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I Survived My Suicide Attempt

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 549 People

    Several Attempts

    I have had several suicide attempts in my lifetime, starting back when I was 10 or 11. I have played in traffic on the main roads as well as on the expressways, I have attempted to crash my vehicle into a brick wall, I have tried popping pills, I have tried alcohol, I have even...
    Bubbles48509 Bubbles48509 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    Overdose

    It was a normal night a year and a half ago, I don't remember what caused it... I cut and cut, I remember standing up and from my thighs to the floor my blood dripped. I called my friend depressed and he cut me off and told me to pray for the night.... well, I ended up praying...
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2013

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    The Deck

    The first time I tried it was when I was anoxeric back in the seventh grade.  I remember throwing myself off the deck of my old house.  The fall should have killed me.  At least I thought it should have.  There was not a stratch on me.  I just...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    I Failed At Failing. :-/

    I'm 19, family who love me, good friends, stable job. Perfect 'ey? Look closer and you'll see the cracks. Without going into too much of the details, I'm going to share my experience with you. I've always been a happy person, well on the outside at least, but the past year was...
    FailToFly FailToFly 18-21 1 Response Apr 18, 2012

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    Sometimes, All Is Not Lost.

    I am writing this for two reasons: first of all, beacause I am after all these years seeing a psychologist, who has suggested that it would be a good idea to write about my experiences, and secondly, in the hopes that someone would get maybe at least little hope from this. They...
    roamerfrom70s roamerfrom70s 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Just Here

    This is a bit long, just to warn you. But I wanted to share my story...don't know why yet, but um...I hope maybe I can inspire someone. It was just last year when things in my life started changing. I had just started being new friends with someone at school. She was really nice...
    megxx104 megxx104 16-17 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Want This World To Be Happy Place

    hello friends , i am medical practioner by profession i want to share some medical fact and mystery to be happy always 1) we all are destined to be happy and prosperous, but y most of them are not happy? ans- actually we all search a happiness in something which is of some...
    chokien chokien 22-25 Oct 3, 2013

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    Please Consider Helping My Best Friend

    My best friend lost her uncle to suicide when she was seven years old. She is participating in a charity to help raise awareness and education about suicide. The charity group's mission is to bring the topic out into the open and educate people on the warning signs of suicidal...
    Adosia Adosia 18-21, F May 12, 2012

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    I have had many suicide attempts.

    Since the age of fourteen till now i have been constantly spiraling downward.But i do remember two attempts that are very important for me.I remember my first attempt at fourteen it was night time and my older sister had said she didnt want my father there.So my father said he...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response May 19

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    Life After Death...

    I've had a few serious suicide attempts. I've also maimed myself in other ways and exhibited a complete lack of self worth in the process. I'm still alive, whicjh means I survived even though I've been trying to die. I just wanted to know if anyone else deals with frequent...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    To Survive Is Another Chance!

    People that survive suicide are amazing, Its an awful thing to have to think about it yet alone do it! People Are Amazing the things that they can come through, and achieve! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE WEAK FOR ATTEMPTING SUICIDE! THIS IS SO WRONG! Your not weak, your...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F Oct 18, 2013

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    My Story

          I tried to end my life when i was 15.  Took a whole bottle of tylenol and any other pill that i could find.   It wasn't effective and i spent the last month of my freshman year in the hospital trying to recover...  I never told the drs...
    worthmorethanyoutreatedme worthmorethanyoutreatedme 31-35, F 10 Responses Sep 5, 2008

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    Another Broken Heart

    my girlfriend left me so sudden, everything i did just made her angrier at me the last two weeks of our relationship, made me feel so worthless, confused, i didnt see it coming, before that we were so close, im a cutter n its killing me not to cut cuz the pain is so unbearable, i...
    latinlaydey latinlaydey 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    Failed Attempt

    I had always said 'god i wish i was dead' people didn't listen so on the 19th Sept 2010 I was in the house on my own, i locked up , took off my make-up and clothes and proceeded to take an overdose of tablets called Baclofen - anti-spasm medication and a mixture of paracetamol...
    valesgirl valesgirl 26-30 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    I Survived.

    I wasn't raised by my parents. My mother was a drug-addict, and my father was an alcoholic. My grandparents stepped up and took my sister and I in to raise. I noticed early on that my grandparents treated my sister better than me. They would always baby her, while I would get...
    moonwing moonwing 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    Depression .

