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I Suffer From Severe Depression

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    You don't even remember what you said to me

    that night. Or how it ****** me up. The words that made me cry for days. And just want to give up. I told you I was fine. I told you I didn't mind. I told you I was sorry. And I told you I would try harder. But I wasn't fine, and I'm still not. Those words you said replay over...
    BrookeCayla BrookeCayla 16-17, F Oct 6, 2014

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    I got this app to get help from people similar

    to me. Please, if you need someone to talk to I am here.
    camjuan camjuan 16-17, F 1 Response May 13

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    It's Becoming Unbearable.

    It's been seven years since I've started realizing how much, at the same time how little, impact I have on the world. Seven years since I began to doubt my worth. Seven years since I began to notice that I could sense, feel, and notice things that other people couldn't even...
    LochRaven LochRaven 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    How can i sleep more hours per day?

    I suffer from severe depression since my country destroyed brutally my life, and now not even medication improves it. There is no way out. The economic crisis destroyed brutally my life and i cant do this anymore but i am still sorry for my family i am trying to hang on, but the...
    tikne tikne 26-30 Apr 18

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    I don't know where to start this off,

    but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to change that, but nothing I do is good enough. I'm slowly starting to rethink all of this. I'm starting lose hope. I'm not seeing a...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Can Barely Function Anymore.

    All i wanted to do was battle this on my own.  I didnt want to become addicted to expensive medication, and have to deal with terrible withdrawl symtoms and side affects.  I can't afford a counselor, so i tried to make new friends, get outside, exercise, eat well, ect. to...
    dreamliving dreamliving 22-25, F 4 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Sometime I am scared to be happy,

    because if I am happy I feel it will be taken from me and I will just fall from a higher points. At least when I numb myself they can't hurt me.
    Bedmonster Bedmonster 70+, M 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    the worst feeling is wanting to cry,

    but you've held the pain in so long that the tears wont come out. your just left there to feel miserable without relief.
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 28, 2014

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    I remember thinking I was

    so depressed or sad all the time a couple years ago... Little did I know that I wasn't even close to the worst of it. Now, I suffer from sleeping too much or too little, NEVER feeling hungry (which also lead to my anemia and weight loss), horrible memory recall, reclusion (and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to

    breathe fine and tie it, To a tree, and tell it, "You belong to me, This ain't a noose it's a leash, And I have news for you, You must OBEY me!" #twentyonepilots
    yonnie97 yonnie97 18-21, F Dec 7, 2014

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    Just when I thought I was getting my life on

    track again things have to go wrong again!
    jaz007 jaz007 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    I really need a friend

    or someone to vent to right now :(
    secretgirl52 secretgirl52 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Some days I just can't

    even get out of bed. Schoolwork is slowly piling up as I miss class after class. Treatment is being worked on, but it's moving at a slow pace. I'm just so tired of this.
    robopen10 robopen10 18-21, M 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    My dream is to prove everyone wrong.

    My goal is for everyone's eyes to be wide open with their expressions on their faces full of surprise and their mouths wide open. I'll impress them all. My wish is for everything to be different. I'll have more respect, people wouldn't think less of me, I'll be proud of...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    For those of you who didn't believe

    that I overdosed here's a pic of me in the hospital. For those of you who were encouraging me to kill myself or saying mean things. **** you. You have no idea what it's like to live my life. It's a struggle every ******* day. I didn't take enough pills to kill myself but last...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 22

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    The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein.

    I heard it was about a tree and a boy. The tree was generous. Very generous, in fact, it may have been too generous. Perhaps a better word for the tree would be altruistic? Being altruistic is giving too much of yourself to someone else and not leaving...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 18, 2014

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    I am tired. I have no joy.

    No one calls or visits. I have not been held or hugged in years. I wish I could vanish into thin air.
    JessGF75 JessGF75 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I've noticed that all I do is look

    for anything depressing like music and movies and etc its like my mind wants to be depressed :( if that makes any sense
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    feeling alone,i just want to cry.

    my skies are grey again i feel like crying,feels like everything around me is falling apart,the walls are slowly closing in it feels like i am suffocating. i'm slowly driving myself insane heading for a breakdown. no one sees it my mask hides it well. i just want an escape a...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    It's Back Again, I Thought I Was Getting Better

     I feel terrible right now, i dont like the anti depressants im taking, i want to be able to cry and cannot physically cry because of the pills. I need to release this emotion and cant, it's driving my mad.Its worse than before i started taking them. I feel islolated and am...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 24, 2009

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    I have done since I was 13

    after my father died. I never knew what it was, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't know what to do, or who to talk too. Being the early 90s it was still treated by most people as you were soft or queer so I hid it. I bottled it up and wore a mask. So well that when I told my...
    Benderonbum Benderonbum 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    I just can't do this whole life thing anymore

    so to those who find happiness in others pain congratulations you have finally broke me and I give up
    NoahBarwell4 NoahBarwell4 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    It's hard to remember

    when compare my life to others that I am comparing my "behind the scenes" to their "highlight reel"
    Bedmonster Bedmonster 70+, M Aug 10, 2014

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    Invisible.

