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I Survived My Suicide Attempt

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 554 People

    A Dancers Downward Spiral In The Push For Perfection

    I am 16 years old and I feel like I am 90!! I honestly cannot remember the last time my happiness lasted for more than a day. I would try so hard to be happy but no matter how happy I tried to be I always ended up in a dark place. I am impulsive, self- destructive and a...
    Dancer1969 Dancer1969 18-21, F Jun 28, 2012

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    My Humourous Suicide Attempt And A Nice Tip To A Good Suicide

    I wanted to end my life so peacefully as everyone would wish!! I did so much of analysis on the internet for the best way of killing yourself and found it right to do it also!! The execution was a f****** failure :( I had already attempted suicide 2 times...rather than saying...
    gujilika90 gujilika90 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 13, 2010

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    I Survived Multiple Attempts

    seven in total. I have no idea how or why but I did. 3 times were pills 1 cut 1 poisoning 1 strangulation and most recent injecting Windex in my arm.
    chazlmt chazlmt 26-30, M Nov 11, 2013

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    Before You Try Again [Or Try At All], Read This.

    Let's get one thing straight.I hate defeat. I hate weakness. I hate those who give in and give up and go down without a fight.I hate suicide, because it represents all three of these things to me.But this (for once) is not about me.I hear so many tell me that they wish that they...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 18, 2013

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    Want This World To Be Happy Place

    hello friends , i am medical practioner by profession i want to share some medical fact and mystery to be happy always 1) we all are destined to be happy and prosperous, but y most of them are not happy? ans- actually we all search a happiness in something which is of some...
    chokien chokien 22-25 Oct 3, 2013

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    To Survive Is Another Chance!

    People that survive suicide are amazing, Its an awful thing to have to think about it yet alone do it! People Are Amazing the things that they can come through, and achieve! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE WEAK FOR ATTEMPTING SUICIDE! THIS IS SO WRONG! Your not weak, your...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F Oct 18, 2013

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    Don't Know What To Do . . .

    Last year my husband told me he was going to divorce me, completely out of the blue. I ended completely losing it and being admitted to a psych unit. Twice. I hadn't been diagnosed with anything before that point, and it found out that I have severe recurrent depression, anxiety...
    Ericanicole3 Ericanicole3 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Failed Attempt

    I had always said 'god i wish i was dead' people didn't listen so on the 19th Sept 2010 I was in the house on my own, i locked up , took off my make-up and clothes and proceeded to take an overdose of tablets called Baclofen - anti-spasm medication and a mixture of paracetamol...
    valesgirl valesgirl 26-30 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    Just Here

    This is a bit long, just to warn you. But I wanted to share my story...don't know why yet, but um...I hope maybe I can inspire someone. It was just last year when things in my life started changing. I had just started being new friends with someone at school. She was really nice...
    megxx104 megxx104 16-17 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Everyone has their own problems

    but not one of my friends understand any of mine. My dad died from a 3 year battle of terminal cancer. A month later was my first attempt at suicide. pretty amateur actually i just tied a rope around my neck and hung it on the chair behind of me. obviously it failed completely...
    bateman1998 bateman1998 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    As I sit here and wonder

    why people commit suicide, I wonder why I Ever contemplated it. Maybe I should look at it from my own point of view. I’m pregnant for a guy I did not have consensual sex with and I am broke, stressed and afraid of telling my parents and anyone because they’ll be angry and...
    ckoi ckoi 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I am 44 years old, closer to 45.

    Been married to the same woman 25 years. We have been "separated" one night. Guess whose mostly to blame? I have three children. One , 23 who just graduated a 4 year university. One 20, who has been thru and took me and his momma thru the ringer for the last two years. He and...
    jesusworried jesusworried 41-45, M 1 Response May 19

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    The Day I Failed

    When I was a freshman in high school, I had tommy John surgery. I was a 14 year old girl who played boys baseball and had torn the ligament in my elbow completely through. I had surgery at the Cleveland Clinic. After surgery, they gave me two bottles of Percocet and also told me...
    dontletgoholdon dontletgoholdon 18-21, F Aug 11, 2013

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    I Can't Believe What I Did

    My mom and nanny had a fight and I stood up to her, I had never done that but I was so scared, my blood turned cold. I went to my father after, he was on his iPad ignoring everything, my little brother was looking down and he was nearly in tears. I started writing my letter. I...
    potentia123 potentia123 41-45, F Nov 6, 2013

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    ALL A-Z Attempts, A M S, This Is My Story.

