I Suppress My Anger

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    a couple years ago I was having really horrible

    bouts of anger. I'd have extremely violent thoughts all the while remaining seemingly calm on the outside. I don't like acting out when I'm angry (hitting, throwing, etc) because when I have in the past, I usually feel stupid, weak and childish... which only then makes me more...
    cillasavage cillasavage
    18-21, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    I hate myself for keeping all the pain inside!

    Everytime I wanna defend myself or just explain my side my mind just shut down. I am so mad at many people around me and no cares, understand and/or even recognise it! It feels like everyone around me just love to put me down and dont give a **** on how I feel! My heart is full...
    behindthedark behindthedark
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014

    For some reason, the anger I am feeling

    for my father increases every seconds of every day. It has progressed to a point that just hearing his habitual coughing irritates me. It angers me that I wanted to punch the wall so bad, or hit him with my tennis racket...well, obviously I couldn't.
    hopelessaddict hopelessaddict
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2014

    Supressive Anger

    Sometimes I have a hard time dealing with my anger. and learning how to let it go when needed...i have a bad habit of supressing it. like im trying to find different ways to vent my anger, to release it. like punching the bag, working out, going for runs..sometimes. writing...
    RedWolfGuy RedWolfGuy
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 29, 2011

    Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal

    with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
    Tallestdavid Tallestdavid
    26-30, M
    Nov 2, 2015

    Its getting difficult.

    .. I wont lie, I dont even know if what im pissed off about is true but if it is... UGH I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN Why did i ever think I was special :( *sigh*
    SingItForTheKids SingItForTheKids
    18-21, F
    Jul 21, 2014

    **** I am angry but for the sake everyone

    around me I suppress the anger till it just wants to burst! I want to scream and fight or run or just hit to get the adrenaline out!! But no, I'm seen as the brave and strong headed person who can't lose their freakin sanity. I hate myself sometimes... more like every bloody day...
    RebelFighter RebelFighter
    13-15, F
    Sep 6, 2015

    It's horrible because no matter how much you

    swallow your pride and anger, you know that there's a possibility you're going to explode one day. I need to find a healthy outlet, can anyone help me with any advice?
    bluebird00 bluebird00
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

    I'm tired of hearing my roommates complain,

    but kinda brag, about how unique their traits are. So what, I need a jacket and shoes in 20 degree weather; glad you're so warm blooded. What's that? When you get angry you can punch through walls? Oh boy! What an interesting person you are
    Cephaloria Cephaloria
    18-21, F
    Jan 15, 2015

    Bubbling Underneath

    I am a calm person, but there are times feel a quiet rage twisting through my veins, an anger simmering under my skin. I honestly don't know how to react when I feel this way, so I do the only thing I can think of in that moment... I walk away. I remove myself from the situation...
    BeautifulMayhem10 BeautifulMayhem10
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2013

    Passive-Aggressiveness

    I tend to hold a grudge for a long time and always looking for a time where I can have my revenge on whomever I disdain. I always never fail to include that I am incapable of actually hurting someone. I can't do it! I just can't tell people how I really feel because I think it...
    nosanity nosanity
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2008

    I get too pissed these days over the smallest

    things, my rage has a very bad aftertaste and I do not like being angry my actions sway over all logic.
    Raloxier Raloxier
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 14, 2015

    Until I can't anymore.

    ..then whoa Nelly back up! My temper is worse than 10 fire breathing dragon, but once I blow. I leave so not to take it out on anyone, or say anything I can't take back. That and a punching bag or a spar partner that doesn't mind that I beat the **** out of them.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 19, 2014

    Anger Is Like Fuel

    I do suppress my anger a lot because most of the time it's not appropriate to let it out.  Sometimes, I feel like I get angry more than other people.  So, I keep it in to avoid looking like a complete madwoman. I find by doing this it's like adding fuel to the flame...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Dec 9, 2007

