I Suffer From Maladaptive Daydreaming

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    It's My Get Away...

    I have suffered from Maladaptive Daydreaming (md) for about 7 years but it didn't get to its peak until about 5 years ago. Although I have always...I guess some people would say "lived in my own little world" I never thought of it as an obsession until I was about 13 and it got...
    blownaway20 blownaway20
    18-21, F
    51 Responses Nov 27, 2010

    A Mental Entertainment

    I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this! As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and...
    RedSmile RedSmile
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

    This has been an issue ever

    since I was about 7. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was bored, so I made up a story about a girl on a pirate ship with her little minions, that took the shape of coloured gummy bears. The stories I made up in my head every night were always changing. One day it'll be about...
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda
    5 Responses Oct 17, 2014

    Dissociation And Md - Surviving Childhood Abuse

    Warning, sexual content (not graphic or descriptive). For me it was a bit like the movie Tideland, I had abuse as a child. My parents weren't drug addicts like the girl in the movie, I had a mother who secretly gave me huge abuse, and I survived it in various ways. I dissociated...
    Handed Handed
    41-45, F
    14 Responses Aug 23, 2012

    Wow I am both shocked

    and relieved to see that what I'm going trough has a name...shocked because a part of me thought that everyone daydreamed in the way I did. But lately I have realised that it has gotten quite troubling. When I was younger the daydreams would often feature myself, sort of like a...
    capricorn96 capricorn96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2015

    My 'imaginary' Lover

    There was a time when I was a lonely kid, an introvert. I didn't have many friends in eighth grade so my mind would constantly be active in creating new ones. Eventually I created a boy friend called Jake. Our interactions started off in harmless dreams. I knew I had made him, he...
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Nov 4, 2013

    Oh wow! Today is a huge day

    for me! Not only have I found out that the thing I have has a name (although not officially medically recognised) but others have it too, AND THERE'S A SUPPORT GROUP?! I'm so happy right now!! I want to talk about my experience and I hope someone is able to relate to it and find...
    iWILLhaveagreatlife iWILLhaveagreatlife
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I don't “suffer” from it,

    I enjoy it. Life would be way too boring without it.
    Offing Offing
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 31, 2015

    It started when I was maybe 11.

    I had just moved away from my best friend to a new school and everything in my life was going bad. No one was nice to me, I was lonely and lived in a small apartment with my parents and grandparents. I was also not adapting well with the move, so I just started day dreaming...
    SaintInHell SaintInHell
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    I don't feel like I'm suffering.

    I can't imagine my life without this "illness." I'm grateful for it everyday. It's made me creative and I have placed to go when I'm sad/lonely/bored.
    Rajieta Rajieta
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2015

    Maladaptive Daydreaming Vs Normal Daydreaming

    This was a post/article I wrote a few months back which I posted on another site but has since been removed since I am no longer a member there. I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. When I first discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming a year and a half ago I...
    therararabbit therararabbit
    22-25, M
    15 Responses Oct 29, 2013

    The character is myself.

    In my head I'm living the life I want, I have the body I want, the boyfriend I want, the hair, the job, the life, the friends, it even goes down to having the tattoos I want. I have names for the people I'm surrounded with. Some of them are celebrities but most of them are...
    caveman1995 caveman1995
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2014

    MD is like a shadow that constantly follows me

    around. There are so many triggers that I can't even sit by myself and think about other things. Any type of media triggers it. Being bored triggers it. Being alone triggers it. It's easier to count what doesn't trigger it than what does. It's just really hard to concentrate...
    potatopie100 potatopie100
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

    I'm so glad that I found this

    because I just thought I was a freak but I have multiple daydreams that are each very specific and detailed. Most days I spend hours in these daydreams creating them almost like they're a movie or a novel. I've never admitted this to anyone because I feel like they'd think it...
    annamarie1295 annamarie1295
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2015

    I have been daydreaming

    for as long as i remember. I daydream about a character from a book or tv show that i am currently watching. I add my own backstory or create new stories based off of them. Like fanfiction only without the writing. I have many of these daydreams with different characters and...
    Sparky90 Sparky90
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I have been day dreaming

    since I was three years old. I think I even remember it started when I was watching a movie and I began making up fantasies involving the characters from it in my head and it grew from there. I used to call it "cartoon thinking" and I even tried describing it to my Mom once, but...
    Lauraverne Lauraverne
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    I suffer from Maladaptive Daydreaming.

