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I Suppress My Anger

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    I'm not a violent person by any stretch of the

    imagination I often suppress anger and avoid confrontation but recently I've had flashes of anger erupt for no reason. Violent thoughts plague me when something minuscule happens and it worries me. I'm 6 ft 3 with a big build and I worry that if I ever lost it I'd do...
    bunster4 bunster4 18-21, M Dec 17, 2014

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    Sometimes I look at you

    and literally wanna punch you in your face
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F May 10

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    A Constant, Never Ending Struggle

    -I probably have the most awkward anger problem in the world. I don't expect you to understand, and to be honest, I don't really care if you don't. Unlike everyone else whose stories I read, I don't have a short fuse, and my anger is not even comparable to high-grade explosives...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2012

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    Its getting difficult.

    .. I wont lie, I dont even know if what im pissed off about is true but if it is... UGH I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN Why did i ever think I was special :( *sigh*
    SingItForTheKids SingItForTheKids 18-21, F Jul 21, 2014

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    Pented Up Anger

    I think that it takes alot for me to let out my anger. i take crap and i take it . for once in my life i would just love to be like my twin sister in telling people off then they make me anger . it take crap and i take it then i explode maybe thats why ive had a heart acic and...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2008

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    Now I Am Free

    I have learned that no battle is worth the sacrifice of my soul I choose my battles wisely sometimes walking away showed more courage I am my own worse enemy The greatest battles I have ever fought, I fought from within Even freedom has its price Now that I am free was the...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F Dec 25, 2012

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    Until I can't anymore.

    ..then whoa Nelly back up! My temper is worse than 10 fire breathing dragon, but once I blow. I leave so not to take it out on anyone, or say anything I can't take back. That and a punching bag or a spar partner that doesn't mind that I beat the **** out of them.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2014

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    My life is so...weird.

    Financial issues pushed me back I to school; I graduated with flying colors; fiancé pushed me into rage because of issues within HIS side of the relationship; I've done so well the last few months with losing 40 pounds and changing my life around, but tonight I bought a pack of...
    Conflictedchicklet Conflictedchicklet 26-30, F 2 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Arija18 Arija18 22-25, F Jan 21

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    Control

    This has always been somthing I do.  I'm afraid that if I let my anger show I will loose control.  So instead I hold it in and try to deal with it. I need to express it when I feel it but the fear of loosing control wins out.  If any one has any adivce on how I...
    Grits4life Grits4life 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 16, 2008

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    They say that I can't be angry,

    and yes it is true that I never show my anger. But I can be angry, And I suppress it, on the inside I just want to scream.
    afreespirit afreespirit 18-21, M Sep 8, 2014

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    My vision is clouded by anger

    and hatred, I'm very angry all the time though I choose not to show it. I don't want people to know I'm an angry person, so when I walk around it's usually with a face people can't read. This way people don't know what I'm thinking and avoid me. When in all reality I'm a very...
    TheHelpingHand TheHelpingHand 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2013

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    I hate myself for keeping all the pain inside!

    Everytime I wanna defend myself or just explain my side my mind just shut down. I am so mad at many people around me and no cares, understand and/or even recognise it! It feels like everyone around me just love to put me down and dont give a **** on how I feel! My heart is full...
    behindthedark behindthedark 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1, 2014

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    Hurting Myself

    I used to be the angriest person. Anything would set me off. Literally. You could say "Hi" and I'd go off on you about something I was mad about two years ago. I had a ****** childhood. I don't think I ever used a calm tone in those days. I was always angry. When my grandma was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 7, 2013

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    Broken Promises

    To feel a knife dragging across your skin, ripping you open.. It focuses you on another pain entirely, provides a momentary escape from everything that just made your world come falling down. An event that completely blind-sided you. Made you feel like something destroyed your...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 27, 2013

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    I'm tired of hearing my roommates complain,

    but kinda brag, about how unique their traits are. So what, I need a jacket and shoes in 20 degree weather; glad you're so warm blooded. What's that? When you get angry you can punch through walls? Oh boy! What an interesting person you are
    Cephaloria Cephaloria 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I Just Don't Know How To React...

