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I Suffer From Severe Depression

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    Catch-22

    How does one recover from a near breakdown when living under the same circumstances that caused it in the first place?  Becoming financially dependent on my family due to a physical disability has been (and this situation has always been my vision of) a private hell and it...
    TexasUrbanPioneer TexasUrbanPioneer 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2009

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    I can't tell if my medications aren't working

    anymore or if it's just something that's going to pass soon. I'm scared to feel like I did before. 2 years out of school already, I have to come back to it next year, otherwise I'll just end up crazier than I already am. My mind's always full of things that I can't even tell...
    lanadorkhas lanadorkhas 16-17, F Dec 27, 2014

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    Last time when I went to the Dr

    and had my medication switched to effexor I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    For those of you who didn't believe

    that I overdosed here's a pic of me in the hospital. For those of you who were encouraging me to kill myself or saying mean things. **** you. You have no idea what it's like to live my life. It's a struggle every ******* day. I didn't take enough pills to kill myself but last...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Always Felt This Way

    I've been depressed since i was 8 yrs old. at 9 i started cutting, scratching, burning, scalding. at 11 i started to really come up with ideas on how to commit suicide and by 16 i was attempting the ideas of overdosing and driving recklessly almost 2 -3 times a week. in a matter...
    Sunflowers07 Sunflowers07 26-30 4 Responses Oct 9, 2008

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    This is the second night in a row,

    that on my way home from work, I've wondered what it would feel like to drive off the bridge and into the icy river below. I've been on the same dose of Zoloft for almost 6 years. Why is this happening all of a sudden, again? I hate feeling this way. It's like there's someone...
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I am tired. I have no joy.

    No one calls or visits. I have not been held or hugged in years. I wish I could vanish into thin air.
    JessGF75 JessGF75 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I really need a friend

    or someone to vent to right now :(
    lanadorkhas lanadorkhas 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    People I barely know see I am depressed

    and they are worried for me. They go out of their way to ask if I'm doing okay and if I need anything. What scares me is that my parent's don't take it seriously. I'll tell them my depression is causing so much to go wrong in my life and they take it as an excuse. Yet, they'll...
    inaweek inaweek 18-21, F Apr 11

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    It's hard to remember

    when compare my life to others that I am comparing my "behind the scenes" to their "highlight reel"
    Bedmonster Bedmonster 70+, M Aug 10, 2014

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    Joy, joy! I am soooo happy today!

    Not. Life stinks. I hate depression soooooooooo freaking much.
    DrPepperFanatic97 DrPepperFanatic97 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    How can i sleep more hours per day?

    I suffer from severe depression since my country destroyed brutally my life, and now not even medication improves it. There is no way out. The economic crisis destroyed brutally my life and i cant do this anymore but i am still sorry for my family i am trying to hang on, but the...
    tikne tikne 26-30 Apr 18

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    I'm just so sick of everything.

    I deleted all my written work, especially my novel, because I am so angry at everything. I can't think straight..
    Fortiplex Fortiplex 16-17, M Jul 23, 2014

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    the worst feeling is wanting to cry,

    but you've held the pain in so long that the tears wont come out. your just left there to feel miserable without relief.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 28, 2014

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    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 8 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    feeling alone,i just want to cry.

    my skies are grey again i feel like crying,feels like everything around me is falling apart,the walls are slowly closing in it feels like i am suffocating. i'm slowly driving myself insane heading for a breakdown. no one sees it my mask hides it well. i just want an escape a...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    Just when I thought I was getting my life on

    track again things have to go wrong again!
    jaz007 jaz007 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I've noticed that all I do is look

    for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to

    breathe fine and tie it, To a tree, and tell it, "You belong to me, This ain't a noose it's a leash, And I have news for you, You must OBEY me!" #twentyonepilots
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 7, 2014

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    It's Becoming Unbearable.

    It's been seven years since I've started realizing how much, at the same time how little, impact I have on the world. Seven years since I began to doubt my worth. Seven years since I began to notice that I could sense, feel, and notice things that other people couldn't even...
    LochRaven LochRaven 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I sent him a message Two hours three hours A

    day. Maybe he's just busy, Maybe I'll just starve myself That'll fill the void right? A week Maybe I'll just pull out the lighter A little burn never hurt anyone A month My god he hasn't even read the message I'm not even in his thoughts A year The anxiety's gotten bad Baby...
    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F Mar 28

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    I have done since I was 13

    after my father died. I never knew what it was, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't know what to do, or who to talk too. Being the early 90s it was still treated by most people as you were soft or queer so I hid it. I bottled it up and wore a mask. So well that when I told my...
    Benderonbum Benderonbum 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    My life has reached a point

    where nothing makes me happy any more. My life is miserable. I know I am better off than people who don't have a home, or food to eat but that isn't the issue. My heart aches with sadness and nothing can cure it. My depression has been inside of me for four years now, and people...
    cobainkurt cobainkurt 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    I Dont Tell No One..

    i dont even know why i'm writing a story about this..i guess just because i hope, in putting these words down i will get something out of it..or i dont know...i'm not here looking for attention at all...okay i can't remember when i haven't been depressed..even when i was a kid i...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 17, 2011

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    The Definition Of Depression. YOU Are NOT Alone.

