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I Suffer From Depersonalization Disorder

This is a group for anyone who suffers or has suffered from this debilitating disorder. All are welcome, and all stories are appreciated. 162 People

    How Do You Explain It?

    We all know what its about but when you feel , live it, how can you explain it to someone who doesnt know? Like your life is a numb movie that never ends? This isnt how life should be, it should be filled with feelings all the time , Im starting to think what i did for this to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    I Suffer As Well...

    Hi, im new to this site and thought i would share my story. Im 14 and got diagnosed with Depersonalisation&Derealisation a bit less then a year ago. Im still batteling through it and its so so hard almost feels impossible to live with or do anything with! I have been in...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    I Think I May Have DD But I'M Not Sure. Please Help Me.

    I don't kow if anyone will even read this. First and foremost, I'm not crazy lol. some of the things I will describe are strange and I KNOW they are not "normal" but I'm just a regular person just like the next guy. I lead a normal life, had a decent childhood with loving parents...
    tasalvador83 tasalvador83 31-35 3 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    People....

    Never let somebody put you down, Never feel below someone else. When friends let you down, be strong because in the end you'll find better ones. Be prepared for anything, And anyone, The challenges you will face, The fears you will concor, Seem unclear now, but will soon zoom...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F Jun 27, 2010

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    Going Crazy Now

    I cant believe what has become of my life now, Im sure everyone knows what im talking about at this point , but im going crazy now i cant feel my life own life this isnt me , nothing is happening , this isnt my skin ,these arent my thoughts , these arent my actions , this isnt me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 22, 2010

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    DP

    I'm 13, just started hishschool. I've always had anxiety here and there, but one night a had a full blown panic attack . Lasted about 3 hours. I legit thought I was going to die. I went to the doctors and he said I have anxiety obviously. Gave me these little pills , told me to...
    okay7777not okay7777not 13-15, F Sep 6, 2013

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    I Suffered From Dp As Well

    hey how are you doing you dont know me but i decided to come back and read about people going through depersonalization , why ? 1 year ago it happened to me and i felt the same way you are feeling right now i literary though i was dying and i felt i had no...
    reinaldocastellanos reinaldocastellanos 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    No Hope.

    Will someone please tell me this gets better? I really have days where I don't wanna wake up because I have no hope that this is going to get better. Then I have those days where I feel like I can conquer the world. I have Panic and Anxiety Disorder associated with DPD. I don't...
    MommyndWifey MommyndWifey 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 29, 2011

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    12 Years Of Dreamland

    Hello. Iam new to this. I think it feels really good to find others who feel the same way. I have felt trapped in a dream for a little over 12 years. I smoked pot & had a panic attack and when I woke up the next morning, this is how I felt. Like iam in a dream, emotionless, like...
    Katewimm Katewimm 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    I have Depersonalization Disorder

    for almost a year now.It never stops, I dont feel anything,my thoughts are racing In my head and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in a plane.I was going to Italy and when we landed I started feeling weird. I thought it was the different climate or the air pressure...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 16-17, M 5 Responses Feb 8

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    My (ex)-boyfriend Has Dp And Really Want To Help Him =(

    Hello ! Please read this =(I'm from portugal , so if my english isn't very good i will ask you to understand :sI have read almost all that people wrote here, so I'll wrote too and wish to have luck. The guy that i love has depersonalization for almost one year, or even more...
    deny09 deny09 16-17 4 Responses Dec 20, 2011

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    Hi Guys C:

    I have a history of mental problems, as does my family, but here is what triggered my derealization. I first experienced it when I smoked way to much weed. It affected me badly, and I had a severe attack that I didn't come out of for a month or two really. After that it never...
    MissMonochrome MissMonochrome 13-15, F Mar 6, 2013

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    Ptsd And Depersonalization Disorder

    Over the last few years I have been fighting with depression and anxiety. I didn't realize that the underlying problem was PTSD until after my first dissociative episode. I was sitting at work and everything just started to seem strange, I couldn't hear the people around me but I...
    ElliotE ElliotE 22-25 1 Response May 17, 2012

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    Depersonalisation...

