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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    I finally found out what to call what I do.

    I get obsessed with characters from movies books or made up ones and make stories around them all. Usually I rock back and forth while listening to music that fits the thing I am dreaming about. Whenever I don't have any pressing things to do, I sit there and think for hours...
    pianokat pianokat 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    So i just looked at this on wikipedia,

    and to my dismay it was like a description of my life. While i don't have any sort of traumatic background, i have always had an overactive imagination which has even seemingly grown since childhood. Perhaps now even, bought on by stress, i seemingly shut out the outside world...
    acode acode 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    I have maladaptive daydreaming

    and I hate it. I drown myself in these weird inner worlds but going nowhere in my life. My dreams are a great departure from life, but I feel so misunderstood like I'm the only one crying, laughing.. I feel completely alone!
    Ariel555 Ariel555 36-40, F Aug 12

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    I wouldn't say I suffer from this.

    I actually quite like this, and my parents are encouraging me to think of it as a good thing. At first my parents didn't believe me when I told them I had this, but they finally did and it feels great to know that they know about this. There is only one problem, I have nobody to...
    kayshep kayshep 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I don't see my excessive daydreaming

    as an issue. I've read that many people who experience maladaptive daydreaming consider it to be a bad or a difficult thing, but personally I love it and couldn't live without it. Obviously I can distinct what's real and what's in my mind, but the worlds that I create in my...
    NadaCei NadaCei 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Being abused by my mom ,

    mentally and psychically , and being neglected , and seldomly only having my brother to play with , lead me to maladaptive daydreaming , but ofc at the time I didn't know that's what I was actually doing . Again "talking to myself"'started when I began to play with my toys . But...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F Jul 16

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    From what I remember,

    it started when I was about 10 or 11. When I first started doing it, it wasn't too often. Now, it's 24/7 that I'm catching myself daydreaming. I tend to pace when I do it. I've also noticed that I have started matching my facial expressions to my characters' expressions. I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 18

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Interesting experience: I don't know

    if I was dreaming or hallucinating, but I woke up and rolled over and I saw my boyfriend that's in my daydreams laying next to me in bed. This didn't strike me as bizarre, even though I sleep alone, instead I took the opportunity to feel him for the first time in real life. I...
    WooTang710 WooTang710 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I have to admit, I was a bit freaked out

    that what I had was a disorder, surprised, that it had a name, glad that there were others like me, and shocked that it was actually a disorder! For a moment there I had to laugh at the fact that what I considered a fantastic and mind-blowing talent of imagining the possible...
    SkyeJ SkyeJ 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    lovelymaskedbeauty lovelymaskedbeauty 31-35, F Aug 9

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    I'm constantly day-dreaming all day about the

    same thing. I can never let go of my one and only dream! I want to make it a reality but first I need to become a genius...
    DayDreamingVampiress DayDreamingVampiress 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There are so many things I daydream about.

    Most of the thought are about me hanging out with different celebrities. Sometimes I hang out with fictional characters or characters I made up. Or I'm winning contests or accomplishing amazing feats.
    IndecisiveDoeEyes IndecisiveDoeEyes 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I feel like this will be really long.

    So basically my story is I started to daydream due to being bullied in middle school and basically known as the outcast. It helped me escape from reality. I would do the usual: pacing back and forth, acting out the daydreams, etc. I would even beg my parents to let me stay home...
    imskyhiii imskyhiii 16-17, F Aug 2

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    I'm looking for support from someone

    who understands Maladaptive Daydreaming. I absolutely love daydreaming and could do it all day long. It definitely has it's rewards for me & it makes me feel happy. But at the same time I really want to stop. It's consumed too much of my time and has distracted me from what I...
    livinglifeonpause livinglifeonpause 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    Sometimes I try to write down my stories.

    I mean, it couldn't hurt. Maybe someone will actually like them. But, I can't seem to keep up with my mind. It's as if I'm going way too fast in my thoughts for my hands to comprehend it. I also change my story a lot, so I would always be erasing or restarting a scene.
    ItsCandyAcidStuff ItsCandyAcidStuff 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've always dreamed vivid daydreams.

    Sometimes I take elements from a film or a book, interacting with the characters, bringing them to life in my mind's eye, whilst at other times I've created vivid worlds that are entirely my own. I've always considered this ability as a gift; even a gloomy and dull moment can be...
    JennyWren21 JennyWren21 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 48 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    Everything in my daydreams I feel is happening

    but its not so I feel alone, isolated.. I felt I had a crush on a gay male that was requitted and its not and went along with it a week! I'm a writer. I have a hundred ideas going at once but my only novel is incomplete lol and I'm petrified I won't be successful and become a...
    Ariel555 Ariel555 36-40, F Aug 12

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    Until I discovered this group,

    I didn't know there was a name for what I've always done. As a child, I used to daydream to escape my life. It was the only way for me to feel happy. I had a whole different imaginary world with friends. I'd escape to specific daydreamed moments and re-live those moments again...
    secretlysidhe secretlysidhe 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Hi friends. Yesterday i write about my trigger

    to MD. Today I'm sharing about how I control it. I didn't take the control for 100% but I'm able to avoid it. * I made myself busy. I do anything that I love. * I talk to myself. This is not the MD. It's more about reality. I talked to myself like "Hey, where did I put my...
    iChange iChange 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 15 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my

    escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in reference to behavior patterns, 'normal' means healthy and non-destructive. I emphasize this because one could live in a society where it is a standard...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F Jul 22

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I've been doing it ever

    since I can remember. If I could pin point one exact moment, it would be when I was watching a kids' cartoon and I after I had watched it I went to my room and pretended I was one of the characters. TV shows, media, books, films and music are all a trigger for me, especially my...
    Vivanda Vivanda 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Well, not anymore. This is my journey to

    freedom. (and it can be yours too) Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I shall give you rest. I want to say I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to be trapped in slavery to yourself, to your own imagination. Everyone here knows what I’m talking about...
    thisissarah thisissarah 18-21, F Jul 16

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 18-21 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I triggered to daydream

    when my pointer finger met my thumb. I was thinking but when these finger get in touch, I started a daydream and it couldn't stop when I got caught in an incredible story.I procrastinate. I hate it. I want to change because If I haven't waste hours of my spare time just to...
    iChange iChange 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I was just scrolling down my Facebook wall

    when I saw a tumblr post about MD, I had never heard about it before. Then I realised I have this! I quickly researched it nad holy crap! Finally I don't feel crazy anymore! My daydreams are like a movie or a book. I always have the same characters. Dana is the main character...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F Aug 13

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    I knew it was I thing I always did

    but I just didn't know it had a name until a few hours ago. Since I was about 5 years old I always made up scenarios and created this world in my head. I would pretend to be a character and make up a whole bunch of different people for them to interact with ((sometimes I would...
    RussianMatryoshkaDoll RussianMatryoshkaDoll 13-15, F Jul 29

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