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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I've been daydreaming ever

    since childhood, and if I stop it makes me become more depressed than I already am. I used to have different ones, but over time I've dulled it down into one. For me, I'm the main character, I'm emotionally attached to the characters, my facial expressions will chance, I'll tend...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 22-25, F Jul 7

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    I started getting bullied in 7th grade.

    I already have an extremely vivid imagination, and I started making up a new life in my head, pretending I was someone else. I made up many different characters, with complex lives. I still do this today, it kinda stuck with me.
    Caricature1 Caricature1 70+, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams.

    Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times I've created vivid worlds that are entirely my own. I've always considered this ability as a gift; even a gloomy and dull moment can be...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my

    escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in reference to behavior patterns, 'normal' means healthy and non-destructive. I emphasize this because one could live in a society where it is a standard...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I didn't realise there was a name

    for it but this sounds about right to describe something I've done for most of my life. I don't "suffer" from it...in fact I rather enjoy it :D Nobody gets hurt and frankly I have bigger things to worry about so I'm allowing myself the escape from reality for now.
    Nenmir Nenmir 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 5

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    I wouldn't say suffer,

    I'm kinda getting used to controlling it sometimes. It feels like a movie playing in your head everyday. I'm not saying it's good nor am I saying it's bad. But it's very annoying sometime when you'd like to focus.
    DangerouslyMe DangerouslyMe 16-17, F Jun 13

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Being abused by my mom ,

    mentally and psychically , and being neglected , and seldomly only having my brother to play with , lead me to maladaptive daydreaming , but ofc at the time I didn't know that's what I was actually doing . Again "talking to myself"'started when I began to play with my toys . But...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I'm looking for support from someone

    who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it makes me feel happy. But at the same time I really want to stop. It's consumed too much of my time and has distracted me from what I...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I've been depressed since I was a kid everyday

    I feel closer and closer to ending it but MDD pulls me back escaping into my own world is all I have. I know it sounds crazy but believing I can be someone else someone beautiful, talented, and smart is the only thing keeping me up these days. If I lose my world I fear I'll lose...
    xscarletknight xscarletknight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I think I do, anyway.

    I daydream so much that I just had accepted that I would always have these elaborate fantasies in my head. I'm so glad that there's now a name for this :)
    cuttergurl56 cuttergurl56 13-15, F Jun 30

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    I think the worst part is I can't tell anyone

    about it. I've brought it up to my mom once and she just chuckled and didn't take me seriously... That was the first and last time I've ever brought it up to someone. I'm also an insomniac so at night I lay in bed and just dream of my second life. Everyone knows I'm an insomniac...
    Outline Outline 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I don't see my excessive daydreaming

    as an issue. I've read that many people who experience maladaptive daydreaming consider it to be a bad or a difficult thing, but personally I love it and couldn't live without it. Obviously I can distinct what's real and what's in my mind, but the worlds that I create in my...
    NadaCei NadaCei 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    My daydreams get really extreme sometimes.

    .. It started since I was 8 8/9 years old. Sometimes I have to get dressed and look good in real life to feel good in my daydream and I get really annoyed if anyone distracts me.. I don't sleep until I can in my scenario. I don't mind the scenarios as they make me feel better but...
    EmmZeeOx EmmZeeOx 16-17, F Jul 19

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    I didn't really know

    that what I had was a disorder. It began in sixth grade and that was the year I lost all my friends. I would sit at lunch everyday by myself reading it doing homework when one day I forgot the things I was going to do. I pulled out a book and read that instead. When I was done...
    Leannabj25 Leannabj25 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    Until I discovered this group,

    I didn't know there was a name for what I've always done. As a child, I used to daydream to escape my life. It was the only way for me to feel happy. I had a whole different imaginary world with friends. I'd escape to specific daydreamed moments and re-live those moments again...
    secretlysidhe secretlysidhe 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 14 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I think I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming.

    but, I don't know really. I Just graduated from high school actually, but seldom was there a day that I didn't daydream in class. tests, studying, basic lectures that I actually enjoyed, I was always thinking of something else. My senior year, whether it was maladaptive...
    Lucario89 Lucario89 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I never really thought

    that this is a thing. I thought it's a part of my personality. People usually talk to me and I respond with ''sorry I'm making a story in my head now'' heh.. I have this since... since I can remember myself, but now it's happening way more often, actually, it happens all the...
    Emi1453 Emi1453 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I've always been in denial of experiencing this.

    I recently just discovered the term for this condition and I was happy to find out that I wasn't the only one. I ALWAYS daydream when I'm listening to music (usually when I'm alone). I often go to the bathroom or any empty room in my house and walk back and forth in there and...
    ilrd ilrd 18-21, F Jul 5

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    I've been reading articles about this,

    and I keep thinking to myself that I actually do suffer from it. I have been talking to close family members and friends about this, and nothing has been working. So here I will share my whole experience for the first time. I think this daydreaming has started when I was...
    alaniW180 alaniW180 13-15 Jul 3

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I day dream to the point

    where it intrudes on my life. I have conversations with people and am only half there. I have trouble with tasks and relationships. I feel depressed all the time because of it. I daydream constantly. and it gets worse when I feel emotional turmoil. over the years I formed an...
    Stephenwashere92 Stephenwashere92 22-25, M Jul 2

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    I wouldn't say I suffer from this.

    I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told them I had this, but they finally did and it feels great to know that they know about this. There is only one problem, I have nobody to...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well, I think I do suffer from this

    and I really need some advice.. It's like a different place like a story and I don't know why I have or might have this. I guess since I read/draw/write/Roleplay I can't really stop myself from day dreaming if I am just listening to music not even wanting to day dream it'll...
    Elizabeth1123 Elizabeth1123 13-15, F Jul 3

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    I did not know that there is a word

    for this, or that other people had it, until yesterday. I am a writer, and I am afraid that if I stop I won't be able to write anymore. I am looking forward to meeting others and learning from their experiences. Is there a way to live with it in moderation? Do you have to give...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    From what I remember,

    it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace when I do it. I've also noticed that I have started matching my facial expressions to my characters' expressions. I've...
    CandyAcid CandyAcid 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I feel depressed and alone

    when I'm not daydreaming.I dont want to stop but I feel that I should so that I can make more memories with friends instead of being in my mind. but the thing about that is i like my mind way better than real life.
    fortressofgray fortressofgray 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 46 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    Moving to a new country,

    learning a new language, being the odd one out and going to primary with kids I werent familiar with was hard. I was young and naiive and experiences with a new family was mentally and emotionally scarring. I was very naiive but I was young. During those times I didn't really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 16

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