    It actually has a name. Until now I just called it my "overactive imagination about epic tales of cool characters from books, movies, and stuff". I guess MDD sounds better. I never noticed my day dreaming tendencies until a few days which made me Google if it was normal. Turns...
    Falloutgirl98 Falloutgirl98
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 27, 2015

    Infp + Mdd

    I've been daydreaming since early childhood. My parents were/are odd people, they fought and they isolated me to a degree. I wanted more interaction than I had, basically. I always had various story lines that were short lived and meaningless, until I was 14. I had a dream...
    Kurtface Kurtface
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

    Hi everyone, I thought

    since I mainly joined this site to talk about maladaptive daydreaming I should post my own experience with it. I'm 18 years old now, and it started when I was 12 I guess. I can't remember the very first time I did it but I know I had just one 'character' in my head back then...
    EllenMelon82 EllenMelon82
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    His name is Joshua Renly

    and I've been dreaming of him since I was eight years old; during the day and at night, his life unfolds within the realms of my mind. For a time, I thought I was gifted enough to see life through another person's eyes, that Joshua was a real person that may one day cross my...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 26, 2014

    I believe I have this too.

    This pretty much stemmed from when I was a child. When I was little I would love to listen to music and imagine myself singing the song and in front of people. I usually liked movement when daydreaming like being in a car and pacing. Now as I got older my daydreaming got longer...
    YasmineKhalifa YasmineKhalifa
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2014

    I just discovered that this is a real issue,

    and that I am not alone in my obsession thanks to this site. I have been MDing since middle school at least, I try not to count younger years because I believe most children (especially only-child kids) probably day dream often. I dont plan on admitting the type of DDs I have...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

    I have a dream world

    that I pretty much live by. Everything I do daily makes me think of scenarios that might happen there. The world I've created even has main characters that feel real to me. I know every detail about them and I'm in love with one of them. In this dream world, I'm an orphan who's...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    I'd like to know, what are your most frequent

    themes of daydream? And your most frequent triggers? Alcohol and energy drinks/coffee are a huge trigger to me and I daydream about Romance the most
    RichardAndon RichardAndon
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Nov 26, 2014

    I just found out that there is a name

    for what I thought was my own special kind of crazy. And even if I am crazy it is extremely comforting to know that I am not alone in my suffering and confusion, even if you all are technically strangers lol. I've always lived in my own world but the daydreaming has gotten so...
    availableusername9 availableusername9
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 25, 2015

    Hello, I just joined this website to be a part

    of this group specifically. I have had MD since I was 7 but didn't know that the term MD existed until about half a year ago. I've never spoken with another person with MD and am excited to learn more about the community. I'd be happy to share my experiences with anyone / chat...
    reveriesky reveriesky
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2015

    I wouldn't really say suffer.

    I love my daydreams. I'd rather be a professional assassin, a queen, a noblewoman.
    DaydreamGirl25 DaydreamGirl25
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015

    My Fantasy World

                I'm a 16 year old girl.          My day dreaming days began when I was around 11 or 10 years old. For me, it was always a form of escape from my life. I suppose I'm too imaginative. At first, I read Harry Potter and fell in love with the books. I tried...
    fromdaydreamland fromdaydreamland
    5 Responses Jul 28, 2011

    I Hate Daydreaming!!

    Okay soo how do I start this... Well, I'm 21 and in my last year of college and today I finally pinned down a name for what I've been feeling pretty much my entire life. That's the first step, right? I'm pretty sure I suffer from Maladaptive daydreaming, which is basically...
    PamAna PamAna
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Maladaptive Daydreaming

    I've known I have MD for a couple of weeks now. I'm 15 years old and I have been daydreaming excessively since I was a toddler. When I was younger I would find it rather difficult to sleep, daydreaming was my way falling asleep by myself. I then started getting ideas from...
    dulas5 dulas5
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

    My Little Secret Not Everyone Can Understand

    I didn't even know there was a name for this up until about a year ago and when I finally did put a name to my "problem" it really shook me, and everything sort of stopped for a moment and I thought, "I really am NOT normal." I've had this for as long as I can remember. My...
    kaylamayla kaylamayla
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 5, 2013