    For nineteen years I have been living with suppressed anger.  I am a very passive person who would rather diffuse a situation than suffer a physical altercation by any means.  It takes a while to get me to the breaking point where I actually raise my voice disrespectfully and...
    junny927 junny927 18-21 1 Response Jul 2, 2011

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    My Anger Isn't Anger At All

    Anger is an easy emotion. It is easy to feel angry when really what I'm feeling is HURT. Vulnerable and insecure and stupid. I don't want to feel any of those things, so instead I will feel anger. I will HATE him for treating me like that (when in reality he's following...
    MommaBella MommaBella 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2013

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    Who Knew?

    I am an angry person, from the very first moment I open my eyes until I go to sleep at night. But who knew?  Evidently I've spent my entire life avoiding the massive internal rage, and after all this time it's reached a tipping point.  I cannot avoid, ignore, escape,pretend...
    theremustbeawayout theremustbeawayout 51-55 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    I get too pissed these days over the smallest

    things, my rage has a very bad aftertaste and I do not like being angry my actions sway over all logic.
    thedarklight thedarklight 18-21, M May 14

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    a couple years ago I was having really horrible

    bouts of anger. I'd have extremely violent thoughts all the while remaining seemingly calm on the outside. I don't like acting out when I'm angry (hitting, throwing, etc) because when I have in the past, I usually feel stupid, weak and childish... which only then makes me more...
    cillasavage cillasavage 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I do, I hold it all in

    and try not to get mad, which isn't a good thing I guess. I just end up snapping, which is a lot worse than reacting immediately
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I Do It All the Time, It Ta...

    I do it all the time, it take a lot  to get me to a point that I would show my anger. I mostly just keep it in. And will bring it out at a time when we having a quite time together. I think it's important not to blow when you angry it could only make thins worst. I believe...
    Friendlybabe Friendlybabe 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2008

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    Anger Is Like Fuel

    I do suppress my anger a lot because most of the time it's not appropriate to let it out.  Sometimes, I feel like I get angry more than other people.  So, I keep it in to avoid looking like a complete madwoman. I find by doing this it's like adding fuel to the flame...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    I suppress my anger anytime I feel it.

    I say harsh words to people I love, without any control.
    akiyama10 akiyama10 22-25, F Feb 19, 2014

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    Holding anger is a poison.

    It eats you from the inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves..
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    I am filled with such a rage right now,

    but all I'll do is silently fume and slam things until my roommate asks me what's wrong, and then I'll either get embarrassed that I was so openly emotional and say "IDK" and go back to my room, or I'll go off and start yelling and I'm not sure which would be more unhealthy, but...
    Cephaloria Cephaloria 18-21, F Feb 26

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    It's horrible because no matter how much you

    swallow your pride and anger, you know that there's a possibility you're going to explode one day. I need to find a healthy outlet, can anyone help me with any advice?
    bluebird00 bluebird00 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    Eats You Up Inside

    I suppress my anger to the point of when I have had enough I blow.  When I blow look out because I am looking for anything and everything to throw or hit someone with.  Now as for that it does not happen often because it takes a lot to get me mad.  All my life I...
    rondat rondat 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2008

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    Elongation...

    I supress my anger as much as possible... there are times when it does come out but that is only when things hit very close to home... meaning individuals who are supposed to care about me bertray that form of trust...
    Xeno Xeno 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 29, 2007

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    Bubbling Underneath

    I am a calm person, but there are times feel a quiet rage twisting through my veins, an anger simmering under my skin. I honestly don't know how to react when I feel this way, so I do the only thing I can think of in that moment... I walk away. I remove myself from the situation...
    BeautifulMayhem10 BeautifulMayhem10 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    Silence

    i am a quiet person. i silently watch and contemplate on my thoughts, feelings, and actions.  I am quiet until i am provoked. i get angry over trivial matters.  It starts as annoyance at the person for their stupidity and for having an issue with such a small thing.  Now...
    cnherr cnherr 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 18, 2011

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    I Have Become Prety Good At It.

