I Suffer From Depersonalization Disorder

This is a group for anyone who suffers or has suffered from this debilitating disorder. All are welcome, and all stories are appreciated. 190 People

    DPD the worst thing that you may have .

    . I am suffering from it from 10 years ago and i am still now 16y .. I feel like i am leaving in hell with the feeling of unreality and like i am in a dream .. I have seen about four psychologists and finally diagnosed with DPD .. I am wondering what is the cure cuz all said that...
    Nasaomam Nasaomam
    18-21, F
    Dec 3, 2015

    28 year old and have been living with

    depersonalization since sophomore year of high school. Started in tiny episodes when I was younger then full blown -couldn't leave- the -house -kind of thing ...Been taking Paxil 40mg ever since. Sometimes I feel like I just want to be "normal" ...I hate that I don't feel real...
    msisson22 msisson22
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 30, 2015

    Had it for 3 years but only found out about

    this year. I thought it was something everyone went through. You can only imagine how disappointed I was when I found out that the people around me could be carefree without the feeling of absolutely nothing.
    PyschedelicPri PyschedelicPri
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2015

    This Is My Self-introduction.

    My name is Genevieve. I am a female, almost seventeen years old, and I live in New Orleans. I don't remember always being like this. I don't remember lacking this much control. I don't remember feeling unlike this, however. I know I've changed. I used to be a wall. I would be...
    ohmygenevieve ohmygenevieve
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jan 23, 2011

    It Explains A Lot.

    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization_disorder Depersonalization disorder (DPD) is a dissociative disorder in which the sufferer is affected by persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization and/or derealization. Diagnostic criteria include persistent or...
    justwhatever123 justwhatever123
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2011


    Listen up guys because I am about to tell you the truth about depersonalization. It's crucial that you first know this: it will go away, it is not permanent, you are not crazy, you WILL go back to your normal self and most importantly, you are okay. I suffered from DP for about...
    Bbrenner13 Bbrenner13
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2015

    I Think I May Have DD But I'M Not Sure. Please Help Me.

    I don't kow if anyone will even read this. First and foremost, I'm not crazy lol. some of the things I will describe are strange and I KNOW they are not "normal" but I'm just a regular person just like the next guy. I lead a normal life, had a decent childhood with loving parents...
    tasalvador83 tasalvador83
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2013

    I have Depersonalization Disorder

    for almost a year now.It never stops, I dont feel anything,my thoughts are racing In my head and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in a plane.I was going to Italy and when we landed I started feeling weird. I thought it was the different climate or the air pressure...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    My Victory Against DP

    Hi, I'm a 22 year old male. About 3 months ago I fell into a horrible state of mind called depersonalization/derealization. I choose to call it a State of Mind rather than a disorder for 2 reasons. One, because I believe that, thats all it is. Two, because calling it a...
    k1ngflash k1ngflash
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Oct 25, 2013

    Words That Somehow Make A Story

    A dream. I dont know if anyone else who experiences what I call "unreal" finds it impossible to discribe... But dream is the closest word that I can relate to; its something which, if you dont have it theres no way you can understand. I've always tried to anylais my "vicious...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife
    18-21, F
    Jan 26, 2011

    Going Crazy Now

    I cant believe what has become of my life now, Im sure everyone knows what im talking about at this point , but im going crazy now i cant feel my life own life this isnt me , nothing is happening , this isnt my skin ,these arent my thoughts , these arent my actions , this isnt me...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2010


    I'm 13, just started hishschool. I've always had anxiety here and there, but one night a had a full blown panic attack . Lasted about 3 hours. I legit thought I was going to die. I went to the doctors and he said I have anxiety obviously. Gave me these little pills , told me to...
    okay7777not okay7777not
    18-21, F
    Sep 6, 2013

    I am free from Derealization!

    I only came to this site to share positive information. I sufferED from persistent daily symptoms of depersonalization for a year in college then for 5 years straight after I had children. I can honestly say this is the worst experience a person can suffer with in my opinion...
    mandabear8980 mandabear8980
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2015

    Ptsd And Depersonalization Disorder

    Over the last few years I have been fighting with depression and anxiety. I didn't realize that the underlying problem was PTSD until after my first dissociative episode. I was sitting at work and everything just started to seem strange, I couldn't hear the people around me but I...
    ElliotE ElliotE
    1 Response May 17, 2012

    12 Years Of Dreamland

    Hello. Iam new to this. I think it feels really good to find others who feel the same way. I have felt trapped in a dream for a little over 12 years. I smoked pot & had a panic attack and when I woke up the next morning, this is how I felt. Like iam in a dream, emotionless, like...
    Katewimm Katewimm
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 17, 2013

    Is There A Treatment?

