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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I've been daydreaming ever

    since childhood, and if I stop it makes me become more depressed than I already am. I used to have different ones, but over time I've dulled it down into one. For me, I'm the main character, I'm emotionally attached to the characters, my facial expressions will chance, I'll tend...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    I'm completely addicted to the chemicals my

    brain produces in response to the emotions I generate while daydreaming. It's been 30 years of this and while the circumstances, places and situations, supporting characters etc of my daydreams have evolved as I've matured emotionally and experienced more... well, life...I find...
    rajelle rajelle 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I've been depressed since I was a kid everyday

    I feel closer and closer to ending it but MDD pulls me back escaping into my own world is all I have. I know it sounds crazy but believing I can be someone else someone beautiful, talented, and smart is the only thing keeping me up these days. If I lose my world I fear I'll lose...
    xscarletknight xscarletknight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    It's the same old story,

    I try to stop, I fail, I feel like crap because I lose hours and I still have to try to stop because the alternative is worse. I had some success, I was doing good, I was happier, dreaming less and then something triggered it again. I'm frustrated, stressed out and tired of...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F Jun 7

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    I day dream to the point

    where it intrudes on my life. I have conversations with people and am only half there. I have trouble with tasks and relationships. I feel depressed all the time because of it. I daydream constantly. and it gets worse when I feel emotional turmoil. over the years I formed an...
    Stephenwashere92 Stephenwashere92 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Where do I start,... From

    since I was a teenage I would talk to myself and make up stories. At times when I am very lonely or stress my stories have helped me to relax and not think about my problems...but I think my dreaming/talking to myself has become an addiction, one I can't stop or control when I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 7

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    My daydreaming and "living vicariously through

    fictional characters" really needs to stop. I need to find a way to actually live through reality rather than live in a fantasy world I try to create :(
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I've always been in denial of experiencing this.

    I recently just discovered the term for this condition and I was happy to find out that I wasn't the only one. I ALWAYS daydream when I'm listening to music (usually when I'm alone). I often go to the bathroom or any empty room in my house and walk back and forth in there and...
    ilrd ilrd 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    Well, I think I do suffer from this

    and I really need some advice.. It's like a different place like a story and I don't know why I have or might have this. I guess since I read/draw/write/Roleplay I can't really stop myself from day dreaming if I am just listening to music not even wanting to day dream it'll...
    Elizabeth1123 Elizabeth1123 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    Hello. My name is Toni

    and I'm so glad I found this group! I have been reading up on Maladaptive daydreaming for awhile now and have realized I have had this for pretty much my whole life. I have kind of a long story so I apologize in advance:). It's hard to know where to begin...lol. I guess I...
    PurePisces PurePisces 31-35, T 1 Response Jun 3

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    I am so glad that there is a name to this

    situation and it is not leading me to something else. I have been doing this from my small childhood days where I would pick a movie everyday of my choice and start spinning my own story of how I wish it could have been. I have no clue why I started doing that. Also, I was in...
    eurekahere eurekahere 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I did not have any idea this was a real

    disorder. Anyway, for many, many years, I've delved into the deep recesses of my mind to escape from my situations and reality. If I were to take a guess, I'd say this started in 5th grade, when I was getting bullied everyday. I thought of constant situations or things to say...
    GizmoFox GizmoFox 13-15, T 2 Responses May 24

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    I wouldn't say suffer,

    I'm kinda getting used to controlling it sometimes. It feels like a movie playing in your head everyday. I'm not saying it's good nor am I saying it's bad. But it's very annoying sometime when you'd like to focus.
    DangerouslyMe DangerouslyMe 16-17, F Jun 13

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 13 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I did not know that there is a word

    for this, or that other people had it, until yesterday. I am a writer, and I am afraid that if I stop I won't be able to write anymore. I am looking forward to meeting others and learning from their experiences. Is there a way to live with it in moderation? Do you have to give...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    It's so hard to focus on anything.

    I just want to run around my room with music and daydream 24/7. I hate doing anything that doesn't allow me to do that, and MD is causing me to be anti-social in real life. I also don't eat enough. I'd rather daydream than eat. The only TV shows that I can actually watch and pay...
    0emma0 0emma0 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    I've been reading articles about this,

    and I keep thinking to myself that I actually do suffer from it. I have been talking to close family members and friends about this, and nothing has been working. So here I will share my whole experience for the first time. I think this daydreaming has started when I was...
    alaniW180 alaniW180 13-15 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I didn't really know

    that what I had was a disorder. It began in sixth grade and that was the year I lost all my friends. I would sit at lunch everyday by myself reading it doing homework when one day I forgot the things I was going to do. I pulled out a book and read that instead. When I was done...
    Leannabj25 Leannabj25 13-15, F Jun 16

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    Moving to a new country,

    learning a new language, being the odd one out and going to primary with kids I werent familiar with was hard. I was young and naiive and experiences with a new family was mentally and emotionally scarring. I was very naiive but I was young. During those times I didn't really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 16

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    I think I do, anyway.

    I daydream so much that I just had accepted that I would always have these elaborate fantasies in my head. I'm so glad that there's now a name for this :)
    cuttergurl56 cuttergurl56 13-15, F Jun 30

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I just discovered this today.

    and I absolutely cannot believe that other people do this. I have been going this from as long as I can remember starting in childhood. I was always a very very shy little Girl in school so shy I was afraid to talk in school resulting in my being afraid time even ask for the...
    26telly 26telly 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I think I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming.

    but, I don't know really. I Just graduated from high school actually, but seldom was there a day that I didn't daydream in class. tests, studying, basic lectures that I actually enjoyed, I was always thinking of something else. My senior year, whether it was maladaptive...
    Lucario89 Lucario89 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 46 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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