I Suffer From Paranoid Schizophrenia

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    and is it bad that sometimes im in love with my

    schizophrenia? like so in love i never want it to leave me. and other times i feel like jumping off a cliff and having my brain splatter all over cement because thas the only way i feel my mind will ever STOP. and let me go forever, even after death.
    bongripper1 bongripper1
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 2, 2014


    For the past few years i've been getting really paranoid. The worst is the fact that i think someones watching me 24/7. Like theres hidden cameras in my home and also that people are listening to everything i think in my head. Im too scared to tell anyone, its not something im...
    glenC0C0 glenC0C0
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2012

    Your Thoughts Create Your World

    Ive been living this world for 34 years and im just now excepting reality. But who can really say what reality is? Is reality what you can see, hear, touch and taste? Those are some, but what about the thoughts and feelings that are attached to them? Yaw :). Everyone just wants...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 2, 2013

    Living With What I've Got

    Hi everyone I'm new here. I am going to be 32 this year but have had three to five mental illness episodes in my life. I was diagnosised as a high functioning paranoid schizophrenic in my late 20s I think but have been well for the last three years. When I look at that diagnosis...
    Tall2728 Tall2728
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2012

    My Battle

    1st of all it can take months 4 the symtoms 2 settle down. i was hearing and seeing things since 1997 its taken untill the last couple of weeks for that 2 settle down im still a little paranoid and anxious but trying 2 over come this
    hillyo7 hillyo7
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

    The Reason Im Labeled...

    •I smell things no one else smells •If I am around someone and there is too long of a silence, I think they are reading my mind because when the silence breaks they say something ive been thinking about. Or if our dog comes in the house and jumps on the bed with her wet feet...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 2, 2013

    I Wanna Know Paranoid Schizophrenia.

    Hi everybody, I hope you'll answer to me even if I'm not schizophrenic, I'd like to know more about this mental desease. I don't wanna be offensive to anyone, but there always been a thing I always wondered about schizophrenia: is a schizophrenic person so different from "normal...
    PrincessDevilot PrincessDevilot
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2013

    I have pretty severe schizophrenia.

    I can't even function in normal society properly anymore.
    Aleksandar262 Aleksandar262
    26-30, T
    1 Response May 22, 2015

    No One Understands

    one of my family members has just been diagnosed and no one around me understands his illness so I feel I have no one to talk to about it, so I found this site. anyone feel like giving me any advice?
    Jenilee80 Jenilee80
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 30, 2013

    People I Deal With.

    There are three types of people that I want to ***** slap when they find out I'm schizophrenic: Those that think I'm faking, simply because they have only seen me on my meds, not without them; those that think that I am a danger simply because I'm schizophrenic; and the worst...
    HolyDrumstickofLove HolyDrumstickofLove
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Aug 3, 2013

    Someone Tell Me What Can I Do

    I was diagnosed 3 years agoI lost all my friend, I heard voices telling me disgusting things I am yet to belive that people are not angainst me, it's hard when they often tell you you are a freak and stuck you in wastebaskets. I'm very young and live only with my mother, even tho...
    ThunderCorp ThunderCorp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 13, 2011

    My Private Story That Is Still Going On..

    I found out i had Schizophrenia when i was about 6, i have problems with my parents but they think nothing is wrong with me... they never listen to me and *Long story*. i decided i'll call the Governmental Psychiatric Hospital in my country and ask Help from a psychiatric himself...
    levinel levinel
    13-15, T
    1 Response Jun 21, 2012

    Somebody Help

    i need to know how to deal with my girlfriend have'ing this. shes been diognosed paranoid schizophrinia for several years.we started dateing   8mos ago she has all the symptems(hallusionations,hears voise's,ect.) i truly love this girl and i know she loves me. if anyone out...
    giants123 giants123
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2011

    Who Is To Say What 'Crazy' Is?

    What seems crazy to you might seem normal to me and vs. vrs.. It is all in how each individual perceives things. Now when you start to annoy yourself, there is an indication that you might want to back track your thinking process a bit. And ask yourself, why. Where did that...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 2, 2013


    The hardest part of being a paraniod schizophrenia is finding love and support. I reached out to someone that claimed they loved me and flat out got turned away. I just wanted to talk nothing more but my illness has made me worthless. My mind goes crazy not my fault. I just don't...
    Nickbonilla Nickbonilla
    31-35, M
    May 25, 2013

    My Brother

    Hi my brother has just been diagnosed. his still delusional and isn't excepting diagnosis. can anyone give me advice on timeframes? what else can I do other then be supportive and listen? No one understands what my brother is going through so this was the only place I could...
    jaredtyler jaredtyler
    1 Response May 30, 2013

    There Is A Girl/women Who Cries For Me From Within Myself.