    The first: Tried to hang myself....blacked out a little....nothing I couldn't come back from. The Second: Tried hanging my self again....n again....n again. (At this point in my life I thought I had to kill my self before some other people could. The worst part is now I found god...
    saltown saltown 18-21 Sep 12, 2013

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    It's Wednesday, 3 Dec.

    , and I'm set to go. My plan had been there waiting for years, and I'd finally gotten to a point I didn't care...or was just ready to move on. Whatever. I'd stashed $6,300 in the house, bought extra food for the dogs, written directions for some things I do to run the household...
    dogsname dogsname 51-55, M a week ago

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    I think the discussions about suicide are

    healthy. I think it is the lack of understanding that makes people critical. I think fear that it could happen to them that makes people afraid. I think we need to get the subject out of the dark and into the light. I think the darkness that surrounds people and keeps them from...
    whatsnextforme whatsnextforme 56-60, M 3 Responses Aug 13

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    Thin Line Between Life And Death

    I couldnt take the insomnia anymore. It was unbearable and I felt death would actually feel better once the initial shock was overcome. I would rather take the pain of dying than continue being dead while still breathing. So my son was playing outside in the living room, I loved...
    sheekchic sheekchic 31-35 3 Responses Mar 23, 2011

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    Gone

    I tried to commit sucide by drinking a bottle of painkillers (combination of aspirin and codeine). I skipped school that day, but took my things with me so that my parents will think I went there, went to the nearest pharmacy and bought the meds. I swallowed them in some backyard...
    keiri keiri 18-21 1 Response Oct 15, 2013

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    Surviving The Inevitable Death

    There they were. The bottle was so tempting. It sat there and almost called to me. It had been something I thought about for a long time. So many things added up so fast, that now, there I was, staring at this bottle that could end it all for me. I felt as if my life was useless...
    CatLover2823 CatLover2823 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    The First Person I Told

    I tried killing myself a month ago. The pain when I woke up was horrible and it took awhile to recover. The reason I did it was one person, a toxic person in my life who I love and cannot live without. When I finally told him what I did he stopped speaking to me. Now I want to...
    ChloeLeslie ChloeLeslie 26-30 Oct 30, 2013

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    Freshman Year, Statutory Rape And Suicide At 14.

    This happened 5 years ago but i've never really told the whole story and wanted to get it off my chest. Its very long so i'm sorry I just wanted anyone who reads this to know the whole story......When I was 13 MSN messenger was my life. I talked to alot of older guys and...
    nicole5291 nicole5291 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11, 2010

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    I think I have forgot ,

    how to be happy, I have lost interest in studies , have no job, no relations , low self esteem, bad physic. Now I just dont see the point, the depression doesnt go away completely no matter how I try again and again.May be you will think I am writing to get sympathy, may be I am...
    rockfordseagull rockfordseagull 22-25, M Jul 2

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    Sometimes, All Is Not Lost.

