I Suffer From the Haunting Pains of My Past

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    I'm scared, terrified,

    traumatized, and sick. I wish I had more words to add how completely humiliated and terrified I am right now. Why? WHY?! I thought I was happy now, I thought everything's going well for me but no, they just keep coming back. I want nothing in this world than to erase my past and...
    GirlWithThePWSBM GirlWithThePWSBM
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2014


    I wonder what it would be like if my life was much worse. To actually grow up the way I felt like I grew up, locked in a room, in the dark, with nobody to talk to. There's nothing that will ever change what happened, or who or whatever I am now. Nobody can get close to me. I'll...
    LifelessSource LifelessSource
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2012


    I wish it was that easy to just shut off that part of my life or to forget it completely
    georshar georshar
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Jun 8, 2009

    I Suffered

    I suffered,Haunting pains,My past,Been hell,Earthquakes and all,Somehow,Don't know how,The future's great,One thing,I know,The pain's gone.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 8, 2012

    Every single mistake I have ever made follows me

    and sometimes I can't stop thinking about them and makes me think people are constantly judging and talking about me in a negative way it makes me so upset and depressed.
    oxcaptivatedxo oxcaptivatedxo
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2014

    Yep It Is Hard

    i to suffer from my past.. an it is hard when you cant shake it... i find myself waking in the night screaming no...an then i feel the tear roll down my face... 
    streak74 streak74
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Aug 1, 2010

    Restless Night

    To make a long story short my father abused me and my brothers. In a silent room I swear I hear his screams and my siblings cries. I can't be in silence, I need sound I need to know its not him he isn't there. At night I can't sleep I'm restless. I'm so use to having my mother...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2013

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    Some of it was because I was naive and trusting, and believed everyone had good morsls, and the rest is because I grew cold from the pain, became stupid and careless. But im warming up now.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 21, 2013


    We were talking, laughing…stealing the night Happy in a brief moment we hold so tight We smile, we dream… the time was bright But all of sudden, it was filled with fright Someone blemished the moment we share Someone made my life even more unfair This person...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jul 29, 2010

    Self Torture

    When you feel pain, you don't have to pretend. When I feel pain, I have to pretend. I have hide and cover my tears. If he's happy now, then there's no reason for me to keep staying on the same ground. I should be happy for him. Of course. My mind is full of ramblings. Jeff foster...
    michidabrainfreezer michidabrainfreezer
    26-30, F
    May 30, 2013

    I Do

        i am haunted by my past .  fooster abuse , my mothers death , middle school , high shcool .
    deleted deleted
    Jul 29, 2009

    I Wish..

    I wish I could let go of my past! And live like it never had happened. At the same time I don’t the things I have experience has made me to who I am. Even though I wish I was different from what I`m like. I have a wall around me and no one can break trough it. Sure I trust...
    littlebirdG littlebirdG
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 13, 2011

    I Do.......yes.

     But  I embrace my pain  and use it for good.     I was born in a lemon,   I lived my life in a lemon, and I now p.i.s.s. lemonade !    Learn from the pain.  You live and you learn, or life was for nothing.
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Apr 29, 2009

    From A Whisper To A Scream... The Silence Is Deafening

    I wake another day, exhausted by another sleepless night, a sound, a noise, a blast, jolts a memory to the surface, I panic, I’m anxious, I am distressed. I check myself, push the feelings down, repress them, I remind myself I'm safe. The smell of pine disinfectant stirs a...
    badbear69 badbear69
    51-55, M
    9 Responses Aug 7, 2010
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