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I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    I am so relieved to finally put a name to this

    alternate universe that has existed in my mind for as long as i can remember. I have experienced these elaborate daydreams since elementary school. Pacing all over the place acting out my favorite disney movies, and adding my own characters and plots. Im sure my family thought i...
    dunnitz dunnitz 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    I never expected to discover there is a term

    for what I have been experiencing since my earliest age I can recall. I have always felt intensely protective of my daydreaming, as if it were so strongly attached to my being that if I were to divulge it to anyone my imagination would be torn away and my life would unravel...
    rattikin rattikin 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    My Shelter And Damnation, Pt 1

    I must warn you, it is a long story. I have just recently realized how deep down I have buried myself. Hard to believe that the very same thing I have done to keep myself safe; was actually worsening everything else for me. I am pretty convinced that I suffer from Avoidant...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2013

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    Depression Leads To Md?

    I've always been shy, mainly because I have almost always been alone and I'm scared of people. When I was younger, I was left alone because I was independent, whereas my brother always needed attention. Most people avoided me in elementary and such, so I started daydreaming...
    PansMusicBox PansMusicBox 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2012

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    I started a blog at https://parallelpanes.

    wordpress.com/ to chronicle my experience in trying to manage my MD. Does anyone else journal, and do you find it to be helpful? For me, it has been the most effective assistance I have tried.
    DitzyDot DitzyDot 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    I have dealt with MD all my life

    and I can say it probably closed some doors for me. It was impossible to hide. I can daydream about anything at any time. I often zone out during conversations and the person I am talking to can tell I am not there anymore. It has gotten me unwanted attention throughout...
    spaceyrick spaceyrick 56-60, M Feb 21

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    Here is how o broke free from this addiction.

    Yes, you can stop it. I did. I had a severe case of malladaptive daydreaming. I could literally spend the entire day with headphones on, listening to music and imagining i was some rockstar or whatever else you can associate with recognition, fame, acceptance and the things that...
    Finalcut123 Finalcut123 41-45 4 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    I can't remember when it started

    but it has always been there. When I played with my dolls, when I was trying to sooth myself before bed, when I was taking a long road trip, when I am just home alone. I don't stay in reality and until recently it didn't bother me. Then I stopped wanting to even reply to my...
    DeadWifes DeadWifes 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20 18-21, F 43 Responses Nov 27, 2010

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    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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    the worst I've noticed is

    when I'm driving alone in traffic. I get bored and start to day dream, its hard to come back when I start...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I don't remember how

    or when I started daydreaming. I just know that it had always been this way. I find it hard to pay attention in class or get my school work done. I often find myself late for work or school because of how much I daydream. I had no idea that anyone else suffered from this, or...
    MsGardevoir MsGardevoir 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm 16 and i've had really elaborate daydreams

    very often since i was quite young. I'll be listening to music or sometimes just staring into space and i'll be in my own little world. I sometimes find my leg shaking or my hand making a circular motion, i will also smile, cry or even laugh if something funny happens in the...
    HighlandHeather HighlandHeather 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee 13-15 1 Response Feb 21

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    The Truth about Wildminds Ning Network

    I had been a member in this community for over 2 years and I was recently suspended for reasons that does not make any sense. I did not break any rules but guess what I have mental health issues and need support and I got suspended from a support community! Does this make sense...
    AlexDreamsItAway AlexDreamsItAway 22-25 4 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    I had this since I was a kid.

    I used to imagine different scenarios and put myself in it the way i wanted. I always could differentiate reality from theses scenarios. I always made sure that no one was around, because sometimes i used to dance or maybe enact something from my favorite superhero movie. I...
    Houuse Houuse 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    so basically I was always really imaginative

    as a child I don't remember doing it as a kid cause I was very active and into sports and I also used to write a lot of stories. then by middle school maybe 6th or 7th grade I lost a lot of friends and was being bullied i really had no safe place to go and I would pace with my...
    myownconsultant myownconsultant 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Life Inside My Head!