    This is the description I wrote of what it's like to live with mental illness, especially depression. It was supposed to be the introduction to the book I have yet to write. Please let know what you think, any constructive feedback is welcome. Let me know if you suffer with these...
    lastresort1349 lastresort1349 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    I don't know where to start this off,

    but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to change that, but nothing I do is good enough. I'm slowly starting to rethink all of this. I'm starting lose hope. I'm not seeing a...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I just can't do this whole life thing anymore

    so to those who find happiness in others pain congratulations you have finally broke me and I give up
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    I have suffered from depression

    since I was 10 . I have out bursts where I want to die. I have tried to kill myself but failed . I'm scared to tell anyone not even my family knows. Only a few of them because they walked in when I had a knife pointed to my chest ready to kill myself. As soon as they walked in...
    therealme101 therealme101 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 8, 2014

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    My dream is to prove everyone wrong.

    My goal is for everyone's eyes to be wide open with their expressions on their faces full of surprise and their mouths wide open. I'll impress them all. My wish is for everything to be different. I'll have more respect, people wouldn't think less of me, I'll be proud of...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    The best article I've read about depression yet!

    !! What I Wish People Knew about Depression By Therese J. Borchard Associate Editor robin-williamsSomeone recently asked me to write on what I wish people knew about depression, in light of Robin William’s suicide. Here’s my response. I wish people knew that depression...
    heavenlyskyflower heavenlyskyflower 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I was winning. My lovely

    and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a 'Demon'. something I could 'kill'. I came to the realization that I obsess heavily over this to the point that I hallucinate...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M Dec 14, 2014

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    Can Barely Function Anymore.

    All i wanted to do was battle this on my own.  I didnt want to become addicted to expensive medication, and have to deal with terrible withdrawl symtoms and side affects.  I can't afford a counselor, so i tried to make new friends, get outside, exercise, eat well, ect. to...
    dreamliving dreamliving 22-25, F 4 Responses May 29, 2011

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    I've been depressed ever

    since I was an adolescent. I came from a family that valued academic achievement over all else, and I'm the black sheep of the family: I'm sensitive, I need love in my life, but I received virtually none from my parents. They didn't beat me or starve me or anything, it was like...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Just When You Think It'S Better..

    You know when you have a day where things seem to be looking up and then suddenly you're laying in bed, alone, and you crash right back down.. I can't even do it anymore. I can't get my hopes up. I can't seem to have one good full day. I have this new attitude of not taking...
    becausefishrule becausefishrule 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29, 2013

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.

    I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a better word for the tree would be altruistic? Being altruistic is giving too much of yourself to someone else and not leaving...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 18, 2014

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    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F Feb 28

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    I can't breath. My depression is screaming

    inside of me. Im trapped by the need to act perfectly. Suppressing who I am to who I'm supposed to be. Falling in a pit so deep. I wonder if people can even see how empty I am underneath. How will I ever break free. Because I'm drowning inside of my own internal misery.
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46 18-21, F Mar 26

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 15, 2014

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Invisible.

    Their are some days were I do nothing but cry, and today is one of those days. The place were I feel the happiest is in my dreams, it's the only place I can go to get away from reality for a few hours. I'm just so confused, it feels like I have no other emotions, I'm just in my...
    Simon232 Simon232 16-17, M 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Some days I just can't

    even get out of bed. Schoolwork is slowly piling up as I miss class after class. Treatment is being worked on, but it's moving at a slow pace. I'm just so tired of this.
    robopen10 robopen10 18-21, M 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    Sometime I am scared to be happy,

    because if I am happy I feel it will be taken from me and I will just fall from a higher points. At least when I numb myself they can't hurt me.
    Bedmonster Bedmonster 70+, M 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    I remember thinking I was

    so depressed or sad all the time a couple years ago... Little did I know that I wasn't even close to the worst of it. Now, I suffer from sleeping too much or too little, NEVER feeling hungry (which also lead to my anemia and weight loss), horrible memory recall, reclusion (and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 2 days ago

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