I Suffer From Severe Depression

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    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    you used to wonder
why would anyone want to

you used to laugh, love, smile and cry.
until things started
to turn to ****
you lost your spark, bit by bit.
the laughter, the joy, the beautiful smile
became dull and faded after a while.
feelings were replaced
as the spark burned out
by a cold, sharp...
    obliviousK obliviousK
    Nov 29, 2015

    It's Back Again, I Thought I Was Getting Better

     I feel terrible right now, i dont like the anti depressants im taking, i want to be able to cry and cannot physically cry because of the pills. I need to release this emotion and cant, it's driving my mad.Its worse than before i started taking them. I feel islolated and am...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Sep 24, 2009

    the worst feeling is wanting to cry,

    but you've held the pain in so long that the tears wont come out. your just left there to feel miserable without relief.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX
    16-17, F
    Oct 28, 2014

    For those of you who didn't believe

    that I overdosed here's a pic of me in the hospital. For those of you who were encouraging me to kill myself or saying mean things. **** you. You have no idea what it's like to live my life. It's a struggle every ******* day. I didn't take enough pills to kill myself but last...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Apr 22, 2015

    Last time when I went to the Dr

    and had my medication switched to effexor I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder
    deleted deleted
    Apr 5, 2015

    My dream is to prove everyone wrong.

    My goal is for everyone's eyes to be wide open with their expressions on their faces full of surprise and their mouths wide open. I'll impress them all. My wish is for everything to be different. I'll have more respect, people wouldn't think less of me, I'll be proud of...
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2015

    I don't know why I feel

    so bad, did I do something I don't remember, is there something wrong with my brain, all I can remember is hurting since as far back as I can remember somewhere in my childhood, it is so intense so strong sometimes I don't know how I get through a single day, for many years I...
    BornBAD928 BornBAD928
    51-55, M
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    The worst aspect of depression isn't the actual

    depression itself. It's not the lows, but the reactions of those around you to those lows. The "why didn't you just get out of bed?", or "just stop being sad". The "I have bad days too, I don't act that way". The false empathy, the inability to understand, and the immediate...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 18, 2015

    It makes me feel so pathetic,

    lazy, dirty, and stupid.
    Ihaveanaccount Ihaveanaccount
    Apr 4, 2015

    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2015

    My Life Is Hell

    Some people think I have a good life because I seem to get everything I want, which is not true. Ever since my step dad moved in I've gotten more and more depressed because of the emotional abuse. He has never physically abused me, but he always does emotionally. I have even...
    MyArmHurts MyArmHurts
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 21, 2012
    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Jun 30, 2014

    It's hard to remember

    when compare my life to others that I am comparing my "behind the scenes" to their "highlight reel"
    Bedmonster Bedmonster
    70+, M
    Aug 10, 2014

    As earlier as I can remember,

    from the time I was 6-15, my mother was a drunk and used to come home a lot and beat me, my older sister, and my brothers in very violent ways, saying we're worthless and pathetic. When I turned 15, my parents got divorced, my dad was given full custody of me, my sister, and my...
    MangaMinx MangaMinx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    You don't even remember what you said to me

    that night. Or how it ****** me up. The words that made me cry for days. And just want to give up. I told you I was fine. I told you I didn't mind. I told you I was sorry. And I told you I would try harder. But I wasn't fine, and I'm still not. Those words you said replay over...
    BrookeCayla BrookeCayla
    18-21, F
    Oct 6, 2014

    I got diagnosed with it on Friday.

    I haven't left my room since.. I don't want to eat, I don't want to see anyone and I just want to sleep. I'm so tired of talking to people. I'm just done. I have another appointment wit the therapist on Tuesday, she wants me to open up more. My thoughts and feelings on wanting...
    k33024w k33024w
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2016

    So i went off my meds last wedensday n

    now ive been feelin hella sick. Dizzy, queasy, feel high, cant concentrate, crazy mood swings. One second im screaming at my bf the next im crying like crazy then next im hella happy n smiley. I want off my meds but i feel like i should go back on, the dr was slowly takin me off...
    theresajanelle theresajanelle
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2015

    I have done since I was 13

    after my father died. I never knew what it was, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't know what to do, or who to talk too. Being the early 90s it was still treated by most people as you were soft or queer so I hid it. I bottled it up and wore a mask. So well that when I told my...
    Benderonbum Benderonbum
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    People I barely know see I am depressed

    and they are worried for me. They go out of their way to ask if I'm doing okay and if I need anything. What scares me is that my parent's don't take it seriously. I'll tell them my depression is causing so much to go wrong in my life and they take it as an excuse. Yet, they'll...
    inaweek inaweek
    22-25, F
    Apr 11, 2015

    I've been depressed ever

    since I was an adolescent. I came from a family that valued academic achievement over all else, and I'm the black sheep of the family: I'm sensitive, I need love in my life, but I received virtually none from my parents. They didn't beat me or starve me or anything, it was like...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    I just can't do this whole life thing anymore

    so to those who find happiness in others pain congratulations you have finally broke me and I give up
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

    I feel like I post on here

    when I need someone the most and no one is there
    obliviousK obliviousK
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    Depression Fighting to live is a serious thing.

