I Survived Mental and Emotional Abuse

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    His Addiction Stole My Childhood

    Born way 2 early had 2 fight 2 all along. nothings ever come easy! Moms always busy and dads always stoned. NO footsteps to follow No compass to guide me. I wish i could make you see how hard it is to become the 2 people i never wanted to be. My lifes laid out in front...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 18, 2010

    All of the abuse, the trauma,

    is messing with my body. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I'm losing my memory, day by day. I'm scared of what's going to happen.
    nikknikk nikknikk
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 2, 2014

    After two years I still have difficulty with

    self-reassurance and self-worth. I've dealt with this person and his friends for five years I started emotionally eating at fifteen (he was 18 at the time) . this turned into binge purging later on as an attempt to gain some sort of control.
    RobinPancakes RobinPancakes
    22-25, F
    Feb 14, 2014

    When I was three days old my father beat me

    until my lungs failed. He went to prison. My mother's boyfriends wouldn't leave me alone and if I told my mother what was happening, she would beat me black and blue. When I was ten years old, my mom's new boyfriend beat and raped me. My school took me to the hospital. The...
    NightAngel1969 NightAngel1969
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    I don't know if I'm better with

    or without on medication. The whole trial and error with meds just doesn't seem worth it anymore.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2013

    Dichotomy

    In the age of public sharing, do people have secrets? Also in the age where free speech is perverted to harm others, what can a person share without some form of a backlash? Early into the social networking stages, I shared everything. Slowly as the years go by, I share less. I...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki
    31-35
    9 Responses May 12, 2011

    Sometimes I still wish he had just hit me.

    So much easier that way. "See- I was abused, I can show you the bruises! " I thought I was strong- I left, I am in a new, healthy relationship. But not a day goes by that I don't find myself wondering when he won't have any more control. My friends, family, think I'm paranoid...
    skcurrier skcurrier
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2015

    Growing up with a stepfather

    and bullying at school.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2015

    Still Here

    I am still alive and kicking after everything i been through. Shot at, stabbed, getting in fights everyday, parents abusive, brother abusive. All good i am still here.
    Arorin Arorin
    22-25, M
    8 Responses Mar 22, 2010

    Well... Not Really.

    I don't know that I would say I "survived" it. That suggests that I'm past it as if everything's all better. I personally don't believe a person could ever really "survive" these things in that sense. Maybe we can endure such things, but we carry that kind of trauma with us as...
    aktor1970 aktor1970
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

    How I Survived.

    My survival wasn't due to defending myself and being feisty against my ex, well in the beginning it was like that. But near the end, my only survival was to shut off all my emotions and feelings completely. I became a shell of myself, almost like my spirit had left my body. I was...
    FadedSilhouette FadedSilhouette
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2013

    No More "mr. Nice Guy"

    Who am I...What are my capabilities...do I even have any ... or am I just an empty shell after 26 years of living the "reign of terror? These questions I ask myself daily> It is my way of trying to validate that I am still a person & still worthy! Granted there are...
    easterngoatgirl easterngoatgirl
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Oct 24, 2009

    when I was in high school my high school first

    love turned out be controlling, manipulative and verbally and emotionally, physically abusive, I was isolated from friends and family he brainwashed me to stay with him out of guilt because his dad abused him. TO this day I still have scars.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    I understand it's no one

    but my abusers fault, and my choice and path to help myself out of this vicious cycle of depreciating myself worth and letting it get to me. It feels like several years of accepting and calling out my abuser for what she is and, getting the much needed counseling needed, and...
    ellequence ellequence
    26-30, F
    Apr 28, 2014

    Tonight I wrote with my eyes closed

    and decided to let the words flow out of me from deep within my soul. I thought about the fact that when I used to lay next to you in the darkest hours of the night you appeared illuminated. You fascinated me. Everything about you, from the tiny scars on your stomach, to your...
    gravity1 gravity1
    22-25, F
    Mar 21

    In the family. It all started with my family.

