technically last night) a person came over to my home, and although they weren't the cause of my actual trauma, they were a huge reason why I left my old house because they scared me to the point where I couldn't live there anymore. He also causes me to have many flashbacks as I...
In The Shadow Of Fear
as I run from the shadows
The Shadow of terror
These manifest into a shadow.
The shadow stretches to the farthest corners of the Earth.
I cannot flea.
I cannot hide...
who was a drug addict until 7th grade. I live with my dad now. I've been through all sorts of counseling for self harm and depression since then, but I have never discussed my mom with anyone. Could I have ptsd from the conditions at her house?
because my grandpa always had one and let me drive it on his farm sometimes and i thought they were the coolest things around, throughout last summer it was a fight with my parents to let me get one of these trucks, i finally convinced them in september, it was bright red and...
I'm in the process of being divorced. Loosing a family for the second time before knowing what was wrong with me. Have almost no friends and no interest in life. If my kids even knew, they are what saves my life.
I was a prison officer in the 90s and was bashed around the head with a chair and for 2 years battled to get my life back on track. Here it is and 16 years later again assaulted at work and suffering the same thing again , its a long process to try and overcome the anxiety that...
I almost forgot I have complex PTSD.
are you kidding me?
why is it necessary to add the word 'complex' to my PTSD?
oh. right. that. ok. i get it.
I invited denial to sit at my table
i recently revoked that invitation
as its time to face...
I have had fallen out with almost all of them. I have four people that I can talk to and one of them I almost never get to see. I have revealed what is happening with my post traumatic stress but only these four know what is really going on. I don't trust my parents I am scared...
Some of them memories of the past. Some my greatest fears involving my son.
If I was in counseling they'd call it a breakthrough. But I'm not in counseling. So is this a breakdown?
The anxiety of it all during the day is overwhelming. The rock hard pit in my stomach makes me...
I was driving my son home from work one day in March of 2013. I had the green light and the girl who hit me had a green light but also a sign that said left turn must yield on solid green. The crash left me with no car and under a dr's care for over a year. Over a year later I...
as I got honest with myself because my husband has PTSD from the war, and I figured he would understand my own struggles. However, I had to minimize my expectations of support from him since he already learned to cope by numbing out. He is understanding but is in his own...
at the time) I was on my bike going to school (I was in 9th grade at the time I am now in 10th grade.) I stopped at an intersection (just a stop sign, no traffic light.) One car approached from the south just as I approached from the west. I saw the car and I assumed the driver...
normally and woke up with a broken face in the middle of the night. It's hard for me to think about it so that's all I'm going to say about that for now. Between a long and ongoing painful recovery and the complete mystery behind the event, you could say the event has...
Please help, my husband and I and our 2 girls were celebrating new year with my mum and her sister, her sisters husband and their daughter, all was ok until one of my abusers turned up. I was in instant panic and dismay that my mum welcomed him with open arms made him food and...