    I am 12 years old and im so depressed that i want to commit suicide , ever since my mom and dad split and my mom got her new boyfriend life hasnt been the same , he has a harley davidson and My mom is obbsesed with them so now she always goes out riding and leaves me alone with...
    ColdStones1 ColdStones1 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 30, 2012

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    Hanged In The Park

    I had many previous attempts although they were minor and nobody really cared. My last attempt was the most serious attempt I had made by far. I suppose it was a "spur of the moment" act and I didn't think much before hand. Looking back, I realize I wasn't in the right state...
    hayleybluebear hayleybluebear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    I think the discussions about suicide are

    healthy. I think it is the lack of understanding that makes people critical. I think fear that it could happen to them that makes people afraid. I think we need to get the subject out of the dark and into the light. I think the darkness that surrounds people and keeps them from...
    whatsnextforme whatsnextforme 56-60, M 3 Responses Aug 13

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    Glowing Globe

    Well well, I was 19 about to turn 20, I was really lonely and scared and totally hopeless had gone to Therapy but that didn't help it made me think about my problems more and stressed me out. I was just really down and out had been for months and so I decided that it was time I...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2009

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    Wish I Hadn't

    3 yrs ago i decided that life wasn't worth living anymore. I blocked everything out and overdosed on anti depressants. Strangely about a minute or so after i drank them all down my ex boyfriend called me on the phone. I wanted to hear his voice again before anything else happened...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 9 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Attempt

    I survived because they , meaning doctors at an emergency room, brought me back not once but twice.I am usually glad I am still here , however I still have times when my self worth drops and self loathing takes over where I am not so glad.The medication I am currently taking...
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M 2 Responses Apr 18, 2011

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    Before You Try Again [Or Try At All], Read This.

    Let's get one thing straight.I hate defeat. I hate weakness. I hate those who give in and give up and go down without a fight.I hate suicide, because it represents all three of these things to me.But this (for once) is not about me.I hear so many tell me that they wish that they...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 18, 2013

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    The Day I Died

    The day I physically died… It was a cold dreary winter day. The month, the day, I choose not to remember. It had been a long cold winter; a difficult one for me. I was deep in depression, an enemy that I had grown to know well. Depression is not deep sadness like many...
    japere1 japere1 46-50 6 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    Here To Listen

    After seeing the Amanda Todd story it really made me wish that I could have helped her I did not know her but if I did, I definitely would not have treated her that way just simply let her know I am here. I am just someone willing to listen to what you have to say because...
    someoneforyou12 someoneforyou12 22-25, F Nov 8, 2012

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    2011, 20 August. ''hanging Myself From A Bridge''

    Hello, i'm a 15 year old boy from the Netherlands. 2 Hours ago i failed at my suicide attempt. The reason i wanted to kill myself, is cause i thought negative about myself, and i hated living with a disease i had. I thought i was ugly, i questioned myself why i had no Girlfriend...
    Anoniem1996 Anoniem1996 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 29, 2011

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    June '12

    This month marks a year. I was actually kinda pissed off and a bit surprised to wake up the next morning..but too drugged out and worn out to care or do anything about it..That night was miserable, obviously... & I ****** up my heart in the process.What makes it worse is his...
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2013

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    PAIN

    I was in an inexplicable state of mind when I seared the words "PAIN" across my left arm. It stood for "Power Against Insidious Negativity". The chronology the viscous flow of ideas that preceded this decision defies me still. I never attempted to end my life, I shunned the idea...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    Memorial Day 2013

    I have had dark thoughts for a long time. I was lucky my suicide attempt, allowed me to finally get the help I needed. I am lucky I didn't die. I am in my mid-40's, suffer from major depression for the last 10 years, and a couple of things happened in my life that were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    Thankful That I Did...

    I surivied my suicide attempt, and for the most of the time, I am truly thankful that I did, because if I didn't I wouldn't have the relationship with the people that I do now, and I wouldn't be wear I am in my life if I had sucedded.  Althoug there are times, I wish I didn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 17, 2010

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    Guilt and Pain

    The last time I attempted suicide was on the 27th December 2008. I took an overdose of sleeping tablets, parked my car at a lookout and waited. I made a crucial mistake...left my mobile on. I didn't answer it but the cops used the signal to track me down...and my life was saved...
    deleted deleted 26-30 20 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Thin Line Between Life And Death

    I couldnt take the insomnia anymore. It was unbearable and I felt death would actually feel better once the initial shock was overcome. I would rather take the pain of dying than continue being dead while still breathing. So my son was playing outside in the living room, I loved...
    sheekchic sheekchic 31-35 3 Responses Mar 23, 2011

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    March 2011.

    I was 20. I had a job, a boyfriend, supportive parents, great siblings, wonderful friends, awesome co-workers. I was doing well in school. It was me that was the problem. I had turned on myself. It made me so angry that I couldn't be appreciative, connect with others. I decided...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    Seeking..Why?

    "What scares me is that I'm going to ultimately find out at the end of my life that I'm really not loveable,, that I'm not worthy of being loved. That there's something fundamentally wrong with me...and that I wasn't wanted here in the first place." This is a quote by Demi Moore...
    seeking0627 seeking0627 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    Just Here

    This is a bit long, just to warn you. But I wanted to share my story...don't know why yet, but um...I hope maybe I can inspire someone. It was just last year when things in my life started changing. I had just started being new friends with someone at school. She was really nice...
    megxx104 megxx104 16-17 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    I Survived And Now I'm 'getting' Better

    I attempted suicide last week. I drank a bunch of pills and ended up throwing them up before they took effect. I ended up in the hospital for a whole day, then a psychiatric ward for 4days. I survived. Many people think that when a person ends up in a psychiatric ward that they...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 17, 2011

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    Don't Know What To Do . . .