    My Shelter And Damnation, Pt 1

    I must warn you, it is a long story. I have just recently realized how deep down I have buried myself. Hard to believe that the very same thing I have done to keep myself safe; was actually worsening everything else for me. I am pretty convinced that I suffer from Avoidant...
    AZChomp644 AZChomp644
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2013

    I've been doing this

    since I was about 8 years old. Really as long as I can remember. Music, movies, and entertainment are my triggers. And I can do it anywhere. It's gotten bad because I know do it at work or other places. I'm always the focal point of the daydreams no matter what the circumstance...
    Starbaby1985 Starbaby1985
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

    Hi my name is Ella and I'm 16 I've been

    daydreaming since I was 6/7 I think, it has gotten really hard now! It's the same story since I was 10 and as I get older it gets more challenging): I have this one person in my daydreams his name is David and I am so in love with him I have daydreamed about him making love to...
    LoveTheSongWhoThatGirl LoveTheSongWhoThatGirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2016

    I don't know when it started.

    I can go back as far early 1998/9 when I got my backstreets poster and cd. I was 8 and I would spend hours daydreaming on how i would meet nick Carter. Fast forward 16 years and I'm still daydreaming. the Subject of my fantasies range from celebrities to people i know. The...
    saraNaya saraNaya
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

    Daydreaming has been constant

    and uncontrollable for me since elementary school. There are times when I'm overjoyed that I have the ability to withdraw from reality so easily and times when I become extremely critical of this part of myself. Does maladaptive daydreaming disorder ever go away, or will I...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2016

    I'm at the point of my life

    where I feel stuck... I don't know what to do anymore. I've been fantasizing since I was about 5 or 6 years old. I've always been kind of a loner, extremely shy, and rarely having any friends. I use to create characters in my head and I used to become those characters. Whenever...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Apr 21, 2014

    I've been doing this

    since I was around eight or nine years old. I'm sixteen now. I think it started because I was lonely in Primary School as I was bullied badly. It was a way for me to escape the harsh world and be this popular, powerful archeologist with magical powers (ikr XD). Currently, I...
    sami16 sami16
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    i know the clear difference between reality

    and fantasy , but sometimes this condition can affect relationships, because i build people up to be these perfect people in some fantasies, giving irrealistic expectations of them and i guess it resenates in my mind just the tiniest bit, it is impossible for anyone to live...
    anonymous1251 anonymous1251
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2014

    I just found out about MD a week ago

    and I didn't think my daydreaming was much of a problem till then. Now that I think about it, I've wasted a lot of my potential and energy and time just living as a character in my head. It has gotten so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel so lost. I know I have to...
    Oneirophobic Oneirophobic
    22-25, F
    Feb 24, 2015

    I don't suffer from Maladaptive-daydreaming;

    if anything I'm lost without it... I've had it since I was 11 years old. I love daydreaming, I love spacing out living a perfect life in my head. It's nice to actually see the dream with my eyes open and forget about any and all things around me... I love to keep MD for the...
    SadlySafeeee SadlySafeeee
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    Im 46 years old and I have just started

    researching what I thought was unique to me but I am happy to hear I am not the only one. I have done this since I was about 10 years old. Its mostly when I listen on headphones to music, I used to pull up a chair to my parents stereo and then imagine myself being a popstar and...
    kallais kallais
    46-50, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    you ever do something really weird

    and you wonder if other people do it to? but your to embarrassed to ask? because you don't feel what you do is normal? I never day dreamed really until I hit the age of 5 or 6 it wasn't even constant at first just anytime I was grounded I would just sit and try to entertain...
    dreamaddict96 dreamaddict96
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2016

    I just discovered this today.

    and I absolutely cannot believe that other people do this. I have been going this from as long as I can remember starting in childhood. I was always a very very shy little Girl in school so shy I was afraid to talk in school resulting in my being afraid time even ask for the...
    26telly 26telly
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 30, 2015

    I love the way their always there

    when you need them. I love the way he knows when I'm upset. I love how he's always there when nobody else is. I love how he will make me open up, he won't let me die silently. He will put a smile on my face. Make me feel like I'm his everything. I love how he makes my...
    Simsy1903 Simsy1903
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    Here's my experience MD.

