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I Suffer From Severe Depression

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    My Life Is Hell

    Some people think I have a good life because I seem to get everything I want, which is not true. Ever since my step dad moved in I've gotten more and more depressed because of the emotional abuse. He has never physically abused me, but he always does emotionally. I have even...
    MyArmHurts MyArmHurts 18-21, F 4 Responses May 21, 2012

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    slippingunder slippingunder 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    It's Back Again, I Thought I Was Getting Better

     I feel terrible right now, i dont like the anti depressants im taking, i want to be able to cry and cannot physically cry because of the pills. I need to release this emotion and cant, it's driving my mad.Its worse than before i started taking them. I feel islolated and am...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 24, 2009

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    I don't really know if I can call this living

    anymore. I don't have a social life, and my depression makes me feel like I'm drowning in my own emotions. The only break in the sadness is when I play video games. In games I'm not broken, or scarred, or a mistake. I'm perfect, a hero. That's probably pathetic. Scratch that, I...
    LoserLibs LoserLibs 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    ..........and This Just Added To My Pain. I Hope He R.i.p's Though.

    My brother was once part of a band called S.O.S, he was the foundation and they were the building blocks but then he pulled away, wanting to work alone but together they opened a tattoo and piercing parlour called S.O.S (the name of the band, also meaning Sound Of Silence.) Over...
    WordHustler1995 WordHustler1995 16-17, F Jun 25, 2012

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    And I feel it can't be fixed.

    I stopped taking my medicine because it didn't do ****. Stopped going to all my psychologist because they also didn't help. Maybe I just can't be fixed.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    I need to say something.

    Please realize when you tell a depressed person (who actually suffers from true depression), that "things will get better" or "you have people that care about you," that that does nothing to help a depressed person. I'm stating a point, and not attacking your wanting to help...
    Jpeavey Jpeavey 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 27

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    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 8 Responses Jun 30

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    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.

    You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, & you take out that sucide note you've written & rewritten over & over & over. You take out those razor blades, & you cut yourslef for...
    Vickypearl Vickypearl 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    The Definition Of Depression. YOU Are NOT Alone.

    This is the description I wrote of what it's like to live with mental illness, especially depression. It was supposed to be the introduction to the book I have yet to write. Please let know what you think, any constructive feedback is welcome. Let me know if you suffer with these...
    lastresort1349 lastresort1349 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    I've been depressed ever

    since I was an adolescent. I came from a family that valued academic achievement over all else, and I'm the black sheep of the family: I'm sensitive, I need love in my life, but I received virtually none from my parents. They didn't beat me or starve me or anything, it was like...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 7

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    I hate this...ill be fine

    and then ill just be extremely depressed. I just feel numb and invisible. Tomorrow i have school and im ignored..the people who i thought were my friends dont talk to me they act as if im not even there...im just like a ghost..even if i talk they dont listen..all my close...
    LonelyMisfitt LonelyMisfitt 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 14

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    You never get over depression it's like

    alcoholism. I take one day at a time. I have learned a few tricks to keep the monster at bay but nothing works forever.
    Legionicula Legionicula 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    Well .. It started last year .

    . The guy I love the most has left me,, before I knew him .. I never experienced love .. But everything changed when I knew he was the one.. He promised so much, he gave too much hope .. And then he just left!! He kept breaking my heart more and more and saying really hurtful...
    MemeyoBK MemeyoBK 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 19

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    Some days I just can't

    even get out of bed. Schoolwork is slowly piling up as I miss class after class. Treatment is being worked on, but it's moving at a slow pace. I'm just so tired of this.
    robopen10 robopen10 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    Sometime I am scared to be happy,

    because if I am happy I feel it will be taken from me and I will just fall from a higher points. At least when I numb myself they can't hurt me.
    Legionicula Legionicula 36-40, M Aug 10

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    Juss Sayin.

