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Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    I'm Already Dead So Why Even Try

    I know no one will probably read this but I just need to tell my story. And maybe some advice too. So here it goes... About two weeks something happened to me. Something bad happened. There was this guy, he wanted more than just kissing. I freaked out and I asked him about a...
    ithinkineedhelpbutiwontadmitit ithinkineedhelpbutiwontadmitit
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2012

    I Don't Wanna Be Alive Anymore :(

    It's taken me a lot of courage to come on here and share my story with you. I don't know even know how to start this off as I am not very good at explaining things but I will do the best I can. I have been living with my Dad for the past 3 years surviving on SSI income. It's very...
    Dustin001 Dustin001
    22-25, M
    Aug 4, 2013

    Blood To Save Two Lives, Or Still Only One?

    May 5th, 2013: In that evening I unexpectedly felt the desire to die. Not much to stay for, and for what I know of what awaits me in death, I see no wrong in desiring rest. A final success, to a power of mine I have been trying to master for a long time. Astral projection. I had...
    ZarDashi ZarDashi
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 7, 2013


    she heard voices inside her head telling her that she was worthless and better off dead she cried herself to sleep each night prepared herself for another fight her scars were deep they pinched her during her sleep she had a knife under her bed those cyber bullies' texts...
    Scarredforlife13 Scarredforlife13
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 11, 2013


    Every day I wake up and the second I open my eyes and realize that i have to go another day - it crushes me inside. I'm not living. I'm an empty shell that goes about the basic everyday routines of life just to avoid detection. I'm not happy, I find no enjoyment in anything - the...
    lostmyhope lostmyhope
    Apr 10, 2013

    I have been beaten badly

    as a child and began to attempt suicide since six years old. I know it sounds hard to believe but I would hear of how people died and try to die the way they did. I am 47 now and I hit and beat my self to release this god awful pain. I wish I were dead but I am not strong enough...
    duckiequack duckiequack
    46-50, F
    Jan 7, 2015


    Last night i got some really bad news found out a close friend of mine hung his self last night whe have been friends of 14 years...when i found out i was in shock i couldnt belive what u was hearing.... no body new how u felt he kept it to his self we all throught he was fanily...
    bubblebee12 bubblebee12
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

    Girlfriend hates me now we have been together 3

    years and she is the only person in my life , I got bullied 4 years at school by everyone I am now completely alone and feel like I am worth nothing is there any point carrying on?
    mattbarkisland7878 mattbarkisland7878
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015


    Goodbye. It's time to go.
    AmReadyToGo AmReadyToGo
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2013

    @ The Edge Of A Cliff

    It's cool. I trained a flock of metaphysical pigeons to carry me away...
    Dialectrum Dialectrum
    1 Response Nov 12, 2013

    Having no family and friends is the absolute

    worse. The people ik at college don't know me and they aren't even friends. I never got to keep a friend cuz I was always moving to different schools. Even though I'm in college, am trying to get things to go well for me, nothing is working. I have absolutely no family cuz the...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    I am desperately depressed

    and have been for 2 years. I have tried many meds, counselling, group therapies. I am tired of feeling like this, the emotional pain is terrible. I am suffering so much. I have had several unsuccessful suicide attempts. I really want to have one final attempt, this is a sure...
    cat1176 cat1176
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2013

    One Day!

    December 2012 I was hospitalized for depression and bipolar. I kept this a secret from all since 2011 when I first wanted to kill myself but was able to fight the thoughts. In Nov. of 2012 my principle found out I was talking about suicide and called the police and suicide...
    Abb50 Abb50
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2013

    I Don'T Know

    My life has been empty. An empty room where I played with lifeless dolls in an attempt to live vicariously through perfect characters of my own design. An empty house where people came and went, where I watched and waited. There were friends, and there were none. They were...
    suicidalideation suicidalideation
    22-25, F
    Apr 27, 2013

    wrote a very thorough,

    detailed, heartfelt, and painful suicide note tonight. it felt really, really good, actually. a huge relief. I've been considering suicide for a long while now, and if I do it in the future, the note is now written and ready for my loved ones, so they will at least have...
    maygirl502 maygirl502
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2014

    Hello world, that being one person

    or an infinite amount of organisms that we are still trying to understand it. Describing my past or what I "have been through" seems extremely pointless right now. Why? Simply because even if I had the best or the worst life experiences in this dimension, the conclusion is all...
    unsoiled unsoiled
    22-25, F
    Oct 19, 2015

