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I Suffer From Severe Depression

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    I am tired. I have no joy.

    No one calls or visits. I have not been held or hugged in years. I wish I could vanish into thin air.
    JessGF75 JessGF75 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I always try to think good thoughts.

    I post happy things but today is not the day. I dont take those stupid pills the doctors give me because medicine is a lie !!!!
    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F Feb 28

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    You don't even remember what you said to me

    that night. Or how it ****** me up. The words that made me cry for days. And just want to give up. I told you I was fine. I told you I didn't mind. I told you I was sorry. And I told you I would try harder. But I wasn't fine, and I'm still not. Those words you said replay over...
    BrookeCayla BrookeCayla 16-17, F Oct 6, 2014

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    Last time when I went to the Dr

    and had my medication switched to effexor I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 8 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I can't breath. My depression is screaming

    inside of me. Im trapped by the need to act perfectly. Suppressing who I am to who I'm supposed to be. Falling in a pit so deep. I wonder if people can even see how empty I am underneath. How will I ever break free. Because I'm drowning inside of my own internal misery.
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46 18-21, F Mar 26

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    It's Back Again, I Thought I Was Getting Better

     I feel terrible right now, i dont like the anti depressants im taking, i want to be able to cry and cannot physically cry because of the pills. I need to release this emotion and cant, it's driving my mad.Its worse than before i started taking them. I feel islolated and am...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 24, 2009

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    Juss Sayin.

    I've experienced several episodes of depression, but only one that I deem the absolute lowest, most miserable time in my life. I've never hated myself so much as I did then. I was just absolutely disgusted by myself, my family, the world, everyone I knew. I hated everything. I...
    fxckup fxckup 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 6, 2012

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    It makes me feel so pathetic,

    lazy, dirty, and stupid.
    Ihaveanaccount Ihaveanaccount 18-21 Apr 4

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    The best article I've read about depression yet!

    !! What I Wish People Knew about Depression By Therese J. Borchard Associate Editor robin-williamsSomeone recently asked me to write on what I wish people knew about depression, in light of Robin William’s suicide. Here’s my response. I wish people knew that depression...
    heavenlyskyflower heavenlyskyflower 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    The Definition Of Depression. YOU Are NOT Alone.

    This is the description I wrote of what it's like to live with mental illness, especially depression. It was supposed to be the introduction to the book I have yet to write. Please let know what you think, any constructive feedback is welcome. Let me know if you suffer with these...
    lastresort1349 lastresort1349 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    pmo77 pmo77 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    How can i sleep more hours per day?

    I suffer from severe depression since my country destroyed brutally my life, and now not even medication improves it. There is no way out. The economic crisis destroyed brutally my life and i cant do this anymore but i am still sorry for my family i am trying to hang on, but the...
    tikne tikne 26-30 a week ago

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    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    Catch-22

    How does one recover from a near breakdown when living under the same circumstances that caused it in the first place?  Becoming financially dependent on my family due to a physical disability has been (and this situation has always been my vision of) a private hell and it...
    TexasUrbanPioneer TexasUrbanPioneer 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2009

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    the worst feeling is wanting to cry,

    but you've held the pain in so long that the tears wont come out. your just left there to feel miserable without relief.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 28, 2014

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    I Dont Tell No One..

    i dont even know why i'm writing a story about this..i guess just because i hope, in putting these words down i will get something out of it..or i dont know...i'm not here looking for attention at all...okay i can't remember when i haven't been depressed..even when i was a kid i...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 17, 2011

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    I was winning. My lovely

    and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a 'Demon'. something I could 'kill'. I came to the realization that I obsess heavily over this to the point that I hallucinate...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M Dec 14, 2014

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    Invisible.

    Their are some days were I do nothing but cry, and today is one of those days. The place were I feel the happiest is in my dreams, it's the only place I can go to get away from reality for a few hours. I'm just so confused, it feels like I have no other emotions, I'm just in my...
    Simon232 Simon232 16-17, M 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to

    breathe fine and tie it, To a tree, and tell it, "You belong to me, This ain't a noose it's a leash, And I have news for you, You must OBEY me!" #twentyonepilots
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 7, 2014

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    I've been depressed ever

    since I was an adolescent. I came from a family that valued academic achievement over all else, and I'm the black sheep of the family: I'm sensitive, I need love in my life, but I received virtually none from my parents. They didn't beat me or starve me or anything, it was like...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Depression is like a huge storm cloud,

    no matter how far you think you've gone, that cloud will catch up. :(
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Feb 25

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    Some days I just can't

    even get out of bed. Schoolwork is slowly piling up as I miss class after class. Treatment is being worked on, but it's moving at a slow pace. I'm just so tired of this.
    robopen10 robopen10 18-21, M 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    I don't know where to start this off,

    but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to change that, but nothing I do is good enough. I'm slowly starting to rethink all of this. I'm starting lose hope. I'm not seeing a...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    It's Becoming Unbearable.