    I am writing this for two reasons: first of all, beacause I am after all these years seeing a psychologist, who has suggested that it would be a good idea to write about my experiences, and secondly, in the hopes that someone would get maybe at least little hope from this. They...
    roamerfrom70s roamerfrom70s 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    Life Goes On- Long After The Thrill Of Living Is Gone

    when I was born my parents fought for a year until my brother was born. my father left to marry a women with 5 kids. my father adopted all 5 of them. my mother turned to breaking into homes, stealing, and drinking. this left my brother and I alone-always. I was 2, my brother was...
    pinknbutiful pinknbutiful 51-55, F Oct 20, 2013

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    Just Here

    This is a bit long, just to warn you. But I wanted to share my story...don't know why yet, but um...I hope maybe I can inspire someone. It was just last year when things in my life started changing. I had just started being new friends with someone at school. She was really nice...
    megxx104 megxx104 16-17 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Glowing Globe

    Well well, I was 19 about to turn 20, I was really lonely and scared and totally hopeless had gone to Therapy but that didn't help it made me think about my problems more and stressed me out. I was just really down and out had been for months and so I decided that it was time I...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2009

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    Too Terrified To Live

    Pain.It's all about avoiding the overwhelming pain and fear, is it not? Friday, 22nd June, 2012, I tried to end the fear and pain. It didn't work.That day, as I finished making preparations, I was impatient. I wanted it to be over, and I wanted all the lose ends tied up. I...
    mamanightsong mamanightsong 31-35 Aug 17, 2012

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    I Survived And Now I'm 'getting' Better

    I attempted suicide last week. I drank a bunch of pills and ended up throwing them up before they took effect. I ended up in the hospital for a whole day, then a psychiatric ward for 4days. I survived. Many people think that when a person ends up in a psychiatric ward that they...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 17, 2011

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    March 2011.

    I was 20. I had a job, a boyfriend, supportive parents, great siblings, wonderful friends, awesome co-workers. I was doing well in school. It was me that was the problem. I had turned on myself. It made me so angry that I couldn't be appreciative, connect with others. I decided...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    Surviving My Sucide Attempt

    Thursday the 12th of September night I took a bottle of temazepam a few was missing i took around 18 to 20 of them all because something so small that pushed me so bad that i said forget it what do i have to lose so i went to the bath room and took them i didn't feel regret...
    jamie22lee jamie22lee 22-25, F Sep 23, 2013

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    I have had many suicide attempts.

    Since the age of fourteen till now i have been constantly spiraling downward.But i do remember two attempts that are very important for me.I remember my first attempt at fourteen it was night time and my older sister had said she didnt want my father there.So my father said he...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response May 19

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    I Didn't Think Anyone Would Miss Me.

    When I was twelve,I attempted to commit suicide for the first time. I don't know if the person reading this finds me dumb or cowardly,and frankly,all I can say is you musn't understand unless you've been there. It was over something I thought was worth dying over... A boy. I...
    MissTragedy MissTragedy 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    I Stop Because Of My Daughters

    I was going to hang my self one night in February. My wonderful daughters wanted to stay up late and by the time they went to sleep I didn't have the heart to do it. I suffer now because since I sought help my wife found out and took it personally. She's told me she doesn't like...
    Knowhere Knowhere 41-45, M Sep 25, 2013

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    Wish I Hadn't

    3 yrs ago i decided that life wasn't worth living anymore. I blocked everything out and overdosed on anti depressants. Strangely about a minute or so after i drank them all down my ex boyfriend called me on the phone. I wanted to hear his voice again before anything else happened...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 9 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Overdose

    My second attempt - tipped a bottle of exedrin into my mouth like it was a nice cold glass of milk. Ended up eating 120 pills. I threw up for hours until my mom found me on the floor of the bathroom just crying. I had nothing left to throw up after 6 hours of intense vommiting...
    mjbuckman mjbuckman 18-21 Nov 18, 2012

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    Got Through It Several Times

    I am writing this after reading a story by johnnywillsave and it made me think of the times that I have attempted suicide. I lost my mate when I was 15 who shot himself and unfortunately, I was the last one to be with him and 10 minutes later it was over. It was not long before I...
    tsv01 tsv01 46-50, M 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    I Survived.