    So who finds it hard?To live with this burden, which has just been placed upon you without a warning or sign. Not even letting you know, im giving you this its going to be terrifying and hard as hell. But nothing, you just have to keep fighting every single day, you feel...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F Jan 24, 2010

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    I'M Losing My Mind...

    I feel like my sanity is becoming thinner and thinner. I go through each day as an observer. I never really feel there. I feel like I’m always watching a movie or reading a book and that what is happening is just another story. It’s to the point that I am starting to blur the...
    plethorify plethorify 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    28 year old and have been living with

    depersonalization since sophomore year of high school. Started in tiny episodes when I was younger then full blown -couldn't leave- the -house -kind of thing ...Been taking Paxil 40mg ever since. Sometimes I feel like I just want to be "normal" ...I hate that I don't feel real...
    msisson22 msisson22 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Maybe

    From what I've read I think I might suffer from something like this. I don't feel I'm real a lot of the time, or I'll start feeling like I'm far away from my body then I'll come back into it later on not really remembering anything about what was going on around me. Maybe..
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Mar 21, 2011

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    When Will This End :(

    I have been suffering with DPD for almost two years. I also have PTSD. I have had it since I was little. I had a VERY traumatic childhood. I have been having severe panic attacks lately. My depression is out of control. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I was doing pretty well...
    cadenceackerson cadenceackerson 31-35, F 3 Responses May 9, 2011

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    A Message To My Friends!

    Desirable and Undesirable Characters Some times when we feel weak we tend to speak this out to others, but the question is why? Is your objective is to come out of weakness or getting attention! In majority of the cases when we are sad we speak this to others, few people have...
    mJerry mJerry 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    Lets Wait And See..

     Do we get anywhere by saying no?Do we think its for the best? Or actually just an easy way out of a challenging suituation? If you dont say no but say yes, what will happen? Will you die, get hurt or harmed? The answer is No. So what are we scared of? Cause i...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2010

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    Words That Somehow Make A Story

    A dream. I dont know if anyone else who experiences what I call "unreal" finds it impossible to discribe... But dream is the closest word that I can relate to; its something which, if you dont have it theres no way you can understand. I've always tried to anylais my "vicious...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F Jan 26, 2011

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    It Explains A Lot.

    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization_disorder Depersonalization disorder (DPD) is a dissociative disorder in which the sufferer is affected by persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization and/or derealization. Diagnostic criteria include persistent or...
    justwhatever123 justwhatever123 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    This Is My Self-introduction.

    My name is Genevieve. I am a female, almost seventeen years old, and I live in New Orleans. I don't remember always being like this. I don't remember lacking this much control. I don't remember feeling unlike this, however. I know I've changed. I used to be a wall. I would be...
    ohmygenevieve ohmygenevieve 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 23, 2011

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    Where Does It End?

    I have no idea how long I've had DP. No idea when it started. I wish I did, then at least I'd have somewhere to start, yet sadly fate is a ***** and I have nothing to go on. All I know is that as time goes on it feels like it only gets worse. I know it fluctuates, I'm not in a...
    mightybear mightybear 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Always This Way

    I am not sure where to begin. I should start by saying that I am a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. I should, in theory, be able to figure this out and know what to do about it. I have felt for most of my life as if nothing was real. This obviously gets more intense in times of...
    mrsrosered mrsrosered 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    It Really Does Suck!!!!

    when i was about 9 years old i was hanging out with my friend and she had this strobe light, so she turned off the light and showed me how it worked.. so i started staring at it and then all of the sudden i felt weird, like i have never in my life felt anything quite like this...
    mcb123 mcb123 13-15 2 Responses Mar 16, 2010