    The threats, bullying, verbal abuse, everything started with the family. They don't care about me all they care about is themselves.
    Athlete2012 Athlete2012
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

    i was in a relationship with a man

    for over 5 years. I don't know when the abuse started, everything is so blurred now. Thinking back I think I was manipulated into believing he was charming, romantic, etc. on the same note it's hard for me to accept that because I hate thinking of myself as a victim. He has...
    JustGotOut2016 JustGotOut2016
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jan 24

    I still have night terrors about the abuse I

    went through. My partner says I will cry in my sleep. He is worried because I still will look over my shoulder even without having contact from my abuser after 2 years. My mother was suppose to be there for me, to guide me and help me become an adult. Instead she was so...
    ellequence ellequence
    26-30, F
    Feb 1, 2014

    Looking Inside For Answers

    I've already shared an experience on Narcissistic abuse, but wanted to reach out to this forum as well. I'm sure therre are so many men and women out there who are suffering in a toxic relationship, but can't get up the strength to leave because of how terrible they have been...
    jjj1984 jjj1984
    31-35, F
    Nov 24, 2013

    I am still dealing with it.

    but one of the ways I am dealing with it is through my art. If you would like to submit anonymous content for my project check me out on facebook insideourheadsproject
    insideourheadsproject insideourheadsproject
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2014

    I've held back for a long time,

    but I think it's over. When I was 3 years old, my parents divorced. Around a year or so afterwards, my mother started dating a man, his name was Zach. At first, we were very close. I loved him a lot. He loved me, or so I think. Although, I didn't understand when I was so young...
    relaxitsjustanightmare12 relaxitsjustanightmare12
    13-15, T
    1 Response Aug 18, 2015

    Yes I did. I'm a survivor!

    And so glad I'm away from all that now. It took a long time to get over it and some days I think of it. But my husband had helped me so much through all of it and continues. He doesn't give up on me.
    Adpatrick Adpatrick
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2014

    So I ran away a couple of days ago,

    and they made me come back (they= police and family). They said they were gonna change and so far that's bullshit. I am leaving when I turn 17 whether they like it or not, they cannot make me stay. I am done with my mother telling me that I am a mean and ugly ***** . She says...
    nomnommings nomnommings
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    I survived it. don't know how.

    My dad was a drunk. I lived with him for a year and a half. I called the cops told them he was abusing me.. they didn't believe me. Of course not.. don't believe the eight year old little girl..
    idkubutimkk idkubutimkk
    16-17, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    Screaming was all we could hear.

    Knowing he wouldn't go. Seeing how he was so near. Moving as quickly as we could, trying to dodge the blows. Wishing someone would take us from this place. This place of misery. This place of torture. This place of pain. This place of evil. But no one was around, no one cared...
    BelievingButterfly BelievingButterfly
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    I think for years I have been in denial.

    I felt guilty for doing this to myself. I have been saying for the last two years that I have broken my own heart. What I didn't admit to is breaking my own mind and spirit. I've wrote on here before about my exboyfriend and finally getting out that toxic relationship. However...
    forevereternal9 forevereternal9
    26-30, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    At first glance the narcissist appears to the

    unsuspecting onlooker as being full of self-control; they come across as charismatic, educated, confidant, charming, and sociable. However whenever the narcissist shows an interest in someone, it is not as innocent as it first appears. Because of their obsessive need for...
    rcp10 rcp10
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014

    I just recently got out of a relationship

    that lasted a little over a year. Honestly I thought he was the most perfect guy ever... Until he'd get mad... He'd take every single insecurity I ever told him and throw it at my face. He'd yell and tell me I was incapable of being loved by anyone but him... It wasn't all bad...
    LilMissMandy LilMissMandy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

    I went from an abusive childhood straight into

    an abusive marriage. Until I married my second husband (at 33) the only people to ever reciprocate my love were my maternal grandparents who I rarely saw. I'm still in therapy for PTSD and agoraphobia. Sometimes I think I'll never be normal. I have 8 kids of my own, and I have...
    Chrylblck Chrylblck
    36-40, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    did I really survive?

