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I Suffer From Clinical Depression

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    New Research Regarding Depression

    Hello all, I am a fellow depressive. I am a pretty motivated person, so I did a lot of research on my own because the doctors didn't really help me all that much. 8 years later, I got it figured out. Now, I just wanna make sure that everyone else knows what I know, so they can...
    UV4D UV4D 26-30 Apr 28, 2008

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    Downward Spiral

    I am 57 years of age, and have been dealing with major depressive episodes for decades.  I have moved umpteen times, worked at countless jobs, and failed miserably at maintaining long-term relationships.  Medications have helped to relieve the worst symptoms, tho they cannot...
    QueenIzabella QueenIzabella 56-60 5 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Since Before I Could Admit It

    i have suffered with this nasty disease since long before i would ever admit it.i guess since Viet Nam.....They call it PTSD now adays.....back then we just didn't talk about it..but going through life with no outside help...no meds...no intricate knowledge of what was really...
    russb811 russb811 56-60, M 2 Responses Feb 2, 2011

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    I Was Miserable and Still Am...

    I'm 24 years old and I had my son at a young age.. at 16. I alwaIys felt alone and empty, always wanted to run away from home even at the age of 10. Abusive father made it worst with his drinking. I hated walking to school alone or when I came from school I had to walk...
    s0empty s0empty 22-25 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    I thought I had this under control.

    I really did. But sum things snapped and I don't know what or why. I feel rational and my mind seem clear but I have this overwhelming desire to die. I have been planning when, when and how. I want to give my mom a great christmas and new year. Them my 1st lot of holiday...
    freakyfish36 freakyfish36 26-30 Nov 15, 2014

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    I Suffer From Depression and I Take Meds...

    Too often other ppl judge ppl who take meds for depression... It is an illness like any other... Meds are not happy pills they do not change ur personality... Instead they make u stable enough or healthy enough in that they allow the nervous system and the chemicals in ur body to...
    harps21 harps21 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2008

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    diagnosed at about the age of 15

    if I'm remembering correctly ( i'm 31 now) . I'm doing a lot better than in my teens and early 20s( suicidal thoughts but no self harm or suicide attempts). Even though I am doing better, I I still struggle with the feelings of not wanting to do anything, wondering what the...
    animallover412 animallover412 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Ok Ok I Admit It.

    Confession time. I suffer from depression. I should be on meds but i refuse to take em because I don't believe in it. And I won't take em. Ever.
    annathom annathom 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 25, 2008

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    Most of My Life

     i really didn`t know what was matter with me.i just stayed sad.then when i was in my 20`s i decided to try getting help.but,all they know is pills.i tried taking them.i started gaining weight fast,really fast.i gained 12 lbs in one month.and it just kept piling on.within...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    Recently, I started having doubts of

    whether I suffer from clinical depression. I am stuck in an abusive relationship, I don't have a stable group of friends but other than that, on the surface my life looks good. I realized that I don't have energy for anything, and can spend weeks staying in my room escaping into...
    mdmrmdmr mdmrmdmr 18-21, F Jun 23, 2015

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    Having moments of would the people in my life

    be better off without me in their life ( because I currently am a financial burden on them and having to live with them, kind of long story). Well, yes I have suicidal thoughts I would never go through with it, too afraid to die because who knows how it feels or what happens...
    animallover412 animallover412 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2015

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    Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Live Like This

    I have been depressed since I was a child. There have been moments when I have felt ok but for the most part I am beyond unhappy. I am a wife and mother to two girls both almost adults now and if it werent for the girls I believe I would have checked out long ago. My husband...
    jemslost jemslost 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    All My Life

    i have suffered from depression all of my life, or at least as long as i can remember. always sad, never able to fit in, held myself back as not to stand out, hated being singled out, on and on i could go. but until i hit bottom did i admit i needed help. it did help/hurt? that...
    icanthide icanthide 31-35, M 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    I Am Diagnosed With Depression Forgotton Childhood Left To Be Abused By Both My Parents............

