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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I recently reincorporated characters I had

    as a middle schooler into my current dreams I have now in my 20s. I want them to be real. Sometimes these characters do bad things or hurt me but it is always in a reconciable way. They always care for me. That is my theme since childhood.
    escape2015 escape2015 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2015

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    My life has always been a complete

    rollercoaster. I am a 19 year old freshman in college, who wants to major in graphic arts. I have Asperger syndrome, Bipolar, ADHD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I found out that I have MD about a month ago, but I refused to fully acknowledge it until now. I just saw my...
    Triomatix Triomatix 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I have been daydreaming

    since I was 4 , people have saw me laughing alone and doing weird stuff , I day dream that I'm one of the charachters in my favorite novel , and that I have his friends and his life , the problem is that I cant control it and I cant stop daydreaming at my classes I really wanna...
    yazedwaked yazedwaked 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    I have made up hundreds of characters in my

    head. I sometimes write pages and pages of notes about them. They all belong to little stories. I also let lengthy conversations play out in my head, with real people. Conversations that never come close to happening, but seem so real. I'll zone out thinking about when I die too...
    theairisfullofspices theairisfullofspices 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13, 2015

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    I just realize that I have MD.

    I've had since I was younger but I just really started to notice it now. This one day I was on my social media account and I came across this male r&b singer at first I thought he was just attractive but I started to watch interviews and I learned about his story and it...
    queenofhearts1 queenofhearts1 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

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    Hi fellow dreamers! I am a maladaptive

    daydreamer and have decided it no longer belongs in my life. I am using a combination of Buddhism and a 12-step recovery approach to completely eliminate it. I fully understand this approach does not make sense for everyone. But I would love to connect with other MD'ers who...
    BuddhistAddict BuddhistAddict 26-30 4 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    I have a dream world

    that I pretty much live by. Everything I do daily makes me think of scenarios that might happen there. The world I've created even has main characters that feel real to me. I know every detail about them and I'm in love with one of them. In this dream world, I'm an orphan who's...
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 9, 2015

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    I have been daydreaming

    for as long as i remember. I daydream about a character from a book or tv show that i am currently watching. I add my own backstory or create new stories based off of them. Like fanfiction only without the writing. I have many of these daydreams with different characters and...
    Sparky90 Sparky90 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    Hi my name is Ella and I'm 16 I've been

    daydreaming since I was 6/7 I think, it has gotten really hard now! It's the same story since I was 10 and as I get older it gets more challenging): I have this one person in my daydreams his name is David and I am so in love with him I have daydreamed about him making love to...
    LoveTheSongWhoThatGirl LoveTheSongWhoThatGirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 49 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    Im 46 years old and I have just started

    researching what I thought was unique to me but I am happy to hear I am not the only one. I have done this since I was about 10 years old. Its mostly when I listen on headphones to music, I used to pull up a chair to my parents stereo and then imagine myself being a popstar and...
    kallais kallais 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2015

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    I'm somewhat thinking of writing my daydream

    down. The only problem is that I change my dream so much I don't think I would ever be done writing. I also cannot keep up with it enough to write it down.... I'm also quite afraid of what others would say about it, my daydream is really messed up and even scares me sometimes...
    CosmicPoison CosmicPoison 16-17, F Jan 2

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    Hey All I have suffered with this condition

    since I was 7 years old so about 21 years of my life. I have seen countless therapist and psychologist but no one seems to understand. I wish whoever makes the rules on psychological/mental illness would realize that this is a real problem and set forth a real plan to help those...
    indarican indarican 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    I love the way their always there

    when you need them. I love the way he knows when I'm upset. I love how he's always there when nobody else is. I love how he will make me open up, he won't let me die silently. He will put a smile on my face. Make me feel like I'm his everything. I love how he makes my...
    Simsy1903 Simsy1903 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2015

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I've always kind of had a problem with zoning

    out into day dreams, as long as I can remember. I created a small world in my mind based off a book series I love that has ended. I created my own character that is like me, but better. She's got black hair and eyes (completely unlike myself) with her own backstory, not to...
    Musicislife03 Musicislife03 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2015

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    This is my story. I've been a constant

    Daydreamer since I was born. As a kid my family would catch me daydreaming and make fun of me, if they were in a good mood. But it was also hard for me to take directions. My mother would always get angry at me whenever I could not follow her directions. She would scold me...
    slothtolerance slothtolerance 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I suffer from Maladaptive Daydreaming.