    I can almost never show my anger to anyone. I used to live with a person that told me he was a Iraq Veteran. He told me that hes budy got killed by an RPG and he sow it happen close to him when he was in Iraq. He then moved to a different place. Lately he tryed to kill himself...
    MAGH2 MAGH2 26-30, M Mar 7, 2012

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    This is a bad because it is like adding mentos

    to coke at some point it explodes.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 1 Response Apr 28

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    Fear

    *longgggggggggg heavy sigh* I am afraid of my anger. My two biggest issues, and the main theme in a majority of my night terrors, is fear and anger. I've been taught from a little girl not to 'make a scene'. I was told 'not to tell', 'just don't think about it', 'forget all...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 11 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    At times I want to scream at the top of my lungs

    and destroy something - but I keep it all inside. I end up not addressing the catalyst to my anger because I'm afraid that further conflict will push me over the edge. Not sure if I am more afraid of snapping and losing control one day, or never being able to properly express...
    Leighway Leighway 31-35, F 6 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    I have been told when I am angry I don't need

    to say a word it just radiates out of me and is scary. I hide this side of me but the other day was really mad at my son and was talking on the phone with him and was getting really angry. My girlfriend was in the car and she never experienced me like that. She's cool but I...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 8

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    So last night, I found myself having a bunch of

    dreams. They were very random but they seemed to have had a common theme to them, anger. When I woke up for the last time, a thought kept flashing in my mind "anger in the heart." I have realized for a long time that I have a lot of anger built up inside of me. I carry...
    tiredgoodguy tiredgoodguy 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 25

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    I never realized how bad it was,

    until a couple of weeks ago. I woke up in the morning remembering vivid details of a most disturbing dream. I was a witness to a cruel murder, a slaughtering. I couldn't see the murderer's nor the victim's face, but I clearly saw the perpetrator slitting the victim's throat as...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 17, 2014

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    And What Do You Want For Christmas, Little Girl?

    Every year it is the same, "what do you want for Christmas, honey?" I want for you to listen to me throughout the year so that you KNOW what would make me happy at Christmas and wouldn't have to ******* ask in the first place. Gift giving is my "Love Language, so I take it very...
    MommaBella MommaBella 31-35, F Nov 25, 2013

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    I Love My Anger

    I use my anger as power, as strength. I keep it bottled up and under extreme control until I know that I need to use it, and when I let it go it is.....magnificent. I don't mind being angry because when I am I make the world mine.
    MattsShadow MattsShadow 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2013

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    For some reason, the anger I am feeling

    for my father increases every seconds of every day. It has progressed to a point that just hearing his habitual coughing irritates me. It angers me that I wanted to punch the wall so bad, or hit him with my tennis racket...well, obviously I couldn't.
    hopelessaddict hopelessaddict 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2014

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    I don't surprises it at home like I do at the

    office. Do you do this? Why do you think it is? I haven ken theory but I don't want go bias responses by sharing it right off.
    Sully858 Sully858 46-50, M Jan 20, 2014

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    Supressive Anger

    Sometimes I have a hard time dealing with my anger. and learning how to let it go when needed...i have a bad habit of supressing it. like im trying to find different ways to vent my anger, to release it. like punching the bag, working out, going for runs..sometimes. writing...
    RedWolfGuy RedWolfGuy 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 29, 2011

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    Perhaps I’d be sounder of mental health

    if I had the ability to stop time in public places for a brief few seconds and just scream until my lungs collapsed. Scream at nothing.
    WithoutChemicals WithoutChemicals 18-21, F Jul 10

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