    When I was a child and that is a long time ago now, I never had affection. I grew up with a mother who was mentally unstable and wasn't able to give me what I needed I lacked stability Love and care. often she would abuse me physically and I cut myself off from reality. and day...
    rosesweet rosesweet 56-60, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2012

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    What Your Psych Doesn't Want You To Know

    Google "tms", it's a treatment that actually will make the psychs as obsolute as blood letting. Face it, any other kind of doctor that "treats" a patient for 5 or 10 years with no effect is a quack.
    mrmoose1947 mrmoose1947 66-70, M 4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

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    My Battle With Clinical Depression

    By way of introduction, my name is Dave Kanofsky and I had suffered from the adult symptoms of clinical depression for thirty-five years. In 2007, thanks to a combination of the right medication and years of talk therapy, my symptoms were under complete control but my financial...
    daveyboy54 daveyboy54 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 17, 2011

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    Clinical Depression

    Clinical depression,Not good,Suffer from time to time,Wish I didn’t,Life would be easier, But somehow,Don’t know how,I get by.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Thanks to seroquel And the corrupt And no heroes stopping the corrupt
    OddButResilient OddButResilient 46-50, M 19 mins ago

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    when i tell people i have bad anxiety and stress, they always ask what ive got to be stressed about.. no one has any understanding or empathy. i envy people who go about their...
    Madz121285 Madz121285 26-30, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Lately my dp has been decreasing and easier to handle. It's still not completely gone though and I still do have dp/dr attacks from time to time.
    tubbycat1234 tubbycat1234 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    You know you've hit depression when: - you know deep down inside you will be ok but you still feel awful. - you know people love you but it doesn't feel like they do. - you know...
    AngelicHalo AngelicHalo 36-40, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I want to run away from life and hide, but no matter where I go the demons are always there pulling me into the pit of despair.
    nevets68 nevets68 46-50, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I've had pain and problems with my hips and back from when I was a teenager in about early high school. It wasn't too bad back then as I could manage my daily life with a few...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I've been looking for a group like this for a while. My wife suffers from chronic pain due to Chari Malformation and other issues in her back and neck. Chronic pain has been a part...
    scummins1964 scummins1964 51-55, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    For at my lowest of low, I found my humanity. From the pits of my hell, I saw the world from a fresh perspective. Though I may wonder what might've been, I'll be forever grateful...
    RogueLogic2 RogueLogic2 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been trying to ignore my depression but i feel like im breaking
    MusicalGirl24 MusicalGirl24 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I have been married twice and I'm in a wheelchair so I don't like being alone in the dark so when I have to wait for the bus to go home from either Work or the collegeX have a...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I' feel like i need to write this out.Ive had maladaptive daydreaming since I was 5 years old.And no I'm 20. I don't know what caused it,but I think it's because when I was young I...
    skyy23 skyy23 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Quitting MDD - my story Hi friends! I posted about quitting MDD a couple months ago and just wanted to give everyone an update and offer whatever help I can. I have been...
    BuddhistAddict BuddhistAddict 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Depression Fighting to live is a serious thing. Sometimes I wish it was alcoholism because then your depression would be numbed. I have been going through what I call a tunnel of...
    milizbeth milizbeth 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This is my story. I've been a constant Daydreamer since I was born. As a kid my family would catch me daydreaming and make fun of me, if they were in a good mood. But it was also...
    slothtolerance slothtolerance 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I go through it all the time. It hurts. It turns my world black, sometimes for days that feel like they will never end. I have taken meds before which just make my head feel wrong...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 2

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    I still get it occassionally. The feeling that you're not meant for this world and the temptation to end your own life seems like the best idea in the world....
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M Feb 1

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    I dont think anyone truly understands how dark a place my mind goes sometimes. I mean there are times I don't even understand it so.how could anyone else? I hate this so much.
    EFairy EFairy 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    My husband and I have had a terribly rocky last three years together. He's cycled, going from adoring me to blaming me; he's begged me to stay and he's insisted I leave. He's...
    FakeIsTheNewReal FakeIsTheNewReal 31-35, F Jan 29

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    My life has always been a complete rollercoaster. I am a 19 year old freshman in college, who wants to major in graphic arts. I have Asperger syndrome, Bipolar, ADHD, and...
    Triomatix Triomatix 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    It has come to the point where I'll burst into tears over one strand of my hair falling out, where I'll start gritting my teeth because I have to get out of bed for the day, just...
    SadlySafe SadlySafe 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 28

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    "You're mad." "Why are you mad at me?" I'm not mad. I'm depressed with a resting ***** face.
    InsecureBlurryface InsecureBlurryface 13-15, F Jan 27

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    So I was clean for 4 years, but a few months ago I messed up, and started self harming again, and the same night I also took a bunch of pills with alcohol, hoping that I would fall...
    NeonAshes NeonAshes 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Sleep paralysis is something I seriously suffer with and I don't know why it started. I am 16 years old and was diagnosed with depression and put on medication. Randomly I would...
    StephlyBoz StephlyBoz 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    So... I'm just going to write truthfully about my experience because I've never told anyone. This is going to be long. I suffer from MDD, obviously. I've had this about three...
    d1sc0rdant d1sc0rdant 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    It is so scary, I don't feel like myself anymore. Nothing feels real. I don't even know what reality feels like anymore :( I'm scared.
    Doggycute Doggycute 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25