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I Suffer With Anxiety and Depression

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    I think I've promised myself that

    if I end up in a full time job and single, I'll swallow sleeping pills, go to sleep and never wake up. I don't see the point in working full time by myself. Coming home to no-one. Nope. Won't do it. Can't do it. Even now I cried just saying it out loud. Have to see how the year...
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M Oct 4, 2015

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    Severe...

    ...they're not, thank God, but I've been there and back ever since my father and stepmother turned on me at the age of four. 1958 turned out - along with many others - not to be a good year for me.
    eleanorssong eleanorssong 56-60, F Sep 27, 2012

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    There Have Been Bad Days

    and i will proabally always have them.but thanks to all my freinds,i`ll get through them.i`ll still be standing when the dust settels.and i`ll use my experience to try and help others.the road has been dark,without any light at all,but i`m still standing.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Mar 28, 2009

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    The pain courses through her with every beat of

    her heart, Each step, each breath. Excruciating. A noose fastened tightly around her neck, it drags her through life. Suffocating, piercing her skin, she bleeds out the anguish and ugliness that of which consumes her. Each pulse and scream, the bursting of a vein. Such feeling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    Onehappygirl is the username I chose.

    They say that you can speak into existence & maybe then I will be happy one day & not just happy for an hour or a day, but for life. I'm so sick of having the high periods when i'm happy and excited and then something happens & I crash with anxiety & depression again. I'm so...
    onehappygirl onehappygirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Learning How To Cope

    Out of nowhere your heart starts to beat extremely fast, so fast you can hear it from inside your body. Your mind begins to race with negative thoughts, you find it hard to breathe, your body temperature rises and you begin to feel light headed. For me, my mouth gets really dry...
    Tnsouthernsweetie Tnsouthernsweetie 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    I have always battled with mild depression

    but I think I am now suffering from anxiety. I had a panic attack before so I know what it feels like and this is not the same. Or maybe it's not at that point yet. My heart has been beating fast, I can't sleep at night, I have chills and I sweat. There could be other factors I...
    thatangie thatangie 31-35, F Aug 2, 2015

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    Depression is when you don't really care about

    anything. Anxiety is when you too much about everything. Having both is just torture. Having both is staying in bed because you don't want to go to school & then panicking because you don't want to fail. Having both is wanting to go see your friends because you don't want to...
    spookyclair spookyclair 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2014

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    Depression is worse for me.

    I'm depressed again. I'm thinking of my boyfriend, I miss him already. I've moved into my new house and the people here are ok. I'm hoping it'll get better. I honestly just feel like crying... I don't feel good at all. For **** sake I'm tearing up writing this... I don't know if...
    Skin0Man1 Skin0Man1 18-21, M Oct 4, 2015

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    Happy Days

    i am so happy now things are going so well my conversational skills are brilliant n i cant keep my chin up high enough but its took so much work to get here so all the pain anxiety was wroth it enough though it was a total waste of time im happy with the effort i put into my...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Dec 13, 2012

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    Can I Make Things Even Better

    I have been trying to face my fears, do the best thing for me and share my feelings and ask for help. its definately made a difference but sometimes the buzz is gone as i dont know what do in order to get it up all i mainly think about is others' expectations which should be...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Oct 24, 2012

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    High Then Low

    my confidence has increased so much from where it was i remeber being so sacred of putting down my hair and going to the shop and talking or getting to know people but now i can do all them things which is amazing but i guess im not happy because im not on the same confidence...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Nov 8, 2012

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    Whenever I am sad (which is all the time) I

    feel like I'm worthless and then I start coming up with ideas on how to kill my self. And basically the only reason I'm here is because of my only friend. I'm not here cause of family...they always put me down and hit me and idk what to do any more. And that's why I have...
    music5 music5 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2014

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    how come when ever i feel like im getting close

    to someone it just seems to blow up in my face. just when i start to feel like i can live a normal life i get knocked back to rock bottom.
    daddyshome26 daddyshome26 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    so about a month ago i was speaking to a

    counselor at my college and told her that i was dealing with a lot of anxiety and that it was keeping me from being able to study for a test that i had the next day. at some point in her response she literally told me that since i was in college i had to learn to get through it...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Jan 25, 2015

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      So I have anxiety

    and depression. I've had both for a very long time, about 8 of my 17 years to be precise. My depression was triggered at the age of 8, but didn't become a problem for me until I was about 13. As for anxiety, that entered my life when I was about 9 or 10 years old. Both are a...
    Rastelle Rastelle 16-17, F Dec 28, 2015

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    Depressions Happy Ending

    If you were to actually see, I would seem like I have a perfect life. My parents are still together and they do not fight. I am not abused. I do not do drug and I have quite a few friends. This seems all great, but I am a very odd child. I see things different and I do things...
    Dahlias13roses Dahlias13roses 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2009

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    School

    im doin great the only thing that is annoyin is how much it interferes with my schoolwork but if im goin to do hw it taks me hours but i put in my best effort so thats ok. i always get streessed out as i have exams in a few weeks and it tryin to learn everything but i know il do...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Nov 20, 2012

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    So, I was diagnosed with depression

    and anxiety in December of 2013. I knew I had had it for long before being diagnosed with it, I was just so scared to tell people how I felt. I always had something/someone to blame. Of course these things I blamed my depression and anxiety on were contributors, I kept pushing...
    atlrauhlin atlrauhlin 16-17, F May 6, 2014

