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I Suffer From Clinical Depression

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    Since Before I Could Admit It

    i have suffered with this nasty disease since long before i would ever admit it.i guess since Viet Nam.....They call it PTSD now adays.....back then we just didn't talk about it..but going through life with no outside help...no meds...no intricate knowledge of what was really...
    russb811 russb811 56-60, M 2 Responses Feb 2, 2011

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    Most of My Life

     i really didn`t know what was matter with me.i just stayed sad.then when i was in my 20`s i decided to try getting help.but,all they know is pills.i tried taking them.i started gaining weight fast,really fast.i gained 12 lbs in one month.and it just kept piling on.within...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    I Am Diagnosed With Depression Forgotton Childhood Left To Be Abused By Both My Parents............

    When I was a child and that is a long time ago now, I never had affection. I grew up with a mother who was mentally unstable and wasn't able to give me what I needed I lacked stability Love and care. often she would abuse me physically and I cut myself off from reality. and day...
    rosesweet rosesweet 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2012

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    Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Live Like This

    I have been depressed since I was a child. There have been moments when I have felt ok but for the most part I am beyond unhappy. I am a wife and mother to two girls both almost adults now and if it werent for the girls I believe I would have checked out long ago. My husband...
    jemslost jemslost 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Downward Spiral

    I am 57 years of age, and have been dealing with major depressive episodes for decades.  I have moved umpteen times, worked at countless jobs, and failed miserably at maintaining long-term relationships.  Medications have helped to relieve the worst symptoms, tho they cannot...
    QueenIzabella QueenIzabella 56-60 5 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    What Your Psych Doesn't Want You To Know

    Google "tms", it's a treatment that actually will make the psychs as obsolute as blood letting. Face it, any other kind of doctor that "treats" a patient for 5 or 10 years with no effect is a quack.
    mrmoose1947 mrmoose1947 66-70, M 4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    Hello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so they can...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 Apr 28, 2008

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    Clinical Depression

    Clinical depression,Not good,Suffer from time to time,Wish I didn’t,Life would be easier, But somehow,Don’t know how,I get by.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    My Battle With Clinical Depression

    By way of introduction, my name is Dave Kanofsky and I had suffered from the adult symptoms of clinical depression for thirty-five years. In 2007, thanks to a combination of the right medication and years of talk therapy, my symptoms were under complete control but my financial...
    daveyboy54 daveyboy54 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 17, 2011

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    I thought I had this under control.

    I really did. But sum things snapped and I don't know what or why. I feel rational and my mind seem clear but I have this overwhelming desire to die. I have been planning when, when and how. I want to give my mom a great christmas and new year. Them my 1st lot of holiday...
    freakyfish36 freakyfish36 26-30 Nov 15, 2014

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    diagnosed at about the age of 15

    if I'm remembering correctly ( i'm 31 now) . I'm doing a lot better than in my teens and early 20s( suicidal thoughts but no self harm or suicide attempts). Even though I am doing better, I I still struggle with the feelings of not wanting to do anything, wondering what the...
    animallover412 animallover412 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    All My Life

    i have suffered from depression all of my life, or at least as long as i can remember. always sad, never able to fit in, held myself back as not to stand out, hated being singled out, on and on i could go. but until i hit bottom did i admit i needed help. it did help/hurt? that...
    icanthide icanthide 31-35, M 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    Recently, I started having doubts of

    whether I suffer from clinical depression. I am stuck in an abusive relationship, I don't have a stable group of friends but other than that, on the surface my life looks good. I realized that I don't have energy for anything, and can spend weeks staying in my room escaping into...
    mdmrmdmr mdmrmdmr 18-21, F Jun 23

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    Ok Ok I Admit It.

    Confession time. I suffer from depression. I should be on meds but i refuse to take em because I don't believe in it. And I won't take em. Ever.
    annathom annathom 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 25, 2008

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    I Was Miserable and Still Am...

    I'm 24 years old and I had my son at a young age.. at 16. I alwaIys felt alone and empty, always wanted to run away from home even at the age of 10. Abusive father made it worst with his drinking. I hated walking to school alone or when I came from school I had to walk...
    s0empty s0empty 22-25 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    I Suffer From Depression and I Take Meds...