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    My Victory Against DP

    Hi, I'm a 22 year old male. About 3 months ago I fell into a horrible state of mind called depersonalization/derealization. I choose to call it a State of Mind rather than a disorder for 2 reasons. One, because I believe that, thats all it is. Two, because calling it a...
    k1ngflash k1ngflash 22-25, M 5 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I Dont Want This...

    i suffer from DP and its so frustrating sometimes. i didnt know what it was called until late 2011 but i knew it was something since about 2009. im 12 yrs old now. i havnt told anybody yet except for one of my friends but she has no idea what im talking about but thats ok coz ik...
    shaiPie shaiPie 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2012

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    I Now Know.

    Only recently have i begun to relise the trick to dealing with depersonalisation. For almost 2 years i have had to live with this terrifying, unexpected feeling and now im starting to move on. And others reading this will not believe me just like i was like to others, absolutly...
    Thisgirlslife Thisgirlslife 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2010

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    Is There A Treatment?

    I was diagnosed with DP when I was 17. I went to therapy for a year, and have not had another episode until now. I am now 21. Just recently I have been going through a lot of changes (moved across country, got into a bad accident, etc...) and it's flared up again. I went back to...
    vdriver vdriver 18-21 2 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    Depersonalization

    Hi. I am 17years old. healthy. 2months ago I started to have hard time breathing out of nowhere so I thought it was a temporary thing.. it wasn't.. it went on for awhile until one day I started to have this weird sensation that got to the point i couldn't stand up.. I kept on...
    hyperholic hyperholic 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    The worst anxiety is from phone calls... I never answer the phone... and if I have to make an important call I have trouble sleeping the night before. Not too troublesome now that...
    Salarymen Salarymen 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I get anxiety just from sending people emails. It gets so bad that when I was doing a project with my group (I'm doing online study), I couldn't bring out what I was thinking...
    aarigel aarigel 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I would like to start a sort of sex group for people that are In a relationship with someone that has disabilities that keeps them from having sex. So we the healthy sex starved...
    Lordfiercelove Lordfiercelove 31-35 1 Response 2 days ago

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    She has been suffering from this neuro disease for almost 2 years now. We've now hit a roadblock. As an only child, I am almost about to give up. We are short on funds and it's...
    Pugggles Pugggles 22-25 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So I got to talk with a psychiatrist today about depersonalization disorder he said that it is part of a defense mechanism that your body uses when a great amount of stress is put...
    Shadetree111 Shadetree111 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am recovered from DP this year after 3 years' struggle. It was an extremely challenging period where I almos lost the functions of speaking and writing and even listening...
    newlife888 newlife888 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    I knew it was I thing I always did but I just didn't know it had a name until a few hours ago. Since I was about 5 years old I always made up scenarios and created this world in my...
    RussianMatryoshkaDoll RussianMatryoshkaDoll 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I posted an essay on my blog today outlining some of my thoughts on DP, enlightenment, and a few words of advice for anyone interested: https://ideasworthrememberingblog.wordpress...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I completely understand I've been wondering what is happening to me for a year and a half because I haven't been able to explain what is wrong with me. Then I was searching up what...
    Shadetree111 Shadetree111 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Idk what life is anymore, I don't feel the need to be here. The only thing keeping me from killing myself is just fear, I'm a coward. If I wasn't afraid, I'd be dead already...
    kaylynx kaylynx 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Two different car accidents brought this about. I was driving my son home from work one day in March of 2013. I had the green light and the girl who hit me had a green light but...
    RondaSicR RondaSicR 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I think it's been a bit over 5 years, but that depends on when I should count that it started. It esentially started with a semi-trauma. Maybe a bit before that but holy damn did...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    more than one. this isn't something I like to think of as a way of being sick. you know? I just don't like the term "mental illness" it bothers me more than my own ******* illness...
    itllkillme itllkillme 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Is there such a thing as an off day with dpd? Is there a day where you don't notice it, but then you have an off day where it just hits you? The stress of not trying to have...