    Byron Katie

    Hi to everybody in this group.I just wanted to share with all of you something called The Work: www.thework.comByron Katie is the woman who brought it out. Check out her videos in youtube.She has been such an amazing inspiration for me when dealing with my sad and stressful...
    36-40, F
    Jun 22, 2012

    Want To Die

    my luck has run out. things have been getting worse for several years. got the final blwo yesterday. there is nothing left. i wont be here to bring u down anymore. enjoy yourself (i tried, but failed) bye
    deleted deleted
    Feb 15, 2013

    i have been depressed

    for years plus im bipolar and it seems to not get any better, and people making fun of the way i look doesn't make it any easier as a matter of fact every time some one teases me about my looks suicide pops up in my mind i'v tried it all, pills, guns, etc etc but not the cutting...
    cole31 cole31
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    Truly Thinking About Doing It!

    I have been in a state of hell for awhile its painful to even explain my story but it was of my doing.i pushed my wife away into the arms of another man and now I m about to lose my family.i feel so unloved and unworthy. I truly believe as a Christian I'm already saved but will...
    Painfulthoughts Painfulthoughts
    31-35, M
    Oct 29, 2012

    My uncle - Suicide & Alcoholism.

    On the 26th February this year my uncle very sadly took his own life. He had endured a long battle of alcoholism which had taken his normal life away from him. This led to his wife and two beautiful children leaving, and a devorce being filed. No one really knows what made him...
    Mccann891 Mccann891
    Mar 30, 2013
    LookingGlassxx LookingGlassxx
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2015

    Am I Really A Bad Person

    My boyfriend told me that the only reason I don't have a lot of friends is because I'm the one who burns bridges, that it's because of me that I have fall outs. He told me this as he was telling me he was breaking up with me. He said I was the worst person he knew and that he...
    propagandafiedpeach propagandafiedpeach
    22-25, F
    Jul 21, 2013

    Looking For Serious Suicide Partner To Exit (Carbon Monoxide Or Nembutal) Soon. Can Travel Anywhere.

    Hi. I'm looking for a serious suicide partner to exit by mid-October with carbon monoxide or Nembutal. The Nembutal is easily obtainable. I can travel anywhere. My email address is reylehk@gmail. com I posted here earlier, but the posts and account were removed. Only serious...
    reylehk reylehk
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2013

    I'm Broken. I Thought I Can Fix Myself. I Was Wrong.

    It's about time for me to go. I'm now planning my departure and getting all the necessary details to go ahead with it.
    AmReadyToGo AmReadyToGo
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jun 13, 2013

    What Pulled Me Out Of Suicide

    I detested myself became of many things. I used to hate every part of myself. I used to place a knife in my bedside table. Then I learned to accept myself. Accepting and liking are different, so it suddenly became easy. It didn't hurt any less, but it was easier to move, it was...
    yuyuyo yuyuyo
    Nov 18, 2013

    I Want To Die

    What else is there to say?............................
    adaon2 adaon2
    36-40, M
    Aug 25, 2013


    Last night i got some really bad news found out a close friend of mine hung his self last night whe have been friends of 14 years...when i found out i was in shock i couldnt belive what u was hearing.... no body new how u felt he kept it to his self we all throught he was fanily...
    bubblebee12 bubblebee12
    31-35, F
    Jul 16, 2013

    Am Wondering What The Point In Living Is

    heres my story it will probably make u feel better: i am 17. i am ugly and dumb. i am getting fat and becoming a couch potato. i have average grades and i am basically not good at anything. i went into music school and failed. my elder sister got the first position. i went into...
    twin237 twin237
    Jun 14, 2011

    I've Thought About It

    I've thought about suicide once, a hundred times, a thousand times, who knows really how many times it has crossed my mind.  I would never do it, or at least I never planned on doing it.  I want to show the world that I am stronger than that, or rather, I want to show myself...
    SadAlways000 SadAlways000
    Sep 30, 2011

    I Hurt A Little Too Much

    i used to cut my wrist because it calmed me down but now death just seems like the best option. theres no place for some whiney talentless freak like me and i just wanna end it all. the girl i liked doesnt even like me and im giving up on life.people are bullying me because of my...
    dontwannacare dontwannacare
    16-17, F
    May 2, 2013

    I Want To Die

    what else is there to say................................................
    adaon2 adaon2
    36-40, M
    Aug 25, 2013

