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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I feel like I can only be happy

    if I am successful in making my daydreams come true. But they aren't necessarily realistic. So I fall short. It's frustrating and I feel depressed. But my daydreams never go away & they never change, until I find something else to daydream about. I probably miss out on a lot...
    SirenaVonLee SirenaVonLee 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 40 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I've never had any trauma

    as a child, but I had an overactive imagination and would constantly want to pretend. My mom would tell me to help sweep the floor and I'd say "lets pretend we're sweeping the floor in a castle" etc. when I was about 8, I got a trampoline for my birthday and would jump on it...
    Ebenik Ebenik 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Since around 4th grade,

    I've had characters that I would act with. I created them for a book I wanted to write. I think of myself as the main character, but he isn't completely like me. And he's a "he." I like thinking of complex situations & conversations between the main character & the others. This...
    rpac1199 rpac1199 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have a whole other life in my head

    that I've never told anyone about. This is the first time I've in any way acknowledged it. Unlike many experiences I've read it doesn't involve superpowers or magic or anything impossible. It has a semi-continuous storyline and I go there every day. I've had this little world...
    Dreamingofchange Dreamingofchange 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    Since middle school and

    before entering high school, this problem has caused me a lot of social pains. I have trouble socializing, even having conversations. My school grades suffer because I have hardly any motivation to stay in reality, and it's sometimes hard to focus. Withdraw symptoms are...
    OperaG OperaG 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    My Shelter And Damnation, Pt 1

    I must warn you, it is a long story. I have just recently realized how deep down I have buried myself. Hard to believe that the very same thing I have done to keep myself safe; was actually worsening everything else for me. I am pretty convinced that I suffer from Avoidant...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    My Fantasy World

                I'm a 16 year old girl.          My day dreaming days began when I was around 11 or 10 years old. For me, it was always a form of escape from my life. I suppose I'm too imaginative. At first, I read Harry Potter and fell in love with the books. I tried...
    fromdaydreamland fromdaydreamland 16-17 6 Responses Jul 28, 2011

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Life Inside My Head!

    I have been daydreaming from before I can remember, I mean probably when I first started school at 4/5 if not before that. I am now 20 years old and in university. Its like a entire movie/novel and it has been the same story on going from ever since. As I get older and understand...
    imaddicted imaddicted 18-21, F 25 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I don't remember how

    or when I started daydreaming. I just know that it had always been this way. I find it hard to pay attention in class or get my school work done. I often find myself late for work or school because of how much I daydream. I had no idea that anyone else suffered from this, or...
    MsGardevoir MsGardevoir 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I didn't realise that this was "A thing"

    until today. I've been daydreaming excessively since I was about 13 years old and it always revolves around a book, movie or tv show, where I create my own character to fit into the storyline. I must have dozens of different characters by this point, but as soon as I pick up...
    aderyn42 aderyn42 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    Here is how o broke free from this addiction.

    Yes, you can stop it. I did. I had a severe case of malladaptive daydreaming. I could literally spend the entire day with headphones on, listening to music and imagining i was some rockstar or whatever else you can associate with recognition, fame, acceptance and the things that...
    Finalcut123 Finalcut123 41-45 4 Responses Jan 29

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    I just found out about MD.

    ... I googled "stuck in my daydreams" hoping for answers, and I found this... reading articles on it, I was like, I fit this to a "T"... I talked to my husband about it, his response was that he had never seen me "in my own world" and that's because when he is here, I have...
    Cass1991 Cass1991 22-25 1 Response Oct 25

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    Looking other people with MD to talk to.

    I've had it my whole life and just began learning about it. I'm just glad I'm not the only person who does this.
    Jtruant Jtruant 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    The Truth about Wildminds Ning Network

    I had been a member in this community for over 2 years and I was recently suspended for reasons that does not make any sense. I did not break any rules but guess what I have mental health issues and need support and I got suspended from a support community! Does this make sense...
    AlexDreamsItAway AlexDreamsItAway 22-25 4 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    Depression Leads To Md?

    I've always been shy, mainly because I have almost always been alone and I'm scared of people. When I was younger, I was left alone because I was independent, whereas my brother always needed attention. Most people avoided me in elementary and such, so I started daydreaming...
    PansMusicBox PansMusicBox 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2012

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    I am eighteen years old.

    I have lived one hell of a life I guess you could say, but most of those distraught memories are clothed over by my daydreams. It seems all too hazy, the reality and fantasy jumbled together like scrabble letters waiting to form words. I have had maladaptive daydreaming for as...
    blitzd blitzd 18-21, F Dec 25, 2013

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    I think I have this issue.

