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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Daydreaming my life away I basically live in a

    fantasy world. Some days I'm happy about things that didn't happen. oh well that's how it goes I guess.
    moonlightsonata22 moonlightsonata22 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Maladaptive Disorder

    I'm so glad to have found a name for this. Ever since me and my childhood best friend created a game of "it" where we would pretend to be 20 years old with perfect lives, perfect boyfriends, perfect everything. I was about six at the time and we used to make up stories and act...
    Paulinana Paulinana 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2013

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Feb 24

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    I can't remember when it started

    but it has always been there. When I played with my dolls, when I was trying to sooth myself before bed, when I was taking a long road trip, when I am just home alone. I don't stay in reality and until recently it didn't bother me. Then I stopped wanting to even reply to my...
    DeadWifes DeadWifes 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    ...and It's The Reason For Social Anxiety

    It's hard to talk about a disorder that I didn't know existed until now, but I have had all my life. It has always just been apart of me, or who I am. I can't remember a time when I didn't excessively daydream. When I was little, my parents were too busy to spend time with me. I...
    seungwon seungwon 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2012

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    I suffer from it since childhood days.

    I am a single child of my parents and they had a very abusive relationship and also they were struggling with jobs. Though they never abused me directly during my childhood but they were not there to listen to me to share my joys and sorrow. So I created my world-I guess I was...
    ujjainih ujjainih 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I never expected to discover there is a term

    for what I have been experiencing since my earliest age I can recall. I have always felt intensely protective of my daydreaming, as if it were so strongly attached to my being that if I were to divulge it to anyone my imagination would be torn away and my life would unravel...
    rattikin rattikin 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    The Psychologist suggested

    that my MD ( they didn't have that name for it back then) served a purpose for me or else I would have given it up long ago. She said it was common in someone that had suffered abuse at a very early age. If that is the case I have blocked it out. MD is a stress reliever. It...
    spaceyrick spaceyrick 56-60, M Feb 21

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    My Shelter And Damnation, Pt 1

    I must warn you, it is a long story. I have just recently realized how deep down I have buried myself. Hard to believe that the very same thing I have done to keep myself safe; was actually worsening everything else for me. I am pretty convinced that I suffer from Avoidant...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 21

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Just found out about this a

    while ago, it's kind of relieving to know that I'm not the only one who suffers from this. Daydreaming is basically a part of my life. I don't know how to stop doing it, and I'm afraid to tell my parents about my daydreams because they might think I'm weird.
    blueskyz4 blueskyz4 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    the worst I've noticed is

    when I'm driving alone in traffic. I get bored and start to day dream, its hard to come back when I start...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    Welp, I've just kicked a severe internet

    addiction and now I've spent practically this whole day daydreaming. I'm looking at the symptoms that everyone who has it is describing and I think that I have it too. I have this whole world set up where I can interact with different characters from tv shows and movies...
    skyshade13 skyshade13 18-21 1 Response Jan 31

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    I don't know if what I've been doing would be

    considered Maladaptive Daydreaming because it's not really centered around me. I'll get lost in these worlds centered around a T.V. show I watch called Supernatural, but what happens in my head isn't what happens in the show. I'll think of the characters as real people even...
    Englandsgirl1818 Englandsgirl1818 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    I had this since I was a kid.

    I used to imagine different scenarios and put myself in it the way i wanted. I always could differentiate reality from theses scenarios. I always made sure that no one was around, because sometimes i used to dance or maybe enact something from my favorite superhero movie. I...
    Houuse Houuse 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    Life Inside My Head!

    I have been daydreaming from before I can remember, I mean probably when I first started school at 4/5 if not before that. I am now 20 years old and in university. Its like a entire movie/novel and it has been the same story on going from ever since. As I get older and understand...
    imaddicted imaddicted 18-21, F 28 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I'm from France, near Toulouse.

    Daydreaming my life away, all the time.
    luigi745 luigi745 31-35, M 22 hrs ago

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    I am 14 I suffered anxiety

    for a year and whilst I was in that scary period I use to pretend I was in my favourite band (whilst listening to music)walk up my room and do guitar air jumps (yes I am that sad) also pretend I am a footballer who has won the World Cup. I did it that because it was a escape to...
    Hangirl0024 Hangirl0024 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    I had been doing well the past month

    and now with the stress of exams it is harder and harder to control. I keep going into my head and I waste hours just staring blankly at my books while dreaming when I really should be working. same old story. I'm starting to feel like I'm weak and that it is all my fault I can...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    When I started school,

    i was bullied and no one wanted to be my friend, no one liked me. They always said mean things and i had no self esteem So i made up imaginary friends, and lived in my daydream. I am 15 now, and i cant stop my daydreaming, its like i am addicted to it. Its not that i don't love...
    kitford kitford 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    My Fantasy World

                I'm a 16 year old girl.          My day dreaming days began when I was around 11 or 10 years old. For me, it was always a form of escape from my life. I suppose I'm too imaginative. At first, I read Harry Potter and fell in love with the books. I tried...
    fromdaydreamland fromdaydreamland 16-17 6 Responses Jul 28, 2011

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    So I was just curious,

    where do you all live? I'm from Toronto, Ontario!
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 16-17 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I was seriously abused

    as a child.I started to daydream to cope with my environment and twenty years later I spend most of my day daydreaming. Even when I am talking to other people I daydream that someone else is there as emotional support and comfort. This week I have started trying to force myself...
    abwill314 abwill314 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    I am so relieved to finally put a name to this

    alternate universe that has existed in my mind for as long as i can remember. I have experienced these elaborate daydreams since elementary school. Pacing all over the place acting out my favorite disney movies, and adding my own characters and plots. Im sure my family thought i...
    dunnitz dunnitz 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 10 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    This is a pretty sensitive topic

    for me to talk about, a few days ago i realized that i need all the help i can get. I feel like i started daydreaming when i moved here and people started bullying me. I don't exactly remember how i was feeling at the time considering i was around the age of 8. Around 7th grade...
    jennixlo jennixlo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Here is how o broke free from this addiction.

    Yes, you can stop it. I did. I had a severe case of malladaptive daydreaming. I could literally spend the entire day with headphones on, listening to music and imagining i was some rockstar or whatever else you can associate with recognition, fame, acceptance and the things that...
    Finalcut123 Finalcut123 41-45 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    sal765 sal765 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    I'm 16 and i've had really elaborate daydreams

    very often since i was quite young. I'll be listening to music or sometimes just staring into space and i'll be in my own little world. I sometimes find my leg shaking or my hand making a circular motion, i will also smile, cry or even laugh if something funny happens in the...
    HighlandHeather HighlandHeather 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    I have dealt with MD all my life

    and I can say it probably closed some doors for me. It was impossible to hide. I can daydream about anything at any time. I often zone out during conversations and the person I am talking to can tell I am not there anymore. It has gotten me unwanted attention throughout...
    spaceyrick spaceyrick 56-60, M Feb 21

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    Its getting harder everyday

    and the impulse to daydream is getting bigger since I've tried stopping. My mother and i were never really close considering she was always working and never had time for me. I finally convinced my self that after 9 years, i would tell her that was going on in my world. Why i...
    jennixlo jennixlo 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    i have been daydreaming like this

    for as long as i can remember so i cant really say if it stems from a trauma or some sort of repressed memory but when it happens the dreams are extremely vivid. I have two toys that i move around in each hand to trigger the dreams. I got them when i was 8 and im 17 now i...
    cose cose 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 27

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