    Last year my husband told me he was going to divorce me, completely out of the blue. I ended completely losing it and being admitted to a psych unit. Twice. I hadn't been diagnosed with anything before that point, and it found out that I have severe recurrent depression, anxiety...
    Ericanicole3 Ericanicole3 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Got Through It Several Times

    I am writing this after reading a story by johnnywillsave and it made me think of the times that I have attempted suicide. I lost my mate when I was 15 who shot himself and unfortunately, I was the last one to be with him and 10 minutes later it was over. It was not long before I...
    tsv01 tsv01 46-50, M 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    I am 44 years old, closer to 45.

    Been married to the same woman 25 years. We have been "separated" one night. Guess whose mostly to blame? I have three children. One , 23 who just graduated a 4 year university. One 20, who has been thru and took me and his momma thru the ringer for the last two years. He and...
    jesusworried jesusworried 41-45, M 1 Response May 19

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    8-12-12

    3 weeks ago I survived my second attempt (pills) the first was a medication mistake by my doctor which left me gravely depressed (I have Bipolar 2 Disorder)....Myfamily lived 3 hours away at the time and none of them came to the hospital. I was in the ICU for 3 days unconscious...
    Frankika81212 Frankika81212 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 27, 2012

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    I Didn't Think Anyone Would Miss Me.

    When I was twelve,I attempted to commit suicide for the first time. I don't know if the person reading this finds me dumb or cowardly,and frankly,all I can say is you musn't understand unless you've been there. It was over something I thought was worth dying over... A boy. I...
    MissTragedy MissTragedy 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    I Am Glad I Survived

    I was planning to commit suicide for quite some time. And on the 17th of February 2011 I decided that it was time. I arrived at college at about 13:00, just before my class started and told my friend I was going to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and took a handful of my anti...
    heldogtertjie heldogtertjie 18-21 3 Responses Mar 7, 2011

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    A Poem

    I sat on the floor, blood running down my arm How was I to know I would cause any harm The face that saw it was petrified All I could do was sit and cry That face kept the secret for a while The doctor saw what only one other had seen Why? How long has it been? Frozen and...
    3four1 3four1 18-21 1 Response Aug 26, 2011

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    In Hell

    I'm starting to wonder if it is possible that I didn't survive my suicide attempt and this is hell....since I attempted suicide 3 years ago everything in my life has fallen apart. Literally everything. I reached out to the church again recently and after my meeting with the...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 9 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    As I sit here and wonder

    why people commit suicide, I wonder why I Ever contemplated it. Maybe I should look at it from my own point of view. I’m pregnant for a guy I did not have consensual sex with and I am broke, stressed and afraid of telling my parents and anyone because they’ll be angry and...
    ckoi ckoi 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Escape

    (Originally Posted March 28th, 2012 at 9:56PM) A handful of tylenol, a row of allergy meds and a gulp of cough syrup led to a heavy nap rudely awakened by a buzz in my head and an eerie diziness around me. I freaked out and went straight to the emergency room. I couldn't focus my...
    perceived perceived 22-25 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    Jumping Out Of Car While Mother Was Driving.

    Today I tried to kill myself. I dunno what it was, either the nerves  or the pain.  I tried jumping out of a car going 40 down the street. Two doors down my aunts house, imagine her walking outside and seeing me lying their dead. Scary right? I thought so too, but at that...
    Ughidkwhattoputdown Ughidkwhattoputdown 13-15 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I'm a survivor in more then one way. I'm a survivor in the way aim the survivor from my cousins suicide. I'm also a survivor of my ow suicide attempt. It's been 8 months since I...
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97 16-17, F 23 hrs ago

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    I'm lying in bed. I've been in bed all day. Decided to skip work. Haven't eaten in the last two days. Feeling very regretting of recent choices with money and work. I'm20. I'm a...
    jeredh jeredh 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 11

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    the suicide note I wrote over two years ago. It is in the best Latin I could manage. find hope, friends, for I have survived. Suicidum June 27, 2012 Anno Domini Apud Memoriam De...
    TheDylanG TheDylanG 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I don't really know what I'm doing right now, with this bloggy thingy, so bear with me. This is my attempt to actually speak about something I have tried to keep secret for so long...
    kitkat1291 kitkat1291 18-21 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I've attempted suicide around 10 times. I nearly achieved only 2 times though. The first 'close' attempt was nearly 2 years ago. My depression got really bad again alongside my...
    Northlame Northlame 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 16