    Too often other ppl judge ppl who take meds for depression... It is an illness like any other... Meds are not happy pills they do not change ur personality... Instead they make u stable enough or healthy enough in that they allow the nervous system and the chemicals in ur body to...
    harps21 harps21 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2008

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    I didn't realise there was a name for it but this sounds about right to describe something I've done for most of my life. I don't "suffer" from it...in fact I rather enjoy it :D...
    Nenmir Nenmir 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    OCD is not just about having to wash your hands or doing other things over and over again. That's part of it. But there is more to it then that. You have to deal with the bad...
    bfsd150 bfsd150 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    I've always been in denial of experiencing this. I recently just discovered the term for this condition and I was happy to find out that I wasn't the only one. I ALWAYS daydream...
    ilrd ilrd 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I wear a watch. It's an aviator watch - a Glycine Airman SST GMT automatic watch. The face of the watch is orange. My friend says 'pumpkin' orange I don't know. It's an old...
    mokele mokele 31-35, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Does anyone else suffer from sleep paralysis?
    Muffin216 Muffin216 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been reading articles about this, and I keep thinking to myself that I actually do suffer from it. I have been talking to close family members and friends about this, and...
    alaniW180 alaniW180 13-15 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well, I think I do suffer from this and I really need some advice.. It's like a different place like a story and I don't know why I have or might have this. I guess since I read...
    Elizabeth1123 Elizabeth1123 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    If you really think about it -legitimately sit and think about it- the idea that this unconquered misery of yours is born of deficient chemicals is quite ridiculous- and...
    LittleWhiteRoom LittleWhiteRoom 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    No one gets what it's like to be me. What it's like inside my head. Things that might not seem like a big deal but are huge to me. Being snubbed and disrespected by my son, and...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I suffer with severe depression and slowly it's killing me im on medication and im seeing a councilor I'm still struggling to get my head around it and understand why it is...
    iampinkpvc iampinkpvc 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 27

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    It really sucks I feel myself falling down this hole again and I'm reaching for help from my mom and she took a sleeping pill tonight. It came from no where I was happy life was ok...
    Babygirl12296 Babygirl12296 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I am a 14 year old boy living in Tennessee, I have been a very quiet, shy, and emotional person, these past few years I would stay locked in my room and never come out unless it...
    santana772 santana772 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    In the past I suffered from depression and every now and then I still get hit with a bad day (usually directly related to the amount of alcohol consumed). I have quit drinking but...
    Mala1718 Mala1718 26-30, F Jun 24

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    Even before i was diagnosed with depression, i love alcohol. It's not really the taste of it, but the feeling i get whenever i get drunk. Well fast forward after being diagnosed...
    mischaelric011392 mischaelric011392 22-25, F Jun 24

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    I think I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming. but, I don't know really. I Just graduated from high school actually, but seldom was there a day that I didn't daydream in class...
    Lucario89 Lucario89 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I'm always suffering from this stuff
    bradley600 bradley600 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    CHRISTIANS: I have struggled lifelong with depression, Even today as I try back in touch with God just recently. I'm happy to find God and I would give up a lot for him. However, I...
    zachlabodz zachlabodz 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I feel like I have to address first my self esteem issues/depression before going to law school again. :( Wrong move! I am so pressured to do good because Of my dad and grandpa. I...
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F Jun 22

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    High school was a terrible part of my life, and I consider this the point where depression started to affect me. Throughout middle school, I had a couple of friends I could be...
    erinw96 erinw96 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    My first mental illness was major depression, it began around the age of 6. I would become withdrawn from social interaction and remain in my bedroom. I didn't want people to come...
    CelticBoxingGuy CelticBoxingGuy 41-45, M Jun 19

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    I became depressed in the 6th grade. That was the year that I was sexually assaulted by a few students on my bus. They threatened to beat me if I ever told anyone about it, so I...
    neutralbeanie neutralbeanie 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 19

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    I've suffered depression for many years indeed. For the longest time I would just bottle every screwed up thought that I had. In high school I turned to creative writing doing...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I used to go on and off with anxiety and then depression. However I never had any suicidal thoughts because I have a slight bit of arrogance thinking that I am very needed. People...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 22-25, M Jun 19

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    Found this site randomly while browsing the internet in a depressed bout. Not sure what I'm expecting, I've sort of given up on the belief that human decency is even a real thing...
    Whitespark Whitespark 22-25, M Jun 19

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    Both my spouse and I suffer from some chronic pain and depression, although his chronic pain is worse and more systemic. I have lower back issues and arthritis and he has ehlers...
    jabl61514 jabl61514 26-30, T Jun 18

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    Yeah.Insomnia is killing me.I slept great last night but now I can't sleep at all.I am going to the doctors gonna ask about my depression.I'm so nervous.
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F Jun 18

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    I can't deal with society and day-today life any more. Going outside and facing the the negative judgement of others is too much to bear. I want to go completely off the grid. I'm...
    Parvus Parvus 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 18

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