    Their are some days were I do nothing but cry, and today is one of those days. The place were I feel the happiest is in my dreams, it's the only place I can go to get away from reality for a few hours. I'm just so confused, it feels like I have no other emotions, I'm just in my...
    Simon232 Simon232 16-17, M 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I'm just so sick of everything.

    I deleted all my written work, especially my novel, because I am so angry at everything. I can't think straight..
    Fortiplex Fortiplex 16-17, M Jul 23, 2014

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    People I barely know see I am depressed

    and they are worried for me. They go out of their way to ask if I'm doing okay and if I need anything. What scares me is that my parent's don't take it seriously. I'll tell them my depression is causing so much to go wrong in my life and they take it as an excuse. Yet, they'll...
    inaweek inaweek 18-21, F Apr 11

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    This is the second night in a row,

    that on my way home from work, I've wondered what it would feel like to drive off the bridge and into the icy river below. I've been on the same dose of Zoloft for almost 6 years. Why is this happening all of a sudden, again? I hate feeling this way. It's like there's someone...
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I genuinely can't find a reason to keep going.

    They say the depression won't last forever. And I used to believe that because it would go away. But it never failed to come back. And every time it did, it would be stronger and more severe and stay longer. I really wish I could find something to keep going. Everything that I...
    inaweek inaweek 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I can't breath. My depression is screaming

    inside of me. Im trapped by the need to act perfectly. Suppressing who I am to who I'm supposed to be. Falling in a pit so deep. I wonder if people can even see how empty I am underneath. How will I ever break free. Because I'm drowning inside of my own internal misery.
    AwkwardTurtle46 AwkwardTurtle46 18-21, F Mar 26

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    http://www.experienceproject.

    com/stories/Am-Lonely/5249647 Please read this
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 14, 2014

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    Last time when I went to the Dr

    and had my medication switched to effexor I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M Apr 5

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    My body feels heavy. I struggle to pick up my

    feet and be productive. My head aches 24/7 and my back is constantly sour. I'm only at peace when I sleep. I thought about suicide last night...... But I told myself I could live another day. I'm wasting away, food taste like nothing and the feeling of my hungry stomach...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 18

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    It makes me feel so pathetic,

    lazy, dirty, and stupid.
    Ihaveanaccount Ihaveanaccount 22-25 Apr 4

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    Just When You Think It'S Better..

    You know when you have a day where things seem to be looking up and then suddenly you're laying in bed, alone, and you crash right back down.. I can't even do it anymore. I can't get my hopes up. I can't seem to have one good full day. I have this new attitude of not taking...
    becausefishrule becausefishrule 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29, 2013

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    I was winning. My lovely

    and I fought it away, its been at bay for two years, minus the inevitable relapse. This isn't relapse. I fought my depression by personifying it into a 'Demon'. something I could 'kill'. I came to the realization that I obsess heavily over this to the point that I hallucinate...
    HozierAndMumford HozierAndMumford 18-21, M Dec 14, 2014

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    The worst aspect of depression isn't the actual

    depression itself. It's not the lows, but the reactions of those around you to those lows. The "why didn't you just get out of bed?", or "just stop being sad". The "I have bad days too, I don't act that way". The false empathy, the inability to understand, and the immediate...
    littlelostfox littlelostfox 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    I always try to think good thoughts.

    I post happy things but today is not the day. I dont take those stupid pills the doctors give me because medicine is a lie !!!!
    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    HalfVenti HalfVenti 13-15, F Feb 28

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I'm weak and do not deserve to live.

    I have lost all that ever meant anything to me. I'm a total loser pretty soon I will be homeless because I can't get a job and when I do get a job I keep getting fired.
    amador01 amador01 46-50, F 2 Responses May 27

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    The Definition Of Depression. YOU Are NOT Alone.

    This is the description I wrote of what it's like to live with mental illness, especially depression. It was supposed to be the introduction to the book I have yet to write. Please let know what you think, any constructive feedback is welcome. Let me know if you suffer with these...
    lastresort1349 lastresort1349 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 6

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    My Life Is Hell

    Some people think I have a good life because I seem to get everything I want, which is not true. Ever since my step dad moved in I've gotten more and more depressed because of the emotional abuse. He has never physically abused me, but he always does emotionally. I have even...
    MyArmHurts MyArmHurts 18-21, F 4 Responses May 21, 2012

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