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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I've daydreamed as long

    as I can remember. I've recently told my wife about it but she's been the only person I've ever talked about it with. I'm not entirely sure all the ways it effects me and my relationships but I'm glad to be thinking and talking about it for the first time. I am curious if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 21

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    I'm now in therapy and I shared

    that I do maladaptive daydreaming. I learned that it is a coping mechanism I acquired related to childhood issues I had. Did you all know this is a form of dissociative identity disorder. Don't freak out :) it's definitely not the same, seeing that we are able to differentiate...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I just discovered this today.

    and I absolutely cannot believe that other people do this. I have been going this from as long as I can remember starting in childhood. I was always a very very shy little Girl in school so shy I was afraid to talk in school resulting in my being afraid time even ask for the...
    26telly 26telly 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    First of all, I want to thank the person

    who created this group, it's good to not be on your own... I'm grateful that people in this world will listen to me with their attentive ears. Sooo.. Here's my story: I'm someone who has practiced maladaptive daydreaming since I was 7. I remember because I was punished a lot...
    anacastlebeach anacastlebeach 13-15 2 Responses Apr 10

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Feb 24

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I never expected to discover there is a term

    for what I have been experiencing since my earliest age I can recall. I have always felt intensely protective of my daydreaming, as if it were so strongly attached to my being that if I were to divulge it to anyone my imagination would be torn away and my life would unravel...
    rattikin rattikin 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    It's one of the quirks I had

    as an only child. In circumspect, it sounds lovely. The ability to zone out and create wild imaginary objects and beings, to be able to tell crazy stories that kept my friends on their feet. I could play pretend so well, because that's where I was, half of the time when I was...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M May 13

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    sfsan sfsan 18-21 2 days ago

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    I've suffered from maladaptive daydreaming ever

    since I can remember. I'm not really sure why.. Maybe because I've often felt like I'm trapped in the ****** reality of my actual life so I prefer to make up my own ideal world featuring my ideal self. I'm also extremely self-concious (to the point where its seriously affecting...
    ellisbraddock ellisbraddock 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    i have been suffering from MD

    since i was a kid cause my daydreams are way better in my reality. I was shy in school and was bullied. Since I found out about MD I'm trying to fix it so I can live a full life.
    rchristina rchristina 31-35 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I've daydreamed as long

    as I can remember. I've recently told my wife about it but she's been the only person I've ever talked about it with. I'm not entirely sure all the ways it effects me and my relationships but I'm glad to be thinking and talking about it for the first time. I am curious if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    I didn't even know MD was a thing

    until I Googled "I'm obsessed with my original characters" after a four day long daydreaming binge. I was always an imaginative, creative child with a gift for art. I loved to draw characters from my favourite computer games and TV shows, and to create fancharacters whom I...
    clementine86 clementine86 26-30 1 Response Apr 17

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 11 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    I have a hard time explaining this.

    so be ready. I've been a Maladaptive Daydreamer since I was about... 9 or 10. I went through a lot of trauma when I was young, and it left a huge dent mentally. maladaptive daydreaming being one of those dents. when I first started daydreaming, I was pretty screwed up. so...
    fallenangel0421 fallenangel0421 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Hi, I'm a teenager and I've had been

    Maladaptive daydreaming for around 3 years now. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so emotionally attached to my characters that I get almost panic attacks when I realize that they are not real and that I can't get to them. I feel like my characters are my family and I've...
    Evelyn1Jacobs Evelyn1Jacobs 31-35, F Apr 19

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I just realized few days ago

    that what I have been suffering from for years has a name ,I have been experiencing the symptoms since I was 5 I didn't know what exactly it is but it has been consuming my life I have wasted so much time gained so weight and I started to lose my identity it's great to know...
    NouraAh NouraAh 26-30, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I like to daydream sometimes

    but other times it hurts me emotionally and it scares me sometimes, but I don't want help. I don't want my family or friends to know, I want to keep it to myself but I also want help. I just can't I don't know y but I feel so many emotions every day and it makes me feel crazy...
    KawaiiKiwi1018 KawaiiKiwi1018 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I am 16 and I've lost my mom at 7 ,

    my dad didn't want me. I am mixed so once my mom died i lived with the white side of my family on that side I have 2 cousins I'm very close to but the are the favorites so I've always felt kind of neglected. When I dream I dream of being rich As f*** Nfl Player with all the...
    OgGamer782 OgGamer782 16-17, M 2 Responses May 5

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    well...i just realize

    that this is a disorder...i though it was normal ._. but yeah, i don't really live in reality anymore and sometimes i can't say if it actually happend or if i daydream it...now that i think about it i don't know why i though this was normal daydreaming XD
    MichelleKnight MichelleKnight 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I hate the fact that I am suffering from MD.

    Its constantly interfering with my actual life.I prefer to stay in my imaginative world rather than my real world and this is destroying my life.
    pin97 pin97 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I am almost 30 and I am a maladaptive

    daydreamer. For the longest time I'd never heard of this. I had a complete moment of disbelief, thinking,"There's a NAME for it?!" It really began for me around age 14 or 15. I had always been able to escape through books and in particular, comic books. I admired the strong...
    theforeverstory theforeverstory 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    ....Never could I have guessed

    that I had that... But the more I researched it, the more it made sense. Holy crap... I might just be suffering from maladaptive Daydreaming. Hell! That would explain the daydreaming for the longest periods of time (half an hour to 1h, without even noticing). The constant...
    jlove987 jlove987 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    This is very hard to post

    and admit, but I think this is something that I have experienced since very young. I am six years younger than my brother and sister, and as a VERY imaginative and creative child, I was able to figure out ways to play by myself without becoming lonely, by creating imaginary...
    edgarkitty edgarkitty 36-40, F 1 Response May 1

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Well I wouldn't say that I suffer

    or anything... I actually enjoy it. I find it highly entertaining and it gives me a lot of ideas and inspiration for art, music, stories... Besides... the outside world can be as boring as hell at times.
    TrippingKitty TrippingKitty 26-30 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I did not have any idea this was a real

    disorder. Anyway, for many, many years, I've delved into the deep recesses of my mind to escape from my situations and reality. If I were to take a guess, I'd say this started in 5th grade, when I was getting bullied everyday. I thought of constant situations or things to say...
    GizmoFox GizmoFox 13-15, T 1 day ago

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    Well not so much anymore,

    ive been MD since I was 5yrs old I'm now 22 I decided to try and shut it down as much as possible shortly after my 21st bday and I have discovered so many ways of controlling it and one of those ways is to be surrounded by people in some form or another, I guess the fear of...
    soNORM soNORM 22-25 3 Responses May 11

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