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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I've daydreamed as long

    as I can remember. I've recently told my wife about it but she's been the only person I've ever talked about it with. I'm not entirely sure all the ways it effects me and my relationships but I'm glad to be thinking and talking about it for the first time. I am curious if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    I hate the fact that I am suffering from MD.

    Its constantly interfering with my actual life.I prefer to stay in my imaginative world rather than my real world and this is destroying my life.
    pin97 pin97 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I'm now in therapy and I shared

    that I do maladaptive daydreaming. I learned that it is a coping mechanism I acquired related to childhood issues I had. Did you all know this is a form of dissociative identity disorder. Don't freak out :) it's definitely not the same, seeing that we are able to differentiate...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 1 Response May 21

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    I am 16 and I've lost my mom at 7 ,

    my dad didn't want me. I am mixed so once my mom died i lived with the white side of my family on that side I have 2 cousins I'm very close to but the are the favorites so I've always felt kind of neglected. When I dream I dream of being rich As f*** Nfl Player with all the...
    OgGamer782 OgGamer782 16-17, M 2 Responses May 5

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    I have a hard time explaining this.

    so be ready. I've been a Maladaptive Daydreamer since I was about... 9 or 10. I went through a lot of trauma when I was young, and it left a huge dent mentally. maladaptive daydreaming being one of those dents. when I first started daydreaming, I was pretty screwed up. so...
    fallenangel0421 fallenangel0421 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Hi, I'm a teenager and I've had been

    Maladaptive daydreaming for around 3 years now. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so emotionally attached to my characters that I get almost panic attacks when I realize that they are not real and that I can't get to them. I feel like my characters are my family and I've...
    Evelyn1Jacobs Evelyn1Jacobs 31-35, F Apr 19

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    I just realized few days ago

    that what I have been suffering from for years has a name ,I have been experiencing the symptoms since I was 5 I didn't know what exactly it is but it has been consuming my life I have wasted so much time gained so weight and I started to lose my identity it's great to know...
    NouraAh NouraAh 26-30, F 2 Responses May 12

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    This is very hard to post

    and admit, but I think this is something that I have experienced since very young. I am six years younger than my brother and sister, and as a VERY imaginative and creative child, I was able to figure out ways to play by myself without becoming lonely, by creating imaginary...
    edgarkitty edgarkitty 36-40, F 1 Response May 1

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I like to daydream sometimes

    but other times it hurts me emotionally and it scares me sometimes, but I don't want help. I don't want my family or friends to know, I want to keep it to myself but I also want help. I just can't I don't know y but I feel so many emotions every day and it makes me feel crazy...
    KawaiiKiwi1018 KawaiiKiwi1018 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I never expected to discover there is a term

    for what I have been experiencing since my earliest age I can recall. I have always felt intensely protective of my daydreaming, as if it were so strongly attached to my being that if I were to divulge it to anyone my imagination would be torn away and my life would unravel...
    rattikin rattikin 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I didn't even know MD was a thing

    until I Googled "I'm obsessed with my original characters" after a four day long daydreaming binge. I was always an imaginative, creative child with a gift for art. I loved to draw characters from my favourite computer games and TV shows, and to create fancharacters whom I...
    clementine86 clementine86 26-30 1 Response Apr 17

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    Firstly, i'm really sorry about my

    english:PIt's just that i had to google it my symptoms and it led me here, it really feels home:) I'm happy that i'm not the only one who suffers from MDD.I've been like this for the past 15years and i still can't stop it. Thank you for sharing your stories, it helps a lot.:)
    Cherryblossomdays Cherryblossomdays 22-25, F 1 Response May 25

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 46 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I always knew it was weird.

    It started when I was 11. I can't make up my own characters so I use movies, novels, and people from real life. I completely shut myself off, lost all friends, and always stayed in my room so I could daydream. I always find myself pacing, fast if the scene is exciting, slow if...
    WeWereImaginary WeWereImaginary 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 11 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I function properly if I don't dream My family

    has been in chaos for 10 years. I have become a second mother to my two autistic brothers and an exhausted, overworked mother. I was in the 3rd grade when the storm hit and was very confused why it was happening. Mother dated a man who was selfish, pompous, irrational man...
    BrainLoading BrainLoading 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    My daydreaming and "living vicariously through

    fictional characters" really needs to stop. I need to find a way to actually live through reality rather than live in a fantasy world I try to create :(
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am so glad that there is a name to this

    situation and it is not leading me to something else. I have been doing this from my small childhood days where I would pick a movie everyday of my choice and start spinning my own story of how I wish it could have been. I have no clue why I started doing that. Also, I was in...
    eurekahere eurekahere 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I just discovered this today.

    and I absolutely cannot believe that other people do this. I have been going this from as long as I can remember starting in childhood. I was always a very very shy little Girl in school so shy I was afraid to talk in school resulting in my being afraid time even ask for the...
    26telly 26telly 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    sfsan sfsan 18-21 May 22

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I'm not sure if I have MD.

    Hello, so I'm new to this site but have seen it around for quite some time. As I've done random searches on the internet, I came across this and thought I'd share my experience. This story will definitely get personal and dive into more than just the MD traits. I'll start by...
    WardenChult WardenChult 18-21, M Apr 18

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    Hello, I just joined this website to be a part

    of this group specifically. I have had MD since I was 7 but didn't know that the term MD existed until about half a year ago. I've never spoken with another person with MD and am excited to learn more about the community. I'd be happy to share my experiences with anyone / chat...
    reveriesky reveriesky 22-25, F Apr 1

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    Hello. My name is Toni

    and I'm so glad I found this group! I have been reading up on Maladaptive daydreaming for awhile now and have realized I have had this for pretty much my whole life. I have kind of a long story so I apologize in advance:). It's hard to know where to begin...lol. I guess I...
    PurePisces PurePisces 31-35, T 3 hrs ago

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 21

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I have maladaptive daydreaming,

    bipolar, and general anxiety disorders. My bipolar was triggered when I was in 6th grade after I lost a family member to depression. I believe that's when my maladaptive daydreaming was triggered too. Whatever phase of my bipolar I am in, that's the mood or theme that my...
    19MangoTango95 19MangoTango95 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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