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    Maintainin Improvin

    things are goin well im off school so i hve mre tym to get my head around things ive gt a eng lit test cmin up so il do a bit everyday n cover all the work ive dne so far this year last nyt ive startyed to get over my obession cus im ready now to let go even in 1 dAay ive made...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Dec 20, 2012

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    Depression is many different factors

    for me that are all bundled up into one big mess. I feel like I am drowning and everyone is watching but no one knows I'm actually drowning. My Mom always tries to cheer me up and screams at me when things don't go her way, or when she likes something about me and I change it...
    sassysarah98 sassysarah98 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    Bipolar, depression, de-personalisation,

    anxiety, stress; all words used in this modern world to describe unhappiness..what if these weren't psychological conditions but the mind saying that it's not content living this way, maybe mankind shouldn't be living like this. Perhaps we have moved so far in one direction that...
    Wildfocus Wildfocus 31-35, M Sep 1, 2014

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    Tonight is going to be

    yet another night when I can't even think about sleeping until a stupid time because as long as I don't sleep then it's not tomorrow (does that make sense?). I'm really struggling with just being at school right now, never mind classes. I have counselling tomorrow so I have to...
    MarniBear MarniBear 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2014

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    My Depression and anxiety

    """""""""""""""""""""""" Is this caused by the longing to do the below but feeling unable to do so? Feeling a pull so strong that it has begun to consume me as I'm not acting upon the pull, not listening to my soul...
    Wildfocus Wildfocus 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 1, 2014

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    New Year

    pretty happy right now now its time to think of new years resolutions mine are to work harder to school and to maintain my re;lationships because i dont wanna hve any regrets at the end of august when i get my results il want to be happy with wat i get but if i dnt get good in...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Cracking Christmas

    things are always getting better im so happy now with how far ive come i remeber bein on fb and looking at everyone elses profiles n bein so jealous of what they were doin n how they looked but now im enough for me i dnt care wiether they look better than me r havin a better tym...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Dec 27, 2012

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    Dealing

    I deal with my anxiety and depression and I have my many friends to thank. Although I do not know of any of them having a EP account. This is for you. You are so amazing and I thank you guys so much. I also want to point out one of my best guy friends, whom I confided my nearing...
    singwithyourheart1331 singwithyourheart1331 16-17, F Dec 30, 2008

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    Getting Bettter

    well things are definatly getting beetter ive come so far from were in was i usted to be someone who put there head down all the time iwas so sacred 24/7 it was horrible i just didnt want to live it was so ahrd but now everyday is a blessing a opportunity to do better but the...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Nov 26, 2012

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    my anxiety has gotten

    so bad that i cant even leave my house without panicking. going into stores with alot of people scares me **** less. i tell myself that I'm invisible, in an idiotic effort to calm myself, only to be noticed, feel a powerful burst of shame, fear, embarrassment, panic, insult and...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F Sep 10, 2015

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    A Start To My Story

    I started getting panic attacks early, I was 14. Even at discos before then I had minor ones that disabled me and left me running home to my mother. My parents divorced wen I was 6 and I still find it as hard as ever to cope with. Having to go from one house to the other and...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 22-25, F Nov 16, 2013

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    "I know it's crazy to believe in silly

    things, but it's not that easy."  I love this song for certain lyrics, which remind me of how I feel when I find myself consumed by anxiety, depression, numbness, and doubt. I thought I'd share it so that others could connect with it, too.I'm new to EP, and I...
    littlelostfox littlelostfox 22-25, F May 28, 2015

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    Everyday Anxiet Part 2

    i have deceide to wrie part 2 of this story to show myself and others how far i have come. also in an attempt to increase my flutuating confidence. read part 1 then two. home: i definately still have fear in me but it has greatly decreased, now going down the driveway i walk...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Nov 8, 2012

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    Up Down All Around

    had a parent teacher meeeting n i thought everything that they were goia say was bad they said im gona pass n get a A in spanish and B in eng well if i put in the work. its just hard to sit down n revise cut im constantly puttin myself down so durin revisin i thinkin its too...
    lyndsayh111 lyndsayh111 16-17, F Nov 14, 2012

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    The human skin can be hard to live in.

    .. Which is why most of us tear it open. Talk? Someone...
    Elliemaex Elliemaex 18-21, F Jul 7, 2014

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    when i tell people i have bad anxiety and stress, they always ask what ive got to be stressed about.. no one has any understanding or empathy. i envy people who go about their...
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    You know you've hit depression when: - you know deep down inside you will be ok but you still feel awful. - you know people love you but it doesn't feel like they do. - you know...
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    In my dream last night, one part of it was me reading more about anxiety online. There was a list of anxieties experienced by people who actually had anxiety disorder, and a list...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been looking for a group like this for a while. My wife suffers from chronic pain due to Chari Malformation and other issues in her back and neck. Chronic pain has been a part...
    scummins1964 scummins1964 51-55, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been trying to ignore my depression but i feel like im breaking
    MusicalGirl24 MusicalGirl24 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I have been married twice and I'm in a wheelchair so I don't like being alone in the dark so when I have to wait for the bus to go home from either Work or the collegeX have a...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    i empathize with anyone out there dealing with it.
    sunriseinmyeyes sunriseinmyeyes 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I am not well. I have lost hope. I have lost the fight. My last chance is this Monday but I'm scared I won't be able to wait till then. I am so alone and scared. I hurt! I'm so...
    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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