    I just learned about it online so I know that may not be the most reliable source. But I day dream constantly and play out situations in my mind. It is absolutely exhausting. I feel like I'm the only one with this problem.
    ksgirl11 ksgirl11 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 9

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    I want to experience a real relationship with

    someone instead of dreaming it. I came somewhat close to it once. It felt super awesome. But when he graduated, I didn't want to let that feeling go. I love the way I felt during that time. So...I started daydreaming about him, even after he left, even after he clearly friend...
    Rosethewolf Rosethewolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 16-17 3 Responses Apr 25

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    Maladaptive Disorder

    I'm so glad to have found a name for this. Ever since me and my childhood best friend created a game of "it" where we would pretend to be 20 years old with perfect lives, perfect boyfriends, perfect everything. I was about six at the time and we used to make up stories and act...
    Paulinana Paulinana 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2013

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    this is the first time i am about to share my

    daydreaming experience.i am from India i don't know exactly when i started daydreaming but i enjoyed it allot as it took me to a fantasy world where there is no one who can mock me.i didn't have much friends when i was i child and i still don't then to cope up I created my...
    nav287 nav287 16-17 1 Response Oct 25

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    I never even thought

    that there was a name for it. All I can ever remember is doing this. I will play out these different stories in my head and it always has to do with changing myself. I mean I'm not happy with my life, and I never told anyone that. so that's probably the reason why all I think...
    jhenson19 jhenson19 22-25, M Oct 23

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    I daydream excessively.

    They aren't just short daydreams either. I go on for days with the same story going on in my mind. It's always the same people I daydream about too. Not people who I know personally, it's usually celebrities or fictional characters from a tv show or movie. It's like I place...
    jessyjessxx jessyjessxx 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 24

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    I guess it started when I was 4/5 years old,

    my parents bought me a trampoline and I just made up a character in my head a that point she was the lilac power ranger (i was obsessed with the power rangers) and she saved people. I soon grew out of that but I kept the character and she evolved, along with the whole storyline...
    Theinfernalphoenix2 Theinfernalphoenix2 16-17, F Oct 5

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    Hello, Daydreaming is a stress reliever

    for me but I don't want to feel like I am longing to be someone else. I am also unsure weather I am a maladaptive daydreamer.The dreams always take place at high school and I can only have the daydreams if I am listening to music and walking in circles around my room. They...
    El92 El92 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    Hi.. I actually found about this just

    now .. I never new there is such thing .. but i always had this daydreaming problem .. I honstley don't remember when it started , i guess i'm daydreaming since vey early childhood , I was laways dreaming everything in my life ..almost everything cause me to daydream ,but mostly...
    dewan5 dewan5 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 25

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    mlynnikens mlynnikens 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    I've only recently found out what was wrong

    with me, and it feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my life that there are other people who do this as much as I do. However its still a secret from everyone in my life, I've only mentioned vaguely to a close friend that I 'spin around a lot' and she looked at me with...
    quilladin quilladin 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 4

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    Yo everyone here's like,

    "he's my dream man and I dream of him all the time..." And thats cool and all but it's kinda awkward cause I mostly dream about being a space pirate or a zombie apocalypse survivor I don't even know I have big plans for life
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26

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    All my life this has affected me I am confused

    now because for me it was always a good thing, not a bad thing. I can hear a song or see a nice movie and vibrant images will pop into my head that will correspond to the stories I make. When I was younger these would be made up but now they have gotten more sophisticated and...
    Axelarate Axelarate 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    Just found out about this.

    It's nice to know I'm not crazy. Personally, I have a love/hate relationship with this excessive daydreaming. It's too damn addictive. I hate how much I depend on it to feel calm, but then again.. I love the comfort it gives me. I don't know when I started with it, as long as...
    EiramZaid EiramZaid 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 20

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17

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    I only found about me having this like a year

    ago. I only started doing something to help me control it in someway. But i will be honest....Before i found out about what this was...I didn't care about myself...about my life...about others....I grew up with this...lived every single day with this...talking to people in my...
    Rosethewolf Rosethewolf 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 25

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    I have been doing this

    as long as i can remember. i've always felt i was particularly typical as far as creativity but the speed that i go into and the complexity of my daydreams is uncanny. i also dont do well with social situations. id rather stay home, i put things off constantly . like gong to...
    lorn123 lorn123 31-35, F Sep 29

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    I've done this for as long

    as I can remember. I think it started when my parents found out about my older sister's drug problem. They spent so much time concentrating on her that I would daydream about spending time with my deceased grandmother. It would usually end when I started crying. I still do it...
    lovedaria lovedaria 26-30, F Oct 24

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    I've been dealing with this thing

    for quite some time, and I have to say that its a relief knowing that it at least has a name. And just so you know, I'm MDing even now. MD has been both good and bad for me. Its been good because I can work out solutions to problems (I'm a programmer) that most people can't...
    dddreamer dddreamer 26-30, M Oct 27

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    I have been noticing lately

    that I am daydreaming a lot, but now that I read more on MD, I think I definitely suffer from it. I have been daydreaming a lot as a child (I was an only child), but now I'm at university and my daydreaming is still as strong. I have basically created different lives for myself...
    morningbird morningbird 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    How young did you start daydreaming intensely?

    Did it start in order to cope with some sort of trauma? What do you do physically when you're dd'ing? I dd'd for as long as I can remember. From 3ish until I was about 21. I can't remember, honestly, what triggered it, if anything. I don't know if it's the product of repressed...
    Jtruant Jtruant 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 28, 2012