    or am I still playing the victim? to what level of grief and resentment is justified?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    Psychology says: To be haughty means to act

    with blatant arrogance or disdainful pride. The narcissist displays all of these characteristics in that they consider themselves to be better, more superior than those around them. The haughty narcissist basically has an overall attitude that causes them to scorn others, to see...
    rcp10 rcp10
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014

    It's not easy and I still up through it

    but I went through it for two years in a row then it went away go a while now it's kinda here kinda not
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree
    16-17, F
    Oct 21, 2014

    (empowerment) You Are Not Crazy - Recognizing That You've Been The Victim Of Abuse

    These are two links I found invaluable for understanding and escaping from the dynamics of abuse, as well as identifying abusive people and situations in general. Abusers will almost always try and convince their victims that they're the ones doing something wrong and "causing...
    MovingForward28 MovingForward28
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2010

    What To Do After?

    What to do after that ? When you realised and have escaped from this terrible abusive relationship. I think that it is a very important part of the process and I would be very happy to share solutions, experiences with other people who went through this experience. It's been...
    GabiT GabiT
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 3, 2013

    I listened to Rebecca black

    and Justin beiber for two hours straight during a dare. 😑😱
    Pandainpinktutu Pandainpinktutu
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    You Can Never Have Me Again.

    It has been years since we've talked... and even longer since we've seen each other. The relationship we shared together was so... just, ****** up. I'm pretty sure we were both in it for the drama. We met through my work back in 2004, but never really started talking until mid 2...
    hardware hardware
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 29, 2011

    Why I Smile.

    I choose to smile because I know that negative emotions only last as long as I let them. So he who attempts to rain on my life ... it won't work. I choose to smile because smiling is contagious and can quite possibly make someone else’s day brighter. I want to make that...
    Darkchild29 Darkchild29
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 29, 2012

    It's really hard to live with someone

    who does drugs. For 14 years my dad lived with us. He took heavy drugs, oxyContin and heroin. I've never seen him sober, only when he got out of jail. He mentally and physically hurt my mother and I to the point we had to spend nights out in the car at a campground. My younger...
    FatalxDesire FatalxDesire
    16-17, F
    Jul 13, 2015

    my ex best friend made me believe

    that i should die and i cant make myself to not believe this anymore.
    paigedecker33 paigedecker33
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

    Surviving My Ex Husband

    I am going thru a divorce. I am 26 and have two daughters, one is 4 and the other is 1. I left him about 3 months ago, and came back after 6 weeks, because he had promised he would go to marriage counseling with me. He had both physically and emotionally abused me in the...
    freeeeebird freeeeebird
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 28, 2012

    I just want to crawl in a hole today.

    I left my emotionally abusive husband over five years ago, and yet I'm still dealing with the aftermath of his bullsh*t. The really hard part for me is that I have come so far in recovering, in surviving, in rebuilding my life...and he still has an affect on every part of it...
    beesknees12 beesknees12
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    2 Long Years Of Fear, Physical Abuse And Heartbreak Which Ended In A Good Way With A Surprising Twist.

    I moved to Europe 3 years ago and felt lonely there. After a while, I met this man. He was older than me but he seemed nice. He owned a video store and I rented movies regularly. He was very friendly with me, sometimes too friendly as if flirting but I blew it off and kinda...
    euroljepotica10 euroljepotica10
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2011

    Surviving .... Ing. Always.

    I'm constantly reminding myself because I like to go into denial I like to pretend it didn't happen to me that it couldn't possibly be my life. I reread articles and talk to people who have gone thru similar situations The more subtle forms of emotional abuse can be the...
    ophelia379 ophelia379
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2013

    I was in an abusive relationship.

    She was my best friend, and I thought it was normal when she poked fun at me. We got closer and it got worse. For the past year when we hung out she just kept telling me about all the people that we both knew that turns out didn't like me. She'd tell me that everyone hated me...
    jentile jentile
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2014
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