    I never realized how bad it was,

    until a couple of weeks ago. I woke up in the morning remembering vivid details of a most disturbing dream. I was a witness to a cruel murder, a slaughtering. I couldn't see the murderer's nor the victim's face, but I clearly saw the perpetrator slitting the victim's throat as...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 17, 2014

    They say that I can't be angry,

    and yes it is true that I never show my anger. But I can be angry, And I suppress it, on the inside I just want to scream.
    afreespirit afreespirit
    18-21, M
    Sep 8, 2014

    I have been told when I am angry I don't need

    to say a word it just radiates out of me and is scary. I hide this side of me but the other day was really mad at my son and was talking on the phone with him and was getting really angry. My girlfriend was in the car and she never experienced me like that. She's cool but I...
    Onewithone Onewithone
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    I don't surprises it at home like I do at the

    office. Do you do this? Why do you think it is? I haven ken theory but I don't want go bias responses by sharing it right off.
    Sully858 Sully858
    51-55, M
    Jan 20, 2014

    At times I want to scream at the top of my lungs

    and destroy something - but I keep it all inside. I end up not addressing the catalyst to my anger because I'm afraid that further conflict will push me over the edge. Not sure if I am more afraid of snapping and losing control one day, or never being able to properly express...
    Leighway Leighway
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 10, 2014

    My life is so...weird.

    Financial issues pushed me back I to school; I graduated with flying colors; fiancé pushed me into rage because of issues within HIS side of the relationship; I've done so well the last few months with losing 40 pounds and changing my life around, but tonight I bought a pack of...
    Conflictedchicklet Conflictedchicklet
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014

    Sometimes I look at you

    and literally wanna punch you in your face
    blasianalien blasianalien
    22-25, F
    May 10, 2015

    I've had so much anger inside of me lately I

    don't know what to do! I'm not a violent person but at times I feel like tossing a table across the room but not to hurt someone just to release some of it. When I was younger I always did this. You couldn't imagine how many holes I put in the wall of my bedroom the plaster was...
    GabbyWoodBerry GabbyWoodBerry
    18-21, F
    Mar 10

    Now I Am Free

    I have learned that no battle is worth the sacrifice of my soul I choose my battles wisely sometimes walking away showed more courage I am my own worse enemy The greatest battles I have ever fought, I fought from within Even freedom has its price Now that I am free was the...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch
    41-45, F
    Dec 25, 2012

    I'm not a violent person by any stretch of the

    imagination I often suppress anger and avoid confrontation but recently I've had flashes of anger erupt for no reason. Violent thoughts plague me when something minuscule happens and it worries me. I'm 6 ft 3 with a big build and I worry that if I ever lost it I'd do...
    bunster4 bunster4
    22-25, M
    Dec 17, 2014

    Today was officially the only day in my life

    where my anger level was on maximum .. I am so mad, i could kill somebody with my bare hands.. But somehow i manage to control my anger and stop my self from doing something i would regret later on .. P/S im still freaking angry ..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015

    And What Do You Want For Christmas, Little Girl?

    Every year it is the same, "what do you want for Christmas, honey?" I want for you to listen to me throughout the year so that you KNOW what would make me happy at Christmas and wouldn't have to ******* ask in the first place. Gift giving is my "Love Language, so I take it very...
    MommaBella MommaBella
    31-35, F
    Nov 25, 2013

    I Do It All the Time, It Ta...

    I do it all the time, it take a lot  to get me to a point that I would show my anger. I mostly just keep it in. And will bring it out at a time when we having a quite time together. I think it's important not to blow when you angry it could only make thins worst. I believe...
    Friendlybabe Friendlybabe
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2008

    This is a bad because it is like adding mentos

    to coke at some point it explodes.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 28, 2015

    Hurting Myself

    I used to be the angriest person. Anything would set me off. Literally. You could say "Hi" and I'd go off on you about something I was mad about two years ago. I had a ****** childhood. I don't think I ever used a calm tone in those days. I was always angry. When my grandma was...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 7, 2013

    Perhaps I’d be sounder of mental health

    if I had the ability to stop time in public places for a brief few seconds and just scream until my lungs collapsed. Scream at nothing.
    WithoutChemicals WithoutChemicals
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2015

    I suppress my anger anytime I feel it.

