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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 46 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    I didn't realise there was a name

    for it but this sounds about right to describe something I've done for most of my life. I don't "suffer" from it...in fact I rather enjoy it :D Nobody gets hurt and frankly I have bigger things to worry about so I'm allowing myself the escape from reality for now.
    Nenmir Nenmir 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 5

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I have a dream world

    that I pretty much live by. Everything I do daily makes me think of scenarios that might happen there. The world I've created even has main characters that feel real to me. I know every detail about them and I'm in love with one of them. In this dream world, I'm an orphan who's...
    Outline Outline 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams.

    Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times I've created vivid worlds that are entirely my own. I've always considered this ability as a gift; even a gloomy and dull moment can be...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 14 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    From what I remember,

    it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace when I do it. I've also noticed that I have started matching my facial expressions to my characters' expressions. I've...
    CandyAcid CandyAcid 16-17, F Jul 18

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Feb 24

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    I knew it was I thing I always did

    but I just didn't know it had a name until a few hours ago. Since I was about 5 years old I always made up scenarios and created this world in my head. I would pretend to be a character and make up a whole bunch of different people for them to interact with ((sometimes I would...
    RussianMatryoshkaDoll RussianMatryoshkaDoll 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    Well, not anymore. This is my journey to

    freedom. (and it can be yours too) Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I shall give you rest. I want to say I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to be trapped in slavery to yourself, to your own imagination. Everyone here knows what I’m talking about...
    thisissarah thisissarah 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I never really thought

    that this is a thing. I thought it's a part of my personality. People usually talk to me and I respond with ''sorry I'm making a story in my head now'' heh.. I have this since... since I can remember myself, but now it's happening way more often, actually, it happens all the...
    Emi1453 Emi1453 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    Interesting experience: I don't know

    if I was dreaming or hallucinating, but I woke up and rolled over and I saw my boyfriend that's in my daydreams laying next to me in bed. This didn't strike me as bizarre, even though I sleep alone, instead I took the opportunity to feel him for the first time in real life. I...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I've been reading articles about this,

    and I keep thinking to myself that I actually do suffer from it. I have been talking to close family members and friends about this, and nothing has been working. So here I will share my whole experience for the first time. I think this daydreaming has started when I was...
    alaniW180 alaniW180 13-15 Jul 3

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    I feel depressed and alone

    when I'm not daydreaming.I dont want to stop but I feel that I should so that I can make more memories with friends instead of being in my mind. but the thing about that is i like my mind way better than real life.
    fortressofgray fortressofgray 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I wouldn't say I suffer from this.

    I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told them I had this, but they finally did and it feels great to know that they know about this. There is only one problem, I have nobody to...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm looking for support from someone

    who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it makes me feel happy. But at the same time I really want to stop. It's consumed too much of my time and has distracted me from what I...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Well, I think I do suffer from this

    and I really need some advice.. It's like a different place like a story and I don't know why I have or might have this. I guess since I read/draw/write/Roleplay I can't really stop myself from day dreaming if I am just listening to music not even wanting to day dream it'll...
    Elizabeth1123 Elizabeth1123 13-15, F Jul 3

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    I'm completely addicted to the chemicals my

    brain produces in response to the emotions I generate while daydreaming. It's been 30 years of this and while the circumstances, places and situations, supporting characters etc of my daydreams have evolved as I've matured emotionally and experienced more... well, life...I find...
    rajelle rajelle 41-45, F Jul 5

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    My daydreams get really extreme sometimes.

    .. It started since I was 8 8/9 years old. Sometimes I have to get dressed and look good in real life to feel good in my daydream and I get really annoyed if anyone distracts me.. I don't sleep until I can in my scenario. I don't mind the scenarios as they make me feel better but...
    EmmZeeOx EmmZeeOx 18-21, F Jul 19

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    I triggered to daydream

    when my pointer finger met my thumb. I was thinking but when these finger get in touch, I started a daydream and it couldn't stop when I got caught in an incredible story.I procrastinate. I hate it. I want to change because If I haven't waste hours of my spare time just to...
    iChange iChange 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've been depressed since I was a kid everyday

    I feel closer and closer to ending it but MDD pulls me back escaping into my own world is all I have. I know it sounds crazy but believing I can be someone else someone beautiful, talented, and smart is the only thing keeping me up these days. If I lose my world I fear I'll lose...
    xscarletknight xscarletknight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I don't see my excessive daydreaming

    as an issue. I've read that many people who experience maladaptive daydreaming consider it to be a bad or a difficult thing, but personally I love it and couldn't live without it. Obviously I can distinct what's real and what's in my mind, but the worlds that I create in my...
    NadaCei NadaCei 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I day dream to the point

    where it intrudes on my life. I have conversations with people and am only half there. I have trouble with tasks and relationships. I feel depressed all the time because of it. I daydream constantly. and it gets worse when I feel emotional turmoil. over the years I formed an...
    Stephenwashere92 Stephenwashere92 22-25, M Jul 2

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I think the worst part is I can't tell anyone

    about it. I've brought it up to my mom once and she just chuckled and didn't take me seriously... That was the first and last time I've ever brought it up to someone. I'm also an insomniac so at night I lay in bed and just dream of my second life. Everyone knows I'm an insomniac...
    Outline Outline 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I did not know that there is a word

    for this, or that other people had it, until yesterday. I am a writer, and I am afraid that if I stop I won't be able to write anymore. I am looking forward to meeting others and learning from their experiences. Is there a way to live with it in moderation? Do you have to give...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I think I do, anyway.

    I daydream so much that I just had accepted that I would always have these elaborate fantasies in my head. I'm so glad that there's now a name for this :)
    cuttergurl56 cuttergurl56 13-15, F Jun 30

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    It's so hard to focus on anything.

    I just want to run around my room with music and daydream 24/7. I hate doing anything that doesn't allow me to do that, and MD is causing me to be anti-social in real life. I also don't eat enough. I'd rather daydream than eat. The only TV shows that I can actually watch and pay...
    0emma0 0emma0 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I've been daydreaming ever

    since childhood, and if I stop it makes me become more depressed than I already am. I used to have different ones, but over time I've dulled it down into one. For me, I'm the main character, I'm emotionally attached to the characters, my facial expressions will chance, I'll tend...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F Jul 7

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    Being abused by my mom ,

    mentally and psychically , and being neglected , and seldomly only having my brother to play with , lead me to maladaptive daydreaming , but ofc at the time I didn't know that's what I was actually doing . Again "talking to myself"'started when I began to play with my toys . But...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I think I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming.

    but, I don't know really. I Just graduated from high school actually, but seldom was there a day that I didn't daydream in class. tests, studying, basic lectures that I actually enjoyed, I was always thinking of something else. My senior year, whether it was maladaptive...
    Lucario89 Lucario89 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my

    escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in reference to behavior patterns, 'normal' means healthy and non-destructive. I emphasize this because one could live in a society where it is a standard...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F Jul 22

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