    I've experienced several episodes of depression, but only one that I deem the absolute lowest, most miserable time in my life. I've never hated myself so much as I did then. I was just absolutely disgusted by myself, my family, the world, everyone I knew. I hated everything. I...
    fxckup fxckup 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 6, 2012

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    Always Felt This Way

    I've been depressed since i was 8 yrs old. at 9 i started cutting, scratching, burning, scalding. at 11 i started to really come up with ideas on how to commit suicide and by 16 i was attempting the ideas of overdosing and driving recklessly almost 2 -3 times a week. in a matter...
    Sunflowers07 Sunflowers07 26-30 4 Responses Oct 9, 2008

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    When people say they're recovering,

    it isn't an invitation to their hearts. It dosent always mean the little brunette with scars on her wrist will never cut herself again. All recovering really means is that they're trying to get better. And if your the reason they fall and relapse again, I hope you regret it...
    BrookeCayla BrookeCayla 16-17, F Oct 6

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    I Feel Like The Ghost Of A Murdered Girl

    I wanted to be remembered as the girl who could always make you smile even thoughmy heart was broken.. The one who could brighten up your world.. Even if I couldn't brighten up my own. Love is like a Rose. You're so happy when you first get it, then like all life, the rose wilts...
    Teyiah Teyiah 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2012

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    I'm at a breaking point!

    My life has no value. It's pretty sad I think, that I'm nothing that I want to be. Everything that I am I disapprove of. Why am I this way? I want to be happy. Not the fake happy, but the genuine kind.
    lifeschallenge lifeschallenge 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    And I feel like my life is over.

    I just want to kill myself.
    failure86 failure86 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    Catch-22

    How does one recover from a near breakdown when living under the same circumstances that caused it in the first place?  Becoming financially dependent on my family due to a physical disability has been (and this situation has always been my vision of) a private hell and it...
    TexasUrbanPioneer TexasUrbanPioneer 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2009

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    I have suffered from depression

    since I was 10 . I have out bursts where I want to die. I have tried to kill myself but failed . I'm scared to tell anyone not even my family knows. Only a few of them because they walked in when I had a knife pointed to my chest ready to kill myself. As soon as they walked in...
    therealme101 therealme101 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 8

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    Every day of my life i get random episodes

    where i have to put on cheerful music to help me get out of a funk
    jesikahluv jesikahluv 18-21, F Sep 15

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    So I'm going to move up the date of my suicide

    plan to the 20. I'm really sorry to whoever supported me but I ain't feelin it
    slippingunder slippingunder 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    It's hard to remember

    when compare my life to others that I am comparing my "behind the scenes" to their "highlight reel"
    Legionicula Legionicula 36-40, M Aug 10

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    I have done since I was 13

    after my father died. I never knew what it was, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't know what to do, or who to talk too. Being the early 90s it was still treated by most people as you were soft or queer so I hid it. I bottled it up and wore a mask. So well that when I told my...
    Benderonbum Benderonbum 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 15

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    the worst feeling is wanting to cry,

    but you've held the pain in so long that the tears wont come out. your just left there to feel miserable without relief.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 28

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    feeling alone,i just want to cry.

    my skies are grey again i feel like crying,feels like everything around me is falling apart,the walls are slowly closing in it feels like i am suffocating. i'm slowly driving myself insane heading for a breakdown. no one sees it my mask hides it well. i just want an escape a...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    This is my story. Would mean the world

    if you would read it. I'm trying to get awareness about depression and my experiences. https://www.facebook.com/Jennifersally/posts/10153911739105553 If you could share and like my status on Facebook to bring attention to depression would mean a lot.
    Chinoi6 Chinoi6 18-21, F Mar 14

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    Invisible.

    Their are some days were I do nothing but cry, and today is one of those days. The place were I feel the happiest is in my dreams, it's the only place I can go to get away from reality for a few hours. I'm just so confused, it feels like I have no other emotions, I'm just in my...
    Simon232 Simon232 16-17, M 11 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I suffer depression bad.