    Sometimes I wish it was alcoholism because then your depression would be numbed. I have been going through what I call a tunnel of hell I wish I could experience trust and happiness. I have a big heart. I gave my trust, my love and time to so many people. I tried to be there...
    milizbeth milizbeth
    46-50, F
    Feb 4, 2016

    I got this app to get help from people similar

    to me. Please, if you need someone to talk to I am here.
    camjuan camjuan
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    Sometime I am scared to be happy,

    because if I am happy I feel it will be taken from me and I will just fall from a higher points. At least when I numb myself they can't hurt me.
    Bedmonster Bedmonster
    70+, M
    1 Response Aug 10, 2014

    Depression It hits you over the head like a

    sack of books Always feeling like you're getting dirty looks Why can't I figure it out? Why is there no way out Try and try as hard as you can Can't find the motivation for a good plan Wake up and feel like crying Why do I always feel like I'm dying? Why or what do I do...
    obliviousK obliviousK
    Nov 29, 2015

    The Definition Of Depression. YOU Are NOT Alone.

    This is the description I wrote of what it's like to live with mental illness, especially depression. It was supposed to be the introduction to the book I have yet to write. Please let know what you think, any constructive feedback is welcome. Let me know if you suffer with these...
    lastresort1349 lastresort1349
    22-25, F
    Oct 1, 2013

    I remember thinking I was

    so depressed or sad all the time a couple years ago... Little did I know that I wasn't even close to the worst of it. Now, I suffer from sleeping too much or too little, NEVER feeling hungry (which also lead to my anemia and weight loss), horrible memory recall, reclusion (and...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    I'm weak and do not deserve to live.

    I have lost all that ever meant anything to me. I'm a total loser pretty soon I will be homeless because I can't get a job and when I do get a job I keep getting fired.
    amador01 amador01
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 27, 2015

    I've noticed that all I do is look

    for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    I genuinely can't find a reason to keep going.

    They say the depression won't last forever. And I used to believe that because it would go away. But it never failed to come back. And every time it did, it would be stronger and more severe and stay longer. I really wish I could find something to keep going. Everything that I...
    inaweek inaweek
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    I have suffered from depression

    since I was 10 . I have out bursts where I want to die. I have tried to kill myself but failed . I'm scared to tell anyone not even my family knows. Only a few of them because they walked in when I had a knife pointed to my chest ready to kill myself. As soon as they walked in...
    therealme101 therealme101
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2014

    feeling alone,i just want to cry.

    my skies are grey again i feel like crying,feels like everything around me is falling apart,the walls are slowly closing in it feels like i am suffocating. i'm slowly driving myself insane heading for a breakdown. no one sees it my mask hides it well. i just want an escape a...
    sixlives sixlives
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2014

    How can i sleep more hours per day?

    I suffer from severe depression since my country destroyed brutally my life, and now not even medication improves it. There is no way out. The economic crisis destroyed brutally my life and i cant do this anymore but i am still sorry for my family i am trying to hang on, but the...
    tikne tikne
    Apr 18, 2015

    Havent felt this way in a long LONG time.

    Been months really. But something happened the other day that put me right back where I was and I dont know if Im going to shake it this time...... My best friend, or the person I assumed to be my best friend, just broke up with me.....said that she didnt feel the same way...
    Musicfreak2011 Musicfreak2011
    Oct 2, 2015

    Some days I just can't

    even get out of bed. Schoolwork is slowly piling up as I miss class after class. Treatment is being worked on, but it's moving at a slow pace. I'm just so tired of this.
    robopen10 robopen10
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 7, 2014

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    My mind is constantly telling me to just give up

    and stop pretending. I cut all the time and I can't sleep, all I think about is how ugly I am and how fat I am... Life would be better if I was gone
    Sadd363 Sadd363
    18-21, F
    Aug 1, 2015
    HalfVenti HalfVenti
    16-17, F
    Feb 28, 2015

    I was winning. My lovely

    and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a 'Demon'. something I could 'kill'. I came to the realization that I obsess heavily over this to the point that I hallucinate...
    HozierAndMumford HozierAndMumford
    18-21, M
    Dec 14, 2014

    I can't breath. My depression is screaming

    inside of me. Im trapped by the need to act perfectly. Suppressing who I am to who I'm supposed to be. Falling in a pit so deep. I wonder if people can even see how empty I am underneath. How will I ever break free. Because I'm drowning inside of my own internal misery.
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46
    18-21, F
    Mar 26, 2015

    Just When You Think It'S Better..

    You know when you have a day where things seem to be looking up and then suddenly you're laying in bed, alone, and you crash right back down.. I can't even do it anymore. I can't get my hopes up. I can't seem to have one good full day. I have this new attitude of not taking...
    becausefishrule becausefishrule
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 29, 2013
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2016

    I always try to think good thoughts.

    I post happy things but today is not the day. I dont take those stupid pills the doctors give me because medicine is a lie !!!!
    amberlxl amberlxl
    18-21, F
    Nov 25, 2014

    I dont think anyone truly understands how dark

    a place my mind goes sometimes. I mean there are times I don't even understand it so.how could anyone else? I hate this so much.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 30, 2016

    My body feels heavy. I struggle to pick up my

    feet and be productive. My head aches 24/7 and my back is constantly sour. I'm only at peace when I sleep. I thought about suicide last night...... But I told myself I could live another day. I'm wasting away, food taste like nothing and the feeling of my hungry stomach...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 18, 2015


    Their are some days were I do nothing but cry, and today is one of those days. The place were I feel the happiest is in my dreams, it's the only place I can go to get away from reality for a few hours. I'm just so confused, it feels like I have no other emotions, I'm just in my...
    Simon232 Simon232
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Oct 27, 2013

    Just when I thought I was getting my life on

    track again things have to go wrong again!
    jaz007 jaz007
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 13, 2015

    I started college back in 2014; I was an

    archaeology student working on my general studies. I grew up in poor alcoholic family. I came in pretty swiftly, confidently and totally my freshmen year. Made a bunch of friends and was doing good scholastically. I explored alot of things... going out to parties, having college...
    LucasW58 LucasW58
    22-25, M
    Mar 12, 2016
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