    I say harsh words to people I love, without any control.
    akiyama10 akiyama10
    22-25, F
    Feb 19, 2014

    Broken Promises

    To feel a knife dragging across your skin, ripping you open.. It focuses you on another pain entirely, provides a momentary escape from everything that just made your world come falling down. An event that completely blind-sided you. Made you feel like something destroyed your...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 27, 2013

    I Love My Anger

    I use my anger as power, as strength. I keep it bottled up and under extreme control until I know that I need to use it, and when I let it go it is.....magnificent. I don't mind being angry because when I am I make the world mine.
    MattsShadow MattsShadow
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 22, 2013
    Arija18 Arija18
    22-25, F
    Jan 21, 2015

    I Have Become Prety Good At It.

    I can almost never show my anger to anyone. I used to live with a person that told me he was a Iraq Veteran. He told me that hes budy got killed by an RPG and he sow it happen close to him when he was in Iraq. He then moved to a different place. Lately he tryed to kill himself...
    MAGH2 MAGH2
    26-30, M
    Mar 7, 2012

    Eats You Up Inside

    I suppress my anger to the point of when I have had enough I blow.  When I blow look out because I am looking for anything and everything to throw or hit someone with.  Now as for that it does not happen often because it takes a lot to get me mad.  All my life I...
    rondat rondat
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2008

    Silence

    i am a quiet person. i silently watch and contemplate on my thoughts, feelings, and actions.  I am quiet until i am provoked. i get angry over trivial matters.  It starts as annoyance at the person for their stupidity and for having an issue with such a small thing.  Now...
    cnherr cnherr
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 18, 2011

    Holding anger is a poison.

    It eats you from the inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves..
    akirayuuki akirayuuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2014

    I don't know if I am a sociopath

    or just a ex street racer without a car but almost every second of every day I go through life with telling myself not to do something so that I don't get arrested. For example if im walking down the street and a car passes by and honks or yells at me then I get a knee jerk...
    jikjak24 jikjak24
    31-35, M
    Jul 28, 2015

    I am filled with such a rage right now,

    but all I'll do is silently fume and slam things until my roommate asks me what's wrong, and then I'll either get embarrassed that I was so openly emotional and say "IDK" and go back to my room, or I'll go off and start yelling and I'm not sure which would be more unhealthy, but...
    Cephaloria Cephaloria
    18-21, F
    Feb 26, 2015

    Control

    This has always been somthing I do.  I'm afraid that if I let my anger show I will loose control.  So instead I hold it in and try to deal with it. I need to express it when I feel it but the fear of loosing control wins out.  If any one has any adivce on how I...
    Grits4life Grits4life
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2008

    A Constant, Never Ending Struggle

    -I probably have the most awkward anger problem in the world. I don't expect you to understand, and to be honest, I don't really care if you don't. Unlike everyone else whose stories I read, I don't have a short fuse, and my anger is not even comparable to high-grade explosives...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 16, 2012

    Who Knew?

    I am an angry person, from the very first moment I open my eyes until I go to sleep at night. But who knew?  Evidently I've spent my entire life avoiding the massive internal rage, and after all this time it's reached a tipping point.  I cannot avoid, ignore, escape,pretend...
    theremustbeawayout theremustbeawayout
    51-55
    1 Response Nov 27, 2013

    My vision is clouded by anger

    and hatred, I'm very angry all the time though I choose not to show it. I don't want people to know I'm an angry person, so when I walk around it's usually with a face people can't read. This way people don't know what I'm thinking and avoid me. When in all reality I'm a very...
    TheHelpingHand TheHelpingHand
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 29, 2013
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