Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Suffer From Clinical Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 127 People

    Since Before I Could Admit It

    i have suffered with this nasty disease since long before i would ever admit it.i guess since Viet Nam.....They call it PTSD now adays.....back then we just didn't talk about it..but going through life with no outside help...no meds...no intricate knowledge of what was really...
    russb811 russb811 56-60, M 2 Responses Feb 2, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Recently, I started having doubts of

    whether I suffer from clinical depression. I am stuck in an abusive relationship, I don't have a stable group of friends but other than that, on the surface my life looks good. I realized that I don't have energy for anything, and can spend weeks staying in my room escaping into...
    mdmrmdmr mdmrmdmr 18-21, F Jun 23

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Downward Spiral

    I am 57 years of age, and have been dealing with major depressive episodes for decades.  I have moved umpteen times, worked at countless jobs, and failed miserably at maintaining long-term relationships.  Medications have helped to relieve the worst symptoms, tho they cannot...
    QueenIzabella QueenIzabella 56-60 5 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    diagnosed at about the age of 15

    if I'm remembering correctly ( i'm 31 now) . I'm doing a lot better than in my teens and early 20s( suicidal thoughts but no self harm or suicide attempts). Even though I am doing better, I I still struggle with the feelings of not wanting to do anything, wondering what the...
    animallover412 animallover412 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Clinical Depression

    Clinical depression,Not good,Suffer from time to time,Wish I didn’t,Life would be easier, But somehow,Don’t know how,I get by.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Battle With Clinical Depression

    By way of introduction, my name is Dave Kanofsky and I had suffered from the adult symptoms of clinical depression for thirty-five years. In 2007, thanks to a combination of the right medication and years of talk therapy, my symptoms were under complete control but my financial...
    daveyboy54 daveyboy54 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 17, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    New Research Regarding Depression

    Hello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so they can...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 Apr 28, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I thought I had this under control.

    I really did. But sum things snapped and I don't know what or why. I feel rational and my mind seem clear but I have this overwhelming desire to die. I have been planning when, when and how. I want to give my mom a great christmas and new year. Them my 1st lot of holiday...
    freakyfish36 freakyfish36 26-30 Nov 15, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    What Your Psych Doesn't Want You To Know

    Google "tms", it's a treatment that actually will make the psychs as obsolute as blood letting. Face it, any other kind of doctor that "treats" a patient for 5 or 10 years with no effect is a quack.
    mrmoose1947 mrmoose1947 66-70, M 4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    All My Life

    i have suffered from depression all of my life, or at least as long as i can remember. always sad, never able to fit in, held myself back as not to stand out, hated being singled out, on and on i could go. but until i hit bottom did i admit i needed help. it did help/hurt? that...
    icanthide icanthide 31-35, M 1 Response May 2, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Diagnosed With Depression Forgotton Childhood Left To Be Abused By Both My Parents............

    When I was a child and that is a long time ago now, I never had affection. I grew up with a mother who was mentally unstable and wasn't able to give me what I needed I lacked stability Love and care. often she would abuse me physically and I cut myself off from reality. and day...
    rosesweet rosesweet 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Was Miserable and Still Am...

    I'm 24 years old and I had my son at a young age.. at 16. I alwaIys felt alone and empty, always wanted to run away from home even at the age of 10. Abusive father made it worst with his drinking. I hated walking to school alone or when I came from school I had to walk...
    s0empty s0empty 22-25 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Most of My Life

     i really didn`t know what was matter with me.i just stayed sad.then when i was in my 20`s i decided to try getting help.but,all they know is pills.i tried taking them.i started gaining weight fast,really fast.i gained 12 lbs in one month.and it just kept piling on.within...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ok Ok I Admit It.

    Confession time. I suffer from depression. I should be on meds but i refuse to take em because I don't believe in it. And I won't take em. Ever.
    annathom annathom 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 25, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Live Like This

    I have been depressed since I was a child. There have been moments when I have felt ok but for the most part I am beyond unhappy. I am a wife and mother to two girls both almost adults now and if it werent for the girls I believe I would have checked out long ago. My husband...
    jemslost jemslost 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 18, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Suffer From Depression and I Take Meds...