    ..so hard to talk about to someone else as its awekward..well im posting this up...I have depression I think its almost severe..i pretend to be happy but im not..its fake..i deep down is a broken person..i cant break through it..i thought I did by I didn't...I think its money...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M a week ago

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    I can't help what I do

    but I try so hard... I've stopped eating.... I can feel my stomic eating it's self away I'm cutting more I've cut 30 times in less then an hour in one day I'm not myself anymore I'm dead. To only feel alive. I'm like a robot during the day And at night.... Is when the...
    IcedOverHeart IcedOverHeart 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    It's Becoming Unbearable.

    It's been seven years since I've started realizing how much, at the same time how little, impact I have on the world. Seven years since I began to doubt my worth. Seven years since I began to notice that I could sense, feel, and notice things that other people couldn't even...
    LochRaven LochRaven 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    Sad...lonely...ugly...fat...abused...

    Always being laughed at stared at made fun off. In my new school every time , no friends left out in almost everything. Bottling anger, sadness, hatred, jealousy. Its just all too much always crying myself to sleep every time. Broke up with a few guys already they get bored of me...
    Priscillakoh Priscillakoh 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I'm just so sick of everything.

    I deleted all my written work, especially my novel, because I am so angry at everything. I can't think straight..
    Fortiplex Fortiplex 16-17, M Jul 23

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    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    I'm nearing 30. This isn't some angst teen

    thing. I've tried to "snap out of it" since I was about 10. The thing is, yeah, I could blame it on the stuff that's happened to me in the past, and when I was younger I used to. I've also used outside circumstances dictate the root of my depression. But when it comes right down...
    whoreallycares85 whoreallycares85 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    I relapsed on friday

    and ive been crying almost non-stop. I feel like a worthless piece of ****, everyones gone, no one gives a **** about me, the chances of me finding someone that will accept my baby side are very slim 😔
    LonelyMisfitt LonelyMisfitt 13-15, F Oct 19

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    I hate living. It's so boring.

    Sometimes I feel that dying will be my only adventure.
    Scootr28 Scootr28 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Ive been depressed since i was 12.

    I just cant seem to stay happy for long
    AnanMia AnanMia 13-15, F Jun 18

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    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 30

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    I Dont Tell No One..

    i dont even know why i'm writing a story about this..i guess just because i hope, in putting these words down i will get something out of it..or i dont know...i'm not here looking for attention at all...okay i can't remember when i haven't been depressed..even when i was a kid i...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 17, 2011

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    I feel like I'm too close to my mom.

    I love her so much I'm scared to tell her how I really feel. She always cries when she sees me upset.
    Scootr28 Scootr28 18-21, M Jul 5

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    You don't even remember what you said to me

    that night. Or how it ****** me up. The words that made me cry for days. And just want to give up. I told you I was fine. I told you I didn't mind. I told you I was sorry. And I told you I would try harder. But I wasn't fine, and I'm still not. Those words you said replay over...
    BrookeCayla BrookeCayla 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    Depression sucks! I am bipolar,

    so I have the HIGH manics, and the CRASHING DOWN LOWS, and they BOTH suck, severally! I hate them, i hate it so much. I can usually deal with it pretty well, when I am medicated, but when I am not medicated, it makes it so much harder.
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F Oct 12

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    My Depression

    I have been depressed for almost as long as I remember. I guess it started in my early teens and it just never went away. I have been on antidepressants ever since. I hate mornings and I hate the rest of the day every day. I feel like I hate everything all the time. I used to...
    vicarious1 vicarious1 41-45, F 8 Responses Jul 5, 2012

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    Trapped In My Own Mind

    Lately, I have been even more depressed than usual. I don't feel like eating (even though I haven't lost any weight). I'm 17 and am in my second year of college, so, as you can see, academics have always been really important to me. But lately, I'm barely making it out of bed to...
    PrisonerInside PrisonerInside 18-21 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Just When You Think It'S Better..

    You know when you have a day where things seem to be looking up and then suddenly you're laying in bed, alone, and you crash right back down.. I can't even do it anymore. I can't get my hopes up. I can't seem to have one good full day. I have this new attitude of not taking...
    becausefishrule becausefishrule 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29, 2013

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