    My Partner of 15 Years Killed Himself 2 Weeks Ago

    My Partner of 15 years; the love of my life lost his battle with alcoholism and hung himself in our bathroom two weeks ago. I am beyond devastated and cannot understand how this could have happened. I am so desperate for answers and to understand how God could have taken such a...
    ShawnChrisDE ShawnChrisDE
    36-40, M
    Sep 10, 2009

    Life Is A Challenge

    I have always wondered what the purpose of LIFE was? I have never accepted the general thought that it is just to enjoy it. I keep thinking that there surely has to be a purpose in life besides just LIVING. There has to be MORE..... but in the end the most realistic conclusion...
    mind202 mind202
    18-21, M
    Mar 16, 2010

    I'm Going To End This Horrible Life

    As many of you know from reading my story, I have a terminal illness, I always wanted to help people and try to do the right thing, which later in life never worked out that way, after a career as a paramedic had past, gone to school, met someone special. I found out after...
    terminally terminally
    36-40, M
    Sep 13, 2013

    You Never Grow Out Of It

    I am 28 years old. I have severely struggled with depression since I was 13. That's a long damn time. I remember, in my late teens/ early 20's thinking that I would grow out of it. For some reason truly believed that as I matured I would somehow become less sad, less hopeless...
    StrawberryGashes84 StrawberryGashes84
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

    Thinking Of Self Harming

    I'm under too much stress. 15 years of bull ****. I'm thinking of cutting myself then going into the woods and breaking my arm by smashing it against a tree.
    imanobody37 imanobody37
    41-45, F
    May 28, 2013

    I Have Noticed That Lots Of E.p Youngsters Find It Very Amusing To Go And Drink Till They Blackout?

    I have noticed that lots of E.P youngsters find it very amusing to go and drink till they blackout? In 1977 I started driving Taxi’s in a very big harbour town, the one thing I did a lot was transporting blood from the central Blood bank to all the Hospitals in town and also...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 10, 2011

    I Lost Someone to Sucide My Little Sister

    hi, my name is carly , i lost my little sister on ''31st dec 07'' life has not been the same since me and my family lost my little sister katy. me and my family have been going through some really diffacult issues since katy pasted away. my mum has nt been the same since katy...
    carly171 carly171
    5 Responses Apr 28, 2008

    Am 36 and feel totally alone.

    I am always there for other people but no one is ever there for me. Yest my boyf & I had a massive argument & he accused me of hurting my 5 year old little girl. I love her with all my heart & it kills me that some1 who's supposed to love me could honestly think that. And I...
    Allalone1979 Allalone1979
    36-40, F
    Jul 6, 2015

    Nothing Left

    I recently lost my best friend. I'd known for a while that I loved him, but we were too afraid of getting too close and ruining the great friendship we had, so we never took it to the next level. We were soul mates. We could tell each other anything. We told each other our...
    canadiandl canadiandl
    36-40, M
    May 31, 2013

    How Can I Die Overnight??????

    Please everyone this is a serious question and i want NO HOPEFUL OPPTIMOSTIC OR ANTI SUICIDE COMMENTS.I really need to die.Im 18.Ive beem depressed for years and years and now its time to go.Tonight! How can I die in my sleep instantly and with the least possible pain????? I...
    thesuicidal thesuicidal
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 30, 2013


    I think its enough life that I survived and I don't wanna survive a single sec of my life i was adopted my dad hated me all my life, i been through child abuse through all my life against so many people not only dad even my grandfather, mom and brothers, i am 21 now and i grow up...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 13, 2013

    The Mind Of Suicide.

    A means to a controllable ending. My final say... Ask me about suicidal tendencies. I'm still alive, so I am beating them.
    ohemmgee ohemmgee
    31-35, F
    Aug 5, 2013

    “suicide#1” You Not Alone In This World!

    I first want to Set something straight in this script I’m writing! I have being told that I’m not English and don’t explain myself in a manner that people will understand me! Okay I’m an Afrikaans Speaking guy. But like to write In English! I also have being told that...
    deleted deleted
    May 13, 2011

    At The End Of My Rope...

    So here I am, 50 Yrs of age, on the verge of being evicted and prosecuted for falling behind on child support. No one seems to want to hire me at 50, friends say they will put in a good word..to no avail. Filling out applications all day, everyday. No criminal history.. yet. Not...
    Crabfish69 Crabfish69
    46-50, M
    1 Response Oct 11, 2012
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