    Too often other ppl judge ppl who take meds for depression... It is an illness like any other... Meds are not happy pills they do not change ur personality... Instead they make u stable enough or healthy enough in that they allow the nervous system and the chemicals in ur body to...
    harps21 harps21 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Idk what life is anymore, I don't feel the need to be here. The only thing keeping me from killing myself is just fear, I'm a coward. If I wasn't afraid, I'd be dead already...
    kaylynx kaylynx 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    What is the quickest and easiest way to kill urself
    Girlgamer11 Girlgamer11 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Two different car accidents brought this about. I was driving my son home from work one day in March of 2013. I had the green light and the girl who hit me had a green light but...
    RondaSicR RondaSicR 46-50, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think it's been a bit over 5 years, but that depends on when I should count that it started. It esentially started with a semi-trauma. Maybe a bit before that but holy damn did...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    more than one. this isn't something I like to think of as a way of being sick. you know? I just don't like the term "mental illness" it bothers me more than my own ******* illness...
    itllkillme itllkillme 18-21, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I wouldn't say I suffer from this. I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I suffer from Bi Polar depression. When I was first diagnosed with depression, they diagnosed me with chronic depression which is depression caused by the fact that somebody wants...
    AnyExperience AnyExperience 13-15, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Really bad night tonight. I always knew I was a complete **** up but I suppose eventually all I can do is shrug my shoulders and accept it. In some weird way I wouldn't even know...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    People need to understand that mentally ill people didn't ask to be sick. We've just been hurt for so long that it just eventually changed us into what we have become.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    All these years, I've never quite known what my escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had autism later in life where I used to strong episodes of depression. When I begin to be autistic I slowly beginning to start losing my friends b/c I begin to be more social...
    F00dbarevaporating F00dbarevaporating 16-17, F 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Been pulling hair from my head when i am having any anxiety and i can tell from looking at my scalp...my thick hair looks thin now.. It makes my scalp sore. I rip over and over...
    bpdlovesocioh8 bpdlovesocioh8 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Im always being judge by people because i have anxiety and major depressive disorder. People who don't go through this is always the first to judge me. I just want somebody to...
    bigmamajoe bigmamajoe 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams. Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The anti depressants have finally left my system and I feel completely hopeless and sad for no reason all the time, besides being extremely tired. It's been a really, really bad...
    BlackEyedBean BlackEyedBean 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm looking for support from someone who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    100 air squats. luminosity. spicy food. smartphone or computer screen. biting my lip. these things keep me from sleeping during the day time. but sometimes the headaches and heavy...
    YaBoyMokele YaBoyMokele 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    From what I remember, it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace...
    CandyAcid CandyAcid 13-15, F Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've had night terrors ever since I can remember, they were very demonic when I was young, now they are about suicide, rape, killings, mine are very severe, I run out of bed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I still remember the first time it happened I had fallen asleep on the couch and I woke up to a girl with blond hair blue eyes she looked a lot like Taylor Manson from the pretty...
    Multicolour12 Multicolour12 22-25, F Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Everyone is different and everyone needs help in different areas.. Which best describes you? Not everyone needs the same products. It’s important to find your balance. Plexus...
    vero423314 vero423314 22-25, F Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Being abused by my mom , mentally and psychically , and being neglected , and seldomly only having my brother to play with , lead me to maladaptive daydreaming , but ofc at the...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's incredible all the hate I get on this app.. I ask something and there's ALWAYS that jerk who says sh*t. I already suffer from depression, I self harm, I suffer from social...
    HeyThereImManuella HeyThereImManuella 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Depression is our darkness, our light, and our fall. Depression is a monster, a weakness to all. She lies within us and cries every night, Bearing all the pain we've bottled up...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hi, i have been a long-time sufferer from this disorder as it has controlled me for about 5 years. I bite the skin around my fingers, and also my fingernails. sometimes i end up...
    dermafreak dermafreak 22-25, M Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well, not anymore. This is my journey to freedom. (and it can be yours too) Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I shall give you rest. I want to say I know what it...
    thisissarah thisissarah 18-21, F Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I refused to go to a store with my mom today, and her response was "wow, I've never met a 15 year old who doesn't like shopping." "You're a REAL piece of work.." Thanks mom...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 15

    Your Response

    Cancel