    This person continues to cry for me. She is fighting for my life because I can no longer fight like I should for my own. She cries when I feel that god is not with me, that i am not saved. She cries real tears that run down my checks. My mind is so twisted and confused. Being a...
    applemandarin4 applemandarin4
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2012

    No Love

    I've been sitting here only crying cause I didn't realize worthless I was till she didn't show up. I'm lost thought she love me. Night night bad bad and this morning I colieased to the floor. No help love or support. Sucks going through this alone. Wish she knew the difference...
    Nickbonilla Nickbonilla
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 26, 2013

    Please Help... We Don't Know What To Do.

    Our beloved mother believes she is constantly being pursued by a family of cops in our city. She believes that they have gotten people to move into the house next door to ours and watch her every move (they actually constantly drive in and out of the property - at least 20 times...
    francma francma
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 6, 2013


    My delusions have gotta so bad lately that I'm actually Physically getting into them. I waited outside for hrs last night for someone that wasn't coming. I need to learn how to get safe on my own cause every time I count on someone I get let down.
    Nickbonilla Nickbonilla
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 25, 2013

    Audio Issue

    I guess I have known for 20 years or so that there was something not quite right with me. I have spent so much time trying to match peoples actions and what they have said. This is not with just anyone but people that I am in close contact with. My mind just ticked so fast it was...
    68Flower 68Flower
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2011

    Been Diagnosed, Still A Regular Person.

    I've been to the hospital twice, that's not as bad as some people my young age who have been there several times more than that. I do not hear voices and don't know what that is like. I have been a normal sane person for over a year now without any episodes and sometimes I wonder...
    MundaneRoutine MundaneRoutine
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 16, 2012

    How Can I Cope With Paranoid Schizophrenia

    i was diagnosed this morning by my doctor. Im also bipolar and im very resistant to medicine. we thought it was side effects from other meds we had tried but when we had taken me off the meds we thought started it but it didnt go away. im always worried about spies hacking into...
    Roidragehamster1 Roidragehamster1
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 1, 2012


    For the past five weeks I've had symptoms, believing that family members and my one friend are energy vampires and some of them want to kill me, or at least use me for my energy. Now, I have had this friend (we have been friends for 12 years) who I have called every day for the...
    2Ann 2Ann
    51-55, F
    3 Responses May 27, 2012

    Through The Madness And Into The Light

    hello. im 22. i was diagnosed paranoide schizophrenic  when i was 20.i was in and out of hospitals for most of my teenage life..i was  extremely paranoide.. i thought everyone was against me... i thought everyone was talking about me.. wispering.. being cruel.. i lost alot of...
    curryfury curryfury
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2011

    My Experience With Psychosis

    I was diagnosed about two years ago with paranoid schizophrenia. It started with me smelling things that weren't there, like rotting garbage. Then I started hearing voices talking about me. It escalated from there. I imagined that I stunk up all my surroundings, even though I...
    xryss xryss
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2013

    This Is Different

    Been diagnosed for about two years now, doesn't change the idling in my mind. I've grown from this by looking at it from a different side trying to see a healthy me become sick or a sick me become healthy. I don't know where it all started I sort of blame my drug use but, nothing...
    scenicmind scenicmind
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Jul 24, 2012

    It Gets Better!

    When I was first diagnosed I believed I was being discovered by Hollywood and that Conan O'Brien wanted to marry me.  I was on an incrediable high.  The lows that followed still scare me.  Eventually I began using cocaine to "silence" the voices and when...
    ana2009 ana2009
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Oct 15, 2009

    Just Been Diagnosed With Paranoid Schizophrenia

    My 20 year old son has just been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. He is in hospital at the moment as he had refused to take medication. He hates noise. He says it hurts his ears. He also believes there is a conspiracy against him. Everyone is against him. They are...
    lolo39 lolo39
    3 Responses Apr 8, 2012

    Yeah. It's bad. Especially

    when I'm alone or I feel alone. Sometimes when I get anxious or nervous I have an episode.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 30, 2014

    This Illness Is Hell On Earth

    I have shared many a story with abuse victims who suffer this same terrible torment. I have been to psychology classes and heard the stories about the illness. its not an illness you want to have... no one who has it ever chooses it... its just a reality sometimes I think I...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2011

    Spiritual Illness?

    Hi everyone. I have been looking at different peoples views on schizophrenia and one guy said that schizophrenia is a spiritual illness. What do you guys think of that? He says that the delusions and voices for example are actually telling you what you need to focus on. If you...
    Tall2728 Tall2728
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

    Altered Mindz

    About 4 years ago I Got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. It was Definitely something I didn't ask for. It has been one hell of a ride that's for sure, all the meds doctors etc. not to mention it completely took everything I had worked so hard for. Everyone treats me so...
    Nickbonilla Nickbonilla
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 25, 2013

    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I know what paranoid schizophrenia is and what bipolar is all about.  No fun illnesses.  A positive outlook on these illnesses, they can be managed through meds.I'm waiting for something and if anything my cards will be displayed on the table.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 31, 2011
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