    It actually has a name. Until now I just called it my "overactive imagination about epic tales of cool characters from books, movies, and stuff". I guess MDD sounds better. I never noticed my day dreaming tendencies until a few days which made me Google if it was normal. Turns...
    Falloutgirl98 Falloutgirl98 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2015

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    Hello, I just joined this website to be a part

    of this group specifically. I have had MD since I was 7 but didn't know that the term MD existed until about half a year ago. I've never spoken with another person with MD and am excited to learn more about the community. I'd be happy to share my experiences with anyone / chat...
    reveriesky reveriesky 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2015

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 16 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    Quitting MDD - my story Hi friends!

    I posted about quitting MDD a couple months ago and just wanted to give everyone an update and offer whatever help I can. I have been working on recovering from MDD for the past several months and have not done it at all in over a month now. I don't want to give the...
    BuddhistAddict BuddhistAddict 26-30 1 day ago

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    I am a transgender man.

    I also suffer from Maladaptive Daydreaming, but I'm glad that I do because without it, I would have never come to terms with my gender identity. Ever since I remember, I have day dreamed about a single man. There have been other characters, too, but he was always present no...
    bestbeeber bestbeeber 13-15, T Nov 1, 2015

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    Yep. Looking at this from an addiction angle

    and it really seems to be helping. Going to sex/love addicts anonymous (they address fantasy as well) and the Buddhist addiction program refuge recovery. Anyone else taking this approach? Peace, love, and healing to you all.
    BuddhistAddict BuddhistAddict 26-30 2 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    My Fantasy World

                I'm a 16 year old girl.          My day dreaming days began when I was around 11 or 10 years old. For me, it was always a form of escape from my life. I suppose I'm too imaginative. At first, I read Harry Potter and fell in love with the books. I tried...
    fromdaydreamland fromdaydreamland 16-17 6 Responses Jul 28, 2011

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 2 Responses May 30, 2015

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    So this is going to be really long,

    but I've never shared it before, even to a friend, and I really wanna just get it all out there. I'd love to chat with anyone who's had a similar experience. I learned that what I suffer from is MD (it actually has a name! I don't know if I'm relieved or freaked out) about an...
    Sibbygrey Sibbygrey 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 5, 2015

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    So... I'm just going to write truthfully about

    my experience because I've never told anyone. This is going to be long. I suffer from MDD, obviously. I've had this about three years and I spend between 60 and 90% of my waking time in a daydream every day without exception. I have tried many times to quit but I've always been...
    d1sc0rdant d1sc0rdant 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I first found the term Maladaptive daydreaming

    from a site called reddit, when the question was asked "What Google search changed your life?" A user linked multiple sources on what Maladaptive daydreaming is. I've been doing this for as long as I can remember. From me fantasizing being a character in one of my favourite TV...
    LegendOf7 LegendOf7 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I wouldn't really say suffer.

    I love my daydreams. I'd rather be a professional assassin, a queen, a noblewoman.
    DaydreamGirl25 DaydreamGirl25 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2015

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I have been day dreaming

    since I was three years old. I think I even remember it started when I was watching a movie and I began making up fantasies involving the characters from it in my head and it grew from there. I used to call it "cartoon thinking" and I even tried describing it to my Mom once, but...
    Lauraverne Lauraverne 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3, 2015

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2015

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    My maladaptive daydreaming story is pretty long

    and I can never finish writing it because its so so painful sometimes just think about. I hate that I have it. I'm in the US looking for someone to talk about their experience :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2015

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    Daydreaming has been constant

    and uncontrollable for me since elementary school. There are times when I'm overjoyed that I have the ability to withdraw from reality so easily and times when I become extremely critical of this part of myself. Does maladaptive daydreaming disorder ever go away, or will I...
    ThisKris ThisKris 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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