    I have been daydreaming from before I can remember, I mean probably when I first started school at 4/5 if not before that. I am now 20 years old and in university. Its like a entire movie/novel and it has been the same story on going from ever since. As I get older and understand...
    imaddicted imaddicted 18-21, F 28 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    ...and It's The Reason For Social Anxiety

    It's hard to talk about a disorder that I didn't know existed until now, but I have had all my life. It has always just been apart of me, or who I am. I can't remember a time when I didn't excessively daydream. When I was little, my parents were too busy to spend time with me. I...
    seungwon seungwon 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2012

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    And its getting worse,

    I know people are going through the same thing I am but well.... I made my own fantasy world and I go to it every day its mostly involves anime because I LOVE ANIME, I looked up a question that says would you want to go to an anime world? And of course that's EXACTLY what I...
    pinkkitten100 pinkkitten100 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    Sometimes it’s sad to think about the fact

    that I have more ‘memories’ of fictional characters I’ve created through daydreaming than I actually do of my own life. I’m not even 20, but most of my actual memories are just vague knowledge instead of things I truly ‘remember’, yet I can recall with perfect...
    Clenastia Clenastia 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 12

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5 16-17 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    sal765 sal765 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    sal765 sal765 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    iam suffering from maladaptive daydreaming

    since I was a child I didn't notice until now because I enjoy it iam always alone have no friends only anime character but now I have to study but I can't focus how to control it?and why people saying theu regret it? I enjoy it will I regret in the future?
    whiterose2 whiterose2 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    sleepyphotograher sleepyphotograher 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    I don't know if what I've been doing would be

    considered Maladaptive Daydreaming because it's not really centered around me. I'll get lost in these worlds centered around a T.V. show I watch called Supernatural, but what happens in my head isn't what happens in the show. I'll think of the characters as real people even...
    Englandsgirl1818 Englandsgirl1818 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    When I started school,

    i was bullied and no one wanted to be my friend, no one liked me. They always said mean things and i had no self esteem So i made up imaginary friends, and lived in my daydream. I am 15 now, and i cant stop my daydreaming, its like i am addicted to it. Its not that i don't love...
    kitford kitford 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa 16-17 3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    I am eighteen years old.

    I have lived one hell of a life I guess you could say, but most of those distraught memories are clothed over by my daydreams. It seems all too hazy, the reality and fantasy jumbled together like scrabble letters waiting to form words. I have had maladaptive daydreaming for as...
    blitzd blitzd 18-21, F Dec 25, 2013

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    My Fantasy World

                I'm a 16 year old girl.          My day dreaming days began when I was around 11 or 10 years old. For me, it was always a form of escape from my life. I suppose I'm too imaginative. At first, I read Harry Potter and fell in love with the books. I tried...
    fromdaydreamland fromdaydreamland 16-17 6 Responses Jul 28, 2011

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    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    mlynnikens mlynnikens 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    Do any of you succeed in reducing the amount

    and intensity of daydreams? If so please share because I've had enough of it. Today i googled 'constant daydreaming' and found out about Maladaptive Daydreaming. I immediately became convinced that this is the condition I am suffering from: I experience basically every symptom...
    Tomster111 Tomster111 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 20

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    This is a pretty sensitive topic

    for me to talk about, a few days ago i realized that i need all the help i can get. I feel like i started daydreaming when i moved here and people started bullying me. I don't exactly remember how i was feeling at the time considering i was around the age of 8. Around 7th grade...
    jennixlo jennixlo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit 22-25, M 10 Responses Oct 29, 2013

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    Tonight I tearfully discovered the term

    Maladaptive Daydreaming. I'm 44 years old and have wasted most of my life's potential locked up in my bedroom. I've hidden it from my roommates, boyfriends, now husband and children. When my husband recently got a job away from the home office I started clocking numerous-crazy...