    I wasn't raised by my parents. My mother was a drug-addict, and my father was an alcoholic. My grandparents stepped up and took my sister and I in to raise. I noticed early on that my grandparents treated my sister better than me. They would always baby her, while I would get...
    moonwing moonwing 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    Memorial Day 2013

    I have had dark thoughts for a long time. I was lucky my suicide attempt, allowed me to finally get the help I needed. I am lucky I didn't die. I am in my mid-40's, suffer from major depression for the last 10 years, and a couple of things happened in my life that were the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    Hanged In The Park

    I had many previous attempts although they were minor and nobody really cared. My last attempt was the most serious attempt I had made by far. I suppose it was a "spur of the moment" act and I didn't think much before hand. Looking back, I realize I wasn't in the right state...
    hayleybluebear hayleybluebear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    Why Can't I Remember

    Like I know what they say. And I know I was there. But why have so many sad things come to mind, things I can't even block out anymore. It's sad. And I allowed them to do it all over again too. Thats the clincher.
    SallyFreebird SallyFreebird 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    Add Another Failure To The List.

    I have attempted suicide more than once.... Last time it was in January. It was a pathetic attempt really and my lover caught wind of it and called me... he told me to tell my father so I did and then I went to the hospital. When I awoke I felt even worse than I did before I...
    SilencedSongbird SilencedSongbird 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2013

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    8-12-12

    3 weeks ago I survived my second attempt (pills) the first was a medication mistake by my doctor which left me gravely depressed (I have Bipolar 2 Disorder)....Myfamily lived 3 hours away at the time and none of them came to the hospital. I was in the ICU for 3 days unconscious...
    Frankika81212 Frankika81212 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 27, 2012

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    I'm Only Alive Because Of The Dog

    I told my now ex-husband in the past that the only reason I'm still alive is because of the dog. A few days ago I took a bunch of pills around 11 PM. I took Ativan Seroquel and some pain medicine and then went to sleep with my daughter's photo next to me. I woke up around...
    ChloeLeslie ChloeLeslie 26-30 Sep 24, 2013

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    The Morning After A Failed Suicide

    Throughout the last year I've attempted suicide over 10x. In fact told my doctor a lie to get prescription Xanax to complete my wanting to die. At first I would go out drinking until I couldn't stand any more, then wash down a bottle of sleeping pills with a few beers and a shot...
    StaceFace428 StaceFace428 26-30, F Aug 4, 2013

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    Guilt and Pain

    The last time I attempted suicide was on the 27th December 2008. I took an overdose of sleeping tablets, parked my car at a lookout and waited. I made a crucial mistake...left my mobile on. I didn't answer it but the cops used the signal to track me down...and my life was saved...
    deleted deleted 26-30 20 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Attempt

    I survived because they , meaning doctors at an emergency room, brought me back not once but twice.I am usually glad I am still here , however I still have times when my self worth drops and self loathing takes over where I am not so glad.The medication I am currently taking...
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M 2 Responses Apr 18, 2011

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    Overdose

    It was a normal night a year and a half ago, I don't remember what caused it... I cut and cut, I remember standing up and from my thighs to the floor my blood dripped. I called my friend depressed and he cut me off and told me to pray for the night.... well, I ended up praying...
    OneMoreDay8248 OneMoreDay8248 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2013

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    Brian Good's Failed Suicide Attempt Story

    In 2003, during a four week period, I lost my job, van and apartment, I spent four days in a county jail for not being able to pay child support. The Norfolk County Jail was filled to capacity; so I was placed in the infirmary on a cold floor and a dark room with a thin matress...
    survivor3 survivor3 56-60, M Sep 7, 2013

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    One Month; Still Taste Cosmic Ocean....

    One month ago today I was off and running. The thought-to be or not to be had grown into a loud voice, over the course of 33 years. Having known 22 people who took their own lives gave me a sense of calm- I wanted to dispel the myth that "suicide is selfish", and also put an end...
    garciazimmerman garciazimmerman 46-50, M Aug 25, 2013

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    My Story

          I tried to end my life when i was 15.  Took a whole bottle of tylenol and any other pill that i could find.   It wasn't effective and i spent the last month of my freshman year in the hospital trying to recover...  I never told the drs...
    worthmorethanyoutreatedme worthmorethanyoutreatedme 31-35, F 10 Responses Sep 5, 2008