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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I don't see my excessive daydreaming

    as an issue. I've read that many people who experience maladaptive daydreaming consider it to be a bad or a difficult thing, but personally I love it and couldn't live without it. Obviously I can distinct what's real and what's in my mind, but the worlds that I create in my...
    NadaCei NadaCei 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    I hate watching sad things cause it makes me

    want to make sad daydreams. So recently i watched JTs death on degrassi and this made me sad. Since i was sad, i added on to a recent daydrean that ive been adding on to forever. But it was sad. Im not sure if anyone saw my previous post but in this story i have had for a while...
    imskyhiii imskyhiii 16-17, F Aug 2

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    I'd love to know about other people's dreams.

    It's amazing what people can do with their imagination.
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams.

    Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times I've created vivid worlds that are entirely my own. I've always considered this ability as a gift; even a gloomy and dull moment can be...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I started getting bullied in 7th grade.

    I already have an extremely vivid imagination, and I started making up a new life in my head, pretending I was someone else. I made up many different characters, with complex lives. I still do this today, it kinda stuck with me.
    Caricature1 Caricature1 70+, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 48 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I've been daydreaming ever

    since childhood, and if I stop it makes me become more depressed than I already am. I used to have different ones, but over time I've dulled it down into one. For me, I'm the main character, I'm emotionally attached to the characters, my facial expressions will chance, I'll tend...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F Jul 7

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    Interesting experience: I don't know

    if I was dreaming or hallucinating, but I woke up and rolled over and I saw my boyfriend that's in my daydreams laying next to me in bed. This didn't strike me as bizarre, even though I sleep alone, instead I took the opportunity to feel him for the first time in real life. I...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Until I discovered this group,

    I didn't know there was a name for what I've always done. As a child, I used to daydream to escape my life. It was the only way for me to feel happy. I had a whole different imaginary world with friends. I'd escape to specific daydreamed moments and re-live those moments again...
    secretlysidhe secretlysidhe 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    There are so many things I daydream about.

    Most of the thought are about me hanging out with different celebrities. Sometimes I hang out with fictional characters or characters I made up. Or I'm winning contests or accomplishing amazing feats.
    IndecisiveDoeEyes IndecisiveDoeEyes 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    I'm looking for support from someone

    who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it makes me feel happy. But at the same time I really want to stop. It's consumed too much of my time and has distracted me from what I...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I think the worst part is I can't tell anyone

    about it. I've brought it up to my mom once and she just chuckled and didn't take me seriously... That was the first and last time I've ever brought it up to someone. I'm also an insomniac so at night I lay in bed and just dream of my second life. Everyone knows I'm an insomniac...
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Everything in my daydreams I feel is happening

    but its not so I feel alone, isolated.. I felt I had a crush on a gay male that was requitted and its not and went along with it a week! I'm a writer. I have a hundred ideas going at once but my only novel is incomplete lol and I'm petrified I won't be successful and become a...
    Ariel555 Ariel555 36-40, F Aug 12

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 15 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Sometimes I try to write down my stories.

    I mean, it couldn't hurt. Maybe someone will actually like them. But, I can't seem to keep up with my mind. It's as if I'm going way too fast in my thoughts for my hands to comprehend it. I also change my story a lot, so I would always be erasing or restarting a scene.
    ItsCandyAcidStuff ItsCandyAcidStuff 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    lovelymaskedbeauty lovelymaskedbeauty 31-35, F Aug 9

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    Well, not anymore. This is my journey to

    freedom. (and it can be yours too) Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I shall give you rest. I want to say I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to be trapped in slavery to yourself, to your own imagination. Everyone here knows what I’m talking about...
    thisissarah thisissarah 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    I'm constantly day-dreaming all day about the

    same thing. I can never let go of my one and only dream! I want to make it a reality but first I need to become a genius...
    DayDreamingVampiress DayDreamingVampiress 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Feb 24

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    I have maladaptive daydreaming

    and I hate it. I drown myself in these weird inner worlds but going nowhere in my life. My dreams are a great departure from life, but I feel so misunderstood like I'm the only one crying, laughing.. I feel completely alone!
    Ariel555 Ariel555 36-40, F Aug 12

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my

    escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in reference to behavior patterns, 'normal' means healthy and non-destructive. I emphasize this because one could live in a society where it is a standard...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F Jul 22

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    So i just looked at this on wikipedia,

    and to my dismay it was like a description of my life. While i don't have any sort of traumatic background, i have always had an overactive imagination which has even seemingly grown since childhood. Perhaps now even, bought on by stress, i seemingly shut out the outside world...
    acode acode 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    I triggered to daydream

    when my pointer finger met my thumb. I was thinking but when these finger get in touch, I started a daydream and it couldn't stop when I got caught in an incredible story.I procrastinate. I hate it. I want to change because If I haven't waste hours of my spare time just to...
    iChange iChange 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I was just scrolling down my Facebook wall

    when I saw a tumblr post about MD, I had never heard about it before. Then I realised I have this! I quickly researched it nad holy crap! Finally I don't feel crazy anymore! My daydreams are like a movie or a book. I always have the same characters. Dana is the main character...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F Aug 13

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    I wouldn't say I suffer from this.

    I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told them I had this, but they finally did and it feels great to know that they know about this. There is only one problem, I have nobody to...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    From what I remember,

    it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace when I do it. I've also noticed that I have started matching my facial expressions to my characters' expressions. I've...