I Suffer From Major Depressive Disorder

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    I hate my life. I hate my personality

    and my body and dependency. I'm so quick to laugh and fall in love and I'm ******* fat and I depend too much on a certain person that makes me happy. I'm so disgusted and ashamed with myself. I'll never get my highschool diploma or have my dream job or find the one girl or make...
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Sep 14, 2014
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014

    I really want to die

    because I just can't handle this anymore. I try making real friends but they all hate me. I try participating in class but then more people will hate me. I try being me and all I do is get rejected. I feel like an utter failure. I want to make my arms bleed now
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2014

    I'm crying right now

    because I want to die so badly and I just hate myself so much
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014

    So tomorrow I start starvation instead of today,

    I had to stay home sick. Tomorrow I put up an excuse that I was bullied badly so everything else can go smoothly
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014

    Disfunctual Childhood

    i was sexually abused at 6 ,  raped at 12  and had a totaly disfunctual childhood . this lead to me suffering from post traumatic stress disorder , anxiety , panic attacks and major depression . ive been in therapy for 25years and take a lot of medication...
    greeenie greeenie
    41-45, M
    Jun 18, 2007
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014

    What's bothering me at the moment .

    ..so yesterday at my highschool some girls I knew bullied me about being lesbian and pulled my hair and hit me. I also have this idol...he's really great, he makes me smile all the time, but I get so depressed because I'm so dependent on him to be happy. And I'm ugly. Really...
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2014

    Starving yourself isn't

    that hard I think. If I ever get hungry all I do is drink warm water and I feel full
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 24, 2014

    2nd day of no food. My brother said yesterday

    that if I haven't had a meal all day and just snacks then that's the equivalent of no food. I'm pretty sure he didn't take me seriously when I said no food
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 23, 2014

    I want to stick a gun to my head

    and pull the trigger. I want to abuse my body to the maximum because I know I deserve it. I want to isolate myself so no one else gets hurt. I want to drink what's left of my life away. I want to die.
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Sep 5, 2014

    I Dont Know Why Really ..

    I have been depressive in about 5-6 months now.. i dont know why im depressive, but sometimes i just getting so down. 
    FeelBird FeelBird
    13-15, F
    Jun 9, 2010

    First day of my starvation.

    Feeling pretty good about it, just have to make sure not to take my Prozac or I probably won't go through with it.
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 22, 2014
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2014

    I want to die so bad.

    There's nothing good left in my life. I have no friends and I get bullied all the time for my sexuality and body and music preference and my personality. I feel like by the end of next month I'd be failing all my classes already and my teachers wouldn't give a **** because it...
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2014

    Tomorrow I start a plan

    where I starve myself for around 2 weeks or so and then commit suicide. I had an old account, goingunder, but this membership will be used while I'm on this plan. If any of you care to want to know why I'll be committing suicide, it's because I hate what I did with the life I...
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2014

    I hate how clean my arms are.

    I want to slice them up.
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Sep 18, 2014

    I feel ******* worthless

    and just ******
    maydaysirens maydaysirens
    16-17, F
    Aug 21, 2014
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