    It's been seven years since I've started realizing how much, at the same time how little, impact I have on the world. Seven years since I began to doubt my worth. Seven years since I began to notice that I could sense, feel, and notice things that other people couldn't even...
    LochRaven LochRaven 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    I sent him a message Two hours three hours A

    day. Maybe he's just busy, Maybe I'll just starve myself That'll fill the void right? A week Maybe I'll just pull out the lighter A little burn never hurt anyone A month My god he hasn't even read the message I'm not even in his thoughts A year The anxiety's gotten bad Baby...
    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F Mar 28

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    I have done since I was 13

    after my father died. I never knew what it was, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't know what to do, or who to talk too. Being the early 90s it was still treated by most people as you were soft or queer so I hid it. I bottled it up and wore a mask. So well that when I told my...
    Benderonbum Benderonbum 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    I really need a friend

    or someone to vent to right now :(
    lanadorkhas lanadorkhas 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.

    I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a better word for the tree would be altruistic? Being altruistic is giving too much of yourself to someone else and not leaving...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 18, 2014

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    I can't tell if my medications aren't working

    anymore or if it's just something that's going to pass soon. I'm scared to feel like I did before. 2 years out of school already, I have to come back to it next year, otherwise I'll just end up crazier than I already am. My mind's always full of things that I can't even tell...
    lanadorkhas lanadorkhas 16-17, F Dec 27, 2014

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    I am extremely depressed.

    I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to my feet and I'm drowning. I just wanna curl up in bed and never ever wake again. But I have to act like I'm at least ok. I...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 30, 2014

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    http://www.experienceproject.

    com/stories/Am-Lonely/5249647 Please read this
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 14, 2014

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 15, 2014

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    My life has reached a point

    where nothing makes me happy any more. My life is miserable. I know I am better off than people who don't have a home, or food to eat but that isn't the issue. My heart aches with sadness and nothing can cure it. My depression has been inside of me for four years now, and people...
    cobainkurt cobainkurt 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    trying to be someone i'm not is hard maybe in a

    way it's who i wanna be. its an endless strugle,its so hard i never wanted to fit the mold of society but here i am doing it or atleast trying to fit in... gees here i am trying to be who you want me to be and being who you want me to be is far from who i wanna be, i'm doing it...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F Nov 30, 2014

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    Sometime I am scared to be happy,

    because if I am happy I feel it will be taken from me and I will just fall from a higher points. At least when I numb myself they can't hurt me.
    Bedmonster Bedmonster 70+, M 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    Joy, joy! I am soooo happy today!

    Not. Life stinks. I hate depression soooooooooo freaking much.
    DrPepperFanatic97 DrPepperFanatic97 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Can Barely Function Anymore.

    All i wanted to do was battle this on my own.  I didnt want to become addicted to expensive medication, and have to deal with terrible withdrawl symtoms and side affects.  I can't afford a counselor, so i tried to make new friends, get outside, exercise, eat well, ect. to...
    dreamliving dreamliving 22-25, F 4 Responses May 29, 2011

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    I'm just so sick of everything.

    I deleted all my written work, especially my novel, because I am so angry at everything. I can't think straight..
    Fortiplex Fortiplex 16-17, M Jul 23, 2014

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    I have suffered from depression

    since I was 10 . I have out bursts where I want to die. I have tried to kill myself but failed . I'm scared to tell anyone not even my family knows. Only a few of them because they walked in when I had a knife pointed to my chest ready to kill myself. As soon as they walked in...
    therealme101 therealme101 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 8, 2014

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    Just when I thought I was getting my life on

    track again things have to go wrong again!
    jaz007 jaz007 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    For those of you who didn't believe

    that I overdosed here's a pic of me in the hospital. For those of you who were encouraging me to kill myself or saying mean things. **** you. You have no idea what it's like to live my life. It's a struggle every ******* day. I didn't take enough pills to kill myself but last...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    My dream is to prove everyone wrong.

    My goal is for everyone's eyes to be wide open with their expressions on their faces full of surprise and their mouths wide open. I'll impress them all. My wish is for everything to be different. I'll have more respect, people wouldn't think less of me, I'll be proud of...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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