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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I just realized few days ago

    that what I have been suffering from for years has a name ,I have been experiencing the symptoms since I was 5 I didn't know what exactly it is but it has been consuming my life I have wasted so much time gained so weight and I started to lose my identity it's great to know...
    NouraAh NouraAh 26-30, F 2 Responses May 12

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    sfsan sfsan 18-21 May 22

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I never expected to discover there is a term

    for what I have been experiencing since my earliest age I can recall. I have always felt intensely protective of my daydreaming, as if it were so strongly attached to my being that if I were to divulge it to anyone my imagination would be torn away and my life would unravel...
    rattikin rattikin 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I've resorted to wearing headphones at work to

    make the fact that I'm constantly mumbling to the people in my head look less insane and more like I'm singing to myself.
    rajelle rajelle 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    It's so hard to focus on anything.

    I just want to run around my room with music and daydream 24/7. I hate doing anything that doesn't allow me to do that, and MD is causing me to be anti-social in real life. I also don't eat enough. I'd rather daydream than eat. The only TV shows that I can actually watch and pay...
    0emma0 0emma0 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Where do I start,... From

    since I was a teenage I would talk to myself and make up stories. At times when I am very lonely or stress my stories have helped me to relax and not think about my problems...but I think my dreaming/talking to myself has become an addiction, one I can't stop or control when I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 7

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I wouldn't say suffer,

    I'm kinda getting used to controlling it sometimes. It feels like a movie playing in your head everyday. I'm not saying it's good nor am I saying it's bad. But it's very annoying sometime when you'd like to focus.
    DangerouslyMe DangerouslyMe 16-17, F Jun 13

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I have maladaptive daydreaming,

    bipolar, and general anxiety disorders. My bipolar was triggered when I was in 6th grade after I lost a family member to depression. I believe that's when my maladaptive daydreaming was triggered too. Whatever phase of my bipolar I am in, that's the mood or theme that my...
    19MangoTango95 19MangoTango95 18-21, F May 31

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I'm now in therapy and I shared

    that I do maladaptive daydreaming. I learned that it is a coping mechanism I acquired related to childhood issues I had. Did you all know this is a form of dissociative identity disorder. Don't freak out :) it's definitely not the same, seeing that we are able to differentiate...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 1 Response May 21

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 21

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    I did not have any idea this was a real

    disorder. Anyway, for many, many years, I've delved into the deep recesses of my mind to escape from my situations and reality. If I were to take a guess, I'd say this started in 5th grade, when I was getting bullied everyday. I thought of constant situations or things to say...
    GizmoFox GizmoFox 13-15, T 2 Responses May 24

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I am so glad that there is a name to this

    situation and it is not leading me to something else. I have been doing this from my small childhood days where I would pick a movie everyday of my choice and start spinning my own story of how I wish it could have been. I have no clue why I started doing that. Also, I was in...
    eurekahere eurekahere 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    Impatient, but also very nervous about joining

    Wild Minds network. (If the post is TL,DR for you, I'm incredibly worried about the single moderator situation at that site, and want to know what other people's experiences with this site are.) I've been waiting for almost a month to be accepted into the site, and I've some...
    Felsie Felsie 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 11

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    My daydreaming and "living vicariously through

    fictional characters" really needs to stop. I need to find a way to actually live through reality rather than live in a fantasy world I try to create :(
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    It's one of the quirks I had

    as an only child. In circumspect, it sounds lovely. The ability to zone out and create wild imaginary objects and beings, to be able to tell crazy stories that kept my friends on their feet. I could play pretend so well, because that's where I was, half of the time when I was...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 61-65, M May 13

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    Firstly, i'm really sorry about my

    english:PIt's just that i had to google it my symptoms and it led me here, it really feels home:) I'm happy that i'm not the only one who suffers from MDD.I've been like this for the past 15years and i still can't stop it. Thank you for sharing your stories, it helps a lot.:)
    Cherryblossomdays Cherryblossomdays 22-25, F 1 Response May 25

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    I've daydreamed as long

    as I can remember. I've recently told my wife about it but she's been the only person I've ever talked about it with. I'm not entirely sure all the ways it effects me and my relationships but I'm glad to be thinking and talking about it for the first time. I am curious if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 46 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I think I do, anyway.

    I daydream so much that I just had accepted that I would always have these elaborate fantasies in my head. I'm so glad that there's now a name for this :)
    cuttergurl56 cuttergurl56 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I've been depressed since I was a kid everyday

    I feel closer and closer to ending it but MDD pulls me back escaping into my own world is all I have. I know it sounds crazy but believing I can be someone else someone beautiful, talented, and smart is the only thing keeping me up these days. If I lose my world I fear I'll lose...
    xscarletknight xscarletknight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I never really thought

    that this is a thing. I thought it's a part of my personality. People usually talk to me and I respond with ''sorry I'm making a story in my head now'' heh.. I have this since... since I can remember myself, but now it's happening way more often, actually, it happens all the...
    Emi1453 Emi1453 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 12 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I day dream to the point

    where it intrudes on my life. I have conversations with people and am only half there. I have trouble with tasks and relationships. I feel depressed all the time because of it. I daydream constantly. and it gets worse when I feel emotional turmoil. over the years I formed an...
    Stephenwashere92 Stephenwashere92 22-25, M 12 hrs ago

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Feb 24

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    I have a dream world

    that I pretty much live by. Everything I do daily makes me think of scenarios that might happen there. The world I've created even has main characters that feel real to me. I know every detail about them and I'm in love with one of them. In this dream world, I'm an orphan who's...
    Outline Outline 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 9

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    I've daydreamed as long

    as I can remember. I've recently told my wife about it but she's been the only person I've ever talked about it with. I'm not entirely sure all the ways it effects me and my relationships but I'm glad to be thinking and talking about it for the first time. I am curious if...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    I just discovered this today.

    and I absolutely cannot believe that other people do this. I have been going this from as long as I can remember starting in childhood. I was always a very very shy little Girl in school so shy I was afraid to talk in school resulting in my being afraid time even ask for the...
    26telly 26telly 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    Moving to a new country,

    learning a new language, being the odd one out and going to primary with kids I werent familiar with was hard. I was young and naiive and experiences with a new family was mentally and emotionally scarring. I was very naiive but I was young. During those times I didn't really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 16

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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