my pain, I've already been through so much physically and mentally. I got this. I need more tart cherry juice and oil of oregano. I suggest everyone have that in their diet...
    FinnAhGinn FinnAhGinn 26-30, F Dec 3

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    Seance September I have had the most agonizing pain in my left knee all the way down to my ankle. I have been to so many doc and they all tell me it's just swelling behind my knee...
    izzy33095 izzy33095 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    hello guys I have painkillers like oxy, percocet and others alongside cannabis oil, OG Kush, Jack Herer Marijauna Strain, Granddaddy Kush, Granddaddy Purple, GHB, Actavis PM me if...
    melisajoey17 melisajoey17 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    Having a horrible relapse this week...
    christinemn christinemn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I always try to think good thoughts. I post happy things but today is not the day. I dont take those stupid pills the doctors give me because medicine is a lie !!!!
    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I've been diagnosed with this for about 2 years. My moods are low and today I am really feeling it. My therapist let me down by cancelling our first appointment. I know she was...
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it, To a tree, and tell it, "You belong to me, This ain't a noose it's a leash, And I have news for you, You must...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 7

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    diagnosed at about the age of 15 if I'm remembering correctly ( i'm 31 now) . I'm doing a lot better than in my teens and early 20s( suicidal thoughts but no self harm or suicide...
    animallover412 animallover412 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Lonely/5249647 Please read this
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein. I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    During my years of being anorexic, I also suffered from depression. I took anti-depressants for a while after getting out of treatment, but that doesn't mean I still don't suffer...
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F 4 days ago

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