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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    Being abused by my mom ,

    mentally and psychically , and being neglected , and seldomly only having my brother to play with , lead me to maladaptive daydreaming , but ofc at the time I didn't know that's what I was actually doing . Again "talking to myself"'started when I began to play with my toys . But...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I have had MD since about the age of 12.

    It initially started out as fun. Then, I'd lie on the sofa and close my eyes, and start daydreaming. I could go on for hours if I wasn't disturbed. Then I'd open my eyes to the life around me. In the early stages of myMD, I was completing soap operas in my head and relieving...
    Significant Significant 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    My daydreams get really extreme sometimes.

    .. It started since I was 8 8/9 years old. Sometimes I have to get dressed and look good in real life to feel good in my daydream and I get really annoyed if anyone distracts me.. I don't sleep until I can in my scenario. I don't mind the scenarios as they make me feel better but...
    EmmZeeOx EmmZeeOx 18-21, F Jul 19

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    Everything in my daydreams I feel is happening

    but its not so I feel alone, isolated.. I felt I had a crush on a gay male that was requitted and its not and went along with it a week! I'm a writer. I have a hundred ideas going at once but my only novel is incomplete lol and I'm petrified I won't be successful and become a...
    Ariel555 Ariel555 36-40, F Aug 12

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 15 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    So i just looked at this on wikipedia,

    and to my dismay it was like a description of my life. While i don't have any sort of traumatic background, i have always had an overactive imagination which has even seemingly grown since childhood. Perhaps now even, bought on by stress, i seemingly shut out the outside world...
    acode acode 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    Well, not anymore. This is my journey to

    freedom. (and it can be yours too) Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I shall give you rest. I want to say I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to be trapped in slavery to yourself, to your own imagination. Everyone here knows what I’m talking about...
    thisissarah thisissarah 18-21, F Jul 16

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I knew it was I thing I always did

    but I just didn't know it had a name until a few hours ago. Since I was about 5 years old I always made up scenarios and created this world in my head. I would pretend to be a character and make up a whole bunch of different people for them to interact with ((sometimes I would...
    RussianMatryoshkaDoll RussianMatryoshkaDoll 13-15, F Jul 29

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    Interesting experience: I don't know

    if I was dreaming or hallucinating, but I woke up and rolled over and I saw my boyfriend that's in my daydreams laying next to me in bed. This didn't strike me as bizarre, even though I sleep alone, instead I took the opportunity to feel him for the first time in real life. I...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    Hi friends. Yesterday i write about my trigger

    to MD. Today I'm sharing about how I control it. I didn't take the control for 100% but I'm able to avoid it. * I made myself busy. I do anything that I love. * I talk to myself. This is not the MD. It's more about reality. I talked to myself like "Hey, where did I put my...
    iChange iChange 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I'd love to know about other people's dreams.

    It's amazing what people can do with their imagination.
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I was just scrolling down my Facebook wall

    when I saw a tumblr post about MD, I had never heard about it before. Then I realised I have this! I quickly researched it nad holy crap! Finally I don't feel crazy anymore! My daydreams are like a movie or a book. I always have the same characters. Dana is the main character...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F Aug 13

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    I finally found out what to call what I do.

    I get obsessed with characters from movies books or made up ones and make stories around them all. Usually I rock back and forth while listening to music that fits the thing I am dreaming about. Whenever I don't have any pressing things to do, I sit there and think for hours...
    pianokat pianokat 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my

    escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in reference to behavior patterns, 'normal' means healthy and non-destructive. I emphasize this because one could live in a society where it is a standard...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F Jul 22

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    I'm constantly day-dreaming all day about the

    same thing. I can never let go of my one and only dream! I want to make it a reality but first I need to become a genius...
    DayDreamingVampiress DayDreamingVampiress 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have a dream world

    that I pretty much live by. Everything I do daily makes me think of scenarios that might happen there. The world I've created even has main characters that feel real to me. I know every detail about them and I'm in love with one of them. In this dream world, I'm an orphan who's...
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I wouldn't say I suffer from this.

    I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told them I had this, but they finally did and it feels great to know that they know about this. There is only one problem, I have nobody to...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    Until I discovered this group,

    I didn't know there was a name for what I've always done. As a child, I used to daydream to escape my life. It was the only way for me to feel happy. I had a whole different imaginary world with friends. I'd escape to specific daydreamed moments and re-live those moments again...
    secretlysidhe secretlysidhe 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    There are so many things I daydream about.

    Most of the thought are about me hanging out with different celebrities. Sometimes I hang out with fictional characters or characters I made up. Or I'm winning contests or accomplishing amazing feats.
    IndecisiveDoeEyes IndecisiveDoeEyes 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I'm looking for support from someone

    who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it makes me feel happy. But at the same time I really want to stop. It's consumed too much of my time and has distracted me from what I...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    From what I remember,

    it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace when I do it. I've also noticed that I have started matching my facial expressions to my characters' expressions. I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 18

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    Sometimes I try to write down my stories.

    I mean, it couldn't hurt. Maybe someone will actually like them. But, I can't seem to keep up with my mind. It's as if I'm going way too fast in my thoughts for my hands to comprehend it. I also change my story a lot, so I would always be erasing or restarting a scene.
    ItsCandyAcidStuff ItsCandyAcidStuff 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 48 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams.

    Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times I've created vivid worlds that are entirely my own. I've always considered this ability as a gift; even a gloomy and dull moment can be...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I've been doing it ever

    since I can remember. If I could pin point one exact moment, it would be when I was watching a kids' cartoon and I after I had watched it I went to my room and pretended I was one of the characters. TV shows, media, books, films and music are all a trigger for me, especially my...
    Vivanda Vivanda 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    Last year I saw an md post on tumblr

    and I was in shock reading someone's experience of the same "thing"that I do. I was even more surprised seeing the name maladaptive daydreaming disorder tagged along with it. I had never even thought of these daydreams that had been a part of my life since I can remember being...
    erinnmhh erinnmhh 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most