    I was diagnosed with DP when I was 17. I went to therapy for a year, and have not had another episode until now. I am now 21. Just recently I have been going through a lot of changes (moved across country, got into a bad accident, etc...) and it's flared up again. I went back to...
    vdriver vdriver
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

    I Suffered From Dp As Well

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 11, 2013

    Hi Guys C:

    I have a history of mental problems, as does my family, but here is what triggered my derealization. I first experienced it when I smoked way to much weed. It affected me badly, and I had a severe attack that I didn't come out of for a month or two really. After that it never...
    MissMonochrome MissMonochrome
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2013

    When Will This End :(

    I have been suffering with DPD for almost two years. I also have PTSD. I have had it since I was little. I had a VERY traumatic childhood. I have been having severe panic attacks lately. My depression is out of control. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I was doing pretty well...
    cadenceackerson cadenceackerson
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 9, 2011

    How Do You Explain It?

    We all know what its about but when you feel , live it, how can you explain it to someone who doesnt know? Like your life is a numb movie that never ends? This isnt how life should be, it should be filled with feelings all the time , Im starting to think what i did for this to...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

    When you feel like nothing is real.

    When you have no sort of emotion at all... you can't feel happy or sad , mad , you feel like you are just there .. and you completely lost yourself . You dont know who you are.. or anyone else.. not your family your bf.. your Co workers.. you are stuck in time ... not knowing...
    adrihurs adrihurs
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015


    Hi. I am 17years old. healthy. 2months ago I started to have hard time breathing out of nowhere so I thought it was a temporary thing.. it wasn't.. it went on for awhile until one day I started to have this weird sensation that got to the point i couldn't stand up.. I kept on...
    hyperholic hyperholic
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2012

    I Dont Want This...

    i suffer from DP and its so frustrating sometimes. i didnt know what it was called until late 2011 but i knew it was something since about 2009. im 12 yrs old now. i havnt told anybody yet except for one of my friends but she has no idea what im talking about but thats ok coz ik...
    shaiPie shaiPie
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2012

    It Really Does Suck!!!!

    when i was about 9 years old i was hanging out with my friend and she had this strobe light, so she turned off the light and showed me how it worked.. so i started staring at it and then all of the sudden i felt weird, like i have never in my life felt anything quite like this...
    mcb123 mcb123
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2010

    Where Does It End?

    I have no idea how long I've had DP. No idea when it started. I wish I did, then at least I'd have somewhere to start, yet sadly fate is a ***** and I have nothing to go on. All I know is that as time goes on it feels like it only gets worse. I know it fluctuates, I'm not in a...
    mightybear mightybear
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 4, 2011

    A Message To My Friends!

    Desirable and Undesirable Characters Some times when we feel weak we tend to speak this out to others, but the question is why? Is your objective is to come out of weakness or getting attention! In majority of the cases when we are sad we speak this to others, few people have...
    mJerry mJerry
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2012

    Lately my dp has been decreasing

    and easier to handle. It's still not completely gone though and I still do have dp/dr attacks from time to time.
    tubbycat1234 tubbycat1234
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 10, 2016

    Always This Way

    I am not sure where to begin. I should start by saying that I am a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. I should, in theory, be able to figure this out and know what to do about it. I have felt for most of my life as if nothing was real. This obviously gets more intense in times of...
    mrsrosered mrsrosered
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Sep 12, 2012
    tubbycat1234 tubbycat1234
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2016

    I Suffer As Well...

    Hi, im new to this site and thought i would share my story. Im 14 and got diagnosed with Depersonalisation&Derealisation a bit less then a year ago. Im still batteling through it and its so so hard almost feels impossible to live with or do anything with! I have been in...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

    I'M Losing My Mind...

    I feel like my sanity is becoming thinner and thinner. I go through each day as an observer. I never really feel there. I feel like I’m always watching a movie or reading a book and that what is happening is just another story. It’s to the point that I am starting to blur the...
    plethorify plethorify
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 6, 2013

    My (ex)-boyfriend Has Dp And Really Want To Help Him =(

    Hello ! Please read this =(I'm from portugal , so if my english isn't very good i will ask you to understand :sI have read almost all that people wrote here, so I'll wrote too and wish to have luck. The guy that i love has depersonalization for almost one year, or even more...
    deny09 deny09
    4 Responses Dec 20, 2011


    From what I've read I think I might suffer from something like this. I don't feel I'm real a lot of the time, or I'll start feeling like I'm far away from my body then I'll come back into it later on not really remembering anything about what was going on around me. Maybe..
    LifelessSource LifelessSource
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2011

    No Hope.

    Will someone please tell me this gets better? I really have days where I don't wanna wake up because I have no hope that this is going to get better. Then I have those days where I feel like I can conquer the world. I have Panic and Anxiety Disorder associated with DPD. I don't...
    MommyndWifey MommyndWifey
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jun 29, 2011
    hateraidwontmakemefaid hateraidwontmakemefaid
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2016

    Every time I'm having a good time i start to

    get a strong sense that nothing is real and I feel lost :/ I don't know what the point of this world is...everyone I know seems to be struggling in life and I don't think I've ever met anyone who was actually happy.
    tubbycat1234 tubbycat1234
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016
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