    Well it started around the 7 grade, So I was 14 at the time. But anyway my daydreams "at the time" was about me or a made up characters being a total badass. The reason it started. Well all though out middle school. I was always made fun of because of how small and skinny I was...
    ThatsWaffleCakes ThatsWaffleCakes
    18-21, M
    Oct 25, 2015

    Hi friends. Yesterday i write about my trigger

    to MD. Today I'm sharing about how I control it. I didn't take the control for 100% but I'm able to avoid it. * I made myself busy. I do anything that I love. * I talk to myself. This is not the MD. It's more about reality. I talked to myself like "Hey, where did I put my...
    iChange iChange
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    This is very hard to post

    and admit, but I think this is something that I have experienced since very young. I am six years younger than my brother and sister, and as a VERY imaginative and creative child, I was able to figure out ways to play by myself without becoming lonely, by creating imaginary...
    edgarkitty edgarkitty
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 1, 2015

    I think the worst part is I can't tell anyone

    about it. I've brought it up to my mom once and she just chuckled and didn't take me seriously... That was the first and last time I've ever brought it up to someone. I'm also an insomniac so at night I lay in bed and just dream of my second life. Everyone knows I'm an insomniac...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 15, 2015
    Lunadelobos Lunadelobos
    3 Responses Apr 1, 2015

    It's so hard to focus on anything.

    I just want to run around my room with music and daydream 24/7. I hate doing anything that doesn't allow me to do that, and MD is causing me to be anti-social in real life. I also don't eat enough. I'd rather daydream than eat. The only TV shows that I can actually watch and pay...
    0emma0 0emma0
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2015

    I don't see my excessive daydreaming

    as an issue. I've read that many people who experience maladaptive daydreaming consider it to be a bad or a difficult thing, but personally I love it and couldn't live without it. Obviously I can distinct what's real and what's in my mind, but the worlds that I create in my...
    NadaCei NadaCei
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2015

    I didn't realise there was a name

    for it but this sounds about right to describe something I've done for most of my life. I don't "suffer" from it...in fact I rather enjoy it :D Nobody gets hurt and frankly I have bigger things to worry about so I'm allowing myself the escape from reality for now.
    ThunderWaffles ThunderWaffles
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    Firstly, i'm really sorry about my

    english:PIt's just that i had to google it my symptoms and it led me here, it really feels home:) I'm happy that i'm not the only one who suffers from MDD.I've been like this for the past 15years and i still can't stop it. Thank you for sharing your stories, it helps a lot.:)
    Cherryblossomdays Cherryblossomdays
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 25, 2015

    I started getting bullied in 7th grade.

    I already have an extremely vivid imagination, and I started making up a new life in my head, pretending I was someone else. I made up many different characters, with complex lives. I still do this today, it kinda stuck with me.
    Caricature1 Caricature1
    70+, M
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    Life Inside My Head!

    I have been daydreaming from before I can remember, I mean probably when I first started school at 4/5 if not before that. I am now 20 years old and in university. Its like a entire movie/novel and it has been the same story on going from ever since. As I get older and understand...
    imaddicted imaddicted
    18-21, F
    30 Responses Aug 26, 2012

    ...and It's The Reason For Social Anxiety

    It's hard to talk about a disorder that I didn't know existed until now, but I have had all my life. It has always just been apart of me, or who I am. I can't remember a time when I didn't excessively daydream. When I was little, my parents were too busy to spend time with me. I...
    seungwon seungwon
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2012

    The Truth about Wildminds Ning Network

    I had been a member in this community for over 2 years and I was recently suspended for reasons that does not make any sense. I did not break any rules but guess what I have mental health issues and need support and I got suspended from a support community! Does this make sense...
    AlexDreamsItAway AlexDreamsItAway
    5 Responses Oct 8, 2013

    Maladaptive Disorder

    I'm so glad to have found a name for this. Ever since me and my childhood best friend created a game of "it" where we would pretend to be 20 years old with perfect lives, perfect boyfriends, perfect everything. I was about six at the time and we used to make up stories and act...
    Paulinana Paulinana
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 2, 2013

    Here is how o broke free from this addiction.

    Yes, you can stop it. I did. I had a severe case of malladaptive daydreaming. I could literally spend the entire day with headphones on, listening to music and imagining i was some rockstar or whatever else you can associate with recognition, fame, acceptance and the things that...
    Finalcut123 Finalcut123
    3 Responses Jan 29, 2014
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